#ik my bf did not appreciate that being the first thing he woke up to today lol.

[bog-witch-blair]

Personal storytime under break cuz this comic specifically REALLY spoke to me about my past and current troubles.

Back in like 2012 I think, I don't really remember, I fell off Pikes Peak and completely ruined my left leg. It was so bad I lost the ability to even walk. In 2019 I had surgery to get it "fixed" but something went wrong and it didn't heal right and then I fell again in 2023 and fucked my leg up even more and now that it's winter and snowy out I'm REALLY scared I'm gunna fall again and mess it up even more.

Anyway, I started using a cane in mid 2023 as per a suggestion by a nurse and was almost instantly plagued with those exact same thoughts. Like eerily similar. "They'll think I'm lazy. That I'm only using it cuz I'm fat." Like even the "I'm only 27" thought is the same. It's like you wiggled into my brain and extracted my anxieties about my disability.

And it is a disability. It frequently prevents me from completing my daily tasks and makes the simple act of just walking around to do chores extremely painful with every step.

But I ignored those thoughts and used my cane around the house and even at work. It was a chore cuzy work had required both hands and I frequently felt everyone silently judging me for it (on top of being trans in a red state) so I was a nervous mess. But the real nail in the coffin was back in January 2024 when I went to visit Mother (iykyk) in an attempt to make peace. She ENDLESSLY mocked me for it. Solidifying all my anxieties about it. I stopped using my cane and try not to use it anymore. My leg has gotten even worse now.

I want to use it again. I need to use it again. But I'm scared and my anxiety won't shut up. But this comic helped quell it. To know that someone else is having the EXACT same thoughts as me but still doing it regardless. Ik it sounds real dumb but it's given me the strength to try and use my cane more and more.

So thanks for making this. It's kinda just something I've needed to hear(read, whatever you get my point) lately.

If you are worried about what others would think of you using some sort of aid to help with physical pain, don't be like me, don't wait! Use that walking stick, that crutch, that chair, they are here to make life easier, don't make things harder for yourself out of fear or pride!

,Bonus non gif version!