#if u want mya ctual thoughts on what their polycule situation was and not uh

[seishun-emergency]

kindaichi and kunimi act like kageyama's exes. it's the bitterness of seeing him after having broken up with him for things about himself that he could have changed and worked on and would have allowed the relationship to continue and realizing that in the time since you last saw him and now he's done all the work you'd hoped he would have done for you. and you sit there and you ask yourself why couldn't he have changed for me why didn't i get the kageyama that cares about his spikers and listens to the people around him and tries so hard to communicate and what about them is better and what don't i have that they so clearly do

(and then the real tragedy is that it was never a matter of being better or having some unnamed quality it was just a matter of time and circumstance and yet the bitterness and the envy still take so long to fade)