#if they're endgame it'll be weird and pointless imo

[chaos0pikachu]

because their relationship is inherently unbalanced and Top keeps it that way.

Top pursued Mew specifically for his virginity card, that was the only reason he even approached Mew. While he was willing to open up to Mew that night about his singular trauma the only reason he was even at Mew's house is because he pushed past Mew's boundaries to stay.

Mew sets a boundary, Top pushes it, Mew compromises his own boundary.

Mew tells Top he can't spend the night with him, Top pushes saying he'll stay on the couch instead, Mew relents. Mew says he isn't going to shower with Top (ep03), Top says he's seen Top shirtless before so it's fine, Mew relents. Top tells every one of Mew's friends he's Mew's boyfriend, but doesn't tell Beam at the club, Mew calls him out on this later, Top side steps the question by telling Mew Beam is his drug dealer not his hookup.

The biggest red flag was in ep04 where Mew says they need to be honest with each other and Top says he has nothing to hide - ya know, like a liar - because he IS hiding things.

is the fact he slept with Boston like, 2 weeks ago, and 2) being that he does hard drugs he's got his coke dealer on speed dial the man comes to his house

Mew says, I don't want to date someone who does hard drugs, Top responds with fine I'll stop but only if you give me a reward (ie in exchange for sex), Mew relents.

There relationship has no equal ground. Top might like Mew, but he doesn't respect him. If he did he wouldn't be trying to subtly pull Mew away from Ray all the time (as soon as ep03). He's possessive, and boundary pushing, just in a subtle way so Mew doesn't pick up on it. He might not even realize he's doing it because he's so used to getting what he wants - something he tells Boston in ep01.

Even in this episode Mew comments on Boston and Nick, and Top is clearly bothered/jealous. Why? He doesn't like Boston but he probably does feel possessive over him to some degree. It's why he stole Sand's ex, he felt like he could, that they were his, so he did.

Mew's enamored and he doesn't have all the information so he's only seeing a this kindly side of Top and ignoring the boundary pushing.

why does top and mew's relationship feel so forced? it's like they're treading through all the steps of being a happy couple (the cute perfect dates, the premature i love yous -yikes-, the posting on instagram) and yet it all seems so superficial.

top goes with it because he needs company at night and mew (believes he) needs to stop being a prude and catch up to his peers. but do they really need each other specifically or is it just about convenience? tbh I'm getting nothing from them chemistry-wise