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rohirric-hunter · 3 months ago

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Honestly this job does bring out the worst in me. IDK if it's a problem with the job specifically, although the amount of time they waste with the work standard that's supposed to make sure we're not wasting time is kind of infuriating. But mostly it's just the fact that it requires a sort of thought pattern and active thinking that does not come easy to me. Which makes it so that I don't have the mental bandwidth to have thoughts like, "Is this a proportionate response/kind thing to say/activity that I will not regret having spent time on/argument worth having?" I remember when I worked security I was way more capable of managing that kind of thought, and it's extremely difficult now. This isn't an excuse, obviously I'm responsible for my own actions, but I feel like at this point the responsibility is to get myself into a job that doesn't sabotage me like that. So IDK, maybe all this drama at work pushing me to find a new job is for the best.

#i need to finish my taxes before i start applying for things tho #idk i mean its not like there werent warning signs about this job early on #the biggest one being that its a ''''fun'''' workplace #that almost always means theres office drama either already happening or waiting to happen #there is some genuine fun to be had but. well obvious issues with company mandated fun #oh yeah also on my first day the lady doing orientation told us about how they fired some woman because she had a seizure #and going to the hospital (in the abulance THEY called) took longer than half an hour #and they fire anyone who misses more than half an hour of orientation #which iiiiiiiiis illegal in this state #so that was also a massive red flag but the job market was scarce at the time and i hadnt been employed in 6 months #so i should have backed out then but i was very desperate

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