#ignore the fact that the first photo doesn't match the others

[morrisxn02]

EDWARD MORRISON attends the annual Ogden Homecoming Gala. September 2, 2023.

[hismourningflower]

「 scary dog privileges | kiss (don't tell!) event 」 blade & cyno x gn!reader | fluff, established relationships | event entry. ↳ ohhh zenith~ (@lovingluxury), i'm your secret admirer for this year's kiss (don't tell!) event !! you get my very first attempt at blade, i'm so sorry but i'm so glad i got to practise him !! happy valentines my lovely, i hope this year treats you how you deserve it !! ↳ shoutout to my oc chrysalis for being on my mind for the entirety of blade’s part

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BLADE calls falling for you "a mistake," one that he made quite boldly. nonetheless, he only ever grumbles this under his breath and never actually aloud - he can't bear to see that faint grimace of hurt on your face. no matter how many times he says he doesn't care, he quite clearly does.

it's a well known fact that's not into all of the lovey dovey romance stuff you rope him into with a wide smile on your face, tugging his calloused hands in the direction of another pretty scenic backdrop for a couple selfie or when you place matching items into his rough palms. behind closed doors, he finds the pads of his fingertips tracing over the photo or item with some 'annoying' sense of longing.

blade is scary to a lot of people. he knows he is, it's unmistakeable when people cower at the sight of him. their eyes shrink in fear, lips trembling when they can barely stutter out words in his presence. this is precisely why he loves to loom behind you, even when you're unaware of him being there - in his defence, he's quite quiet when he tries - because the mere sight of him scares people off. you want to scold him but you're thankful for this newfound privilege when you're stuck in uncomfortable situations, regardless you know that blade wouldn't bat an eyelid and would simply ignore you.

he undeniably has a soft spot for you - this "mistake" of his. the other stellaron hunters pick up on it fairly quick, smug looks on their faces as they share glances every time the two of you are together around them. blade wasn't sure you'd get along with the stellaron hunters at all, can you blame him? they're an organisation that isn't exactly in anyone's good books. yet you seem to bond well with kafka and silver wolf... what a shame for him. unfortunately, this means he's prone to hearing silver wolf and kafka taunt him about this little soft spot of his; "what's wrong bladie? you're going soft," kafka chides with a sly grin, only to hear a disapproving grunt from the tall man.

in private, blade's personality doesn't change all that much. he's still grumbly, his scary demeanour hanging over his head like a guillotine thanks to his mara but there's a slight shift in his behaviour. he likes to lay with you, not that he'd ever admit that (aeons forbid if he did, he'd never hear the end of it.) in fact, it's his favourite thing to do, especially after a stressful mission.

when things get tough and the mara hurts just a tad too much, blade will always find a comfort in laying his head gently on your chest or your lap, regardless of what you're doing just so that you run your hands through his dark hair. just so he can feel the tips of your fingers rub against his scalp, feel the way you braid little - or big - braids into his long hair. he stays silent as you comb through his black locks, brushing out every tangle so gently he barely feels it.

he may claim that getting too close to you was "a mistake" but by the aeons, he knows damn well that he's lying to himself.

CYNO didn't intend to fall for you. it had been a mere accident but he'd never let the words 'mistake' fall from his lips, celestia forbid he even uttered 'accident' either. tighnari unfortunately had heard him say 'blessing' a tad too many times, however.

the general mahamatra... plenty of people in sumeru are relatively scared of him. why wouldn't they be? he's obsessed with his work, heavily devoted to his job of chasing down criminals and enforcing justice. even if they don't fear him, people most certainly know cyno - whether it be his name, his looks, his accomplishments or merely his rank title. despite this scary demeanour everyone sees when he's working, cyno really isn't as scary as people make out him to be.

cyno is incredibly self aware of people's thoughts and words about him. he knows damn well that people find him scary - that's the whole point of his comedy act and awful jokes he throws out without a second thought, his facial expression still as stern as ever as if he doesn't even find his own jokes funny. he tries not to let it affect him, in fact he's adapted; he'll use it to protect you.

don't get him wrong, he's perfectly capable at protecting you without instilling fear into the people bothering you but combat is tedious and you've scolded him many times for attempting to use hermanubis on some poor soul who rubbed him the wrong way. what's more better than looming like a threat, red eyes piercing into their very soul until they take the hint? sometimes he doesn't even need to go that far - the sight of him sends people running, they're not particularly looking for trouble with the general mahamatra after all.

despite trying to figure out how people work so he can soften the aura around him when people get too tense in his presence, cyno doesn't completely understand the lovey dovey things you rope him into. he understands to an extent, picking up the things you love the most so that he can do when you least expect it; he understands that it means a lot to you and that's all he cares about. you.

and undeniably so, he's ten times less 'scary' in private. kaveh and tighnari can't help but taunt him when he's brushing his tanned thumb over your knuckles, pressing slightly chapped lips to your skin in delicate kisses - what do you mean that's the general mahamatra? they'll grin but secretly, they're happy that cyno has someone that brings this side of him out.

one of cyno's favourite things to do outside of catching criminals so that they may face their judgement for their crimes (other than tcg...) is cook for you. when i say cook, i mean actual meals and not the rations he eats while he's out in the scorching desert or deep in the apam woods on dirt paths that have been worn into the grass from centuries of people walking through. he loves it, the idea of being able to provide something to you that he knows you enjoy and honestly, he's not a bad cook. however, you regret introducing him to non-native sumeru recipes when he mutters "wanna hear a joke about pizza?" oh no. even if you say no, he'll be quick to add "nevermind, it's too cheesy."

you're quite literally the most important thing to him other than work and if he has to use means he's not fond of just to protect that loving comfort you shelter his cracked heart with, then so be it.

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[shinakazami1]

TSPUD: Symbolism of The Pink Room

@stelar-time asked in Twitter (I refuse to call it X) post about people's headcanons about the Pink Room and I thought I'd share this here, too

CW for some religious mentions

First, I'd like you to look at the dialogues in this part.

The fact that it's the fourth figurine is not a coincidence.

The Pink Room seems to serve as a symbol of nostalgia and of how memories can change with time. They tend to be rough and down the pipe you go, they do tend to lose details or get some added parts in, for your brain to make sense of them. That's why this room doesn't come at the first or last Figley and instead in the middle, as those are more often the parts we tend to forget.

What is interesting, though, is how Narrator questions it. Because a similar situation occurs somewhere else.

At the end of the Demo, Narrator starts to do a callbacks to the journey you had. However, at some point, he starts to mention and show parts you've never seen before. In contrast to the Pink Room though, there is not a single questioning involved. So, what's so special about that room?

You could say it's only a symbol of a nostalgia and fragility of memory. That he is recalling some moments he felt halky about and due to it, puts rose-tinted glasses which show off in a form of this room. Why hadn't he done the same thing in the Demo, though?

Memory overall seems to have a bigger role in TSPUD.

Narrator overall seems to have memory issues - he tends to remember some of the previous resets (skipping parts of the Freedom run after going through it nth time in a row) and completely forgets others.

That's why he has Memory Zone. He uses it as a photo album, not knowing it's as unreliable as his own callbacks.

But then, I did wonder... Why an apple? Why does this room show it and not anything else, any pink fruit?

And then, I looked at the architecture of the place and it reminded me of something.

Big window, a statue of some sort on a pedestal before it, pointed archs, to ribbed vaulting... It seems to match a typical church architecture. And then, it hit me.

The Apple of Eden. Fruit of the forbidden knowledge. Of somebody being there, someone watching, listening. Of him not having fun control over his creation might have been bit when we were jsut skipping around, only seeing part of his struggle in the Skip Button.

You might be then asking, why doesn't it have a bite mark then?

There are two possibilities I've considered:

1) it could shows Narrator's ignorance that he shows quite often. That could be true since he just tries to accept what had changed, trying to just say 'don't focus on it, it's a silly thing, let's move on'. He brings it up though since he already learnt from the Broom Closet that things untold seem to interest the Player more.

2) It's a memory within a memory. The apple before he bit in. It's the knowledge he beholds and shows us in a non direct way.

Just like the Bucket.

Nostalgia is supposed to give a good vibe but - it doesn't always succeed.

But this room can indirectly show Narrator's progress. The fact he knows more, the fact he can tell his memories get altered, the fact that - he changed.

In ways we misremember.

[vertigoed]

tinder || satoru gojo

PART 2 out

gojo: do you want to have sex?

you stare at your phone with a mixture of disappointment and disgust. this satoru gojo that you matched with was truly a wasted potential. he was your ideal type- tall, massive shoulders and muscly forearms with a pretty face and beautiful blue eyes. every photo on his profile looked like an editorial just by his aura that oozed from the screen.

seriously? not even a hello, how are you? you think to yourself and a sigh escaped your lips, wondering if you should delete him.

normally you would instantly unmatch the guys who asked such vulgar questions upfront. usually, you don't even bother replying, but this time, you found yourself replying to this 30 year old man.

a part of you enjoyed the shred of attention given by this stanger. even though you knew he probably sent the same message to every women he's matched with and fucks anything with a hole.

the man was atrociously stunning, the type to have you squealing on the bed when you realised he swiped back on you. the type to have, without a doubt, thousands of matches spamming his inbox with beautiful women all over the globe asking to meet up with him.

your heart beats fast as you press send.

you: no

you knew you were just playing hard to get, he was probably aware of that too. you wouldn't be surprised if he didn't answer. but within a couple minutes, you get a notification.

gojo: well that's unfortunate

gojo: i really wanted to be with you

your heart pounds faster. you were ashamed at the fact that you were blushing over a stranger asking you for sex. he didn't even have the common courtesy to ask what your interests are, let alone ask how your night is going. you were better than this, right?

you: it's unfortunate that you're such a pervert.

he begins typing back straight away.

gojo: do you want me to take you out on a date before or something?

your eyes roll at how cocky he sounded. this man obviously knew he was attractive and could get away with saying anything he wanted. you chew on your lip as you type your response.

you: obviously why would i sleep with someone i don't know?

gojo: you'll like me though

you decide you'll wait a bit before you reply, not wanting to give him too much validation. you go on his profile, raising an eyebrow at the vague description he had.

Satoru Gojo, 30

occupation: sensei

i like quick texters

perfect, he can wait two hours then, you think to yourself and placed your phone down. it was hard for you to ignore the buzz of your phone, instead you try to focus on the anime playing on the tv screen.

you found yourself checking the time every ten minutes or so, until you couldn't resist seeing what he said.

gojo: let me take you out then and we'll see if you let me fuck you

this time round, something else inside of you fluttered. you hold back the smile creeping on your face, fingers hovering over your phone as you thought of what to say.

you: i dont like to meet strangers without getting to know them first

you had a slight feeling he was going to give up by this point as he just seemed desperate for a quick fuck. even though the man was irresistibly hot, he could be a deranged serial killer so you had to play it safe.

gojo: wanna facetime then?

your eyes widen, your hands instantly reaching to your bed hair as you read his message. there was no way in hell you were going to facetime him. you gulp and toss your phone to the bed again, not knowing what you were going to say.

an hour passed and your phone buzzed again.

gojo: stop playing hard to get, it doesn't work on me

you smirked and typed your answer: it's working isn't it?

gojo: facetime me or you're a bitch

you: i guess i'm a bitch then

gojo: can i call you other names when i fuck you?

your mouth drops at his obnoxious message. you feel yourself tingle at the thought and that truly made you hate every fibre of your being.

normally, guys like satoru disgusted you. turned you off, made you want to gag. as your eyes were glued to the television, you were deep in thought, questioning your entire morals and self esteem. were you really going to let a random man objectify you, just because he was hot?

you look at his profile photo again and you don't even realise that foolish smile you had. i guess a face like that gets a free pass, you think to yourself.

you: we shall see

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PART 2 out

masterlist

[best-iwtv-scene]

ROUND 1C, MATCH 7

Descriptions/Propaganda under the cut:

Louis drinks from 'Rashid' (1x05)

1x05 begins with Daniel reading out Claudia's diary, which describes each of her victims and records their final words. He looks up, with a disturbed expression on his face, at Louis who is presumably across from him, but the camera doesn't pan to him for a moment. When it does, it shows Louis and Armand (as Rashid) sitting next to each other, Louis drinking from Armand, who is clearly enjoying the action. Armand then replies to Daniel's comments, his speech slurring slightly from the blood loss. He then attacks Daniel for what he is doing, "chronicling a suicide", but Daniel looks on, uncaring. Looking into Daniel's mind, Louis answers his questions unprompted, letting Daniel know how much 'Rashid' weighs and what he tastes like. To a first-time viewer, this scene is intriguing, making the audience question the importance of 'Rashid' and why he is so protective of Louis. Knowing it is Armand, the viewer can now see the resentment between the two men, engaging in a strange voyeuristic activity, but Armand still hating this game they're playing. "I care for him more than he cares for himself. And I wouldn't let you near my neck if you were..." "Sixty-two and a half kilograms." "What?" "One hundred and thirty-eight pounds for the metrically challenged. Daniel here was wondering how much you weigh, Rashid."

Propaganda:

No propaganda was submitted for this scene.

Walking by the Seine (2x03)

Louis and Armand take an evening walk by the Seine, Louis taking photos as they walk. Armand starts to question and unpick Louis's lie about his maker, 'Bruce', but keeps the conversation light. Louis also reiterates the fact that he doesn't want to join the coven, shutting down Armand's talk of the other members. As the conversation turns to flirting, Dreamstat appears on the other side of Armand, making fun of the pair, as Louis attempts to ignore him. Armand can sense Lestat's presence, but Louis makes him disappear with the click of a camera. Once Dreamstat disappears, the two vampires smile at each other, continuing their flirting. Louis is clearly enjoying his newfound openness of his sexuality, free of Lestat, but Armand is still worried, still thinking of the coven. Armand envies Louis's freedom, but also cannot fully understand this wish to be with humanity instead. The scene is scored by Daniel Hart's 'A Vein Winding Through The Heart Of Paris', a slow and romantic piece, increasing the romance of the scene. The audience must note, however, that this is from the perspective of Louis and Armand at the height of their act for Daniel, and so the romanticism may be exaggerated for this performance. "I'm out here finding myself." "Then what room is there left for me, if you have not found yourself?" "Hmm. Oh, there's room."

Propaganda:

No propaganda was submitted for this scene.

[vermutandherring]

I've always felt that there was something missing from the romance in The Sims 4, though I can't quite put my finger on what. The depth of the relationship? Passion? Variety of interactions? Now, 10 years later, when our characters have learned how to raise children and organize weddings, we can finally teach them the art of love. At least that's what you'd expect from a Lovestruck.

Meet Julianne - together with her we will discover a never-before-seen world of romance, the journey to which starts from the phone (let's ignore the fact that I chose to play in my historical save file). Game doesn't give us a separate option to create an account on the dating app. As with Social Bunny, it works by default. From the first minutes of playing for another household, several sims called my character: some claimed that they got this number from friends, others that they were impressed by the profile in Cupid's Corner (which I did not create) and wanted to get to know each other. Arguably, your large social circle and popularity will attract more potential love interests. Or it's just my imagination and your acquaintances will have no effect on the appearance of calls with offers to get to know each other.

You can take your own profile photo, but without corresponding skill it will take some time. Actually, I love how cute it looks.

However, the best way to succeed in anything is to take matters into your own hands. The game offers us 6 candidates every 12 hours, which you can immediately add to your contacts and go on a date. These are both homeless NPCs and sims you create. I did not check whether it is possible to meet profiles of characters with romantic relationships, but all the households I came across were single, which is obviously the main condition for Cupid's Corner.

I also can't tell if the game selects profiles according to a certain principle. Only 1-2 sims had the same traits as Julianne. The rest were matched by age and gender. All this gives the impression that the application for dating is made somewhat lazily. There is very little information about the characters - only 2 traits, age and living place. And this despite the fact that in CAS we can choose an incredible number of hobbies and traits that can attract our sims.

It was funny to see profiles of the sims' I made before. You can say Wesker is always in my saves ✨

Perhaps there is logic in this, if we take into account that sims themselves have to learn more about each other during dates. So, having chosen 3 candidates, I send Julianne on the first date. Here you have to be careful and send your sims exactly on a date from the EP. Now, in addition to the huge and chaotic menu of communication, you will have another type of dating, which does not overwrite the basic one, but exists separately (which, in my opinion, does not make any sense, since they are identical in essence). After looking through the buy catalog beforehand, I purchased a picnic tablecloth and a board game, hoping to try out some new interactions.

Oh, this iconic arrival on the lot where sims stand around, waving their fingers until they want to drink water or to do the push-ups. I don't think that you are obliged to gift something on the first date. However, here we are talking about a game with a somewhat hyperbolic reality. It would be very nice if your partner greeted you with flowers, candy or a funny gift. But… no. Do you remember the phrase about taking matters into your own hands?

Dating in Lovestruck is no different from basic dating, except that it is now organized as an event, for which you will receive a reward. To finish it successfully, you need to complete as many tasks as possible: talk, flirt, and do activities that you have previously chosen. Like always, everything on the date depends only on you. This is the first and not the last time when I want to remember previous Sims games. Unlike the fourth part, in Sims 2 you can't spend the perfect date relying only on your whims. You should pay attention to your partner's wishes by asking what they want or checking their wishes on the date panel. This way, you make sure that both characters have a good time interacting with each other. In the Sims 4, those moments when your love interest takes the initiative are rather annoying, because their actions may not count towards the dating success scale, wasting your time.

Let's return to Julianne. A bit of grilled cheese, light conversation and a board game were a good start to getting to know each other. The picnic tablecloth is officially my absolute favorite part of the DLC. You can do relatively many things together, and it looks a lot better than sitting in different corners of the room with plates in hand. For me personally, this is exactly what I was missing - to watch how sims adequately communicate with each other, without getting up from their seats to play on the computer. This date ended with gold, for which Julianne received a sweet photo with Vittorio.

Without wasting time, Julianne goes on a second date. It was a bit more boring as I sent sims to a bar to explore the new town. Ciudad Enamorada is a new world, which represents the countries of the Iberian basin and Latin America. It is difficult for me to clearly state my opinion about the city. On the one hand, it is very reminiscent of San Myshuno, but feels more empty and sham like in the case of Tomarang. I suspect that EA have been planning for a long time to move to more modern versions of DirectX and started making bigger worlds full of large, carefully decorated areas to create an open world feel. In the already mentioned Tomarang, you can view the whole neighborhood, while being on the same lot.

But this attempt to deceive the player does not save the situation. The streets look empty due to too little traffic of cars and characters. 10 characters in the cozy Willow Creek neighborhood add life to the town, while the same number of characters in the huge Ciudad Enamorada give the impression of a ghost city.

There's not a lot you can do in these areas, and it turns this beautiful city into another one empty box.

Although there are also pleasant moments. For example, in parks you can meet characters spending time together. Just don't look at them for too long, otherwise you will notice that they sit on the benches for whole days, poking their fingers at the clouds and at the starry sky.

Now your sims can stargaze on the benches and this animation is really sweet. I'd wish it were just a bit more diverse, maybe with kissing interaction (my man deff doesn't understand hints).

Julianne's date with Hosea went well. It was the usual conversations about interests and jokes over a glass of root beer and a little flirting. Since this is the first meeting, Julianne did not insist on extremely frank details, stopping at superficial facts about herself, because now you can not only ask your beloved ones about their likes, but also share your own. The developers tried to deepen the relationship by adding more psychological moments. It would seem that the preferences of sims should be based on this, which would influence their choice of a partner. But to be honest, I couldn't feel it. The information you learn about the characters constantly bombards you with an endless number of messages, reading which is very tiring. Even after reaching the maximum relationship, my sims never developed any specific preferences and could not tell each other anything new (or maybe I create too boring sims).

The second date quickly tired me out, as it was not much different from the first. I managed to finish it for silver, after which Julianne had a little rest. As a reward, she received a teddy bear. I expected that partners after successful dates would quickly want to see each other again. But the rare times they did call, they were asking for advice on relationships with other sims. This is another gap that the devs didn't try to fix or simply ignored its existence - the game does not take into account your current relationship and romantic level with other characters. I think this is an interesting option if you are playing for a polyamorous relationship. But for Julianne, I set the goal to find a partner and chose the exact settings for her in CAS, which the game ignored. Frustrated by this, I sent her on a third date.

It was awful. Julianne couldn't find approach to Omari, and each of their lines turned the date into a complete mess. Neither jokes nor attempts to find a common language helped. It ended up with bronze and little flower as a reward for wasted time. You can also end the date early, or ask to extend it if you don't have time to collect the reward (the additional time decreases with each attempt). Maybe things would have turned out better if Julianne had practiced her romance skill. This is another controversial point for me, with which I cannot decide.

Of course, we must learn to find an approach to each other, train patience, be able to accept our partners and talk about our problems and complaints to each other in order to solve them. But in Lovestruck, romance skill is geared towards unlocking additional interactions, such as kissing or sharing candy box. Do I really have to go on multiple dates and get into relationships with different partners to finally learn how to present sweets? I understand that this was done mostly in order to make the gameplay a little more difficult and exciting, to add some time before you get completely bored.

After all, this skill exists because there must be new skill in Expansion Pack. It's very reminiscent of a similar parenting skill in Parenthood, but some things look absurd. Skills from WW has more sense, but for obvious reason devs can't put something that spicy into the game. Eventually, I got tired of developing a talent for romancing other sims and had to use a cheat code.

Julianne ended up with Hosea. Not because he called after a date or wanted to see her. But because I accidentally bumped into him while was hanging around in the park doing quest (this is really tiny quest you can find in the park and finish it within 10 minutes, 5 of which is loading screens). As we know, nothing makes you closer and helps to grow connection like fishing. But this I would do without paying 40$ (or 999 UAH, for God's sake).

I got tired of Julianne's love story. I tried pushing their progression with Hosea to see what else the game can propose. Not that much. So I switched on other married couple.

I adore new furniture. It embody well the atmosphere of romance and erotic mood, which can be supplemented with wallpaper with interesting animal patterns (I missed zebra and leopard prints since Sims 2). It looks like something you expect to meet in the 'certain places for adults' and I like that devs went a bit further than just a bunch of cute stuff. The only thing that does not go well with the 'strip-clubs-velvet style' is art deco. Why don't make more club/bar furniture with booth seats, puffs and huge mirrors in soft cloth is beyond me. But now, if you want full art deco collection, you should get Hight School Years and Lovestruck altogether. I find it quite funny, not sure either in bad or good context.

As I already mentioned, picnic tablecloth is my absolute favorite from the whole EP. It also has the bear rug variation, which fits just perfect for your romantic evenings by the fireplace. I'm sure Victor and Lily will agree with this.

Same interactions are available for both the rug and the cloth because these are literally the same object.

But what if I tell you that it already was in The Sims, 20 years ago?

Gif made from this video. All credits to the original creator.

I don't like to think about it as an "easter egg". Almost every DLC for The Sims 4 is repeating of the same content and functions from the previous games, but with less functionality. And EA charges extra money for it over and over again. Now let's just wait till they figure out how to implement the biggest easter egg of The Sims series ever - cars.

You can make your sims sitting with drinks like in The Sims 1, but of course it has different vibe.

Time to talk about the "hottest" part of this add-on - the seductive dance. To do this, you will have to develop a little not only relationships, but also romantic skill. Dressing up in erotic outfits is optional and not a requirement. That's where all the fun ends. Your partner will begin to move to the rhythm of the dance, which lasts several minutes and during which nothing happens but monotonous movements. Again, this can be described with the words "cute" and "funny", which fits perfectly with the whole family friendly concept of the game. To be honest, I am not categorically against this, because the step towards real erotic and sexuality makes The Sims 4 hover over the abyss of what is appropriate for its age limit.

This review is already too long, but I would like to add a little more about the interactions. I counted a dozen new romantic interactions with animations. For some of them, you will have to increase your romantic skills. Other parts (such as questions or flirting) use the same animations as in the base game. The menu of relationships has become even more chaotic, the description of preferences is even more complicated and unclear. If you want to make the gameplay more varied, you will have to spend a lot of time reading the explanations and noting these details in your head. And even then, I'm not sure if it will make your game more diverse.

As It's been told many times before, Lovestruck EP makes the romance too complicated. Obviously, the developers tried to add depth to the relationship that was so lacking, but in the end they went in wrong direction. Maybe I should play more to understand new features better. But I just don't have the desire for it. The gameplay became so full of text that I started to turn a blind eye to it. I have no doubt that the new features will give someone more variation to play and build their stories. But for me this DLC doesn't cost neither full nor discount price at all.

I love suits and Lily in butler's uniform wins my heart 🖤 Pose is CC.

There are also some features I didn't mention (like therapy for couples which broke my relationship) so there's a bit more to discover. You are free to argue with me of course. Sometimes I think I'm too biased about the game.

[coolmanjohnny]

SAW: (unrated) rant

Okay. I just watched the unrated version of Saw (2004) in theaters. So for some reason, they alter the ending for the unrated version of Saw. I have no idea why they chose to do this. I didn't see much discussion going over the details so I thought I'd go over it and why I think its inferior to the original cut. (Forgive me if I seem nitpick-y, I just love the original film so much haha. Totally fine if you like the unrated ver., I'm just sharing my thoughts here.)

To start, the unrated is advertised as a version with more gore/blood, which it does fine on that part. There are a few extra seconds of shots, for instance, the scene where Amanda is sifting through organs, some of the crime scene photos, and the wire trap maze is slightly longer. Here is a good article that goes over the Director's Cut with more details if you are interested. (I believe the Director's Cut is the same, if not very similar, to the unrated version? Feel free to correct me if I'm wrong.) Also, I think the colors are also less blue? I can't confirm this though. I believe there may be a few other details changed as well, but they're not super relevant. Feel free to share any ones I'm missing just for fun though.

These extra shots are fine, thumbs up emoji. My problem starts and ends with the final moments of Saw (unrated). This is Tumblr. You all know the ending to Saw and are probably obsessed with it. It's incredibly impactful and angsty. Its one of my favorite ending sequences of all time. I still think about Adam being left to die alone often. RIP.

Now, lets go over what's changed in Saw (unrated)'s ending:

Some of the final lines are cut out. (Why???)

For some reason, they cut the line where Adam asks, "Am I gonna be okay?" and Larry turns back and says, "I wouldn't lie to you." Why would they do this? I don't know. I can only speculate. Maybe they thought that it contradicted with Lawrence's character, since he is in fact a liar/adulterer? Maybe they thought it was too "hopeful"? Homophobia? (joke)

I think that it's really a shame, because it makes Larry much more likable imo. This one moment is representative of his character development in the film. There are a lot of complex emotions tied with that one line. For once, Lawrence isn't lying to Adam. He truly does want to help. At the same time, you can tell that he feels uncertain. He doesn't know if he actually will be able to make it back in time (if even at all).

Notice how he responds to Adam's question in a roundabout way. He doesn't know if Adam will be okay.

In a way, Jigsaw's trap did work. Lawrence learned empathy. LMAO. It is also makes Adam so much more tragic, any last glimmers of hope he had left get ripped away as soon as he realizes that Jigsaw isn't who he thought it was. They are both fucked. (Ignore that Saw 3D exists for a second here, lol. I definitely think that the original implication here was that Larry is screwed. Either Kramer gets to him, or he bleeds out.)

Here is the original scene for reference:

2. The end credits are changed.

Saw ends with Adam's haunting screams bleeding into the end credits. There's about 20-30 seconds of silence/very subtle music. Then, it leads into the song "Bite The Hand that Bleeds" by Fear Factory. I just LOVE the angst.

Now, lets see what the unrated version is like. (I had to really dig to find this lol.) Obviously, there is no longer licensed music. It instead plays the "Saw theme". (I believe Hello Zepp/Overture is the official name of the song?)

It's...fine. (Once again, forgive me for nitpicking. I'm starting to think that I may be overreacting a bit, lol.)

I sort of understand why they would change the licensed music. It makes the first film feel more "connected" with the sequels; now they all have matching theme songs. (Another idea is that they simply didn't get the rights back to the original song for the re-release. I'd have to do more research on this.) However, it still makes me sad, lol. I just love how edgy and aggressively 2000s the original end credits feel. It matches the film's tone so well imo. The filmography of Saw reminds me a lot of early 2000s nu-metal music videos (unique colors, over-edited to hell, etc.).

I want to really emphasize the importance of film preservation in this post. Thankfully, the original theatrical cut of Saw is pretty easily accessible. (However, this isn't the case for all films. Star Wars is probably the most famous example.) I am just a little saddened that some first-time viewers will end up watching this version of the film without being aware of these changes. I love Saw so much you guys

[nnightskiess]

🌼 dating cara ward... part two

contains spoilers (book&series)

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⋆*·ﾟ You once made Cara a friendship bracelet with your name on it, back when you were just friends, but she hasn't taken it off ever since.

⋆*·ﾟ You go to all of her tennis matches. At first, it ruined her concentration and filled her with nerves but as time went on and your relationship became more serious, she needed you there as her very own good luck charm or she just knew it would be a shit match.

⋆*·ﾟ Afterwards, you always eat a cheat meal together as a reward. As you sit on her bedroom floor, tightly pressed together, eyes fixated on the newest episode of Love Island and both with a plate of chip butties in hand, she always falls in love with you a little more.

⋆*·ﾟ Her father gave her and Naomi two bunnies to care for after their mother passed. While Naomi took care of them less and less as time went on, Cara, even to this day, still passionately looks after them. With the help of Connor, she named them Dottie, (because it had a couple of different coloured spots) and Button (because of its cute nose). She always beams when she sees you with them. Definitely has photos of you sitting in the grass in her backyard during a picnic with her, as the bunnies curiously examine the leftover strawberry you're offering them.

⋆*·ﾟ Joining sleepovers with her friends in Connor's backyard. Pop-up tents, watching movies on a laptop, pizza, games and later snuggling up to Cara while falling asleep = prime quality time.

⋆*·ﾟ Naomi has you on speed dial in case Cara ever comes home looking sullen or whenever she goes quiet. As soon as you walk into the house and Cara sees you, she's beaming again. Naomi likes to tease you're her sister's serotonin source, but she loves how happy you make Cara.

⋆*·ﾟ Speaking of a sad Cara... where she would first only be having off days as often as any other person, she does turn more quiet after her father's secret is revealed. Despite having you and her friends in her corner, she still cannot ignore the people who stare at her whenever she walks by. She'll forever be associated with the Andie and Sal case, as the daughter of a killer. But the fact that her own father harboured such a secret and was capable of all he did, has messed a little with her head. It's a topic you tiptoed around for a little while. Also because you didn't need to ask how she felt, you could feel. But Cara knows you're her person and that she can open up when she's ready.

⋆*·ﾟ After her mother passed she tried to be as strong as she could when she saw how badly Naomi was struggling with it. Only Pip ever saw the tears that fell, but she counts herself the luckiest to have you in her corner now too. She often tells you stories about her mother when it's just the two of you and a ghost of a smile always appears on her face as she recounts the memories.

⋆*·ﾟ When she isn't locking you into her embrace to watch a show on her bed, she's definitely pulling you along to any adventure she can. Indoor rock climbing? She's already booked the place. Going for an impromptu dip in the lake? She's packing her stuff as we speak. Biking to the city to watch the newest film that has one of her celebrity crushes in it? She's grabbing her bike and ringing your door, telling you to hop on and hold tight.

⋆*·ﾟ No matter how much she likes her phone and her socials and taking plenty of pictures of the two of you to then post and flaunt on the internet, nothing can ever beat the time you spend together with your phones off. It's cute how serious she is when it comes to her phone usage when you're around. This also means she tries to come up with things to do that don't involve screen time. It helps you feel like you're really in your own little world when it's just the two of you on some adventure.

⋆*·ﾟ That's also how her friends know she's with you. If she doesn't pick up, she's either asleep, or spending time with you.

⋆*·ﾟ You have a few of her clothes that have ended up in your closet after sleepovers, but they're yours now and Cara wouldn't want it any other way. When you sleep in her oversized shirt? Or when you show up at school during a gloomy day all snugly wrapped up in her jumper? Girly's heart goes boom boom boom. She definitely takes something of yours too, but she's a little secretive about it and you probably won't find out until you're desperately searching for the clothing item and she's just looking at you with a secretive grin. Having something cosy of yours to wear whenever you can't be with her, always calms her down and grounds her.

⋆*·ﾟ She's SO smitten with you, and you can often catch her staring at you as if you put the stars in the sky for her. It's the most adorable look ever. Little glances through the rearview mirror when you're in the car with her friends... glancing over her shoulder to look at you in class... or just admiring you while you're talking about something you're passionate about. It's cute, and she definitely gets teased for it by Lauren.

⋆*·ﾟ No matter how adorable she can be, she also houses a ton of dirty jokes or comments she can whip out at any given moment. It often catches you off-guard, but it's exactly why she does it— to see you flustered.

⋆*·ﾟ Cara likes it when you paint each other's nails with some music softly playing in the background. And she can never help the giggles when you scold her for not being able to wait long enough for it to not smudge. She's used to chapped nail polish though, since she likes to play the guitar a lot. But perhaps that's also an excuse so that you can paint her nails again.

⋆*·ﾟ If you don't know how to play the guitar yet, she will definitely use that as an excuse to pull you onto her lap and help you strum the right rhythm and hit the right chords with her arms around you, guiding you.

⋆*·ﾟ Jumping on your bed and goofing off while blasting Chappell Roan or any other artist you're both in love with will always paint a smile on her face that will stay there for the rest of the day.

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this was in my drafts for way too long, but i figured it was long over due with this week's release of the series </3

[eviltothecore13]

Hey, do you think there is any truth in it when people claim that Wesker is attracted to Rebecca?

Because even today people are spreading that but I also read that it was confirmed as an easter egg and that the pic wasn't even developed in the first place?

But so many people take it as canon that he preyed on her.

Sometimes it feels like that people want him to be a sexual creep who is into teenage girls or a rapist.

I do not think there's any truth in it because at no point in any of the scenes with them interacting does he behave that way, in fact he barely seems to care about her existence. Chris and Jill are his priorities and she's a minor annoyance to be mostly ignored. Neither does Rebecca herself give any indication of having been abused by him. Honestly, Wesker doesn't really behave very sexually towards anyone for the most part onscreen, and you could find more evidence for him being into Chris than Rebecca.

The photo wasn't developed in the remake, isn't really that sexual (she plays basketball and it's a photo of her in the RPD team uniform after a game, in the original in particular the pose isn't sexual, the remake is a bit more fanservicey but even so it's hardly porn, she's posing for it as well so it clearly wasn't taken without her knowledge/consent), and in the original is labelled "recruit" in English/"the expected new member" in Japanese (suggesting that "recruit" is meant as a simple description, this is the recruit, rather than like...note to self, recruit her, she's hot).

In the original, it seems to be a photo given to Wesker in an official capacity, here's what the new member looks like. Probably everyone on the team got photographed, that's not an uncommon occurrence at sports matches, and this photo of her was given to him, would probably have ended up in her file. I doubt Wesker himself took the photo, and he definitely isn't reponsible for the RPD women's basketball uniforms being fairly revealing, and it's really not that sexy. The fact people made a big thing out of it is mostly an indicator of what an uncommon occurrence seeing a girl was in the lives of certain male gamers in the late 90s. Ultimately it's a silly Easter Egg.

In the remake, it's creepier, but not in a way that implicates Wesker. The photo revealing its location is labelled "Hiding Place", which does feel dodgy. But that "Hiding Place" photo shows Wesker's desk...exactly as it is in the game, knocked over pens and coffee cup and all. I don't think Wesker is the kind of person to leave his desk like that. His desk looks like that because it was searched by someone (probably from Umbrella) after the Mansion Incident--and the "Hiding Place" photo was clearly taken after the desk was searched, and therefore at a time when Wesker wasn't even in the city. Wesker did not take that photo. (The fact everything on the desk is in the EXACT same position as the photo also just shows the Hiding Place photo was taken when the desk was no longer being used--i.e. after the Mansion Incident.)

Now, the labels on the "Hiding Place" roll of film and the "Rising Rookie" roll of film (which is still just "the expected new member" in Japanese, by the way) are in the same handwriting. So if Wesker did not write the label on the Hiding Place photo, which he can't have done, he can't have written the label on the other one. (We've also seen a bit of Wesker's handwriting and this doesn't look like it.)

Somehow I doubt that Wesker acquired the roll of film, told someone else "this is a photo of Rebecca, label it Rising Rookie for me", that person did it, found out where he put it, and then months later after Wesker was presumed dead (leaving the still undeveloped roll of film in the drawer), they took a photo of Wesker's desk, took another unrelated photo showing the location of some fuel/ammo, labelled the resulting roll of film "Hiding Place", and left it on a table in the workroom in the sewers. Why would someone do that? If they were trying to expose a presumed dead man being a creep by revealing where he'd hid a roll of film, there are surely better ways to do it. It's a very unlikely sequence of events--not least because I can't imagine Wesker asking someone else to label his creepy photos for him. (If he was going to lengths to disguise it by not having his writing on there, you'd think he wouldn't put it in his own desk, especially after telling someone about it.)

Surely it's far more likely that: someone who isn't Wesker took (or got the photographer to give them) the photo of Rebecca, labelled it "Rising Rookie", maybe kept it in his own desk for a while, and then at some point after the Mansion Incident hid it in Wesker's desk (perhaps to avoid suspicion, perhaps to deflect that suspicion onto Wesker), took a photo of the location so he'd remember where he put it, took another photo of where he'd hidden some ammo/fuel, labelled the roll of film "Hiding Place", and left it in the workroom. It makes far more sense for all three photos to belong to whoever wrote the labels on both rolls of films, after all, and we know that wasn't Wesker.

(Whose handwriting is it? It doesn't look like Irons's, but we've only seen his near-illegible signature, maybe he writes notes to himself in print--you can't see what the handwriting in that notebook of his looks like afaik? Whereas Wesker's writing in his signature is very clear and legible so he'd be unlikely to switch to print to write notes to himself--and there's not much value in disguising your writing if you're going to put the roll of film in your own desk. Speaking of which, if he hid a roll of film in his own desk, surely he wouldn't need the Hiding Place photo to remind him where he put it? That makes much more sense as a photo taken by someone who just hid that roll of film in SOMEONE ELSE'S desk. Maybe it's some random creepy cop who's high-ranking and in on the corruption enough to have access to the secret room. Maybe it's Irons and he writes notes to himself in print. Either way, Rebecca is lucky she wasn't at the RPD for long.)

Wesker Mode in RE0 is also non-canon and gives Wesker eye beam powers that he didn't actually have (and makes him say all Billy's lines! it's a silly joke mode that shouldn't be used as a serious source for anything). I don't think, given her relative combat inexperience and his general onscreen lack of interest in her, Wesker would actually be that interested in brainwashing Rebecca the way he brainwashed Jill, and I think even if he found her attractive he'd be too practical to give her an outfit with big gaps in the supposedly bulletproof material to show off skin in combat anyway. The idea that "Wesker Mode proves P30 was originally developed to use on Rebecca, not Jill" is definitely untrue because we have canon sources saying that P30 was developed by Tricell, several years after the Mansion Incident, and was originally meant to be sold to guerrilla fighters. STARS Wesker was absolutely not planning to mind-control Rebecca with P30 because P30 didn't exist yet.

A while ago there were a few jokes about the idea of Wesker being into Rebecca on a Capcom promotional site. As far as I can tell it was written by some random Capcom USA marketing person who was not involved in the writing or development of the games and had no behind the scenes info on the writers' intentions. It was written in a joky tone and wasn't meant to be a canon source. (Also, the site had more Chrisker jokes than jokes about Wesker and Rebecca. A lot of the people who insist it's wrong to like Wesker because "he's a rapist" also insist he's straight and would be homophobic...) But people seem to have taken that as "it's official"...that would be like claiming that every alternate costume is canon and so is Tofu. They were also pretty nonsensical, e.g. reacting to his "she's just a rookie, a member of STARS" line like "ooh he recognises her so he must have a thing for her" as if he wouldn't be expected to recognise the members of his own team (it's not like there's that many of them!) so there must be some sinister reason for him to recognise her??

[autisticempathydaemon]

hello everynyan :3 /ref

4 the redacted match-ups ! not sure if you're still doing these or not bc i'll be damned i'd give up after the first 3 🙌🙌🙌 power 2 ya ! (if you ARE, in fact, not doing these anymore pls ignore this. this never happened. kay.)

What song are you fixated on at the moment? What lyric or verse, and why?

this was the hardest question bc i LOVEEMUSIC so bad i can never really pick ONE fav bc it changes every 2 seconds but !!! gun to my head as of rn i'd say -- "but not kiss" - faye webster

'i want to see you in my dreams,

but then forget.

we're meant to be,

but not yet.

you're all that i have,

but can't get.'

i chose this song primarily because of the aesthetics & instrumental,, + the feels - i love how the piano carries and portrays every feeling (dread? maybe?) alongside the vocalist ugh sick to my stomach /pos

as for the verses i've chosen i just. really like the way she sings them HA i guess depending on my current mood i might relate to the lyrics for .5 seconds due to a past relationship of mine that had me fuckedd anyway.

Do you love gargantuan Youtube video essays, and if so, which is your favorite and why?

i WISH i could enjoy these as much as others but i have the attention spam of a fucking goldfish i need to be stimulated 24/7. i cannot stare at the same face and occasional photo/clip for over 10 mins.

i might watch more of em if they had like a satisfying slime video in the corner or smth. i find i only watch ones that have a topic/interest of mine that i am actively curious about/into????if that makes sense??

for instance, the only one that comes to mind rn is "in defense of chat noir" by toon ruins UGH ITS SO GOOD i used to be a huge fan of miraculous so that defffinitely takes part in why i rewatch it every few months.

What is your go-to way to fall asleep?

on my stomach. arms under pillows. one leg up. yo i bought these headphones made specifically for sleeping while listening to relaxing noises or smth & i kid you not i use them shits to listen to asmr/rp audios. sometimes it puts me to sleep other times i'm up all night tryna figure out what position the listener and 'character' are in. anyway!!!

If you had to change your name, what would it be, and why? (In tandem, if you have changed your name, why did you pick that one?)

first thing that comes 2 mindd for whatever reason is 'may' ?? possibly bc i really like my birth name already and 'may' is somewhat close to it already? also because i'd love writing it over and over in my handwriting . probably just an excuse to write the letter 'y' actually.

What is your favorite of Redacted’s audios, and why?

fav character changes ALLL THE TIMEE for no reason my fav is all of them rlly i just wanna love and be loved BUT when i reaaaally think about it ?? hudson. even though he's like. an easter egg. i cant have anything. wanna "D D D D DDDJJJ ANXIETY" into his pants. what. who said that. just got hacked wtff

What Redacted boy holds no appeal to you, and why? Like, not the one you hate but the one who you don’t get the hype for. (I won’t judge, I promise.)

a know a LOTT of ppl love david but i am sorry i just cannot. angel better than me idk how they do it. srry. my momma raised a bitch. i've never ever gotten to finishing any of his videos so maybe im the problem but from the get-go THIS BITCH IS SCARY BRO he's so damn intimidating . the fact that his voice is rlly deep doesn't help either :C ..& don't even get me started on early david.

Which Redacted boy are you platonically attracted to? Like- forget dating, which dude do you want to be your best friend?

this is such a good question rlly makin me think . hmm . OK I FEEL LIKE A BASIC BlTCH BC PPL HAVE BEEN SAYIN THIS ALREADY BUT . hux. we like this 🤞 . as for why?? i feel like i need and would . honestly really appreciate more,, warmth and positivity in my life - and i def get that sorta 'aura' from him. & i know damn well he'd give the best hugs. and we could go to the gym together. it'd be so fun. so precious.

Do you have a go-to thing you ramble about when you’re tired, and if so, what is it? (For example, my boyfriend knows I’m ready to sleep when I start talking about space.)

ok first of all #relationshipgoals that is so sweet awe :((

i wouldn't say i really 'ramble' per say -- i just talk. to myself. like a normal person. mhm. i struggle with sleep in general, so i'm usually up till like 5am. typically endlessly scrolling through my phone, or talking to the abyss about something personal that's been on my mind for a while. if it's really bad, i cry in my voice memos. if i just need to - refresh? get smth off my mind so i can sleep? i write songs.

...and then i record them on my $15 wireless headphones. onto that very same voice memos app.

Tell me your go-to gas station and drink combo.

if im being honest,, depends on my mood . but god could i fuck up some strawberry milk and mini oreos right about now. . mind you i've had strawberry milk like once but it changed my life u dont understand

Tell me about your favorite playlist at the moment.

i mean i don't listen to it 24/7 but man i outdid myself w this one. it's called "insanity" and every single song matches the vibe of . just straight up 'otherworldly' ?? if u catching what im throwin?? all songs r pretty 'out-there' - in terms of the vibes - at least i like to think so. for reference it has songs like "goth - sidewalks and skeletons" and "eternal youth - růde" . IDK i guess it makes me happy when songs from a playlist actually match up with one other

What’s your guilty pleasure media, and why?

i listen to this japanese-kawaii-metal-based group called BABYMETAL and i loveee them soso much. a few "metal enthusiasts" go out and call their work 'not real metal' , which is why i guess you can technically call their music a pleasure media -- as well as the fact that whenever i put on one of their songs mfs r like ... what is this - cause its three young japanese girls talking abt bubblegum with the the most insane guitar riff in the back. their newer stuff is incredible. womanhood at it's finest. give them a shot plspls /nf

ALL DONE !! ty 4 reading & have a lovely day/night, wherever you may be <3

Oh, this one is perfect and required, like, no thought. Vibes-wise? Given your energy? It’s just gotta be Guy.

Building on that, I love that you write songs and he writes screenplays(?). I think it’s so cute to pair writers together so that you might inspire one another and be each other's biggest fans. I also like Guy for you because he strikes me as one of those people who calls themselves “polyjamorous”, listening to basically anything and everything. He loves all your songs and all your playlists, vibing along to all of it even if there’s no words or words in another language. He doesn’t care: he’s with you, so he’s having a good time.

I would predict a fun, artistic life for the two of you like parallel-playing co-writing sessions with the two of you having individual headphones on, making funny faces at one another when you catch the other staring. You take turns showing each what you’ve created and hyping each other up, offering critique. When the writer's clock keeps y’all up till 3 AM, he’s got leftover pizza and any snacks you could possibly want. (He strikes me as the sort of guy who always has junk food caches.)

Song:

It was just two lovers/ Sittin' in the car, listening to Blonde/ Fallin' for each other/ Pink and orange skies, feelin' super childish/ No Donald Glover/ Missed call from my mother/ Like, "Where you at tonight?" Got no alibi/ I was all alone with the love of my life

Given your passion for music, I tried to pick a love song for y’all that was emotionally evocative to the mind and the ear. I chose this one because I thought the piano instrumental and how it evokes that mental imagery of sitting with someone during the golden hour might resonate with you. I also like it for y’all because this song got really popular on tiktok, and Guy would probably know it from there.

Runner-ups:

Obviously, we have to have Hudson as a runner-up. As a DJ, he’d be so loving and so supportive of your craft, hyping you up on air all the time and playing your work whenever he can. He’d also make you really bomb-ass playlists. A less obvious runner-up would be Anton, but I really like this one. You’d be more of an opposites attract sort of pair, but I think it’d be cute, and listening to music would remind Anton of you while he’s away~

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[fleetwood-cheese]

PT Outfit Breakdown: pt 3

This is part 3 of my series regarding my opinions on the phantom thieves' metaverse outfits, as prompted by a poll by @waywardsalt. As with the previous 2 parts, these are strictly my opinions on the designs (oriented towards what i'd change about them), I'd love some discussion but I will ignore you if you're an asshole.

Akechi - Ann - Sumire - Futaba - Yusuke - Akechi 2

Next up is Makoto, as she's my least favorite female thief's outfit by far and my second option for worst outfit.

It must be said, much of my intense dislike for this outfit comes from the fact that Makoto just has so much potential to work with, and instead we ended up with this corseted monstrosity. I find it just as objectifying and sexualized as Ann's outfit, and firmly believe its overlooked only because 1) ann's arc is more egregious about this and thus takes most of the heat 2) makoto is presented as being more comfortable with the outfit from the onset of it appearing 3) it lacks the skin showing that most people immediately associate with sexualization, even if its skin tight and designed to specifically frame her ass and crotch.

The outfit seems to mostly be trying to pull on biker aesthetics, to match her persona, but I feel it doesn't do this very well outside of the obvious spikes. They could have also pulled pretty easily from Johanna's medieval and papal symbolism and history, which would have also nicely tied into her royalty-inspired code name, but they don't do this at all. Another possible source of inspiration could have been the sukeban, or the japanese girl gangs that arose in the 1960s and 1970s in response to bancho gang's refusal to accept girls in their ranks. This would have been an excellent tie in and contrast to her role as student council president, and created a deliberate juxtaposition with the over-sexualized idea of the Japanese schoolgirl and the way Kaneshiro threatened her and other female student's with prostitution if they didn't meet their deadlines. This isn't implied in game at all (as far as I'm aware) and is mostly wishful thinking on my part.

The first thing I would incorporate into this design is a jacket. I CANNOT believe they tried to pass her off as a biker character and didn't give her a jacket or vest of some sort, one of the major hallmarks of biker gangs. Either way, this outfit is entirely skin tight and desperately needs something to spice it up, and a jacket provides extra dimension and flair; I would personally prefer a leather jacket with patches, as again, that's the iconic biker look. Whether or not the corset is kept or removed I'm largely ambivalent to, as its one of the only medieval/papal themed elements, although I do think it looks extremely tacky.

I would definitely add knee and elbow pads, as those also lean into the biker aesthetic as well as emphasizing that she is a fighter. And for the LOVE OF GOD, give this girl some combat boots!!! She needs some damn curb stompers up on this bitch, not whatever weird little dress shoes she's got here. I do approve of the spikes on the knees and shoulders, those are 10/10.

While the scarf is kind of mid in my opinion, if you wanted to incorporate the sukeban look, you could change it to the sailor suit scarf or neckerchief, as they're iconic and easily recognizable. On the other hand, there's also the opportunity to incorporate the papal stole if you get creative about it. I've also always liked the idea of incorporating spikes into her braid headband, which has both rebel connotations and would mimic a halo or crown.

If you really want to mix it up, I'd really like to add a skirt to her outfit. A long skirt would billow nicely with action, create a juxtaposition between femininity and Makoto kicking shadow ass, and again adds some dimension. You could go pleated to invoke the sailor uniform skirt, or have it simple and pinned up the way medieval women would have to farm, similar to the photo below.

Overall, most of my beef with this costume comes from its sheer lack of originality and the fact that it blends together because the elements are all too dark and similar in color to stand out. By incorporating some of the rich potential of the elements associated with her character, this costume would become much more interesting and much more bearable. It's just so meh in its current state. I rank this one as 8th place out of 10 and an overall rating of 3/10.

[tartrat]

I want to give some more context to the Knight Light Painting that I'm working on for school.

The theme that we have to work on is based around viewpoints and i have gone with how people interpret fictional characters and how they completely change them, as well as how an outsider would view these actions.

So how does Knight Light fall into this theme?

Well firstly, since his backstory is kind of vague (it really is just him triumphing over luminous in battle that lasted like a week at most and being stranded in the light realm) and his personality is just typical Knight and Angel stuff, I wanted to add on to it to give my own view on it.

My headcanon for him is that, he is just lost, tries his best to make others happy and always sacrifices himself for them, but doesn't know that they don't care, after losing his parents and sibling he feels a continuous need to try and protect the other Light skylanders (mainly Astroblast and Aurora), has strange relations with the rest of the trap masters. I feel like i should make a whole post relating to these headcanons but the basic takeaway is that i view him more as someone who has to put up a strong front but isn't fine inside. Again I would need to fully explain in it's own post.

Face wise i wanted to change the emotions he's showing from a somewhat stern look to a more solemn one contrasting with the brightness of the armour. Relating to this is my colour choice for his armour. In game its pure white, but the figure as an iridescent purple glitter to it. However, in this painting I'm making it look pink and purple. Knight Light does have a quite masculine design, so i want the pink and purple to contrast as well as make his armour appear softer to match the expression on his face. The now actually yellow/golden background (previously supposed to be a light greyish yellow but came out as a vomit green) is there to make the colours less harsh as well as unintentionally being close to the colour that was used for Knight Light and spotlight's official artwork background.

I guess that what drew me towards him compared to the other skylanders that were in my collection was that he was my first Light element skylander and that was what was special, and surprisingly not the fact that I was an eight year old boy who these buff heroes were to appeal to, well thats part of it now so maybe he was part of my realisation that I was gay (that and probably preferring to play as the girl ghostbuster in the ghostbusters wii game because she was a lot cooler than the guy)

It is hard to explain this sort of stuff to a teacher so I'm my sketchbook I literally just said "The game he is from is very vague with his backstory, like with all characters in the series" which to an extent is true, however other characters such as Spyro (coincidentally sharing a voice actor with Knight Light) are more fleshed out because they were around from the start.

If i were to able to analyse better this would be more coherent. I do want to talk about Just Dance maps (as Just Dance is actually my main interest) and give my own thoughts and theories on them so I'll probably make a side blog for that. This post mainly serves as an exercise for me to get better at giving context in my school art work.

Anyway to basically end me explaining a headcanon and school work i leave you with the refence photo (top) and two extra photos that i took to decide on (ignore the last one being sideways).

I don't know if this will make much sense to anyone else so when i actually finish the painting I'll rewrite this when i develop my thoughts more, as there is more i want to say but I don't know how to phrase it as of now.

[itsclydebitches]

Ted lasso ask: Was Isaac avoiding Colin because of internalized homophobia, or bc he was upset he never told him, or was it a bit of both? Did Isaac attack the fan bc he was offended by what he said or to 'defend colin's honor'?

Ted Lasso ask woo!

Personally, I think it's an "All of the above" situation. In one of my previous posts I remember catching a tag arguing that Isaac isn't experiencing internalized homophobia, presumably because he himself is not gay and yeah, that's an understandable push-back considering that a) he's not out in the show and b) I never bothered to explain there my own thoughts on the possibility. The tl;dr of that is, "I think you can make a case for Isaac being queer based on his relationship with Colin, his intense reaction to realizing a teammate is gay, the potentially defensive nature of the anti-gay/'I'm totally straight, bro' jokes he makes - which, remember, Colin himself participated in as a kind of cover, raising the possibility that others are doing the same - and the reminder from Beard that more people in the locker room are queer than the three the audience knows about: Colin, Trent, and Will."

But to keep things simple here, let's just settle on, "Isaac has been homophobic." Whether it's internalized as he grapples with his own sexuality or not, Isaac has exhibited homophobic behavior in the past and, of course, after Colin's outing. It's not "Your conservative uncle spewing slurs and issuing death threats" homophobic, but just because there's a range in how homophobia presents doesn't mean it's not, you know, still homophobia. So that's something Isaac needed to deal with last episode. He's spent years making comments based in homophobia ("It's a little gay, isn't it?") and making assumptions about others presumed straightness (why in the world would Colin want privacy to delete those photos?), so when he's suddenly faced with the fact that someone he cares about is gay... he needs time to process that. Trent hit the nail on the head with his "give him a minute" line because not only do people need time when their worldview suddenly shifts like that, but it's a rare and joyous case where they react to that change solely with open-minded positivity. In Isaac's case, he used avoidance and anger as shields until he could come to terms with that change, significantly with Roy's help.

When Isaac says that he's upset that Colin didn't tell him I don't think he's lying... but I also don't think that's the entire truth. If this was only about Colin's trust in him then Isaac would have led with that from the get-go: seconds after he's taken Colin's phone it's, 'You're gay? Awesome! But man, why didn't you tell me? :( ' That obviously didn't happen. Trust is undoubtedly a part of Isaac's complicated feelings, but I think that only occurred to him after he'd come to terms with Colin being gay in the first place. Isaac had to accept that change in his worldview as well as this change in his perception of Colin and then, once he was in a place of, 'Yeah, yeah, Colin is my friend and teammate, of COURSE I accept him' he's able to go, ]Wait... why didn't he tell me??' and that anger becomes the next shield. By and large, people struggle to admit to their mistakes and they really struggle to admit to something as hurtful as, 'My homophobia was so deeply ingrained that unfortunately there was a moment where I wasn't sure I could get past that.' Once Isaac DOES get past it and it becomes unthinkable to him that he would have ever rejected Colin over something like who he's attracted to... it becomes that much harder to remember/acknowledge that, for an undetermined length of time, Isaac did exactly that. Don't talk to me (ignoring direct peace offerings). Don't touch me (removing his hand from under Colin's in the team pile-up). You're an easy target for my frustrations now that I know how freakish you are (screaming at Colin during the match). Isaac's homophobia was deep enough that it made him incredibly cruel for a time, so when he grows out of that of course he's going to struggle to admit precisely how cruel he was. So he doesn't. Isaac apologizes, but it's still deflected with this not-entirely-accurate justification of, 'I was mad you never told me.' Which doesn't make Isaac a bad person, it just makes him a person, period, with flaws and contradictions and the chance to improve.

All of which I think applies to the attack on the fan. Why does Isaac lash out like that?

Because he's still overcoming all the homophobia he's learned and he sees an accusation of being gay as the ultimate insult to his team

Because he may be struggling with his sexuality himself, so an accusation directed at him is even worse. It's not just that it may touch a nerve, but that anger is the only way to protect himself here: become enraged so that everyone watching - teammates, coaches, fans, the press, the world - knows that you're DEFINITELY not gay. That's unthinkable. That's impossible. That's worthy of an attack because to brush it off would be to implicitly suggest that being gay is okay and that's just one step from admitting that maybe you ARE gay. The fact that Isaac's dialogue is centered around, "What did you call me?" is one of the reasons why I personally read him as closeted/potentially not having questioned his own sexuality yet.

Because it wasn't actually a 'You're gay' accusation but a slur hurled by someone who is (presumably) not a part of the community and therefore has no right to reclaim it.

Because even while he struggles to accept Colin, Isaac still loves Colin so yes, there's that element of defending his honor.

Because his anger is reaching a tipping point and this attack - perfectly tailored to push the very buttons he's trying and failing to ignore - is what causes it to boil over.

So Isaac is complicated (because he's a well-written character!) and thus for me it's "All of the above." Personally, I LOVE that the episode's final scene didn't have Isaac suddenly being a Perfect Ally now. Not only is he asking a ton of questions that, while understandable, would make a lot of queer people uncomfortable af, especially given that they highlight Isaac's continuing biases (Colin is a very good friend for giving him the nonjudgmental space to ask all that), but he's also unable to say "I love you." What exactly does that mean? Perhaps that Isaac's residual homophobia won't let him say that to a man, especially a man he now knows is gay. Perhaps that the toxic masculinity he's grown up around - which is intimately tied to the homophobia - won't let him say it as a man, a black man, a man in a position of authority (note that Isaac is not there when the others scream Sam's, "I love you guys so very much!"). Perhaps it means that there is an element of internalized homophobia and Isaac can't say that to any man yet, let alone one he might be attracted to. Perhaps it's, again, all of the above. It's up to interpretation, but the takeaways is that of course Isaac loves Colin - he's eager to ensure Colin knows that in his own way - but the environment he's grown up in and his own personal struggles won't let him say the words yet. That's okay. Colin recognizes that it's okay, just gently pointing out that Isaac can't say it and silently encouraging him to continue working on that, regardless of what reason - or reasons - it's difficult in the first place.

[dollarbin]

Dollar Bin #1:

Joan Baez's Come from the Shadows

Joan Baez had a lot of options of where to go next in 1971.

She could elbow her way into the new female singer-songwriter space alongside Joni Mitchell, Sandy Denny and Carole King and kick some privileged male ass (Blue, The Northstar Grassman and the Ravens and Tapestry all came out in 71; Dylan and Young put out absolutely nothing).

She could shrug off that ridiculous challenge and compete with the blossoming Linda Ronstadt, turning songs by men into sexy, feminist anthems. Or she could play the dedicated wife to her jailed husband David. Finally, she could dump him and proudly sleep with strangers, all the while pining after Dylan.

Or she could just protest the damn war.

Come From The Shadows, which you can easily find in your local record store's dollar bin (that's what we will be doing in this blog: trolling through my hundreds of dollar bin records; thanks for reading!), has a cover which clearly announces that her priority is Protest.

Can you think of a less commercial and less self-promoting record cover? (I can: her husband David's painting of a funeral on her previous record, Blessed Are..., makes the cover of Self Portrait look like high art; the cover screams "don't buy me for kicks. I am an ugly bummer." Happily the double album is oddly full of light and joy.)

Come From The Shadows' cover photo of two elderly Vietnam protesters under arrest strikes a similarly confrontational tone, but this one isn't ugly. Instead, we know right off that we are either with Joan and her groovy octogenarian jailbirds, or we are pro-war. I'm obviously pro-Joan.

I wish I was in the room when this cover was discussed. Joe Salesperson must have choked on his pipe smoke while ordering a telegram that both begged and ordered Baez to put her pretty face on the cover instead. Somehow Baez had the chutzpah, clout and fierce determination to potentially doom her own record in the name of justice. And so we see these rain drenched hippies, who are matched on the reverse of the gatefold by a concise and angry essay from Joan herself, where she tells us, "in 1972 if you don't fight against a rotten thing you become a part of it." Sounds about right to me!

While we are at it, can you name one record cover by any other female artist before Court and Spark that does not focus on the woman's looks? (Damn, I just thought of one: Joni Mitchell's first record...). Anyway, Baez's cover (and the photo of her on the album's backside, in which she sports a reckless, can't be bothered haircut) manages to protest the war and female objectification at the same time.

But drop the needle on any battered, long-ignored, bargain bin copy of this record and everything gets way more complicated. Turns out that Baez had just about every goal possible in 1972, and all at the same time.

Prison Trilogy, the first track, is in keeping with her cover, as she protests the American prison system (not too surprising a topic given the fact that she'd married a guy, allegedly my mother's cousin's roommate at Stanford, who'd been in prison for refusing the draft). But Baez wrote it. Look out singer-songwriters, Joan's in the game! Songwriting wasn't entirely new for Baez; she'd written Song for David a few years before. But half the songs on this record are penned by Baez, by far her highest quota to date. None of her tracks here touch what Sandy, Joni or Carole had done in the preceding months, but they're all pretty good.

What's more, there's some weird stuff going on in her writing. She has a song about the crisis in Bangladesh and, as near as I can tell, she had nothing to do with George Harrison's male-centric benefit concert that had taken place at the end of 71. We know Stephen Stills was at that show, but was Joan? Stills, who doesn't belong as low down in Rock and Roll Hell as Mike Love but still shares the same zip code, spent the night of the Concert for Bangladesh backstage drunk and annoying everyone. He seems to have made that one of his specialties actually. Night of Hurricane found him demanding a whole room full of coke before he'd perform; and check him out in the bonus/rejected footage of The Last Waltz; it looks as though he is unaware of how one makes music. Anyway, was Baez riding the coattails of Harrison with her song about Bangladesh, or did she do this on her own and set the stage for the men to follow? Who knows!

Baez writes another song on this record that is straight-forwardly about sleeping around with some male stranger. There's nothing ambiguous about it; it's called Love Song to a Stranger and there's talk of him standing "nude by the mirror" while presenting her with a rose. A lovely image! I'll bet her husband would have loved hearing that one in the slammer. But he got out in 71, just before this came out, so I suppose she played it for him when he got home; hopefully the stranger had put on some pants by that point. I'm not passing any judgment here; it's a better approach than Clytemnestra took when Agamemnon walked in the door and I'm impressed with how bold and unapologetic Baez is here. We all know that non-males still get judged for being promiscuous while men still can get grinning props for the same thing. Happily, it turns out that Baez has been shouting at us from the dollar bin about this form of injustice for the past 51 years.

Growing up we had a copy of Diamonds and Rust, Baez huge hit record from a few years later. It was a relic of my mother's pre-motherhood life as a feminist who lived out the plot of 9 to 5 a full dozen years before that bizarro film was conceived. She also happened to have Kris Kristofferson as a cousin, which is endlessly cool. Anyway, the title track of Diamonds and Rust always struck me as a big deal because it's obviously written to and about Dylan, and it's intense. Well, it turns out Diamonds and Rust is the second (maybe there are more?) song Baez wrote directly to Dylan. Side 2 of Come From the Shadows keeps up her trend of obvious song naming; it's called To Bobby and it calls him out unambiguously for ditching The Movement to write songs about the man within himself whose ubiquitous brown coat appears on every cover instead of Joan's anti-war grandparents. Did Dylan listen to songs like this that are obviously about him? What was their conversation like when they next saw each other?

Bob: Hey Joanie, that's an intense song you wrote there. Who's it about?

Baez: You Bob. It's about you.

Bob: Gee wiz, Joanie. Just don't tell my wife, okay? I just wrote one called about you too. It's called Wigwam.

The songs on Come From The Shadows not written by Baez are an odd grab bag of moods. Baez out Ronstadts Linda by covering Imagine just an album after covering Let It Be. Both Baez covers are solid, with Baez sounding less strident than she can at times. But I'm guessing everyone on planet earth, including your great grandparents, had heard these tunes before Joan included them. We may scratch our heads at such obvious and seemingly redundant covers today, but keep in mind that for most of the listening public The Night They Drove Old Dixie Down was a song by Joan Baez.

Unlike Imagine and Let it Be, the album's very best track, Rainbow Road, didn't make its way into every progressive 70's summer camp songbook. My cool queer kids think it's a gay anthem - and it should be! Take a listen, and thanks for joining me in the Dollar Bin.

[gaildaleywriter]

2024 02 08 WHY?

Why did I choose the self-publishing route as a writer?

Plain and simple answer I'm a control freak. I have a good friend who has gone the route of having a traditional publisher publish books for her. She seemed quite happy with it. However I notice her results using a traditional publisher and mine as an indie publisher don't appear to have much difference. 

They do quite a bit for her they designed your covers which were beautiful by the way. And they made a few announcements uh better books and they posted them on Amazon. As far as the covers go I monkey with my covers all the time. Occasionally it's because they've become outdated, and a couple of times it was because someone else used the same source photo that I used to make their cover, but truthfully I like being able to go in and monkey with my own covers. I likebeing able to decide how to promote my books, and yes, it does mean I do all the work of the promotion, but at least this way I have no one to blame but myself and my ignorance. I recently found an AI tool on Kindlepreneur, to improve my blurb writing. It offers you three different styles none of which are copycats of the other. I don't recommend using it as is the way they give it to you, instead I mix and match all three until I'm happy with the result. You can't do that with a traditional publisher. In fact you probably won't have a choice when they say we're going to give you a new cover. You see with a traditional publisher you don't own your book anymore they do. This is not just a rumor the friend I told you about earlier had started a three-book series and then her publisher went out of business. Before she could go in and find a new publisher she had to get a lawyer so she could get the rights to her first book back. Doesn't that sound like fun!

[thelonelyme]

♡ʏᴀɴᴅᴇʀᴇ ʜᴀɪᴋʏᴜᴜ!! x ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ [ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴs]♡

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𝐀𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞: ハ イ キ ュ ー !! [Haiykyu !!]

𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐠𝐠𝐢𝐨 / 𝐢: Shoyo Hinata, Tobio Kageyama, Tetsurō Kuroo, Toru Oikawa, Kenma Kozume.

𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭: Types of yanderes

WARNINGS: GN READER, disturbing themes, unhealthy relationships, slightly suggestive themes, aging characters, mentions of murder, homicides, mentions of drugs, blood, yandere content.

-Shoyo Hinata-

• I see Hinata as a very delusional type, in fact I would say that Shoyo likes to think that he and his loved one are in a normal relationship, even if it is incredibly far from the truth. As you know, Hinata's life revolves completely around one thing: volleyball, and it is very likely that he fell in love with you because you were a very recurring figure in his training or in his matches, or because you always encouraged him to give his best, or even his coach after Kiyoko and the others in the third year have left.

• He would absolutely adore you, practically adore you as if you were some kind of deity. Also, due to the fact that he literally adores the street you walk on, Shoyo would definitely have a little shrine in a small hidden shelf in his closet dedicated to just you.

• It would contain all the objects that would vaguely remind him of you or your wonderful personality: poems written by him never delivered where he expressed his eternal love for you, a small notebook where he writes all your information, crumpled sheets used by you, handkerchiefs always used by you during a small cold recovered from the gym basket, and finally, most precious object of all, a sweater that you thought had been lost, and obviously an incredible amount of photos strictly yours.

• He probably would have noticed this crush of his in your second year and Hinata's, realizing how sweet you were, as sweet as chocolate, as you gave him an electric shock along his spine every time he saw you.

• But chocolate, as you know, if faced with heat, it will melt in a pool of liquid and Hinata knows that you are also creating addiction to everyone else on the team, understanding this because she has seen several times that Kageyama cannot even look at you in the eyes without blushing; therefore, he concluded that he must fill the role of your savior and protector, protecting you from anything that could take away your happiness, which is also his happiness.

• Obviously, being completely lost in his delusions and fantasies of him, he never realized that the only reason your smile faded was because of him alone, but it's just a minor detail that doesn't matter too much ;)

• Overall he is a very obsessive type, and reflects his insecurities a lot (mainly about his height) about you, he doesn't intend to manipulate you sentimentally and emotionally, but he would definitely make you feel guilty without shame if you don't do something his way, or something that may, in his vision, threaten you. I also think of Shoyo as someone who gets extremely jealous very easily and this would be the time when he would be most vulnerable to you.

• Having the facade of him that makes him look extremely innocent, and when you hurt his feelings even in the slightest, Shoyo will not hesitate to shed so much tears that even the extremely grumpy Tsukishima will feel bad for him.

• Hinata is a very clingy individual: if you were to even look in the direction of another guy, he would feel extremely betrayed and make you cry after training, making you ashamed as much as he can.

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-Tobio Kageyama-

• Kageyama huh?

• Honestly understanding what kind of Yandere would be a bit complicated, but not difficult; in fact I think he is a controlling, obsessive, a little delirious type.

• Kageyama initially appears as the usual arrogant and perfectionist guy who only cares about victory, completely ignoring the opinions of his teammates, so he may not have been very nice to you at first.

• But he likes you very much, you can be sure about that. He likes you so much that he's obsessed with checking out all sorts of things you're doing, who you're texting with, what or who you're giggling at your phone screen, who you are with instead of him; he makes him feel like he is your personal and devoted protector.

• At first, he most likely wouldn't have cared about you or what you used to do, but when he began to notice the little things that made you shine in the monotonous (and, according to him, stupid) mass of students , it began to interest you.

• As mentioned before, he may have been nice to you or not, but nothing changes the fact that he has always been very cold, almost never interacting with you; he just doesn't know how to control his personal frustration, that's why he expresses his thoughts and feelings the wrong way, and that's why he avoids talking to you often.

• Furthermore, he would try, at least initially, to repress everything and tell himself, by convincing himself, that those feelings simply do not exist.

• But in the end he won't be able to keep it all in and he will snap.

• Normally in Kageyama he would not have been influenced much by the opinions of others, but with you it is very different, in fact this is a bit of the beginning of how he started to control you: to avoid him giving you a wrong opinion of him by talking to people wrong, and this also leads him to stare incessantly with a blank stare at anyone who is too close to you.

• After that, you can only ask yourself why no one approaches you.

• Tobio would like to find out what makes you so special for him, becoming more confused and obsessive as a result, and this leads him to try to make friends with you; little by little he would try to manipulate you, making you believe that he is the only person who willingly and genuinely wants to spend time with you, unlike those stupid little friends of yours who only look for you when they want something.

• Kageyama also has a slight delusional streak: at the beginning of your "relationship" he might have thought you were spending time with him because you would love him.

• At the end of everything, when you will no longer have anyone but Tobio, and after all your friends and family have abandoned you, it is precisely the moment in which you realize and realize your mistake, but it will already be too late .

• You are now his.

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- Tetsurō Kuroo-

• Good luck with him, my dear.

• Really, if you've managed to get his attention, and what's more, his "love", you won't have the slightest chance of running away from him. And honestly he is one of the worst yandere you can deal with, he won't have any kind of afterthought or guilt.

• This guy is one of the smartest around in his academy than he is, in short, he is the captain of one of the strongest volleyball teams in all of Tokyo, and on top of that he is a master in chemistry and study. To get to that level he not only needs a pretty face, but also a brain.

• Analyzing his feelings or at least trying to understand what he is going through would be almost completely useless, since he manages to keep his "mask" for a very long time, almost never revealing the anger and the killing instinct that rises along the spine dorsal when you laugh with your friend, completely unaware of a wild Kuroo close enough to the range necessary to listen to your conversations without arousing too much suspicion.

• Before he gets close to you, he has to know your whole daily routine, he has to know everything you do 24/7 and all the details and little things about you; therefore, most likely, before he had approached you, he would have already known a lot about you and would have already haunted you for quite some time, which sees his obsessiveness towards you grow and become stronger before.

• Kuroo has a detailed and well schematized plan of how everything should unfold: in fact, his plan is to indiscretely spoil and contaminate your reputation with other people so much that your only cornerstone would be him and him alone.

• Later, by hiding everything he has done, Kuroo will act as your hero and start manipulating you with his cunning ways.

• And when at first I started by saying that with Kuroo behind you it would be impossible to escape, I mean it for real; despite that quite deceptive appearance, in reality every second a thousand gears rotate in his brain, and this causes him to think about every possible way for you to escape from your relationship for now one-sided, therefore he would have already foreseen your every hypothetical move not only thanks to his intellect, but also thanks to those months, if not years, of stalking that allowed him to always be one step ahead of you, understanding what you would do on certain occasions.

• For example, are you a hothead? Surely you would try to find a way out after having kidnapped you, you would offend him in every possible way and you would make it more difficult for him to take care of you: simple, a tranquilizer, some sleeping pill and a little discipline and solved problems. Ah, and he would definitely use your weaknesses against you.

• Are you an animal lover? Well, he would need to bring a small stray puppy or kitten and threaten to kill it in as many ways as possible. Self-esteem or physical problems? Simple, first he would help you in all possible ways, then suddenly, he would leave you alone and you will come back to him yourself, only to start all over again.

• In the beginning he would not completely take away your freedom, rather he would prefer to creep into your mind, sowing seeds of doubt that you are not wanted in society, so as to be totally dependent on him; maybe at first it wouldn't seem to be effective for Tetsurō, but that would slowly make you change your mind about him (a key part of his plan).

• Suddenly, staying indoors playing video games or having hilarious movie nights with him in his grandparents' room could not be any worse than the wary and sometimes disgusted looks you received from right and left to the outside world, beyond the barrier that Kuroo unknowingly made you wear.

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-Toru Oikawa-

• Like Kuroo, Oikawa is smart, strategic, obsessive and definitely has a super detailed and nearly flawless plan that gives you literally zero chance of escaping him. And like him, the first appearance Toru makes is not that of the real person he is.

• In fact, despite his womanizing nature and his childlike side, Oikawa is very intelligent and very easily finds the main weaknesses and not in his opponents: therefore he very often deals with the recordings coming from your bedroom to understand from your more behaviors. intimate your weaknesses and how to behave when once he will have you in his arms.

• He is known to have a horrible personality among both opponents and his teammates, mainly due to his smug and superficial attitude, which you have often heard from your peers who have also warned you of his incessant flirting.

• It is said that he is doing all of this because he is in love with you (and you certainly with him) and one of the many keys to being the best partner for you is learning all about you, and Oikawa takes this very seriously; and having already had a girlfriend with whom he has done everything wrong, he absolutely does not want you to leave him too.

• Oikawa is much more manipulative comparing him to Kuroo, and is quite delusional, even though he is still aware that his actions are morally wrong; just... he doesn't care at all.

• Also he's very protective with an obsessive streak, he's so overprotective not because he cares about you (and to say he really cares about you, would be an understatement), but it's more like he wants you under his control, it's him who will decide everything for you, who you will interact with, who you will have lunch with, when you leave the classroom, always being by his side; not like with volleyball, where he couldn't control a sprained ankle.

• He likes to mark you, brand you like him, kissing your neck and leaving a purplish/reddish patch where you can't hide it, or wearing a miserable collar with his initials, loves to show the world that you are his after all;

•Oikawa doesn't need you to tell him you love him, because in his mind, you two are already having some sort of love affair even though you don't know each other, and you're pretending to hate him because you're too shy..

• Awe, don't worry angel, we'll be soon at your new home!

•And you won't be that shy when he'll pound you, 'till you can't leave his side ;)

• But the most important thing is your complete obedience and devotion to him and to not. leave. his. side.

• At first, Toru will try to charm you, and if you fall for it it would be much better; and in case you are not subject to his flirtation and advances, Oikawa will use everything in his power to make you fall in love with him, such as, for example, using the pressure of his hardcore fans, using his reputation and blackmailing you, turn the world upside down so that all unwanted attention all goes to you and spread not very nice rumors until there is no way for you to live other than to submit to his wishes.

• And don't even think about asking for help from your family or people who have ever been in contact with Oikawa, because it would all be useless as he would have already duped and fascinated them with his good looks and charisma.

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-Kenma Kozume-

• Kenma would be an intelligent, obsessive type yandere and a stalker (although he likes to call it more like "a-visit-to-your-window-without-you-knowing-to-be-sure-that- you-be-safe ").

• However, I believe that Kozume, in order to become obsessed with someone, needs to talk to them. Maybe you worked with him on a school project, or maybe you're his friend, maybe you were someone that he used to play video games with. He just needs to get to know you a little bit before he really becomes a yandere to you.

• He would be a great stalker, honestly; when he is not forced to practice or is not busy playing video games, he would simply be observing himself, you would never notice it as it would leave everything intact, without arousing any suspicion, let alone making you suspect that there was ever someone who had you observed in secret.

• I think Kenma would not really understand that his obsessive feelings towards you are love until, probably Kuroo, would make fun of him saying he has a crush on you, and until then he would have been very confused about his feelings that concern you. Then he would start trying to understand more of his rather confused feelings about him.

• Now, Kenma wouldn't be an idiot, let alone as delusional as Shoyo, and he would be very aware that his obsessive feelings for you are wrong; he would know perfectly well that stalking you is creepy; he knows that he probably should ask for help perhaps from a therapist or a psychologist.

• But he doesn't want to. He doesn't care.

• Is loving you that bad?

• Yes?

• Oh, my dear, you made a big mistake.

• Smile at the window (:

• You remind him of a sleepy kitten while you rest, and this is so cute <3

• he surely put a bug (a very small camera) in your room.

• Honestly he doesn't know exactly why he did it, but I think he likes to know, and especially to see what you do 24/7.

• In fact, when he wouldn't be home, he'd just have to turn on the phone select and connect to the hidden camera and boom, that's it. So, while you are sleeping or listening to music or even changing, Kenma looks at you through his phone screen, and maybe his hand would slip in his tight pants to release all the stress of loving you.

• Kenma, even though he doesn't show it at all, is very jealous: most of this comes from insecurity that you might find someone better than him. Thoughts of you with someone else constantly haunt his mind, causing him more and more to check what you are doing through the camera; and above all, this would be the decisive push he needs to kidnap you.

• Kenma wouldn't really get close to you unless you get close to him first. He'd be too shy to even think about really getting close to you.

• He wouldn't be above threatening any "competition": he wouldn't hurt them physically, but Kenma is smart and knows how to fool someone's mind.

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Well hello my friends! It's been a long time since my first post, and now I'm ready to continue to write!

Have a nice day/night <3