#ik theyre a good alternative to people with kids or something but like get a salt lamp

[chaoswooper]

Random thing that sets me off

Give me fire or give me death.

[fairycosmos]

i had four of my closest friends all in the first three months of 2017 completely drop me w no explanation. i spent the most of my last semester alone, always eating by myself and only really going to class and crying. it got better in summer but ive been back at school for a few days and i can already feel the sadness again esp bc everyone has people theyre excited to see again and its reminding me that i dont. anyway seeing u give advice is v comforting knowing that people are still v nice :)

:(((( what the fuck, i’m so so sorry??? that’s terrible,,,, you deserve so much more than friends that will just drop you like that for no fucking reason. i’m actually pissed off on your behalf. i’m really truly sorry you had to deal with that, holy fuck. being alone isn’t easy, and it can be painful at times, but it’s also something that we have to learn how to deal with. the only person you truly have is yourself, so there’s nothing wrong with just spending time on your own, you know? that being said, i understand that it must’ve been super painful to lose four friends that quickly and school can become a really shitty place when you have nobody. look, i don’t believe in fate or anything but when it comes to friendships/relationships, i believe that things happen the way they’re supposed to happen most of the time. if those people don’t appreciate you for all of the wonderful things that you are, then fuck them dude. you don’t need them, and there are so many people out there that will treat you with all of the love and respect that you deserve. 

try to remember that school is like a bubble. it’s almost like a fucking alternate reality, or something. the kids can be shitty and they can get in your head, they can twist your perception of life and everything into something negative even when it’s not. don’t let them change your opinion of you. don’t let what they think of you matter more than what you think of you. because seriously, once you leave you’re going to meet so many new and interesting people, golden people that will show you what true friendship is. in five years you’ll look back and it’ll all feel like some distant dream, it won’t even feel vaguely real. it’s a very very small chunk of your life, you know? like,,,,, you’re going to be okay even if it doesn’t feel that way right now. you really are.

this year might not turn out to be as bad as you think it’s going to be, you know? i understand that it’s hard to make new friends in school because everybody already has their group of people, but keep an open mind and try to be chill and friendly towards people (unless they give you a reason not to be). maybe join a group, whether it’s in school or out of school. like if you have any hobbies or interests, see if there’s anything in your town like a class or something and join up. having common ground with people is one of the best ways to make friends. and yeah, maybe that’s the last thing you want to do right now bc you’re so down, but isolating yourself even further isn’t going to achieve anything. you deserve so much more than that. you really do and i hope you know that what’s happened isn’t a reflection of you, it’s a reflection of those so called ‘friends’ you had. it says more about them than it says about you.

i hope you feel better soon and please just keep taking it one day at a time!! you’ve totally got this, i know you have. if you think it’d help, it might also be a good idea to talk to a counselor at school about what’s going on? ik you’re probably rolling your eyes n stuff but it’s actually not bad and they can truly help. just give it a try if things get really bad and see what it’s like. there’s so many options and so many avenues that offer help and support, i just hope you know that. even if you feel alone, you’re not. you’re just going through a difficult time right now. but it’s temporary. it’s going to pass, even if that’s hard to believe right now. also thank u sm i’m glad i was able to lift ur spirits a little, there are good people everywhere, don’t let four assholes change the way you see everything. they’re definitely not important enough to do that. please message me btw if you need someone to talk to or if you need a friend ! i mean it,,, i’d love to chat and i can really relate to what you’re dealing with and it’d be cool to be friends :)