#if you tell me your fav love poems i’ll love you forever and ever

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me, blogging every day: #loveeeee #❣️❣️❣️ #love is stored in the kitchen #mwah <3 #this is what love is alllllll about

me, tasked with finding poetry about love: …

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niche interests list 

okay sure yes this is fun! i havent posted a thing like this in such a long time. thank you new gal pal @scottspack for tagging me! 

pigs????

alright first lets throw it back to preschool! my fav childhood toys were my baby doll (snookums) and a plush pig that my grandma got me that i just called ‘pig’ ...i watched the babe movies countless times, and piglet? that anxious little guy GETS ME bro. when my preschool did a nativity play and my class got to choose an animal to be in baby jesus’ manger, my mother recalls me saying that i would be a pig because jewish people (jesus christ) wouldnt eat me. she has no idea how or when i learned about kosher foods. ironically despite my namesake i was too afraid of the movie charlotte’s web to watch it more than once because the scary farmer tries to kill wilbur for being small and the pretty spider dies. 

sugar creek gang 

OKAY this is a book series from the 40s-70s about a group of christian little boys in indiana who went on adventures in the woods and helped people. my dad read a LOT of chapter books to me as bedtime stories when i was little (see also the mandie series, nancy drew and the hardy boys, little house on the prairie) but sugar creek gang is one that really hit. i read all 36 books with dad and at least once again on my own. there was a series of 4 or 5 movies in the early 2000s when i was the Perfect age to have a crush on most if not all of them. this might be too much detail but i have to tell you about these boys. we WILL not be revisiting the heavy religious themes. 

 the narrator is bill who is Good and Kind and wants to be a doctor when he grows up. his best friend is a chubby boy nicknamed poetry because he memorizes and quotes poems, he is the Detective of the group. BIG JIM is the leader of the group who is supposed to be like, 14, which was very cool and hot, to me. and yes there is a little jim, who is the baby of the group. then there is CIRCUS who is known for his climbing and acrobatics, and his FIVE SISTERS AND BEAUTIFUL SINGING VOICE. dreamboy. i’m almost done listing boys, i promise. a boy called dragonfly who is allergic to everything and hella superstitious. later in the series a new boy named tom moves to town and tom has an older brother bob who is NOT A CHRISTIAN (bully) 

tangentially, the buttercream gang, a movie from 1992 that was almost definitely made by some christians who grew up reading the sugar creek gang series which i’m guessing on vibes alone. will spare you Good Boy details but scott is in love with his best friend pete who moves to chicago and falls in with a bad crowd and scott just refuses to stop LOVING HIM. very gay christian film in retrospect. 

peter pan

so i know liking disney’s peter pan isnt niche, but it was the way i liked it. tinker bell stan from day one, i watched all of those disney fairies movies, even the ones that came out after i was definitely not intended audience. there was an online pixie hollow game where you could design your own fairies and play mini games where you gathered dew drops or something. had a HUGE CRUSH on jeremy sumpter in peter pan (2003) then i got really darkly obsessed with the idea of growing up when i was 12 or 13, and everything peter pan was deeply My Shit for my entire adolescence. i read the original book and every other twisted version of the story i could find and seriously freaked myself out about wasting my youth. 

shug

you’ve probably heard of jenny han now, or at least the netflix adaptations for to all the boys i’ve loved before and the sequel ps i still love you (always and forever, lara jean, coming soon?) but before she wrote THOSE, she wrote my first ever Favorite Book, about annemarie “shug” wilcox, a girl in the summer before starting middle school. it is SO engraved on my heart i cannot explain. i felt so incredibly understood and cant even tell you how many times i read it. thinking about all of the ways it made me feel SEEN is actually making me very tender so i’m gonna go on.  

the summer series

on the subject of jenny han, since she was now my Favorite author, when she came out with the summer i turned pretty in 2009, i was ALL IN. it’s not summer without you, and we’ll always have summer were published the next two years. a coming of age series about a girl isabel “belly” conklin who stays at her mother’s best friend's house at the beach in the summers. i really could talk about it forever yall. i actually dont know how to be succinct about it. i will try. her mom’s friend has TWO BOYS. one brother, jeremiah, is the golden boy and her best friend who is in love with her! the older one CONRAD is her childhood crush who's just sort of around while belly is firmly getting over her childish feelings and going out and experiencing teen beach life with jeremiah for the first time and figuring out who she is and wants to be! by the end of the summer he admits he feels differently about her (hence belly internalizing this as The Summer I Turned Pretty) and they get together. this is already too much so i will just say that the next two books deal with a PROFOUND LOSS and the selfishness of grief and the SELFLESSNESS OF CONRAD and i will absolutely lose my shit if netflix picks it up for a second jenny han series adaptation. 

pappyland

this was a kids show in the 90′s that features a character named Pappy Drew-It, an artist dressed like a 49er who lives in a magic cabin in pappyland. there’s tons of characters and music and life lessons but the meat of every episode is a detailed drawing how-to (pappy is actually a cartoonist, michael cariglio) and i have a hard back cover sketch book from my grandpa that i FILLED with drawings that pappy and DOODLEBUG taught me to do. there is a running gag that pappy always breaks his crayons.  

boy meets world

i KNOW this is beloved by many but i’m counting it because i’m simply too young to have such an obsession with it! the show ran from 1992-2000. i was born in 1996, but reruns on the disney channel and abc family cemented it as one of my favorite shows. cory and shawn, closer than brothers, shameless homoromantics, shawn is cory’s first wife!!!!! truly showed me what a best friend can and should be!!!!!! the great love of your life!!!!! TOPANGA, the og weird feminist girl who said stop shaving your legs and start speaking your mind, ladies! the characters are so richly developed that they are real people to my heart. YES every character on this show is in their late 30s-early 40s and YES i feel like we grew up together. in season one they’re in the 6th grade and we follow them all the way to COLLEGE. countless poignant life lessons, often literally dictated by the wise and hilarious MR. FEENY, cory’s next door neighbor and somehow one of his teachers for YEARS. my love was only solidified by the 2014 girl meets world reboot, centered on cory and topanga’s daughter and her best friend. (which was literally cancelled because disney didn’t want to transition from a kids show to a teen show, something essential to the original. also because that teen show would have had CANON LESBIANS. extremely shameful move in 2017!) boy meets world lives rent free in my heart and i will never evict it!!!!!!!

i consulted my mother when i got stumped for more and she reminded me that i had obsessions with the impressionist art period and babies and ANYTHING fairies or pixies, and i was way too young when my love of the canadian teen after school special degrassi began. she also said bob ross, which i was hesitant to include because he’s been super ~trendy in recent years, but to be fair (To Be Faaairrr) she’s right! i don’t think people really watched the joy of painting as much as i have throughout my life. best sick day show of all time.

lastly i could honestly list anna herself as a niche interest, my mom actually metioned that ive always hyperfixated on my girl friends (gay) but i’ll just note that YES friday night lights, YES barry lyga novels. love to share so many things with you, niche or not, they’re niche in Our Mind.

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For the gay-ish asks... multiples of 5!

wow okay was not expecting that. 

5. Are you more outgoing or shy? Shy, definitely. 

10. favorite meme? hmm. im going to have to say the “Avenge the Fallen” one mostly because someone made an “Avenge the Fallen” picture with Lil’ Sebastian and i cracked up

15. do you think musicals are cheesy? absolutely not. i live for musicals. i listen like almost exclusively to broadway musicals.

20. favorite tv show? right now or all time? right now it’s Veronica Mars. all time i’d have to say is X Files

25. have you ever taken narcotics? no.

30. describe your best friend. she lives about 5 minutes away from me and does some kind of work at the Guggenheim in nyc. she loves musicals like i do and is a giant harry potter nerd too. she looks kinda like hermione and loves books just as much as hermione does. i love her because i don’t have to be a toned down version of myself with her. we went to nyc this weekend and i spilled like 5 different kinds of food on my white romper and all she did was give me a look, like “ugh again? not surprised.” 

35. what is the best decision you’ve made in your life so far? to begin crocheting. it was spur of the moment at michaels one day and now i can’t stop.

40. do you really, truly miss someone right now? no. 

45. i’ll only date you if: listen i’ve never been on a date before. im not in a position to be super picky right now. if i find you relatively attractive, have some kind of ambition in life (idc if your ambition is to be a circus clown. it’s still ambition), and are around my age, im good. 

50. how can someone win your heart? i honestly don’t know. ive never been in a relationship before so i don’t know. 

55. did you hang out with the person you like recently? no. 

60. ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? almost definitely. i had this giant crush on a guy a year older than me in high school and i thought i was being subtle but i definitely wasn’t. 

65. favorite term of endearment? idk i use “hon” a lot.

70. are you good at flirting? absolutely not. i stutter and blush and loose all language abilities any time anyone is nice to me. 

75. write a short love poem to your crush/self? absolutely not. 

80. what is your type? this is kinda cliche but i don’t think i really have a type. i had a giant crush on darren criss for a while and in tv shows and movies i tended to gravitate to guys that looked like him i guess if that works.

85. tummy kisses or thigh kisses? idk ive never had either. im gonna go tummy bc i hate my thighs

90. how confident are you in your sexuality? not super confident. like i said ive never been on a date or been in a relationship so i can’t truly say either way. like i tell people im bi but who the hell knows

95. do you have a favorite lesbian ship? is it canon? Callie and Arizona were my fav lesbian ship forever. then that went downhill. i stopped watching before most of the ugliness happened though. yes it was canon for a bunch of seasons. 

thanks for the ask, hon!

[justintimbershit]

1-99

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?XO - John Mayer Cabaret - Justin Timberlake Lights On - Shawn Mendes Bad Habit - The KooksHow Would You Feel - Ed Sheeran You’re Gonna Llive Forever in Me - John Mayer

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?literally John Mayer so I can ask him why the FUCK he played XO in Chicago and why that was only the 10th time ever and first and only time of TSFE tour he played it

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.“Mom’s stumped us. We had absolutely no idea who she’d dredge” (I’ll Give You the Sun by Jandy Nelson)

4: What do you think about most?how terrible life is and then how much i wanna die tbh

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?“Jena should i get dropped off at your house then we can go get joe & julie?” IOWA TOMORROW FOR ED :DDDD

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?always w shirt but no pants lol

7: What’s your strangest talent?hating life as much as i do idk i have no talent

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)girls r hot n nice boys r hot n mean

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?yeah bc we were in love lol :(

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar? idk i usually dont

11: Do you have any strange phobias?feet, being alone but also being in large crowds, idk theyre not very weird

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?no?

13: What’s your religion?idk man none atm prob

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?looking forward to going inside. but working and therefore reading.

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?behind bc i am ugly lol

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?um probably panic at the disco but then also the killers

17: What was the last lie you told?“its fine” bc no it is not fine i wanna fight

18: Do you believe in karma?ya i think so. maybe

19: What does your URL mean?i like Justin Timberlake and also swearing

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?weakness is probably just who i am as a person and strength is idk i dont have any

21: Who is your celebrity crush?lmao. you say this like i have one. i have many. like thousands.

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?nope

23: How do you vent your anger?talk to someone usually

24: Do you have a collection of anything?movie/concert/sporting event tickets and also empty gatorade bottles on my floor

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?phone bc im ugly

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?eh. better than what i was but could be better

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?hate is my sisters voice lol love is john mayers voice bc he sounds like a fuckin angel

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?what if i was someone else but not really someone else just like what if i was me with a better life or a differnt life in which things didnt always go so terribly for me ya know

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?ghosts maybe but aliens def

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.right arm some paper hanging off my nightstand and left nothing

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?the faint scent of clean laundry and lotion

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?hm.. great question. i feel like ive been to some pretty bad places but i cant recall any???

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?ive never been to either but east coast i think

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?justin timberlake bc hes one of the most attractive men in the entire world

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?bein happy, doin what you want, livin

36: Define Art.something someone creates

37: Do you believe in luck?yes i do

38: What’s the weather like right now?humid i think

39: What time is it?9:41 pm

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?nope to both

41: What was the last book you read?i recently finished “The Upside of Unrequited” and now im workin on “More Than This”

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?no i hate it it makes me nauseous

43: Do you have any nicknames?jules

44: What was the last film you saw?o fuck um fist fight maybe?

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?the sunburn i got in florida was terrible bc i couldnt walk for a day so im gonnna say that

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?no :(

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?brandon saad being a chicago blackhawk again, tommy la stella, john mayer, reading gay books

48: What’s your sexual orientation?bi

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?uuuuum possibly ??? idk

50: Do you believe in magic?nah but also maybe

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?in my mind yes but most of the times my actions dont reflect that especially if its been a while

52: What is your astrological sign?sagittarius

53: Do you save money or spend it?both. i allow myself to spend it as long as i still have a decent amount saved

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?lunch at panera lol

55: Love or lust?neither bc they both suck when ur alone

56: In a relationship?no lol

57: How many relationships have you had?zero

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?nope i am not talented like that

59: Where were you yesterday?yesterday. i think i stayed home all day then me mary and joe hung out and went to get milkshakes at steak n shake

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?the inside of the bra bra sitting waiting to be put away lol

61: Are you wearing socks right now?indeed

62: What’s your favourite animal?sloths my fav

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?i dont have one bc if i did ppl would like me, tf

64: Where is your best friend?at home id assume

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.whats tumblr

66: What is your heritage?im italian but i was born here and so were my parents

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?watching an episode of Its Always Sunny in Philadelphia before i showered

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?satan satan

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?yeah lmao who hasnt tho

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?i think so sometimes but other times im the worst person ever idk how i have friends

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?fuck u boss i love dogs and if u hate dogs that much as to not understand the situation i dont wanna work for a dog hater. asshole.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?a. maybe probably b. everything ive never done but wanted to c. probably

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.fuck. um. shit. id say love but then u cant trust the person you love so like… but at the same time i love love so much i feel like id die w/o it n ya know i dont trust anyone anyways so im gonna say love

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?srsly…..Bye Bye Bye by *NSYNC bc i cant be sad listening to that song lolol

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?9077

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?communication n openness

77: How can I win your heart?just be nice to me lol i have low standards

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?yes i do believe so

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?buying tickets to see john mayer lol that changed my life so drastically. my life is now pre john mayer and post john mayer. he literally fucking sang xo i will never get over it that will always be the happiest moment of my life im crying while typing this

80: What size shoes do you wear?8 - 9 �� depending on the shoe

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?‘probably died because she said she wanted to die so often that death got sick of hearing it and killed her.“

82: What is your favourite word?fuck

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.justin timberlake. god im so fucked lol

84: What is a saying you say a lot?'i hate my life’ 'i want to die’ 'u should fight’

85: What’s the last song you listened to?Fools Gold by One Direction lmao

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?turquoise

87: What is your current desktop picture?justin timberlake leaning on a car lookin all hot n shit

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?myself tbh

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?uuuum idk it depends whos askin ya know. id answer certain questions if asked by one peson but not another

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?probably cry and attempt but ultimately fail to go back to sleep

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?flying or teleportation

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?when john mayer played XO at my concert obviously

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?losing all the pictures on my computer bc i keep saying im over it but im really not that was the entire past 4 years of my life in pictures and videos and theyre just gone its bullshit

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?oh man. so many. but if i had to choose one justin timberlake. wow bet no one saw that comin

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?literally fuckin no where im seeing ed sheeran in a matter of hours im not leaving. but if it were a different day lol id say amsterdam or boston

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?not that im aware of

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?when i was a smol child yea h but not recently

98: Ever been on a plane?when i was a child yes

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?um lol idk probably nothing tbh i dont wanna be held responsible for whatever happens afterwards

[roman-winter]

ALL OF THOSE NUMBERS

WELP good thing ur the only one who actually sent me anything. HERE WE GO. every single number under the cut lmao

1. your favorite face claims

ZANE HOLTZ, MICHAEL TREVINO, BOB MORELY, STEPHEN JAMES, CAMERON MONAGHAN, if i could only use those faces for the rest of my rping life, i’d be perfectly happy, they’re my babes

2. your least favorite face claims

fcs i actively don’t like are p much bc people ruined them for me such as dane dehaan, xavier dolan, that blonde guy who’s always w xavier dolan and serval others that i never see around anymore anyway so it doesn’t really matter

3. face claims that you are dying to use

for the love of god someone actually let me use dj cotrona jfc. also miguel angel silvestre pleaseeeeee. and more zane holtzes always. like if u want a holy holtz, i’ll give him to you

4. face claims that you are dying to play against

rn i’m super into american gods so def both ricky whittle and emily browning. i’ve always wanted to play against a billie piper. every single person in this tag

5. your favorite original-verse oc (or one of your favorites)

shit that’s hard ummm i’m just gonna go w a current fav which is eli whitehall mostly bc of the amazing world that we’ve created for him and andrew and the like super amazing and rich backstory that has been developed, also just like playing a trans character who’s 50?? BEST THING EVER 10/10 WOULD RECOMMEND esp since he’s got the best husband in the world #relationshipgoals

6. your favorite fandom oc (or one of your favorites)

not technically an oc since his name is mentioned in the books BUT since the verse is so completely not canon he’s basically an oc AUGUSTUS ROOKWOOD ALL DAY EVERY DAY my love my light my fav i will keep playing him forever and ever and then a bit more

7. your favorite oc who isn’t yours (or one of your favorites)

can i just say every single one of @chrysalis-writes​‘ characters??? but like atm probably oliver who is the love of my life. like wtf is better than an unplanned ship just taking form out of nowhere and then being THE BEST SHIP EVER CREATED like fuck man i get emo when i think about oliver and how beautiful and pure and wonderful christine made him. i’m crying ok bye

8. your favorite fandom character to have played

rn my fav has to be richie gecko my trans son, i love fdtd w my whole soul and i love having the privilege of writing richie w my two fav ppl 

9. a fandom character who you would really like to play

hey guess what i want? i want to play bruce wayne in my horrible crossover crackship helldream that is ironbat, aka the best ship in the world. i want bruce wayne and tony stark to fuck and i have zero regrets

10. a fandom character who you would like to interact with

see above.

11. an rpg that meant a lot to you

knockturn meant the world to me and i’m so so glad that i’ve gotten to keep writing in that verse even if it’s outside of a group environment, but it was such a fantastic experience and so much fun to create that world with my best bruv and i’m so so proud of all the writing we did, everyone was just absolutely amazing, and it’s also how i met nikki GOD BLESS US EVERYONE

12. an rpg that you’re excited about

i just applied to an rp a few days ago and i’m pumped about maybe getting to be in that but i'm not gonna tag it bc i dunt wanna be that asshole but it’s all the worlds and it looks hella cool

13. an rpg that you’d like to create

lmao NONE i’m done w that game man. i still dream of bringing back knockturn w christine one day bc that was legit my fav rp that i’ve been part of but a lot of things about the rpc would have to change before i’d feel okay about putting that much work into something again

14. your favorite rp friendship

i’m not gonna say christine bc that’s a cop out and also we were friends years b4 rping 2gether, so i’m gonna throw a bone to my two favs SUZIE and NIKKI the loves of my life whom i am so so lucky to be friends with and get to write with, and if either of u read this i love youuuuuuu

15. your favorite rp otp

every single ship that i have w christine but mostly oliver and val alwayz

16. your favorite rp notp

lmao idk bro you’d be surprised about how many notps i have tbh i’m just quiet about it bc i mind my own business unlike some people :~~~)

17. your favorite rp family relationship

UM SETH AND RICHIE GECKO OFC WHO DO YOU THINK I WOULD SAY the first time we started a thread w them we were legit like wtf why have we never played bros???? and it was the best and i’m always emo about those two trans losers

18. your favorite rp universe/world

i’m super into the little sensate world we’ve got going bc we have such cool and amazing characters and evil jeff goldblum exists and the story we’ve got concocted is great and can you tell i’m just talking directly to you now christine? bc i definitely am, who else would read this whole thing????

19. your favorite non-playable character

that is very very hard bc i’m notoriously bad at npcs, but i luv valentin’s daughter, alexandra bc she’s just so sweet and kind and accepting and i love her and all of the cute little things that have and will happen with her interacting with val and all the other sensates KILLS ME

20. your first rp character

omfg my first chara was an oc when i was like eleven called lily lupin and she was remus’ secret brother’s child???? i remember nothing else about her but that. idk guys i was a weird child but i had a good time rping on an hp forum lmao

21. your latest rp character

ELECTRIFICATION KOZLOV who is a badass kgb agent during the cold war who i’m super excited to start writing soon. he’s awful and great and idk what happened but i have a thing w playing russian characters rn????

22. a plot that you’d like to play out

see numbers 9 and 10

23. a real-world setting that you’d like to use as the setting of a plot

i think i’ve got all the real world setting plots i want rn tbh i’m really into grabbing more supernatural plots!

24. your favorite rp genre

probably scifi, esp atm! i’m so so bad at science myself but i really do love playing inside a scifi environment that i didn’t have to build lmao

25. a quote you’d like to use to build a character on

omfg i’m the WORST but i really would love to build a few characters (probably like a 1x1x1) based on “you are jeff” just literally the whole damn poem. i’ve had some character relationships that mimicked the twins section of it very well, but i think it’d be super fun to literally base a plot on that

26. a song you’d like to use to build a character on

i just saw reeve carney live and i’ve been listing to his new album nonstop and “resurrection” would make a really REALLY good character song, so THAT!

27. a song you’d like to use to build an rp relationship on

i’ve had the need since the album came out to have a ship based on against me’s song “haunting haunted haunts” i feel like it could make a pretty good plot tbh and i’m always here for angst

[sleepinglightt]

Cute Ask - All

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?I normally have more milk than cereal

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?Yes yes yes. It’s one of my favorite feelings.

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?Literally anything. I’ve used everything from bobby pins to blades of grass lmao

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?I take my tea with a little bit of milk and 3 sugar cubes or 2 packets of sugar, and I take my coffee pretty much the same way

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?Not really, I had braces for a while and now my teeth are straight, I just wish they were whiter 😕

6: do you keep plants?Yes

7: do you name your plants?Yes but I always forget their names and I end up renaming them

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?I like using watercolors a lot

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?Yes

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?I sleep on my stomach with one leg up, idk I’m weird

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?There are so many, the most recent one I can’t post bc some people follow me on here and if I posted the joke it would cause drama

12: what’s your favorite planet?I think Saturn is pretty cool

13: what’s something that made you smile today?Just thinking about my girlfriend

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?Oh Lordy this is my dream. Considering my best friend is my girlfriend, we’d have a big bed with lots of blankets. And we’d have a lot of plants everywhere. There would be like fairy lights or whatever you wanna call them everywhere. We’d have a dog and probably a few cats. It would probably constantly smell like coffee or tea bc we both love that. Idk it would be perfect.

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!Okay so google said this: Space officially begins at the universal marker of the Karman Line. This invisible boundary is 100km above the Earth. In theory if you could drive your car upwards, you could be in space in less than hour

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?All pasta dishes are my fav how am I just supposed to pick one

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?I really really really wanna have a lavender/ dark grey hair color

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.I made a video of myself dancing in a hoodie, but I put my legs through the arm sleeves and it looked really weird and my friends bring it up from time to time

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?I do, and I write poems and just journal entries when I need to vent. I don’t really draw, but sometimes I doodle.

20: what’s your favorite eye color?I don’t have a favorite. I honestly find everyone’s eyes so pretty bc they’re all different. When I see pretty eyes they’re pretty eyes, they don’t have to be a certain color to be pretty imo.

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.I don’t really carry any bags, I’ve never had a specific backpack or purse that I absolutely love.

22: are you a morning person?Only when I have coffee

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?Sleep and cuddle with my cat

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?My girlfriend and my best friend briann

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?I’ve never broken into any places 🙃

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?My black high top vans. I’ve had them for about 2 years and I wear them pretty much every single day.

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?I only like minty gum

28: sunrise or sunset?Sunset

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?My best friend briann writes me notes all the time and I’ve kept every single one of them since the beginning of our friendship

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?Yes. I’ve been truly scared quite a few times.

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.I like socks. I like weird ones, but I don’t sleep with them on and I definitely don’t confine myself to white socks.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.I don’t stay up past 3 am 😂 I’m literally an old lady in a young persons body.

33: what’s your fave pastry?I love all pastries. I don’t discriminate.

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?I had a little dog that I named fluffy, she used to be really fluffy but now she’s matted and it’s not cute. I still have her.

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?I love pretty pens but I can never keep track of them. They always get lost.

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?Brand new

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?I like keeping it clean, but it’s always messy and it drives me crazy.

38: tell us about your pet peeves!I have so many but one of the biggest ones is hearing people eat. Like the smacking noises drive me CRAZY. I can’t even stand to hear myself eat like I hate it so much.

39: what color do you wear the most?Probably grey or black or something

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?I have a bracelet that I wear all the time that my girlfriend gave me, she has a matching one and it says “adorablé” which is one of our inside jokes.

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?13 reasons why :^)

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!There’s this place in my town called sycamore grounds and it’s so cute and cozy. I love it so much.

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?I can’t remember.

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?I can’t remember 😂

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?Sometimes

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.How do you make antifreeze? You steal the blanket. Idk.

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?Mayonnaise

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?I was afraid of June bugs, now I’m afraid of dying and being alone 🙃

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?I like collecting records, the last one I bought was deja entendu by brand new

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?It’s not really odd but I like keeping/collecting pressed flowers

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?UM IDK THIS IS ALOT OF PRESSURE FUCK

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?I love the blinking guy and the Meryl Streep ones

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? I’ve seen all of them accept for heathers, I KNOW IM HORRIBLE

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?My best friend bc her fish died :(

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?Literally everything I do is dramatic so idk

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?The way they talk about the things they love. I know it’s cliche but it’s true

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?That song makes me feel like I’m little again bc I used to listen to that song on repeat 24/7. AND YES THATS THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN SING THE SONG TF

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?I feel like my girlfriend is the wine mom and I’m the vodka aunt bc she’s more reasonable and I’m high key crazy.

59: what’s your favorite myth?I like all the Greek mythology type things

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?Yes I love poetry, and I have so many favorites but some of my favorite poets are Rupi kuar, clementine von radics, and Shane koyczan

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?I’m not sure omg. I’m gonna skip this one I’m sorry lmao

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?I normally drink coffee in the morning, but if I drink juice it’s probably apple juice

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?I just leave them be. I don’t like things to look structured and perfect.

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?It’s black bc it’s night time lol

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?Yes, all of my friends from my old school :(

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?It would have lots and lots of daisies and some lavender

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?I actually like those days, I feel kind of relaxed.

68: what’s winter like where you live?It’s almost never cold. It’ll be like 60 in December, this year it was 80 degrees on Christmas fml

69: what are your favorite board games?I don’t know?? I used to love a game called mouse trap

70: have you ever used a ouija board?Nope

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?I love earl grey.

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?Even if I write it down I’ll forget it 🙃

73: what are some of your worst habits?I pick at the skin around my nails 😕

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.They have short blackish brownish hair, they’re SUPER tall, they have really pretty green/blue eyes and they’re so funny. They could say one thing and probably get me to pee my pants from laughing so hard. I’ve known them for years and I’d do anything in the world for them.

75: tell us about your pets!I have a cat who is my baby, her name is Olivia and she’s a grey tabby with green eyes. She has THE LOUDEST purr ever and she’s constantly meowing. She’s such a sweetheart and I love her so much oml that cat is my life. And then my mom has a dog named gizmo, he’s a tiny little white dog who doesn’t know how to bark or anything. He’s seriously so weird idk what’s wrong with him lmao.

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?I should be sleeping but I’m not aye

77: pink or yellow lemonade?Pink

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?I H A T E MINIONS

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?My girlfriend asked me out in a really cute way, I’ll post pictures later bc I’m on mobile and I can’t attach pictures rn 🙃

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?They’re like a minty blue color and I chose it bc I thought it was pretty

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.His eyes are like two brown circles with black dots in the middle

82: are/were you good in school?I’m good behavior wise but my grades suck

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?This is gonna be SUCH a big surprise, but I like the Devil and God are Raging Inside Me album art

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?I’m planning on getting tons of tattoos. Wayyyyyy too many to describe lmao

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?I used to rad the star trek comics, bc I’m a huge Star Trek nerd lmao. I still have a bunch of copies.

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?I do but I can’t think of any off the top of my head lol 87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?The perks of being a wallflower for sure. And I don’t know of any others, I don’t watch a lot of movies.

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?I’m not a big art person, so I don’t know all the names and all of that. I like street art though I guess? Is that like an official thing? Idk.

89: are you close to your parents?I think so.

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.I love Austin, it’s such a cool place. And if you ever get the chance you should definitely go. There’s great food, and you can always find some kind of concert or something in the area. There’s cool little shops and places to hang out. It’s a cool place.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?I would love to go to Seattle, but idk if that’ll happen lol

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?I drown my pasta in cheese oops

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?I wear my hair up in a bun a lot. 80% of the time you’ll see me with my hair up in a bun.

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?My grandma just had her birthday about a week ago :)

95: what are your plans for this weekend? I’ll have Saturday detention. Yay 🙃

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?I procrastinate them like crazy lmao

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?I haven’t taken the myer Briggs test yet, I’m a Gemini, and slytherin

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?About 3 or 4 years ago, I loved it

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.https://open.spotify.com/user/alexandra.taegen/playlist/5eHOy0ylB74vZLsovgZSUxThis entire playlist ^

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?5 years into the future, bc then hopefully I’d be living in Seattle with my girlfriend and we’d be happy.

[goblinkind]

Even numbers for the newest ask meme!

These are actually hella fucking cute y’all

2. Do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

No I do NOT like it because I hate it!!!

4. How do you take your coffee/tea?

I either drink black coffee or coffee with cream in it. I do not like sugar in my coffee ever at all.

I do like to pour honey in my tea, though.

6. Do you keep plants?

Yep! I have three plants at college and one plant at my grandma’s house. (I used to have more, but I gave them to my friend Cassie.)

8. What artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

Pencils, ink and markers are my go-to. I also use watercolor pencils on occasion.

10. Do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

Sometimes I sleep on my back; sometimes I sleep on my side. Never on my stomach, though, because my boobs don’t like it.

12. What’s your favorite planet?

It hasn’t been discovered yet, but I know it’s out there!

14. If you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

Gay.

16. What’s your favorite pasta dish?

It’s, uh, Velveeta mac and cheese. I just bought an eight-pack of it last night!

18. Tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

Uh, well… there was the time I introduced myself to this dude (who’s literally always stoned) and he thought my name was Genevieve. My friend Eli went to correct him, but I interrupted them and just went along with it.

It’s been like three months and the dude still thinks my name is Genevieve.

20. What’s your favorite eye color?

Brown!

22. Are you a morning person?

Noooo.

24. Is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

Honestly, no. My secrets are secret for a reason.

26. What are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

It used to be my black studded boots, but I basically wore them to death. So now it’s my white Nikes.

28. Sunrise or sunset?

Sunset!

30. Think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

Uh, yeah. I get “truly scared,” like, every single night when I remember that one scary movie series I watched two years ago.

32. Tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

Okay. One night morning, my BFF K and I were, y’know, havin’ a sleepover

And I think he left the room to like, to go pee or something

And I kinda just rambled to myself the entire time he was gone

And he came back but I didn’t notice

And I told this loooong bullshit story about a dude who, like, does weird stuff to freak out his neighbors or some shit

And that’s how my OC Mug was born.

34. Tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? What does it look like? Do you still keep it?

Her name is Birdy and she’s a canary from IKEA who gets nosebleeds. She’s yellow and has embroidered-on big red nostrils and blue eyes and K’s mom sewed up her wings (which were starting to fall off) and my roommate sewed up her tummy (which got bitten by a dog). Of course I still have her. She’s in my dorm room right now.

36. Which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

Fall Out Boy! They make me feel tough but also nostalgic. I was listening to “Where Did the Party Go?” today in the shower.

38. Tell us about your pet peeves!

That’s easy: when someone tries to correct me but it turns out they’re the one who’s wrong. (This happens a lot with grammar.)

40. Think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s its story? Does it have any meaning to you?

Cassie gave me a necklace with an agate and amethyst pendant on it for Christmas. There isn’t really a story behind it other than that, though. I just really love Cassie.

42. Do you have a favorite coffee shop? Describe it!

I really like the Panera next to my old outpatient facility! I used to show up early and go there and draw Rick and Morty fan art. It was nice to have some time to ground myself before a long day of therapy.

44. When was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

Uh, last night, probably. Last night when I was falling asleep.

46. Tell us the worst pun you can think of.

I can’t. I can’t think of one at the moment. But here’s a good one that somebody else made!

48. What was your biggest fear as a kid? Is it the same today?

It was “people with scary smiles who wanted to hurt me”

And yeah, that’s still my biggest fear. I’m also still scared of scary music.

50. What’s an odd thing you collect?

I collect hex codes! Sometimes I’ll thumb through them when I’m taking a study break and it’ll calm me down.

52. What are your favorite memes of the year so far?

I still don’t entirely understand it, but I do enjoy the “you know I had to do it to ‘em” meme!

54. Who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

Uhhhh, Max.

56. What are some things you find endearing in people?

I like people who say things in a funny way. Like, what they’re saying isn’t necessarily funny, but the words they use and their inflection are.

My dad is one of those people. One time, my family was all packed into the car after a vacation in the mountains. My mom got out to check that we hadn’t left anything in the hotel room, and when she came back, my dad yelped. He’d spilled some of her Diet Coke on his hand.

My mom: What? What’s wrong?

My dad: *very agitated* It’s this—this—this Coca-Cola!! >:( >:( >:(

58. Who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? Why?

At one point, Max has figured out who was whom. I don’t remember what they ended up deciding, though. I’ll have to ask them later.

60. Do you like poetry? What are some of your fav[orite poems]?

I do! My dad is actually a published poet. When I was little, he wrote a poem out of a bunch of nonsense that I’d said and he’d written down and saved. That’s my favorite poem.

(P.S. If you want to read two other poems by my dad, click here.)

62. Do you drink juice in the morning? Which kind?

I know it’s kinda weird, but I’ve fallen into the habit of ordering a lemonade every morning before class.

64. What color is the sky where you are right now?

It’s like, kinda white. White-grey I guess. Mostly just white.

66. What would your ideal flower crown look like?

It would look just like the one Eli made me for my birthday, but with spikes!

68. What’s winter like where you live?

In a word? HORRIBLE.

70. Have you ever used a Ouija board?

Yeah, with my friend Spooks. It spelled out “E-D H-E-L-M-S.”

72. Are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

Yes! Because of my OCD, I get very anxious whenever I forget anything. So the writing stuff down that I do can actually be an unhealthy compulsion in my case.

74. Describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

Uh, okay. Well I have this friend who’s kinda sassy and says weird stuff. They’re gay and they talk about their S/O a lot. Also they always make jokes about how they’re ready to die and it’s kind of concerning.

And they have a soft pretty voice and like to wear long skirts. And I love them. And I wish I could see them more but I know there’s a good reason why I can’t.

Oh! And they’re really smart.

76. Is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

…I don’t like this question.

78. Are you in the Minion hateclub or fanclub?

I do hate Minions, but I wouldn’t say I’m in their hateclub because I also associate them with my therapist. And I love my therapist.

80. What color are your bedroom walls? Did you choose that color? If so, why?

My bedroom walls at home are lavender. I chose the color when I was younger because it used to be my favorite. (I’m still really happy with the walls.)

82. Are/were you good in school?

Nope!

84. Are you planning on getting tattoos? Which ones?

Probably not. My parents don’t believe in tattoos.

86. Do you like concept albums? Which ones?

Does Crybaby count as a concept album? I like Crybaby!

88. Are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

I like the meme-y one that made everyone confused and angry. Dadaism. I like that one.

90. Talk about your one of you favorite cities.

I really like Seattle! It has a lot of jerks in it but it’s fun to walk around and it has fun festivals and art fairs. Plus, I hear it has some really cool gay neighborhoods.

92. Are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

The former. I love cheese.

94. Who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

Eli! Their birthday was last Friday.

96. Do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

I tend to stay pretty on top of my computer updates.

98. When’s the last time you went hiking? Did you enjoy it?

It was over the summer and NO. I HAAAATED it.

100. If you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? Why?

I’d go to the future. Everyone knows it’s safer to mess with the future than with the past!

[jes-chillin]

tuesday // july 3, 2018

based on a poll on I put on instagram during a regular afternoon at the neighborhood pool, I have decided to give lifestyle blogging the old college try. fun fact: I have had a Tumblr account since 2007, which means I have been on this website for over TEN years. that seems entirely too long, but at least I know how to work it.

the reason I want to start blogging is because I have realized I cannot write everyday into a poem. I certainly write poems to express complex thoughts, but not everything is that deep. my second poetry book will be coming out this fall and I'm really excited to anxiously put myself out there again. like all personal things written, it comes with a content warning about various topics. this book is far more edgy than the last. I go into my depression and body image issues more than I ever felt that I wanted to, but if that makes one person feel less alone, I am happy. 

anyway, I have lots going on in my life. I just moved out of my parents house for the first time since I graduated college in 2017. this time last summer, I was a different person. I don’t think I would have ever guessed that I am who I have become over the short twelve months. I used to journal privately on this platform, and I want to share an excerpt from that to express how far I've come for my own reference of growth. I'm going to include that at the end of this post. 

In addition to moving, I've recently started a new job at the local blood bank. my job is extremely important because I am the person who puts on the blood drives in town. the blood from these drives go directly to the local hospitals to patients I'm sure I know. if these drives do not happen, people do not get what they need. cancer patients need blood transfusions constantly. when high schools are out, our supply is cut by 25%. this doesn't cause me too much anxiety because my coworkers are amazing people. I previously worked for a corporate company that sold medical billing and coding software to hospitals. I absolutely despised everyday I went to work and was treated very poorly by a majority of my coworkers. to this day, I still don’t fully understand how insurance and medical billing works. this leads me to believe the problem with the health insurance in our country is larger than I once understood it to be. working at a nonprofit organization has always been my end goal. I am making significantly less money than I was at the software company, but I sleep well at night knowing that I just gave a child with cancer another day with their family. 

while all of this is happening, my Dad is also dealing with a moderately common illness that heavily weighs on top of many good things I’ve been experiencing. he is healing from a horrific battle of diverticulitis. this is an infection in the intestines that can involve the removal of some of the large intestine-- AKA my Dad’s case. he is perfectly fine and in much better spirits than even he could’ve anticipated, but it is still a waiting game until his second surgery. sometimes the heavy nature of this causes me to randomly start weeping at work, right before bed, or in the grocery store. when that happens, I let it all out because I'm a human being. if I hold it in, I will probably explode. keeping a brave face in front of my parents while living at home turned me into an olympic poker (face) player. me? stressed out and depressed? no, you got the wrong guy!

anyway, the clouds in life will always exist. they will swell and thunder all over your good time. that’s why there are so many cheesy movies about dancing and falling in love in the rain. I was showering in my apartment yesterday afternoon and feeling wonderful about myself for the first time in a while. me and Brian were going to go food shopping and then coming home and rest for the first night in our new place. I was elated. while I was scrubbing the soap out of my hair, it dawned on me that this would not be forever. I will be going back to work next week. my Monday will look different. I will probably dread food shopping because of exhaustion. I will be anxious about my first day back at work after a week off. I will have so much to catch up on. I could feel the wrinkles in my forehead forming. before I completely locked up, I took a deep breath and said, “what is the point of worrying about next week? why can’t I just be happy about this right now?” and with that, I softened immediately. my smile came back and I laughed at my anxious mind for always having something to say. I ended up having a great time.

as I type this, I am sitting in my favorite coffee shop in town. I walked here from my new apartment, which is the most beautiful place I have ever lived and never once thought I could afford. in fact, I toured that apartment two years prior and cried on the drive home when I learned the cost of rent, feeling hopeless in ever being able to afford it. I just read some of Dale Carnegie’s work, and I'm going to make lemon blueberry cookies when I walk home. standing in the way of happiness being your normal is going to leave you in a state of constant disappointment, so letting the clouds hang out until the sky clears up feels like the way to be here. right now is that only time that truly exists anyway.

***pics: my fav coffee shop ft. a cafe americano before I got too hot outside***

“everyday comes with new thoughts, good and bad. much like the movie 50 first dates, i wake up seeing each day as a blank slate for the improbable, the fearful, or even the death of me. okay, Drew Barrymore doesn’t wake up like that everyday, but she wakes up each day as if the one before it is completely different than the one ahead of her. are you still with me? therefore, each day I must relearn just a little bit about how to cope with any new anxieties or fears that arise. you’re probably wondering, why are you sitting around and trying to come up with new things to be worried about? i’ll tell you why. i am a fortune teller. just kidding, no i’m not, and that is what makes me anxious. i fear the unknown, and i feel like a newborn child everyday. i feel as though each day is a day of opportunity for doom that i don’t know how to cope with. it’s sort of like I’m a toddler who has yet to know about object permanence and when someone takes away my food, i assume all food is gone and will starve to death. it’s very bizarre, and it isn’t new to me at all. i have been this way all my life to some extent, weaving in and out of terror to always come out to the other side and realize that i have survived by my own accord, and nobody else’s. so, why do i still sit around and try and make life a little harder than average for myself? that I don’t have the answer to yet, but i do have some insight. i just graduated college with two degrees– one in public heath and one in anthropology. what else… oh i don’t know what i want to do with them.” - An old blog post from June 2017