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#3 I HATE...

The "Happy couples”...are the most disgusting thing in my burning jealousy eyes, because yes, I won't hide that I hate romantic couples out of jealousy, who wouldn't if all the people around you seem to have constant attention from an opponent when you are repelled like a fly?

Nobody is interested in me, maybe it's because I'm too ugly for a girl to even look at me, but I swear I've tried everything to make girls like me, I'm gentlemanly, kind and I try to be interesting to them, but all they do is make fun of me....

I just look at all the cute girls with black hair and those cute smiles I pass with their strong boyfriends and I can only feel lonely and empty. The only minimal encounter I've had with a girl in irl was with a classmate who just got my hopes up and used me, everyone is so...stupid.

And I include myself there, yes I'm a nerdy and skinny guy but I really try to get girls to like me and I never do, and I'm too horny to be able to stand not having the slightest physical contact with a girl, so I can only masturbate like a stupid guy.

It disgusts me to see how couples go through the streets hand in hand, eat in restaurants and buy things for each other, I know I'm not an Incel and even though sometimes I hate women and I don't hide it in that blog, I hate everyone, the name of the blog indicates it, don't be offended, although I don't mind if you consider me an Incel because in a way I am.

Every time I see them I ask myself why can't I have someone like that, WHY CAN'T I HAVE THAT?

Why can't I have someone who loves me and cares about me without caring about my looks or anything like that, people are extremely shallow and think of me as scum with nothing but to serve someone. I wouldn't mind serving someone like a girl or my girlfriend , if I had one, but I don't and I don't want to feel inferior to anyone.I can't go out in the street without observing boys and girls holding hands, it's cute, but I hate it, I hate it....

What else do I hate?

Ah yes!

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#2 I HATE...

To “Luz”... She's one of my female classmates, she's so irritating, she's this typical girl who thinks she's better than all the others and that all the men are dying for her.

She's a spoiled brat, I would really love to wring her fucking neck, and that she squirms while I do it.

She tends to constantly tease me about my looks, even though it's something everyone always does, she gets upset when I try for better grades than her but she never tries to get better grades than me, and then cries when she fails any subject. I wish she would fail all of them and stay for the year.

She is literally the worst person I have met this year, she managed to make the one girl I was getting close to walk out of my life completely, she thinks she is the most beautiful woman in the world criticizing another when she is literally obese.

I hate her with all my heart, SHIT WHY CAN'T YOU SHUT UP BITCH?

Not everyone is in love with you, you are never the victim, you are not smart you are a fool, Luz.

What else do I hate?

Ah yes!

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#1 I HATE...

To my mom...I think this is a completely common problem, but she's just everything that's wrong with a shitty mom, she can't stop criticizing everything I do? Yes mom, I'm putting effort into my studies, I promise. No mom, I don't want to leave my room to watch you do drugs and use people to me and then have you complain about me doing it.

She is so annoying, she always has to criticize what I wear to go out “IHE, that's so ugly, you have too many clothes, go and wear something else!” BUT I WANT TO WEAR THIS SHIT WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM MOTHER!!!?

She claims the fact that I never tell her anything, but the moment I do, she uses it completely against me, as if this is a game of who can ruin the other's life more.

Even though I win at the moment I was born....

You don't care! Why am I angry all the time? It's none of your business, how much I wish I was one of those moms who comes to see me at school, who cares about, where to go, who to go with, when I will arrive, I know that for some people who have those moms it's annoying, but oh man, you don't know how lucky you are to have a mom who at least cares about you in some way.

I still remember when I go in to pick up my report cards because my mom doesn't want to go to my school, when on holidays I have to eat alone, having girls make fun of me because I look like a dumb orphan. I know you're in bad shape mom, dad left and you don't have a good job, but I'm your son, I'm trying to help you with expenses and every time I try you yell at me that it's none of my business and to get the hell out of your life.

But don't you know I would love to do that because I know what I would ruin it completely.

I hate that you yell at me and hit me like I'm nothing more than just another person in the crowd that you can abuse without any consequences because in a way, I am, because I meant nothing more to her.

Stop trying to victimize yourself mom, you are not the victim all the time. Stop being so you mom!

What else do I hate?

Ah, yes!

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#5 I HATE...

To my father... I don't know about him now. I guess he's still a shitty person who likes to ruin people's lives, believing himself superior to others because of his social class, unfortunately I know that one way or another, he's my father, that doesn't mean I love him, not at all. But I have to learn to live with it. Because any man mom brings home is the same even though he will always be meaner. He always was and he wasn't afraid to hide it.

I haven't seen him since I was 4 years old, the worst 4 years of my life if anyone asks me, doesn't mean my life is better, but I can stand a lot more without my father around.

How to start talking about my father, how can you describe such a horrible and despicable person, a person who thought he was a god in his own twisted mind, as much as his son's?

As I mentioned I only lived with him for 4 years until he left me and my mother for a woman I used to know, sometimes that makes me think it was my fault he left us. I also don't know much about his relationship with my mother before he got married and although I tried to ask my mother about it she reacts in an aggressive way, and I don't blame her in that sense.

I remember wanting to rip my face off when I was little and when my mother would throw glass bottles in my face hoping that the last thing left in me of the man who abandoned her would disappear, maybe that's one of the reasons I hate my physical appearance so much, because I look like my father, I look like my father, I LOOK LIKE MY FATHER....

I am afraid of becoming what he is, a heartless abusive man who is not afraid to step on people, not because it is necessary if not because he likes to do it, he likes to see people suffer, he liked to see his blood suffer, the person who admired him the most, I know that no matter what I do, I will end up being like him, your behavior adapts to your surroundings, or so people always tell me, I am cursed, I will end up being like my father.

And when I do, I know that he will be able to look me in the eyes with satisfaction and smile because I create a monster as he was, and I will be, as his father was, as we all are.

What else do i hate?

Ah yes!

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INTRODUCTION AND EXPLANATIONS!

Hey, I'm the owner of this blog, you can call me IHE or just Ev, I'm a guy who has a hard life and I think this little blog to vent about his hard life, I will upload long texts where I tell how shitty is my existence and what I hate about it.

I'm weird, but I try not to look like a pervert or similar houses, I'm just hypersexual, and a nerdy loser, if I get to take confidence I'll probably give you my social networks like my Spacehey or my Twitter, I'm very clingy and I tend to get attached very fast with people.

Clearly I have mental problems ok? Yeah, I'm a TCC, fuck you if you don't like it. I'm not a Fanboy or anything similar though I promise. I'm sorry if in any blog I said something offensive or similar, I don't usually measure or think much about my words and what I write.

Without more to say, enjoy this blog, if you dare to read it....

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I'M BACK

Hi, yeah it's been more than “too much”, sorry for leaving without an explanation, too many things happened and I was in a mental institution, where in general they wouldn't let you have a phone or a computer, the only access I could have to the internet was to talk to my mother and it was extremely supervised, it was fucking hell and I got even more filled with hate.

And those bitches thought they helped me at all but oh no, not at all, I'm just even more pissed off and full of things to bitch about, plus tomorrow I'm going back to school and shit so I see I'll be posting a lot about that.

Anyway, sorry again for not posting or answering messages, if anyone wants to talk again feel free to post again, thanks for still keeping an eye on my blog :3

ATT: IHE/Ev

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Hi guys, sorry for being too inactive, I'm busy in a mental institution that's keeping me from killing myself, I'll do updates soon, in all this time I've been filled with more hate :3

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hi....

what kind of music do you like? are you a fan of industrial (front 242, ministry, my life with the thrill kill kult) and have you ever considered doing drugs?

Actually yes, I love industrial, especially Front 242, and I listen to all kinds of music really, probably anything I've heard at least once more. I love music.

I actually do drugs, I've only been clean for 1 month but I'm thinking of going back to it.....

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#4 I HATE...

To "school"... That's one of the reasons why I've been inactive this week, I hate going to school. It's not that I'm not smart, well, I don't consider myself smart, and it's hard for me to concentrate but at the end of the day I have very good grades, the point is everything that happens at school.

In spite of everything I hate teachers, every single one of them, I hate them and I will probably talk more in depth about them in future blogs, they are all so horrible and they think they have the right to do everything, of course they are older people and you have to respect them but they literally feel in authority over your life as if they were damn stupid politicians.

They have such a backwards ideology, and they say every fucking stupid thing a human can say and they literally believe that their subject matter is the most important thing in your life.

And let's not even talk about my classmates who I will also talk about in depth one by one, they think they are the most important person in the world and unfortunately I have to do everything they ask me to do because if I have one of those damn spoiled bitches against me I have all the stupid women in the classroom against me. And the men, they act like men, I have nothing more to say about that.

They are literally stupid and I'm not trying to generalize men but they literally act like assholes, although I do manage to empathize better with them.

People outside the course are so annoying always, they are recording you waiting for the moment for you to do something lame and upload you to the stupid instagram account, damn Ricardo I hate him. One way or another I can't do anything without someone judging me to extreme levels and nothing keeps them happy.

I don't eat something, I'm automatically poor for not buying myself something to eat, I buy myself something to eat,I'm a pig who swallows every chance he gets, really who understands them.

I can't do anything without everyone making fun of me because I'm the center of ridicule for those jerks, and then not content, they destroy my notebooks and beat me up all the time. I've had to redo my notebooks 5 times so far this year because they always get them wet, torn, hidden, thrown away and sold. They do everything they can to ruin my school stay as much as they can, and the teachers do nothing to stop it, clearly, I'M A PERSON TOO, OR AM I?

And since I'm a jerk who doesn't know anything about sports it's even worse, yes, I'm the jerk that nobody wants on their team when playing soccer or basketball, sometimes the girls let me be on their team, I appreciate it but at the same time I hate it, I only gained notice doing silly jobs, like cleaning the storage room or the playing field, and when I'm not doing that I'm sitting on the bleachers playing with my phone or listening to music like a jerk.

Sometimes I seriously think about doing something I might regret, I feel like none of them really deserve to live, no, nobody at that damn school deserves the life they have, full of luxuries and no worries, they're all just spoiled fuckers with no brains.

What else do I hate?

Ah yes!

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I know this blog was made for you to talk about what you hate, but i read your posts and now I'm curious. If you had a girlfriend and she was everything that you wanted, what would she act/look like?

Well I don't have a preference for looks, to me all girls are pretty in their own way. Although in the sentimental mode I would be understanding, hyperactive and maybe even very talkative, I like it when people talk more than me.

I would be kind to everyone and help them with my problems, I would like them to be detail oriented although I wouldn't mind if they are not, if they show interest and are kind to me that's enough :3

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Question, what does 'TCC' mean? /genq

Means: True Crime Community :3

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#6 I HATE

To "the lie..." Is the human need to lie really that great? Yes, totally, I am not a saint. I repeat, I hate lying anyway, it's the worst thing someone can do to another person.

Shit why does everyone have to lie? What is difficult in telling the stupid truth, even in the smallest life they lie, I hear lies every day, at least 7 times in a simple conversation of more than three minutes, it is so easy to lie, very easy to do it.

For some people like me it is not, lying tortures me, I can't lie without feeling guilty and crying, when it has been my turn to lie, I could never keep a lie for more than 3 hours.

I feel like my mouth is on fire, but for some people it's not. It is so easy to lie for them, they have no trace of regret or empathy for the person they are lying to. No, you don't lie out of fucking stupid neediness, while out of stupid liking, you lie because you like it, no one ever lies because they need to, no one needs to lie.

Everybody lies, but in my case. All my life women have lied to me. My mother, the girls in my class, all the women I've come across have lied to me. If you don't want to go out with me just tell me, don't make up stupid shit, damn it.

Mom, just tell me that you hate me, don't lie to me, boys lie to me too, don't take it the wrong way...

Is lying a primitive sense of the human being? Or is it just a vague excuse for people to hurt others?

What else do I hate?

Ah yes!

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Omg wait you’re accepting friend requests now, can I be your friend, Ev?

Yes I am very multifaceted, omg of course you can be my friend! :D