#if this isnt peak autism idk what is

[ilyushin18]

had a dream last night where North Korea and the UK signed a peace treaty so they could send a ilyushin il 18 to my doorstop just 4 me as a gift for doing my homework.

[gontagokuhara]

who want me

absolutely allergic to not writing in pure yappanese girl shut UP!!!!!

[dykeyote]

idk why im metaposting about a game from 2013 everything thats been said has been im sure but i think its SO good at giving you this feeling of dissatisfaction that holds you in its grip because its SO good at giving you a happy ending . but not letting it be Enough . all the ingredients of a happy ending are there but when you mix them all up it just forms Nothing it is perfectly satisfactory but never satisfies and i think the major way that tahts done is that it creates an ending . that satisfies Everyone Except You . not stanley but you, the player. it formulates these happy ending fakeouts where all the pieces of a happy ending that ought to satisfy you in the same way something like the true pacifist ending of undertale should but it Just Doesnt.

the two examples i think of for this are the ending where you follow all the instructinos to the letter and the red door ending but in VERY different ways

for the “good ending” its this feeling that . you OUGHT to feel satisfied here something ought to feel good in you. you completed the game! you did everything right! you followed every instruction to the letter and you have made all of the characters happy. the narrator is happy because you followed all of his instructions. stanley is happy because he is freed of mind control. but are you happy? what did you truly gain from this experience? the gameplay was uncomplicated and required no effort on your part, just a basic instruction following and walking in the right place. you barely had any time to get attached to these characters, to feel for their joy or sadness. you just followed instructions. there doesnt feel like theres any closure not because the book hasnt been Closed but because it hasnt been Opened. nothing has started here. there is no game, only the ending to one. in every capacity this is a Good Ending but it is the least satisfying, the least interesting, the least fulfilling

and the red door ending i think is like,,, the same basic concept but Just a little off. it seems strange to call this ending a Happy Ending when its one of the most heartbreaking in the entire game but thats WHY i think it fits this so well and where this idea of unsatisfying happy endings hits its peak. the narrator is happy. the sky is beautiful, and filled with pretty colors and stars. everything is at peace. but the game doesnt end. there is no more fun dialogue that you can garner from just…. standing in the room. you dont get a nice little happy cutscene for achieving this ending where you can finally set aside the narrator and stanleys differences, or even a reset. theres just…. sitting there. staring at colors. silence. you must content yourself with the narrator’s happiness and nothing more to truly feel accomplished by this ending, and the game doesnt even give you the dignity of Ending at that accomplishment like in the earlier example . and THAT i think is where this concept peaks this idea that everyone in the game can be happy and you will still not be satisfied the way that the Only way to get an Ending in this scene is to make every single party involved feel awful you need to absolutely wreck the narrator through anxiety and pleading to resigned depression you need to throw stanley off a tall drop Over and Over and Over you need to take everything that made this ending Good and wreck it beyond comprehension i think thats FASCINATING 

this isnt anything new im sure this is basic info but i just thought it was fun . im int he clutches of autism and didnt paly this game when it was popular the first time let me blather . idk what the point of this post is tsp is just a realy good game 

[lilnoobie]

know about me!

im vv anxious

self conscious and insecure

i have panic/anxiety attacks

im introverted and i cant handle too much stimulation

i may be too verbal or not verbal at all, it fluctuates

i need straightforward communication, i need honesty, if youre not clear i may get confused

miscommunication might be common as i dont always know how to say what i mean clearly

really bad rejection sensitivity disorder

im considered hyper empathetic and very sensitive to others around me if my empathy isnt drained (which it normally is)

you dont have to treat me like fine china but honesty and kindess is rlly all id want in a convo/rp

i tend to believe ive done smthn wrong or seem off or annoy others, so if i get annoying or anything, please tell me, id rather have an honest response than a wellmeaning lie, as lying will hurt me more tbh

i have adhd (and possibly autism too, unsure)

i hyperfixate on tons of different things! i really like sonic the hedgehog, the lion king, nbc hannibal, and other medias! i also really like animals of all kinds but i mostly prefer cats.

bad things for me

being too social (or around too many people)

bright lights

loud sounds

being ignored

rudeness or creepiness

being vulnerable

about me!

im open for roleplay but im anxious and shy, so please be nice and understanding

i like a lot of baby stuff (im scared to admit, idk it feels weird) like diapers and pacis and bottles etc.

i draw a lot and color too! i might draw or color smthn for you if we interact! i do this to show that i care about you/think about you!

i love plushies and stuffies! ive got a little collection irl! i also rlly like action figures!!

i like to read comics (that are easy to read, too much detail is not my thing)!

i also like specific cartoons (tom and jerry, sonic boom, sonic x, pokemon, alvin and the chipmunks (80s), etc)! i dont like steven universe, the owl house, she ra, etc. those shows annoy me for some reason.

media i enjoy specifically for agere !

(plus the characters i prefer as caretakers in fanfic!)

doctor who (tenth doctor, donna noble, twelfth doctor, clara oswald, thirteenth doctor, yaz khan, graham o'brien, dan lewis)

sonic the hedgehog (doctor eggman, shadow the hedgehog, rouge the bat, amy rose)

five nights at freddys security breach (sun/moon/daycare attendant/etc)

poppy playtime (huggy wuggy, kissy missy)

death stranding (cliff unger)

hannibal nbc (hannibal lecter, will graham)

twilight (carlisle cullen)

camp camp (david, gwen)

good omens (aziraphale, crowley)

mao mao (mao mao, badgerclops)

ok ko lets be heroes (professor venomous ((NO BOXMAN I DONT LIKE BOXMAN))

twin peaks (dale cooper)

rick and morty (rick sanchez ((specifically from season 4))

sanctuary (helen magnus, will zimmerman, john druitt, nikola tesla, james watson)

solar opposites (korvo, terry)

scrubs (perry cox, john dorian, christopher turk, carla espinosa, jordan sullivan)

stan against evil (stan miller, evie barret)

gravity falls (stan pines, ford pines)

robots (2005) (rodney copperbottom)

harry potter (severus snape)

constantly updating this btw so changes will occur