#if u have thiughts also.id LOVE to hear them
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everyone im rlly close too that doesnt dabble in ttyd does not rlly follow this acc so im rambling here
for some reason i feel like maybe there was a time when vivian had a different name that was given to her, one she didint like . or i think that could be a thing
and the thought of her constant uphill battle of confusion and then wanting to try something different. asking for this change and it being a huge problem. that internalized self hate stuff blossoming
and when she finally gets past that goalpost of wanting the name "vivian" granted, she feels relief and feels like maybe shes doing something right. but of course theres the whole. 1 step forward 2 steps back thing thats happening. so while she mightve gone forward theres always pushback from beldam and her own self doubt
and the past just manifests in her guilt about if shes right. even though its so clear and through , and the end of the tunnel is so close, theres doubt that lingers, even if she cant remember it to the fullest extent of what it used to be
(and yes im going insane bcus of this song. im going crazy.its literally her)
this can also apply to the chimera au .. people who dont care about that stop reading here im getting autism about it
the whole. becoming something you arent to do the bidding of another , but this time its worse and youve lost yourself.sure she had control of herself before but the only thing keeping her loyal to her sisters was the guilt and familial aspect. all it took was mario being kind to her and understanding to break free from that
but as a chimera shes entirely out of control, being a puppet for something far worse than beldam could ever be. she isnt vivian anymore, but meerly a shadow puppet for the queen. now, she has no choice
sure, maybe she retains some personality .. but now she belongs to the enemy. becoming something she isnt against her will after discovering something about herself so crucial just makes me fall to my knees honestly. the irony of it all
#im having passing thoughts like these every single day but i feel almost embarrassed abt them bcus im the only one i know who probably#thinks of stuff like this.i was Never into mario stuff like this before. it wasnt my forté#now i feel like a fake fan for getting so emotional over ideas like this but its okay.its okay#i dont mind rotting over this by myself to nobody#im totally not foaming at the mouth or anything#and yes i care about vivian so much.ithink about her everyday#ideas like this make me feel like a crazy scientist who everyone hates#but its okay im thriving im dying im blooming im killing myself ect ect#pm:ttyd#ttyd#vivian#vivian ttyd#link's lectures#if u have thiughts also.id LOVE to hear them#im so normal (lying)(lying))(#(lying)
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