#iirc this was in a letter to his brother which does make me laugh a bit because i too would be this dramatic if my sister didnt reply to me

[hiemaldesirae]

this excerpt from a letter by tchaikosky makes me SO sick because this is so radiostatic coded. imagine vox writing letters to alastor over and over when he first disappears thinking that alastor is just ignoring him because of the negative feelings after their fight not knowing that alastor is gone until weeks after his initial disappearance. imagine vox pleading and pleading for any sign of acknowledgement, anything that might have meant that he was something to alastor, only to never recieve a reply because alastor physically couldnt tell him. imagine all the piles of unrecieved and unsent letters in voxs room. imagine vox dying and alastor finding all the letters after hes gone knowing that he'll never be able to repair their relationship. imagine [i am shot down by a firing squad]