#iguessthisishappening

[evey369]

Love is complicated

So... Since no one I know knows of this Tumblr account I would like to put out my feelings here.

So, there is this guy who I dated my freshman and sophomore year of HS. Our relationship was really strong and really good. Then for some reason he broke up with me. I never got closure as of why. All I got was "maybe we will get back together someday". After the breakup it got messy... like we hated each other messy. Then after a while we realized we were being stupid and childish and became best friends again and got really close.

Flash forward to end of his senior year and end of my junior year. He went off to the Navy. And it was really hard to say goodbye over and over again because I didn't know when the next time I saw him would be. At his HS graduation I gave him a gift (I gave all my senior friends gifts) but what made it different was the way he acted. He wasn't crying before. He was hugging everyone else and was fine. Then he got my gift which was a mini photo book of us and our friends. He couldn't look through it because it would have made him cry. But he finally hugged me. He started to cry specifically on me. That's when everything kinda started.

He then goes off to boot camp. I'm the only friend that writes him out of our friend group. He got so excited in his letters when talking about his time there to me. Then the last letter... There were hearts drawn on it. I didn't think of it much then but flash forward to now.

He's at A-school for the Navy. Which means he can call and text again. We regain our good best friend relationship. He always tries to make me laugh when video chatting and teaches me stuff about the Navy and things he's doing while I tell him about my little life and how my senior year of HS is going.

I gush to everyone about him and tell them how well he is doing and how much I miss him. Then one day not that long ago my friend turns to me and says "Evey... Do you like him?" Then the realization hits hard.

I've started to have feelings again. I now notice that he probably likes me again too... It all makes sense. On video calls when he would make me laugh, when he talked to my dad and asked if he was scaring all the boys away, and just tonight we had a teary moment telling each other that we help each other get through our days. And at the end of the call how we had a mini "I miss you more" war...

Love is weird. Fate is weird. I only hope my instinct is right. He comes home after the 18th of this month. He won't tell me what day or when.

But honestly I don't care what happens. As long as I get to see him and have him physically with me again. That's all that matters.

(sorry for the long rant I had to get it out somewhere)