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HER VANILLA GREED (M) park sunghoon.
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featuring. enemy!park sunghoon who gets a taste of you and now he can't get enough, consumed with greed that can never be satiatedâ albeit barely just quenched for a while. directory?
warnings. smut!! kinda dom!sunghoon feeling crazy. enemies pouncing on e/o, prn with bits of plot, rough sex, unprotected (wrap your willy pls), swearing, mentions of multiple acts.
part of, hold your breath event. prompts include âthatâs it, fuck, thatâs a good girl.â & fucking someone so good that they struggle to kiss you back. ( wordcount, 944. )
JZLYN notes â± hope y'all enjoy it! & if you do please leave comments & feedbacks it keeps me going! & lastly please reblog!!
you loved vanilla and sunghoon loved your vanilla.
it's uncharacteristic of him to feel this way for his enemy, definitely; but after that one time he ate you out for a heated game of dare or drink, he has just gotten addicted. so so addicted that every time he catches a glimpse of you around the house he cannot help imagining the taste of you on his tongue, the waft of your scent dancing edges on him.
it was an accidentâ a one time mistake if he may say. and how it turned into a regular thing? he has no recollection of it. the only thing he remembers are the spontaneous blowjobs in the kitchen to imprudently eating you out on the couch at any given chance you both got. which is whenever considering you live together.
oral had been the go to, for the past two months. no matter how turned on you both got, you just never threaded that line of linking more closely. making out and grinding against each other, sliding his cock against your panty clad pussy, jerking him off while he fingerfucked you; moaning into each other's mouth as you finished. but never hitting it in.
but tonight something changedâ something triggered.
a night together at one of the newly opened bars downtown. shots of alcohol in your systems and raging jealousy at others pawing for your attention away from each other. it was mutual, the way you both grew desperate and covetous. like you owned the other, your prizedâ no, unwarranted possession.
âthatâs it, fuck, thatâs a good girl.â sunghoon rasps as he slides in, inch by inch, breath by breath. calloused hands gripping the tender skin of your waist, holding you up and pulling you closer by your hips. your legs wrapped around him like a cage of lust.
the veins in his cock throb with your warm cunt engulfing him. tight, slickâ and fuck it's full of your vanilla smearing all over his throbbing and twitching length.
mind a big mush, sweating dripping along sunghhonâs silver chain dangling between your thighs as he bottoms out. hissing out a line of curses at the feeling, his grip on you tightening.
âgod your pussyâs insaneâ can't believe âwas gonna miss out on this,â sunghoon mutters out in a hushed whisper, words tumbling out in a single breath as he tries to compose himself. but it's so hard. his cock is so hard and keeping himself from completely ravaging you for his pleasure is making it even harder.
the sight of you is criminally arousing. your hands clutching at sheets above your head, dress tugged down and barely hanging low above your hips. skin flushed with sweat and your breaths coming out in soft anticipating gasps while you wait for him to start moving. it's atrocious how he does not feel disgusted at the even the glimpse of his enemy laying bare and inviting and with his cock inside her.
âpark, moveââ you let out a demanding whine. wiggling your hips against his balls in a futile attempt with his hands holding you still.
âyou don't gotta tell me,â it does not take him a second to start thrusting. pulling all the way out till the tip and pushing back in a rough, brutal and almost hurtfully bruising smack. it's always been annoying to hear you call him âparkâ instead of his name, triggering irritation above all. but something about the way it slips and rolls off your pretty little pink tongue right now just turns him on so bad, it's sickeningly annoying. it's sickeningly lewd.
sunghoon's pace gradually increases along with his sheer desperation to somehow want you more and more even when he's balls deep in you and painfully holding in the bursts of cum threatening to gush out amid each thrust.
his hands move to cup your cheeks, squeezing your lips into a pucker before he leans down to devour them in a messy and sloppy kiss. one that you can barely keep up with. mouth falling open in wild moans and your back arching so prettily into him, he can feel the hair on your skin standing, the slight trembles passing over you and heat emanating off in quick shivers.
it drives him crazy. your drooling reflection in his eyes as he pulls away to get off at the view of you struggling to remain lucid. his thumb skimming onto your wet glossed lips and smearing it over to your cheek.
you stick your tongue out at his touch, eyes closed in a sensual lick against his fingers and sunghoon loses it. grabbing your hair to tug your head back as he starts pounding into you, crazed and frantic.
âfuckâ why do you have to be so goddamn hot, fuck fuck fuckâ this isâ fuckâ ridiculous.â he grunts out in shuddering and shaky breaths. his head thrown back and mouth fallen open alike. he still cannot believe he's fucking you, and absolutely not how fucking sinfully good it feels. his enemy and roommate, two no-zones: crossed at once. and if that was not enough already, he did not have the patience to slip on a condom. and fuck does it feel like you'll milk him out dry.
âshit i can't stand looking at youâ you're gonna make me cum so fast,â each drag, each glide so torturously pleasurable.
âthen cum. fill me up,â you mumble out, managing to graze your fingers along his chest and down to his lower abs. sunghoon groans at those words, his stomach churning and clenching up at the sensations.
he's gonna turn your vanilla into vanilla whipped cream he swears.
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fantasizing about bf! katsuki paying for his pretty little girlfriend's nails because he wants to spoil you rotten.
at first, you were reluctant to book an appointment because you didn't have the time or the money. however, your pro hero boyfriend was wealthy, insistent, and super fucking stubborn.
âwoman, if itâs something you want, iâll pay for it," katsuki says softly, enjoying the feeling of resting his chin on the top of your head.
you were currently cuddling on your shared bed in the apartment, one of those slow days where you both had nothing to do but relax in each others arms. "i can drive you there if its a problem. no big deal.â
"katsuki, i can't ask you to do that," you say, looking up at him. "its too much. i'll just buy press ons or somethingâ"
katsukiâs face scrunches up in the disgust at the idea of you using those press ons. back when you just moved in a few months into the relationship, those damn press ons were always everywhere around the apartment.
and sometimes, it'd get awkward when you're digging your nails into his flesh, moaning softly around him as he thrusts into you but then you make him stop half-way because your nail fell from the bed.
it got to the point where he found one of them under the drawer where you kept your... toys, and he knew they had to go. it took you some convincing, so he wasn't about let his hard work die in vain now.
"fuck no. i ainât letting you walk around wearin' that cheap ass shit again," he scowled at you. "and the hell you canât ask me. you're not askin', i'm offerin.â
"i dunno, katsuki..." you bit your bottom lip, reluctant to accept. it was nice that your boyfriend wanted to treat you but you couldn't help but feel guilty. "i don't wanna bother you. i don't need it that much 'nyway. and you could just spend your money on.. well, other things."
"the only thing botherin' me is you being difficult," he pouts at you, leaning down to give your lips a soft peck. "so, sweets, shut up. just let me take care of you, alright?"
and you were grateful you let him take care of you as you admired your freshly done nails a few days later, the glossy finish catching the light perfectly. you couldnât stop smiling, especially when you remembered telling your nail tech about katsuki and she told you: "girl, hes so doing this because hes gonna propose. please say yes, for the love of god!"
of course, you wanted to express your gratitude for him. and what better way to thank him by wrapping your hands around his cock, fingers lingering on his length, showing off your new nails to him?
"fuck," katsuki hisses, breath shallow as he looks down at you. "god, baby, you look so pretty like this..."
you were on your knees, only wearing his shirt and your panties as a hand jerks off his length. the other holds his hand, fingers intertwined as you mouthed at his cock. you licked on the throbbing, pink tip, sucking the precum out of him with a blissed out expression.
you almost looked like you were in a trance. and seeing you there, looking all pretty and disheveled like a succubus, never failed to make his cock hard.
"yeah?" you look up at him with smiling eyes, pulling away from his cock with a soft, wet pop, rubbing a thumb on his aching tip before flicking your tongue at it again.
katsuki canât hold back the soft moan that leaves his lips, his head lolling back as he tries to keep his breathing under control. he groans, his hips bucking against your touch.âfuckin' hell, woman, yeah.. so pretty.. just like that..."
katsuki's hand tightens around yours, looking at your newly manicured nails. he lifts your hand up, admiring them. the glossy finish really does look so pretty on you.
âfuck. they look so beautiful,â he murmurs, bringing your hand up to his lips and pressing a soft kiss to your knuckles. "look so beautiful wrapped around my cock..."
"thank you, baby.." you flush a little, your tongue swirling around his tip. "..really appreciate it, i do. hope this serves as a nice thank you.."
katsukiâs face is tinged with a faint blush, his expression softening at your words.
âno need to thank me, sweets. your happiness is all the thanks i need. but thisâ shit,â he lets out a low moan when you suck on his tip again. "this is always.. a nice surprise..â
"surprise?" you smile. "you didn't think i'd do this to you..." you lap up his tip in between words. "after being so nice to me?"
katsuki lets out a quiet laugh, âyou wanted to make me feel good, sweets? yeah? that why youâre on your knees for me?â
he gives you a playful grin, watching as your hand continues to move over his cock. his free hand tucks a strand on hair in between your ears, cupping your cheek. âalways my good girl..â
you flush with embarrassment, thighs clenching from his words. "shut up.. bet if i bought you something you like, you'd go down on me too..."
katsuki canât help but bark out a laugh at your comment, the image of you buying him a gift and him then going down on you was an appealing thought. but. he grabs your chin and tilts it up, forcing you to look at him and slowing down the pace.
âoh, baby. iâd make you feel so good. i'd eat you out like you were my last meal."
he gestures for you to open your mouth, his thumb tugging down your chin. and when you do, he suddenly spits on your tongue. you felt strangely vulnerable, swallowing it as his thumb rubs your swollen lips.
"but no way youâre buying me shit. thatâs my job. to spoil you," his eyes darken at the sight of you sucking on his thumb, roaming over the concave of your mouth.
embarassment rose to your cheeks as you looked up at him, feeling flustered. "but... i wanna spoil you too."
he lets out a low hiss, feeling the vibrations of your hum around his thumb. he pulls his thumb out, his hand coming down to grab your chin, leaning down to face you.
"don't even think about it, sweets. i'm not asking," he tilts his head at you with a pout. "if you so much as buy me a pack of gum, iâm going to take you on a trip to bali."
your eyes widened in surprise, not sure how to, and voice your concern. a trip to bali would be great, but you just wanted to give him something too. "isn't that... uhm, isn't that a bit much?"
"don't give a shit. just let me have this one, alright?" he sighs, looking down at you.
"i want to take care of you," katsuki stroked your cheek with his thumb, a small smile creeping onto his face. "i like seeing that smile on your face when i do. makes me happy."
you felt your heart almost burst, looking at him with what feels like so much affection. he was just showing you so much love, how could you not melt?
katsuki knew he was getting soft, clicking his tongue at you. he scoffs, rolls his eyes and squeezes your cheek. "your nails looks cute anyway. got that?"
you bit your lip. whats the worse he could do when you bought him something anyway? after a moment of contemplation, you nodded, katsuki's grin spreading across his lips.
"good. now, get up here and gimme a kiss."
you nodded again, your heart racing as you stood up and perched yourself on his lap, breath hitching when you feel his cock press against your damp panties before pulling him in for a gentle, but passionate kiss.
katsuki groans into the kiss as you straddle his lap, his hands immediately finding your hips and pressing you down against his bulge. you can feel how hard he is beneath you, whimpering as he deepens the kiss.
âsuch a pretty thing,â katsuki murmurs, feeling how wet you are against him, looking down at the heat of your arousals. âgettin' me this hard and still having this onâŠâ
katsuki's finger tugs on your panties as he kisses you in between words. he fists his cock, and hits the fat tip against your panties, hissing softly from underneath you. "you're so fuckin' wet, sweets, and i've barely even touched you..."
"katsuki..." you whimper, whining as you feel the head of his cock against you, almost kissing your clit through your panties. "please... can't handle it anymore... please, j-justâ"
katsuki lets out a soft growl, leaning into your shoulder to bite on the curve of the skin. you squeal when you feel his lips and teeth graze your shoulder, sinking into your flesh, just wanting more of him, whining his name.
"please what, baby?" he murmurs, kissing the skin he's bruised on you. "be a good girl and use your words."
"wanna.. say thank you," you gasp, slowly grinding yourself on him. "please... please, fuck me.. katsuki.."
katsuki grins against your skin. there she was. his needy little thing he loved so much, practically begging to be ruined.
youâre suddenly on your back, the couch cushion soft against your back.
âatta girl.. now weâre getting somewhere,â his hands are already on your shirt, roughly yanking it up. âyou gonna be a good girl and do what i tell you?â
you nodded eagerly, breathless as you let him strip you. not like you wanted anything else anyway. you tug down hard on your panties, tossing them to the floor and leaving you naked, your soft skin hitting the cold air.
katsuki watches as you kick off your panties, clearly looking all too pleased. he shifts, his torso hovering above you and caging you in between the couch. one hand moves up to your chin, pinning you to the couch and forcing you to look at him.
âyouâre gonna cum screaming my name, got it?â
you hold onto his back, nodding as you whine from underneath him, ready to take what he could give you.
and when your newly-manicured nails digged into his skin as he thrusts into you, hot red nail marks decorating his back, katsuki felt nothing but pure bliss.
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Cherry Picker [1]
«« "Do me a favour and forget your mouth guard next time. Let the puck punch you in the mouth if I can't." »»Â
Choi Seungcheol x reader | part of the winter with you collab hosted by @camandemstudios!
Part 1: 19k | Part 2
warnings: Hockey player! Seungcheol, figure skater! reader, *deep breath* ENEMIES TO LOVERS, angst, fluff, smut [MINORS DNI], toxic friends, cheol has anger issues, kkuma appearance, @miniseokminnies makes also makes a fluffy appearance, injuries, mentions of blood, smut tags in the next part
synopsis: Cherry Picking [ice hockey]: a manoeuver in which a player, the floater, literally loafs (spends time in idleness) or casually skates behind the opposing team's unsuspecting defencemen while they are in their attacking zone. There wasn't much you counted on in life; just your skates, your drive and how it felt to win. And of course, your local ice rink, that is now being colonised by an obnoxious hockey team in all their big, loud, stinking glory. Neither does it help that one particular red donned specimen forgets to leave his cherry picking on the ice.
[a/n] (it's a long one but PLEASE read) : ITS HERE FINALLY this was an extremely bumpy ride and I wouldn't have finished it without all of my friends who quite literally kept me going. I know I made an update saying this was gonna end up being 20k max but it turns out my yap-itis is for life </33
the posting schedule for this fic is going to be a little less predictable, I will try to get part 2 out asap but I do not currently have a date for you.
big thank you to @highvern for betaing and making me feel better about this fic, @amourcheol for talking me out of meltdowns multiple times and for giving me some really good scene pointers, @ugh-yoongi for being so patient w me and explaining how ice hockey works with so much patience. ty to @the-boy-meets-evil @tusswrites @lovetaroandtaemin for also proof reading for me đ„č
HUGE thank you to everyone at @camandemstudios who agreed to be part of this collab and being part of the journey as we grow 𫶠please check out the collab masterlist linked above, there's already so many amazing fics posted ready for you to read <33
that being said, I know more about figure skating than I do about hockey, but even so there are defo some inconsistencies in terms of accuracies in this, please bear with me 𫶠remember to reblog or send me an ask telling me your thoughts, id love to hear what you guys think đ„č masterlist
âCAN I HELP YOU?â
âIâm sorry,â you gravel out.Â
âSorry isnât gonna give back my hour and thirteen minutes.âÂ
The strap of your gym bag cuts into your bare shoulder where the collar had slipped, the tight threading sure to leave a scratch by the time this is bound to be done. Youâd managed to avoid coach Carrollâs morning cornering for a couple months, going above and beyond by showing up to the icy rink before she could even pull up in the parking lot in her blaring red Porsche, let alone before her ten minute meditations in her cream coloured seats.Â
âThere was an accident on the highway. Truck tipped over.â
âItâs eight in the morning,â Carroll points.
âIllegal truck, I guess.âÂ
Teeth to tongue, you know youâve done it.Â
Sheâs in her usual tracksuit, green today, that contrasts her bright red hair in its tight curls. Her glasses are her sensible Ralph Laurens, eyes piercing through the tinted lens as she holds her chin in her hands. Silent, calculating.Â
âFine. Change.âÂ
Your legs want to give out before you can even get your skates on.Â
There were many things Isabella Carroll was good at. The industry would have one of them be a good coach; one of the most expensive, the one that squeezed the life out of her students to inject into the golds, silvers and bronzes they would then bring her on an equally diamond encrusted platter.Â
She has also mastered the art of impeccable dressing downs.Â
The fact she chose to skip out on verbally humiliating you meant youâd managed to strike that cord. She might be leaving in the next 45 minutes, but she has a very particular way of stretching the minutes into years.Â
Like a whipped horse, you scurry into the locker rooms, skin crawling. Your gym bag is positively launched into your designated locker, shoes kicked off as you attempt to stick your right foot into your skates, narrowly missing your heel as it grazes right past the toe pick.Â
You slow down after that, not needing a scar on your heel to match the large one on the side of your calf.Â
By the time you jog back out, unzipping your jacket to throw onto one of the benches, coach is on the ice, following Marina who zips around on the other end of the rink in her step routine.Â
Itâs difficult to not rush through your warmups when youâre already late, your splits hardly pushed out as you pray all that running around in the desolate locker rooms was enough to stretch everything out.Â
Thereâs a crash on the illuminated ice as you slip off your skate guards, Marina already practising her Salchows. âYouâre in the air for enough time, why canât you rotate?!âÂ
Right blade first, you step into the cold encircling, gliding into the centre to begin making your usual rounds around the circumference.
Thereâs a positive screech of your name from across the ice, wind blowing in your hair as you turn to look. âDo I need to hire someone to hold up your free leg? Fix it, girl!â Â
Holding your left leg more taut, you attempt to transition into a jump and spin. You fail, landing on both feet. Somehow, falling on your ass felt like a better conclusion to that arc.Â
âWonderfully executed! Letâs try both hands on the ice too next time, really complete the contemporary finish,â coach hollers out to you as she continues to follow Marina at the same time.Â
Trying again, you manage to land on your outer left blade. You receive no comment.Â
You try the jump again, pushing into a sit spin.Â
The momentum is enough to begin the familiar slack in your scalp, your bun loosening its grip on your hair. Biting your tongue would be dangerous right now, but you would if you could, especially considering the ramifications of your hair coming undone in front of her.Â
The crouch as you spin burns your thighs like youâre being branded, pulling yourself back up as you finish abruptly. Still no comment, the unintelligible string of nagging coming from the other side of the rink.Â
Marina stands hands on her hips, breathing so heavily sheâs nearly heaving. Her blonde hair is loosening far worse than yours, strands framing her face. Coach Carroll waves her hands and shakes her head so quickly you wonder how her glasses havenât flown off. You didnât get to see what cardinal sin Marina committed to warrant this reaction, but you feel better knowing sheâs exhausted enough to let her insults swim past.Â
Ten seconds is enough to catch your breath, moving to do something busy enough to avoid another being screamed at across the ice, again.Â
By the end of the remaining forty five minutes, you realised your punishment was also punishing Marina. Coach Carroll remained tailing Marina as you attempted to do everything that would please her, far away from her. Not a direction, praise or neutral comment in sight or sound, sealed with her always expected retorts.Â
She leaves without a word, leaving you scrambling to the benches for a seat. Putting your skate guards on is torture, your legs refusing to pull up to reach them. You hardly notice Marina slam down into the seat beside you to mimic you slumped down and head lolled back, eyes closed to the bright ceiling.Â
âThese skates are gonna kill me,â you whine once youâve caught your breath, unlacing them to inspect the blistering damage.Â
âTheyâre brand new, what did you expect?â she retorts, moving to sit up straighter. Of course, you were grappling at straws expecting anything akin to sympathy from Marina.Â
It was your misfortune that the day you had to break in your skates was the day youâd be late, your heavily bandaged foot still aching as you sit idle.Â
Your lungs are still burning when you pull yourself back up, knees buckling the absolute slightest bit as you attempt to take the first baby step back onto the ice.Â
âWe need to get back to it,â Marina says, and you have half a mind to bite that you were up before her.Â
Sheâs faster at slipping off her skate guards though, and you watch her back as she glides back onto the ice. You follow suit, trailing her as you speak.Â
âHey, Iâm sorry Carroll was on your ass because of me. My alarm didnât go off this morning, I overslept.â
She turns to look at you, ghost of a smile on her face. âTime to go old school I guess, I think my brother left behind his old alarm clock from college.â
âI guessââ
âBesides, I needed that. Wouldnât have known my Salchows were sucky otherwise.â
She doesnât let you respond and youâre left to watch as she takes off to warm herself back up.Â
Strange as it was, youâve found her behaviour simply doesnât affect you anymore, choosing to take her as she was. She pushed you to be better, to work harder. Even now, as your ankle burns and your hip screams, you brace yourself into another axel entry, trying your hardest to keep up with Marina.Â
Itâs another couple hours when Marina leaves for her second appointment with her personal trainer, leaving you alone.Â
Itâs less crowded now, despite the head count going from two to one, but you appreciate the alleviation as you continue to practise for the rest of the morning. The rink feels more vast and your hip has stopped its incessant aches.Â
Having finished a run through of your routine without music, you move towards the sound booth to turn on the tail end of your track, skating back to the echoing rink to brace yourself for the next four agonising minutes.Â
Youâve adjusted your starting position about ten times by the time the silence of the song restarting settles. And then it begins, soft piano as you push yourself off into the throngs of this hellsent routine.Â
Itâs muscle memory by now, but your stomach lurches before you push into a jump anyway. There isnât much time to ponder when youâre midair, tight yet contorted, trying to land on the right side of the blade. But thereâs a phantom pain in your right ankle, right when youâre at the point of your arc, and you feel the all too dreaded panic flood in.Â
You land on both feet, less than ideal but with no one to watch the fail, it was better than falling on your ass. Thereâs been worse outcomes, so thereâs little you can do but continue into the step sequence.Â
Trying to shake off that bout of panic, you briefly wonder if the music suddenly had more bass than youâd last checked. Perhaps you just hadnât been practising like you should, but you make a mental note mid-spin to listen to the track again later tonight for any tidbits youâd missed.Â
Your heartbeat is trying to accommodate more air than you can let it, especially as you feel the pulse in your ears quicken as you approach your final jump sequence. The music is louder yet muffled all the same, thereâs an incessant banging that you canât figure out is from your head or a corrupted music file. But you find that sweet spot, deciphering through the ruckus in your brain, and you jump.Â
It happens again, the strange ache in your ankle that should be long gone, and just like that, all that panic you shook off in the interim comes hurtling back. The worldâs gone silent, blaringly so, and for some heaven known reason, youâve closed your eyes.
You arenât so lucky this time round, landing directly on your back with a spectacular crash, the ice cutting cold through your thermals as you slide in the direction of your epic fall. Eyelids opening, theyâre met with the spotlighted ceiling, head cushioned by the hard plane of ice beneath you.Â
The pain in your ankleâs escaped like a fugitive, done itâs damaged and left you crumpled on the floor. The adrenaline is rushing just enough to keep you from identifying any other awakened aches, but you have a sneaking feeling your hip is going to hate you after this.Â
Youâre still laying flat on the ice when you realise you're laying in mostly silence. Your music is off, and has been since you came to on the floor. The banging, you realise, wasnât just in your head either. The unmistakable reverberation of the locker rooms is loud and assuming, noises rattling all the way out onto the echoing rink.Â
It takes the strength of a village to pull yourself up, but you do it anyhow, ignoring the blatant protests of your mind and soul as you squint across the rink to the sound booth.Â
As you skate towards the gate, you assume itâs Hansol trying to get your attention by disrupting you mid session, but the figure shuffling into view is telling you otherwise.Â
It isnât anyone you know, clearer as you grow closer to the gate. Itâs obvious heâs the culprit that turned off your music, your laptop shut and the wire to the speakers disconnected from the port.Â
You stare at it pointedly as you grapple for your skate guards.Â
The man does nothing but remain with his hands in the pockets of his bright red hoodie, hovering over your laptop as he watches you struggle with your skates. SVT stitched onto the back in black. Heâs as blank faced as ever, a stark contrast to your heavy breathing as you come round.Â
Standing up straight, you dart between your laptop and this person, waiting for an explanation that seems to be lost in the void. Youâre still heaving slightly, scowl forming on your face as this strange man offers you nothing.
âUm, did youââ
âYeah. Itâs four,â he responds, like it was supposed to explain enough.Â
âAnd that meansâŠ?â
âWe have the rink reserved.â
âBut itâs Monday,â you respond. It sounds stupid, but it meant something. The rink was reserved on the weekdays for coach Carrollâs mentees, the weekends for the public.Â
This man and his big brown eyes gaze directly into your soul as he responds, âAnd that meansâŠ?âÂ
Youâre sweaty and tired, your feet ache with about five new blisters from the last time you checked, and youâre sure you need to get your hip checked out. Perhaps thatâs why thereâs this unreasonable surge of irritation that rises in the back of your head, irrational and half blinding.Â
âThat meansââ
âSeungcheol! Get your ass in the locker room before I drag you in there myself.â The voice that rings out is heavy and has you flinching, the manâs order echoing from somewhere in the tunnel that leads to the locker rooms.Â
The man you assume is named Seungcheol begins to walk away from you without a word or gesture, and you can only blink at his retreating back.Â
âHey! Do you mind not touching my stuff next time round?â you call out as a last ditch attempt to have the last word. He turns his head to you, eyebrows raised and a smirk of mild disbelief growing on his face. Nothing is said as his head turns back to the front, strutting into the tunnel.
He lets you have your last word as he walks away, your gaze the same shade of crimson as his retreating form.Â
âAND THENâTHESEâHUGE dudes with fucking botox or fillers in their shoulders storm outââ
Your vent is interrupted by Lorelai whoâs burst out laughing mid bite of her sandwich, âWhat?â
âBotox!â she muffles a shriek through a full mouth.
âThey were shoulder pads or something, you get it!âÂ
The air in the outside seating of this cafe is stellar, the perfect in between you wait for all year. The parasol above you is enough so you donât have to squint your eyes in the late afternoon sun, the wind perfectly paced in a breeze. Your own sandwich remains untouched, the bread gone stale as you pick at the corner of the crust.Â
âApologies,â she yips. âSo you're saying weâre being partially colonised by hockey players?â
âI donât know! Was it a one time thing, a weekly thing? It canât be a weekly thing, Monday afternoons are routine practice days.âÂ
âThe routine youâve been practising for the past year and a half?âÂ
âI canât afford getting rusty.âÂ
Lorelai drops her head like sheâs had enough, âMaybe these hockey jocks are a blessing.â
âWhat?â
âNothing! Hey, do you want cake, they have cheesecake, I could get some!âÂ
âLorry!â
âOkay,â she huffs, dropping back into her seat with blown cheeks. âIâm sorry.âÂ
Lorelai has a sense of humour that took you more than enough time to decipher, but that wasnât nearly the first thing you noticed about her. She was beautiful, even more so with the sun gracing her like a loving embrace. The highlights in her otherwise dark hair make the hazel of her eyes pop like two perfectly welcoming cliffs to jump off from. She was the definition of spunk and valour, yet graceful in everything she does. Even now, as she picks up her smoked turkey on honey oat, complete with every fixing and condiment on earth, you question how she can wrench her mouth open to take a reasonable bite; but she does, not a crumb out of place.Â
âI have to share a rink with dudes whose hockey sticks are gonna make craters in the ice, why are you not mourning with me?â
âPretty sure your toe picks do the same thing.â
âLorelai!âÂ
âNot the government name!â she wails as though woefully wounded.Â
âYouâre impossible.â
âCarroll didnât hate me for no reason.â She smiles in her pride.Â
Lorelaiâs competitive skating career came to an end sometime last year before the Grand Prix, a decision she announced gracefully with the words BITE ME etched with sharpie on her brand new competition skates. It was difficult to erase the mental image of the scarlet of Carrolâs face when Lorelai marched in with her hair chopped so short itâd be impossible to pull into a bun, marked skates in hand and a mask of determined rebellion on her face. Of course, the whole ordeal couldâve been an email, but it simply wouldnât have been Lorelai.Â
âItâs not like you were trying very hard to please her,â you grumble, nibbling on a fry.Â
âWhy would I try pleasing that woman?â
âFor one thing, your sponsors were paying a bucketload so you could have her.â
âI didnât want Carroll as a coach. Ever. I wanted Jameson. The only reason they put me with Carroll was because they were putting you and Marina with her.â Her voice is hard, eyebrows raised the slightest bit.Â
âWhat does Jameson offer that Carroll doesnât?!â
âOh! I donât know, letâs see,â she raises her voice as her sarcasm begins to simmer with a lethal edge. âMaybe the fact that an hour training with Jameson doesnât feel like the subjected wrath of a world war two dictator!â
âCarroll is not that bad!â
âGod, you become more like Marina everyday.â
You frown, âWhat does that mean?â
âIt meansâ!â Lorelai pauses to close her eyes, and you can almost hear her counting in her head. âIt means nothing. Eat your sandwich before the bread starts molding.â
âEw.â
Lorelai smirks. âBite me.â
You attempt to channel some of that Lorelai energy when you get to the rink past noon on a weekday. You hope youâre reasonable in your hope that Hansol will be in his office as you walk towards the door.Â
Three rapt knocks before you hear a muffled voice telling you to come in. The door creaks when you open it. Loudly, might you add.Â
âHow long is it gonna sing every time I come in here?â you grimace.Â
Hansol looks at you from behind his laptop with a tight smile. âFor as long as I keep forgetting to oil the hinges.â
Hansol, for as young and qualified as he is, is only the rink manager because his family owns the place. Having graduated the year before with a shiny new law degree, he opted to take a break from moving forward with his career to âslow downâ as he put it. The rink was as slow as it could get for him, betting the only important thing on his laptop screen currently was solitaire.Â
âDid you also forget that I have the rink during the day on weekdays?Â
âAh. Youâve encountered the hockey team.â
âYes. They turned off my music mid routine.â
âThey're only here till the renovations in their home rink are done, weâre the only other rink in town thatâs closed to the public on weekdays.âÂ
âBut theyâre cutting into my practice time?â you add, brows furrowed.Â
Hansol opens his mouth before closing it again, eyebrows raised. âYou clock in here five days a week, ten hours a day.â
âAnd?â
Hansol huffs out a breath. âListen, I know you and the other skaters like having the rink to yourselves, and Iâd be happy if it was always just you guys. Trust me, these jocks are impossible to clean up after, let alone deal with. Between the launch pad calibre noise and the stupid plastic barriers I have to put up on the railings, Iâd love for it to just be you guys. But the only times you officially have the rinks booked is in the mornings when youâre training with coach Carrol, the rest of the week is technically up for grabs.â
âLet me book the rest of the slots then.â
âSVTâs already booked most of the remaining hours.â Hansolâs voice is sympathetic, but his words seemed final. You arenât sure how bad your face was contorted, because suddenly heâs adding, âBut hey, you can look at the leftover hours if they work for you.â
He pulls out the roster on a tablet before handing it to you. It only takes you a minute to scroll before you realise the only viable options were past 10 PM. The rink closed at 11.Â
You sigh, shoulders visibly sagging as you let out a bated breath of tension. âItâs fine.â You hand the tablet back to Hansol. âIâll figure it out.â
Turning on your heel, you make a move to leave the premises. Hansol calls out your name.Â
âIâm sorry. Really.âÂ
You muster a smile, one that you cannot feel the slightest bit. âItâs alright.â
âOnly a few months.â
Something in your smile sours, and you nod absentmindedly. âOnly a few months.âÂ
THERE WERE OTHER WAYS the universe could have let it happen, someplace where you might have forgiven yourself. Someplace you had reason to be.Â
You were accustomed to physical exertion, how could you not be when you were what you were, but hiking on an incline was never something you fancied yourself with. Gyms and coaches and paved running trails are nothing like rocky terrains and steep mountain paths with no guide but a mobile map.Â
The semi finals had passed you by, handing you a gold medal along the way as you thrust yourself into bliss. It was a job well done, so much so that you allowed yourself a weekend of something other than skating rinks and training sessions. So many nights that you can hardly remember, yet flash like lightning under your eyelids. Where you sobbed into your pillow and cursed yourself for ever having the gall to take a step back, to be so arrogant and blustering to announce yourself away from the thing that shouldâve mattered the most.Â
It only took one tiny crater in the path to twist your ankle so hard you crumple to the ground with a scream you cannot remember. More hands than you have holding on to your searing ankle, like they were holding it together with nothing but their palms and fingers. Lorelai was talking, and talking and talking, but all you could hear was the roaring question in your mind.Â
Why did you bring me here?Â
Six weeks.Â
You watched with your own eyes as the Grand Prix final shuttered away on a reel, like you were watching a movie from an age you could not visit.Â
Six weeks.Â
Marina sat beside your bed and said words youâd never forget.Â
âIâm sorry, butâŠthis is your own fault.â
Six weeks.Â
Lorelai wept, and said the same words for an entirely different reason.Â
âIâm sorry. This is my fault, it was my idea.âÂ
Six weeks.Â
Carroll kept face, but you could see past the mask. A sigh that said more than any words of reassurance. Disappointed but not surprised.Â
Six weeks you were bedridden with an ankle that refused to support your weight on the surface area of your bare foot, let alone on the 3/16th of an inch on a blade.Â
Bedrest, meds, physical therapy, and still. The ache in your ankle follows you like a ghost haunting you of your worst mistake.Â
It was your fault. You chose to put whimsy above everything you laboured for, for years and years. You chose to look past your shortcomings like they would not become your achilles heel. You chose to get on that trail. You chose to walk out on crutches.
You, who could land a jump on a fraction of an inch of steel, could now barely stand on her own two feet.Â
Youâd decided on that day, that you were as pathetic as they come.
IT WAS THE MOST natural decision to drag Lorelai out of where she rotted in bed to come with you to the rink.Â
âYou want me to fight them?â Sheâs wearing her Winnie the Pooh fuzzy pyjama pants and a university hoodie on top, her short hair concealed in the hood sheâs pulled up. âThey are hockey players. We are twigs!âÂ
âLorry. Have you ever thrown a punch in your life?â you ask her as you pull your hair back into a loose bind.Â
âNo?âÂ
âThen why on earth would I ask you to fight goblins triple our size?âÂ
Her mouth is gaping in disbelief. âWhy am I here then?âÂ
âYou,â you start, grabbing your skates and moving out of the locker rooms. âAre gonna sit pretty in that sound booth and make sure nobody touches my laptop.â
ââŠyou realise Hansol has security cameras right?â
âAre you planning on robbing my laptop?â
âNo. Although it does have nice specs.âÂ
You ignore her as you walk towards the benches. âThat stupid hockey team needs to know I have reinforcements of my own.â
Lorelai stands there, brows furrowed and in clothes that drown her. She glances down at her outfit and then back up at you. She deadpans, âThis is the most unthreatening I have ever looked.â
âJustââ You stand up too quickly and feel yourself wobble. The railing is hardly a foot away, your hand moving over to grab it. Except your palms feel nothing but the flat of something smooth and hard, fingers bumping into the feeling of something unfamiliar.Â
You manage to find your balance with a yelp, immediately snapping up to see where you missed the railing. The railing was still there, perfectly within arms reach. Thereâs a glare in your vision, like looking through a screen. Higher and higher, you realise quickly that youâve been looking through a clear barrier so high up you can hardly find where it ends in its erect standing.Â
Lorelai speaks up first, her voice resonating loudly, âIsnât that supposed to be on the other side of the railing. Stupid, stupid Hansol.âÂ
It looks like it stretches throughout the circumference of the rink, wrapping whoeverâs inside in a giant plastic fish bowl.Â
Thereâs a clench in your jaw you canât control, something a little more than annoyance building in your senses. It should be an easy thing to ignore, especially regarding its practically invisible nature, but its presence is all you can think about, even as you step your right blade onto the ice.Â
Skating towards the middle of the rink, you feel claustrophobic.Â
âWoah! You look like a zoo animal,â Lorealai adds unnecessarily.Â
âJust play the track,â you grumble.Â
âThere should be a donât tap on the glass sign,â she says, voice muffled as yells from the benches. âYou already look like a weasel, canât have confused people in the stands.âÂ
âLorry!âÂ
âWhat?â she yells, her voice muffled as she yells from the benches.Â
You curse the plastic that cages you as you yell louder, âPlay the track!âÂ
Lorelai nods and makes a noise of understanding, and you watch her as she disappears into the sound booth.Â
Taking your starting position, you wait for the quiet lull of the track before the beginning of the unmistakable piano; the low tremor in the beginning existing to prepare you to jump into the routine. You stand there with your arms out like a swan, waiting for your cue that won't seem to arrive.Â
You almost yell out at Lorelai again before you suddenly hear the resonating shrill of the piano notes, startling yourself out of your first push. Itâs fine, youâll recover. Youâre distracted by your staggered start and itâs enough to have you miss your first jump. Itâs fine. Youâll recover.Â
By the time the four minutes are up, youâve missed two of your five jumps, a spin gone wrong, and nearly crashed into the plastic barrier. Not to mention, the aches in your body are enough to seem impossible to geographically pinpoint.Â
Itâs pointed, the way you make a beeline for the benches, refusing to look at Lorelai. You can almost imagine her expression, the poker face she has when sheâs trying to think of ways to structure her next words nicely.Â
âWhat was that?â she deadpans, voice a little far away. Your body hurts enough to take your focus away from her.Â
âI donât know.âÂ
âI thought your ankle was fine now?â she asks.Â
You grit your teeth. âIt is.â Lies. The way it was hurting you right now was making sure to remind you of that.Â
âYou know, you did pick back up a lot earlier than we thoughtââ
âI said Iâm fine, Lorry,â you snap. âNow can you please play the track again.âÂ
You finally look up, and she looks like she wants to say something. But youâre on the ice before she can.Â
You adapt to the excess muffle of the plastic barriers, ears straining to hear the beginning of the piano before you jump into the choreography smoother than last time. This time round, itâs better. The pain in your ankle and the budding one in your hip is apparent, but itâs suddenly easier to drown it out. Focusing on the music, keeping your centre of gravity, pushing into your jumps and spins with enough vigour to hold to what you are.Â
Another four minutes pass and itâs over. Immediately, you swing over to the soundbooth to find Lorelai, only to find her joined by an extra set of people.
Impossibly, your blood runs cold.Â
Thereâs a sneaking suspicion you know who it is despite the two men having their backs turned to you, especially judging by the obnoxious red jackets they have on. SVT. You can hear Lorelai speak indecipherably, her voice stern.Â
âAnd you are?â one of them asks. You donât recognise him, but you do the other one. The one who turned your music off the first day him and his team stepped foot in here.Â
âLorelai!â she yells it for no reason.Â
âGilmore?â The one you recognise snorts. Seungcheol, thatâs what they called him the last time you saw him in the sound booth.Â
âIâm worse,â she states.Â
âLorry?â you interrupt, arms crossed and gaze directed at her.Â
âLorry?â The one you donât recognise says. âLike a truck?âÂ
âYou think youâre funny?â Lorelai takes a step towards him, a fair attempt to look threatening if it werenât for her very unthreatening attire.Â
âOh look at her pyjamas! Itâs Pooh bear, Cheol,â he exclaims. That seems to irritate him.Â
âCan you replay the track, please, I have to smooth things over,â you intervene. In your mind, ignoring their presence in your space was the best solution, refusing to give them a way to merge into your lane.Â
âWoah, we have the rink booked today,â Seungcheol stops you. â4:30.â
Snapping around to find the clock on the adjacent wall, you read the time. â4:17. You can wait.â
He raises his eyebrows. âAnd thirteen minutes makes what difference?â
âYou said 4:30. It is not 4:30 yet.â
The other one thumps him on the back, all smiles. âWe can wait, right, Cheol? Besides, we have to put our skates on.âÂ
His gaze is hard and doesnât leave yours. âFine.âÂ
You break away first to find Lorelai still in the same position, staring at the exchange. You ignore the two men that stand there and address her, âPlay the track.â
Before the music begins, you glance back to the benches where the two men have seated themselves, apparently strapping in to watch you. You dig your nails into your palm to reign yourself back in. No point in getting upset.Â
The piano begins, and you're determined to not mess up. Especially not right now.Â
It goes well for all of 45 seconds, you're hitting the right beats, you feel like water. But then the first jump comes along and you see a flash of red from the stands. An irrational feeling hits you as you push into the first jump, itâs enough to make you stumble when you land. You manage to not fall, but itâs obvious youâve messed up.Â
Somewhere beyond the music you hear a distinct, âSolid 4!â
It distracts you again, and you miss a move. Somehow your second jump ends up worse, and you feel your bottom hit the hard ice.Â
â8 point 5! Nice!â
It doesnât take long for you to realise what theyâre doing, anger crashing into you like a flash flood. Scoring your falls? Youâre determined to make the next jump combination. You make it fine, but your quad Salchow turns into a triple. The oafs are too shallow to notice, so you hear no jeer.Â
But you know that you messed up the only quad in your entire program.Â
The last jump goes from a triple axel to a double, and you want to break something.Â
The song ends, and you know you have another nine minutes left to yourself, but all you can think about is getting out of the vicinity as soon as possible. Away from all of the eyes that are trained on your hunched form.Â
Thereâs nothing you know about Seungcheol, and yet, the thought of him even looking at you right now is unbearable. Twice you fell, countless times you failed.Â
Lorelai says nothing while you pack up, and nothing as you leave the rink.Â
âCHOI SEUNGCHEOL, CENTER,â LORELAI reads aloud from your bed with her mouth still full of salt ân vinegar chips.Â
âPerfect, he already thinks heâs the center of the universe,â you grumble from your position on the floor of the bedroom. Your foam roller feels like heaven under your calves, but the position is beginning to cramp.Â
âSurprised you havenât heard of him, heâs half a celebrity.âÂ
You turn to her, âI have two gold medals and five podiums for every major skating event.â
âDo I ask for your autograph?â
âHeâs not special.â
âHm. His skill and popularity would beg to differ.â
âWhy are you so hellbent on liking him?âÂ
âBecause heâs cute,â she grins wide. âAlthough the other one was cuter, very angel-like. And he liked my Pooh Bear trousers. Canât find his name on the team roster though.â
âHe was wearing the same stupid jacketââ
Youâre cut off by a gasp, a loud one at that. âHe coaches the babies!âÂ
Her face is contorted into something between an âawâ and a sob.Â
Lorelaiâs phone is dropped dramatically on the bed as she thrashes on your made (now unmade) bed. You swipe the phone and read. His picture is there, the name Yoon Jeonghan, Junior League Coach.
âGood for him.â
âHe just got five times hotter,â she states like sheâs out of breath.Â
âGive it another meeting and heâll give you five other reasons to hate him.â
âGod, youâre so negative,â she huffs.Â
âTheyâre hogging my rink!â
âIt is not your rink.â
âItâs as good as!â
âWhatever.â Lorelai rolls her eyes and sets back on the bed, no doubt searching the man up by name.Â
âOw!â you yelp as you stand up from the ground, ankle twisting slightly in the process.Â
Lorelai jumps. âWhat?â
âNothing,â you mumble quickly, hoping sheâd drop it. But she catches your lingering stare on your bad ankle.Â
âItâs still hurting, isnât it?â
âI just twisted it weird,â you defend, walking to pack up your foam rollers.Â
Youâre met with silence, but you know sheâs thinking. Lorelai speaks, âMaybe you should skip out on the shelter today.â
You snort, âWhy would I do that?â
Once, sometimes twice a week, youâd volunteer at the local pet shelter. It wasnât hard work, mostly taking the bigger, more energetic dogs for their runs because it seemed you were the only one who could keep up with their stamina. And now Lorelai is trying to take that away from you.Â
âI saw how you struggled at the rink today, thereâs not a day you donât rest. Like, actually rest.â
âThat has nothing to do with me struggling!â you retort.Â
âWhat is it then?â she asks, sitting up straighter, defiance in her gaze. âWhat is it thatâs making you skate like you bought your first pair yesterday?â
The irritation is growing into something hotter, her defiance pushing you into a corner.Â
âI know what you want to hear from me.â Your voice is shaky. âIâm not going to say it.â
âBecause itâs not true? Or because youâve been convinced itâs not?âÂ
You know what sheâs talking about, and you know youâve been avoiding the topic like itâs the plague. The ache in your ankle comes alive, and in that moment, you cannot tell if youâre imagining it or not.Â
âConvinced by who?â you snap, shoving the box of foam rollers under your desk.Â
âDoes that have to come from me too?âÂ
âLorry, I donât know what you want from me!âÂ
âIââ
Thereâs a knock on your door, loud and demanding. Wrenching it open, you find Marina behind it.Â
She has a frown on her face. âYouâre still here? I thought you were running with the dogs today?â
âItâs none of your business if she goes or not, Marina.â Lorelaiâs tongue drips with venom most commonly reserved for her most hated people.Â
Marina, still in her workout clothes and duffel bag, furrows her eyebrows. âWho shoved a pole up your ass?âÂ
âIâm leaving in five,â you hiss, before making a motion to close the door.Â
When you turn around, Lorelai is still on your bed, hands in fists like sheâs holding herself back. Thereâs more behind her eyes than you could even consider unravelling.Â
She leaves before you.Â
THE ENTIRE WAY TO the rink was just one constant string of prayer.Â
All of them go unanswered when you walk in to find the rink full of hockey players in red and black gear.Â
The only thing you can do is curse under your breath, only watching frozen in your tracks as a million players skate across the rink passing and yelling at each other. No one you recognise, their helmets and gear eluding any semblance of individuality.Â
Where you stand, a little ways away from the plastic screen and the benches, a dark circular puck suddenly slams directly into the boundary at eye level. On instinct, you flinch at the loud bang, half expecting to get hit.Â
When you open your eyes, somebodyâs skating up to the boundary, and you lock eyes through the cage of his helmet.Â
Your blood is suddenly charged with something electric, fingers curling into fists on instinct.Â
Suddenly, all that rings in your ears is the distinct jeers of numbers over the muffle of plastic as you continue to fall, and fall, and fall on the cold, unforgiving ice. The amusement in your failure, the joy in your defeat.Â
Spinning on your heel, you stalk to Hansolâs office.Â
In your blinding anger, you take a wrong turn, looking up to realise youâve walked into the locker rooms. Youâre one step into the men's locker room when you come back to your senses, startling yourself once again as you spin back from where you came, only youâve been caught.Â
For all the luck youâve received in this life, it seems to opt out at that exact moment as you hear the unmistakable noise of a herd of ogres walking in, the glare of red on the walls surrounding them. Frozen in your spot, you can only grip the straps of your duffel bag harder, tense up like you were preparing for impact. When they turn the corner, the brilliant idea of simply walking towards the womenâs locker rooms befalls you. But itâs too late.Â
Seungcheol saunters into the hallway, leading the pack.Â
His helmet is in his hands instead of on his head, revealing a sopping mop of hair drenched in what you can only imagine is sweat. Heâs laughing at his teammate whoâs making futile attempts to escape his own helmet, not noticing you in the way.Â
Until he does. His smile fades immediately, eyebrows raised as he registers you in the doorway. You feel his gaze on you for a few silent moments, his teammates shushing at the shift in the air. Seungcheol opens his mouth, and you already know all thatâs going to leave it is dung. âDidnât realise the rink had a vacancy. Do I need to show you my ID to take a shower?â
A rustle of chortles and chuckles flitter from the group. âGo ahead. I donât need an ID to tell you need a shower.â
Somebody oohâs, despite it not being your best work. You suppose it was your delivery that did it. Deciding to continue riding that high, you simply turn towards the womenâs locker rooms, refusing to give Seungcheol the luxury of your eyes on him.
Hurtling into the womenâs locker room, you throw your duffel bag somewhere youâll regret and crumple into one of the seats. You count to ten, attempting to take the image of Seungcheol out of your brain.Â
It was difficult to rile you up to this extent, a trait you needed to possess if you were to be coached by Carroll in any capacity. There was so much you heard from her mouth, swallowing it like a prescribed pill and nothing more. Take what you were given, because it was given by the best, bought for you by the best.
Yet for some reason, Seungcheol manages to irk you in ways you previously have never encountered. Irritating people come and go, but you doubt you could place him as something as simple as just irritating. His presence felt like an intrusion, his air was thick like a concentrated gas. Everything heâs said to you so far has come from nothing but disdain and condescension, his haughty personality the only takeaway when he enters a room.Â
Youâre still in your outdoor shoes and jacket by the time twenty minutes are over, coming to a conclusion as you get up from the empty, soulless locker room. Hansol is in his office when you make the formality knock before barging in. His head is on the desk, like heâs asleep. It takes him a second, by he lifts his forehead from the papers on the tabletop to regard you at the door. You hear him sigh.Â
âThe hockey teamâs done. Itâs two.â
âI wanna book a slot.â
âThe rinkâs empty you donâtââ
âLet me book the slot, Hansol.â
âFor fuckâs sake, youâre turning out worse than those baboons,â he curses before setting his forehead back onto the table. âWrite it on the sticky note, Iâll put it in the schedule.â
âNow. I wanna book a slot for right now,â you grit.Â
Hansol whips his head up again, eyes wide like heâs holding himself back, nodding furiously as he pulls his keyboard towards himself with an unnecessarily aggressive tug. âFine. 2:16 till closing. Enter. Print. Here.â
He hands you the printed receipt of your slot, ripping it from the printer tray as he does it. You take it from him in the same vigour, hardly a thank you as you spin on your heels and walk out the door. You stop for a minute, turning back around to yell into the office.Â
âGo home if youâre just gonna nap on your desk!âÂ
Not waiting for a response, you stalk towards the locker rooms. Within minutes youâve tugged on your skates, laptop and shoes in each hand as you emerge out the tunnel to the rink.Â
The ice is empty, mostly. Placing your laptop in the sound booth and your shoes under the benches, you step foot on the ice. Theyâre there, on the other end, sitting on the cold ice with their jerseys still on, eating what looks like cups of dippin dots.Â
Seungcheol and Jeonghan, you remember from Lorelaiâs squealing, either donât notice you on the ice, or simply choose not to. Because itâs easy as you skate up to them, gaining speed from across the rink, you slide to a stop, sending a perfect spray of ice from your skates, directly into their ice cream cups.Â
Seungcheolâs full spoon hangs mid air, halfway to his mouth, now garnished with ice shavings.Â
âThought youâd have the respect to keep the dippin dots out of this,â Jeonghan comments, disbelief in his eyes as he looks up at you.Â
âIce is booked.âÂ
âWhat time?â Seungcheol asks. Your gaze flickers to the left side of his face, a nasty bruise blooming purple and blue that you hadnât noticed before.Â
â2:16. Itâs nearly fifteen minutes past.â
âYouâre only one person.â Heâs significantly more annoyed than when you saw him outside the locker rooms just minutes ago.Â
âAnd?â
âAndâŠyou have about 97% of the rink to yourself.â
You raise your brows, hands on your hips. âBut I booked 100% of it. So Iâm gonna need that plane of ice youâre currently sitting on.âÂ
âWhat if I donât move?â Seungcheol presses. Itâs menacing, the way he looks at you, like heâs a lion only waiting to be provoked. Maybe heâs already halfway there, because it sure looks like it.Â
âWeâll find out another day,â Jeonghan sings before you can snap back, grabbing onto the collar of Seungcheolâs red and white jersey to yank him up. He continues to glare as he obliges with his friendâs tugs, nearly as angry as you are. âLetâs go, sport.â
You watch as they walk to the exit of the ice, realising theyâre wearing their shoes instead of their skates.Â
Jeonghan calls from the benches, right before he and Seungcheol move out of view. âTrash those for us, would you?âÂ
Their half eaten dippin dots cups, with the ice now melting on them remains on the floor of the rink. Once again, the unexplainable urge to kick something befalls you, hearing them laugh and talk from far away as they exit the rink behind their long gone teammates.Â
You give in, swinging a leg over to kick the cups and spoons, dippin dots and plastic scattering across the ice. Itâs another sprawl of mess youâll have to clean up, but it feels good to ruin something of his, no matter how inconsequential. The empty rink encourages you, needing to scream so loud the plastic barriers crack and break. You know itâs impossible, but that doesnât stop the urge.Â
You channel it into the most aggressive warmups on ice youâve ever done. Your spins are faster, your jumps higher. But this also means you crash heavier, fall harder. Itâs then, sitting on the bench to take a break, breathing so heavy you can hardly sip your water, you find an unmistakable headline on your browser home page.Â
Everything stops.Â
!HOT TOPIC!Â
SEAT AT RISK FOR SVT HOCKEY TEAMâS SHINING STAR? Read All About It Here!Â
!HOT TOPIC!Â
SEAT AT RISK FOR SVT HOCKEY TEAMâS SHINING STAR? Read All About It Here!Â
Choi Seungcheolâs seat for next season at risk? Insider reports that the hot headed center may be at risk of contract termination due to recent controversy. The hockey player, renowned for his aggressive playing tendencies, seems to be taking his temperament outside of the rink. Multiple games played by SVT have been subject to eventful halves and quarters, the center seen getting violent in the benches with opposing team members, and sometimes even team members of his own! While his short temper has always been a recurring subject in the news, his skills as a player have always remained top notchâwe do wonder if he even has to try! The tables seem to turn a little differently this time around, because it looks that SVT higher ups have been fed up with the increasing reports of Choiâs aggressive behaviour. Insider sources report that talks of a contract termination may be coming into order. While he has proven to be an effective player on the ice, it seems as though it wonât be saving him from this particular ramification!Â
Stay tuned, hockey fanatics, as we bring you more updates on Choiâs sticky situation!Â
BEFORE EVERYTHING, BEFORE YOUR ankle, before it began to feel like your world was crumbling at your feet, came the scar on your leg.Â
In hindsight, it feels like it was the very thing that set the ball rolling, the beginning of your demise.Â
Coach Carroll was only on her first handful of sessions with you, Lorelai and Marina, all of you still learning her quirks and expectations as a coach.Â
It happened when you were on the sidelines, hanging over the boundary as Lorelai handed you a water bottle from the benches. Marina was practicing her routine, taking up most of the ice as Coach followed on the side. It seemed unclear, to this day, whether youâd drifted inwards on the ice as you sipped from the bottle, unaware. But when you felt the hot searing pain in your calf, there were only two people on the scene.Â
Marina skated past, her free leg in the air, meeting your calf as she skated past, effectively slicing into your leg in a deep gash. Blood was wiped off the ice, your leg bandaged and wrapped. Not without Coach and her comments, of course.Â
You heard her berate Marina from the other room, for moving closer to the boundary than what was required for her routine, heard the way she gave her the blame. And then she round up on you.Â
âIdiot! No reason to be on the ice when you arenât practicing, did you want it to be your ankles too?!âÂ
It was the first time you realised that Carroll was beyond your perception of the word demanding, her gaze remained in a high place, no regard for what it took to get there. Even if it meant destroying her skaters.Â
Marina apologised. âIâm sorry. I swear I didnât see you there, I wouldâve dropped my legââ
âItâs okay, Marina. Really,â you smiled through the still aching wound. âI know you didnât mean it.â
She smiled a little too, âLesson learned, I guess. Donât loiter on the ice.âÂ
It was difficult to keep the smile from fading as you heard her say that.
âWhat shit apology is that?!â Lorelai yelled as soon as you mentioned it to her later. You cringe as you realise what slipped, and to whom it slipped to.Â
âItâs the best Iâm gonna get from her, Lorry. Honestly, I donât care.â
âYouâre out of service for a week till that slice heals and thatâs all she has to give you?âÂ
Lorelai is breathing heavily, mostly because sheâs been practicing her triple axels for her routine, but also because sheâs extensively heated for you. You watch her from the benches.Â
âLorry,â you sigh.Â
âListen, I wanna win too butââ
âAre you trying to say she did it on purpose?â you ask.Â
âNo! Let me finish, woman,â she snaps. âI wanna win, you wanna win. Weâre doing everything we can because we want to winââ
âSo this was a subconscious attack?â you interject.Â
âFuck this, Iâm leaving,â Lorelai begins to skate backwards and away, leaving you on the bench.Â
âNO! Wait, okay, Iâm sorry I wonât interrupt.â
âToo late.â
âLorry! Lorelai!â
It wasnât until you were back in your shared apartment, Marina out doing whatever while Lorelai hijacked your bed that she got to finish her sentence. She was rubbing ointment on a bruise while you changed the bandage on your calf.Â
âHer need to win is ruining her. And itâs like sheâs taking us down with her. I know she doesnât mean it like that, doesnât want to hurt us. But she thinks this kind of hurt is good, if itâs the kind of hurt that pushes you to win.â
You cringed at the sight of the wound, still red and ugly.Â
âShe might not have meant to hurt your leg, butâdonât loiter on the ice? Really?â
âShe only meant it as a reminder.â
âExactly! You donât need that reminder because I think youâve learned better than anyone else to not stay on the rink when someone is practising. A couple weeks ago she made some stupid comment because I left the gym early. Nothing inherently rude, sheâs never actually rude. But it was pointed anyway. Iâve been up since six in the morning I think I deserve slacking off a little, it was nearly midnight for fuckâs sake!âÂ
Cleaning the wound was taking everything you had, the need to hiss at the contact of the wet cloth was near abominable.Â
âHerâŠher perceptionâs a little warped. But her heartâs in the right place!â
Lorelai had rolled her eyes, screwing the cap of her ointment tube back on with unnecessary force. âI never said it wasnât, justâstop defending her! Iâm sorry but half the reason she continues to act like this is because you listen to her.â
At that moment, you felt a little offended. Of course, Marina had her moments where sheâd say something a little less than healthy, especially coming from a friend. But youâd always thought you handled it better than most.Â
You met Marina when you were still only splotchy faced preteens, during a competition where she came second and you came third. Sheâd been skating for longer, so it was expected, but you also couldnât conceal your surprise when youâd found the state of her later on. You were ecstatic simply because you managed to make it to the podium, but it seemed Marinaâs tears held another thought process for her.Â
You found her crying in the locker rooms later on, her coach who looked like sheâŠshouldâve been comforting her, but it was more like a stern talking to, to suck it up and work harder next time round.Â
When you tried to help her, out came words you felt oh so strange coming from a stranger. âWhat do you know? You came third!â
It hurt. Possibly the first genuine stab of the feeling youâd ever felt. In the following weeks, when Marina apologised and youâd begun to build a friendship, you felt something peculiar. Practice sessions on the ice became harder, your two hour sessions were suddenly extending to four, sometimes five hours a day. All of it, your own doing.Â
It was subconscious when it was happening, the silent tug of You came third! What you first considered an achievement became an intermediate step.Â
If there was anywhere that youâd pinpoint the shift, from when figure skating went from fun to a responsibility, youâd pick that exact moment. When someone congratulated you later on, it wasnât a big smile and a thank you.
âI only came third.â
Your calf healed and all that was left was a scar, but there in the discolouration of your skin, also lay a realisation.Â
SEUNGCHEOL HOSTS ABSOLUTELY ZERO thoughts in his mind as he shoves the collar of his hoodie over his head. Slamming the door shut on the rest of his red SVT paraphernalia, he makes quick work of his hair, shoes on and out the door within the minute. Jeonghan is still fast asleep when he leaves, mouth open and drooling onto his pillow when Seungcheol walks into his room to let him know heâs leaving.Â
Jeonghan might tag along to practice for the fun of it despite leaving his competitive hockey career behind him, but his distaste for 6 AM practice remains forever unchanged. Heâd see him later though, on the rink lingering once the sun is higher in the sky and Jeonghan deems it less of a sin to be awake.Â
Seungcheol leaves without a response from his friend.Â
By the time he gets to the rink, most of the team has already geared up. The locker room is splotched with red, moving towards the back of the room to get to his own locker. They werenât assigned, but he liked to have his claim. He had one in the old rink, the one locker everyone knew was his. And now he has one here, despite the temporary nature of the ordeal. The rest of the boys know to steer clear, as does he for the others who have their lucky spots.Â
Mingyu bumps into his shoulder when Seungcheol is looking down, immediately whipping around to bow a full ninety degrees. Heâs laughing as he apologises, not really sorry, but Seungcheol is too exhausted to humour him too much.Â
Heâd been up playing games all night, under the covers in the dark, his phone brightness up too high and his eyes too wide open. He could feel the regret when his alarm blared while it was still dark outside, his eyelids stuck together, refusing to open. It cost him fifteen minutes of warming up, but heâd make it somehow.Â
Seungcheol can hear coach Masonâs booming voice from outside, moving closer and closer to hustle the rest of the boys out onto the rink. He shoves his foot into his skates, making sure all thatâs left is to lace them up.Â
âLook alive, boys! I want you on the ice within the minute,â he booms into the locker room.Â
Seungcheol doesnât look up. When he gets up to leave the locker rooms, his hockey stick and helmet in hand, heâs the last straggling few to leave. Chan earns himself a hard thump on the back from Coach as he scurries out.Â
Thereâs a hand on Seungcheolâs chest as heâs about to exit, Coach stopping him from leaving.Â
He looks up, expecting a hard look from Mason, ready to hear a mildly violent threat about being late to call time again. Except Seungcheol finds him with his own gaze on the floor.Â
âRink manager said I could use his office. We should talk there.â
Seungcheol couldâve said he knows what this was going to be about. The game last weekend had less than ideal results, not because they didnât win, but more so because of the WWE level brawl that went down in the benches during one of the intermissions.Â
He tenses, but it was more like he was squaring up. His shoulders are hard, his grip on his hockey stick tighter. Of course, he wasnât about to swing at his coach, but one could say it was simply a subconscious response.Â
The entire walk to the office, Seungcheol thinks of new ways Coach could address his issue. But the gist was always simple.Â
Choi, stop fucking fighting.Â
Heâd usually just rip Seungcheol a new one in front of the boys, berate him and verbally throttle him in the hopes that heâd keep his anger under check. But as they turn towards the door to the office, Seungcheol has to remind himself that this was a first. Being led aside, like he was being led into some formal meeting.Â
A plea deal, perhaps?
Choi, what is it going to take?
The office is barren, hardly looks like itâs used with how sparse the equipment is. The amount of dark brown gives it enough warmth to not make it look like some sick form of solitary confinement. That doesn't stop Seungcheol from feeling a hint of pity for whoever has to work here. Thereâs no nameplate.Â
Coach doesnât take a seat, opting to lean against the table in front of him instead. His arms are folded, and heâs not looking him in the eye. A crawl of suspicion creeps up Seungcheolâs neck, as though in an attempt to ambush him.Â
Itâs silent in the room as he waits for Coach to speak, refusing to be the one to break it.Â
When he does speak, itâs not in his usual Coach voice. Without the built in bass and tremors he was born with.Â
âThereâs no easy way to break this,â he starts, eyes drifting up to somewhere on the barren walls. âBut Iâm gonna try my darndest.â
Finally, he feels Coachâs gaze lock with Seungcheolâs expecting pair.Â
âThey wanna drop you.â
âWhat?â
Coach squeezes his eyes shut, like heâs recalibrating. âYour contract is up by the end of the season. And the tie wearers and the shoe shiners don't wanna re-sign you.â
Seungcheolâs eyebrows furrow. âWhat do you mean donât wanna re-sign me, on what grounds?!â
âYouâre temperamentââ
âIâve scored at least two goals for every game youâve put me in, Iâm your most consistent player!â
âThey have no qualms with you when youâre on the ice.â
Seungcheol knows where this is going. He knows what knocked up alley this is turning to and he hates it. âWhich is all that should matter.â
âIn most cases.â
âIs this about last weekend? You didnât hear him, he deserved more than a broken fucking noseââ
âI didnât need to hear him, because I know. I know heâs a jackass, I know theyâre all jackasses! They know that too. You need to learn to let things go, let them chirpââ
âHe was coming on to my mother!â Seungcheol bellows, now properly angry. He remembers the guyâs name, Jason or something.Â
âHis coach came onto my entire bloodline when we were young, this is Kimâs strategy! Youâre playing right into their hands like a dog! For fuckâs sake, Choi! Punching someone in the chiclets isnât always the answer!â Coach Mason is shaking his hands in front of him like some violent prayer.Â
Seungcheol drops his hockey stick and helmet, mouth open as he huffs and puffs. He wants to pace, wants to point his fingers at Coach and make a few threats of his own.Â
âJustââ
Seungcheol rounds up on him. âSeungkwan punched a guy in the mouth. Wonwoo kicked one in the balls.â
âSeungcheol. This is becoming nearly. Every. Single. Game. Not the occasional tousle we can pull people out of. You canât keep sending people to the hospital, itâs a wonder nobody's pressed charges yet!â
âSo thatâs it? Iâm being punished because some dick runs his mouth?âÂ
âThis is about you, Seungcheol. You need to get a fucking grip. Youâve started picking at your own teammates, shoving Mingyu aroundâseriously?â
Seungcheolâs mouth opens but nothing leaves it. He ends up gaping like a fish.Â
For all that it was worth, for everything heâd been through, Seungcheol always assumed his seat was safe. Always assumed heâd have the position he does. Because he showed results, won them nearly every game and put up a damn good fight in the ones they didnât.Â
Seungcheol knew he was an asset, but not for one minute, stop to realise that this was all
conditional.Â
For everything he did for this team, for every fiber of his being he poured into its chalice, they were spitting it all right back into his face. Chewed and warped and rid of anything worth salvaging.Â
The red in his chest, back, stomach, spelling out the unmistakable letters of his team. The red in his helmet that rests beside the red in his hockey stick.Â
âListen, as much of a pain in the ass you are, youâre good fucking player. And as far as Iâm concerned, thatâs all that matters. But itâs not up to me, so we need to work around that. Theyâre worried about the repercussions of your behaviour. And you are gonna make sure you keep yourself in check.âÂ
Coach walks closer, finger digging into Seungcheolâs chest through his jersey. âI want no more fights, no more kicking and punching and swearing no matter how much that motherfucker deserves it, I donât care. Do whatever it takes. God knows Iâll never forgive you if you make me agree to those prissy hands in suits.â
Coach left Seungcheol in the barren office, stepping over his stick and helmet as he exited the room, leaving him alone. His fingers flex under his gloves, like heâs trying to remind himself to stay in the moment. His exhales are stronger than his inhales, his vision blurring as the desk turns into two, and then disappears for a second.Â
He can hear the distinct sound of the puck slamming into hockey sticks. Practice had started. By the time Seungcheol walks out, heâs the last person to go through the mandatory drills.Â
The rink is mostly empty as the team gears up for a practice match, leaving Seungcheol enough reign to slam into every puck like he had some personal vendetta against every last one. Itâs one after the other, sent directly into the open net, waiting.Â
Practice goes fine, as good as it could go with the scrambled eggs that had become of Seungcheolâs mental state. He found himself whipping his head around to Jun when he fumbled an assist, face scrunched under his helmet as he prepared to send him to hell in a handbasket.Â
He sees Jun physically tense up in defense, and the insult (for once) dies on Seungcheolâs tongue.Â
âJustâkeep up, alright,â he says instead. His tone is empty, and on a downward slope.Â
If anyone finds it odd, they donât say.Â
Itâs a couple more hours of passes, assists and hollers across the ice, regrouping the teams every so often to keep the rotation consistent.Â
Over here, everyone is in red, everyone is on his side. The bleachers are empty, devoid of spectators to watch him lose his cool on anything. But he thinks of the way Jun recoiled, like he was preparing for the worst of his teammateâs words. He and Jun are friends.Â
Somewhere amidst his thoughts, the puck flies directly into Seungcheolâs face, banging into the cage of his helmet with a noise that resonates across the rink. Heâs startled enough to skate back a little, not before hearing another resounding thwack! from next to him. The puck rebounded from his helmet and hit the plastic barrier with a noise that had everyone looking over.Â
Skating up to where the puck fell back onto the ice, he looks up to where it hit the barrier.Â
Through the plastic he seesâŠyou. You're staring at the same spot he is, where thereâs a slight mark from the force of the rubber.Â
And then your eyes drift up, locking with his own.Â
Like every other person heâs around, he watches you tense up. But itâs laced with something more than just bracing for impact.Â
Itâs apprehension, your form turbulent and agitated. Itâs all he can see when you spin on your heels and walk away in the opposite direction from him.Â
The all too familiar irritation sparks in the back of Seungcheolâs mind, as it does when youâre around. All he does is slam his stick into the ice with force, pushing the puck back into the middle of the rink.Â
Theyâre nearly done by that point, and he finds that Jeonghan has graced himself in the benches. Heâs wearing his old jersey, likely because he doesnât want Coach to notice him and accuse him of distracting his players.Â
Jeonghan wouldâve gotten away with it anyway.Â
Seungcheol tells him to wait up, walking towards the locker room with the rest of the rest of the team to wash up. He finds some reprieve in Seungkwanâs attempts at fumbling with his helmet, letting out a laugh as he fights with it. Looking up as they take the turn towards the locker rooms as a group, he somehow finds himself in your presence, again.Â
Itâs the same thing, like youâve been connected to a faulty circuit and youâre trying not to show it. You look like you want to say something but all Seungcheol can do is send a snarky remark of his own.Â
Even as you walk away after the ordeal, he feels anything but settled.Â
Itâs like the world has it out for him, because as he opts to stalk back to where Jeonghan was, forgoing a shower, thereâs only another calamity waiting for him.Â
Jeonghan is in the rink, sitting on the ice with two cups of what looks like dippin dots. He looks up when he hears his treads on the ice, having taken his skates off already. Seungcheol crumples to the ground and on the ice next to his friend.Â
The first words he utters are the only ones thatâve been on his mind all day. âThey want to drop me.â
Jeonghan only grimaces in response, only running his hands through his hair as he sighs loudly. âI know. I heard.â
Seungcheol perks up, head lifting from the ice. â...How?â
Thatâs how Seungcheol has Jeonghanâs phone so close to his face heâs hardly an inch away from the screen. He reads and reads and reads. And his blood boils and boils and boils.Â
!HOT TOPIC!Â
SEAT AT RISK FOR SVT HOCKEY TEAMâS SHINING STAR? Read All About It Here!Â
Choi Seungcheolâs seat for next season at risk? Insider reports that the hot headed centre may be at risk of contract termination due to recent controversy. The hockey player, renowned for his aggressive playing tendencies, seems to be taking his temperament outside of the rink. Multiple games played by SVT have been subject to eventful halves and quarters, the center seen getting violent in the benches with opposing team members, and sometimes even team members of his own! While his short temper has always been a recurring subject in the news, his skills as a player have always remained top notchâwe do wonder if he even has to try! The tables seem to turn a little differently this time around though, because it looks that SVT higher ups have been fed up with the increasing reports of Choiâs aggressive behaviour. Insider sources report that talks of a contract termination may be coming into order. While he has proven to be an effective player on the ice, it seems as though it wonât be saving him from this particular ramification!Â
Stay tuned, hockey fanatics, as we bring you more updates on Choiâs sticky situation!Â
Of course, to add to the absolute media pandemonium, you had shown up on the rink itself after Seungcheol had to read through the entirety of that stupid article. Jeonghan was smart to pull him away from the situation before he wrapped both his hands around your neck in an ultimatum.Â
The way you stood there, hip popped like you owned the damn place, face haughty and demanding. You stood while they sat, looking down at Seungcheol like he was some pesky ant. There was nothing he wouldâve rather done in that moment than swing his leg clean across your ankles, and watch in delight as you crash onto the ice in front of him.Â
âWhat the fuck is her problem?â he grits as soon as heâs in the locker rooms. Collecting his things to leave and take a shower at home.Â
Jeonghan walks behind him, hands in his pocket in idleness as he watches his friend pack up. Heâs humming a tune thatâs possibly too familiar to Seungcheol. âHm. She does seem a little wound too tight.â
âWound too tight?! Iâve seen her thrice just today and every single time she looks like she wants to skin my fucking hide!â
Jeonghan only snorts. âThing two isnât any better. Sheâs cute though.â
Seungcheol whips around. âWho gets that territorial over a sound booth?!â
âDown, boy,â Jeonghan soothes, half in jest. âSurprised she isnât here today either.â
âYeah, youâd like to see her.â
âI would, actually, yes. What was her name?â
âSomething to do with a train or a bus or somethingââ
âLorry! Right,â Jeonghan furrows his brows. âI donât think thatâs her real name.â
Seungcheol throws his duffle bag over his shoulder as he motions heâs done. âI donât think anyone who actually loves their child would name them after a bus.â
Jeonghan halts in his steps. âMy dead dogâs name was Lorry.â
Seungcheol is extra nice for the rest of the way home.Â
SEUNGCHEOL CAN'T SLEEP.
His dreams are full of voices, of every single teammate heâs ever had. The junior league, his high school team, up to his college team, and finally, his team right now.Â
Theyâre all murmuring like they were paid to do it, uttering the same things, over and over. He doesnât belong here, they donât want him here, he doesnât deserve what he has.Â
And with the way his heart is racing when he jolts awake, cold sweat and all, he realises heâs kicked his blanket off of him sometime during the night. He looks over to his alarm clock that glares bright in the dark of his room; 5:08 AM.
He doesnât need to be up, but it seems his own subconscious has given him a good enough scare to make sure every last essence of sleep escapes him. He lays on his back, catching his breath like he just ran a marathon.Â
Seungcheol hasnât woken up from a nightmare like this since middle school, one that knocks the breath from his lungs and fills his head with all the horrible things in the world. With every moment that passes after that conversation with Coach Mason, his ordeal becomes increasingly real.Â
In that moment, laying in his bedroom, staring blankly at the dark ceiling above, he wonders if heâs made the right choice to come this far.Â
With all the confidence heâs exuded, the thought is downright terrifying.Â
Seungcheol was a difficult child. Too much energy, too much to say, too much to do. His parents didnât know the first thing about hockey, just that it involved enough hitting and running and practice to let their son let out all that pent up energy, so maybe, just maybe, heâd sit still and do his homework. While they attempted to sign him up at the local rink, he was already zooming out towards the benches to see the fabled giant block of ice his parents told him about.Â
And there it was, just like in the movies, a giant expanse of ice that made him shiver even in his thick Winnie The Pooh puffer vest. Thereâs sounds, loud ones, of deep clacks that echo across the rink. It seems to be coming from the dozens of people skating on the rink, decked out in red gear.Â
SVT, he reads on their jerseys.Â
His mother chides him for straying when they finally find him near the gate, watching the team practice. The rink manager is there as well, showing his parents around.Â
âThe SVTâs practice here and have a junior league too, but Iâm afraid itâs full. But our coach is great too, Iâm sure heâll do well.â
Seungcheolâs parents didnât mind, but he wanted those jerseys, wanted his name in red splashed across his back as he glided across the ice.Â
It didnât take long for his coach and his parents to realise that putting him in a helmet was a good idea. He was smoking the rest of the kids from day one, his balance on the ice better than any other his age, his hold on a hockey stick like second nature, his aim as he hit his first puck, dazzling.Â
As he got older, entering his preteen and teen years, he had another realisation. That he was as horrible at school as he was good at hockey.Â
âPerhaps you should take a break from hockey,â his high school guidance counsellor had said. His grades were displayed in front of her like a case study, the hopeless clear in her intermittent sighs and the occasional purse of her lips. âUtilise that time to fix at least one of your grades. Pour all your eggs in one basket.â
The thought was absurd. No, he would not be dropping hockey when it was the only thing that pushed him to wake up in the morning.Â
Heâd felt the tremble of irritation rise in himself, sitting there in that office. It angered him, made him feel like his success was measured by a criteria not made for him. He had said nothing as he slipped out of chair and left the room.Â
The day before his graduation, sweat dripping onto the ice as he sent free pucks into the net, he was missing more than he was getting in. It was making him more mad than it should, hands shaking with fury as he berated himself for not being able to succeed in something so simple.
His last puck was before him, and he swung his stick harder than ever and watched as it flew directly into the net. The sound is louder than usual, resonating across the rink. Seungcheol looked down at the detached pieces in his hand and quickly realised that heâd effectively broken his hockey stick.
It wasnât expensive, so the quality wasnât nearly what it should be, wasnât nearly as durable. But this was new to him. Heâd never broken a stick before.Â
Anger. Perhaps that was what he'd forgone, perhaps that was what he needed. To get on his knees from his back, to get on his feet from his knees.Â
When he graduated the next day, Seungcheol knew what he was going to do with his life. Finally had an answer for the infinite questions about his future.Â
Hockey. Seungcheol was going to play hockey for the rest of his life. He was going to get into SVT, he was going to become the best player theyâve ever had. He was going to make more money than what he would have as a doctor or a lawyer or whatever else the entire world wanted him to do instead.Â
Seungcheol was going to be on the ice wearing red if itâs the last thing he does.Â
Thatâs what pushes him out of bed at 8:45 in the morning, his dream that was once in his hands now flitting through the gaps of his fingers.Â
The anger that pushed him here, was now pushing him out.Â
He packs his things and leaves the house, welcoming the cold of the outdoors.Â
Thereâs the distinct sound of blade cutting through ice when he gets nearer to the rink itself, a shout of a shrill voice he canât decipher. Official practice doesnât start for another couple hours, and he doesnât remember Coach Mason cutting the pitch in his voice for anything ever. Thereâs only one other person that could possibly be gracing the rink.
Seungcheol finds three people on the rink. The bright red curly mop of hair catches his eye first, her arms folded over her green puffer jacket, apprehension in her entire posture. He assumes this is your coach.Â
Thereâs a blonde one breathing heavily as she straightens out of a spin, listening to the coach as she shakes her head violently as she speaks.Â
Seungcheol finds you a little ways away from the pair, practising jumps.Â
He doesnât emerge into the benches, remaining in the shadows where he wouldnât be so blaringly obvious. Thereâs no reason for him to hide, but he doesnât think of this as hiding.Â
Seungcheol watches for the next few minutes, watches you make most of your jumps, fall for some. Your coach shouts for particular names for jumps, something about axels and lutzâ that he canât tell the difference from when put into action. At least he thinks thatâs what youâre doing.Â
And then he hears it as your coach moves closer to the barriers. âWhatâs gotten into you? Keep acting this stupid and Iâll excuse myself from the job, I have better people to coach.â
Her tone, her words, the sharp edge of her tongue, itâs all triggering a very specific part of Seunghceolâs brain.Â
âIs it your ankle? Because if it is, then Iâm here to tell you to get out of your own head. Your ankle is fine, you wouldnât be able to get on the ice at all if it wasnât.âÂ
There it comes. Those words arenât directed towards Seungcheol, nor could they apply to him in any capacity. But the way this coach is speaking is making him irrationally angry.Â
âAre you gonna keep pretending you have a handicap? Because if you are then I have no work here.â
âIâm sorry.âÂ
For whatever reason, the sound of you apologising makes the fire rage doubly. Itâs enough to blur his vision, enough to make him question what on earth this coach could have on you to let her speak to you in that way.Â
The choice words are already in his head as he claps back in his own head, like he was the one at the receiving end.Â
He doesnât stay, disappearing even further into the tunnel to where the locker rooms are. He doesnât understand why heâs huffing and puffing as much as he is. All that occupies him is what possible reasons you could have to just take it lying down.Â
Seungcheolâs phone vibrates in his pocket, slipping it out to realise itâs Jeonghan.Â
He picks up, and barely has time to say hello before his voice perks up from the other line. âWhere are you?â He sounds like he just woke up.Â
âIâm at the rink.â
âWhy is your angry voice on?â
âMy angry voice is notââ he begins to grit, seething, but closes his eyes and takes a moment. âIâm not mad.â
âDo I need to sing?â
âNo, you do not have to singââ
âEverything is honeyââ
âJeonghan, stop!â
ââeverywhere I seeââ
Seungcheol hangs up before he can go on. To his utmost irritation, he feels significantly calmer.Â
The rink is devoid of your red headed coach when Seungcheol makes his way there after a few minutes. The blonde one is nowhere to be seen, leaving you alone in the rink as you skated across the expanse. He only watches as you land the couple attempts at jumps, the ice breaking ground in a spray every time you put pressure on your blades.Â
Seungcheol is just standing there, blank faced with an empty head. His mind was quiet for the first time since heâd woken up that morning.Â
He doesnât know what heâs doing there, standing idle as he follows your figure around the rink like a fixation point.Â
The sound is more consistent, less of the loud jabs of hockey sticks meeting the ice, more constant lines of scraping as you migrate across the rink. The speakers boom no sound, but the musicality in the noise of the ice is enough to imagine a rhythm.Â
No part of him desires getting on the ice to oust you out, no part of him wants to touch his hockey stick that sits in the locker room. He doesnât need extra practice, not with hockey at least.Â
And when you notice him, unmoving in the benches, he watches as something hard overcomes your expression. You skate over, and he keeps his gaze fixated on the ice.
Skating up to the gate, he sees in his peripheral vision as you slip on your skate guards, stepping out into the real world.Â
âYou donât have the rink booked, I checked,â you huff, moving to find your things on the other set of benches.Â
Seungcheolâs jaw tenses. âI donât want the rink right now.â
âAnd yet the ghost loiters.â
âIâm here to tell you to start filling in the stupid craters your skates make in the ice. The guys keep tripping.âÂ
âYou big hockey thugs getting defeated by a toe pick?âÂ
Seungcheol turns to finally look at you, and you look nothing as graceful as you did on the ice. He wants to scoff.Â
You continue, âI have to deal with your stupid barriers fucking up my sound system. I think your guys can deal with a couple digs in the ice.âÂ
âGreat, weâll just lose a couple teeth, who really gives a fuck.âÂ
âIf this is about giving fucks,â you get up from your water break, leaving the bench. âDo me a favour and forget your mouth guard next time. Let the puck punch you in the mouth if I can't."
Seungcheolâs entire being is ablaze. He reshuffles his footing. âWhat the fuck is your problem?â
âMy problem?â you repeat, voice moving a pitch higher. âMy fucking problem is that you and your overgrown posse of baboons drop in here out of the blue and then act like you own the damn place!â
âRight, because itâs your name on the fucking lease. Excuse us for trespassing on public property!â
Youâre yelling. Seungcheol is yelling. Itâs either that or the hollow of the rink is now carrying your voices farther out.Â
âIâve had enough of you acting like you donât take up this entire fucking space!â Your arms wave wildly, gesturing to the large area of the rink. âYouâre everywhere, all the fucking time, itâs sickening!â
âEverywhere, huh?â He takes a step closer to you. And then another. He revels in the sight of your face turning a splotchy red. âThought I was only a bother on the ice? Where else have I been plaguing you in mystic hallucinations?â
Seungcheolâs eyes give away nothing but provocation. He knows he didnât start this, but in the true essence of who he is, he would be the one to end it.Â
Itâs clear youâre taken aback. At this moment, heâs the closest heâs ever been to you. But itâs for nothing if it isnât to press on you further, to tower over you and your outburst.Â
âGet your head out of the gutter, you brute.â
âThen is it not me taking up all your space?â he asks. âBecause thereâs three feet of air between us, and yet the least in our very short time together.â
He watches as you take a small step back.
âSo where else have I been any closer, so consistently, if it wasnât part of your imagination?â
Thereâs a certain kind of venom in your stare, in the sneer that lifts your mouth, enough to ensure that itâd render him six feet deep. But he lives in reality, so he deems it safe to take another step closer.Â
âYouâre a screw up,â you almost whisper. Appalled and scandalised.Â
âSo Iâve been told,â Seungcheol breathed. âBut something tells me weâre not so different in that department.â
âYou donât know a thing about me.â
âI know that Iâm all you can think about,â he says, eyebrows raised. âThat feels like a lot. Youâd agree, because everywhere, all the fucking time is a lot.âÂ
Seungcheol has hardly finished his sentence before he feels the light breeze of you gathering your few things, shouldering him hard and walking away from him. Into the tunnel, into the locker rooms, into hell, wherever it was that you ended up by the close of the day.Â
He isnât afraid to admit that he stumbled.
LORELAI HAD MADE IT quite clear that any figure skating talk was off the table, and talk surrounding Marina even more so. You tried not to point out the obvious predicament, but the fact that you lived with Marina did not affect her demand.Â
Miraculously, not talking about skating or Marina was the most free youâd felt in ages. It was mildly embarrassing in the beginning, when on a run with Lorealai who was also helping out at the dog shelter, because you realised all you talked about was, maybe not Marina, but definitely a lot of skating.Â
You slow down a little to give Kkuma a couple minutes to breathe, but Lorealai is still running at her pace with her significantly more energetic husky, Bennie.Â
âStay there, Iâll catch up!â she yells over her shoulder as she takes the left around the block to circle back.Â
You oblige, moving to a walking pace as Lorelai appears from behind you after a couple minutes. She slows to a jog and loiters around you for a minute, you increase your speed to match hers.Â
âJeonghanâŠâ she pauses to take a breath. But your interest is piqued, especially if she was talking about the same Jeonghan you were thinking about. âJeonghan invited me to the game this weekend.â
Hold.Â
âWhat?â you snap.
âGame. This weekend,â she huffs, still breathing heavily.Â
âLike, a hockey game?â you ask, brows furrowed.Â
âNo, for disney on ice,â she announces. âTheyâre doing beauty and the beast, Jeonghanâs the beauty, Seungcheol is the beast. Itâs a whole production, really. Real good stuff.â
You can only roll your eyes at the elaborate sarcasm. She continues, âOf course, it's a hockey game! What else do they do at that rink all day?â
âGosh, sorry,â you frown. âSince when do you talk to Jeonghan?â
She looks over, wicked smile on her face. âSince I found him on Instagram.â
âYou followed him?â
âNo, why would I do that? Bumped into him at the gym a while ago, and we went out for coffee afterwards.â
Nothing of the ordeal is making sense, your brows still knit together and your mouth downturned in confusion.Â
âCatch you in a minute!â she yelps as she takes off into a run again, Bennie right next to her as she circles round again.Â
The few minutes that itâs just you and tiny Kkuma are flooded with questions. How did she just bump into Jeonghan? Lorelai hardly goes to the gym. Asking her to come to the hockey game?Â
And then worst of all.Â
Are they dating?Â
By the time Lorelai is back, sheâs out of breath again, and fully unequipped to answer all of the questions you shoot at her like rapid fire.Â
âWhy were you at the gym? Heâs a junior league coach, heâs not even gonna be playing!â
âGod!â she groans, heaving. âSlowâŠdown.â
âFine!â You stop in your tracks entirely, to which Lorelai is happy to oblige as she crouches with her hand on her knees. Bennie tugs at her leash, the big bounding ball of fluff ready to race the winds again.Â
You count to ten, hands on your hips as Kkuma lets out a small, confused yip now that youâre completely idle on the track.Â
âTalk.âÂ
With an all too dramatic flip of her short hair, she pulls herself up and into an explanation. âI couldnât tell you because we werenât talking when it all happened.â
Itâs true, it did take a while for you to go back to normal after that run in with Marina in your bedroom. You suppose it wonât be happening again with the new no-Marina-talk rule, since she seemed to be quite the common factor in many of your rifts over the years.Â
âI went to the gym to blow off some steamâdonât look like that, Iâm being serious!âÂ
You make an attempt at fixing your face as she continues.Â
âHe saw me first and came up to say hi. Went our separate ways but once we finished up he asked if I wanted to grab a coffee since we were both done working out.âÂ
âAnd you said yes?â
âI said yes. Because he is cute, and I had been stalking his very public Instagram and it was just the perfect opportunity!âÂ
âSo youâre dating?â you ask sharply.Â
âI donât know.â
âHe asked you to the game?â you point out.Â
âWell, yes, but he hasnât asked me asked me.â Somewhere in her voice thereâs the tiniest hint of disappointment. âBesides, he said to bring you as well.â
âFuck no.â
âCome ooon! Jeonghanâs gonna be in the benches and I donât know anyone else there!â she whines.Â
âHey, we should switch dogs!â you announce as you yank Bennieâs leash out of Lorelaiâs hands, stuffing Kkumaâs leash into her free hand.Â
You take off into a sprint, and Bennie is happy to keep up with you as you quite literally run away from the situation. Lorelai is yelling your name, her annoyance abundant.Â
Ignoring her is easy. Just the thought of walking into one of those games is enough to force a scoff, to watch your rink inhabited with like minded buffoonery as they ruin the bleachers and the ice.Â
By the time you make it back, the hilarity of the situation hasnât left you. And it seems neither has Lorelai, who remains standing with Kkuma at her feet, waiting to trap you.Â
Itâs the easiest thing to do, to turn right back around and circle the other way.Â
âYou canât run away from me forever!â she shouts behind you as you disappear again.Â
Maybe you couldnât, but you wouldnât go down without a fight.Â
âYou canât run away from Seungcheol forever! Quit pretending like you arenât dying to fall into those giant arms!â Lorelai has a very specific talent of injecting all the drama in the world in the tone of her voice. Sheâs sure to utilize that skill as she hollers after you.Â
That seems to do it for you, slowing down, half ready to whip around and holler a profanity or two right back.Â
Youâre more triggered than usual, but mostly because all the jab does is remind you of the last time you saw him. The arrogance in his demeanor, the way he belittled you with just his eyes, the shadow of his towering frame, caging you like a lost animal.Â
You hated it. Despised it. Despised him. His disgusting innuendos, the all so misleading innocence on his face as he cornered you with both his body and his words.Â
Lorelai could deal you whatever card there was tied up her sleeve, but getting you anywhere near the rink for the game this weekend was going to require more than just dessert bribes and sweet talking. Dragging you by the ankles could be a possibility, but all for naught when you dig your nails in anyway.Â
It was impossible. Not doable. Non-existent in the cards of your destiny. A repelling force.Â
So why, would one ask, were you decked out in the most heinous red scarf with the letters SVT stitched on like a warning, sitting in the bleachers and looking down at the same rink you practice your spins and jumps in everyday?Â
Neither you or Lorelai could answer that question, both your stories as blurry as fog as to how either of you managed to get you in that fabled seat.Â
You could see the exact place you and Seungcheol had your last showdown, the opposing team in black now occupying that side of the benches. The thought puts you in an impossibly sour mood. Itâs not like Lorelai could say anything about it, half because she knows youâre one snide remark away from jumping into the merch table, and half because she was too busy making heart eyes at Jeonghan whoâs just spotted her in her seat.Â
âIâll be back,â she informs haphazardly as she positively bounds down the steps to the end of the bleachers, where Jeonghan waits for her. The people in their seats shuffle, annoyed at the overenthusiastic fan who practically slides down in front of their legs towards the railing. But Lorelai couldnât care less, not with what stood beyond that very railing.Â
Tearing your eyes away from the lovebirds, you take in the hustle and bustle of the pregame happenings, most of the bleachers in disarray as they humour the merch stands and the food stalls. The rink smells different because of it, both the added number of food trucks and drink stands, but also with the amount of people that occupy the expanse.Â
The only times you see the rink this packed is when youâre too wracked with nerves to notice anything other than your own two feet. Hands wringing and head spinning, the chaos of the world is nothing against the pandemonium in your mind. Youâre usually wearing a sparkly dress that glitters even from the very last row of bleachers, hair taut and makeup caked on like a layer of icing.Â
Taking your time, you let your eyes flit over all that you forgo the other times. The stands are a mix of red and black, and so are the benches and ice that are occupied by men in full hockey gear.Â
Youâre too high up to make out the names on the back of all those jerseys, let alone a face underneath the already concealing helmets. The problem is forgotten when you feel the weight of two hands slam against your folded arms, tugging you out of your seat like it was stolen property.Â
âJeonghan said we could sit closer to the benches downstairs!â Lorelai is frantic, like this wasnât a matter of reserved seats but the last plane to leave hell itself.Â
âLorââ Finishing a sentence when sheâs in this state is a luxury you learn quickly to live without, because all that concerns her right now is getting closer to the man that seems to have enraptured her like never before.Â
Itâs disgusting. But you follow her anyway, down the steps that you nearly eat shit on, gracefully of course, because what figure skater doesnât fall with an epic crash worthy of an Expendables cameo. You stabilise yourself enough to get to the seats Lorelai is talking about, and sure enough, Jeonghan would barely have to get on his tiptoes to hoist himself into the bleachers altogether. You question the safety of the context but decide that it wasnât your problem if someone decided to pounce on one of the players.Â
Besides, youâd be lying if you said you wouldnât revel in the absolute scene of Seungcheol getting jumped by an over-passionate fan. Youâre suddenly very grateful for the front row seats.Â
Thereâs a bucket of chicken tenders and fries in your lap out of nowhere, matching the one in Lorelaiâs hands. âAlso Jeonghan?â you hum as you inspect the sauce options.Â
âMhm, heâs friends with the vendor outside,â she grins.Â
You narrow your eyes at the revelation, finding it utmost strange how close he seems to be with nearly everyone. âWhy is he on the benches, again?â you ask.Â
âBecauseââ she draws before you cut her off.Â
âFriends with the coach?â
âHowâd you know?!â she exclaims. Her attention is diverted as the speakers suddenly boom with something other than generic pop music. So is yours, when you hear a deep baritone of a commentatorâs voice carries throughout the rink.Â
The shuffle around you is suddenly doubling in speed, everyone getting into their seats. You look over in front of you, where the benches are in an equally panicked shuffle. You spot Jeonghan easily, mostly because heâs one of the few in the vicinity without a helmet or what looks like a giant space suit. The next thing you note is the person heâs talking to, his back turned to you, but familiar all the same.Â
CHOI, 95, reads his jersey. Automatically, your jaw clenches. âDonât look over there!â Lorelai chides, grabbing your jaw and moving it to force you to rip your eyes away from him.Â
âLorelai, Iâm not sure if youâre aware, but unlike your boy toy, heâs actually gonna be on the ice,â you verbalise through clenched teeth.Â
âDonât look at the ice,â she blurts.Â
Rolling your eyes, you only listen as she realises what sheâs said. âOkay, um, look at Jeon instead! Or Kim, or Boo, just. For godâs sake, thereâs fifty other players on the ice, just donât let one of them ruin your night!âÂ
âIâm fine,â you grumble, sinking into your seat.Â
It isnât long before your eyes trail over anyway, and Seungcheol still doesnât have his helmet on. You can see his face now, and he looks like heâs mad at Jeonghan about something.Â
Inevitably, your mind wanders to the fated article that somehow made its way into your recommended, the certainty it put in you that Seungcheol didnât stand a chance in his team anymore. It seemed true enough, his anger, that he continues to display, seemed to be his default emotional setting.Â
Your hockey knowledge was subpar at best, but one thing you did know was the aggression factor of the sport. Of all the things that could cut his career clean down the middle, this was the last of your guesses. Â
Even now, as you watch him absentmindedly point and jerk like his supposed friend had managed to bring him something that was personally offensive, itâs all connecting too well.Â
But when you snap into reality, you realise very quickly that he was pointingâŠat you.Â
Seungcheol is mad that Jeonghan (effectively) brought you to the match.Â
A chortle of disbelief is quick to make itself known, wanting to yell across the throng that you were every bit as upset that he was in your vicinity too. It also brings you satisfaction, a pure grain of hope, that maybe this would be enough for him to completely fuck up on the ice today.Â
You say a quick amen before the baritone of the commentator makes itself known again. The echo is too much for you to decipher whatâs going on, but you have your answer when you watch the reds and the blacks form what looks like a line across the width of the rink, right in the center.Â
You donât register when the puck landed, or if it was always there, just that the loud clacks and bangs are in tandem with the cheer from the crowds. The puck is an impossible commodity to keep up with, even with just your eyes. It appears for a moment before itâs lost again, shooting around in your peripheral vision like a pesky fly you can never get a hold of.Â
âWhat is happening?â you whisper to yourself.Â
Lorelai answers anyway, snorting, âFuck if I know.â
The numbers on the lit screens are doing nothing to help out your predicament, too much happening for you to even begin to deconstruct. You choose to lay back and enjoy your chicken tenders and fries, complimenting the sauce choices to Lorelai along the way, who continues to calibrate her attention on the man that remains in the benches. Jeonghan looks over periodically to send her a wave and a blinding smile.Â
Youâve made a good enough dent in your chicken and fries bucket by the time itâs intermission, about ready for a drink by now. Lorelai makes herself useful and runs down to get you both something, mostly because Jeonghan was now more focused on the team thatâs huddled around one another, another man you assume is their coach huddled right with them.Â
The scores are 2-2, as provided by the person behind you who was apparently sick of your placid obliviousness. It did feel slightly awkward to be the only person not as excited to be front and center, so you remind yourself to thank him profusely.Â
Your attention drifts back to the benches, inevitably as youâve been so unfortunately placed to be able to breathe down the playerâs necks. Theyâve dispersed from their huddle, but are not yet on the ice. Theyâre sitting down, catching their breaths, drinking from water bottles. On the other side, the opposing team, a sea of black and white flooding their own end of the benches. Itâs a sinking colour, not an ounce of depth in the shade. Itâs taking over the benches.Â
Except itâs the players that are moving, like theyâre diffusing into the scarlet territory.Â
You watch, as one player in black moves his mouth, speaking, upturned and eyebrows cocked. Itâs clear heâs gone well past enemy lines, the front lines suddenly at attention. Thereâs not much you can make out, nothing much besides the very haughty expression on the playerâs face. His eyes are covered by the sweaty mop on his head, but you donât need to see them to find the malice that infiltrates his entire stance.
The scene, where both sides seem to be closing in on each other, has you automatically sitting up straighter. The air is going static, especially as you realise the player's mouth is moving faster as he jabs at â Seungcheol.Â
Theyâre fighting, only verbally for now, but itâs undeniable the way the heat grows by the second. All you can see is the back of Seugncheolâs jersey as he begins to step back from the ordeal, like he was fighting the urge to take a step forward instead.Â
Jeonghanâs hand is on Seungcheolâs elbow, and one glance at the rest of the players on this side shows every last one on edge. Their coach is nowhere to be seen.Â
But he doesnât stop talking, still standing in their territory. He yells something loud enough to hear the pitch of his voice, but not nearly enough to understand what heâs saying.Â
You could see it on the playerâs face. Hook, line and sinker.Â
It happens so suddenly. Seungcheol surges forward like a dart, something flies out and hits the player square in the face.Â
Seungcheol had spat his mouth guard into his face.Â
You gasp out loud as you register whatâs happening. The player removes his hand from his face, and for some reason, emerges grinning.Â
Seungcheol swings first, his fist rising and coming down on his cheek with a sound you can hear. You feel nauseous.Â
Itâs pandemonium. You can see Jeonghan practically on top of Seungcheol, a number of other players attempting to get him off the man he continues to grab and shake up like a fugitive. The other player is throwing his own punches.
For one, horrifying moment, the force of the punch pushes Seungcheolâs face towards the stands enough to let you get an eyeful. All you see is red, beyond just his jersey. His mouth is full of blood, the front of his jersey dripped with it, his knuckles clustered with it.Â
The hand clasped around your mouth is your own, eyes blown in horror.Â
All around you, the world has their phones out like it was some show meant just for them, like this was exactly what they came here for.Â
Itâs sickening. Sickening.Â
You brave another look, and theyâve been yanked off of one another. Seungcheol is being pushed down the tunnel and away from sight. Jeonghan has his hands clutched around Seungcheol like heâs nearly ready for another outbreak, his face grim.Â
Your eyes keep away from Seungcheolâs face on purpose. âGoodness, what is going on, I could barely get through the crowd,â Lorelaiâs irritated voice infiltrates your ears, and youâre immediately brought back down to earth.Â
Arms full of more snacks and drinks, it only takes her one look at your rattled self to know.Â
âWhat happened?â
âIâŠthey wereâŠfighting. I donât know, it justâSeungcheol was throwing punches and there wasâŠblood, so much blood.â
Sheâs gotten a grip on your hand, her fingers warm under your cold, shivering ones. âDo you wanna leave?â she asks slowly.Â
One look over her shoulder is enough to tell you itâd be impossible. Everyone was too excited to care to cater to two people going in the opposite direction of the action. So you tell her there was no point, and you attempt to calm your racing heart as she sits next to you.Â
Snagging one of the packs from her mountain of snacks, you rip it open and let the sickly sweet smell infiltrate your nostrils. Popping one of the confections in your mouth, itâs hard to not make a face. Itâs the sourest thing you couldâve picked, the tartness enough to distract you from the outside world. Eyes scrunched closed, you swallow the rush of saliva to ask Lorelai what the fuck she brought.
You chortle, and it has Lorelai looking over. âWhoops! That oneâs mine.â
She snags the bag from your loosened grip, replacing it with a tamer bag of original flavoured potato chips. The chips are trying, but thereâs not much you can do besides wait for the residues of the godawful candy to subside.Â
The ordeal seems to have calmed you the slightest bit, finally able to turn back to the ice. The rink is back to being occupied, players from both ends pouring onto the ice. You note a minor shoulder shove at the gate, but look away like itâd stop the calamity from intensifying.Â
The game ensues as normal, but you note the blatant absence of CHOI in the sea of red and white jerseys. You donât mention it, and neither does Lorelai.Â
Youâre about to burst by the time the finals moments are upon the game, the overtime minutes beginning to tick as the crowd grows restless by the second. With the little youâve managed to grasp, youâre sure that SVT is only one goal away from the overtake. Itâs making you nervous, like youâre waiting for your own score to be announced after a free skate.Â
The puck is a mere percentage easier to navigate after a couple hours of keeping after it; it skips between players youâre beginning to recognise from the back of their jersey. Kim, Boo, Wen, Kim, Lee. The opposing team intercepts for a moment, and you find yourself letting out an irritated shake of the shoulders. Back to Kim, Lee, Lee, and then, right into the net.Â
The jittering crowd suddenly went so silent you could hear a pin drop.Â
And then the world around you erupts. Itâs impossible to classify the sound as cheers when racketeers off your entire being like an unearthly sound, the stands on their feet hollering and screaming and yelling at their players that are fighting to keep their new overtake in the final seconds before the game officially ends.Â
And when it does, youâre sure you need to get your ears checked out.Â
Looking over, you catch Lorelaiâs eye, and you canât help but laugh. A delightful laugh that releases itself in the midst of the chaos of red, scarlet and cherry. Somebodyâs thrown a red blanket over you, another has begun to hand out congratulatory cherry lollipops (you pass, but Lorealai would be damned if she did), people are hugging each other so tight and you get the inkling theyâve only met each other today.Â
The ice is one giant dogpile, red on red as they suffocate one another in celebration.Â
Perhaps you didnât realise how important the game actually was, or maybe every game is like this, loud, proud and exultant. You find yourself imagining how they feel.Â
The lost feeling of bouquets and flowers whisked in your direction, stuffed animals and hundreds of other things that scream adoration as your performance comes to a close. Itâs a physical manifestation of an adoring crowd, as though making it tangible makes it a little more real.Â
The rush, you can feel it resonate off of the scarlet side of the benches, and itâs enough for you to realise that yes, this was an important match. For them anyway.Â
The way out of the rink is reasonably packed, but you manage to squeeze through the doors and towards where Lorelai had parked with fewer than expected obstruction. âThought you might wait to see Jeonghan before we leave,â you hum as you walk to the parking spot.Â
âI was going to, but heâs probably dealing with what happened,â she utters slowly. A flash of red at the mention, gone as soon as it came. Lorelai adds with a little extra pep to her voice, âItâs okay! Iâll send him a text, we were planning on dinner tomorrow anyway.â
The side eye you send is met with a light shove. âThis one seems serious. Dragging me here for his sake and now dinner with him?â
Lorelai was infamous for taking it excruciatingly slow, the time between the talking stage and the first date stretching for months. She claims itâs to make sure she's not roping herself into something sheâd regret, which youâll admit has seemed to work out in her favour. Her last relationship lasted years before Josh had to move away.Â
Jeonghan seems to have her under some warped spell, because Lorelai was hurtling into this relationship like a too compressed cannon ball. There was nothing you knew about Jeonghan other than his friendship with Seungcheol, his position as junior league coach and his habit of loitering on the ice; which means there wasnât much opinion to be had on the whole conquest. Regardless, you decide to caution her some other day, when sheâs not glowing and over the moon like a robust teenager.Â
Slipping into the passenger seat, you slump like never before, already dreaming about the bedrotting session youâre about to have; glorious enough for the books.Â
âDo you wanna grab food and rot on the couch?â she asks.Â
âYouâre still hungry after all that?â you huff, your mouth still flavoured with artificial sweetness paired with the savoury of the chicken and fries. You pull out your phone for the first time in nearly three hours, the home screen alarming full of missed notifications. Text messages, mentions and phone calls. For whatever reason, you swipe right past and open your browser.Â
âItâll take about an hour till weâre settled, should be hungry enough by then,â she comments, a gentle growl coming from beneath you as the engine comes to life.Â
Somewhere between the lines of the seatbelt sign pinging, and the radio blaring itself into the space, youâve read a headline thatâs enough to halt your world.Â
âThereâs this new Chinese place that opened nearby here. Or this Persian restaurant but itâs like 20 minutes in the other direction. Or do we just do soupââ
âLorelai.â
She turns to look at you in the passenger seat, seatbelt alarm still dinging as you remain with your seatbelt off as she pulls out of the parking space, like the official soundtrack to your doom. She brakes, hard. Lorelai is always Lorry with you, her full name only ever when youâre feigning irritation.Â
Thereâs nothing irritating about the situation, but everything is wrong with it.Â
Itâs like you were in the benches, taking punches while simultaneously throwing a few yourself. Youâre out of breath still seated, your skin tingles like a million arachnids crawling under your skin under your layers. Youâre in the eddy of a horrifying whirlpool, thatâs pulling you down, down, down, down, down, downâ
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From a pocket princess, to a rising star. From a rising star to the top of the world. From the top of the world to⊠a bottomless hell? How did Y/N L/N end up here?Â
Itâs nothing new that L/Nâs presence was notable during the flashy ISU Grand Prix held in Beijing last year, the podium notably shuffled as a result. The skaterâs ankle injury was never awarded a career ending title, but with the way her comeback remains as foggy as it did since the initial announcement, one must begin to wonder if weâll ever see L/N on the competitive ice again.Â
Or perhaps sheâs simply lost her spark?Â
Trusted sources report that L/Nâs sponsors are growing weary of her extended vacation, and are just about ready to pull the rug! In addition, sources also report her floundering lack of consistency in practice sessions on the ice, her condition beyond someone as onerous as even Isabella Carroll to manoeuvre into success. Talk about futile!Â
Now, weâre all hoping that our glittering gold medalist is only a victim of mindless chatter, however, we must concede, neither we nor our sources are holding on to too much hope.Â
Keep on the lookout for more updates from us on our fallen (?) star!
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lighter x gn!mechanic!reader, 1k wc lighter is down bad for reader. like. DOWN BAD, lots of cute banter, pining from both.
Whenever you visit Blazewood, the Sons of Calydon mark it as a significant day in their metaphorical calender.
Youâre their precious mechanic, the one who ensures all of their bikes and engines are running smooth for any operations (read: trouble) they get themselves into. Having been long-term friends with Caesar, you make the effort of travelling from Sixth Street to the outskirts of New Eridu every few weeks. Granted, for how many times youâve travelled between the two places, youâve grown rather close to the tight-knit biker gang, so it's an exciting time for all.
However, the reason itâs marked down is because they know itâs a special occasion where they can all tease a certain, aloof boxer a bit more than usual.
âY/n!â Burniceâs voice cuts through the bustling atmosphere of Cheesetopia, capturing everyoneâs attention as you walk through the door of the diner.
They all wave you over the booth they sat in, Burnice and Luci shuffling over so you can sit down with them. You donât see the way Caesar nudges Lighter as you settle down opposite him.Â
âHow was your trip?â Caesar asks.Â
âGood, a little tired though,â your yawn is perfectly timed. âMy limbs still feel stiff.âÂ
âOh no! Do you need a little rest?â
âNo need, I wanna get started working as soon as possible, I'm itching to tinker some engines."
The dark-haired across from you chuckles, adjusting his sunglasses to sit higher on his nose bridge. âThereâs the Y/n we all know. If you need a little help, let me know, Iâm happy to lend a hand.âÂ
The group giggles between themselves.
âThanks, Lighter!âÂ
The giggles intensify when Lighterâs ears flush red at the tips.Â
This is why your visits are a marked occurrence: because the rare blush and nervous appearance that overtakes his normally cool and collected character is incredibly entertaining, and watching him bumbling about around you is a hard opportunity to come by. All Lighter can do is admit defeat and be susceptible to all the teasing thatâs sent his way, because he might as well accept it.
Heâll turn a blind eye to the blonde heads popping around the garage every so often as he helps you out in the garage as long as it means they leave the both of you alone. Heâll ignore the giggles of the girls as they listen in on the quiet conversation exchanged between you both in the dim lighting of the dreary space.
âAny biker gang fights happen recently?â You ask whilst observing the rear wheel.
âNah,â Lighter grunts, âjust a few challenges here and there.â
You extend your hand out to him. âSpanner, please.â He places the tool comfortably in your hands and you resume working. âA few challenges? Did you win?â
ââcourse. Wouldnât be a good champion if I lost.â
âSounds easy in theory,â you murmur, peeking around the bike. âI bet you donât even know the names of the gangs you won against.â
His silence is the only answer you need and you sneak a smug glance at him. You look away before you could notice the red blush creeping up his neck. âSo what if I donât? I won against them, ainât that all that matters?â
âSure. Guess your memory gets knocked out of you after a couple fights.â You giggle at your own joke.
âC'mon, quit teasinâ me.â
âSorry, just canât help it when it took you almost five months to remember my name.â Itâs light-hearted, he can hear the smile in your voice.Â
âGosh, you just donât know how to let things go,â he counters, a smile of his own developing.
âNah, itâs just fun to tease you.â Then, you stand up with a grunt, looking at your handiwork closely one last time before making your way to your workbench. âBesides, itâs not everyday I get to interact with a cool guy like you.â
Lighterâs heart skips a beat in his chest before jumping against his ribcage. âYou think Iâm cool?â
âDoesnât everyone?â You ask. âYouâre the cool guy who cares about everyone, and thatâs a good thing. I like that about you.â
Oh, youâre gonna kill him. Heâs not gonna make it out of the garage if you continue this onslaught of compliments. He doesnât really want you to stop either, wants you to say something that really shows how you feel about him, like how you think heâs handsome, or that heâs admirable, or better yet, that you like him as well.
âI like that about youâ, âI like ⊠youâ, yeah. Thatâs also good enough for now.Â
Instead, you fall silent as you rearrange all your tools, locking the box that cuts through the tense atmosphere with a âclickâ.Â
âWell, Iâm beat,â you huff, stretching your arms over your head, âmy back hurts and Iâm hungry.âÂ
âYouâve been working real hard, let me treat you to dinner.â
âReally?âÂ
âReally.âÂ
A few minutes later, you end up at the Fuel Truck, enjoying some food together and continuing your conversation in the cool, breezy night of Blazewood. Itâs easy being with you, effortless, doesnât really burn through his energy like some other social interactions do, and Lighter canât help but feel like this is how itâs meant to be. Sharing stories, talking about the important and mundane alike, he doesnât know when you became more than the cute mechanic Caesar was good friends with, but heâs glad he finally got your name down on the sixth time of trying.Â
He tucks a strand of stray hair away from your face before you can get it in your mouth, and the grin you give him almost paralyses him.Â
Plates are emptied, drinks finished, and dessert is done, but youâre still talking into the late of the night, until the employees need to wipe down the bar and call it a day. All good things come to an end, and Lighter wishes you could stay with the Sons of Calydon for longer than just a few days, but you have your own business in Sixth Street, so he monopolises your time whenever he can.
Which is how he ends up walking you to your motel, letting the long day draw to a close.
âThank you for dinner, Lighter, today was fun.â
He chuckles, the sound deep and full. âNo problem, itâs my pleasure.â
âCome back tomorrow, yeah? Swing by the garage anytime you want.â
âAnytime?â The biker rubs his chin. âCareful with your generosity, I might end up annoying you.â
âI doubt it.â
âAnd if I overstay my welcome?âÂ
âThen apologise by keeping me company.â
You shoot him a wink before going up the stairs of the motel, quickly disappearing from his sight as he laughs to no one in particular. He lightly punches his chest, as if trying to tell his hammering heart to calm down.Â
Yeah. You really are trying to kill him.Â
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#also i don't play zzz so sorry if there are any lore inconsistencies#only thing i know about this game is that lighter is hot and whatever minimal lore i get from his wiki#earthtooz: zzz !!#lighter x reader#zzz x reader#lighter lorenz x reader#zenless zone zero x reader#lighter x you
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nefarious (m) | pjm
Summary | Welcome to Club La Rouge, where your sexual fantasies come to life. Accepting his offer might cause inconveniences for both of you, but do you really have it in you to say no?Â
ⶠTitle | Nefarious; In Motion - a side story ⶠPairings | Jimin x female reader (with POV changes) ⶠGenre | Sex Club!au, Gentlemen Club!au, Club host/escort! Jimin, Smut ⶠRatings & Warnings | +18 / M for Mature; scenes of nudity, male strippers, usage of alcohol (minor, no drunk sex), D/s dynamic, contains strong BDSM content!, explicit sexual scene, including: mentions of voyeurism, exhibitionism, mention of masturbation/mutual masturbation, brief depiction of deepthroating, praise/praise kink, pain kink, Dom!Jimin, sub!reader, pet names/endearment, sensory play, bondage/restraint, spanking, pussy slapping, punishments, clamps/nipple clamps, biting, sex toys, body worshipping, breast play, oral sex (female receiving), fingering (female receiving), clit play, edging, begging, crying, orgasm denial, orgasm control, forced orgasm, hair pulling, rough sex, manhandling, ass play/rimming, unprotected sex, multiple sex scenes, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, brief depiction of reader/OC entering a headspace, aftercare. ⶠStory Note | While this story is connected directly to the original plot of In Motion, this story can be read as a standalone. For those who are reading In Motion, the scenes in this piece may take place in a similar timeline as the main story (after the epilogue). Thank you for @pars-ley and @lo1k-diamonds for helping with beta reading parts of this. Special thanks to @cafekitsune for the mdni divider. ⶠAuthorâs Note | Iâve been planning this story for a while, ever since Jimin appeared at the final chapters of In Motion and then again in The Dark Room, but it took a whole year for me to finish this one. I initially wanted to publish this to celebrate my birthday and Jiminâs last October, but a lot of things happened since then and this story ended up being postponed for a long time. I hope youâll enjoy reading this story, whether or not you have read the entire In Motion instalment. Additional warning: please remember to hydrate while reading! ⶠWord count | 39,246 words ⶠPosted on: Jan 10th, 2025 by @yoonia
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Welcome to our establishment. Let us introduce our little treat for you to indulge inâ
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Your host and personal contact will notify you personally to confirm your appointment for your private session, according to the prearrangement made on the night of registration or during the session scheduleâs booking. You must confirm your availability within one hour of the arranged schedule. If the attendee fails to confirm their availability on time, then the opportunity to join the session will be passed on to the next club member on the waiting list who fits the same preferences.
During the arrangement of your private session, please remember to confirm your preferences or individual requirements needed for your session with your host. The host will use your details to find the perfect partner among exclusive members of the club to pair you with during your session.
Both your identity and your potential partnerâs will remain anonymous until the session begins, and you are required to maintain your anonymity throughout the entire session held within the property of Club La Rouge.Â
Once you are escorted into the allocated room for your arranged session, you will have free rein to use the room however you deem appropriate for your session. The timer will be set starting from the moment the ambience lights within the room are turned on. Both attendees are allowed to utilise the provided tools and necessities presented inside the room. Any personal items taken from outside of the club will not be allowed inside the Play Room and will be confiscated immediately if discovered by the hosts.Â
You may discuss your choice of safe words with your partner once you are in the room or before the session officially begins. Please remember to notify your selection of safe words and passwords to your host once you are set to begin. The hosts will only open the doors once the session officially ends or whenever the safe word is announced by an attendee.Â
The hosts will have the authority to stop the session if the safety of either attendee is compromised. An alert button will be available in the room to be utilised by either attendee when they feel unsafe during the session and the safe word is unable to be used. Once the alert button is used, the host will cease the session and take over to secure the attendee in question.
If any violation of the rules above occurs within the session, the attendee in question will be escorted out of the premises and their name will be added to our blacklist.
Any other mutual arrangements that may occur after the arranged session will no longer be our concern.
âYouâ
Your chest feels constricted.Â
Never once have you felt this kind of humiliation before. Let alone experiencing it in a place like this.Â
Club La Rouge has been known as a prestigious club that takes good care of its members. Ever since you joined them a year ago, you have been experiencing first-hand just how well the club takes the matters of your needs and pleasure as their priority. Never once had they ever failed to help satiate your desire with their service.Â
Until tonight.Â
As a club that aspires to bring peopleâs most sinful wishes and dreams to reality, Club La Rouge has never left you feeling disappointed. This is the reason why you have been coming back here, relying on them to channel your hidden desires. To provide you with a chance and a safe space where you can freely explore them without having to reveal your secrets to the world.Â
That was the reason why you had arranged for a special session tonight in your favourite ventureâthe Play Room.Â
You needed an escape. A relief from your strenuous life, and being here, making use of the clubâs benefits such as the Play Room as an avenue to express yourself in a fashion that you would never dare to do in real life, has been helping you to live out your fantasy in the best possible way one could imagine. So far, you have been quite lucky to be able to venture and live out your fantasy through the sessions that you have had in the club.Â
So the moment your plans turn into a complete mess, you cannot help but wonder if you have finally run out of luck. Because there is no possible way that the first time the club makes a mistake like this, it just has to happen on the night you come for an arrangement which you have been anticipating the most.Â
âI am terribly sorry. This is truly our fault.â Â
You bite back any response waiting to escape your lips. Frustrated and annoyed would be an understatement. The female hostâs apology and simple explanation do little to help when you are standing here with your hopes crumbling to pieces. Â
The poor girl working on the concierge desk also looks too pitifulâso obvious that not even her lacy mask can hide itâthat you have no idea what to say. Would it be fair for you to be angry at her about this? Would it be right to file a complaint or ask to see their manager?
Is the manager even available tonight? He should be. He is your host and sponsor, after all.Â
You look around, hoping to see the familiar figure that has always been there ever since the first day you became a member of the club. The club doesnât look as busy as usualâwhich isnât surprising for a weeknightâand the female host seems to be the only one handling the registration tonight. It makes you doubt that he would be here tonight at all.Â
In the end, the only thing you can do is exhale a deep, heavy sigh and close your eyes, forcing yourself to find some calmness rather than making a scene out of nothing. You just need a moment to wrap your mind around the situation that you just found yourself in.Â
âLet me get this straight. What youâre saying isââ you keep your voice calm and steady as you try to understand the situation better, âNot only did the person you set me up with for tonightâs session cancel their RSVP at the last minute, the person who was supposed to be next in line and was said to also fit my criteria was also a no-show?âÂ
There is a bite in your voice that you cannot control. You still refuse to believe that your potential partnerâwho was personally chosen by the clubâhad completely bailed on you. Possibly because of hearing the details of your request.Â
As much as you want to deny this awful situation from happening, putting the situation into words only makes it more real. Looking at the hostessâs fearful eyes that her delicate mask has failed to hide doesnât take away the bitterness you feel inside.Â
The female host opens her mouth, then shuts down before she says anything, while looking more nervous as the seconds tick by. You almost feel guilty for inciting this kind of reaction from her. Almost. But you are too angry to care, and if you are being honest, you are looking for a scapegoat. If those cowards arenât here to be on the receiving end of your wrath, then the person who is now standing before you can take it on their behalf.Â
âIâm afraid that is quite correct. Wellâpartially,â she slowly explains, while her voice grows smaller when she sees you raising your eyebrow. âAs I previously mentioned, a part of this incident may have been our fault.âÂ
You shake your head. âPlease explain to me so I can understand.âÂ
The hostess nods before she begins explaining the process that occurred after you phoned your hostâher managerâthis morning about opening a private session in the Play Room. Once you have given him your specifics, including your special request and requirements for your session tonight, it was your main hostâs duty to relay the details, while the clubâs system filtered through the club membersâ list to find someone who would fit your criteria and would be available for the night.Â
âWeâve contacted your first potential partner within the hour your request came in, who immediately RSVPâd his availability for tonight's session. But then he cancelled in the afternoon, claiming that he wasnât able to join the session as he felt it wasââ the hostess looks uncomfortable as she continues, âsomething that he wasnât looking to get into for the time being.âÂ
You let out a scoff. âAh, so the poor man got cold feet once he learned about the details I requested for the appointment?âÂ
Speaking it out loud only makes you want to laugh even harder. Itâs not like you gave an outlandish request when you made your appointment. Many others have even more peculiar sexual fetishisms to play around with in the Play Roomâlike those involving fetishes by worshipping certain body parts or using inanimate objects to pleasure themselves with, such as food and other inanimate objectsâso hearing such reasons to cancel an appointment seems laughable.Â
âI still donât see how that would be your fault.âÂ
The only thing that you could think of regarding the situation is that either the club had chosen the wrong club member as your partner, misreading his personal preferences as something that matched your own, or the man had lied about his details in his registration form so that the club had mistakenly thought he would be the perfect match for you.Â
âWhat about the other one? Theâreplacement?âÂ
âWell, you seeââ The hostess stops to clear her throat before explaining the situation further, âOnce we received the cancellation from your original partner, our system immediately proceeded to find the next person in our list that would fit the criteria to be your potential partner in tonightâs session, and then pass on the invitation through his personal host who will then help us confirm his availability.âÂ
With a deep inhale of breath, the hostess continues, âThe problem was, that once the host failed to contact the appointed member through a phone call, they had proceeded to contact him through email. The system was supposed to wait until the member sent in their RSVP or replied back to let us know that he would be available for the night, and only then would the host in charge pass on the information and have the club arrange the session with both of you as partners.âÂ
âLet me guess, thatâs where everything went south?âÂ
The hostess gives you a remorseful smile. âUnfortunately, that is exactly what happened,â she explains gently. âOur system had mistakenly confirmed his attendance and RSVPâd on his behalf before we ever truly received any direct response from the club member regarding his availability for tonightâs session. The staff who handled the arrangement never thought to double-check with the system or the hosts who were responsible as both yours and the other memberâs contacts before contacting you to inform you that we have found a partner for you.âÂ
You feel like ripping your hair out in frustration or pinching the bridge of your nose to calm yourself, except that you had spent hours fixing your hair that it would be such a waste to mess it with your own hands, while you also have a thick, lacy mask covering your face which you arenât supposed to take off for the rest of the night.Â
Feeling like there is no hope, you let a bitter laugh escape from your lips. âSo I suppose I should just go home now?âÂ
â Jimin â
As your personal host and direct contact who is responsible for being the mediator between you and Club La Rouge, Jimin should have been there at the concierge desk to welcome you for your appointment. It was by chance that he had just stepped away from his counter to have a short break when his phone pinged with a notification, alerting him of your early arrival after your membership card was scanned at the front desk.Â
Jimin had been the one to set up the appointment and prepared the Play Room for your session himself, so he should be the one welcoming you and then escorting you to the room himself. But he has his own reasons to step away and find some space before coming to face you.Â
After handling your previous sessions over the year you have become a member, Jimin knew to expect something new added to your request when you called in to arrange a session in the Play Room. You have always been curious, after all. Always quite adventurous when it comes to channeling your sexual desires, in finding out new ways to express your sexuality while trying to find what works for you and what the club might be able to provide in your sexual explorations.Â
But your request had been an unexpected one that caught him by surprise upon hearing it the first time. Jimin even had to confirm it with you repeatedly on the phone call you made this morning to make sure, nearly causing you to laugh at his reaction.Â
Your requirements hadnât been an extraordinary one. Not by the clubâs standard, at least, as Jimin had witnessed and arranged many others that made him appreciate the clubâs policy of upholding its memberâs secrecy and discretion. Yet, your request was enough to bring out an old itch that is begging for a scratch.
That was why he felt the need to get away, to regain his composure before facing you. Before his thoughtsâeverything that he deemed forbidden to even think about as one of the clubâs representatives to an esteemed member of the clubâgets in the way of his duties.Â
Not being there when you first arrived is one thing that he feels regretful of the most. Then he regrets it even more when he rushes back, just in time to find out about the predicament that you are met with at the concierge desk.Â
Jimin hears enough and curses under his breath, realising what had happened and understanding where things might have gone wrong. He knows exactly whoâor whatâto blame.Â
He, of all people, should have known better than to rely simply on the clubâs automated system to handle these things.Â
Back then, Jimin and the other hosts had done things manually; from matching the club members with the right partners for each scheduled appointment, arranging the private sessions and the exclusive events, to scouting potential members and finding the perfect benefit that would help them find pleasure so they would keep returning to the club to gain more. Â
Over the past few years, however, the club has grown substantially. With more members joining, and new ventures and benefits to offer being added, the hosts have become so overwhelmed with overlapping duties. It then prompted the owners to introduce the new system to assist the hosts in handling the clubâs business.Â
So far, the automated system has been working well enough without causing trouble for the hosts. It has been making things easy when it comes to matching up club members as partners for closed and private sessions held in the clubâs special rooms, and dealing with last-minute cancellationsâjust like the situation that you are currently in. Although it doesnât take away the hostsâ responsibilities in making sure that things remain in order.Â
That was what he was supposed to do with your appointment tonight; to double check on the booking process and follow up with both the system and the hosts involved to make sure that things will go on smoothly. He is your main host, after all, and it is his responsibility to keep you satisfied with the clubâs service in tending to your needs. He shouldnât have relied solely on the computers and the other hosts to handle your arrangement.Â
âSo I suppose I should just go home now?â
Your voice echoes through the hallway as Jimin begins approaching you. Hearing the bite in your voice, he feels a tight pinch in his chest, as he feels as if he has failed you.Â
Jimin knows that he shouldnât care this much for a member of the club, and yet he cannot stop himself.Â
It would be a complete lie to say that he doesnât have a soft spot for you. Jimin has no idea if what he feels is some kind of attraction, or simply amusement. Whatever it is, he cannot deny that he enjoys every moment he hosts your presence at the club. He even finds pleasure in fulfilling your various requests each time you call in for an appointment with the club, always guessing what would be the next thing you want to try or learn, and matching you with the right person among other club members to fulfil your needs.Â
And that is why the idea of sending you home without giving you exactly what you needed tonight seems preposterous.Â
Determined to fix everything for you, Jimin secures his mask and fixes his suit, getting himself in order as he joins you at the concierge desk.Â
âGood evening, Miss ____,â he gently greets you with a smile, and he takes great pleasure in seeing your shoulders slumping in relief at the sound of his voice. Your gaze softens even before you turn to look at him, which makes his smile grow wider.Â
There is always a tender look in your eyes whenever you see him. Oftentimes mixed with a tinge of amusement or absolute joy. Jimin knows that he shouldnât read too much into it, but he would be lying if he ever said that he doesnât enjoy seeing it coming from you.Â
âLet me take it from here, Saki. Thank you for covering for me while I was gone. Youâve done well,â Jimin says to the female host who had taken over Jiminâs station in his absence. He feels guilty for placing her in such a predicament when it wasnât even her responsibility to handle this kind of situation. The barely-concealed sigh of relief that Jimin sees from the poor girl drives that guilt sinking deeper in his chest.Â
With a nod, Saki turns to apologise to you one last time before making her way to the back office. Jimin waits until the girl is out of sight before he speaks,Â
âIâm sorry I missed you. I had to step out for a moment,â he finds himself explaining before he can stop it. âI just heard what happened to your dates. I apologise for such an unpleasant evening. As your host, I will personally take full responsibility for this mistake.âÂ
Jimin holds back a wince, even if he truly means it. He really does feel responsible for allowing this to happen, yet you seem to think differently when you immediately shake your head. âNo, there is no need to go that far. Bad things like this can happen to anyone,â you kindly say to him, though Jimin isnât quite sure if you are trying to appease him or convince yourself.Â
Because the disappointment you feel is still clear in your voice, also in your eyes, and in the deep sigh coming out of your lips when you murmur under your breath, âUnfortunately, it was just my pure luck that this had to happen to me.âÂ
Clenching his hands, Jimin holds back from reaching out to you and musters a smile. âOnce again, I would like to apologise on behalf of the club and the staff. Why donât you take a seat in the waiting area for a moment?â he offers you while gesturing towards the small lounge nearby, âIâll see if I can arrange something so your visit tonight wonât be such a waste.âÂ
You look sceptical for a moment, which Jimin can understand. Even with the advanced system, it would be impossible for Jimin to scout through the available male members of the club to find anyone who would be able to fill in as your partner tonight, much less to send a sudden invitation for a late-night private session. But, to his relief, you ask no more questions and agree to let him do his work.Â
Jimin guides you himself to the small waiting lounge; a private space near his station which is often used for guests who are waiting for their turn to use the special rooms. Once you are settled, Jimin rushes back to his desk with your membership card in hand, hoping that he can somehow find a way to salvage the night for you.Â
Itâs for the sake of the clubâs reputation, he tries to remind himself, as he keeps forcing him to remember that he needs to solve this for the clubâs interest, not a personal favour.Â
It doesnât take more than five minutes for Jimin to find everything he needs. First, by confirming Sakiâs statement about the other staffâs mistakes and how the automated matchmaking system had screwed everyone over. Second, to confirm his suspicions about not being able to fix it the way he wanted.Â
But that doesnât stop him from trying to make things right.Â
He spends another five minutes on his computer to find the right solution before joining you in the waiting area. âAs my assistant, Saki, explained, the club member that the system had listed as your substitute partner for the night never RSVPâd back to our invitation to join tonightâs private session that you requested. The memberâs personal contact should have done her due diligence in making sure that he was available to attend before contacting the staff handling your reservation, and I should have followed up with the process before updating you,â he gently explains, âThe fault is entirely ours. On behalf of the club, and for my own mistakes, I would like to apologise.âÂ
Once again, a look of defeat is written on your face, and Jiminâs heart plummets with more guilt. To his surprise, you still manage to put a smile on your face when you respond, âItâs fine. I guess things arenât meant to be.âÂ
If Jimin felt doubtful about his insistence in helping you, that feeling fades the moment he catches the resigned sigh escaping your lips.Â
Hearing this, and feeling the tightness in his chest, he realises that not only is he constantly drawn to you whenever you are nearâwhen you are in the same room, same space, or simply present somewhere in the clubâs property while he is working in the hourâhe also has been feeling quite protective of you.Â
Just like how he is adamant about helping you tonight, he has always been more attentive to your needs. Oftentimes, he would find himself getting reckless, involving himself in your deals and arrangements with the club in channelling your raw desire.Â
Jimin has long realised how unhealthy this was becoming. When knowing the kinds of sexual exploits that you have been seeking through the club so far has only caused him to be on the edge each time you return for new arrangements, always making him wary about the risks you would be taking as you enter one of these sex rooms with these other guests that the club had chosen for you.Â
Complete strangers hiding behind intricately designed masks and anonymity as they share a private moment with you behind these closed doors.Â
Jimin hates to admit it, but aside from the sinking feeling of guilt, he also feels somewhat relieved that your private session was unsuccessful tonight.Â
If only your appointed partner had shown up, Jimin would have been the one sending you off to your room by now, and then left wondering if your partner would be doing a good job in fulfilling your needs, instead of sitting here with you, enjoying this little chat while admiring your smileâalbeit not as radiant and alluring as it usually does.Â
âStill, it doesnât mean that your night needs to end now,â he says, which draws another sceptical look from you.Â
Still, he manages to also draw a small, warmer smile showing on your face when you question him, âOh, really? How so?âÂ
Jimin returns your smile as he leans closer, holding your membership card between his fingers. âBecause Iâve made sure that youâll have a way to enjoy the rest of the evening instead of returning home.âÂ
His smile grows wider when your curiosity grows, and it shows perfectly from the way your eyes grow wide from under your mask. Before you can question him further, Jimin continues to explain, âTo make up for our error, Iâve upgraded your membership status and programmed a few special offers on your card, which you are eligible to claim tonight if you wish to enjoy them.â
âAn upgrade?â you ask, âand what kind of special offers are you talking about?â
Jimin throws you a smug smile. âI prefer to call it a peace offering, since it would be quite a disadvantage if tonightâs misfortune changes the way you perceive the club.âÂ
When your smile returns, so does the light in your eyes. âIâm listening.âÂ
âInstead of simply cancelling your appointment for tonightâs session, I switched the specifics of your appointment to have it listed as an open session which you can claim anytime you want. There will be no extra charge if you decide to have it as an extra from your monthly quota of free sessions,â Jimin explains, âThe upgrade has also given you new privileges that only our exclusive members are eligible to claim.â Â
You make a humming sound as if you are considering your options. But Jimin can tell that he is slowly getting you swayed. âYou might want to remind me of these, umââ You come to a brief pause, then start shaking your head as if trying to not get ahead of yourself or too excited over this sudden development, âRemind me again about these privileges that I am now entitled with.âÂ
Jimin bites back a smile as he watches you crossing your arms over your chest, challenging him while trying your best to rein in your enthusiasm.Â
âI am sure that youâve read through the clubâs rulebook that we sent you after you first joined us and learned about the clubâs benefitsâfrom our special rooms, events, and other services that the club offers,â Jimin says, to which you nod. âYour currentâor should we say, your previous membership status, only allows a limited quota for accessing our sex rooms each month. With this new upgrade, not only will you be given the same privileges as our exclusive members, such as access to more sex rooms, and chances to book more appointments each month, but you will also receive invitations to our special events.âÂ
Your eyes grow wide, and this time, Jimin is the one who has to force himself to hide his excitement. As your host, Jimin has suspected that you may have been regretting your choice to join as a regular member of the club instead of upgrading it.Â
With your current membership status, you have only been able to book two sessions and only one type of sex room to access each month, without being able to switch between rooms to be able to fully experience themâjust like how you have only been able to book the Play Room for the past few months, and before that, the Viewing Room. As for the clubâs special events, unless there was a special event being held in the club that is open for public guests, you wouldn't be receiving any invitation to join the festivities.Â
Now, all of thatâs going to change. The upgrade that Jimin has gifted you will allow you to experience all the benefits that the club offers its membersâfrom getting the opportunity to try out more rooms, book more sessions, and join more parties.
There is no doubt in Jiminâs mind that you would have been able to appreciate these benefits to your heartâs content, and for some reason, the thought of being able to give you such luxury pleases him dearly.Â
âI will be sending you the new rulebook that will explain the details about these privileges more thoroughly once the upgrade is officially applied to your membership account. In arranging future sessions, the basic procedure remains the same. I am still your personal contact with the club, so you can call or email me anytime you are interested in booking a room or a session, or if you want to venture out to the clubâs other services which you want to try. Just give me all the details, your request for a partner to match you with, and the time you wish to come, and Iâll arrange everything.âÂ
You open your mouth to speak, but he beats you to it by saying, âThe next time you call for an appointment, I will personally handle everything myself to make sure that things are in order.âÂ
Your gaze softens, and so does your smile. But there is something in your eyes that warms Jimin in the chest. The look of trust. It makes him happy knowing that he has earned it, especially coming from you.Â
âExclusive privileges, hmmm?â you ask him with a playful scoff, though there is a glint in your eyes that seems more honest.Â
Excitement. With the familiar tinge of lust.Â
Jimin can only guess what goes on inside that pretty little head of yours at the promise of trying more new things under the clubâs space. âSounds tempting. I look forward to learning more about them.âÂ
Exhaling a sigh of relief, Jimin continues, âFor the rest of the evening, you are free to use the Entertainment Room to wind down. As a special treat, I added an extra drink over the two drinks a night limit.â Jimin leans closer. âJust for you,â he adds with a wink, and takes pleasure in the way your eyes are lowered when a shy smile appears on your face.Â
âIn exchange for your cancelled appointment, Iâve given you free access to join any of the Viewing Rooms tonight, since I know that you still favour those rooms. But you can also switch to any other sex room to your liking if you are interested in trying your new privileges right away,â he says, grinning as he sees you sitting up straight. âJust let me know which new benefit you would like to engage with before you end the night, and Iâll have everything set for you. As long as they are available for an impromptu visit.âÂ
Jimin holds back the chuckle rising in his chest as he sees you twitching in your seat. He wishes so badly to see what is going through your head right now. He can imagine you venturing through the rooms tonight out of curiosity, and he surprises himself when he feels a semblance of possessiveness when he thinks about you enjoying your night on your own, while knowing what your new privileges can offer.Â
Swallowing his emotions, Jimin continues, focusing on the present instead of wondering about the things that have yet to happen. Â
âWhy donât you take your time? Have some drinks while you process this and decide how youâre going to enjoy the rest of your night. Iâm sure the exotic dancers performing in the Entertainment Room tonight will be quite helpful in getting your mind away from all the stress,â he offers you when he notices you thinking deeply about your options. It was clear to Jimin that you had felt dejected enough to even consider going home, forget everything, even perhaps to leave the club altogether out of this one bad experience. And that is the last thing that Jimin wants right now.Â
At the mention of exotic dancers, your eyes light up, coaxing Jimin to lean in and tease you, âAlthough, I must say, that I am fairly sure those dancers might not be as entertaining as I would have been.â Â
To his pleasure, his comment manages to draw not only a genuine smile from you, but also makes you laugh for the first time tonight.Â
Your laugh is full of surprise and it does something crazy to Jimin. A flush of warmth runs down his body. This rarely happens, which only surprises him more. Never once has he ever been affected by someone this much. To have it coming from a client, a guest of the club that he is responsible for as a host, is even more unexpected.Â
Yet he welcomes the feeling. Especially when he gets to see your smile even more.Â
âIâm sure youâre right about that,â you softly tease him with a soft chuckle slipping out of your lips.Â
âNow that Iâve explained how much this card is now worth with the upgrade, it will be best that you hold on to it,â Jimin says as he returns your membership card. His eyes remain on your dainty fingers as you retrieve the card from his hand. The greedy part of him wishes that he could stay in this moment a bit longer, or to find some reason to touch your skin.Â
Yet he brushes away his thoughts before they can go any further.Â
âThank you. I was so sure that this night would be such a waste. This past week has beenâa lot. And today at work had been the worst, which was the reason why I called you the first chance I got to arrange a session so I could destress.â You exhale a heavy sigh, the sound bringing back the tightness in his chest. Yet he can tell that the heaviness of your distress is no longer present, much to Jiminâs relief.Â
Your eyes fall on the card in your hand and a sound of disbelief comes out of your lips. âI canât believe you went above and beyond just to make up for all of this.âÂ
Jiminâs chest seems to expand with pride at your words. âItâs my duty as your host to make sure that you are satisfied with the clubâs services.â You lift your gaze to meet his when he gently adds, âI meant it when I said it was my responsibility to make up for your failed night. But most of all, Iâm also doing this personally for my own pleasure. Anything to please you.â Â
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Words fail you as your fingers brush against Jiminâs the moment you reach out to retrieve the membership card back from him.Â
You have always found it so odd the way your heart would always flutter each time you were close to him. You have always felt at ease whenever he was aroundâjust like that eventful evening just last year when you came to the club and met him for the first time, his smooth talking giving you the artful reassurance that you needed to be confident enough to apply for membership even before you finished your first drink.
Tonight, specifically, Jimin has managed to calm you down without having to do much. Just his voice alone was already enough to give your mind some semblance of solace after having to deal with the drama regarding your unsuccessful appointment. And then he goes to such lengths to make up for the mishap that didnât seem to be entirely his fault.Â
It shouldnât make you feel things, being treated with this much care. It shouldnât bring up the flutters threatening to grow stronger in your chest.Â
How pathetic does it make you to feel something like this just because someone is being nice to you? Have you been so deprived of such kindness and affection that this simple gestureâone that a host of the club does to appease youâmakes you feel spoiled and, perhaps, appreciated? Â
After the day you had, however, where you felt as if the entire world was closing in on you, it shouldnât be a surprise for you to feel this way. If only you hadnât felt so tired and frustrated, you might even have tears in your eyes. They would be tears of gratitude and relief. Which no doubt would only make Jimin worry even more.Â
âI think I might need that drink, after all,â you murmur with a chuckle, mostly to yourself than to Jimin. Â
To his credit, Jimin says nothing about how desolated your voice comes out. He simply takes your hand and helps you rise from your seat, once again triggering that flutter in your chest with his warm touch.Â
âIâll have Saki escort you to the Entertainment Room. I hope spending some time there might help you feel a bit better, even if you decide to call it a night after a few drinks. But Iâll be here to guide you if you ever decide to venture out and indulge in your new benefits as a new exclusive member,â he says with a grin that is infectious that you cannot help but smile along with him.Â
Your moment together ends too soon as you arrive back at the concierge desk, where his assistant, Saki, is waiting. You shouldnât feel so dejected for having your time with him cut short, but itâs hard to ignore it. Being with Jimin feels so calming. His eyes are warm, even when they are partly hidden under his golden lace mask, and his smileâwhich often seems cunningâmakes you feel safe when you are with him.Â
Shaking your head, you remind yourself that the only reason why Jimin is so kind to you is because of his duty. This is his job. As a host, it would be his responsibility to keep his guestsâhis customersâhappy, and that includes you.Â
âThank you, Jimin.âÂ
He nods. âI hope youâll have a better evening.âÂ
âYour drink.âÂ
A glass of red liquidâManhattan, dryâmanifests right in front of your eyes, drawing your attention away from the lewd scenes that are being displayed in the room. The glass lands with a soft thud on your table. Glancing up, you see the staff who brought it over to you; a tall man with broad shoulders, wearing nothing but a tight vest which shows his perfectly toned muscles, his skin bare, with no shirt beneath. His mask is made up of semi-transparent black lace which mostly covers his eyes and the bridge of his nose, though not enough to cover the glint in his gaze as he lingers by you for a moment longer than necessary.Â
âCan I provide you with anything else?âÂ
From his smile, you can tell that behind the alluring mask, he must be an attractive manâjust like all the other staff, escorts, and hosts working in the club.Â
From his gestures and the way he speaks, itâs clear that he is openly flirting with you. It is quite flattering, if only you donât consider the fact that this is a part of his job as a waiter and escort; to tend to the guests and wait on their table, oftentimes keeping them company when they need one while they are in the room.Â
He doesnât have to say out loud that he is subtly offering you that said company. You can see it in his pretty smile, yet it doesnât seem to pull at your heart enough to invite him to join you. Not even for a single drink.Â
So you put a smile on your face to return his inviting grin and politely wave him off. âThank you. This is all I need for now,â you coyly say, before deciding it wouldnât hurt to play along a little just to have fun, âbut you can ask me again when I order my second drink.âÂ
The masked staff winks at you before he leaves, promising to return when you are ready for your second order.Â
Biting your smile, you watch as the masked escort walks away, weaving through the lines of loveseats with his tray in hand as he makes his way back to the bar. Left alone, you take a slow sip from your drink, allowing it to help cool you down and wash away any bitterness that still lingers with the unexpected turn of your planned evening.Â
Closing your eyes briefly, you savour the buzz from your drink as it rushes through your body. The soft and sultry tune of the music playing in the room helps set the mood. Not only to help all guests relax and enjoy the moment, but also to draw out any wanton desire that is still lying dormant right before the guests begin to venture deeper into the club to enjoy the special treats provided in the other rooms.
Your eyes trail towards the nearest glass box where a male dancer is swaying with the beat. Aside from the pair of high leather boots he is wearing on his feet and the black leather mask covering half of his face, the dancer simply has tight black briefs covering his crotch. Pressed sinfully into his skin, the fabric looks like a smooth leather. It leaves little to almost nothing to everyoneâs imagination as the fabric barely covers much of his skin.
And it hangs low on his hips. Â
Extremely low.Â
Low enough that you can see the triangular line leading down towards his evident bulge.Â
As the dancer moves, the chiselled muscles on his chest and limbs seem to ripple with every movement he makes. Each line of muscles keeps getting highlighted under the spotlight illuminating his private box stage as he rolls his body to the music, his skin glistening with sweat and what appears to be a thin layer of oil.
Hungry eyes are locked on him. You can tell that many of his audience are hoping that he would end his show by tearing those tight briefs off as manicured fingernails keep reaching up to try and have a touch.Â
A wanton fantasy that may never happen.Â
Not in this club, and not in the room which is open to the public and set simply as a place of transit for the guests.Â
Club La Rouge has always had its strict rules, binding all the staff and guests alike to make sure that things remain in order while keeping everyone safe and satisfied under its roof.Â
Specifically for the Entertainment Room, there are a few rules that everyone must follow; no complete nudity, not between the escorts and the guests who are present, not even for the exotic dancers on the stage; the well-known two drinks limit for the guests, placed to make sure that everyone who is involved in the sex rooms remain sober; no physical contact; and no fraternising, as escorts and dancers are off-limits for the guests to invite into the rooms, although they are allowed to keep the guestsâ company while they are in this room, simply to talk and and flirt and drink with them until their time is up; and many other rules which have been placed to maintain both the anonymity and safety of everyone involved in the clubâs business, while keeping its reputation intact.Â
There is a reason why these guests around youâthe attendees, as the club would call themâhide their faces behind carefully designed masks. A lot of these guests are important and well-known people out in the real world; businessmen, politicians, celebrities. Anyone who wanted to find an escape, a place to channel their darkest desires, to seek pure pleasure without the risk of people judging or outing them in public.Â
They all pay good money to have a good time, to find pleasure, something that the club has to offer. In return, the club simply asks everyone to follow their rules to keep everything in order.Â
Yet, even with the rules and limitations in place, this room still serves its purpose of entertaining its guests. The scantily clad escorts and passing servers are the perfect eye candy for the guests, and they are both friendly and flirty, providing some level of comfort for the guests so they can relax and enjoy their time.Â
And then there are the performers, the exotic dancers filling the stage and the small boxes that have been set between the seats. All of them dancing and swaying to the music seductively, their movements so mesmerising that most guests find it hard to look away.Â
Just like how your eyes continue to find their way to the same dancer that you have been admiring, his actions draw your attention back to him no matter how hard you try to look away.Â
The male dancer brings his arms up, crossing them behind his head as he begins gyrating his hips forward. His eyes are locked down, aimed towards the female guest sitting right in front of the box; an older woman who is dressed elegantly, yet daring, with her wrap dress coloured in dark purple, a similar colour to her mask, the cleavage sinking deeply at the front to show a generous view of her ample bosoms. Her auburn hair is styled up in a messy bun, with a pair of golden hair clips pinned on the side of her head to keep the strands in place.Â
You cannot see her face from this angle, yet you can see her painted nails trailing up and down the flute glass of champagne that she has been nursing since she sat there, showing you that she is indeed enjoying the show while having her mind wandering to another place where she could be free with her own raw desire, possibly with said male dancer as the other character in her fantasy.Â
The dancer comes down to one knee and continues rocking his hips. The female guest leans back in her seat, making it seem as if she is receiving a personal lap dance from the dancer, and you wonder if this is a part of her fantasy that he is giving her.Â
A fantasy. That is all that these entertainers are offering for the guests sitting in the Entertainment Room. Anything that may entice any guestsâ sexual desire without actually engaging with them directly.Â
But there are still other ways for the guests to indulge in that fantasy, and for these escorts and performers to indulge in sexual pleasure without breaking the rules. You look around, biting your lips when you consider that sometime tonight, one of these escorts and dancers will be performing something else for the guests.Â
In the Viewing Room, a different kind of entertainment is presented for the guests, drawing those who are into specific types of kink, including some of the most perverse kinds of sexual pleasure; exhibitionism, voyeurism, and similar others.Â
Within those rooms, a similar setting to what you have now can be found, except on a smaller scale. Sets of loveseats and high-back chairs set in lines around small, solo stages or in front of a massive glass wall separating the room from another, except that instead of stripper poles and stage lights, you will find a whole different setup to support the performances; from small beds and three-seated leather sofas to the distinct setup, like bondage benches and St. Andrews cross standing at the center stage. Everything that is needed for the masked escorts, both males and females, to engage in their sexual exploitation in front of a public audience.Â
Oftentimes, club members would be the ones to take the center stage. Either with their own partners or in groups, or even acting solo, allowing other members to watch as they indulge in carnal pleasure.Â
Feeling warm from your own thoughts about the indecent scenes that you have seen in the Viewing Room before, you lift your gaze back to the nearest stage, where a new male dancer has taken the center spot.Â
Wearing a thin, see-through white shirt and a pair of tight, holed-up jeans, he basically leaves only little left to your imagination. His mask, a perfect replication of a pair of wings of a dove, is made out of white lace fabric with silver threads as its linings. The mask glimmers as the dancer begins rocking his hips, allowing you to see the toned lines of his muscles rippling under his shirt before he begins to slowly peel the thin piece away to show you more.Â
As you continue watching the dancer perform with his captivating moves, your mind wanders to another figure whose movements are also just as graceful, but with less rough edges on him. The figure who holds an aura which exudes sin and temptation as he moves and speaks, with that smile of his which keeps drawing you in.Â
Finding yourself comparing the dancer with your mysterious host and escort draws out a scoff from your lips.Â
How would you know whether or not Jimin has any rough edges on him at all, when he has always presented himself in a prim and orderly fashion; with his sparkling mask hiding half of his face and his firm body under his fashionable suits?Â
Thinking about Jimin takes you back to the brief moment you had with him at the guest lounge earlier, and you feel the urge to knock back your drink when your disappointment returns tenfold. You have no idea why you are so invested in this club and feeling so deeply about your session tonight. Having your hopes up only to be let down makes you feel bad, but it shouldnât be this bad.
Is it because you had wantedâno, neededâan escape from your life so badly, hoping that a night of pleasure, a chance to shed your skin for a short while, would have helped you deal with the problems waiting for you at home? Have you needed to forget about the real world that badly to seek a chance to live inside your fantasy?Â
Yes, you wonder with a sigh, as the weight of your real life outside of this clubâwork, the thriving, yet struggling business that you are currently running, your home life, the absence of a real relationship, the business deal that had fallen through just this morningâlays heavy on your shoulder.Â
Yes, I do need that escape.Â
Ever since the moment you stepped foot in the club for the first time, your entire world has been undeniably and irrevocably elevated to a new height. Youâve found pleasure like youâve never felt before from the very first experience they gave you, the perfect escape from real life, and never once have you turned your back on them. Never once had they ever given you the reason to.Â
Must tonightâs misfortune become the sign that your time with the club is up?Â
Feeling the dreadful feeling from todayâs stress coming back, added to the possibility that you might be losing your safe place tonight, you take another drink and lift your gaze, meeting the dancerâs eyes as he looks across the floor to see you.Â
Sitting back and forcing yourself to relax, you convince yourself to simply enjoy this moment. To enjoy the performance that is being given to you while trying your best not to think of your troubles, and at the same time, stop yourself from imagining your lovely hostâwhose smile and alluring voice have always filled your thoughtsâas the one dancing in front of you.Â
â Jimin â
Jimin has no idea what he is doing or why he is here.Â
It feels like only moments ago that he watched you go to the Entertainment Roomâthe Lounge, as everyone at the club would usually call itâand then he is suddenly here, standing in the dark corner, watching you.Â
He cannot understand why he felt the urge to come here. The need to see you again was pulling at him that he was drawn here to find you.Â
Like a moth to a flame.Â
Shaking his head, Jimin lets out a bitter chuckle. This is ridiculous. If this had been the weekend, when the club is usually the busiest, he wouldnât have been here. He wouldnât have time to, nor the chance to be distracted by the thought of you, wondering if you are feeling better, or if you are going to meet anyone in the Entertainment Room who might invite you to join them for more.
The Viewing Room is open for guests tonight. The Play Room that you have booked for the night is still vacant, as he couldnât alter the reservation and pass it on to another guest unless they are seeking the same specific theme. Which only makes him grow more concerned after sending you off with a free ticket to use either of these rooms tonight.Â
Jimin may have informed you of the main rules within the club, yet he isnât sure if you are aware of the special rule that applies only to the exclusive members and VIP guests of the club that most arenât well-informed yet unless they have the same privileges.Â
The same privileges that you now have, once Jimin has officially updated your status in the club.Â
The rule which states that while the guests are forbidden to engage intimately with or to invite the escorts to their private sessions in the sex rooms, they are, however, allowed to invite another guest for an impromptu session set in the rooms, so long as the arrangement made between them is mutual and the hosts are made aware of it beforehand.Â
It might have been the thought of you receiving open invitations from these other guests which had drawn Jimin away from his station. He knew it was a possibility. If someone like him could be completely smitten and drawn to you, there is no doubt that others would feel the same once they notice you.Â
Alone.Â
Unattended.Â
Available.Â
Jiminâs attention is drawn back to you when he sees you raising your hand, and ordering your second drink. Within moments, one of the male escorts tending the room appears with your drink in his tray. He leans close over the table as he places your drink, and then lingers for a moment too long. His demeanour and the way he leans a bit too close, too friendly, combined with the way you smile back at him as you lean forward to meet him, lets Jimin know that this male escort has been the one taking care of you and keeping you company since you got here.Â
Jiminâs hands are clenched to fists at his sides. It remains that way while you are chatting with the escort, whose presence is making you oblivious to your surroundings and all the attention that you are getting from the other guests. Only when the male escort finally walks away, returning to his station, Jimin can finally breathe a sigh of relief.Â
Instead of approaching you, Jimin remains in the shadows. Still out of sight. It allows him to look at you, a chance to get a full view of what he rarely gets to see whenever heâs in your presence.Â
Sitting under the dim golden light falling from above, your mask glimmers when you move. The masquerade mask, gifted by the club when you first joined as a member and then amplified further with your personal touch, looks like petals of roses covering a part of your face. Made of lace fabric in the colour of red cherry, the mask matches perfectly well with the colour of your drink. Even the colour of your lipstick and dress both match the tone, something that Jimin had marvelled at the moment he saw you for the first time earlier tonight.Â
The gold and black embroideries framing your mask make your eyes pop, and it shouldnât please Jimin how well they match the colour of the mask that he is wearing tonight.Â
As he watches you raise your glass to your lips, Jimin finds himself moving. As if a spell has been put on him, and his body is moving on its own, drawn towards the magic that has bewitched him completely.Â
You have yet to notice him approaching, as your eyes drift towards the nearest box stage, where a new male dancer had just taken the spot to begin his dance.Â
Once again, Jimin clenches his fists as he looks on, wishing that the glimmer in your eyes was directed to him instead. Yet he quickly calms himself just as he comes to your table, keeping his voice and expression steady, as well as the mask helping him hide his emotion, as he gently says, âEnjoying your evening so far?âÂ
Jiminâs voice takes your attention away from the male dancer who is now becoming the main focus of the entire room.
Startled, you sit up straight and turn to look at him. The haze in your eyes clears for a moment, only for your gaze to soften at the sight of him. While Jimin still cannot understand what he was feeling before, he takes pleasure in seeing how your gaze always changes just for him.Â
âWell, I canât say that Iâm not enjoying myself,â you answer him with a coy smile. It appears as if you are already feeling the buzz, both from your drink and the ambience in the room, clearly seeming more relaxed compared to before. âI have free drinks, a wonderful view of gorgeous men dancing to the music, and friendly escorts coming to keep me company.â Â
Your words draw a smile to Jiminâs face, which grows even wider when you add, âAnd now I have my handsome host coming to say hi.âÂ
Chuckling softly, Jimin nods and says, âHi.âÂ
You softly laugh and take a drink. It draws Jimin to move closer. âMind if I join you, then?âÂ
You lower your eyelids. A gesture so subtle and sweet, yet enough to draw a strong reaction out of him. The perfect submission. You shake your head and shift on your seat, making space for him.Â
âDo you think Iâll mind having some time with you, Jimin?â you ask him with your eyes fluttering as you tap your palm on the loveseat, gesturing to him to sit right beside you instead of taking the other chair across the table. âCome sit here and keep me company.âÂ
Tilting his head, a myriad of emotions washes over him. He knows that he shouldnât do this. He shouldnât be here at all, least of all to join you, when every part of him keeps reacting to everything that you do. But his body has its own mind, and your gaze is pulling him closer before he can stop himself.Â
Tugging at the lapels on his suit jacket, Jimin settles right next to you. Breathing in, he enjoys the sweet scent of your perfume and the warmth of your presence while you take another sip of your drink.Â
âArenât you busy? Is it all right for you to join me here instead of watching over the concierge desk? Wonât they be needing you there?â You begin giving him a barrage of questions before returning your drink to the table. Jimin merely listens with a smile, as you curiously ask, âOr did you perhaps come here to check on me? To make sure that Iâm having a good time?âÂ
Why am I here? Jimin wonders, once again questioning his own intentions.Â
His concern over you had been making it hard for him to focus on working. No matter how much he tries to rationalise it, listing all the possible reasons why he is in this room with you, Jimin still has no answers. Other than to see you.Â
However, he loses any chance to answer your question or to explain himself when a bare-chested server wearing a bowtie around his neck, a silver mask covering half of his face, and a pair of extremely tight leather pants, comes in to take his drink order.Â
Jimin considers ordering something strong. A glass of whiskey, perhaps, if only for the sake of giving him liquid courage to speak his mind openly to you. But he quickly decides against it and orders a glass of iced water instead.Â
âIâm guessing thereâs a rule against drinking on the job?â you tease him, once the server walks away, your gaze lingers for a second longer on his toned bottom than Jimin would like before you turn to him again.Â
âSomething like that,â Jimin says with a tight smile. âIâm still on the hour, and Iâd prefer to enjoy this chat with a sound mind.â
âI like the sound of that. Then I guess Iâll be drinking for both of us,â you say as you take a hefty drink of your liquor, nearly finishing it off. âYou donât do this often, do you?â you ask him while looking around, before noticing Jiminâs raised eyebrows and explaining what you meant, âIâm talking about you sitting with a client or a guest while strippers and half-naked servers are entertaining them.âÂ
Chuckling softly, Jimin shakes his head. âActually, as one of the main hosts and the clubâs recruiters, I do this quite often. Usually, Iâd sit in the Entertainment Room or the open stage areas where the strippers perform, scouting over new guests who arenât yet members to see if I can find those who interest me enough to offer them a special membership offer for them to join the club.âÂ
Your eyes grow wide, surprised and intrigued at the same time upon hearing this. Jimin canât blame you for feeling this way. Even if he has been your host and personal contact to the club since you first applied, this hadnât been your experience which had led you to meet him.Â
Unlike the other members who came in through Jiminâs expert scouting and special invitation passed on through their sponsors, you had first come to the club at your own conviction.Â
He still remembers that day as if it was yesterday.Â
You had come during the rare occasion in which the club opened the Entertainment Room for public audience, welcoming guests who were non-members by applying an entrance fee for those who came without sponsors. It was you who came to approach him first, knowing who he was to the club and what his role was as he blended with the guests.Â
Through the conversation he shared with you, he had learned that you came that night after finding out about the club from the words spread through the grapevine. You came out of curiosity at first, while also having the intention to apply to be a regular club member so you could try out the clubâs various endeavours. You claimed that you wished to learn more about your sexual taste and preferences, while relying on the clubâs pledge of keeping the membersâ privacy and safety while they are under its wings.Â
Jimin vaguely recalls how your work would often get in the way of you in having a relationship and from seeing people, to going on dates and finding your own partner to try new things. Hence, the club became such an enticing option which you couldnât refuse.Â
âNo wonder no one seems to be questioning why youâre here,â you simply comment, just as a server passes by your table with a subtle nod towards Jimin. Â
Jimin takes a drink to cool off, realising that this is something that he needs as he notices you sliding closer to him.Â
âI guess you do take your job seriously,â you tease, sounding more relaxed after the drink you are having starts settling in. He looks over to see you watching him closely, your chin resting on your hand as you peruse him with your gaze. âSince youâre here, Iâve been thinkingâŠâÂ
Placing his glass down, Jimin sits back in the seat, willing himself to relax with you. âWhat do you have in mind?â he asks, crossing his legs as he listens. Jimin bites down his smile when you give him a sheepish smile. But he would have never expected to hear what you are going to say to him next.Â
âI feel like it will be a waste if I just leave here after finishing my drink.â You let out a sigh. âSo maybe Iâll take your offer and try out one of the sex rooms tonight. What do you think?âÂ
You turn to Jimin with a small smile. âIs the Viewing Room with the open stage available tonight? Itâs okay to go solo to watch, isnât it? Maybe I can have fun there and enjoy myself.âÂ
Jimin swallows down the groan threatening to come out of him at the thought of you entering the sex rooms, much less the Viewing Room. Watching a live porn performance has been one of the fetishes and quirks that the club has to offer. One that he knows well enough to be your favourite before the Play Room.Â
By choosing the one with the open stage, you will be sitting right in front of the stage, with either the attendees or escorts performing their carnal act within armâs length and no barrier getting in the way. Except that going in solo would mean an open invitation to anyone who is enjoying the room to watch without a partner.Â
âI mean, I would have loved to try the Dark Room, but after failing to find a partner meant for my original schedule, I canât see myself getting a random partner on such short notice forââÂ
Gritting his teeth, Jimin holds back from showing his displeasure as you continue rambling about your desire to try out the other sex rooms. With other people. He knows that it would be wrong of him to object to your intentions when he was the one who first made the offer for you to find a different way to enjoy the rest of your night.Â
Yet he certainly isnât prepared to hear himself sharing what has truly been going through his mind out loud.Â
â You â
Thinking about what you might find in the Viewing Room tonight already makes you grow hot and excited.Â
Out of all the sex rooms that you can find in Club La Rouge, the Viewing Room was the start of it all. The start of your journey with the sex club.Â
Applying for a membership at La Rouge last year had immediately earned you a free entrance to The Viewing Room and a free extra drink in The Entertainment Room on the same night. Out of curiosity, you accepted the offer right away to feel the experience firsthand.Â
Resting back in your loveseat, you remember resting on an exact replica of this seat inside the sex room, getting comfortable as you enjoyed the show. Just the way they have it here, there was a single stage positioned perfectly at the center of the room, merely an armâs length away from where you were sitting.Â
When you first entered, the stage was already occupied. You watched in awe as a masked woman sitting on the center of the stage spread her legs open, while a masked man knelt down before her, with his face buried between her legs and his mouth devouring her bare cunt. As the woman rocked her hips in the height of pleasure, you found yourself moving yours, brushing your covered center against the cushioned seat beneath you to find your own release.Â
You remember meeting the womanâs gaze when her eyes shot open in her release, and then again when the man raised to his feet, twisting his partner onto her knees with ease before he began taking her from behind, pounding into her shamelessly while masked strangers continued to watch them giving in and indulging their carnal desire on stage.Â
It felt exhilarating.Â
Freeing.Â
And it felt like the perfect escape from your mundane life, allowing you to recognise a part of you which had been lying dormant inside and awaiting release. The part of you which has always had a strong passion and desire for pleasure, and a deep curiosity to venture deeper into your fantasies and bring them into reality. Â
That had been the night when you truly found the club to be the perfect place for you. A place where you could seek out pure pleasure, to learn and understand more about your needs and desires freely without any judgement from the people around you.Â
And you have been coming back to this place ever since. Always back to try out new things, new ventures, new sex rooms, and Jimin knows this fact so well as he talks about your intention of visiting the Viewing Room before making your way home.Â
âThe Viewing Room you mentioned is available tonight. Iâm quite certain that there are already a couple of guests making use of the stage right now, and anyone interested in watching them can enter anytime. ButââÂ
Jimin pauses. Seconds drag on. It would be expected for you to feel uneasy about why he seems so unsure to talk more about this. But itâs hard to feel it when his gaze seems to spark brighter when he looks at you.Â
With a smile on his face, Jimin leans in to say with a low, gentle voice, âWhat if I tell you that I have something better in mind?âÂ
His cryptic words make you curious. âIâm listening.âÂ
His smile remains as his gaze holds steady, âI would like to make you an offer.â
The moment you get to see Jimin up close, your previous thoughts are proven right. He does look way more attractive in your eyes compared to the dancer who tried his best to keep your attention on him. Even with a full suit on, Jimin looks more appealing. His face, while hidden under his beautifully crafted mask, appears delicate and beautiful beneath. Not even the mask and the dim lighting filling the room can hide his features, or dim the sparks you feel from looking into his eyes.Â
And then there is the way he carries himself, which has always been able to make you feel flustered whenever you are near each other. The way he glides and sways as if he is dancing to a tune that only he can listen to, and how you would take in every single movement he makesâfrom the tilt of his head, the small twitch at the corner of his lips before his smile grows, to the delicate way he moves his fingers.Â
You have never truly realised how much he affects you.Â
Until now.Â
When the confidence that he oozes from within makes you feel like you want to surrender your desire in his hands, knowing that he might be the only one in the world who may understand what you need.Â
âAnother offer?â you ask, smiling at the sweet man before you, while hiding the fact that you are feeling an odd flutter in your chest with the way he is leaning closer to you. He might only want to make sure that you can hear him over the sultry music playing in the room, while keeping his wordsâhis offerâfrom everyone else around you to hear. Something for your ears only.
âAfter giving me an additional monthly private session, extra free drinks and a free show.â You raise your glass and wave your hand at the main stage, where a few male dancers are now performing for all the club members who are present, their bare chests glimmering under the golden glow lights. âAs well as many other privileges a girl like me could ever deserve. Yet you still have more to give?âÂ
Your smile grows when your gazes meet again. âI never realised the club takes good care of their members this well.â
Jimin gives you a sweet smile. âAs I said before, I feel responsible for tonightâs misfortune. I feel like I am partly to blame for matching you with the wrong partners for your private session tonight. If only I had done my job better, perhaps you wouldââ
Shaking your head at him, you lean forward and repeat the same words you gave him earlier. âJimin, I told you already, itâs not your fault. These things can happen. It just wasnât meant to be.âÂ
Jimin presses his lips when he nods. His eyes are on you when he speaks again, âYet, things like this shouldnât happen. It would be bad for our business if we keep messing things up for our favourite clients.â His frown softens. His lips turn to a small grin when he notices you looking back at him with a shy smile, obviously catching on with the meaning of his words.Â
âRest assured, Iâve dealt with the problems as much as I could. For now. You will not be paired up again with your original partner in the future, and we will be looking into his personal details to see if we can have him update his data so things like thisâhaving an appointed pairing bail due to conflicting interests, as he called itâwonât be happening again.âÂ
The grin disappears and switches into a look of contempt as he speaks about this, and then he carries on to say, âWe have also scheduled to have our system looked over, to make sure that no one, especially you, will experience similar misfortunes.â
You sit back and look at him with wide eyes. âWow, you work fast,â you mutter softly, amusedly, surprised that Jimin and his team would move that quickly to fix all the problems straight away. Their automated pairing system included.Â
âAs I should. Itâs for the clubâs best interest, after all,â he claims. âOf course, the first chosen club member has received a warning for his sudden retreat, and we are currently appraising the details and preferences he added in his application form to see if there was some information that he had put in inaccurately.âÂ
The sass and bitterness in his voice nearly make you laugh. Seems like Jimin also believes that said club member might have made up things that he wrote down in his application form.Â
âAnd the other? Youâre not going to reprimand the poor fella?âÂ
Jimin scoffs. âNo, he already emailed us back, right before I came in. Heâs out of town, and the business email address he gave us had an automated reply feature set on. That might have been the main cause of the issue.âÂ
âBummer,â you say this while rolling your eyes, causing Jimin to chuckle. âIs that what you came here to talk about?â
Shaking his head, Jimin smiles softly at you and leans closer. âNo, itâs not. I couldâve informed you all of this another time if thatâs all I wanted to talk about.âÂ
He takes a quick glance around him, seeing if anyone would hear him before he continues. âMy offer has to do with your original session,â he says, pausing briefly to let you process his words before he explains further, âSince the Play Room has been booked for your appointment tonight, it will remain vacant for the rest of the night. We have no other guests scheduled for a session, while the room itself has been set up to accommodate yourârequest.âÂ
He gives you a small grin while your cheeks grow warm. You are taken back to Jiminâs first reaction when he heard your request, when he sounded so surprised and amused at the same time that you regretted not contacting him through a video call instead to see the reaction on his face. âThe staff have worked so hard preparing the room for your appointment. It would be a shame to let it go to waste, wouldnât it?â
âIâŠsuppose it would,â you respond slowly, while silently questioning where he is going with this.
âThen, I would like to offer you the chance to use the Play Room tonight,â he says, surprising you that you raise your eyebrows at him.
âOkayâŠBut how? I donât suppose that your system can magically find me the right partner to invite tonight. Unless you already know someone that might come in momentâs notice,â you comment with a soft chuckle, yet the way Jimin grins at you in return makes you stop.Â
âIf an eligible partner is what you are asking for, then there is one who is available.âÂ
Your jaw nearly drops. âDo you mean to say that you have found someone?âÂ
Jimin says nothing for a brief moment, allowing room for anticipation to start growing in your chest. And then, he surprises you again when he finally answers. Â
âItâs me,â he confidently replies. While your heartbeat picks up after hearing this, a look of mirth appears in his eyes.Â
You say nothing, wondering if you are hearing things. Perhaps you heard him wrong, and you are imagining things. But then Jimin speaks again, more convincingly this time, âI will be your partner so you can use the Play Room tonight.âÂ
Seeing that you are lost for words, Jimin holds back a chuckle and reaches out. His gentle hand rests right beside your thigh, barely touching, yet you can still feel a brush of warmth on your skin from the gesture. Your body reacts with a shudder, yet you make no move to pull away when Jimin leans in, getting into your personal space so that you can breathe in his cologne, and feel his breath on your exposed shoulder when he questions you with a low voice, âI can promise you that if you wish so dearly for your fantasy to be fulfilled tonight, then I can make sure you will not be left unsatisfied. What do you say?â
âIs thatââ You are still struggling to get over your shock that you canât find any words to say. His offer was so unexpected that you have no idea how to react. âIs that even allowed?â you finally ask, âAnd why would you even make such an offer?âÂ
Jiminâs gaze softens. âA part of it is me trying to make up for my mistake, another part is for my personal gain,â he admits, once again surprising you with his confession. âYou are quite a special member of the club. As a host, it would taint my reputation if words spread that Iâve failed to provide one of my attendees with her needs tonight.âÂ
His gaze is locked on yours when he continues, âAs a man, who has unadulterated interest in you, it would have been a great sin should I send you home tonight unsatisfied, when I know for sure that I fit quite well to the criteria you were asking for as a partner.âÂ
Eyes wide, you simply listen and allow his words to sink in. If only he didnât seem so genuine about it, perhaps you would have laughed in his face. You find it hard to believe that he has any semblance of interest in you at all, or in the type of fantasy you wished to bring into reality. Enough for him to make such an offer.Â
âAs for whether or not I, as a staff member, am allowed to offer myself to be your partner,â he continues while you fall silent, âthe rules only state that I am not allowed to be involved with a guest when I am in the hour of my shift. I donât think the club and the executives would mind if I end my shift early tonight and re-enter as a regular patron of the club.âÂ
This time, you cannot stop yourself from laughing in disbelief. But you can see the honesty in his eyes, and you quickly sober up.Â
âYour offer is quite tempting,â you find yourself admitting once your laughter dies down.
âOf course, it is,â he says, smiling, while looking awfully pleased and sure of himself. âYou came into our club tonight in search of pleasure. We have one Play Room still open and reserved, already prepared specifically for you. Itâs a win-win situation if we take this opportunity. Donât you think so?âÂ
In a way, you have to admit that he is right.Â
Your special request would have required some extra preparation from the club to arrange. You wonder what kind of waste that would be if the club isnât going to find someone else to make use of it. And the more you think about it, the more tempted you are to follow him through Â
âIf I accept this offer,â you carefully say to him, âhow will it affect my, umââÂ
As if Jimin knows what you are about to ask him, he nods and explains, âRemember one of the rules from the Play Room that I shared with you when you first came in?âÂ
You nod your head, still remembering the rules clearly.Â
âWhat happens in the Play Room, stays there. Once the session ends, you will remain as our esteemed guest and club member, while I remain as your host,â Jimin reassures you, âOf course, if you ever find it uncomfortable to have me deal with your futureâendeavours, you are free to switch hosts and your personal contacts for your future sessions anytime you want.âÂ
While his explanation does sound reassuring, his last comment only displeases you. Furrowing your brows, you cannot possibly imagine having to contact anyone else other than Jimin. To allow a stranger from the club to organise your private sessions, to take notes of your preferences and progressâsomething that you find too personal to share with anyoneâinstead of having someone that you have become familiar with for the past year assisting you.Â
Jimin tilts his head. He can probably see that you may need a moment to mull it over. There is no need for you to let him know that you might have already made up your mind about taking his offer.Â
âYou have one more drink on your card. Take your time to think about it while you have your drink. You should also know that this is an offer that I donât give away so easily to any other members of the club,â he says, as the tips of his fingers brush against your hand. A shudder runs through you, and you begin to imagine what his touch would do to you if it were more intimate.Â
Jimin leans back, brushing against the front of his suit as he takes away his warmth. âI will be waiting for your decision. Just come straight to the room that has been reserved for your session tonight. You should find the information by taking a quick visit to Saki at the concierge desk.âÂ
âWhat if I decide not to come?âÂ
Jimin stops. With a flicker of a smile on his face, he reaches out to you, tucking a loose strand of your hair behind your earâa move which enthrals you and has your heartbeat picking up rapidly in your chest.Â
âI think,â he whispers, âYou will be there when I enter the room. Youâll be waiting for me on your knees, your hands folded on your lap, and your head down in submission. You will be waiting for me to tell you what I want, and ready to take my commands, just like the good girl I know you are.âÂ
You bite your lips and lower your eyes. âIs that how you want me tonight, Sir?âÂ
There is heat in his eyes when Jimin notices your subtle submission. âYou should know better than to question your master once the instruction is clear.âÂ
â Jimin â
Jiminâs movements are stiff and his legs feel heavy as he makes his way out of the Entertainment Room. It takes a lot of effort to remain calm as he walks away from you. He almost canât even make it to leave at all.Â
But he knows that he has to.Â
He feels hard as concrete down below. His pants have grown tight as he walks, and he can only hope that the dim lighting around him provides enough cover to hide it as he walks past a few guests and escorts on his way back to his office.Â
Your reaction to his offer was sweet. But it was your reaction to his instructions that did things to him. It makes him want to forget everythingâthe rules, regulations, his duties and ethicsâand go straight to the Play Room with you. To hell with the power of anticipation, when he could have gone straight into playtime if he wanted to.Â
But he knows that he cannot do that.Â
Not here. Not now, when he is still on duty.Â
To make sure that there will be nothing getting in the way of him in spending the evening and having a session with you, he needs to do things right. First, he needs to get back to his office and deal with his remaining duties and responsibilities. Then he is going to clock out, ending his shift so he can enter the room with you as another guest instead of a host.Â
A complete submission.Â
That was your special request. A new kind of sexual exploit that you have claimed, time and time before, to be something that you have been interested in trying, but never had the chance or the courage to get into. Not once, because you have yet to find the right time and place to delve into it without being haunted by the fear of judgment, and without worrying about your safety.Â
As Jimin closes the door to his office behind him and carefully begins stripping himself out of his suit jacket, he recalls the conversation he had with you earlier today, back when you called to make the arrangement.Â
Those three words had done him over that he almost reacted with a groan in the middle of the phone call. It brought back a piece of his past; his first connection to the club, and the deepest, darkest desire that he has long kept a secret from the world, but never from the club.Â
Jimin walks across the room to stand in front of the mirror that he has placed against the wall. Carefully, he untangles the ribbons keeping his mask attached to his face. With a new determination set in his mind, he strips himself of the mask that identifies him as the host of the club, and readies himself to put on a different mask. An old persona of his that not many have ever gotten the chance to see.Â
Tonight, he is just another guest.Â
Tonight, he is about to become the master that you need.Â
â You âÂ
You cannot really remember how you managed to get here.Â
The preparation room looks just as common as the others you used before when you booked a sex room.
Not too spacious, just comfortable enough for the guest to strip out of their clothes and change into whatever outfit or setup they need for the session.Â
A small shower box and a vanity table are placed on one side of the room, provided specifically in case an attendee feels the need to clean up before or after a session.Â
A wooden closet covers the other side of the room, filled with robes and costumes that you can choose from. There are also baskets and boxes here which you can use to place your personal belongingsâthe ones which you didnât leave behind at the reception deskâto keep safe during a session.Â
The locked door behind you should bring you back towards the hallway where Saki had left you. The soft echoes of her heels can still be heard as she makes her way back to the concierge desk after escorting you here.Â
And right on the other side of the door before you is the Play Roomâspecifically, the room which Jimin had reserved for you tonight.Â
Your body is buzzing from the inside as you stand facing it. Every part of your sense has come alive, excitement is brewing, yet you still make no move to get ready.Â
Butterflies flutter in your belly while all your nerve endings are crackling. The thought of Jimin being the other person you will see once you step through that door feels like a fantasy that you never once imagined, yet merely seconds away from becoming reality.Â
Itâs this kind of moment when you wish that you could depend on liquid courage. The clubâs drink limit wasnât even the reason why your mind is now clear, as you never took the extra drink that Jimin offered. The moment Jimin walked out of sight, leaving you behind in the Entertainment Room to ponder over his invitation, your mind was already made up. Not even the male dancer rocking his hips towards you from behind the glass barrier did anything to sway you from your needs.
Not when Jiminâs words had already set your nerves alight, and your carnal needs burning wildly inside. Â
You barely even finished your second drink when you left your seat, drawn by the promise you heard in Jiminâs voice. A promise that he would be the one to give you what you need tonight.Â
Not simply as a host who is in charge of your safety and comfort. Not out of his sense of duty.Â
But as a man with raw, carnal desire which you could feel from his direct words, his confidence, and his smooth, silky voice as he spoke about helping you find pleasure.Â
With a deep inhale of breath, you begin peeling your clothes off. Jimin never specified how you should situate yourself aside from the hint he left you with. But you have decided that it would be best to be as prepared as you can be.Â
After putting aside your shoes, pieces of jewellery, and your fancy dress into one of the baskets, you walk towards the full body mirror on the vanity table.Â
The pair of eyes looking back at you look almost unrecognisable. Yet the brewing anticipation and desire are clear, even from beneath the mask. Deciding that you are going to go all in tonight, you carefully take off your mask, putting it aside with a smile on your face before stepping into the shower box.Â
From what you have learned about Doms, something that you read about when you first became intrigued with the concept of submission and control, you found that some may require their subs to freshen up before entering a play. For you, personally, standing briefly under the running water has helped calm your nerves before entering an intense type of play.Â
Recalling the way Jimin leaned in to breathe the scent of your perfume, you forgo using the liquid soap that you find on the shelves and simply let the water wash off the sweat on your skin and the spicy fragrance from the Entertainment Room still clinging on you. Â
Once you feel refreshed and clean, you reach for the silk robe to cover yourself. Itâs a thin piece that hangs perfectly on the curves of your body. Its length falls right at the top of your thighs, barely concealing your intimate parts when you sit down on the settee in front of the vanity table.Â
You take your time to look at your reflection in the mirror before stepping into the next room. Â
Your face is now clean from the makeup you wore for the night. Your hair is loose, the pins and hair clip are now safely secured with your other belongings, and it makes you feel more relaxed seeing the wet strands framing your clear face.Â
A smile lifts itself on your face as you take a good look at yourself while imagining how Jimin would react seeing you like thisâwith every part of you bare of anything which may hide your truth. For him to see every part of you that no one else has ever gotten the chance to.Â
If heâs going to be there as just another man, then Iâll be there as a regular woman.Â
Not his usual patron or special guest. Just me.Â
The door to the Play Room closes behind you with a resounding click. Almost as if sealing your fate.Â
There is no turning back.Â
By now, Jimin wouldâve gotten notified of your arrival in the room. He might already be on his way to join you.Â
It would be too late to have a change of mind now, wouldnât it?Â
You find yourself wondering about this as your gaze drifts towards the other door across the room. You can picture him entering through that door, elegantly striding into the room as if he owns the place. The same way you saw him the first time you met, when he entered the guest venue with his head held high and one of his hands tucked in his pocket as he greeted the guests attending the clubâs special event. Also, the same way he did earlier when he walked off the Entertainment Room after sharing his proposition with you. Â
Will he be wearing his mask still, just like your previous partners? Will he still be wearing his fancy suitâthis evening, he was wearing a matching suit in deep bronze with a satin shirt in cream underneath, a complete contrast to his dark maskâor will he choose to change into something more comfortable?Â
Something moreâappropriate for the play, perhaps? Or maybe just something comfortable for him to play his role with?Â
Thinking of all the possibilities of seeing Jimin in a different light makes the flutter inside you grow more intense. It feels overwhelming. So you try to distract yourself by taking in your surroundings instead, marvelling at what the club has done while you have the chance to soak it all in.Â
This Play Room seems slightly different compared to the ones you used previously. Quite more spacious, it gives you a sense that you are inside a honeymoon suite in a resort instead of a simple sex room inside of a club. The lights here are a bit dimmer, with various more arrangements added to fill the room.
A four-poster king-sized bed is placed against the center wall to your right. Its frame is made of dark wood, with four vertical columns standing on each of its corners, made as tall as pillars reaching to the ceiling. Wooden rails are placed on its head, looking just as sturdy as the columns and sizeable enough for you to wrap your fingers around each grid. Various pillows and cushions are scattered on the mattress, all covered in dark rouge-coloured silk sheetsâthe shade that you see in almost every part of the club. Â
The bed looks imposing as you stand right before the massive columns. Yet heat rises through your body as you picture yourself being stretched out on top of the delicate fabric, your limbs bound to those pillars and your skin bare for your partnerâs eyes to see.Â
Another set of doors stand on the wall across the bed. A symbol is placed at the top, similar to the one you saw one the doors to the preparation rooms similar to the one that you had just walked out ofâa symbol that looks like an outline of a bathtub to give you a hint of what is on the other side.Â
Your heartbeat flutters softly in your chest knowing what it meansâa small bath meant to use after a playtime, or perhaps another part of the set-up meant for the Dom and sub to use during a play?Â
Turning back to the room, you see two other furnitures that are set on either side of the bed which look just as imposing.Â
Black-painted St. Andrews cross stands on a small platform on the left side of the bed, set up for intense bondage play. A bondage bench covered in dark red leather with leg stirrups is placed on the right side, with various instruments meant for different types of punishments hanging on the adjacent wall. Floggers, belts, whips, paddles, riding crops, and even feathers in various sizes and colours draw your attention, and your skin feels tight as you picture them being used on you.Â
Looking away from those instruments, your gaze lands on a single leather high-back chair that is placed across the bed. Looking at its position, you can imagine your partner sitting there, watching as you are laid to perform any carnal act on the bed.Â
This simple setup is something that you are more familiar with, learned from your previous experiences in the Play Room.
Your first experience with the Play Room was when you requested a session where you could give a blowjob to a nameless partner who was willing to be tied up and blindfolded. On the next session, you became the recipient of an invitation sent from another guest. An anonymous club member who wanted to give you pleasure through oral sex, only this time, with you being the one who was blindfolded, all while you were stretched out and bent on a long loveseat similar to the high-back chair you see in this room.
Ever since then, you have continued to use the Play Room to venture into other kinks. To understand more about yourself and follow your need to figure out what you might enjoy more in the future with a trusted partner.Â
You tried to see if you could enjoy pain kink by arranging to have a partner spanking you until your skin grew tender. The first time you entered this type of session, you had your partner use his palms, who had then used those same palms to soothe away the pain and tenderness until you were left trembling under his touches. In the next session, you had a different partner use a flogger, an experience which you found painful yet thrilling that you felt like you were being sent off to a different height at the end.Â
Both occasions had allowed you to learn one thing; that you can endure pain and enjoy them, and you had been left drenched between your legs with arousal after each one, that a single flick of a finger on your clit and a light blow on your slick folds were enough to send you spiralling into your climax, one that was so intense that you can still feel it each time you think about those nights.Â
Another time, you tried to see if food play would be your thing.Â
The idea of the play was quite erotic; as you spent it by having both you and your partner coated in chocolate syrup before licking each other clean. But the aftermath hadnât been as pleasing.Â
It was messy, sticky, and you still giggle each time you remember the dopey smile you gave each other when you found out how ticklish you actually were. It didnât necessarily ruin the experience. But it did simmer the heat. Thankfully, your partner that night simply bid you goodbye with a chaste kiss on your cheek and a teasing wink instead of abhorrence.Â
Sensory play was the next thing you tried in the Play Room. It was your partnerâs turn to take the lead, by pouring hot wax on your breasts before using ice cubes to cool down the sizzling heat. He then finished the play by sucking your sensitive nipples until both of you came into climax from the thrill and heightened sensations. It was yet again something you found to be a pleasant experience. A new find in the growing list of kinks that you certainly do enjoy.Â
Pressing your legs together, you try to tame down the pulsing heat growing at your center. You can feel that you are getting wet from thinking about your past experiences. Foreplays to prepare yourself for tonightâs session, as you see it.Â
You have no idea what truly enticed you to request such an intense play for your session tonight. You only have a vague idea so far of what you are getting into, which only adds to the anticipation brewing inside.Â
Feeling tension growing in your belly, you turn away from the bed to look at the console table standing in the center of the room. At one glance, the table only looks like another piece of adornment to complete the room setup. But upon closer inspection, you quickly notice the entire set-up of what you may need during your play.Â
Assortments of smaller instruments and sex toys are laid perfectly in order on top of the table, all chosen according to your personal preferences as written in your registration form. From plugs, clamps, and vibrators in different types, sizes, and colours. To a variety of ropes and fabrics that you can only imagine how they are going to be made use of during the play.Â
There is an addition of a set of hemp rope beside the silk ropes that you have listed as something which you thought might be more comfortable to be used on you, and you wonder if Jimin had added it as his own preference to try with you after volunteering to be your partner tonight.Â
Reaching out, you brush the tips of your fingers over the items on the table, trying to decide if you should pick something out of them yourself before Jimin arrives. Even if only so you could have something to hold on to as you wait.Â
But then Jiminâs last instruction echoes through your mind, reminding you of the command he gave before he leftâÂ
âYouâll be waiting for me on your knees, your hands folded on your lap, and your head down in submission.âÂ
Thump. Thump. Your heart begins beating rapidly in your chest. Warmth surges through your body, pulling at your skin, as his gentle voice comes to you like a soft, demanding caress,Â
âYou will be waiting for me to tell you what I wantâŠâ
The intense flutter in your chest returns, and you pull your hand away from the table.Â
Smoothing down the front of your robe, you carefully climb onto the bed. You settle down near the foot of the bed, knees folded beneath you to cushion your weight. You rest your palms on your thighs, loosening your fingers instead of clenching them, and lower your head in submission.Â
And then you wait. Â
Seconds tick by into minutes.Â
Silence has thickened as you continue kneeling on the bed, waiting for Jimin to arrive.Â
Your heartbeat has grown steady. The unrest and anxiousness you felt have dwindled in your wait. Your legs are beginning to grow numb. Yet there is something about the power of anticipation which has the rest of your body come alive.
While your mind is empty, you are still focused. Your senses are on high alert. Your skin has become sensitive to the touch, to every shift in the air, to every brush of soft breeze flowing from the air conditioner.Â
The gentle click from the other door sounds like itâs coming from far away. It doesnât take long for your mind to register what it means, as it is the sound that you have been waiting for ever since you claimed your position. Â
Jimin is here.Â
You remain in your position, keeping your eyes lowered as the gentle sound of footfalls fills the room. You can feel him approaching, stopping to stand right before you without making any other sound. For a moment, you can hear nothing else but the sound of your steady heartbeat and his subtle breathing, untilâ
âYou follow my instructions really well.â His voice comes as a murmur, with a praise that comes out of his lips like a humming tune. It brings back the butterflies fluttering in your belly, growing wild and expanding, before exploding into sparks when he adds,Â
âGood girl.âÂ
Your hands are clenched, and unclenched, in perfect rhythm as the blood flooding warmly in your veins. Receiving his praise surprisingly feelsâgood.Â
His words feel almost as succulent as the most expensive wine you have ever tasted. You immediately file this new discovery as something that you find as something pleasing.Â
Jimin places a knuckle under your chin and lifts your face to look at him. âHello there, angel.âÂ
Every single thought in your head is quieted the moment you get to look at Jimin. Evidently, he has taken his time to clean up. His suit is gone, replaced by a silk robe which is almost a matching pair to yours. Even his mask is no longer present, leaving not a single trace of lace to cover his beautiful face.Â
You feel like you are dreaming. You have tried to picture him before, more than once. But your imagination doesnât seem fair enough when you finally get a good look at him.Â
You donât realise how obvious you are in admiring Jiminâs presence until a slow smile grows on his face. He seems amused at your reaction, even if itâs quite clear that you are not the only one to do it. Jiminâs perusing gaze lingers on your face as he brushes his thumb across your cheek.Â
âThis is the first time you are showing me your face ever since the first night you came to the club,â Jimin muses with his gentle voice. So soft that you almost miss it thanks to the sound of your thundering heart.Â
âThis is the first time I get to see your faceâever,â you respond with a smile, drawing a soft chuckle from him.Â
âI suppose this will be a fair treat for both of us,â Jimin says with a low voice as he lets go of your chin and draws himself back. âOpen my robe.âÂ
Your fingers are slightly shaking as you reach out to him. Dainty fingers pull on the sash binding his robe together until the thin fabric comes apart, revealing his bare chest, his firm torso, and the soft V-line leading down towards his semi hard-on. You cannot resist licking your lips, wishing that you could trace his skin, to run your fingers down the lines on his body and the artful black lines written on the side of his chest.Â
A tattoo. How amusing, you wonder, while silently questioning if there is more ink work on other parts of his body that you are going to find.Â
You take another second to marvel at this new, unexpected part of him, before your gaze drifts up to his face, waiting for his next instruction. You start to reach up to peel the robe from his shoulders, yet he gently catches your wrist before you can even try. âThatâs enough for now, angel.âÂ
âAh. Yes, Sir.âÂ
Jimin tilts his head as he holds your hands in his, gently pulling you up while saying, âRise, angel. Let me have a good look at you.âÂ
You can barely feel your legs as you rise, but you barely feel any worries of falling when Jimin keeps a firm hold of your hand with one hand, and your waist on the other. He keeps you balanced when your feet are on the floor and you find yourself swaying.Â
âEasy, now,â he teases as helps you steady yourself on your feet. âGood. Now donât move.â Once he is convinced that you can stand on your own, Jimin steps back. Though he keeps his eyes on you, watching you closely when he says, âI want you out of that robe.âÂ
With a deep intake of breath, you reach down and pull to untie the sash around your robe. The silky cover comes apart, revealing your bare skin underneath. You can hear the soft intake of breath coming from Jimin, making your skin flush at the thought of him being affected by the sight of your bareness. Â
Something else shines through Jiminâs eyes when he looks at you, smouldering with an unnamed intent. Something illicit and dark, sending shivers through your spine. But it also feels delicate and warm, not the kind of sensation that would send you shrinking into the bed and hiding from him.Â
Jimin takes a step closer. Then another step. Then he runs his fingers on the front lining of your robe, rising up to your shoulders. âYou are beautiful, angel. Exquisite,â he whispers smoothly with his fingers moving your hair back.Â
He gently peels your robe off of your shoulders, allowing it to fall to the floor, pooling around your bare feet. The tips of his fingers brush against your skin as he does this, prompting a shudder surging through your body.Â
âThose fools have no idea what they were missing when they failed to show up tonight,â he murmurs, referring to the club members that were initially chosen for you to have as your master tonight.Â
But you have barely thought of them at all. Not since the moment Jimin offered to take the role that has been left vacant in their absence. Â
You are lost in your thoughts for a brief moment that you donât realise how closer he has gotten. Not until you feel the warmth of his words against your lips. His eyes look deeply into yours as he trails his fingers down the length of your bare arms.Â
It feels thrilling, the way he is touching you, and the way your body is reacting to the featherlight touches of his fingers. It feels intoxicating, more than what youâve gained from the drinks you had earlier. Your mind is clouded, and his heated gaze keeps you entranced, making it hard for you to look away, yet your mind is still clear enough to take in everything that is happening at the moment. Â
Your gaze falls to his lips. With him leaning so close, all you have to do is tilt your head and your lips would touch each other. But neither of you make a move.Â
His eyes move down just then, lingering on your lips. Just when you think he is about to kiss you, Jimin retreats and carefully guides you back to the edge of the bed. âBack on the bed for now, angel. Resume your position for me.âÂ
Disappointment weighs down your chest, yet you quickly brush it off and keep your voice steady. âYes, Sir.âÂ
The loss of this touch makes your skin feel cold, so you hold on to the heat coming out of his eyes as you move back to the bed. Moving under his unwavering gaze makes you feel more hyper-aware of your state of nudity. He isnât even touching you the way you want him to yet, but you can already feel warmth surging through your skin simply from the intense way his eyes are following every move you make.Â
Sitting back on the bed, a gasp slips out of your lips. You are surprised to find how wet you have already gotten underneath, all coming simply from his unwavering attention. The slickness of your arousal isnât yet intense, but present, sticking on your skin as you settle back with your legs folded beneath you, hands on your lap, your gaze lowered in submission as you wait for his next move.Â
Jimin acknowledges your obedience with a nod, and then turns away to make his way across the room, straight to the console table. You watch from under your eyelashes as Jimin moves, his robe flittering on his back. You quickly notice how his slow, yet confident strides hold something different in them more than what you have seen from him before.Â
An air of dominance and control. Imposing, but not enough to instil fear, and still as elegant as how you have always seen him.Â
Jimin might not be as brunt as the Dominants youâve learned about from your research through the internet or what was written in the books youâve read. He isnât hard and tough. Instead, he isâgentle, while still commanding in his own way. He has a kind of tenderness that serves like a magic spell, one which makes you want to obediently obey and follow. He lights up the desire you have in you to submit to his every will, to please him, without having to say too much.Â
The way he feels so comfortable in his own skin also amazes you. Looking at his back, you almost forget that he is bare underneath. The way he embraces himself puts you in awe, that you cannot help but continue admiring him.Â
As Jimin reaches the console table, he holds out his hand and begins running his fingers on the assortment of instruments and toys being displayed, and you inadvertently straighten your back. Jimin seems to be taking his time perusing the playthings on the table, causing your nerves to spark as you anticipate whatâs coming next.
âYou requested to experience a complete submission. Is that right, angel?â he gently asks, and for a moment, your brain nearly fails to register his question before you finally find your voice again, Â
âYes, Sir. I did.âÂ
Jimin looks over his shoulder. âNow that youâve seen everything weâve prepared for your playtime tonight, you havenât changed your mind, have you?âÂ
You lick your lips. âNo, Sir.â
âGood,â he says with a hum. âBefore we startââ Jimin angles his body to look at you, and the light from the ceiling falls on his covered back, allowing you to see through his sheer robe to see some more ink work lining down his spine.Â
âPick a safeword, angel.âÂ
You drag your eyes away from his back, looking at his face as you consider your choice of safeword, before deciding to go with what your mind is more familiar with. âRed,â you answer him with a soft voice. âRed means to stop.â Â
His lips twitch with a knowing smile. âFavourite colour?âÂ
You shake your head. âNot really. Itâs just easier to remember when I suddenly need to use it.âÂ
Humming to himself, Jimin nods. âGood thinking,â he compliments you, his eyes glinting under the lights as he looks at you to say, âI personally love your choice.âÂ
Jimin turns his attention back to the table, and as the robe on his body moves along with him, you finally get to see the vague lines of his back tattoo through the sheer fabric.Â
Moon phases. How fitting.Â
Your gaze is pulled back onto Jiminâs hands as he moves to trace his fingers across the items on the table. As he reaches for the silk and hemp ropes, your skin grows tight with excitement.Â
Bondage is something that you are still unfamiliar with. But you had clearly stated in your request today that it would be something that you would be interested to learn and do through the session should your partnerâyour masterâbe willing.Â
As your host, you know damn well that Jimin would have taken account of this part of your request. And he seems to be making it clear to you that he is more than willing to introduce you to this form of play tonight.Â
With a gentle hand, Jimin picks up the silk rope. He plays with the fabric in his fingers for a moment, feeling its texture. He then moves on to the next items, perusing them as closely as he did with the binding materials provided for him. Your core grows warm as he touches one of the small toys and starts filtering through the plugs. Then he moves on again, allowing you a brief relief, only until he brushes his fingers against the collection of clamps in various shapes and sizes that you saw previously.Â
âHow much can you endure pain?â he asks you while he carefully browses through each item while sneaking glances at you from over his shoulder.Â
You lick your lips. Tingles run through your body as you try to imagine all the things he could possibly do to you, as you picture the previous experiences youâve had when it comes to finding pleasure through inflicted pain.Â
âI tolerate them quite fairly.âÂ
âHave you tried these?â As Jimin turns and lifts his hand for you to see, a golden chain hangs from his fingers. A clinking sound draws your eyes to the ends of the chain, where a set of clamps is seen hanging from it, glimmering in the shade of gold. The thin piece of gold looks like a regular piece of jewellery in his hand. And yet itâs hard for you to marvel at its beauty when you that it serves a completely different purpose when used.Â
âNot yet, Sir.âÂ
Nodding, Jimin puts the clamps back in their place without asking further questions. Then he reaches out to the lines of thin fabric which you identify as blindfolds and mouth covers.Â
âBlindfold?â he offers with a raised brow.Â
âNo,â your answer comes out easily before you even have the chance to mull it over. âNot tonight. I want to be able to look at you.âÂ
Jimin lets out a soft chuckle as he finally turns away from the table. His mind is already made up with what kind of play he wants to have with you. His determined eyes look straight at you as he steps closer with a silky fabric in his handsâwhich looks more like a ribbon instead of the rope he was playing withâyet the smile you see on his face softens all the tension in your body.Â
âHow are you doing, angel? Youâre still okay?â
âYes, sir.â You lick your lips. âQuite nervous,â you admit. Desperate for a distraction, you look down on his hands as he slides the thin strip of silk through his fingers. He plays around with the soft material while keeping his eyes on you, taking in your honest reaction.Â
âGive me your hands. I want to try something before we continue.âÂ
Jiminâs deliberate tone stills your heartbeat. You slowly raise your palms, inches from his waist. The silk strip is soon wound around your wrists, his deft fingers carefully securing the knot just as you begin to tremble. Once he is done, Jimin brings your bound wrists to his chest and slips a finger between your wrist and the fabric to make sure the bond isnât too tight. Â
Keeping your bound wrists to his chest, he draws your attention to his face as his lips are pulled into a slow smile. âTonight, Iâm just another guest,â Jimin says to you once he gains your attention, âI am only here to please you, to guide you as your master. Tonight, you are mine to take care of and give pleasure to, but you are to listen to what I say so we can both find pleasure at the end of this session. Is that clear?âÂ
You respond to him with a nod, yet he immediately makes a disapproving noise with his tongue. âFrom now on, you will respond to me with your words every time I speak to you. Is that clear, angel?âÂ
A whisper of a breath leaves your lips before you finally answer, âYes, Sir.âÂ
His smile returns. âNow repeat to me. What is your safeword again?âÂ
âRed.âÂ
âVery good. Do you willingly put yourself in my hands tonight?â he asks, while he gently strokes the side of your body with his free hand, lightly digging his fingers into your bare back while his thumb grazes the side of your breast.Â
âY-yes, Sir,â you answer with a gasp as he presses down on your skin.Â
âIf you want to slow down, or if youâre not feeling sure about continuing and need a moment to take a breath, you can also use âyellowâ to let me know, and Iâll hold back for you. Use âredâ only if you want to stop.â Releasing your secured wrists, Jimin tilts your chin up to get you to look at him. âBut you must remember that red or stop means everything ends, and I will put our play to a complete stop, and thereâs where we end the night. Do you understand?âÂ
You give him a quick nod. âYes, Sir.âÂ
âDo you trust me?âÂ
With your gaze locked on his, you answer him firmly with, âI do.âÂ
Pleased with your answer, he gently pulls you up from your current position. âSit on the end of the bed for me, angel.â With one hand on your bound wrists, Jimin holds you steady, while he uses his other hand to help you unfold your legs and let them hang on the side of the bed.Â
âEasy. Lie down for me.â He bends down with you as he lowers you down to the bed until you are lying on your back.Â
His gentle hands run down the sides of your body once more as he helps you settle down on top of the silky sheets, taking account of every dent and curve forming your figure. His touch then traces down your thighs, carefully rising them up until your knees are bent and the heels of your feet are resting right on the edge of the mattress. Then he reaches up, palms gripping your hips before pulling you back down a bit closer to the edge of the bed.Â
âOpen your legs for me, angel,â he murmurs, and you easily comply, spreading yourself to expose your bare center. He gives you an appreciative hum as he glides his hands back up, guiding your arms above your head. The tips of your fingers brush against the covers, and he helps you get a grip on the soft fabric before letting you go.Â
Once he positions himself between your knees, his hands are immediately back on your legs, and they start moving slowly up your thighs. He keeps going upward, tracing his palms up the curve of your hips, to your waist, brushing the sides of your breasts as he continues his way up.Â
His featherlight touches on your skin have your body trembling, your senses coming alight, warmth surging down south to where you are bare and exposed to his eyes.Â
But those pretty eyes of his never waver from your face. Not even as he bends forward, covering your body with the length of his until his face is so close to yours.Â
âHold on tight and donât let go,â he whispers close as he slowly moves down until he is kneeling on the floor, his face disappearing between your legs.Â
He runs his hands back up your thighs. A velvety touch that draws a myriad of sensations through your body. Then his fingers slip down towards your center, sliding right between your thighs to find your mounds. You immediately grow damp as Jimin draws a finger up between your folds. Your body immediately quakes with pent-up desire in response to his touch. Your hips rise, hoping to press down against his touch, only to have him pulling away.Â
âJimin,â you gasp.
âYes, angel?â he coyly asks as he bends down and starts teasing your inner thighs with soft, tickling kisses. It draws soft gasps slipping out of your lips, before your breath is caught in your throat the more he rises closer to your center. His hands move down just then, settling on your spread knees to keep you from writhing off of the bed.Â
âTouch me, please.âÂ
âHmmm, I donât recall ever agreeing to let you give orders, angel,â he gently chastises you, his lips never wavering too far from your skin. âYou promised that you are mine tonight, remember? That means you are mine to do with as I wish.âÂ
A soft groan escapes your lips. You cannot help it. You are growing desperate already and his teases keep testing your patience.Â
âAre you sure you want me to touch you?âÂ
âYes, please!â you nearly scream. The desperation you feel is clawing at your chest. Unable to move your arms, you clench your hands tightly on the silky sheets the same way you wish you could pull his head towards your pulsing core. Â
His teeth scrape up your inner thigh, and you finally cry out. But when he doesnât move any closer to your center, you arch your body upwards, nearly shoving your hips towards his face to chase his lips.Â
âHold still,â he gently reprimands you with his grip tightening on your thighs. âYou will not move, angel. No matter what I do. Not until I say you can. Do you understand?âÂ
You suck a deep breath and swallow, nodding your head before you remember his command to speak. âUh, yes. I understand.â
Please.Â
You swallow back the word that you want so much to say. Even if you have no idea what you are begging him for. Â
Jimin grabs your hips and yanks your body down towards him, your bottom only lying partly on the bed and your legs hanging in the air as he lifts them upward, knees still bent and raised until your legs are partly folded above you. As if he heard your plea, Jimin dips back down and focuses on your center, his hands moving directly to the place where you need him the most.Â
Jimin wastes no time. You barely see or hear him move, when suddenly, two fingers plunge deep into your drenched pussy, drawing a scream from your lips. Your hips buck upward, nearly hitting Jimin right in the chin, and he immediately draws his fingers out.Â
âThat is one,â he says, almost sounding pleased, while you are too far gone to make sense of what he is saying.
Jimin cups your chin and guides you to meet his gaze. âAngel? Did you hear me?âÂ
Whining, you shake your head vehemently and whimper, âN-no, Sir. I didnât.âÂ
Jimin bites back his grin. Your eyes are glazed with lust, yet you can still see the amused look on his face, as if he is enjoying the way you keep defying him so easily.Â
âThat was one,â he repeats himself, âOne time you disobeyed me after I specifically told you not to.â
He trails his fingers across your hips while your heart flutters in your chest. âI will count each time you fail to follow my command, and once you reach the count of ten, you will be punished. Do you understand, angel?âÂ
You lick your lips. You know the risk of not following his words and what it may entail, and your heartbeat picks up, only for a different reason other than fear. The promise of punishment shouldnât excite you so much. Yet it does. âYes, Sir.âÂ
âI want you to stay perfectly still, angel. And do not come until I say so. Understand?âÂ
âOkay. I mean, yes. Yes, Sir,â you answer with a small voice, already feeling the effect of his touch as his fingers begin to trail closer and closer to your heat.Â
Your body grows still, waiting for the touch that takes its sweet time to come. But then he stops. His hands disappear from your skin, and he suddenly dives forward and bites down on your inner thigh, making you gasp as your clit throbs in both pleasure and pain.Â
Jimin continues, kissing and licking a burning trail towards your mound. A soft growl comes out of him when he tastes your arousal. âSpread your legs wider,â he says, lifting your left leg to rest on his shoulder once you do as he commands.Â
A single finger slips inside you, entering your warmth. He moves it gently, swirling and pressing against your hot walls, drawing your cries when his touch finds the spot where you are pulsing with pleasure.Â
You let your head fall back as you begin savouring his touch. To feel the waves of raw pleasure building, rising, and pooling right at your core before they begin to spread all over your body. Yet Jimin never gives you the chance to relish it, as he suddenly draws his finger back out, leaving your hot walls clenching onto nothing.Â
In desperate need to chase the dwindling pleasure, to feel him inside you again, your hips rise before you realise it happening. A deep chuckle is heard, letting you know that you have messed up.Â
âHow many, angel?âÂ
His voice is soft, yet it still brings shivers down your spine as you breathe out. âT-two.â
âSeems like youâll need more practice about control,â he hums softly. You open your eyes, your gaze blurry as you watch him licking his finger. A soft whimper slips out of you, then he lowers his hands once more. You feel his fingers trailing down your inner thighs, making their way back to your pulsing center. His lips follow close, replacing his touch as he leaves a brief, teasing kiss on your mound.Â
âHmmm,â Jimin hums before returning for more, pressing his lips on your slick folds and licking your arousal, âYou taste delicious, angel. Like a drop of bourbon. Sweet, and delectable.âÂ
While he keeps whispering sweet, sultry words, your words slip away from your mind. Every hot breath falling on your skin as he continues trailing his lips on your moundâgoing across, between, up, and then downâsends goosebumps through your body. Each time, you feel him taking a deep breath, as if soaking in your scent while he continues tasting you, all while murmuring pleasantries to tell you how intoxicating it is to breathe in the heady fragrance from your body.Â
Your thighs tremble as you struggle to hold back, not wanting to break his rule one more time even when you can feel your body twitching, your hips in desperate need to thrust upward into his lips so he would devour you. You fight so hard that you are beginning to find it hard to catch your breath.Â
âPlease,â you softly beg, âI canât.âÂ
âYes, you can,â Jimin mumbles against your skin.Â
âPlease, Sir.â The desperate whisper comes out with a hoarse voice, and it takes away all of your focus.Â
Everything that happens next unfolds before you can stop it.Â
Jiminâs lips hover above your hot center, his warm breath coats the slickness that has been building between your slit. You feel the briefest of a kiss right before a finger slides back in, pushing deep just as his mouth clamps around your clit. Sparks fly underneath your eyelids while your inner walls begin clenching around his finger, and you cannot stop yourself from rocking your hips, following each pulse of pleasure that is brewing inside you as you push to grind your center against his mouth.Â
Anything you try to do to stop the waves of pleasure from continuing to build fails as Jimin slides two fingers inside you, curling them up against your sweet spot, and you immediately lose every last control you still have.Â
Your pussy draws tightly around him, and just as you feel the coil loosening and snapping inside you, he bites your inner thigh, hard, just a mere inch away from your pulsing core.
With a cry, your body jolts and arches, and your hips begin rocking in the same rhythm as the pulse rising in your body. Your body rises from the bed once, twice, and right before you cross over the edge at the third rocking, everything stops when Jimin laps the mark he left behind with his bite and pulls back.Â
âStill counting, angel? Where are we now?âÂ
âIââ You gasp, finding trouble to catch your breath and to focus on his voice. âI canâtââÂ
âDonât lie to me, angel. You donât want me to add your punishment for defying me, do you?âÂ
Sucking a deep breath, you try to count how many times you felt your body rocking against him. âSix, sir. That was six. IâI think.â Â
Jimin hums. âThe numbers seem to be rising. Are you deliberately letting yourself go just to test me? Are you that curious to know what kind of punishment youâre getting if you keep disobeying me?âÂ
You shake your head as you look up at him. âN-no, Sir. I wouldnât dare.âÂ
With a smirk on his face, Jimin presses his lips on your quivering thigh. âProve it to me, angel. Try a bit harder to hold back. Remember, youâre not allowed to cum until I allow you to. If you dare cum, weâll make it twice the count. Is that clear?âÂ
Pressing your lips together, you stop yourself from crying out a protest. Only for another sound to come out of your lips when Jimin dips back down between your legs, and he isnât using his hands this time to push you over the edge.Â
Without warning, he dips his tongue deep between your swollen nether lips, searching for your opening. You let out a sharp cry at the invasion but do nothing to move away. The sinful touch of his lips and tongue feels like heaven, it sends your body straight towards the height of pleasure.Â
Jimin stills your convulsing hips with his hands as he continues to move his tongue in circles, lapping at your pussy like a man with pure hunger. He trails his tongue up your labia, drinking in your essence and tasting every drop of your slickness, before moving back down until he reaches your tight back hole.Â
The sound of your moans increases, growing more intense the more your excitement grows in you when you feel him rimming the floret. His fingers work your lower lips, right where his mouth has been, which keeps flooding with drops of your arousal. Jimin smiles against your heat, as if he knows that you might explode and come to climax at any given time if he continues like this.Â
You try to focus on holding still, to stop the telltale of your orgasm from manifesting before you are allowed to make it happen. But Jimin isnât giving up on testing your limit just yet.Â
He gives a few more licks before his mouth moves back up, finding your folds, his tongue slipping between your slit to press against your opening. When his tongue finds purchase, his teeth grazing at your clit, he presses a finger at your back entrance and slips a knuckle in. You are too far gone in the erupting pleasure to stop it from unleashing. Your orgasm takes over your body like a massive wave, and you let everything go with a scream.Â
Tears trail down your cheeks at how intense it feels, your release breaking down the barrier you try so hard to put up. Your back arches up to the ceiling when the wave of your climax comes rushing in, while your entire body quakes with your release.Â
Jimin kisses your skin with a soft growl, snapping you out of it. You are still struggling to catch your breath when Jimin gently lowers your leg and begins crawling his way up on the bed, covering you with his warmth. Making a sound with his tongue, he takes your bounded hands and carefully loops them around his neck. You open your eyes as he pulls you up against him, taking you with him as he takes a seat on the edge of the bed.Â
His arms come wrapping around you as he brings you onto his lap, and you instantly collapse against his chest, turning boneless in his embrace. âIâm sorry,â you whisper to him, âI couldnâtââ
Jimin silences you with a gentle kiss on your temple. âThat was quite a show, angel.â He begins kissing away your tears. âQuite an intense one.âÂ
You gasp when you realise what has just transpired. The spasms of your unbidden release are surging through you together with your pulsing blood. âI triedââÂ
âI know,â he coos softly, soothing you, yet there is a glint of knowing in his eyes when he pulls back, his thumb brushing away the remaining tears on your cheeks. âYour body must have grown more sensitive from being stimulated continuously, and I wasnât making it easy for you knowing that this might be the first time someone else is taking control of your pleasure,â he confesses with a smile on his face that doesnât show any hint of remorse. âBut rules are still rules, angel. You know that.âÂ
âYes, I understand.âÂ
âGood girl,â he says, those simple words light up some fire in your chest. and your mind begins to spin, floating higher just as he carefully lifts you up from his lap.Â
Needing to have something to grab onto so you can ground yourself, your fingers find the strands of his hair, sinking into them before grasping at them. When Jimin finally releases you, he gently lays you back onto the mattress.Â
He smiles at you as he unlatches your arms from around his neck, bringing them up over your head again.Â
âLook at me, angel,â he whispers while looking at you with a deep, smouldering gaze, and you are powerless to look away. âHave you been keeping count of how many times you disobeyed me with that last release? What are we at now?âÂ
Recalling what he says earlier about giving twice the punishment should you let yourself come to climax without his permission, you swallow hard before answering, âThat would make it e-eight, Sir?âÂ
âVery good,â he praises you once again, bringing back that same flutter in your chest when he smiles. With gentle movement, he carefully moves you up to the center of the mattress, giving you a brief moment of respite. âNow stay still for a moment. Are your arms hurting? You can lower them for a while as you wait.âÂ
You bite your lips. âCanât I take the silk tie off?âÂ
Jimin chuckles. âNo, angel. You need to keep those hands tied so I know youâll behave.âÂ
Slowly, you lower your arms to your chest, giving yourself a little break even if your wrists are still tied up together. âThey arenât too tight, are they?â Jimin asks while cupping your cheek. He watches you closely as you try to get comfortable against the silky sheets.Â
âNo, Sir,â you answer after pulling and twisting your hands to test the tension, finding them quite loose, even if the bind will not fall apart if you pull harder.Â
âGood. Now try to relax and stay still for a moment,â Jimin says as he slowly moves away. âIâm going to prepare everything we need.âÂ
The moment he disappears from view, your curiosity grows. You wish you could see what he is doing, but your position makes it hard for you to look across the room. Unless you want to defy his command and lift your body from the mattress just to get a look at him. After a moment of silence passes, you begin to feel uneasy.Â
âJimin?âÂ
âIâm here, angel. Iâm not going anywhere far,â he reassures you, as if he knows how vulnerable you are feeling when he is not in sight while you are lying naked and frustrated.Â
But it doesnât take long before he returns. You can hear him setting down a few items on the side of the bed and fiddling with them before making his way round to your end of the bed to return to you.Â
âMove all the way back on the bed, angel. Against the pillows, and keeps your legs apart, knees up.âÂ
Licking your lips, you slowly roll to your side and rise on your hands and knees, before you begin crawling your way up the bed. You can feel his gaze on you as you move, your bare bottom exposed to his eyes, and your arousal still dripping down the top of your thighs. Feeling his gaze on you, your hips instinctively start swaying just to give him a show, even if you are struggling a little with your wrists still bound together. Â
You feel completely hyperaware of everything as you gingerly position yourself at the top of the bed with your back resting against the pillows. Your skin feels warm under his gaze, and while he isnât the one touching you, your skin tingles as you gently lift your knees up, keeping them bent as you spread your legs apart for him.Â
The bed dips as Jimin climbs onto the bed to follow you. His movement is graceful, even as he crawls on the mattress like a predator coming to his prey. The dark look in his eyes distracts you enough to make you miss the item he is carrying in his hands until he kneels back, towering over you with his gaze running down your body.Â
âGive me your hands.âÂ
You gingerly show him your hands, still tied together at the wrist with the silk slip. With a tug, Jimin releases the bind, freeing your hands together. You draw a gasp as the blood flows through your skin again, drawing a soft chuckle from Jimin as he watches closely at your reaction.Â
âDonât look so relieved just yet, angel. Iâm taking this off because I have something better to replace it.â He smiles to you, before revealing the bundle in his handâa lengthy silk rope in the colour of red, almost as thick as the hemp rope you saw on the table earlier. âI wonder if taking away your control completely will help you submit easier. Thatâs why I brought this over to help us out.âÂ
Swallowing hard, your skin grows warm at the implication of his words, right as he unravels the thick silk rope. Its length seems sufficient enough for him to have it wrapped around all over your body. To have not only your limbs restricted from any movement, but your entire self, taking away your control.Â
A complete submission.Â
Your heart races at a thundering pace, realising that Jimin is about to fulfil your wish. You gently move your body, arching your chest and trying to find comfort as he gets closer. A smile flickers on his face as he watches your reactions, and then it fades when he takes your hands in his.Â
âDid you know that years ago, when this club first opened for business, this room, specifically, had a different name?â Jimin questions you as he untangles the silk rope right before your eyes. âBack then, this room was called the Bondage Room.â
You lick your lips, doing your best to control your breath, to focus on his words, and not fall under the excitement rising inside your chest.Â
Jimin continues while he gently stretches out the silk rope until it unravels to its full length, âBut with other, more discreet, and well-extinguished clubs housing Doms and subs, we didnât have as much request from them to use this room, except for the regular Doms who have then become our earliest VIP members and would always come back for more. The smaller Play Rooms were being developed at the same time, and these rooms intrigued more people, so we added this special room as one of the optional Play Rooms to make it lessââa grin appears on his faceââimposing.âÂ
âIntriguing,â you whisper with a hum, your voice coming out small. You clear your throat, hoping that your voice is steady when you speak again, âThatâs quite an intense name for such a room. Butââ You look around the room, only just as much as your position allows you to, and then add, âWell, compared to the rooms Iâve looked up online, I donât think this room isââÂ
âAdequate enough to earn its name?â He softly chuckles. âOh, these furnitures arenât the only things the club prepared for the room to serve its purpose.âÂ
You raise your eyebrows. âDo they come out of the storage when someone like me, or a client, requests them to? Just likeââ You take a deep breath, then release, your eyes flickering to the rope in his hands. âLike these tools and toys weâre using?âÂ
âOh, theyâre all here. Theyâre always ready to be used,â he muses as he pulls one end of the silk rope with one hand, and uses the other hand to tilt your chin up, drawing your eyes far upwards instead of stopping on his face, âYouâre just not seeing them yet.âÂ
You look up, and sure enough, you see them. Up on the ceiling, there are sets of lattices of steel grids and tracks. The muted flecks of light are reflected against hooks and carabiners tethered to thin girders on the corners of the room. You can even see those same hooks hanging right above your head, spread between the tall pillars rising on each corner of the bed which seem strong enough to hold the entire length of silk ropeâor the hemp rope that Jimin preparedâshould he choose to use them.Â
âWeâre not playing with these hooks yet,â Jimin explains, as if he knows where your mind is running off to. âYouâll get there one day, once youâve gotten used to it.âÂ
You bite your lips, trying not to get too excited when you hear the implications he is giving you; the chance for more, somewhere in the future.Â
âHave you, umââ You are not sure how to ask, or if you have any rights to, but your curiosity gets the better of you. âHave you used this room before?âÂ
The smile that Jimin wears on his face deepens. âI was the man they hired to put this room to a test before it was opened for the rest of the guests.â Â
His answer surprises you, yet it drives your mind spinning, both with anticipation and relief, knowing that you have gotten the perfect partnerâthe perfect masterâto guide you through this whole thing. You immediately start looking at Jimin in a different light when your gaze finds him again, before you are lost in the intensity you see in his eyes when he looks at you.Â
Jimin lowers his face, holding his gaze on yours as he presses gentle kisses on your fingers, palms, and wrists, soothing the tingles you still feel from the first bind with his lips. His kisses linger right where the silk strip was wrapped around your skin, sending shudders throughout your body.Â
His gaze, his kisses, and his touch are so enthralling that you cannot look away, distracting you from his other hand as he slowly brings the silk rope around your wrists, starting with one before going to the other. Â
His fingers are gentle against your skin, and his gaze is soft. He easily takes away any tension you still have in your body when he begins his work. Instead of feeling anxious, you find your body relaxing under his touch, even as your control is being restrained as Jimin ties your wrists together.Â
Still with his eyes on yours, he finishes and leans down to kiss your wrist again, pressing his lips right on top of the silk rope holding your hands together. Once again, he does the same thing as before, testing the bind and slipping his fingers between the rope and your skin to make sure there is enough space to keep you from getting hurt.Â
âI need you to tell me everything you are feeling. Everything that goes through your mind. And donât feel scared to use your safewords anytime you need them. Okay, angel?âÂ
Your breath is heavy when you pull it in, but you still manage to answer, âYes, Sir. Okay.âÂ
He smiles. âVery good,â he says, as he pulls the tails from the silk rope and lays the rest of the lengths on either side of you.Â
âHow are you now? Comfortable?âÂ
âYes,â you breathe out. Your voice fades to a soft gasp as his fingers run gently down the column of your throat, before moving up to your chin. His eyes are slightly dark and hazy as he runs his thumb across your lips.Â
âIâm going to tie you to the bed to stop you from moving and fighting me. Make sure to loosen up your body and relax. Donât fight me if you donât want to hurt yourself trying. Understand?âÂ
âYes. I understand,â you whisper breathlessly. Your voice is nearly drowned under the sound of your thundering heart as you anticipate his next move.Â
Another gasp slips out of you as Jimin presses a firm grip on your hips and guides you to slide forward. Settling deeper into the silk pillows, you try not to panic when he presses your palms to his lips, one side and then the other, and then stretches your now restrained arms over your head.Â
Using one hand, he holds you still in position, while he moves his other hand to gather around the silk rope. You feel a tug as he winds the rope around the bars on the headboard, tethering you to the bed frame so that you wonât be able to move your arms anymore.Â
He brings the rest of the rope down, wrapping it around your arms, down and under your shoulders. Then he winds it above and under your breasts, framing your soft mounds and giving them a bit of tension. You can feel your skin tightening under the bind, your nipples becoming slightly more sensitive as the blood in your veins seems to gather at those gentle peaks, that even a brush of chill air makes them pucker.Â
âStill green, angel?â Jimin asks you as he pauses briefly, gauging your reaction.Â
The sound of your pulsing blood makes it hard for you to think for a moment. But then his words sink in, and you try to test the restrain.Â
Expecting to feel pain and complete stillness, you are surprised to find that aside from the tension on your wrists and the muscles around your shoulders, you can still find comfort. Your arms may not be able to move, but your chest isnât tight, and your breath isnât restrained, even if every part of your body and your skin has become more responsive to every sensation being delivered to you.Â
âYes,â you answer him as you test around the restraint one last time before settling back down.Â
âThatâs good. Now relax.â Jimin then dips, disappearing from sight for a moment as he moves on the bed. You try to swivel your head and twist so you can see him, but once again, your position obscures you from looking around.Â
âJiminââ You start calling his name, only to feel his hand brushing against your ankle. âIâm not leaving you, angel. You can trust me, canât you?âÂ
Exhaling a sigh, you whisper to him, âIâm sorry for doubting you, Sir.âÂ
You have no idea why you are feeling insecure, to feel anxious whenever he isnât visible. As if you need his presence to feel calm.Â
The restraints on your upper body make you feel self-conscious, vulnerable, yet liberating at the same time, knowing that the only thing you need to do is surrender. Only that you are still finding it hard to completely surrender your control when you have spent your entire life taking control.Â
A soft chuckle comes out of Jimin when he hears you. âShhâŠno need to apologise. You are doing very well.âÂ
His praise comes at the same time his gentle fingers begin running down your legs. You see him kneeling between your parted legs when you open your eyes, his fingers drawing circles around your ankles, up to your calves, heading towards your bent knees, yet your bareâand now dampâmound between your thighs becomes his singular focus as he does so. Leaning closer, he makes a humming sound as he appreciates what he sees when he runs his gaze down your body.Â
âYou are beautiful, angel. Every inch, every curve, as if you are perfectly carved for me,â he murmurs as he bends down, pressing a kiss on the inner sides of your knees.Â
As his fingers continue to travel up your thighs, followed closely by his gentle lips, your hips begin to move on their own, grinding down, searching for friction that can ease the intense pulsing growing between your legs. You dig your heels into the mattress for leverage as your body twists and swivels, while at the same time, anchoring yourself, knowing that he needs you to keep still.Â
âPlease,â you whisper, almost desperately, when you feel his mouth gliding across your skin. âIâm not sure if I can hold still.â Especially when you can almost predict what he is up to, the stimulations he has been giving you are still affecting you that you feel like you have gone off balance and have yet to recover.Â
All it took was to have one taste of his touch, his kiss, and the raw pleasure that he gave you, and your body is already craving for more.Â
Tiny spasms arise from your core once more as he kisses a trail down the inside of your thigh, causing your legs to tremble. Jimin smiles against your skin when he notices this. He moves his hands to give your thighs a firm grip when you try to close your legs, pinning his head at the center.Â
âAre you asking me to bind your legs as well?â he teases you with a sly grin on his face. Keeping one hand on your thigh to keep it still, he moves his other hand up to your center, finding your heat.Â
A moan slips out of you the moment you feel his touch on your damp center. âIâŠI donât know,â you barely manage to answer, unable to think clearly with the way his fingers are gently grazing your folds.Â
Jimin lets out a soft chuckle and says, âMaybe I should. Just to make sure that you wonât be kicking my face when I get too close. But Iâm enjoying the way you are wriggling with every touch. I want to see how you respond to me, so I wonât be restraining your legs just yet.âÂ
You can barely hear any word he says when his kisses continue to trace a burning trail down one thigh, then going back towards your center. His hands slide to your hips, holding you steady as he dips lower. A brief touch of his lips on your folds draws a gasp from you, and then his tongue slips out, lapping briefly between your slick folds as if he wants to have a taste of you.Â
The sensation he brings to your body makes you cry out, your body begins shaking, your hips almost rising against his hold, yet he quickly withdraws and starts kissing down the other thigh.Â
âHow responsive,â he murmurs. You can hear the tremble in his voice, as if looking at you responding to him is affecting him as well. âSo beautiful.âÂ
He pulls back, and you nearly panic when you feel his weight leaving the bed, only to feel it dip on a different side of the mattress. You bite down your sigh of relief knowing that Jimin is still there, but the shuffling sounds you hear next quickly have your curiosity piqued.Â
âI have something that I think you might enjoy,â he says as he slowly returns to you. âBut obviously, I wonât be making things easy for you.âÂ
His gaze flickers with something wicked as he looks down on you. His smile makes you swallow hard, making you wonder what kind of nefarious thoughts he has for you. âDo you remember what was our last count for your punishment, angel?âÂ
You lick your lips as you try to remember through your hazy thoughts. âUmâŠe-eight?âÂ
âThatâs good. A bit too close to your limit, doesnât it? Try to focus and keep that number in mind,â he says. His words sound cryptic, leaving you to wonder what he is about to do next. âNow, try to relax and stay still.âÂ
Jimin runs one hand down the inside of your thigh, not stopping until he reaches your slick folds, once again touching the center of your heat with his gentle fingers. He slides one finger between your folds, moving it up and down your slit until you can feel your slickness coating him. Then he presses his thumb on your clit, moving it in circles, sending spasms of erotic pleasure through your body and causing you to lift your hips.Â
Then, all of a sudden, he stops.Â
With a gasp, you open your eyes, just in time to see him shaking his head while clicking his tongue. âWhat did I say about moving?âÂ
Whining, you press your hips down to the mattress, trying your best to ignore the pulse fluttering in your core. âIâm sorry,â you moan, âI canât control myself.âÂ
Jimin hums softly. âOf course, you can, angel. Just follow my words. So how many do we have now?âÂ
You bite your lips, holding back a moan as you feel his fingers pressing at your folds again. It is hard to focus when his touch feels maddeningly good, filling your head with blissful haze.Â
âN-nine,â you answer with a whisper, biting back the moan threatening to come out of your lips when Jimin presses his finger back into your slit, pressing at your entrance.Â
âGood job, angel,â he praises you, before pulling his hand away. âNow, remember to focus on your breath.âÂ
You feel another pressure at your mound. A different kind this time. Instead of his finger, you feel a firm, cool piece of rubber or silicon pressing at your entrance.Â
Is it a vibrator? You wonder as Jimin continues pressing until the toy slides into your pulsing walls.Â
Grabbing the silk rope hanging between your wrists and the headboard and pressing your heels into the sheets, you try to find leverage to hold on, stopping your body from moving and wriggling against your restraint. The toy continues to slip deeper inside you, pressing against your sweet spot. You feel a different part of the toy resting against your clit once Jimin stops pressing it, while the rest of the length is perfectly buried inside your throbbing walls.Â
Nothing is happening yet. But your body has grown so sensitive after all of his teasing and his wicked foreplays, the muscles inside your slick pussy have been throbbing after your initial release, already needing more, that even the subtle pressure you feel coming from the toy feels almost too much for you to handle. With a flick of a finger, Jimin makes sure that the toy is settling nicely inside you, drawing a tiny moan from your lips while your body shudders in your restraints.Â
âTake a deep breath, angel. Slowly,â he gently guides you, his calm voice penetrating through the fog that has been blinding you, making you realise that you have your breath caught in your throat as you relish the peculiar sensation of being filled with a firm toy inside you.Â
Taking shallow breaths, you continue until your chest no longer feels constricted. With air in your lungs, everything in you seems to wake up, allowing you to relax, and to feel. âThatâs perfect. Good job, angel.âÂ
His praises keep coming, and your body keeps reacting to it. Your heart always picks up at his encouraging words, and your skin always grows warm. But more importantly, an unusual sensation rises from within, as if each praise he gives only brings your carnal desire back to life instead of soothing it to calm.Â
âAre you ready, angel? Remember to control your breath. Remember not to move or lift your hips, just surrender and take everything,â he says, his fingers rubbing at your clit, before gliding up and down your parted folds, feeling the area where you are stretched enough to allow the toy to fill you up.Â
âAnd lastly,â he whispers while leaning down over you as his fingers find the tip of the toy, his lips hovering close to your ear when he says, âRemember that you cannot cum until I tell you to.âÂ
Before you can make sense of what he is asking you, you feel a click, and the vibrator starts buzzing to life. Gasping at the sudden rush of pleasure rising inside, you begin crying, yelping, twisting against your restraint, all while whining, âOh, God. Jimin, IâŠI donât think I canââ A gasp comes through you when the vibrator keeps pressing at your sweet spot as it continues vibrating against your pulsing muscles.Â
Through the haze of your arousal and pleasure, you are somewhat aware of Jiminâs attention. His gaze never strays away from you, as he focuses on your face, watching the slight arch of your body as you respond to the toyâs impact within your hot core, and mostly, to watch as you keep getting pushed towards your limit and fighting to hold it back. Â
As he watches your legs twitching, he immediately gives a light touch on the toy, pressing it further inside you, before he begins moving the toy as it vibrates inside you.Â
In and out the toy slips through your walls. Each vibration feels like itâs growing harder each time it is pressed into your depth, while its girth keeps pushing against your slick walls. And then he ends it by pushing it as deep as it can inside you, pushing until there is nowhere else for it to go, and nothing else for you to feel except for the maddening pleasure it is giving you.
There is no helping you against what happens next.Â
Everything inside you snaps. Your body rocks at the telltale waves of your climax, your hips moving to respond to each pulse of pleasure you feel fluttering inside your core.Â
Then his gentle fingers move around the toy, finding your swollen clit and giving it a light pinch. Immediately, you are sent right to the edge. And you are ready for it. Ready to embrace your final release, the orgasm that you feel building inside you, ready to take over.Â
But just when you rise from the mattress to let yourself fall over to bliss, the vibrator suddenly stops, leaving you panting and hanging right on the edge.Â
You open your eyes when Jiminâs touch disappears from your body. A slick grin on his face when he teases you, âBad girl. How many does that one make our count, hmmm?âÂ
Your brain feels like a mush that you fail to understand what he means, still annoyed from being denied of your release, until you realiseâ
âAhâŠitâs t-ten.âÂ
Tilting his head, Jimin makes a humming sound that feels like a taunt. âA shame, but thatâs already at our limit, isnât it?âÂ
Slowly, you nod, completely losing your voice this time when the fear of punishment suddenly sinks in.Â
âShall we try again?â Jimin asks you, âShould I give you one last chance to avoid punishment?â Â
You lick your lips and force your body to relax. Closing your eyes for a brief moment, you wait until the last spasms of pleasure start to ebb before nodding your head. âYes, Sir,â you whisper to him as you open your eyes, just in time to see his gaze darkening.Â
You feel the click rather than hear it, and the vibrator buzzes back to life, sending you an overwhelming feeling of pleasure so intense you find yourself on the verge of pain. Already, you are panting, but you try to control your breath, holding on as much as you can to not let yourself get thrown over the edge.Â
There is no helping it. You can feel it rising; the telltale of your orgasm coiling at the core, building up faster and harder than before. Yet you are ready for it this time. Taking a deep inhale of breath, you focus on breathing, on the tight clutch of your bind as you pull it downwards, and the way your heels are sinking into the silky sheets.Â
âYouâre doing a good job, angel,â Jimin murmurs as he presses his lips up your inner thigh. He rests one hand on your lower belly, gently pressing down, while you feel his other hand gliding its way up your calve. âLetâs take it another notch and make it fun, shall we?âÂ
The first thing you feel next is a nudge, as Jimin reaches between your legs and gently touches the vibrator. A resounding click is heard before the vibration intensifies. Its sound fills the room, going just as wild as the tremor it spreads through your body.Â
You let out a cry, which quickly turns into a series of moans as Jimin begins to move the toy in and out of your pussy, sliding it between your throbbing walls to incite various new sensations through your body, while pressing the part which meets your clit to have it nudging against your soft flesh, pushing the waves of pleasure to a whole new level.Â
âPlease, Jimin. I canïżœïżœtââÂ
You can almost hear Jiminâs murmur, yet his voice is drowned under the heightening pulse filling your ears. The vibrator continues to move under Jiminâs guidance for a few more thrusts, then you feel him bending over your center. The next thing you feel is the invading toy settling deep inside your hot walls, the push has it pressing against your sweet spot, and the last restraint holding your hips down vanishes as your body arches up.Â
You are close. So close. Incoherent noises continue coming out of you while your body is engulfed in the waves of pleasure. You are already coming so close to your release, and now you are hanging by a thread with need. âIâmââ you gasp, feeling it coming, the rise of your orgasm becoming uncontrollable, and you are powerless to stop it. âIââÂ
And then, once again, everything stops.Â
Right the second your climax is about to take form, the vibrator shuts down, taking away the rising heat, the intense pulses, breaking everything down while leaving you teetering on the edge. You are panting, your chest heaving as you struggle for air, and not too surprised to find your hips rising from the bed, chasing for that final release with slow, steady rocking.Â
But the moment you meet Jiminâs eyes, his lips forming a sly grin, you quickly realise what just happened.Â
âThat was quite a shame. You were doing so well,â Jimin says with a soothing voice, while his gentle fingers are rubbing your hips as he lowers them back on the bed. âHow many does that make our count in total, angel?âÂ
Still gasping for air, and feeling the hum of your denied orgasm lingering in your body, making your skin grow even tighter than before, you find it hard to find your voice. Much less to answer. Then Jimin pulls the vibrator out of you when a gentle tug, causing you to hiss, both at the pressure you feel as it slides against your clenching walls and for the sudden emptiness which follows after.Â
You can feel your muscles throbbing, contracting, searching for purchase, yet finding nothing to grasp onto.Â
âAngel? Can you hear me?âÂ
Swallowing a whine, you exhale a shaky breath and answer, âYes.âÂ
âHmmm,â Jimin hums as he slowly crawls over you, his body hovering on top of yours, which helps you notice the tremors still rushing down your body. âDo you recall how many we have now?âÂ
You gasp. âEleven,â you whisper breathlessly as you look into his eyes through the haze of your arousal.Â
âQuite a good number, but unfortunate that it means weâve gotten past ten,â he whispers with a teasing grin.Â
âIâm sorry,â you whisper back, only to have him leaning down to kiss the tip of your nose.Â
You feel his hand rubbing gently on your waist to soothe you. âLike I said, thereâs nothing to apologise for, angel. But you do know what that means, donât you?âÂ
âAre you going to punish me, Sir?âÂ
âMaybe,â he murmurs, with his gaze moving lower, taking in his work as your chest rises and falls under the restraint of the silk rope, âperhaps we can use this to test how much you can truly endure pain.âÂ
His voice sounds almost like a purr as he says this. His eyes linger on your bare breasts for a moment, marvelling at your skin, the puckered mounds, and your hardening nipples.Â
âI have something else in mind that I want to try with you,â he says once his gaze finds yours again, âOne last thing to try before I make you come. This is something that I very much enjoy, but I need to know if you are down to try it with me.âÂ
âI think Iâd like to learn more,â you answer him before biting your bottom lip. You are feeling too many things at once already, and still curious to see what he has in mind. After going through all his previous treatmentsâhis testsâyou decide it would only be right to continue and see through the end.Â
âIâm happy to hear that,â he says, sounding proud and relieved, which tells you that you have made the right call.
You wish nothing more but to please him. It is a peculiar feeling, when your reason to come to this club was to seek pleasure, and yet, you find yourself being the one to feel the need to please your beautiful host.Â
Just like any other sub would to their Doms.Â
Jimin moves away from the bed, though not completely out of view. But he takes away the warmth that he made you feel with it.Â
Your body is still on high alert. The remaining spasms of your unbidden bliss are nothing more but a slow, languid pulse in your body, yet they still show no sign of waning anytime soon. You may not be able to see him from this angle, but the quiet lets you know something is about to happen. The clinking sound of a chain moving that you hear as he returns gives you a hint of what comes next.Â
Needing something to hold on to, something that can help keep you grounded, you entwine your fingers with one another and clench them.
You try to focus on the sounds again, to steal a glance at what he has prepared for you, but he quickly distracts you with his sinful lips.Â
Positioning himself once again between your legs, he runs his hands up the curves of your body, his lips quickly following close behind as he trails a soothing kiss on your skin. Starting from your hips, to your waist, and then he brushes his lips across the underside of your breasts, following the stretched line of the silk rope binding you there, before continuing his way up the mounds.Â
âHow lovely,â he murmurs, palming your breasts and squeezing them gently. âAnd so perfect.â
Your chest is filled with warm flutters as Jimin continues cherishing your bare breasts, stroking and pinching them, before he leans down and begins kissing and licking, sucking and biting, taking his time as he gives equal attention to each side. Shocks of pain and pleasure shoot through your body. His eyes flicker to your face, searching for your eyes as he fastens his mouth around one nipple. He flicks his tongue around the flesh and starts sucking on it until the tender bud turns firm.Â
Your eyes flutter close at the sensation he is making you feel. And then his mouth leaves your skin, hovering close as he blows softly on the hardened nipple for a brief moment, before a searing pain suddenly consumes you.Â
Your hips buck at the rush of pain, rising from the bed, and you scream as the sensation tears through your body, feeling it going straight down to your pussy. Your eyes fly open and you gaze down, noticing the small clamp attached to your nipple, glimmering in gold under the dim lighting falling over your body.Â
You bite your tongue when a specific word is threatening to slip out of you. But you force yourself to focus, finding a different word that wonât immediately stop everything, yet would be enough to give you a moment to process this pain.Â
âYellow!â you gasp as you try to find purchase by tugging at your restrained wrists. âOh my God, yellow. Please.âÂ
âSshh, itâs okay, angel. Weâll slow down,â Jimin whispers to you in a soothing voice. His gentle fingers run down your torso, tracing your skin in a way to soothe you, to distract you from the pain.Â
Slowly, your cries turn into soft gasps as you try your best to calm down. In reality, you are too overwhelmed with everything; the pain as the clamp bites tightly at your nipple; the shocking pain that is slowly shifting into pleasure as it reaches the depth of your core; and the way your body is humming in response to the myriad of sensations happening all at once.Â
Jimin slides his hand down between your legs, distracting you from the pain as his fingers slip between your slick folds. You feel him pressing at your entrance, before the tip of his finger pushes forward, teasing you with a touch, only for him to pull back. With his lips hovering over the clamp, Jimin blows slowly at your skin before he crawls up and brushes his lips under your ear.Â
âBreathe, angel. Iâve chosen the smallest clamp and have it on the lightest setting. I have to attach the other one before we continue so you need to relax.âÂ
You begin to shake your head violently, your arms pulling at the silk binding you to the bed. âNo, not yet. Yellow. Please. Justâjust one moment.âÂ
A deep sigh escapes him as Jimin rises above you. Propping himself on his elbow, he looks into your eyes. âAre you sure?â he asks you with a small smile. âLet me try this one. Weâll get it over with and have both of them on, and if you are still at yellow, I will remove the clamps, will that be okay?âÂ
âY-yes, I think so,â you whisper as you try to make up your mind. Â
âWe need to be sure, angel.âÂ
You bite your lips, feeling conflicted. You can barely breathe. Your nipple is throbbing under the clamp, yet your clit is pulsing with the same cadence. It feels maddeningly good, and at the same time, confusing.Â
How could this much pain push you so close to the edge of ecstasy?Â
But the more you feel it, the more it is making you curious to see what comes next. So you welcome this new sensation, believing that there is pure ecstasy at the end.Â
And because you trust Jimin with everything you have.Â
You lift your gaze to Jimin, finding calmness under the heat of his gaze while his hands are moving on your skin in calming circles. The pain is still there, slowly growing dull as Jimin continues to distract you with his touch. And there is also your desire to try everything all at once tonight. To experience everything that he has to offer while you have the chance to delve into it.
With a deep exhale of sigh, you nod your head to Jimin. âOkay, yeah. Iâm ready.âÂ
âWhat a brave girl,â he whispers, and he immediately slips his finger into your pussy. Your muscles spasm around his finger, welcoming him and the delightful sensation that comes with it.Â
The combination of pain and pleasure nearly overwhelms you. You moan softly while pressing your hips on the mattress to hold back from rocking into Jiminâs hand, to do anything to release the intense pressure gathering inside you. Your toes curl against the sheets when Jiminâs firm lips capture your free nipple, sucking and licking and biting, teasing your soft bud until it grows just as firm as the other.Â
His fingers join his mouth soon after. Then he starts pinching lightly as his mouth comes off your skin. Seconds later, pain explodes over the sensitive nerve endings as the second clamp clutches on.Â
This time, though, the pleasure from the steady thrusts of his fingers, combined with the press of his lips on your skin as he trails kisses around your soft flesh and up towards the column of your throat, are helping to distract you from the pain that you are starting to embrace it.Â
Jimin covers you with his body while you are still processing this. Warm, bare skin and firm muscle are pressed against yours, with his upper chest hovering over the clamps. The small, thin chain connecting the clamps together lay between your breasts. It feels icy cold as the chain digs into your skin under his weight. But his warmth feels so soothing, and you wrap your legs around Jiminâs waist to welcome him in an embrace, desperate to feel him.Â
All of him.Â
He makes no move, other than the hands that are still working to light up your senses, and waits until your eyes are wide open before he speaks.Â
âStill yellow?âÂ
âNnhnââÂ
Jiminâs chest rumbles with his low chuckle. âTalk to me, angel,â he murmurs, bending down to kiss the tip of your nose, then your chin. âAre you still against the clamp?âÂ
You try to wiggle beneath him, still feeling his fingers buried between your legs, still moving in circles between your folds, between pressing at your entrance and moving around the clit. The pleasure it brings is the only thing your brain can process for now, while the pain seems suppressed, with a constant feeling of a dull ache throbbing with each pulse of your blood rising under his touch.Â
âThe pain,â you whisper with a gasp, âItâs grown a bit dull.âÂ
âHmmm, does that mean itâs back to green?âÂ
âYes. Iââ Another gasp slips out of you when his fingers return, sliding back into your pussy. Your upper body arches in response and the shot of pleasure snaps the pain on your breasts back in place, which only makes the throbbing in your core intensify. âOh, I feel weird.âÂ
âItâs only natural, and Iâm helping to distract you from the pain, which should help get your mind away from the pain. Donât you think this helps?â he asks as he pushes his fingers deeper inside you.Â
âMmmhââ you moan, unable to form words. âYes, it does.â You let out a sigh when he presses against the right spots. âIt feels good.âÂ
He makes a soft hum. âI bet it does. But we canât let you have it all just yet, can we?â Jimin teases you with a small grin, âWe havenât gone through your punishments yet.âÂ
Hearing this has you widening your eyes. âBut I thoughtââÂ
âThat the clamps are your punishment?â he asks you with a playful chuckle. âNo, angel. This is a part of the play. Itâs meant to show you how closely linked together pain and pleasure truly are, and that pain can sometimes show you the immense pleasure that can come with it.âÂ
Your mouth falls open for a brief moment, surprised, but you can quickly understand what he meant when you can feel it; the throbbing pleasure inside your legs that comes in tune with the pulsing pain.Â
âOh. I see.âÂ
Jiminâs smile widens. âShall we continue?âÂ
Licking your lips, you hold Jiminâs gaze as you nod your head. âYes, please.âÂ
âWe counted until eleven, was it? What do you say about one spanking of that lovely bottom to each violation you made?âÂ
Your breath hitches, but a whisper still manages to slip out of your lips. âYes, Sir.âÂ
Pulling back a few inches away from you, Jimin frees himself from your legs and pulls his fingers out of your heat. You watch him licking his fingers, humming at your taste, before he begins to run his hands down your body. Avoiding your tense breasts and the clamps attached to the peaks, he trails down your waist with his fingers, then your hips, before pulling back his hand as he continues to gently feel your thighs, still bent and trembling at the knees.Â
âThis time, I really do think it would be better to bind your legs. Ready?â Jimin asks you as he slowly pushes the back of your thighs, coaxing you to lift your legs further upward.Â
You hold back the urge to fight against it, choosing to watch what he is about to do next as he presses your folded legs almost to your chest with one hand and uses the other to reach and lift the tail end of the silk rope binding you to the bed.Â
You watch his fingers closely as they work on the rope, and Jimin, realising that you are watching him cautiously, immediately begins to explain, âIâm not going to tie you up too tightly, just getting your pretty legs out of the way.âÂ
His reassurance helps release all the tension in your body. You try to relax against the pillows, just as much as your bind allows you to, before whispering, âOkay.âÂ
Jimin presses your thighs down to keep your legs folded. With gentle hands, Jimin works the silk rope around your legs. He starts by winding one end of the rope around your left thigh, going under and around your folded knee until your leg is tethered to your upper body with your feet dangling over you. He continues to do the same to your right leg, the fabric holding it up the same way as the other.Â
This should feel awkward, especially when you are made to settle in an odd angle such as this. Yet as you follow his words, making sure to loosen up your muscles instead of straining them and soon find that the bind only makes you feel snug and safe as it settles on your skin.Â
And the way Jimin works the rope around your body is mesmerising to watch. A part of you wishes that you could watch everything from a different angle so you could appreciate his work, while another part of you is beginning to feel the daunting realisation of your vulnerability now with both your arms and legs bound.Â
With your feet no longer pressing against the mattress, you have lost the leverage you had to retain any semblance of control. Right now, you feel like you are floating, with many different sensations flowing through your body that you can feel everything all at once; the dull ache spreading through your breasts, the constant pulse building from your now exposed center, and the way his light fingers are hitting every nerve ending in your body once he is done, as he runs his hands down your legs, your thighs, your hips, before stopping there.Â
âYou are a marvellous sight to look at, angel,â Jimin murmurs softly as he gently runs his palms down your thighs. âI wish I could take a picture of you right now so I can keep this moment in my memory forever.âÂ
Your breath hitches. His praise tastes like honey, while his words are like a spell sending you floating higher in bliss. So high, that you barely notice the move of his fingers as he secures your ankles with the rest of the silk that is wrapped around your upper thighs. Once your legs are perfectly folded above you, spread wide enough for him to slip between them but not enough to make you feel uncomfortable to the point of pain, his work is complete.Â
âPerfect,â he says as he sits back, marvelling at his work. Marvelling at you. âAbsolutely perfect.âÂ
His fingers trail down your inner thigh. You are not ticklish by any means, but his light touch keeps sending tremors all through your body that you cannot control. At the same time, the delicious ache in your arms and the helpless feeling of not being able to move seem to give you a new thrill, and you become hyperaware of the way his fingers dance on your skin, how his palms are grazing gently down the curves of your hips.Â
You pull at the silk that binds your hands as he traces his palms down your bottom cheeks, now lifted slightly from the bed with the way your body is folded. He rubs his palms gently on your skin for a moment, then he looks up, finding your eyes. Holding his gaze on yours, he makes it so you cannot look away by giving you a sweet smile, keeping your attention locked on him as he pulls one hand back and lands it back on your skin with a hard slap.
A gasp is drawn out of you when you feel the sting. Tears fill your eyes, yet left with no chance to spill when Jimin immediately rubs his palm against the tender skin, soothing the pain away. âMake sure to keep count, angel. How many was that?âÂ
âHmmm,â your voice fades to a moan as the dull ache once again lights up the pulsing desire between your legs, âO-one, Sir.âÂ
âAnd how many are we supposed to have?âÂ
With a low groan, you answer faintly, âEleven, Sir.âÂ
âGood girl,â he says, as he continues rubbing his palm on your skin, taking the pain away. âNow keep counting. Make sure I can hear your voice so I wonât make a mistake and give you more than what Iâm supposed to.âÂ
Fear grips your chest at the thought of Jimin adding more spanking as punishment, to add more pain, so you quickly nod your head, just in time for his hand to land on the other cheek for another hard slap. âOh, Godââ you gasp, before mustering some will to call out, âT-two.âÂ
Again, Jimin rubs his palm on the stinging pain, soothing it until it becomes dull. Then, while you are getting distracted by his touch, his other hand returns, slapping the underside of your thigh. âThreeââ you call out with a gasp, which quickly turns to a small moan when he rubs the pain away.Â
âYouâre doing good, angel,â he whispers, and you can almost hear the smile in his voice when your body trembles at how close to your center his fingers are each time he rubs across your skin.Â
Another slap lands on the other thigh, right at the skin where your plump bottom meets your thigh. Your hips twitch at the sting, and you are too powerless to stop it. Neither are you capable of stopping the heat oozing from your pussy as the pain from his punishment throbs, sending a rapid pulse right to your core.Â
âFour,â you cry out, almost breathlessly, before you sigh at the soothing touch that follows next.Â
He repeats the pattern for the next couple of blows, switching from one side to the other, hitting the tender skin of your bottom, before he then moves to the apex of your thighs, always closing in towards your pulsing pussy. And never once do you fail to count his strikes.Â
âFiveâŠsixâŠsevenâŠâÂ
The sounds of his palm slapping on your skin bounce against the walls, always followed by the sounds of cries, gasps, and moans when his next touches soothe the burning pain on your skin into dull aches.Â
âEightâŠNineâŠâÂ
At this point, your voice has become so hoarse, both from crying and gasping so much, that the sound of your counts keeps fading into whispers. You can barely feel the pain from his strikes, when something else has risen stronger in its place. Jimin lays another strike. The sound rings in your head, but instead of crying in pain, you simply let out a strangled moan.Â
âTen,â you count with a sigh, amazed at how the throbbing on your punished skin seems to melt together with the dull ache on your breasts.Â
Jimin smiles, yet says nothing. Not even to warn you before a hard slap lands at your center, right at your slick folds. Your body twitches with the sharp pain, yet pleasure begins scorching through your body soon after. The overwhelming mixture of pain and pleasure goes straight into the deepest part of your pussy that you nearly climax right there and then.
Jimin slips a finger inside you, soothing the shock from his touch with gentle strokes. In and out he moves his finger, and you buck in his grip to feel more. To gain more. Only to have his voice snapping you back from the blissful fog.Â
âHow many was that, angel?âÂ
âEleven,â you find yourself crying, although your voice suspiciously sounds like a mewl. âThatâs eleven, Sir.âÂ
You let out another, louder moan as Jimin sips his finger out of you and slides his hands underneath your body, cupping your bare and tender bottom and holding you firmly over the mattress. âOpen your eyes for me. Let me look at you,â Jimin says, making you realise too late that you have your eyes closed.Â
There is a smile on his face when you slowly open your eyes. His own eyes light up with pride.Â
âYou took your punishment like a good girl,â he gently says. His praise makes you feel warm inside, your heart swelling with pure joy which you cannot possibly explain. Your body is humming with need, intensified by the gentle touch he gives on your tender skin. âI surmise you deserve a reward for doing such a good job, donât you think?âÂ
âMmmm, yes. Yes, Sir. Please,â you whine and beg while your body rocks into his palms, wishing that you could go further, closer to his hot body, to be able to feel his desire pressing on your body.Â
The need to feel him draws a soft mewl from your lips when you feel Jimin leaning over you, his body positioned between your spread thighs, your bound legs becoming the only things left keeping him from completely covering your body with his.Â
âI want to see you come. To feel you when you succumb to pleasure,â he murmurs, his voice sounding close, and you can feel his warm breath against your lips when he speaks, âHow should I do it, I wonder?âÂ
Your eyes flicker to his lips just as he does the same to yours. Licking your lips, you hold back your breath. Realising that Jimin is close enough to kiss, you anticipate him claiming your lips the same way he has been claiming your body. You take a sharp inhale of breath when he leans closer, so close you can almost feel his lips touching yours.Â
And then you feel it, his lips brushing against yours. A gentle, barely-there graze. You pull at your restraint to arch upward, meeting him for that kiss. Only for him to suddenly stop.
Coming still, Jimin jerks his head back and shakes it, as if he hadnât been conscious in his leaning into kissing your lips, and the brief touch of your lips on his immediately snaps him out of it. But he doesnât pull his hand away from the soft, tender skin of your hips. His fingers glide upward, slowly, until you feel them gliding over your slit.Â
A soft moan slips from your lips, your eyes staying on his lips, still longing to taste him even when he is giving you pleasure with his hand to keep your mind off of it.Â
âEyes on me, angel,â he commands and you obey without thinking, still lost under his spell to do everything that he desires.Â
He holds your gaze as he screws one finger into you. It immediately draws a whimper from your lips. Not out of pain, but out of sheer need.Â
You writhe against the bind holding your wrists together, resisting the urge to grind down and take his finger deeper. Biting your tongue, you focus on the delightful way he is filling you, touching you, teasing you by pushing you close to the edge yet slowing down before you can get there.Â
Jimin leans his head down until you are connected temple to temple and whispers softly, âAre you okay, angel? Youâve been rather quiet.âÂ
Something about him checking on you brings up the flutterings in your belly that have nothing to do with the raw desire you are feeling from his touch.Â
Everything about him seems to be in contrast with one another. His voice that doesnât always reflect in his touches, when one becomes gentle while he is firm with the other. Also with his caring way in making sure that you are completely in this moment while he makes you burn from the inside out. And the effect is immediate, as you feel that heat rippling deeply inside you, pushing forward to have it released.Â
âYeah,â you breathe out, and he presses his thumb roughly on your clit, once again stealing your words.Â
Jimin tilts his head and laughs softly. âYeahâwhat?âÂ
Swallowing hard, you struggle to find your voice. âYes, Iâm okay,â you answer with a soft whimper, âSir.âÂ
A smile grows on his face. âThatâs good to hear.â He shifts and wedges a second finger inside you.Â
He begins moving them in and out, curling them like scissors, gliding back and forth between your pulsing walls. You buck your hips, nearly rising from the bed as you rock together with his thrusts.Â
âOh, God,â you moan softly as the pleasure rocks violently through your body. âPlease, I need to come!âÂ
âNot yet, angel,â he nearly barks his command with how firm his tone of voice sounds to you.Â
The chain between your breasts is lifted, and he pulls at it just enough to give pressure against your sensitive nipples. Whatever force connected the ache on your nipples to the heat in your pussy shatters you from the inside out. You feel like you are hanging by a thread, your blood flowing hot through every part of your body, pushing against the clamps, the bind, and the muscles contracting in your pussy.Â
âCome now, angel,â Jimin commands firmly. With one more tug on the chain, he pulls until the clamps detach themselves from your hard nipples, and thatâs when you come apart.Â
Jiminâs name comes out of your lips in your cry of pleasure. Your body strains against the silk that holds you securely as you come in a blinding climax.Â
For that moment, you are lost. You are no longer in the room with various instruments meant to fulfil anyoneâs darkest fantasies. You are no longer bound to the bed, to yourself, and instead floating in a dark space that makes you think you are suspended way above the bed, your silk bonds connected not to the bars on the bedâs headrest, but to the ceiling.Â
It takes a few moments before your mind begins to clear, and you find yourself plunging back down to the room before you get to feel everything again; the bind wrapped all over your body, the bed, and Jiminâs warmth.Â
But you are still high in bliss, still drowned in the waves of your pleasure that you arenât conscious enough of the movement happening nearby. Needing to pull you back to the present, Jimin rubs your arms, then brushes his lips gently on the tip of your nose, your chin, and then your face, while crooning, â______, come back to me.âÂ
His voice fades in and out, drowned by the sound of your pulsing blood. But his touch draws you out of your fog until you slowly open your eyes. âAre you with me, angel?âÂ
It takes a moment for him to succeed in bringing you back completely, with his kisses pulling you back to him while making you wish even harder that he would kiss your lips before he continues.
âY-yes, Iâm here,â you whisper, still breathless. Your chest is tight with how rapidly your heart is beating in your chest. âWhatââa gasp slips out of youââGod, what was that?âÂ
âThat was what we call being in a headspace. Itâs common to happen once a sub surrenders completely and allows the pleasure to take over.âÂ
Blinking your eyes rapidly, you recall reading such a thing during your research. You never knew that it would be possible for you to feel anything like it. But now that youâve experienced something so intense, you cannot imagine ever thinking that anything else would ever be enough.Â
Jimin positions himself between your spread legs, his hips resting against your center and his lips hovering on top of yours, once again promising you the kiss that never comes.Â
âYou responded so well to the clamps, beautiful. So well,â he murmurs against your lips, almost trembling with excitement. âThere is so much I want to show and introduce you to, but so little time.â He continues to murmur as he moves to kiss the tears that you donât realise falling down your cheeks. âDo you want more?âÂ
Your breath gets caught in your throat when you feel his desire poking against your folds, letting you know that he has yet to gain his fill. âY-yes. But I donât think I can.âÂ
âWill you let me try?â Jimin carefully asks you as he caresses your shoulders, his fingers finding the strands of your hair that have grown messy and tangled.Â
Drained, yet still feeling the desire to feel him inside you, you give him a vague sound of agreement as you nod. With his fingers, Jimin tugs at the silk binding your legs, releasing them so he can lower them back to the bed. He spreads your knees, his gentle palms pressing on your inner thighs to keep you spread open for him. Still riding the high of your orgasm, your body jerks as he slips a finger inside of you.Â
A soft mewl escapes you as you feel the spasms inside your pussy once again, pushing around his digit this time as he slides in deeper. You almost cry yellow, but then he leans down, and finally, begins pressing his lips on yours to wipe away any apprehension you feel about going forward.Â
His lips are gentle, and his kiss melts you from the inside and out, drowning the sounds you are making as the kiss draws a different kind of sensation out of your body. With one hand moving in and out of your hot walls, and the other holding you firmly at your hip, you feel like you are going to explode for another reason but the intense pleasure he has promised to give.Â
âMore,â you breathe against his lips when he releases you from the kiss, his fingers leaving your heat to let you feel your hot walls clenching into nothing. âI need you. Please.âÂ
âIâm here,â he simply whispers. And then his mouth is on yours once again, with his hand tangled in your hair. His body moulds into you as he covers you with his warmth, his hard cock pressing in the notch between your legs.Â
âIs this what you want?â The head of his cock prods your entrance and you let out a mewl, unable to hold back any sound as the need to have him inside you becomes so intense.
âYes, Sir,â you gasp when he rocks his hips and applies a little more pressure.
âDoes that feel good, baby?â He pushes some strands of stray hair away from your eyes, then gazes down with an intensity in his eyes which heats you up from within.
Your mouth falls open as he gently eases his way inside, parting you with his thickness. âYes,â you manage to answer breathlessly.Â
âGood. Now take a deep breath, and remember not to cum until I tell you to,â he murmurs, taking your hips with both hands and tipping you upwards to the right angle. Perfect enough to take him without straining you from your restraint too much.Â
Then, with nothing more but the sound of his soft moan, Jimin drives in deep. So deep that you can barely catch your breath as he fills you. As he moves, he starts kissing you again, his tongue fucking your mouth with the same rhythm as his thick cock.
With a gasp, you welcome the pleasure that comes, while almost wishing that you have some free rein to move on your own instead of being under his control.Â
Because you cannot get enough.Â
You nip his lips, kissing back with all youâve got, even to the knowledge that he is for sure going to punish you later for trying to top his dominance. But you need this like you need air to breathe. Like you need water to drink. So you drink him as a whole by kissing him back just as roughly. Passionately. Until a sound comes from his throat and his hips buck forward to push roughly into you.Â
Your eyes roll back with every thrust. You are half gone with delirium. Almost to a point where you can barely remember your name.Â
Jiminâs lids droop as he owns his pleasure, embracing it while giving it to you. His fingers tighten to a bruising strength around your hips as he goes faster, pumping harder, rocking every inch of your being while shaking the whole bed with the pace of his fucking.Â
He pulls you up until your body is half lifted from the bed, and keeps thrusting into you, holding your hips and sinking so deep you start feeling him everywhere. Â
He sweeps you against him as he claims your mouth with a kiss so fierce it intensifies the heat in your body, nearly sending you over the edge before you are allowed to.Â
But it really shouldnât be hard for Jimin to send you to another climax in the first place. Your body has grown overly sensitive that each thrust he gives you keeps sending you straight towards the edge.Â
So you do your best to hold on. To follow his command. To hold back before he gives you permission to release it. Until it finally comes.Â
But it never comes.Â
Instead, he holds back, coming to a pause as he pulls your body to his chest. You can feel that he has yet to find release even while he keeps giving you pleasure, and from the tremble you feel coming out of his chest, you know that he needs it. But instead of chasing it, he pulls out of you and flips you over. Making you face the headboard as he pulls your hips back and enters you from behind.Â
In this position, he drives even deeper. His hips snap and thrust, throwing you forward with his force. The bind around your hands is now twisted and tightens fiercely around your wrists. You use it to pull yourself and brace your arms forward, holding onto the headrest to keep from flying into the wall. His hold on your waist might be strong, but the force of his thrusts against your body while you are bound and helpless makes you feel like you are flying.Â
As if your body is defying gravity.Â
âJiminââ His name slips from your lips with a gasp. The words you wish to say to him hang at the tip of your tongue, yet your mind is too muddled to figure out what you want to say to him. Because it feels too much; the pleasure, the intense way he is claiming your body. But at the same time, you wish to beg him to let you find your release. To have more.
âMoreâŠâ You start begging him, âHarder.âÂ
Jimin grips one side of your hips and grabs a fistful of your hair as he slams into you. The moan that comes out of your mouth is sharp and sudden, drawn by the feeling of him filling you with his hard length.Â
You feel him leaning down against your back, his lips brushing at your ear with rushed breaths coming out of him. The hand that settles on your hip moves lower, finding your center before the tips of his fingers find your swollen clit. The touch is brief, yet it sends sparks of lightning under your eyelids when the pleasure peaks.Â
âIs this what you need, angel?â Jimin asks you between his thrusts without missing his steady rhythm.Â
âYes,â you cry out, âYes, Sir!âÂ
Seeingâand feelingâ the way your body welcomes him, Jimin repeats the action and presses against your clit, rubbing it in circles. You shudder as he fills you, as his thrusts continue relentlessly, and the satisfaction he brings sends your body almost to its limit. He gives four quick pumps, then another hard, deep one, pushing at the right spots, and you feel the telltale of your orgasm teasing at the seam.
Jimin releases your hair and palms your hips to drill deeper, his hips keep smacking against your bottom as he pumps in and out.Â
You hang your head and let out a whimper. The need to savour this raw pleasure has grown so strong, but your body has gone through multiple climaxes that you are not sure if you can last much longer.Â
The pleasure grows intense, making you dizzy with lust, with raw desire. It comes with a shudder that Jimin relishes as he reaches down, pressing his thumb at your rear opening until you feel him slipping in. A sharp cry slips out of your throat, to the point that you are nearly choking when each firm thrust he gives keeps pushing the air out of your chest.Â
âNot yet,â he warns with a growl when he feels the spasm of your climax building up.Â
âPlease. Oh God, please, Jimin,â you find yourself begging, though your mind is muddled with the need for release that you are not even completely aware of the words that keep shamelessly spilling out of your lips with your desperate plea. âPlease, more. Harder. Please, Sir. Oh, GodâI need to come.âÂ
Jiminâs thrusts grow more erratic, yet he is still going hard. âNot yet, angel,â he says with a strained voice, almost as if he is speaking with his jaw clenched tight.Â
He slams into you, hard, nearly pushing you forward. You are not sure if you can keep your arms up for much longer. The numbness keeps growing as your body continues getting ravished. He seems to notice you losing balance, because he pulls his hand away from your rear and smoothly wraps one strong arm around your waist to help hold you up instead of falling face-first into the pillows. This brings him closer to you, his bare chest pressing to your back, and the thrusts feel deeper even without as much force.Â
It feels so good, it makes you even more delirious. You feel as if you are soaring, as the rightness of being taken completely by him brings you to a new level of pleasure. You have already found how easy it is to be vulnerable with him, to let down your barriers and let him lead, so you can easily give your pleasure to him.Â
A curse slips out of his lips as his grip on you tightens further. His breath becomes heavier, you can hear and feel it with each in and out. You can feel his thighs shaking against yours, showing you that you are not the only one hanging on the edge of release.Â
He lets out a deep groan and thrusts deeply, moving in and out, in and up, almost lifting you from the bed, your knees rising with the force of his lovemaking. He pulls you up and back against his chest as he straightens back up and taps your clit with his fingers in rapid succession.Â
And this almost does you in. With a gasp, you cry out to him, âN-no, I canâtâI canât hold on.âÂ
To your relief, Jimin whispers to your ear, âReady to come, angel?âÂ
He moves his hand up from your waist to cup your breast. His fingers find your nipple and pinch, bringing back the pain which the clamps had ignited on your skin, while he presses hard against your clit to set you off.Â
You arch at the mix of pain and pleasure. Thrusting your breasts onto his hand, a hoarse cry escapes your lips. âJ-jimin,â you call his name with a gasp.Â
âYes,â he murmurs. âTake it, angel. Take it all.âÂ
He groans as he bites out his command, âLet yourself go, angel. Let me feel you come around my cock.âÂ
With his words, you let go.Â
You let out another cry as your inner muscles begin spasming intensely with the wave of your orgasm. You nearly flip backwards, your head hitting his shoulder as your body convulses in your climax. Your pussy clamps down on his cock, squeezing and pulsing around his thick length.Â
âThatâs it, angel,â Jimin murmurs in your ear. âYour pussy feels so good around me.âÂ
He nuzzles your neck, pressing kisses there. Beyond the blissful fog, and the stars filling your eyelids, you can still feel him; rocking gently from behind you, prolonging the waves of pleasure rushing through your body while he waits for you to ride out your high.Â
His cock is still rock hard inside you, rubbing your insides in a delicate manner which feels intoxicating, thrilling, and overwhelming at the same time.Â
âHow are you, angel? Still with me?â he whispers to you while you are still riding your high, still rocking your hips against his, savouring the delectable hum of your orgasm with him buried inside you. He keeps giving you slow, languid thrusts while he waits for your response.Â
âHmmmâyesâŠâÂ
Jimin lets out a chuckle as he leans down, taking your ear between his teeth for a light bite. âYou donât think weâre done yet, do you?âÂ
Your hips jerk when he pushes deeper into your tight walls, his hard cock pressing into your heat. âBut itâs too much,â you gasp, your body growing rigid with how sensitive you have become.Â
âJust one more, angel. Give me one more,â Jimin murmurs against your skin as he begins rocking his hips again, stirring back the pleasure that has yet to come down completely, dulling the ache and the soreness when your body easily complies, quickly adjusting to this new high. âYou can do it. I know you can.âÂ
It feels delicious. Delectable. Too much and not enough at once. You are flying so flipping high, drunk in pleasure, drunk on him, on every drop of need and desire that he has somehow woken in your body and soul.Â
âFuck, yes. Arch that back for me, angel.â He drags a palm down your spine and lays a light slap on the side of your bottom cheek.Â
And you arch for him, doing it just as he asks of you.Â
His breath grows heavy. His movements start getting jerky, and a bit too rough. Not for your pussy, as the pulse of desire only seems to be getting stronger, but for your back and shoulders, your body getting drained and used up from all the strenuous movements.Â
Before you can say anything about it, Jimin shifts, leaning forward and laying his torso over your back. He reaches forward, bracing one hand on the bars right next to where your hand is keeping a tight grip to hold on. His other hand moves back to your breast, pinching your nipple, rolling it between his fingers and tugging just like he did with the other.Â
Moans after moans keep slipping out of you. He sees this as a sign that you are high in pleasure instead of pain, so he strokes his hand down the plane of your stomach and finds your clit again.Â
A shudder rocks through your body, and he bites your ear right before that shudder turns into something more. âNot until I tell you, angel.âÂ
With a gasp, everything stops. You fall quiet and listen. You have learned to wait, to follow his pace as he comes almost to a complete pause to let the spasms of your climax fade.Â
âDo you understand? You donât come until I say you do.âÂ
His voice in your ear seems deeper, and it flips some kind of switch in you. Your pussy contracts, but not enough to push you over to the edge. Your toes are curling beneath you, feeling the anticipation strengthening the pleasure that keeps building, and building.Â
Jimin pulls you back and suddenly flips you over. You are now facing him, with your back down on the bed, yet your hips are lifted until they are resting over his thighs as he enters you again.Â
âI want to look at your face when you come for one last time,â he says, as he curls his hands around the tops of your thighs, wrapping them around to grip your ass and pulling you back and forth over his cock.Â
You find yourself back in a state of delirium, feeling ecstatic with the way he is handling you with his skilled hands. You know better than to fight it, realising that this is what you need. So you simply submit to the sensations building inside you, letting go of any inhibitions left in you so you can take everything that Jimin is giving you.Â
âThatâs it. Look at me, baby. Just like that.â
You are feeling euphoric with intense pleasure, but it doesnât stop you from basking in the heat of his gaze. He moves his fingers around your clit in circles, then switches, as he slides his hand under your ass and parts your cheeks. When you feel him tapping your pucker rim with a finger, you are completely lost.Â
âNow, angel. Come for me.âÂ
The guttural tone of his voice sounds just as urgent as the desire peaking through your body. For the last time, you shatter completely, your hips snapping up and down as the release uncoils faster than a whip snapping in the wind.Â
The wave of your orgasm hits you intensely, stronger and bigger than the last. You let out a scream, the sound coming louder as he squeezes your nipples, hard, bringing back the same pain that he caused you with the clamps, only with his hands, all while he keeps pushing and rubbing his cock hard inside you.Â
While you shatter in pieces in your release, Jimin puts you back together when you feel him pulsing inside you. With a strangled gasp and a rough groan, Jimin succumbs to his release. You feel his warmth filling you up, some drops of his cum escaping with each slow thrust he is giving you before he finally comes to a complete halt.Â
âMarvellous,â Jimin murmurs, a smile playing at the corner of his lips as he tries to catch his breath. âYou are marvellous, angel. Way better than I could ever imagine.âÂ
Then his lips find yours again, taking you in a deep, lingering kiss. It makes you forget for a moment where you are, and that you are still bound to the bedâto himâwhen the heat in your body sizzles to warm. Right at that moment, as your tongue dances against his, you finally understand the reason why Jimin had tried his best to avoid kissing your lips at the beginning of your playtime.
The kiss feels sensual, too intimate, that you melt into him for a reason which has nothing to do with the intense play he had just introduced you to.Â
It feels too intimate for a kiss to be shared in a place like this.Â
And yet you do nothing to stop it. Instead, you let him pull you tighter into his chest as he kisses you deeper, until the bind, the club, and everything else around you cease to matter.Â
You feel drowsy, tired and spent, yet filled with content, that you can feel yourself slowly falling asleep.Â
It doesnât help that Jiminâs soothing touch keeps making your body feel more lax, that you wish for nothing more than to lie back down on the bed. Sweats and other essences left behind on those fancy silk sheets from your playtime be damn.Â
But you also have no wish to pull away from his warmth that feels so comforting, enveloping you in a way that makes you want to curl up and doze off until you are ready to step away from this invisible bubble of yours.Â
Right now, you just want to savour this moment. Because thisâŠ
This is why you keep coming back, searching for such pleasure by opening yourself up to your darkest desire.Â
Itâs the calm that comes after the heated moment that you just shared with a partner who desired the same thing you did by coming to this place. A place where your reality no longer matters. The contentment and peacefulness that come over you once the heat slowly subsides.Â
This is when your mind clears. When your mind can rationalise everything that has been going on in your life without your anxiety blinding you. When you can stop feeling as if you have no control over your life.Â
Submitting control to someone elseâs hands is never meant to make you feel powerless. Itâs always meant to be the opposite, as even in complete submission, when you are met with the right Dom as your partner, you are the one to hold the control. And there is nothing more fulfilling than finding pleasure at the end as your reward. To feel even more powerful when you can finally take back your control when your playtime is over.Â
That was the very reason why you requested to have this kind of treatment for this session. What started as a deep curiosity about the dynamic has grown into a desire which you secretly harboured to experience. And after weeks of having your life spiralling out of control, you saw this moment as a chance to test the theories youâve learned about submitting to pleasure.Â
You never expected to find yourself reaching something as divine as being in a headspace, where everything felt so serene that you simply forgot everything. And you certainly didnât expect to also experience something like this; the gentle, caring touch that comes afterward as Jimin eases you back into reality.Â
To be taken care of and spoiled and praised after you allow yourself to be taken over by lust.Â
Taking a deep breath, the soft floral scent of freesia mixed with a sweet, fruity fragrance fills your chest. It makes you smile as you breathe it in.Â
When you first entered the room, the air was thick with rich, aromatic trails of burning incense. The typical scents that have always been spread within the exclusive rooms in the club to set the perfect ambience for the guests as they enjoy their night in this place. This room, specifically, was filled with earthy sandalwood, mingling with the sweet floral touch of jasmine and fresh lemongrass.Â
Merely moments ago, those delicate scents were replaced by the heady scents of sex and sweat, which had grown so thick after your intense playtime with Jimin. The scents that are still present in your skin, albeit faintly, under the scent of body wash clinging to your skin after the warm bath that Jimin had given you once he was done with you.Â
As you lean into Jiminâs chest and the comforting touch of his fingers, you can still feel everything; the warm water from the bath which soothed your sore muscles; the calming scent of the soap which Jimin lathered on your body; and the gentle way Jimin took care of you through it all.Â
Just like how he gave you light massages to ease the numbing ache on your arms and wrists after releasing you from the ropes, he is still rubbing your skin, easing the soreness left behind from the bondage.Â
âI think,â you hum softly the moment you feel his lips pressing on your wrist, âIf you keep rubbing and kissing my skin like this, I might just fall asleep right here.âÂ
This causes Jimin to laugh. His voice is velvety and soft that it feels like a warm blanket that makes you want to sink further into his embrace.Â
As you move in his lap, the front of your robe falls just enough to expose parts of your breasts once again, and you make no move to fix it. It doesnât do much to steal away the warmth you feel in your body. Not when his hands are doing just enough to make up for it.Â
Jiminâs gaze follows the fallen fabric, and a distaste look appears through his eyes. Not at the sight of skin, but at the way the robe seems to be blocking his view. Even if he was the one who had dressed you in the robe once he was done cleaning you up in the bath.Â
Clinging to his robe that is now secured in place, you look up to tease him, âAre you thinking about stripping me down again, Sir?âÂ
With a light chuckle, Jimin shakes his head. âI wish I could, angel. But youâve given me more than enough already. Iâm not sure youâll be able to give more.âÂ
His lips are soft as they move slowly against yours, coaxing your lips open and delving inside to taste you for one last time. His hands grip your hips and wind their way up to your waist, doing it slowly, as if you are just as delicate as the silky robe now covering your skin.Â
âEverything okay, angel?â Jiminâs voice is soft, just enough to push through the newly blissful fog rising in your head. The rumbling in his chest nearly sounds like a purr, and you find yourself wanting so badly to lean deeper into it.Â
âYes,â you answer with a content sigh. âEverythingâs just marvellous.âÂ
Jimin lets out a soft hum as he kisses the top of your head. âI couldnât agree more.â He leans back and tilts your chin up until you are looking up at him. âThis was much better than I ever could imagine. Thank you for giving me this opportunity,â he says while looking deep into your eyes, and you can almost swear you feel the insides of your chest turning into jelly.Â
âI should be the one to thank you.âÂ
The smile on his face softens. âItâs quite unfortunate, but I suppose this marks the end of our playtime.âÂ
âBummer,â you tease him with a playful pout, though your comment doesnât have a bite or bitterness to it, even if you do feel the disappointment of knowing that your time is up.Â
Kissing your pouting lips, Jimin takes your hand and helps you rise to your feet. He waits until you are no longer swaying before he lets you go, but not before guiding you towards your door.Â
âDo you need my help?â he offers one last time right as you reach out to press the button to open the door. Still feeling reluctant to do so, you hold back as much as you can, for as long as you are allowed to, just to stay like this with him for a bit longer.Â
Looking at his face again, knowing well enough that the next time you meet him, there will be a mask shielding his beautiful face from view, you commit every detail of him in your memory.
âNo, I think Iâll manage,â you answer him once you feel like you have enough control to tame the buzzing in your body. Â
Jimin looks at you with the same gaze he had during playtime, before he nods, and that look fades. When he opens his eyes again, he straightens himself up the way he always does when he is acting as the host for the club, already shedding his masterâs role to put on his original role as your host, even without his suit on. Â
âThe car for your ride home will be waiting for you downstairs once you are ready to leave,â he gently says, though with the familiar tone that he uses when he is setting up your arrangement with the club. It stings a little to hear it, yet it also helps you to slowly prepare yourself to return to the real world.Â
âUntil we see again,â Jimin adds, and you immediately stop him before he can turn away. Â
âThis special offerââ you hesitantly ask, âIs it a one-time thing?âÂ
Jimin doesnât answer you right away. But there is a glint in his eyes which seems to speak a thousand words before he speaks. It is the same look that he gave you when he made the offer to be your master. âWhenever you are ready to set up your next appointment, let your host know that you are requesting for your preceding master.âÂ
A flutter of a smile grows on your face. âIâll make sure to remember.âÂ
He watches you press the button at your door to open it, yet you remain in your position to watch him go as Jimin turns away to the other side of the room. Without taking another glance over his shoulder, Jimin presses the button to open the door to his side of the wall and steps out of the bedroom.Â
And then he is gone.Â
â JiminâÂ
âI heard that you recently made use of the Bondage Room again. Is that true?âÂ
The day is still quite early for Club La Rouge to be filled with its regular patrons. But the VIP lounge already has some guests unwinding to end the day. Some with drinks in their hands, some enjoying imported cigars while sharing light conversations with their peers and sponsors, while others are simply here to fill their time of leisure before diving into the clubâs evening bustle.Â
Sitting in front of Jimin is not just a regular VIP guest of the club.Â
Kim Seokjin is one of the owners of Club La Rouge and the head representative who deals with the clubâs activities and patrons directly. He is also Jiminâs employer. The same person who first brought Jimin to be a part of the club years ago.Â
Jimin had already expected that at least one of the owners would catch wind about him entering the special Play Room not as a host, but as a willing participant. He should have expected that person to be Seokjin, who is always so strict in keeping up with all the happenings in the club, whether it is something that involves the club members, his co-owners, or his favoured staff.Â
âYes, I have,â Jimin admits as he sits back on his loveseat, meeting Seokjinâs eyes. âIâm surprised it took you this long to bring this up. Itâs been a few weeks since it happened, after all.âÂ
Seokjin gives him a smile in return. âYou and I both have been quite busy with the new development for the club, so I havenât thought about bringing it up,â he admits after placing his cup of tea down on the table between them. âHow did it feel to be back into it again? I know that you havenât been active in the BDSM club scenes for a while. I havenât heard of you coming to other clubs to find a sub or spend any night with the clubâs escort for a play for weeks.âÂ
Jimin canât resist the laughter coming out of him. Itâs typical for Seokjin to be so blunt in bringing up his past endeavours in the middle of a conversation. He isnât wrong, after all.Â
For a long time, Jimin has always been familiar with the BDSM scene, even long before he became involved with Club La Rouge. He had spent many nights frequenting the BDSM club scenes in the city to look for the perfect sub to play with, yet never once could he find the desirable release that he was searching for.Â
When he first met the owners of Club La Rouge years ago, he knew that he had finally found the perfect place for him to satiate his desire.Â
Just like what he shared with you that night, Jimin was first brought in to test out the new sex rooms before they were publicly launched for the clubâs members. Specifically the Bondage Room and the smaller Play Rooms that were built to complement it. He even helped with the design, the main concept, and provided lists of instruments and items that the club needed to create the perfect space for its patrons to live out their fantasies to the fullest.Â
All thanks to his past experience and knowledge of the sex scenes that most of the owners were still considered novices at the time.Â
He remained in the club after the initial development as a full host in exchange for good pay each month and free access to any of the clubâs benefitsâas long as he followed the clubâs main rules as many others were required to. The arrangement had worked perfectly for Jimin. For a time, he felt that his involvement with the club was enough to satiate his needs that he would only visit the other BDSM clubs whenever he needed a change of settings.Â
It all changed the night he took the role of your master, when he finally got a taste of you and your complete submission.Â
âIâd have to say that it was quiteââ Jimin mulls over for a moment to find the right word, âLiberating.âÂ
Seokjinâs lips rise to a grin. âQuite the choice of word,â he says, âI suppose she was worth changing your own rules and boundaries, then?âÂ
Jimin resists a groan. Despite all the restricting rules that the club has set for its staff, it was his own boundaries that prevented him from even considering involving himself with a club member. Specifically, a member that he is fully responsible for.Â
He did change a lot of things that night. Crossed many boundaries. Risk his own connection with the club.Â
All for you.
Was it truly worth it? He wonders with a side grin on his face. Yes, absolutely. Even with the consequences that followed.Â
Days have continued to pass by since then, and have quickly turned into weeks. Yet the night Jimin spent with you in the Play Room remains in his memory so vividly that he can almost relive it each time he closes his eyes.Â
He can still feel the touch of your skin at the tips of his fingers, and breathe your delicate scent through the heady scents of the clubâs signature fragrance that he has gotten accustomed to after working in this place for so long. Oftentimes, all he simply needs to do is reminisce a small part of that night, and he would be able to hear the sounds of your voice that came out of your lips when he pleasured you.Â
It has messed with his mind so badly that he hasnât been able to return to the club scenes nor has he been able to enjoy them as much as he used to when he eventually did try to venture into other clubs and find a new sub. Â
At the same time, it has left him waiting. Anticipating. For him to feel a deep craving of raw and unbidden pleasure that only you could fulfil. It has been a while since he last felt this way.Â
âFor now, itâs worth more than anything,â Jimin admits, surprising himself to feel this way. It must be quite surprising for Seokjin as well, as the man immediately laughs.Â
âI wonder if she thinks the same. Do you think sheâll come back to request another chance?âÂ
Jimin raises his eyebrows. âArenât you going to scold me? Put me on a timeout for fraternising with an exclusive member?âÂ
Seokjin lets out a scoff. âAs one of the earliest hosts who helped run the club from the ground up, you have privileges that no other hosts have. Iâm only surprised it took you this long to find someone youâd risk everything to,â Seokjin says with a teasing grin. âSo? Is this going to be just a one-time thing, or has she decided to try a new master now that youâve crossed one of her checklists?â
âWell,â Jimin clenches his jaw at the thought of you giving control to a different master, until he recalls your last words before he left the room that night.Â
âThis special offer. Is it a one-time thing?â
Jimin eases back in his seat, no longer feeling tense, knowing that you had at least harboured a desire to repeat that night should the chance be given to you. Even if itâs nothing more but a small wish. âShe hasnât revoked her membership since that night, so I think we can expect her to return.âÂ
He can only hope that you havenât decided to change to a new host for your next session, so he can be prepared for whatever kind of arrangement you will be making when you return.Â
Weeks have passed since that night and you have yet to make any arrangements with the club for a new session. It shouldnât be a surprise, since it was one of your patterns to wait a few weeks between booking a session with the club before Jimin gifted you the new privilege that you now have.Â
But it doesnât stop him from expecting news from you each time he sits down at his office to arrange different sessions for other club members that he is hosting. He tries not to think too much about it when he returns to his office this evening to open up the clubâs schedule.
This week has been slow for the club, presumably due to the fact that most of the VIP members in his quota had recently joined the latest club event that was held at the end of the year. Jimin is in the middle of updating the members list to prepare for the start of the new year when a notification arrives on his system. He doesnât think much of it when he opens his tablet to check the incoming email, until he sees the content and hope blooms for him.Â
As if fate is on his side tonight, your name appears on his screen.Â
He quickly skims through your email, reading through the reservation that you had just sent in for your future session which is set for the weekend. His smile grows wider as he reads the detailed specifications that you have added in your email, until he reaches the end, nearly leaping out of his seat to shout and celebrate when your message says,
âRequest inquiries for one private session. Choice of accommodation: The Play Room. Special theme request: Complete Submission. Specifications: Bondage. Role play. Blindfold. Open for pain and punishments. Choice of partner: Request for the Preceding Master.âÂ
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⥠You're Family | CL16
PART OF MY IS IT CASUAL NOW? SERIES
Summary: It's hard being casual when my favorite bra lives in your dresser, And it's hard being casual when I'm on the phone talking down your brother.
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After the summer break, things between her and Charles shift in subtle but undeniable ways. He goes back to racing, and she falls into a comfortable rhythm at home, taking care of Leo and focusing on work. But her world feels fuller now, punctuated by unexpected calls, invitations, and little gestures that keep her close to the Leclercs, even when Charles is away.
It starts with Pascale, who invites her over one afternoon for coffee. Itâs warm and welcoming, the kind of invitation that makes her feel like sheâs known Pascale forever. âCome, sit down, ma belle,â Pascale says, guiding her to a cozy seat in the kitchen. She fusses over her with warmth that feels so genuine it makes her chest ache.
âYou know, itâs ridiculous that Charles hasnât introduced us sooner,â Pascale chides, shaking her head. âI told him, âIf youâre serious about someone, we should meet her, no?ââ
She feels her cheeks warm but laughs it off. âOh, I donât know if youâd call it serious. Weâre justâŠâ
Pascale waves a hand, dismissing her words. âPlease, Iâve seen the way he talks about you. We know when itâs serious.â She pours coffee into a delicate cup and hands it to her, a mischievous glint in her eye. âPlus, the way he sulks when youâre at workâheâs like a lost puppy. We tease him for it!â
And just like that, Pascale has her laughing and sharing stories, making her feel like part of the family. Before she knows it, these coffee dates turn into a regular thing, and Pascale even insists on cutting her hair, brushing away her protests with a gentle but firm hand. They chat and laugh, talking about everything from family to work, and she leaves every time feeling a bit more like she belongs.
Then thereâs Charlotte. One day, she calls, suggesting a girlsâ day out, just the two of them. They roam the city, stopping at boutiques and trying on sunglasses, gossiping and laughing over coffee like old friends. Charlotte is sharp, witty, and fun, making her feel completely at ease.
âSo, youâve really got Charles wrapped around your finger, huh?â Charlotte teases as they browse the racks of a boutique. âI donât think Iâve seen him this smitten since⊠well, ever.â
She rolls her eyes, brushing off the comment with a laugh. âSmitten? Heâs just⊠weâre just friends.â
âRight,â Charlotte says with a knowing smile. âAnd Iâm just the Queen of England.â
Then thereâs Arthur. They start chatting more, mostly joking around after he realizes sheâs following his races, and she finds herself quickly warming to him. Arthur is loud, playful, and full of life, and they click almost instantly. They trade inside jokes, and after a particularly hard race, he texts her sounding completely drained.
Arthur: "Rough night. I donât think Iâm cut out for this sometimes."
You: "Hey, thatâs not true. Youâre amazing â you know that, right?"
Arthur: "Maybe. But sometimes itâs hard to remember. Everything feels stacked against me."
So she called him, letting him vent as he rambled about the pressures of racing, the constant comparisons to Charles, and the weight he carried. She offered gentle reassurances, reminding him of his strengths and how far heâd come.
At one point, she said softly, âArthur, youâre going to be incredible. I know it. And you know Charles would be the first to say that too.â
After a pause, he replied, a little more lighthearted, âYou know, youâre like the family therapist at this point.â
She laughed. âGuess Iâm putting in overtime then.â
By the end of the call, he sounded much better, his spirits lifted, and they both promised to catch up in person soon.
But itâs when Charles is back in town that things really start to feel different. Heâs even clingier than before, draping himself over her whenever heâs home, complaining dramatically about his âstolenâ family.
âHonestly, I go away for two weeks, and suddenly, youâre mamanâs new favorite?â he grumbles one night, leaning his head on her shoulder as they lounge on his couch. âArthur calls you more than he calls me, you know.â
She laughs, nudging him playfully. âOh, come on, itâs not like theyâve replaced you. Besides, youâre the one who left me with your family!â
âYeah, but theyâre my family,â he insists with a pout, his eyes gleaming with that familiar spark of mischief. âHonestly, youâre all I think about when Iâm away, and then I come back, and I have to share you with everyone else? Unacceptable.â
âYou poor thing,â she says mockingly, patting his cheek. âMust be so hard for you, having people who love you.â
Charles grins, leaning closer until his face is just inches from hers. âOh, it is. I think you should make it up to me.â
The way he says it makes her heart race, and they end up tangled together until she canât think straight. One thing leads to another, and the next morning, she playfully grumbles about needing to go back to her apartment to grab fresh clothes.
âHonestly, Charles, I swear youâve destroyed half my wardrobe at this point,â she teased, reaching for her phone. âI donât think I have any underwear left.â
Charles smirked from where he leaned against the doorway, still looking far too pleased with himself. âCheck the top drawer of my wardrobe.â
She raised an eyebrow, giving him a curious look. âWhat?â
âGo on, take a look.â
Confused but intrigued, she opened the drawer, her eyes widening as she took in the sight: a stack of her clothes, neatly folded. T-shirts, a couple of sweaters, even some underwear â and her favorite bra. She gasped, lifting it up and shooting him an accusing look.
âCharles! You kept my favorite bra?â
He shrugged nonchalantly. âYou leave things here all the time anyway, so I just⊠organized. Itâs more practical this way. Now you donât have to go all the way home every time.â
She couldnât help the grin that spread across her face. âYou made me a drawer?â
âOf course,â he said, walking up to her and wrapping his arms around her waist. âGotta make sure my friend is comfortable.â
She rolled her eyes, feeling warmth spread through her chest. âIf this is just friendship, Charles, Iâd hate to see you with someone you actually care about.â
He chuckled, tilting her chin up and pressing a soft kiss to her lips. âIâd just be even worse,â he murmured, eyes sparkling.
The words, though playful, lingered with her. The closeness, the drawer, his motherâs invitations â they all hinted at something deeper than what theyâd agreed on. But every time sheâd try to piece together her thoughts, heâd pull her back in, and sheâd find herself giving in, trying not to read into every little sign.
As things grew deeper, she found herself wrestling with her feelings more and more, unsure of where she stood. Despite the time spent together, despite the way his family had practically adopted her, she kept reminding herself that they were just friends. Thatâs all theyâd agreed on, after all.
But Charlesâs actions often left her wondering. The drawer, the constant calls, the way he made sure to always check in on her⊠it felt like more. And yet, whenever she started thinking like that, heâd casually brush it off with a laugh, leaving her both hopeful and hesitant.
One morning, just as he was heading out for another meeting, he casually mentioned, âOh, by the way, Charlotte called. She wants to meet up with you tomorrow.â
She raised an eyebrow, caught off guard. âOh? For what?â
He shrugged, buttoning up his jacket with that effortless confidence he had. âWedding stuff, I think? She said she needed your help picking some things out.â
She blinked, surprised. âWedding stuff? Isnât that more⊠you know, family stuff?â
Charles glanced at her, looking amused by her confusion. âExactly. Thatâs why she wants you there.â
Her heart stuttered, the implications of his words hitting her harder than she expected. She stood there, watching him as he finished getting ready, too shocked to find the words. Did he even realize what heâd just implied? Did he know what that invitation meant?
Unbothered by her inner turmoil, he leaned down to kiss her on the forehead. âDonât overthink it,â he said softly, his eyes crinkling with a familiar warmth. âIâll be back early tonight.â
And with that, he was out the door, leaving her standing there, the weight of her growing feelings settling over her like a heavy blanket.
In the silence that followed, she let out a shaky breath, her thoughts spiraling. Somewhere along the way, sheâd crossed an invisible line â a line she couldnât pretend didnât exist anymore. She was in too deep, and for the first time, she wasnât sure if she could keep up the pretense.
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Iâm here for Soundwave stealing away reader from Starscream. Itâs a very likely scenario to occur if Starscream continues to be his own downfall but itâs amusing to consider nonetheless the less because he knows that is an outcome that can happen.
He absolutely would at this point if reader wasnât fully bonded to Starscream. Heâs just trying to keep Star from dragging you with him when he self destructs at this point
Everything Is Alright Pt 106
IDW Starscream x Reader, Soundwave x Reader, Megatron x Reader
âą âMegatron.â Turning at Soundwaveâs deep voice, he waits for his communications officer to catch up to him. âA word?â Servos flexing because he can still smell you on Soundwave, he inclines his head. Starts walking again with the other mech and waits for Soundwave to begin speaking again. Because this is about you, he knows it is. And youâre a problem. The way his spark heats when you glare at him or snap back an unexpected thrill. Afraid, but willing to stand up to him for your mates, but not yourself. Why does he care when you really shouldnât matter.
âą âThis is about the human. Your mate.â Ignoring the thinly veiled growl in Megatronâs voice, Soundwave nods. Carefully. If Megatron realizes heâs being manipulated, heâll never cooperate. So he waits and walks, feeling when Megatron glances sidelong at him, optics narrowed. âWhy a human?â Because of the way you smile when you see him, though those have been fragile things lately because of his own actions. Because he loves the chaos of your emotions within his thoughts, those soft hands, having someone that doesnât mind if heâs too quiet. If heâs lost in thought. The way you trace little patterns on his plating when youâre drowsy and the way you never shy away when he reaches for you. That soft voice talking to him about anything and everything. All things he canât say to Megatron.
âą âEasy to control,â Soundwave replies and Megatronâs lips twist. Because heâs almost certain thatâs a lie. No, definitely a lie. Remembering the affectionate way Soundwave had brushed his cheek against you and feathered kisses against your skin. Murmuring to you as you curled into him, trusting yourself fully to his care. And part of him wonders what that would be like. Someone waiting for him, happy to see him and with no ulterior motives behind their smiles. Heâs lonely, but heâs been lonely a very long time. Letting his reputation and temper keep everyone at bay.
âą âThe truth,â Megatron admonishes, voice soft and Soundwave vents. Tiredly reaching up to press his servos against his chassis over his cassette compartment. Can still sense your emotions despite the distance. That incomplete bond a tie to you. A way to ensure the Seeker canât just run away with you. And a gamble that youâll hopefully survive Starscream if he wonât stop clawing for power. If Megatron ends him once and for all because of the Seekerâs own treacherous actions, you donât deserve to die with him. And he doesnât know how this will work. If heâll be tied to Starscreamâs fate alongside you if he fully bonds you or if it might spare you. Spark bonds are a taboo and who knows which or if any of the old stories are real or just legends.
âą âHappier since finding them,â Soundwave admits. That isnât a lie, his communications officer looking at him as if daring him to judge. And he really canât. Because he understands as much as it makes him uncomfortable. Likes speaking to you despite the fact that youâre beneath him. Insignificant. âLess lonely.â And that strikes home.
âą âI donât know what that means,â you whisper and that hint of miserable fear in your voice pierces Starscreamâs own worries. âI donât know what a protoform even is.â Feels when you start to tremble and wraps his arms around you as he realizes that heâs not the only one completely lost in this. Youâre worried and scared, too. âI need someone to talk to me, okay? Please?â
âą âI know.â Raspy voice low as he tucks you more firmly against him, chin resting on top of your head. âWeâll do this together.â Feeling his palm sliding up and down your spine, you desperately want to believe that. That heâs not going anywhere. That he wonât panic and run again. But youâre not sure that you can anymore. âFigure it out together.â And you need to believe that so much it hurts, but can you?
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I LIKE THE WAY YOU
KISS ME...
I LIKE THE WAY YOU
UH-...
Sum: You tough boy gets to whinye for you
Warnings : ; MINOR WRITING (Anti's DNI) ; pussydrunk ; Unprotected! ; breeding ; male moans ; cowgirl ; reverse cowgirl ; oral (F receiving) ; degradation (M receiving) ; cunnilingus ; fingering ; praise (M receiving)
A/n: YOOOOOOO WHINYE BOYS LETS GOOOO; i dont know how tf whinye is written, and remember, im a minor, soooooo if you dont like this information, you can simple ignore or block my blog! :)
(This has not been reviewed btw đ
Gojo:
âSlow down! P-please!~â â Gojo panted loudly, arching his back like a cat, you barely sat on Satoru and you could already feel his cock pulsing inside you
âFirst, admit you were wrong when you said my pussy was too small to handle your so so so huge cockâ â Said with a sly smile on your face, making fun of how Saturu's expression contorted with each thrust
âN-no! A-ah fuck, fuck, fuck!â â He rolled his eyes, whimpering softly, with the feeling of your pussy swallowing every inch of his cock with every up and down movement you made on it
âDont stop squeezing those pretty walls on me~ O-oh please...â â He held your hips not trying to seek some kind of dominance, he just wanted to feel you closer to him
âArent you a fucking whore Satoru? Are you my dirty dirty little bitch huh?â â You said, looking into his eyes, what always made him shiver when you were on top, you kept riding him, with each penetration he let out a loud whimper
âIm a dirty whore... The biggest bitch this world have ever seen!â â His body was so soft that with every movement you made, he had little spasms
âI'm sorry! I-I was completely wrong, I'm the one who can't handle your pussy babe!- it's so warm inside that it even makes me want to-â â He could only focus on the pleasure you gave him, and when he least expected it, without even feeling anything, he spurted the hot liquids inside your tight cunt with a loud moan
âF-fuck 'toru!â â You felt his semen dripping from your entrance, it was thick and in a large quantity, you fell on Satoru, while the sound of his orgasm remained loud
Geto:
Geto wasn't much of a noisy person, he spent most of his time breathing heavily while the two of you make out, but there was one thing that made him let his voice out, and that was your delicious hips
Geto was sitting on the couch, while you did the rest of the work holding his cock, that was already hard, playing slowly with the head
"Put it in already!" â he demanded putting his head back, leaning on the couch, while letting out a little of precum, forming a line between his thumb and the head of his cock
"Be quiet, you're not the one in charge here, Suguru" â You answered him, dry as the desert, but being direct as a line, adjusting your entrance on his member, closing your eyes and giving a sigh
Suguru gasped, squeezing the fabric of the couch, curling his eyebrows to the point that they almost touched, pressing his eyes
Your pussy slid so wet in suguru, you gave a shaky moan - "Holy shit" â You cursed under your breath, adjusting to his size
You started moving, starting slowly, holding Suguru's knees, bouncing at a slow pace
"O-oh fuuuuuuck!~ just like that babe... Nice and sloooow" â Suguru spoke softly, like a whisper, still with his eyes closed, opening them briefly, running his hands over your back, then on your hips, and closing them again
You bit your lower lips, staring at Suguru's face, watching as his expression twitched as you were on top of him
Suguru moved his hips hitting the entrance of your pussy with a hint of violence
"my balls are almost entering this pretty cunt, oh my god~ so tight inside its driving me crazy"
"F-faster babe... Please go faster, bounce on my cock like you mean it" â He said without thinking twice, going towards your clit with his thumb, rubbing sloppy circles, leaving hot kisses on the back of your neck
"arent you a greedy one Suguru?" â You said with some difficulty, a bead of sweat running down your forehead, and a brat smile forming on your face from ear to ear after teasing Suguru, who whimpered in response
"dont tell me youre going to cum..." â You teased him again, giving a nasal chuckle right after, seeing Suguru expression as you curled your hips to face him, nails sinking into Suguru's thighs
"Just shut up and do your stupid job! Ugh~.. " â Suguru answers briefly, your gaze always made him shiver down his spine, his face certainly red, you could feel his legs trembling and his back arching
"I think your job is to do the things I would do if you were fucking me rn, right 'Sugu?
Your bounces increased, slamming your ass on Suguru's balls, the skin-on-skin noises throughout the room
"Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck! M'gonna cum! M'gonna cum inside, i want to paint your walls white with my seed, please? Please please please please" â He moaned loudly, begging to have his long-awaited release, taking your hips and pressing on his body, spurting all his hot liquid inside your pussy
"N-now... Can you ride me while looking in my eyes?... Please?..."
Choso:
"B-babe... Its so so warm inside yooooou~..." â He said quietly, running his thumb through your slit while putting his tongue inside your entrance - "I could eat you out everyday..."
You grabbed his black hair, running your fingers over every wick, looking at him with a satisfied face
"That's okay 'Cho... Just enjoy it for now" â Closing your eyes, moving your hips in circles slowly
Choso got more excited by every second, he held your waist, pressing your body against his face, not caring about his breathing, with his nose rubbing your clit lightly
He moaned softly, noises of you being licked and sucked echoed through the room
"F-fuck... Mmmm~" â He penetrated his tongue in and out, at first it started slowly and then he started to move faster
" Mmm 'chooo~ It feels so good!" â You rode on his tongue, moving your hips as you rested your hands on his chest, he held your pair of thighs with both hands to the point of leaving marks
He just closed his eyes and nodded his head to everything you said, moving his hands all over your body, squeezing your breasts, your ass, your thighs, penetrating two fingers, curling it to reach your sweet spot, sucking your clit as if it were the last meal of his life
"Cum on my tongue... A-ah! Please?.." â he begged with a muffled tone; every movement that he was making made you felt a vibration echo in your insides and beat directly into your soul, and his tongue eating you made your deepest fantasies appear in your imagination
"Almost there 'cho... Just a little bit more" â You spoke breathlessly, with a red face; your forehead drooping a few drops until you wiped it with the back of your hand and then closed your eyes
Choso got carried away, pausing for half a second and going with his thumb towards your clit, rubbing faster circles on it, making your toes curl
"cum on my tongue! P-please cum!~" â Choso said nervously, feeling your orgasm approaching fast, his expression writhed more and more
"mhmmm...- oh my fucking lord~ A-ah!~" â He felt your orgasm coming out, licking without wasting a single drop, rolling his eyes as he tasted the sweet taste of your liquids
Sukuna:
"Are ya sure mortal? Are ya sure you can handle it?" â Sukuna said with some suspicion, afraid that you would pass out on his cock just like last time
"I'm totally sure! I can even make you moan if I want to"
"Dont make me laugh, but if you think so..." â He said, taking his cock out already erect, you gasped in response even tho it wasn't the first and not even the last time you saw it, but the size always surprises you
"What are ya waiting for?" â Sukuna pulled you by the arms, sitting on his throne, putting you on his lap
You put your panties to the side, positioning yourself over Sukuna's head, his cock was big and thick, and barely fit inside, but you were confident to be able to put it all in
You slid over his cock, stopping halfway through, holding his shoulders, taking a long sigh, adjusting to the size, and then going down the rest that was out, hitting against his balls, the pink tip of his cock hit the right spot of your insides
"Ngh..." â He complained quietly, looking at the shape that formed in the belly of your small body
Sukuna's tongue kissed his teeth, making a loud noise as he felt you moving up and down like you're in an elevator
His precum made it seem as if his cock was sticking against your gelatinous walls
"Fuck 'Kuna~ Mhmmm~" â You moaned in pleasure, while Sukuna bit his lips, looking down, holding your ass and squeezing hard with his veiny hands
"Shit..." â He spoke softly, closing his eyes tightly, while putting his head back
You wiggled your hips in sloppy circles as your tits swayed up and down, the nipples visibly apparent covered by your shirt, Sukuna captured your pairs of tits, kissing them over your shirt, massaging them that seemed so so so lonely
"Mmhmm~..." â he hummed, leaving a dark stain on the fabric as he pulls your breast out of his mouth with a loud "pop!"
You smiled from ear to ear when you saw that you were pleasuring Sukuna, you held his thighs for support, rolling your eyes sensually while speeding your movements
"M-mortal... Ugh! Mortal! Cum for me!" â He corrected himself when he gives a small moan as he called you
You smiled at him, and then bit your lower lip, bouncing on Sukuna and rolling your hips, watching his reaction
"A-ah... Mmm~" - He moaned softly, putting his hands on your hips, forcing you to go faster as he felt your walls tighten on him
You felt a liquid flow inside you, as fast as the flow of a waterfall
"M'gonna cum!~ A-aaah!~" - He gasped to see that you came before him, your liquids coming out and soaking Sukuna's lap while you didn't stop moving, moaning already hoarsely, felling his cock pulsing inside you
When he finally came inside you, pressing you into his lap, throwing his hot semen all the way to your uterus
"T-that was insaaaanee~"
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Michael chuckled and sat in a nearby chair. He was obviously too tall for it, and the size difference was almost comical.
Michael: Now now, brother. Where's the fun in that? Besides, I doubt you'd hear me all the way up here.
Adam tensed as Michael's gaze shifted from Lucifer to him.
Michael: Adam. I like the new look. I had a feeling you'd be more bird like, it suits you.
Qdam: I- really? You think so?
Michael: Oh, definitely. And I see I have more nieces and nephews. I would have appreciated a card to inform me of their birth, but I don't expect such things of you anymore, Lucifer. Too used to your own company to remember anyone else.
Lucifer glared: I like to keep these things private, Michael.
Michael: Oh yes. I know. I trust the pregnancy wasn't to rough on you, Adam.
Adam: Uh- this litter was a bit bigger, so that was a struggle. But Lucifer was a big help.
Michael: As he should be. Well, now. Looking at your size, you should more than be able to carry a full litter. I'm assuming you two are far from finished populating the earth.
Lucifer: Brother, please-.
Adam: Far from it!
Michael smiled: Very good. I'm pleased to hear it. Your children are always so darling, aren't they? Now, brother. I've heard a few rumours through the grapevine I'm sure you would like to hear about.
Lucifer raised an eyebrow: Oh? What rumours?
Michael: ...Father is up to something.
Lucifer sighed: When isn't he. Is that really it, Michael?
Michael smirked: Aren't you impatient. And here I thought you'd want to know every detail and whereabouts of the man who wants to turn your children and mate into fertiliser. But no, I guess not.
Lucifer growled and crawled over to Michael, getting into his face. He rose himself to his full height, trying to intimidate his older brother.
Lucifer: Watch what you say, brother. Now, tell me what he's up to.
Michael smiled up at his brother, clearly not intimidated. Adam remembered that the first time he met Michael. As he left, his form changed into something more monstrous. It sent chills down Adam's spine just recalling it.
But he thinks there's more to Michael than he shows. He tries to appear more human, but Adam knows better. He always has an uncomfortable feeling looking at him. He's kind enough, but Adam can't help but feel there's something else just beneath the surface.
Michael: Oh, calm down before you make a fool of yourself. I believe father is planning on putting an end to your union with Adam. I've noticed a few things in the forest. The animals had disappeared a few weeks ago, like they knew something was here. Then, a few days ago, they returned.
Lucifer: How interesting, anything else?
Adam: Lu. Let him speak.
Michael: Thank you, Adam. As I was saying. A few days ago, the animals returned. Mainly deer and boars. Some rabbits. But their different. Their like a cheap mimic, and that mimic doesn't know how these animals moved or walked. I hunted a deer a day or so ago, and it attacked. It even started to change, but I killed it before that happened. It's not safe here, Lucifer. I believe father is making this location as deadly as possible, so when the time comes for him to strike, you and Adam will be outnumbered.
Adam: I'm one of you now- I can protect them, your dad shouldn't hate me now, right?
Michael sighed: I'm sorry, Adam. But father... he knows you were human. He'll see this as a mockery of our species. He's even gathering out siblings, Lucifer. Telling them lies about Adam, deadly lies. Turning them against him... Azael and Uriel are already geared up for a fight. A big one. They wouldn't tell me what was happening. It seems I've been shunned for the most part.
Lucifer: Shit... what do you suggest?
Michael: Well, that's the smartest question you've asked all year! You run, brother. Take your children, and run... but, at this stage, you'll be a danger to them.
Lucifer: I'm not leaving him.
Michael: I know. I wasn't directing that to you.
Lucifer slowly turned to Adam who was staring at Michael.
Adam: ...I'm the danger. I'm putting them in danger.
Michael: ...Unfortunately.
Monster under the bed au where Lucifer is a monster and "terrorizing" Adam?
And by terrorizing, I mean fucking. Grossly. Disgustingly.
Complete monster porn.
Oh no, are my kinks coming out again? Oh well đ
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Don't tease me with a hot au lol
Oh, what if Adam bought a new house and that's when it starts?
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You couldn't see a thing. Your eyes were covered with a blindfold and all you could sense was the dark and cold energy that was radiating in the room they kept you in. It all happened too fast to remember anything right now.
"You can't keep me here forever! If you want to loo for something or someone, I'm not the person who can help you!" You loudly said so they could hear me from the other side of the closed door. Heavy footsteps approached the room you were in and you held your breath, as you waited for what was going to happen next. Once the door opened, the steps kept walking and stepped right in front of you.
The person in front of me kneeled down. He hooks my chin with the knuckle of his pointer finger and thumb.
"Why do you keep lying sweetheart?" The heavy voice of this man gave goosebumps to your whole body. It was so familiar...
"I'm not lying! You caught the wrong person and it's so frustrating that you don't even have the courtesy to explain why-"
"Ssh" His gloved fingers touched your lips and a burned sensation appeared in your stomach.
Then you felt him standing up and walked away.
He opened the door and talked to one of his guards you assume, but you was too deep in thought to bother hearong what they were saying. All you heard was that he was going to keep you company for the night.
When he closed the door, you heard his footsteps halting in front of you.
Then his hands were unwrapping the blindfold and it took you a second to get used to the bright light in the room, before your eyes fell on the figure staring down at you.
Your eyes widened as watched your best friend crouching down to your level, a worrying expression painted on his face.
"Are you ok? Are- are you hurt?"
You were speechless for a moment before your shocked expression turned into an angry one.
"Are yoy kidding me Caleb? I- I thought you were...and now you-.. what the fuck is going on?" Your eyes were stinging as tears made their way down to your cheek. The sight broke Caleb's heart into tiny pieces and all he wanted to do was to hold you in his arms. But he knew better than crossing boundaries right now.
"Love...I know you probably hate me so much right now and it pains me so much. But I had to do what I did. They were after you and-"
"I can't believe that our...friendship was based on lies." Calbed turned pale. He was scared that now he was going to lose you for good. He knew that he had hurt you with his actions but he felt like it would've been better than seing your hurt in the hands of the people who were after him. He promised to himself that he will never let anyone or anything hurt you, and he was going to keep it that way.
"Love what we had, and what I hope we still have, was never based on lies. My feelings for you are true. You mean the world to me. I had to act cold and distant now because the rest of my team was watching. I had to somehow keep you safw by showing them you're not important to me."
"Well, apparently I'm not."
"Listen to me please!" Caleb softly grabbed your forearms.
"You are my world, you are my best friend and damn it I- I wish I was more... I want to be more because I-"
His words never left his mouth, because all he could was just staring at you. Your eyes, your hair, your nose and your...lips. Those lips that he had never got the chance to kiss them and dreamed for so long.
"Caleb?" You whispered, defeated with this fight already. You knew him. Deep down you wanted to believe that what he did was actually for your own good.
"Please..." He exhaled as his face came closer to yours.
"What?" Your eyes fell on his lips.
"Kiss me. Please kiss me love." His voice trembled with emotion and you gulped down your own sobs.
This whole situation made you realize just how much you truly meant to each other. And since it has been so long aince the last time you talked, now it was time that no more words should be exchanged. But for actions to finally speak.
Your hands cupped his cheeks and you kissed him like he was going to disappear any time soon. Like you were watching a dream and you were scared that your time was limited. You needed this as much as he did.
He moaned as he wrapped his arms around your waist, tugging you close to his warm and strong body. But Caleb interrupted your kiss by pulling away for a moment and amde you whined.
"Caleb as much as I want to talk about how stupid your decision was to keep secrets from me, now's not the time."
"I'm sorry love I just need to know if you truly want this-" you answered by kissing him more.
As you were going at it, Caleb picked you up and placed on the small office on the other side of the room. He just couldn't hold back.
When you finally pulled back, Caleb was unable to open his eyes for a few moments. It was so quiet and all you could hear was the sound of you trying catch your own breath. Caleb cupped your cheek in his palm, his thumb brushing lightly over your soft skin.
"It was you, who kept me going. You were leaving in my thoughts the whole time I was trapped in nothing but darkness. I'm not deserving of your forgiveness and I'm willing to grovel for you my love. But nothing, and I mean nothing, will ever stop this heart" he softly grabbed your hand and placed on top of where his heart beats "beating for you."
Your glassy eyes knly stared at him for a moment and then a soft smile appeared on your face, making Caleb smiled widely at the sight.
"Always you." You said as you omce again kissed him, pouring all the love you had in you into it. Even thought you spent so much time away from each other, one thing for sure is that your souls were connected. And there will never be nothing to break this connection.
I got so excited when his trailer dropped that I HAD to post something ASAP!!!!!
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Broken Doll - Chapter one
series masterlist â Chapter two
Pair: Azriel x reader, Eris x reader
Word count: 7.074
Warnings: violence, jealous boys, possessive characters, reader is not nice, Elain slander
The music muffled the chatter of your classmates, but your focus was elsewhere. It was already 7:20.
You bit your nails nervously, waiting for him. He still hadnât read your message, and he couldnât afford to be late, not on the first day of school.Â
You had math in the first period, the worst subject. Why did it have to be math on the first day of school?
You rubbed your temples, barely able to drown out the sound of your class monitor - Irina scolding Cass and Rhys, cutting through your earphones. Every year, it was the same, and every year, you wondered the same thing, how could they have so much energy, this early?
Turning away from the window, a familiar figure caught your attention.
âWhy are you moping?â Eris asked, leaning in close with that familiar, cocky grin.
His freckles had darkened over the summer, standing out against his sun-kissed skin. His amber eyes studied you intently as you slowly pulled out your earphone. He smelled of cologne and an incoming headache.
âI thought gingers could only turn red. Whose skin did you steal?â you quipped.
Erisâs smile stretched into a wide grin before he reached over and ruffled your hair.
You smacked his hand away, hissing, âFuck off!â
âYouâre just a ray of sunshine in the morning,â he teased, clearly unfazed by your temper.
âIâm happier when I donât see you,â you shot back, scowling as you tried to fix your hair. It had taken you an hour to have it the way you wanted and now this Gingerfuck had to ruin all your good work.
âHere, let me help,â he offered, leaning in with that smug grin still plastered on his face.Â
Evil fucker you seethed internally.Â
âNo,â you said firmly, grabbing his wrist before he could try anything. You locked eyes with him, raising an eyebrow as if to say, I know exactly what youâre planning, and itâs not happening.
Eris rolled his eyes dramatically and let his hand fall.
Instead of leaving, he slid into Azrielâs seat beside you, his gaze fixed on you. His usual teasing expression softened as he watched you fussing with your hair. For a moment, a small smile played on his lips.
Before you could react, his hand reached out.Â
Why did he have to annoy you so much? He knows Azriel doesnât like it when he touches you.
You turned sharply toward him, ready to snap, but he simply tucked one stray strand of hair back into place.
âThanks,â you murmured, still scowling. Fucker ruins it first and now helps.
Eris had missed you over the break, more than he wanted to admit to himself.Â
For a few seconds, you both stayed like that, looking at each other. Time seemed to stretch as you got lost in his gaze, forgetting everything else around you.Â
It was crazy how you had known each other since you were born. You went to the same elementary school, middle school, and now high school. But there was still a small possibility he would be accepted into a different Ivy League than you. The thought of seeing Eris for another couple of years was starting to make you feel nauseous.
âPlease donât follow me to college,â you said, the words slipping out before you could stop them. Your intrusive thoughts had been louder than usual, and now you regretted speaking them aloud. You immediately looked at him, hoping he wouldnât be mad.
âYou do know that youâre the stalker who follows me around, right?â Eris said, smirking as he leaned back in his chair, his eyes glinting with amusement.
âYou were born after me, remember?â Eris teased, his smirk widening.Â
âYou cried until I was in the same class as you, and then you didnât let me have other friends. You always wanted me to be your only friend.â
You felt your face heat up, your old childhood habits suddenly being revealed.Â
âEris, I was a kid, stop bringing that up.â
Eris leaned in with a mischievous glint in his eyes, his voice low. âOh, but you were so sweet back then. Always clinging to me like I was the only person in the world you trusted. And now, look at you. Still canât get enough of me, huh? What would your boyfriend think, his enemy being stalked by his girlfriend?â
But before you could deny it, the door opened, and Azriel stepped in. He was accompanied by a girl who came up to his shoulders. Her brown hair fell to her shoulders, and her big, doll-like brown eyes were fixed on Azriel as he spoke to her. When he finally looked up and saw you, a smile spread across his face.
Your boyfriend looked absolutely handsome, mouthwatering, honestly, it should have been illegal for him to walk around looking like this in the uniform. His black hair fell messily over his forehead, still damp from the shower heâd just taken. The dark blue uniform pants hugged his thighs perfectly, emphasizing every inch of his toned frame. You couldnât help but stare, your thoughts drifting somewhere they shouldnât before you caught yourself.
Eris was still watching you, and he could tell from the happy expression on your face, the one you didnât often show around him, that Azriel had arrived.Â
Azriels eyes quickly shifted to the seat Eris was in, his seat. His smile faded slowly, his jaw tightening as his eyes narrowed.
Forgetting the girl, Azriel quickly walked toward you, an annoyed expression on his face.Â
Eris stood up, slowly turning toward Azriel.
You sighed, watching the familiar tension build. They were always at each otherâs throats, never able to let anything slide.
âHi, babe,â you said, walking past Eris before leaning in to kiss Azriel on the cheek. His warmth engulfed you, he smelled of leather and cedar. He kissed the crown of your head before glaring at Eris again.
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Azriel had arrived just before the bell rang, but now you feared both of them were on the verge of beating each other again. You did not need a repeat of last year.
Leaning forward, you were about to intervene.
Irina suddenly stepped between them, clapping her hands loudly.
âTry fighting again, and I might kill you both. Donât test me,â she warned, cutting off any chance of Erisâs snarky remarks. Then, glancing over her shoulder, she glared at Cassian and Rhys, who were still making noises in the front, oblivious to the tension in the back.
 âSit down, both of you! I donât want to explain again how you two monkeys got into a fight!â
Both of them listened to her, knowing any backtalk would ensure that their coach would find out and that they would bench out on some games.
Irina walked toward the new girl, greeting her.
Eris nodded, moving toward his seat right behind you. You sighed in relief as Azriel slung his shoulder bag next to the table and plopped down into his seat, still a little annoyed that he had to see Eris first thing in the morning.
Eris, never one to shut up, added, âAlso, weâre coming over today.â
You turned in your seat, confused. âWhat?â
âYeah, my parents want to have dinner with yours because of the deal theyâve sealed,â he explained casually.
âOh, great,â you muttered, though you couldnât hide the surprise.
âYou should look happier to see me again. There are girls whoâd kill for this chance,â Eris teased, grinning at you.
Azriel coughed, loudly.Â
Eris ignored him completely, still smiling at you. You shook your head, silently telling him not to add anything else to the conversation.
A few seconds later the new girl walked up to Eris, her big eyes on him as she asked, âIs this seat taken?â
âYes,â Eris replied without looking up from his phone, ignoring her completely.
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Your face must have betrayed you, giving away your disbelief at his blatant lie.Â
She turned bright red, embarrassed by his obvious lie and glanced at Azriel.Â
You gave her a soft smile and pointed toward the front.
âThere is a seat free next to the guy with the black hair. His nameâs Calix.â
She thanked you quietly, then quickly glanced at Azriel again before heading toward the front.
The bell rang, and just as everyone settled into their seats, your Math teacher walked in, signaling the start of the lesson.
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âAzriel, you need to explain this to me, I donât understand it,â you whined, frustrated as you stared at the page of notes in front of you. Math was the one subject you couldnât quite wrap your head around, no matter how hard you tried. Luckily, Azriel and sometimes even Eris stepped in to help.
âSure,â he replied casually, packing the heavy books into his bag. After the last person left the room and it was just the two of you now. He slung his bag over his shoulder, he leaned in closer, kissing your forehead. You were thankful he was this affectionate, his thumb brushing over your cheek.
 âYouâve got a little something right here,â he said with a grin.Â
You blushed deeply, the intensity in his hazel eyes made your heart race. His thumb lightly brushed your upper lip, and your eyes fluttered shut, your breath catching as the moment seemed to linger in the air.
He gently cupped your face, his breath catching as he leaned in, his lips softly pressing against yours. He kissed you slowly and softly, his touch slow and tender.
The initial sweetness of the kiss deepened as you tilted your chin, a silent plea for more.Â
You gasped as you both couldnât ignore the hunger and need. His hands found their way to your waist, pulling your body into his. The world outside disappeared, it was only you two.
Your hand rested on his chest, slowly trailing upward until it tangled in his hair. When you gave it a gentle tug, he groaned, the deep sound vibrating through his chest and against your body. You clung to him, breathing him in, the familiar scent of leather and cedar stirring something warm inside you.
It was hard to believe there had been a time when this was just a distant dream, and now here you were, kissing him for real.Â
Before you two could go any further, Irina interrupted, slamming the door open and standing in the doorway.Â
âYou two!â she shouted, making you and Azriel jump apart.Â
âNo fucking in here,â she added, her Finger pointing accusingly at both of you.Â
Azriel and you blushed, quickly moving apart. Trying to explain yourselves you both stuttered.
She waved her hand dismissing your explanation, she looked unsurprised at catching the two of you making out, but there was stress written all over her face. Her ash brown hair was tied messy, and her uniform was disheveled, like she had just been in a rush. It was as if she had run straight here.
âNow get out. I need to lock the room,â Irina ordered, her tone leaving no room for argument.
You both scrambled to gather your things and quickly walked out, hoping she wouldnât lock you in if you took to long, something she definitely would do if given the chance.Â
You and Azriel couldnât meet her eyes, shame written all over your faces.
âWait a minute,â she said sharply before either of you could make a break for it.Â
Azrielâs grip on your hand tightened, his whole body tense, bracing himself for yet another scolding.
She took a deep breath as she adjusted her disheveled uniform and smoothed her hair as she spoke.
âCoach wants to see you, something about the games and your scholarship.â
Azrielâs eyes widened slightly. âDid he look angry?â he asked cautiously.
âNo, he looked happy as a clam.â
Azriel exhaled in relief, his shoulders relaxing.
âAlso, Y/N,â she added, turning to you, âMiss Norton wants to see you about the upcoming art exhibition. Congratulations your art was accepted. You are the last person that had been addedâ
Azriel smiled brightly, pulling you into a hug. âYou did it,â he whispered, his voice filled with pride. âI told you there was nothing to worry about. Your art is too great to not be exhibited â
You felt your cheeks warm, blushing slightly at his words.
He leaned in to kiss you, and you returned it softly, but then gently pushed him away as your eyes darted to Irina. âSorry,â you mumbled, feeling a bit awkward under her blank, unreadable stare.
âNo worries,â Irina said a slight corner of her lips quirked up.
 âIâm glad you got in. Miss Norton and Calix spoke highly of your art.â
You blinked, surprised, warmth spreading through you. That was probably the nicest thing she had ever said to you.
âI better go before I get another scolding,â he said, quickly kissing you on the cheek.
Irina looked at you and you waved before walking toward the art room, the path opposite from Azriel.
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Standing at the same spot, Irina took a deep breath before calling out, âEris, come out. I know youâre there.â
Eris stepped out from behind the pillar he had been hiding behind, his face slightly flushed.
âItâs not what it looks like,â he mumbled, meeting her sharp gaze, with his own.
âYou mean stalking the girl you have a crush on and watching her kiss her boyfriend, who happens to be your arch nemesis?â she shot back, crossing her arms.
âWho said I have a crush on her?â he retorted quickly. âSheâs-â
Irina cut him off, her tone firm. â I see the way you look at her. Both of them. And I see how you watch Azriel too.â Her eyes narrowed, and her voice dropped into a warning. âJust a heads-up if you have another conflict with Azriel, Coach is going to kick you off the team. Youâve been causing him way too much trouble, and so has Azriel. Donât make things worse.â
Eris looked away, his jaw tightening, but he didnât argue. Irina gave him one last pointed glance before turning and walking off, leaving him standing there in silence.
Eris wasnât a pervert he had been there because he needed to know, needed to test the theory if he really had feelings for you. Heâd read more than once that jealousy was the clearest sign of feelings like the ones he thought he might have. And he did get jealous, it was the only time he would admit to himself that he was envious of Azriel.
He was jealous of the way you looked at Azriel, the way your eyes softened for him in a way they never did for anyone else. He was jealous of the way you kissed him, how you would let him touch you and the way you naturally leaned into his body like he was the only pillar you could lean on.
But what haunted him most were the sounds you made, soft, breathless, completely yours and the maddening thought of what sounds youâd make for him.
Would they be the same?
Or would they be even sweeter?
The questions twisted inside him, they burned like a fire he wasnât sure he wanted to put out.
He was plagued by dreams of you for a few moths now, dreams so vivid they felt like memories of a life he could never have. He dreamed of you as his wife, your laughter filling the air as you leaned in to kiss him, your touch soft and familiar. He dreamed of a child, a daughter with your eyes and your smile, who looked up at him with unconditional love, something he had yet to experience.
He didnât know where this was coming from. Sure, heâd always been attracted to you, your confidence, your wit, the way you carried yourself, but this?
This was something entirely different. It wasnât just attraction anymore, he could say it was an obsession. You had rooted yourself in his mind and no matter how hard he tried to push the thoughts away, they kept returning, stronger than before.
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You walked in silence, feeling a bit nervous as you approached the art room. The closer you got, the worse the feeling in your belly became. It twisted and churned, a mix of unease and anticipation that you couldnât shake. Something was wrong, you could feel it, even if you couldnât explain why.Â
Before you could open the door it swung open, you were greeted by a wild-eyed Calix, who stood in front of you, his black eyes so dark and angry.
âGood, youâre here,â he said quickly, his voice tense. You were confused.Â
What is happening?
Stepping in, you watched as Miss Norton smiled warmly at the new girl, laughing loudly at something she had said. She absentmindedly rubbed the new girls shoulder. When she noticed the two of you standing there, her eyes quickly shifted to you.
âOh, thank God youâre here,â she said, adjusting her glasses.
âIâve got some great news for the exhibition, but let me first introduce my guest,â Miss Norton began, her excitement evident, ignoring the angry look from Calix.Â
She gestured to the girl beside her.
âThis is Elain Archeron.â
The girl gave a shy smile, her big brown eyes never leaving yours.Â
She blushed deeply as Miss Norton continued, âBefore Elain switched schools her artwork was kind of famous I would like to display it at the upcoming exhibition.â
âMiss Norton this is impossible!â Calix interrupted, his voice sharp. He clearly wasnât amused or excited about the news. Your expression was a mix of confusion and frustration, as you glanced between Elain and Miss Norton.Â
You were equally shocked. Everything had been organized over the summer, and if you were accepted, everyone already had their spot.Â
Miss Norton then turned to you, saying, âYN, youâll need to share your corner with Elain , as you have submitted your art last.â
Calix spoke up, his tone firm. âIâm sorry, Miss Norton, but Elainâs art is way more different than the pieces that are meant to be presented for the exhibition.â
You felt your cheeks heat with anger.
How could she do that? You had worked hard on your own art, and now you had to share your spot with someone who wasnât even part of the original selection.Â
Miss Norton turned red, clearly flustered by the unexpected critique.
âWe can make an exception this time, it would be a good idea to introduce her like this to the school,â she suggested, trying to smooth things over.
Calix chuckled frustrated, shaking his head, before fixing Miss Norton with a sharp, unwavering gaze.
The room fell into silence Calixsâs anger was evident to everyone by the way he huffed and puffed, he usually was quiet and kind, never one easily to anger.Â
âI donât see why you are so angry Calix I decide who is to display their art and I donât think y/n minds sharing her spot. Right y/n? âÂ
You couldnât help but stare at her. Was she even right in the head?
How bold of Elain to take over your half of the space without a second thought and how could she speak to Calix like that?
He was the one who had to organize, book, print, and handle so much more work, work that she conveniently left for him while she lounged around like it wasnât her responsibility. The audacity left a bitter taste in your mouth.
Calix answered for you. âSheâs not okay. Nobody would be if things were changed last minute. Miss Norton, there are other exhibitions she can be a part of.â
âCalix, my word is final,â Norton said firmly, her tone leaving no room for argument. âNothing is going to change my opinion.â
You caught the subtle quirk of Elainâs lips, a self-satisfied smirk that made your stomach twist. You had thought sheâd just been dragged into this mess. But now it seemed she was far more of a bitch than youâd initially believed. That smug look on her face, the way she seemed to revel in the chaos, it was clear she wasnât as harmless as youâd assumed.
âAnd now you two leave,â Norton continued, her sharp gaze cutting through you both. âI didnât call you here to hear your opinions.â
Without another word, you followed Calix out, swallowing down your frustration.Â
As soon as the door closed behind you, you let out the breath you hadnât realized you were holding.
âYou saw her smirk too, right?â Calix asked, his voice low with irritation.
You nodded, still fuming. âIs her art really that good?â you asked, needing to know if there was any justification for the favoritism.
âItâs good,â he admitted, but then added quickly, âbut I still think yours is a way better fit, if thatâs what youâre worried about.â He said taking out a cigarette to smoke.
His words soothed you a little, but the tension in your chest didnât entirely fade. Elainâs smug expression was burned into your mind, and you couldnât shake the feeling that this wasnât the end of it.
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You cried a little in the bathroom, the frustration of it all finally catching up to you. How could this even happen? It felt so unfair.
Once you stopped crying, you stepped out of the stall, dried your mascara-streaked cheeks, and carefully fixed your makeup. The process was almost therapeutic, and by the time you were done, you felt a little better, lighter, even. Your eyes were still slightly red, but a few drops of eyedrops worked their magic.
Grabbing your bag, you packed up your things and made your way to French class, feeling a bit more composed, ready to face the day again.
You were eager to tell Azriel and your friends what had just happened.
As you opened the door, the sound of laughter spilled out. Mor, Cassian, Rhys, and Azriel were gathered inside, chatting with her, Elain.
You stopped in your tracks as soon as you saw her, Elain, sitting in your seat next to Azriel, her fingers lightly brushing against his arm while laughing.Â
What the hell was she doing there? It was supposed to be your spot, your place next to him, and now she was acting like it was all hers.
âHi,â you greeted the others, deliberately ignoring Elain as you placed your bag on the table in front of her, where her things were already spread out. Morriganâs eyes met yours instantly, and without saying a word, you both understood-later. She could tell something was off.
Azriel, oblivious to the tension, immediately grabbed you into his lap, kissing you softly before nuzzling into your neck. His hand rested gently on your waist, pulling you even closer, as if he felt your need for his warmth and to ease any unease.
â Now I miss Emory,â Morrigan said with a wistful smile, her voice light but her gaze still focused on you.
âIf you havenât met her, this is Elain,â Azriel said, gesturing toward the bitch with a small smile. âSheâs new and the reason I was late this morning.â
You shot Elain a sharp smile. âWe already met,â you said, your voice cool and laced with tension.
Elain met your glare with one of her own, not backing down. The two of you locked eyes, a silent battle brewing between you, neither willing to yield.
Cassian and Rhys sat next to each other, completely dumbfounded. They exchanged confused glances, clearly caught off guard by the strange atmosphere between you and Elain. They were unsure of what had happened to cause such an icy atmosphere.
Morrigan, sensing the tension and eager to defuse it, chuckled and said, âI donât think Cassian told you about his crush, guys.â
Cassianâs face immediately turned red, his eyes widening as he shot Morrigan a look of disbelief. You and Rhys burst out laughing, while Azriel raised an eyebrow in amusement, completely oblivious to the situation that had just unfolded.
âOh, here we go,â Rhys said between laughs, nudging Cassian. âThis ought to be good.â
Cassian groaned, running a hand through his hair. âYou better not say a word, Morrigan.â
But Morrigan only grinned, clearly enjoying every second of his discomfort. âOh, Iâm not saying a thing. But maybe someone should tell us who this mysterious crush is?â She shot a teasing look at Cassian.
Cassian leaned back and laced his hands behind his head. âWell, I have someone in mind.â
âWhoâs the poor woman?â you teased, the others chuckling along.
Cassian smirked but didnât answer. âNot gonna tell you. Youâll just see me kiss her, and then youâll know.â
âItâs probably Irina,â Azriel said with a smirk, glancing at Cassian.
âThatâs why you keep annoying her,â you added, high-fiving Azriel as you shot Cassian a teasing grin.
Cassianâs face turned a deeper shade of red, and he groaned, burying his face in his hands.
âYou two are the worst,â he muttered, but the laughter from the group only made it worse.
Morrigan grinned, âYou could just ask her on a date instead of annoying her. Weâre 18, Cass, not 6.â
Rhys smirked and added, âGuys, heâs already planned their future together.â
Cassianâs face turning an even deeper shade of red as he threw his hands up in frustration.
âIâm not planning anything!â he protested.
Azriel chuckled, watching his friend squirm. âMaybe itâs time you stop talking about it and actually do something about it, Cass. It worked when I did. â
You kissed his cheek.
Cassian sighed dramatically, slouching in his chair. âYou guys are the worst.â
Elain smiled at Cassian, her voice saccharine. âShe probably will like you. Youâre so nice and funny, who wouldnât like you?â
Cassian awkwardly muttered, âThanks,â clearly flustered by the attention.
Morrigan and you exchanged a look. Rhys caught it too, his smirk widening as he picked up on the tension, he enjoyed the drama. You glanced at your watch, realizing you only had two minutes before your next lesson.
âElain,â you said, your voice calm but firm, âCould you sit somewhere else? Iâd like to sit next to my boyfriend.â
You knew she couldnât refuse without drawing attention. With a quiet sigh, Elain gathered her things and wandered aimlessly, asking people around the room if she could sit next to them. You watched as Elainâs face turned red, her cheeks burning with embarrassment as she awkwardly searched for a place to sit.Â
She looked flustered, rejected by the group she had so confidently tried to insert herself into. It felt satisfying, seeing her brought down a notch. She deserved it after everything, the smug looks, the attitude, the way sheâd tried to claim space that wasnât hers and the way she dared to touch your Boyfriend.
She finally plopped down next to Irina, who shot a quick, knowing look at Calix. It seemed she was told about what had happened.
You settled down next to Azriel, feeling a small sense of relief wash over you.
He was blissfully unaware of the silent victory unfolding in your head. You couldnât help the small smirk tugging at your lips, one that Morrigan mirrored.
But you knew a snake like her would strike again.
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School finally ended, you and your group strolled out of the school together, the sun still high in the sky. You were lingering by the gates, waiting for Azriel to finish his advanced chemistry class so you could drive home.
As you leaned against the railing, you told your friends what had happened.
âDamn,â Rhys said, shaking his head. âSeems like youâve got an enemy.â
âAnd youâre sure you didnât know her before?â he added, raising an eyebrow.
âNo, Rhys, I didnât,â you replied with a sigh.
âSheâs a bitch,â Morrigan declared flatly, arms crossed as she leaned against the wall.
âMmh,â Cassian muttered absentmindedly, his attention focused elsewhere. He was turned slightly away from the group, scanning the area, searching.
âYou searching for Irina?â Morrigan teased.
Cass ignored her and frowned instead. âSince when are Eris and Irina friends?â
âHuh?â you all turned toward the gate at his words.
There she was, Irina, walking and talking with Eris. The two seemed friendly with eachother, their laughter carried by the breeze. Irina playfully shoved him and Eris, for once, didnât look annoyed. Instead, he spoke with animated gestures, his face lit up in a way you rarely saw.
It was so different from the usual guarded, cold demeanor he wore like armor. Both of them were at ease, carefree, and it stirred something unfamiliar in your chest. A tug, faint but undeniable, made your stomach twist slightly.
You couldnât look away, even as you told yourself it didnât matter. It wasnât your concern. And yet, the sight of them laughing together lingered in the back of your mind.
You swallowed hard, trying to ignore the strange feeling. Why did seeing him like that with her bother you so much?
âBabe,â Azriel called, breaking through your thoughts.
âHuh?â you blinked, realizing heâd been trying to get your attention.
âI called you multiple times. Letâs go,â he said, his voice clipped as he grabbed your hand, leading you toward the car.
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After dropping off the others one by one, the car grew quiet, almost uncomfortably so. It was just you and Azriel now.
He hadnât spoken much the entire ride, only offering polite nods or brief words as he said goodbye to your friends.Â
You stared out the window at the passing scenery, but your mind wandered back to the earlier scene with Eris and Irina. Something about it still lingered in your chest.
Azrielâs silence, however, soon pulled your attention. You turned to look at him, taking in his features, the sharp angle of his nose, the perfect bow of his lips, the long dark lashes that framed his striking hazel eyes, and the dark curls that fell messily over his forehead. He was gorgeous, as always, but it wasnât his looks that drew your focus.
His posture was tense, his knuckles white as he gripped the steering wheel, and his jaw ticked with barely restrained frustration.
He was angry.
âAz?â you asked softly, breaking the silence. âWhatâs wrong?â
He didnât answer right away, his lips pressing into a firm line as if he was weighing his words. The tension in the air was thick, and it made your heart race in uncertainty.
âNothing,â Azriel muttered.
âPlease, did something happen?â you pressed, your voice soft but insistent.
He shook his head, his jaw tightening as he pulled the car over to the side of the road. Turning to face you, his hazel eyes burned with emotion. âWhy did you stare at Eris like that?â
You froze for a moment. He noticed. Shit.
âBecause of Irina,â you explained quickly. âHe was talking to Irina, and Cassian asked if they were friends. Thatâs why.â
Azriel stared at you, his expression unreadable. He was clearly thinking it over. You reached out and took his hand in yours, squeezing gently.
âAzriel, I only love you. You know that, right?â
He sighed, but the tension in his shoulders didnât ease. âI just donât like the way you two are so close. Itâs hard to ignore.â
You shook your head, your voice firm yet reassuring. âAzriel, I wish I could avoid talking to him altogether, but our parents are close. His mom has even slept over at our house before, our dads golf together and our Brothers are in the same clubs. I donât like it either, how he talks about you, or our relationship. Heâs arrogant, obnoxious, and so damn annoying.â You paused, your lips quirking up into a small smirk.
âI only love you. You donât have to worry about the ginger.â
Azriel let out a laugh at that, a genuine sound that made your chest warm. You watched the way his Adamâs apple bobbed as he chuckled, and your breath caught. He was stunning when he laughed, his worry fading away.Â
He noticed you staring, his lips curving into a shy smile. âWhat?â
âCan I kiss you?â you asked, your voice soft.
Azriel nodded, his cheeks slightly pink.Â
You leaned in, brushing your lips against his, and the kiss deepened quickly. His hand slid to the back of your neck, pulling you closer.
It grew hotter, more intense, as his free hand gripped your waist, and your fingers tangled in his hair.
You pulled away from the kiss, and Azriel let out a low whine. It wasnât a sound you heard often, and it sent a shiver through you. His hand bunched the fabric of your white shirt, pulling you closer as he tried to capture your lips again. Both of you were breathless, his lips glistening with spit, and his eyes locked onto your mouth.
âAzriel, wait,â you managed, gently pushing him back.
He ignored your words, instead dipping down to press kisses along your neck. You gasped softly but pushed his hard chest.
âNo hickeys, Az. I have to see my parents later.â
He groaned in protest, biting down lightly but just hard enough to make you gasp again. âAzriel,â you warned, your tone sharper now.
Suddenly, a thought struck you. âAzriel, is your mom home?â
He stilled, lifting his head to look at you. âNo,â he said slowly, his brow furrowing. âWhy?â
âWhen will she be back?â you asked, brushing your fingers gently through his hair.
âAbout six,â he replied, still confused. âWhy?â
âThink, baby,â you said, caressing his scalp, your voice teasing but patient.
It took a moment, but realization dawned on him. His eyes widened slightly. âOh.â
You nodded with a playful smirk. âYes, Azriel. We can go to yours for a few hours.â
His lips twitched into a grin, and he leaned in to kiss your cheek as you laughed.Â
He drove, his excitement now focused on getting home before the clock ran out.
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You were late. Stupid, stupid, stupid.Â
How could you forget?
Your mom had called you multiple times, you knew you were in trouble. Thankfully, your sister had covered for you, telling your parents you were at the library.
Slipping into the house as quietly as possible through the back door, you silently crept upstairs.
From the hallway, you could hear your father and Erisâs father laughing loudly downstairs.
Your heart raced as you tiptoed toward your room, opening the door slowly and shutting it behind you with a soft click.
You turned around and nearly screamed.
There, sitting at your desk, was Eris. His long legs, in black pants, stretched out comfortably as he leaned back in your chair, a painting of yours held delicately in his hands.
His golden-red hair caught the faint light from the desk lamp, but his amber eyes were focused on the artwork.
âEris, what the fuck are you doing here?â you hissed, your voice low to avoid drawing attention. Fucking psycho! How did he get in? Why was he even here?
He didnât respond right away. He held one of your more personal pieces, a ballerina staring at her reflection in a broken mirror. Her red, tear-filled eyes glared back at herself, mascara and tears streaking down her face. Bound in her hair were white feathers. Immense rage in her expression. It was a piece that helped you remember your pain and how far youâd push yourself to reach perfection.
âItâs beautiful,â Eris whispered, his voice softer than youâd ever heard.
Your heart hammered in your chest, faster than before. âPut it down,â you said, though your tone lacked conviction.
âIs it you?â he asked, finally looking up at you.
âYes,â you admitted hesitantly.
Eris turned the painting back to study it for a moment before meeting your gaze again. There was something in his eyes, something vulnerable, something you didnât expect.
âYouâre incredible,â he said, his voice so soft it almost didnât register.Â
For a moment, you forgot to breathe. The words were simple, but the way he said them, the sincerity in his tone, made your chest tighten.
No one had ever said that to you before, not about your art. Azriel hyped you up sometimes, but mostly saw it like your parents, a silly hobby you could enjoy to keep you entertained. Even Miss Norton had pushed you away for Elain and saw it less then hers.Â
But art was more than that, it was a lifeline for you, it was like a diary where you expressed your emotions.
You never showed anyone your personal pieces, not even Azriel. This painting, raw and emotional, was yours alone - until now.
Licking your dry lips, you asked, âHow did you get in here?â
Getting up, his hands casually shoved into his pockets, Eris began to walk toward you. One hand slid out to push his hair back before ruffling it slightly. He chuckled softly under his breath, a sound low enough to unnerve you.
It was the quick shift in his demeanour, the way he was always unpredictable, it made your stomach tighten.
Even as you took a step back, he didnât stop. His strides were slow but purposeful, his presence quickly filling the space until your back hit the wall.
Your heart raced, but you tilted your chin up, meeting his sharp gaze head-on. You straightened up, you werenât afraid, it was your house after all, he could not intimidate you.
âI opened the door,â he said simply, as if it were the most natural, normal thing in the world.
You scoffed. âWhy?â
âI wanted to see the reason,â he said, his voice low and deliberate. âThe reason why your art is tucked away in some insignificant little corner if itâs not worth looking at.â
He lightly tugged at a strand of hair that had fallen in your face. Your jaw clenched, the anger bubbling beneath your skin. Every instinct was telling you to punch him, to push him away.
Before you could react, his hand brushed your throat.
Eris didnât seem fazed, his gaze still locked on you, unblinking. He smirked slightly, clearly enjoying the way he riled you up.
âBut,â he continued, softly brushing against of your neck, âit turns out itâs the best Iâve ever seen from any artist. Way better than that Archeron kidâs work.â
Your eyes widened as you grabbed his wrist, your pulse hammering beneath his palm. His tenderness was a stark contrast to the way he spoke to you and watched you. It was as if he was trying to see every emotion, every reaction from you, how far you would let him go. It was too intimate.
It made your head spin, he was testing your boundaries, and the next, his touch was almost considerate.Â
It left you feeling unsettled, confused, angry at how easily he seemed to have the upper hand, how easily he could shift the power dynamic, the way he asserted control.
âHow do you know about that?â you demanded, your voice barely above a whisper.
âIrina,â he said simply, smirking.
Of course. Thatâs why he was talking to her. He probably already knew about Cassians little crush on her and thats why he made her laugh for him.Â
Manipulative fuck
âBut donât worry,â he murmured, his thumb still stroking the sensitive skin of your throat. âIâll take care of it.â
âWhat?â you asked, confused and uneasy. His words sounded more like a threat than reassurance.
âEris, what do you mean?â you demanded.
âDonât worry about that,â he said, his smirk deepening.
âWorry about the marks your boyfriend left.â
Your heart skipped as his grip on your throat tightened ever so slightly. The room seemed to shrink around you, his intense stare rooting you in place.
Erisâ gaze darkened, he leaned in closer, his breath warm against your lips.
âMaybe you should Take a shower before your parents get suspicious of why you smell like that,â he said, his tone a little too sharp.
âYou wouldnât want them to find out about what youâve been up to, would you?â
You clenched your jaw at his words, irritation bubbling inside you. âDonât worry about me. Take care of your own issues. Iâll handle mine.â
âYouâre so cute when youâre angry,â he taunted, pushing you further over the edge.
Without thinking, you slapped him hard. His head snapped to the side, his cheek turning bright red, and the sting of the slap echoed in the air.
Furious, you slapped him again, pushing him backward until he fell onto your bed. You crawled over him, straddling his waist as you glared down at him.
âWhy do you keep pushing me, Eris?â you spat, your voice low and tense.
âWhy do you always make fun of me or threaten me? What do you gain from it? Iâm not a toy, and Iâm not scared of you.â
You placed your hands on his throat, the anger in your chest burning hotter. But before you knew it, he had pinned you beneath him. His body pressed between your soft thighs, your skirt pushed up around your waist, and all you could feel was his weight, his part touching another and the heat of his breath against you lips.
You were beyond furious now, you pushed him again. Your hands gripped his shirt, your nails digging into the fabric. You heard the fabric rip as you tugged harder, buttons were flying, you were unable to stop yourself. You scratched him leaving red marks on his chest.Â
He grunted, his eyes narrowed, his posture shifting to overpower you. You fought back, not willing to give an inch, your breath coming in sharp bursts.
The confrontation had escalated, your bodies tumbled down. His hand gripped your wrists, his touch firm as he tried to gain control, but you werenât backing down.
âI wonât be treated like this,â you spat, words dripping with anger.
He stared at you, lips curled in a mocking half-smile. âYou think Iâm the problem here?â
âI donât care what you think anymore.â
His grip on you tightened as he leaned in, pushing his hips into yours from behind, his voice low and controlled. âYou started this, not me.â
Before you could headbutt him, the door suddenly swung open. Both of your parents stood there, frozen in shock, their eyes wide. Both of your mothers gasping loudly, the sound of it echoing through the room.
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for the new event! ~ đ« & đŠ with barou please!
a barou shoei blueberry sundae :)
àȘââĄâčïœĄÂ° last ones out
⥠a/n â for my more than a married couple event :) - masterlist -
⥠word count â 1.3k
⥠content â barou shoei x gn! reader, gn! reader, one bed trope, mentions of barou's sisters, reader calls barou king once, very respectful barou, reader confesses, i have barou blush a lot idk why
⥠synopsis â who knew a broken bed could lead to you building a great wall of china of pillows just so barou shoei can have a place to sleep comfortably.
Barou Shoei was prideful to a fault.
That much became glaringly obvious within the first week of the marriage simulation.
When his bed frame broke on the third night, you could tell he didnât want to admit it was a problem. Heâd barely mentioned it, brushing it off like it wasnât a big deal.
âIâll sleep on the floor,â he said, arms crossed as if daring you to challenge him.
âYou canât just sleep on the floor, Barou. We have a couch, at leastââ
âToo small,â he interrupted, glancing disdainfully at the tiny loveseat in the corner. âIâll manage.â
You stared at him, incredulous. âFor a whole week? Until the landlord gets it fixed?â
Barouâs jaw tightened. âItâs fine. I donât need anything else.â
You wanted to argue, but you could see the stubborn set of his shoulders, the way he stood firm like this was some kind of test of willpower.
Still, you hated the thought of him waking up sore and miserable every day.
âYou could...â The words came out before you could second-guess them. âYou could stay in my bed. Just until your bed gets fixed.â
Barouâs eyes snapped to yours, wide and disbelieving. âWhat?â
âYou heard me,â you said, trying to sound casual even as your heart raced. âWe can put a pillow wall between us. Itâs not a big deal.â
He stared at you for a long moment, his lips pressed into a thin line.
âNo,â he said firmly, shaking his head. âI canât do that.â
âWhy not? Itâs just a bed.â
âItâs not just a bed!â he snapped, his voice louder than heâd intended. He sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose before muttering, âIâd never let a man sleep in my sistersâ beds. No matter the reason.â
The comparison caught you off guard.
âThis is different,â you said softly. âWeâre partners for this simulation, remember? Itâs not like Iâm asking you to stay forever. Just until your roomâs fixed.â
Barou hesitated, his gaze flickering to the couch again. You could see the conflict in his eyes, the way his pride and practicality were warring with each other.
He was too proud to admit that sleeping on the floor was a bad idea, but he also didnât want to impose.
After what felt like an eternity, he sighed.
âFine,â he muttered, not meeting your gaze. âBut only until my bedâs fixed.â
The first night was painfully awkward.
Barou lay stiff as a board on his side of the bed, his arms pinned to his sides like he was bracing for battle. The pillow wall youâd built between you felt more symbolic than functional, but it seemed to put him at ease.
You watched him out of the corner of your eye, wondering if heâd ever relax.
âAre you always this tense?â you teased lightly, trying to break the ice.
âShut up,â he grumbled, turning his back to you. âIâm trying to sleep.â
You bit back a smile, settling into your own side of the bed.
It wasnât much, but it was a start.
By the third night, things had loosened upâslightly.
Barou wasnât quite as stiff, though he still stuck to his side of the bed with military precision. He even helped you rebuild the pillow wall after you accidentally knocked it over in your sleep.
âYouâre lucky I didnât kick you out,â he muttered, his tone gruff but not unkind.
âSure, King,â you teased, earning a rare, faint smirk from him.
Everything changed on the fifth morning.
You woke up to the sun streaming through the curtains, the warmth of something solid and heavy draped over your body.
It took you a moment to realize what it was.
Barouâs arm was slung over your waist, his face buried in the crook of your neck. His deep, even breathing tickled your skin, and you froze, unsure of what to do.
The pillow wall had disappeared at some point during the night, leaving you tangled together like it had never existed.
You glanced over your shoulder, your heart racing as you took in the rare softness of his expression. Asleep, he looked...different. Peaceful, almost.
But then he stirred, his eyes blinking open.
The realization hit him like a freight train.
âShitââ He scrambled back, his face a brilliant shade of red. âWhat the hell?â
âIâI donât know!â you stammered, sitting up quickly. âYou mustâve rolled over or something.â
Barou looked away, running a hand through his hair as he muttered something under his breath.
âIt doesnât matter,â he said finally, his voice gruff. âJust...forget it happened.â
But you couldnât forgetânot the warmth of his touch, not the way your heart had fluttered in those fleeting moments.
The incident was never brought up again, but it lingered between you like an unspoken truth.
Barou was quieter after that morning, more thoughtful in a way that made your chest ache. Heâd return to his usual gruffness quickly enough, but there was something different in the way heâd look at you sometimesâa flicker of hesitation, as though he was holding back something he couldnât quite say.
It wasnât until the end of the simulation, as you both stood in the now-empty apartment, packing up the last of your things, that he finally broke the silence.
âSorry,â he muttered abruptly, his voice low.
You glanced up, confused. âFor what?â
His shoulders stiffened as he avoided your gaze. He rubbed the back of his neck, clearly uncomfortable. âFor... that morning.â
It didnât take much to know what he was referring to. You remembered it tooâthe way youâd woken up tangled together, the pillow wall nowhere in sight.
âItâs okay,â you said, offering him a small smile. âI didnât mindââ
âThatâs the problem!â he cut you off, his voice sharper than he intended. His face flushed red, and he turned away, unable to look at you. âI shouldnât haveâ Itâs like Iââ He struggled to find the words, frustration lacing his tone. âI pushed myself onto you.â
âBarou.â You stepped closer, your voice firm enough to make him stop. âYou didnât push yourself onto me.â
He opened his mouth to argue, but you cut him off, your heart hammering as you said, âI liked it.â
That made him freeze.
He stared at you like youâd just said something incredibly stupid, his dark eyes wide and disbelieving.
âWhat?â
You swallowed hard, willing yourself to keep going. âI liked it,â you repeated, softer this time. âI liked being close to you. I...â You took a deep breath, your hands trembling slightly. âI like you, Barou. I have for a while. And I donât want this to just be a simulation. I want us to be real.â
The silence that followed felt deafening.
Barouâs face turned pink, his lips parting as though he wanted to say something but couldnât quite find the words. When he finally spoke, his voice was gruff, almost defensive.
âYouâre so stupid,â he muttered, rubbing a hand over his face to hide the faint blush creeping up his cheeks.
You blinked, taken aback. âWhatââ
âStupid,â he repeated, shaking his head as he glanced at you. His expression softened just slightly, his tone losing some of its edge. âYouâre putting up with me. Saying stuff like that... What the hell am I supposed to do with you?â
You couldnât help the small smile tugging at your lips. âYou could start by saying yes.â
Barou exhaled sharply, his gaze darting away again. His ears were tinted pink now, but he didnât argue.
âYeah, fine,â he muttered finally, shoving his hands into his pockets. âWeâll try it. But donât blame me if you get sick of me, got it?â
You laughed softly, stepping closer to brush your hand against his. âI donât think thatâll happen.â
For a moment, Barou didnât move, but then, with a quiet sigh, his hand wrapped around yours, his grip firm and warm.
âDonât make me regret this,â he said, his voice low but sincere.
âYou wonât,â you promised, your smile widening as you squeezed his hand.
And for the first time, Barou Shoei let himself believe that maybe, just maybe, this was something worth holding on to.
i love him so much someone sedate me
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SVT Social Media AU Fic Recsᥣđ© Part III
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Main Recs Masterlist
âŁPart I // Part II // Part III
MINORS DNI!!!!!!!
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Choi Seungcheol
âThe Way Backâ by @suhnshinehaos
Gn!reader || rapper x actor, angst, fluff, some humour ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:fans reminisce on your relationship with seungcheol
Kwon Soonyoung
âLet Me Hear You Sayâ by @cherrycheolliesc
Fem!reader || YouTuber au, friends to enemies to lovers, comedy, angst, fluff ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:after not seeing each other for years, Yn is ecstatic when she finds out all of her friends will finally be in the same place at one time. but unfortunately an unwanted situation turns a 12 year friendship into hateful relationship between yn and soonyoung. as things grow sour between them, their group gets tired of it and tries to fix things.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âThe Roomieâ by @zo-byeol
Fem!reader || roommates au, fluff ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:kwon soonyoung and his friends need a roommate. (y/n) just got evicted. It sounds simple enough, but really, is anything ever simple?
Jeon Wonwoo
âTo My Youthâ by @viastro
Fem!reader || love alarm inspired au, slice of life, fluff, humour, angst ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:in a world where everyone finds out who loves them within a 10 meter radius through the app love alarm, confessing your feelings without the use of the app is no longer considered normal. however, you refuse to download it in hopes that youâll be able to fall in love without being dependent on love alarm.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âBack To Youâ by @seventeensmaus
Fem!reader || brother's best friend, fluff, humour, angst ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:y/n and mingyu are twins. they are pretty much inseparable along with their childhood friend seungcheol. the three live together in an apartment. y/n has never met mingyuâs friends. that is until one day she finally does and sees someone from her past.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âCluelessâ by @hanniedream
Coworker au, fluff ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:Wonwoo and you are were both oblivious idiots.
Lee Seokmin
âSunshine and Sunflowersâ by @shuastruck
Fem!reader || college au, sort of childhood friends to lovers, fluff, humour, angst ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:when you entered college, the last thing you expected was to see your childhood friend lee seokmin in a sea of unknown faces. but just as you had expected, he didn't even remember you in the slightest. you didn't blame him; he had moved away in first grade and how many people remembered their best friend from kindergarten? but that didn't stop you from falling for his cute smile and sweet personality, so now you were stuck in love with a boy who barely knew your existence.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âWe Have Chemistryâ by @seungcy
Fem!reader || college au, slice of life, fluff ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:Being a biology major was difficult enough along with juggling an internship at a hospital. So how about adding some cute guys to your internship to spice it up a bit? Can you balance it out?
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âWhat Is Love?â by @cupidhaos
High school au, cupid au, past life au, fantasy, fluff, angst ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:seokmin never expected to fall in love with a human - especially one that was supposed to be with somebody else
Chwe Hansol
âTwo Minus Oneâ by @twogyuu
Fem!reader || uni/recent college grads au, strangers to lovers, fluff, crack ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:Whatâs a better way to find love in the modern day than through dating apps? Eight months after his breakup with his long-time girlfriend, Vernon is finally ready for the dating scene once more - or so he thought. Finding the new game of love more challenging than he remembered, he reaches out to you, Chanâs best friend and legendary wing woman, for help.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âLie Againâ by @escapewriter
Fem!reader || idol au, soulmate au, fluff, humour, slight angst ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:a world in which various types of the soulmate system apply, you just so happen to have one that is completely stupid; being able to hear what your soulmate thinks of. however, when your soulmate hums a certain tune, you cant seem to get it out of your head.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âè±æšŁćčŽèŻ : HYYH : Golden Yearsâ by @sw1mmingfoolz
Fem!reader || college au, eventual roommates, angst, fluff, slowburn ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:when vernon and y/n realise their partners are cheating with each other, they strike up an unlikely friendship trying to figure out how it all began.
Unspecified Endgame
âFeverish Lipsâ by @sunlightwoo
College au, mafia au, fluff, angst ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:youâd think that because itâs the first semester of the year, itâd be like the beginning of a roller coaster when its slowly becoming climatic and stressful. however, once youâre at the top of the point you have two choices: scream your lungs or quickly hang onto your life support. sadly in your case, you can either suck it up and get through it, or get involved in its loops in tangles with trouble that is bound to be met within every corner that you turn to.
‷âLouder Than Bombsâ (Part 2 of feverish lips)
College au, mafia au, fluff, angst ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:the past semester of your senior year was hectic after the winter ball, its events making it harder for you to get back into your old routine. a rollercoaster that you finally managed to get off of for a blink of an eye, when suddenly youâre strapped on once more. you think to yourself that maybe youâll make it to graduation in May; maybe alive.Â
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âHere Comes The Sunâ by @seokgyuu
Fem!reader || college au, slice of life, angst, comedy, fluff ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:what's supposed to be just another year of fun and games at one of south korea's top universities turns into a rollercoaster of emotions for you. stuck between best friends and former crushes, you try to find love, friends and most importantly yourself.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°â©â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄÂ°âź
âA Poem A Dayâ by @wooahaeproductions
Gn!reader || modern day cyrano!, fluff, romance, angst, comedy ||Â Status:Â Completed
â.àłàż*:When Mingyu literally falls head over heels for someone, he has no idea what to do. What happens when he gets help (and a little meddling) from his friends? it definitely wonât be boring, thatâs for sure.
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CRIMSON REVERIE
How about a little of fluffy, huh?
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MINORS DO NOT MUST INTERACT
Summary: you find out about your version and Wanda in another universe.
Hey! Now I've a masterlist
SIGHTS
As you walked back to the camp, water droplets slid down your skin, the night breeze bringing a slight shiver that had nothing to do with the cold. Your mind was in turmoil, recalling Wanda's little show by the lake. The trees seemed quieter, as if even nature was trying to absorb what had just happened.
"Did you really have to do that in front of everyone?" you asked, breaking the silence, but your voice came out hesitant, almost shy.
Wanda glanced at you sideways, a mischievous smile playing on her lips. "And what exactly did I do?"
"Oh, come on, Wanda," you said, exasperated. "Lifting that guy into the air, threatening to erase them all from the multiverse? Thatâs not exactly... educational."
Wanda raised an eyebrow, pretending to be surprised. âWhat are you talking about? I was perfectly reasonable, if you want to know,â she said, her tone bordering on cynical, as if her threat to erase people from existence was something ordinary and completely justifiable.
"Reasonable?!" you repeated, your voice a bit louder than you intended. "You almost gave the poor guy a heart attack! Heâll never look at a campfire again without remembering you."
Wanda stopped walking, turning to face you with an expression that was both amused and exasperated. "He should be grateful," she retorted, as if explaining something obvious. "If I wanted to, he wouldnât even remember what a campfire is."
"Oh my god! Youâre impossible!" You crossed your arms, trying to look firm, but the way she was looking at youâ that mix of unwavering authority and irresistible charmâmade your heart race. "You know thatâs not the point, right?"
She took a step closer, tilting her head slightly. "And whatâs the point, then, dorogaya? That I should have let that bunch of filthy teenagers disrespecting nature go unpunished? I have principles, sweetheart! And none of them can see you like this except for me."
"Iâm not talking about me," you replied, but your tone lost strength at the end of the sentence, because deep down, you knew there was something comfortingâand, in a way, excitingâabout the fact that she had defended you so fiercely.
"Oh, but I am," Wanda murmured, the intensity in her eyes making you feel as though the ground had disappeared beneath your feet. "No one will desire you in my presence. No one will even dare to think about you, and read my lips when I say, darling: I will know what theyâre thinking. I always do."
You exhaled heavily, but tried to hide your smile at your witchâs over-the-top monologue. "Wanda⊠please."
Wanda turned to you, crossing her arms as she tilted her head. "Are you... worried about them?"
You opened your mouth to respond, but she just made a hand gesture.
"Happy?" she asked casually, beginning to walk again as if nothing had happened.
You furrowed your brow, quickening your pace to catch up with her. "What do you mean? What did you do?"
Without even looking at you, Wanda gave a small, satisfied smile. "Theyâve forgotten everything, dorogaya."
Your eyes widened. "What do you mean 'forgotten everything'? Did you mess with their minds?"
She shrugged, fingers playing with a strand of her own hair. "Just enough to make sure no one will remember my âlittle show,â as you call it."
You stared at her, a mixture of fascination and unease growing inside you. "You can do that? Alter memories?"
"I can do many things," Wanda replied, finally stopping and turning to face you. She seemed slightly amused, as if relishing your curiosity.
"Like what?" you asked, unable to contain the question.
Wanda leaned slightly toward you, her eyes shining with that characteristic mix of mystery and power. "Ah, milaya moya," she murmured, her voice low and enticing. "If I told you everything I can do, you wouldnât sleep for weeks."
A shiver ran down your spine, but you couldnât help but smile. "Is that a promise or a warning?"
"Both," she replied, laughing softly before continuing to walk.
Unable to resist, you hurried to walk beside her. "You really are something, Miss Maximoff."
Wanda stopped abruptly, making you almost stumble in your hurry to keep up with her. She turned to face you, an expression that wavered between surprise and amusement. "Something?" she repeated, raising an eyebrow as a smile danced on her lips.
"Yes, something," you reaffirmed, crossing your arms with an unexpected touch of boldness. "A force of nature, maybe. Or maybe a goddess with a heroine complex. But definitely something."
Wandaâs eyes sparkled, and you realized there was something more there. It wasnât just amusement. It was admiration. Fascination. As if she was seeing something in you that intrigued her as much as you were intrigued by her.
"Youâre bold," Wanda said, her voice soft but tinged with provocation. "Do you know what happens to people who challenge a goddess?"
"I have no idea," you replied, shrugging. "Maybe you should show me."
Wanda tilted her head, a dangerous yet charming smile forming. "You really want to know what Iâm capable of, donât you?"
"I do," you replied, firm, though your heart was pounding like a drum. "I want to know what makes you the woman you are. I want to see everything you can do. Because, if Iâm going to be by your side, I need to understand... you."
For a moment, Wanda was silent, just watching you. Then, she stepped forward, closing the gap between you. Her fingers lifted to trace a slow path along your face, as if deciding how far she would take you on this journey.
"You have no idea what youâre asking for, dorogaya," she murmured, her voice like honey dripping. "My power isnât just strength or control. Itâs chaos. Itâs destruction. Itâs everything you fear and desire at the same time."
"Then show me," you insisted, your voice almost inaudible, but filled with determination. "If thatâs what you are, I want to see it. All of it."
Wanda smiled, but this time, there was something deeper thereâmaybe a touch of respect. "Youâre brave. So brave, lyubimaya. But be careful what you wish for."
She extended her hand to you, her eyes glowing with a deep red intensity. "Come with me. And Iâll show you what Iâm made of."
You hesitated for a second, but just enough for Wanda to intertwine her fingers with yours, pulling you with her. "Hold on," she said, her lips curling into a smile that was as terrifying as it was beautiful. "You asked for this."
And then, with an almost imperceptible snap, the world around you began to change.
Wanda guided you with a firm yet strange touch through the veil between worlds. Reality around you unraveled in a tangle of colors and shapes, as if every line that composed the fabric of the universe was being unfolded before you. The air seemed to vibrate, charged with something incomprehensibleâa raw, terrifying power.
"Welcome to the Multiverse, dorogaya," Wanda said, her voice soft as a whisper, but filled with an authority that made you shiver. "Get ready, because thereâs no turning back."
Before you could respond, the first vision took shape.
The room seemed like it was from a dream. White, smooth, and flawless walls reflected the soft light streaming through large windows. Outside, there was a perfect garden, with well-manicured lawns and flowers of all colors. The house was a reflection of what Wanda seemed to believe was an ideal life: simple, cozy, and full of love.
Wanda was barefoot, wearing a light red dress that swayed with her movement. Her hair was loose, and she appeared... ordinary, but in an almost supernatural way. In her arms, a chubby, smiling baby played with strands of her hair as she looked at him with a tenderness so intense it almost broke your heart.
Vision stood beside her, smiling in a way you didnât think possible for someone made of vibranium. He looked so human there, so... present. With one hand, he caressed Wandaâs face, and with the other, he held a small music box that played a soft melody in the background.
âThis was my utopia,â Wanda began, without looking directly at you. Her eyes were fixed on the scene, as if she were immersed in the memory. âA perfect creation for a perfect life. A home where I could have everything the real world denied me.â
You realized the setting seemed like a reflection of an ideal from the 1950s or 60s â a perfect suburban life, almost like a magazine advertisement. Yet, the longer you looked, the more artificial everything seemed. The flowers in the garden had no scent. The sunlight didnât warm. And suddenly, you realized there were no sounds from the outside.
âIt was an illusion, of course,â Wanda continued, with a hint of melancholy. âBut for a while... I wanted to believe it was real. I needed to believe. I did this for Vision. For myself. For my children.â
The scene abruptly changed. Now, the same room was dark, almost in ruins. The baby in Wandaâs arms had vanished. Vision was lying on the floor, lifeless, with a hole in his chest where the Mind Stone should have been. Wanda was kneeling, her hands stained with blood, her eyes fixed on the void.
âThatâs when I realized,â she said, her voice faltering slightly. âNone of this was mine. I was living a lie. And the truth... the truth was more cruel than any illusion I could create.â
You wanted to say something, but the words felt stuck in your throat. Everything around you screamed of pain, loss, and despair.
âI tried so hard,â Wanda whispered, more to herself than to you. âI tried to be good, I tried to be strong. But the more I lost, the more I became... this.â
You glanced at the woman, seeing tears held back in her large green eyes. Why doesnât Wanda cry? Why does she keep everything to herself? These are questions you would like to understand and deconstruct with every reason she gives you.
This version of Wanda was a whirlwind of emotions, chaos personified. You saw her in different moments, different worlds, all versions converging on the same point: Vision. He was the center of her universe, and Wanda did the impossible to bring him back â to recreate the love she believed was her only anchor.
In the first scene, she was kneeling in a cold, metallic room, holding Visionâs lifeless body. It was a version of him without glow, without movement. The pale light reflected on her face, bathed in tears that flowed uncontrollably. Wanda murmured softly, almost inaudible, like a desperate prayer: "Please, come back to me. Please..."
You could feel the urgency in her voice, the kind of desperation that defies reason. She tried using her magic, her hands trembling as a scarlet glow surrounded Visionâs body. But it was futile. He wouldnât return.
"I refused to accept death," Wanda explained, her voice low, as if confessing a terrible secret. "I thought I could deceive fate. That, if I wanted it enough, I could bring him back."
The scene abruptly shifted, and now you saw her in another world, facing a legion of colossal beings, each one more threatening than the last. They seemed to be guarding something â maybe an artifact or a secret she wanted. Wanda was at the center of the battle, her powers turning the ground into lava, the sky into darkness.
"I destroyed entire worlds," she continued, her eyes fixed on the scene. "I fought against those who tried to stop me, against those who said I was wrong. I didnât care. I would do anything to bring him back."
You saw another Wanda, this time creating an entire world. She stood with her arms raised as houses rose from the ground, people took form out of nowhere, and a perfect blue sky stretched above everyone. At the center of this world was Vision, smiling, alive, as if nothing had happened.
"I created entire realities," Wanda said, a touch of bitterness in her voice. "But none of them were real. He... wasnât real."
The last scene was the most devastating. Wanda was alone, watching a version of Vision disappear before her eyes. He touched her face one last time before fading into dust, and she remained motionless, as if there was no more strength left in her to react.
"For so long," Wanda said, her eyes filled with a pain that seemed endless, "I thought love was sacrifice. That everything worth having had to be earned with pain. But I was wrong."
She turned to you, the intensity in her eyes as crushing as everything you had just witnessed. "Love shouldnât be this, right? It shouldnât be pain, or loss, or despair. But it was all I knew."
You felt your heart tighten. You wanted to touch her, comfort her, but it seemed too small in comparison to everything she had faced.
"You showed me something different," she continued, her voice trembling slightly. "Something I never thought I deserved. You showed me that love can be... healing."
This time, the air was thick with tension as you entered that ruined house, used as a temporary refuge by Wanda Maximoff. The walls were cracked, and the smell of dust mixed with something else: magic, raw and pulsing, like a storm about to explode. The organization that had sent you knew she was dangerous, but you werenât there as an agent or a heroine. You were there as a social worker, someone who had worked with people who had lost everything â and Wanda Maximoff was exactly that.
She was sitting in the darkest corner of the room, her eyes glowing with an unsettling scarlet hue. There was no apparent pain or mourning on her face; just a dangerous emptiness, the kind that swallows worlds.
"Leave," was the first thing she said, not even looking at you directly.
You didnât leave.
"I just want to talk," you said, keeping your voice calm, even though your heart was pounding like a drum. "Nothing more."
Wanda laughed â a dry, bitter laugh, without joy. "Talk? Is that what they call interrogation now?" She finally raised her eyes to meet yours, and the weight of her gaze was almost physical. "I donât need your pity."
"Itâs not pity," you replied, not backing down. "Itâs... concern."
Suddenly, the air around her shifted. It was as if an invisible hand was trying to grab you, crush you. Wanda raised her hand, and you saw the scarlet threads of her magic dance around her like serpents ready to strike.
"Do you think you can help me?" she whispered, her voice laced with sarcasm and something deeper: pain. "Do you think you can come in here and fix everything with your sweet words? I could end you before you even finish that sentence."
But she couldnât.
The magic around her shattered like glass, vanishing into the air before it could touch you. Wandaâs expression transformed into something you would never forget: surprise. She tried again, raising both hands, muttering words in an ancient tongue, but nothing happened.
"Who are you?" she asked, standing slowly, her eyes fixed on you like a predator finding something unusual.
"My name is Y/n. Iâm a social worker." You took a deep breath, trying to seem calmer than you felt. "And I think you need help."
"You idiot! Who sent you? Are you a witch? How do you know how to manipulate my magic?" she shot angrily.
Your hands were sweating, and you felt a strong urge to rush to the bathroom â but something completely insane inside you told you that you needed to stay.
You took a hesitant step forward, keeping your hands visible at your sides. It was like facing a wild animal, where every movement needed to be calculated.
"Iâm not a witch, and no one sent me," you said, your voice calm but firm. "Iâm just a social worker. And Iâm here because youâre hurt."
Wanda laughed, but it was an empty, bitter sound. "Hurt?" she repeated, taking a step toward you. "You think you can help me? Iâm the Scarlet Witch. I donât need help from anyone, especially not from a... social worker."
"Maybe you donât need it," you replied, trying to ignore the heat at the back of your neck and the trembling in your legs. "But maybe you want it."
Her face hardened, and for a moment, you thought you had made a fatal mistake. But then something changed. Her eyes lost some of their intensity, as if your words had touched a part of Wanda she was desperately trying to hide.
"Why arenât you afraid of me?" she asked, tilting her head. "Everyone is. I can feel fear in people. But in you... thereâs nothing."
You hesitated, searching for the right words. "Maybe itâs because I see beyond that," you said, taking another step. "I see someone who is hurt, whoâs lost so much, but who is still here. Still fighting."
"You donât know anything about me," she murmured, but her voice was quieter now, almost unsure.
"Then tell me," you responded softly. "Let me get to know you, Wanda."
There was a long silence. She watched you as if trying to decide whether you were real or just another broken piece in her world. Finally, Wanda sighed and turned her back, crossing her arms.
"Youâre stubborn," she said, not looking at you.
"I hear that often," you replied, trying not to smile.
She chuckled softly, but it wasnât a cruel sound this time. When she finally turned to you, there was something different in her eyes. Something more human, more vulnerable.
"If youâre going to stay, then stay. But donât expect me to trust you anytime soon," she said, pointing to a worn-out sofa in the corner of the room.
"I donât expect," you replied, carefully sitting down. "So, you canât kill me with your red power balls, nor read my mind. Whatâs that supposed to mean?"
Wanda let out a disbelieving laugh, actually incredulous. Red power balls? She thought with a roll of her eyes.
"I donât know." It was a low murmur.
"Maybe a sign that you should give me a chanceâŠ" You said with your shoulders shrugged and a sheepish smile on the corner of your lips.
Wanda could never have imagined that you would keep coming back, again, and again, and again â in fact, neither could you. A not-so-friendly conversation and death threats turned into a tea afternoon where Wanda told you about life in the Avengers before everything; then a lunch on the beach where you told her about how you almost drowned when you were 9 â that day, you saw the most genuine smile she could give you given her current conditions, and you felt your heart beat differently for the redhead. Then a dinner at your place â where you learned to make paprikash just to see her smile and complain that the dish lacked pepper â with wine, where Wanda cried missing her boys, and you were officially classified by her as: "the best shoulder Iâve ever cried on, and believe me, I never cry."
Wanda hadnât realized how important your presence had become in her life, not until you needed to travel for an important case. She missed you, and that confused her. After all, how could a visit so unpleasant and peculiar make her want... for it to be daily? That you would visit her every day and bring the cinnamon rolls from that bakery on your street that she loved so much. That you would learn more Sokovian recipes just to make her smile.
Then the kiss happened in one of those moments of silence, when words were no longer necessary. You were sitting next to her, watching the sunset through the broken window of the house she called her temporary home. The sky was tinged with shades of orange and red, as if the universe itself was painting a canvas just for the two of you.
Wanda seemed calmer that day. Her shoulders werenât as tense, and the eyes that always seemed to hold storms had a soft, almost peaceful glow. She suddenly looked at you, and there was something in her expression that made the air feel thicker.
"Why do you stay?" she asked, her voice low, almost a whisper.
"Because I want to," you replied, without hesitation.
She tilted her head, as if trying to understand something that didn't make sense to her. "You're strange," she murmured, but there was a small, almost imperceptible smile on her lips.
"I prefer 'unique,'" you responded, teasing, though your voice trembled a little.
Then, before you could say anything more, she leaned toward you. It was a hesitant movement, as if testing the waters, but when her lips finally met yours, everything else disappeared.
The kiss was everything both of you had imagined it would be â and more. It was soft, but filled with emotion, as if Wanda was pouring everything she couldn't say in words into that moment. You felt her hand move to your face, her fingers tracing your jawline with a tenderness that contrasted with the intensity of the kiss.
When you pulled away, she looked at you with something new in her eyes: hope. "You're not like anyone I've ever met," she said, her voice barely audible.
"Neither are you," you replied, smiling.
Months later, after your wedding in the Russian summer, when Wanda told you she was pregnant, the smile on her face was so wide it seemed to light up the entire room. You were sitting on the couch of your new home, a place you had chosen together, far from the chaos and painful memories of the past.
"I can hardly believe it," she said, placing her hands on her still-flat belly, but with eyes shining with genuine happiness. "After everything... after everything that happened, I never thought I would have this."
You held her hand, squeezing it gently. "You deserve all the happiness in the world, Wanda. And these babies already have the best mother they could ask for."
The following months were a mix of nerves and joy. You had never seen Wanda so happy. She decorated the twins' room with soft colors, but couldn't resist using a bit of magic to create constellations shining on the ceiling.
"I want them to grow up knowing that the entire universe is within their reach," she explained, smiling at you as she adjusted the details with a wave of her hand.
The day Tommy and Billy were born, Wanda cried. Tears of genuine happiness, as she held the two little ones in her arms. You were beside her, holding her hand, unable to hold back your own tears.
"I never thought I could be this happy," she whispered, looking at you.
"You deserve this, my love," you replied, kissing her forehead.
Exactly seven years later, when Wanda and you were waiting for the pregnancy test to be ready, this time for Seline, Wanda could hardly believe it. It was as if the universe was finally giving back to her everything it had taken before.
Wanda looked at you that day with the same gaze she had in your first kiss â full of love and hope. "You gave me this," she said, placing her hand on your belly, moved by feeling the baby's heartbeat against your skin. "You gave me everything I thought I could never have."
You laughed, wiping away a tear that escaped. "That's not how it works, Wanda. We did this together."
During Seline's pregnancy, Wanda seemed even more radiant than before. She spent hours reading storybooks to the twins, and often you would wake up in the night to find her caressing your belly, softly murmuring in Sokovian.
When Seline was born, you knew your family was complete.
"She's so perfect," Wanda said, with a soft smile as she held the little one in her arms.
"She has your eyes," you replied, feeling a wave of love flood your chest.
And in that moment, as you looked at Wanda and the three children you had brought into the world together, you knew that everything you had been through â all the pain, all the sacrifice â had been worth it.
The path back to the camp seemed almost irrelevant in the face of the intensity that was growing between you. Each step you took on the trail was an extension of what you had shared in that intimate moment, when Wanda had opened a piece of her soul to you. The words she had spoken echoed in your mind, but it wasnât the words that mattered at that moment â it was the feeling.
You felt a mix of adoration and a deep desire for her, and Wanda seemed to understand this as clearly as you did. But there was something more, an urgency in both of you, as if fate had brought you together once again for another dance, this time with immeasurable depth.
"You asked me to show what Iâm capable of," Wanda said, breaking the silence between you. Her voice was soft, but there was something threatening in the way she spoke, something that could only come from a woman who knew the power she possessed, yet remained vulnerable. "Do you still want to love me after all of this?"
She turned her face to you, and her eyes were shining with a mixture of insecurity and provocation. The silence between you seemed to carry centuries of repressed desire, of lost and found loves, as if you both were made for this moment, but had lived countless lives and universes before finally being here, together.
You didnât hesitate. Your hands rose to Wandaâs face, touching her gently, as if you feared she might disappear at any moment. But she didnât disappear. She was there. And you, without words, simply looked into her eyes, trying to convey all the love and certainty you felt.
"I want to love you because of all of this," you said, your voice firm, but heavy with something more â a promise, an oath made with heart and soul.
When your eyes met, the distance between you vanished, as if the entire universe had been reduced to this single moment. Time stopped. And deep down, you felt something like the touch of past lives, as if you had been there with her, in some other place, in some other time. Something that transcended everything that had happened, all the struggles, all the deaths and rebirths.
She leaned in slowly, and her lips touched yours with an unexpected softness, as if testing the moment, measuring the intensity of her own desire. But soon, the softness turned into urgency, as if, finally,
Wanda knew there was no turning back. And you, with your heart racing, matched every movement of hers, with the same intensity, with the same hunger. It was as if everything around you had disappeared, and there were only the two of you. No universe, no past, no pain.
The kiss was like a river flowing between mountains, gentle and impetuous at the same time. When Wandaâs lips touched yours, there was no more space for anything â no fear, no doubt, just the need to be consumed by her, to surrender to what fate had already drawn. It was as if everything had been a preparation for that moment. Your souls recognized each other immediately, as if they had known each other since the beginning of time, as if they had met in all past lives, in all universes, in all reincarnations. The feeling of something eternal, something that couldnât be broken, settled between you.
It was a soft touch at first, a silent exploration, but soon the need for more became apparent. Wandaâs tongue slid against yours, and the tension between you dissolved in the intensity of that contact. It was more than passion; it was a union of everything you had been and everything you would still be. The kiss became more urgent, as if, by touching, you were rediscovering each other, merging. The world around you disappeared, the sound of the rain, the shadows of the night â everything became secondary. There was only the heat of bodies, the exchange of breaths, and the silent magic dancing in the air, reflecting the indescribable connection between you.
Wanda slowly pulled away, as if reluctant to leave that moment. Her eyes were darker now, but there was something deeply different in them. Something deeper than any expression you had ever seen in her before. Something immense, an ocean of feelings overflowing without words. And you knew. You knew that, in that look, she was giving you her soul, all the pain, all the love, all the hope.
She touched your face with trembling hands, as if wanting to engrave the outline of your being into her memory, as if she needed you desperately, as if her happiness now depended on you. Her voice was hoarse, broken, but filled with a sincerity so pure it seemed to tear her very heart apart.
"You are everything I need," Wanda murmured, almost like a plea, like a truth she was finally accepting. The desperation was there, in her eyes, in the tone of her voice. "I never knew what it really meant to live until now... until you."
Those words settled in your chest with the force of a silent scream. And then, without needing to respond, you moved closer to her, your bodies fitting together as if they had always been meant to do so. It was as if, by being together, the entire universe became lighter, clearer.
And in the touch, in the exchange of heat, you knew. You knew that she was desperate to be saved, to be happy, to find a home. It wasnât just about the love you shared, but everything she wanted to build â a life, a family, a future. That kiss was not just passion: it was a promise. A promise that, together, you could create something that would resist time and fate.
When she pulled her face away slightly, breathing heavily, you saw the vulnerability in her eyes, the fragility of someone carrying the weight of an entire world on their shoulders. But you also saw something more â a renewed strength, a confidence. Because, even with the pain she carried, she knew you were there, by her side, for whatever came.
And you whispered back, with a soft but firm voice, so Wanda would know what you felt, without doubt, without hesitation. "Iâm here, Wanda. Forever. And we will build all of this together. As many times as it takes."
She smiled, a smile mixed with tears and hope, as if, at that moment, the world was finally a place worth conquering. You knew their future would be unpredictable, but you also knew, with an almost palpable certainty, that they had found each other for the last time. And that, in the end, was all that mattered.
The kiss that followed was gentler, but no less intense. It was as if, in that moment, you were building a new beginning. The future, uncertain and challenging, seemed promising, because by her side, Wanda had everything she had always needed: you. And by your side, you had everything you had always wanted: her.
And so, in the silence of the night, with the rain tapping on the windows and the distant echoes of the camp, you and Wanda surrendered to this truth. A truth stronger than any magic, stronger than any fate. Because what you shared was eternal, and nothing, no one, could destroy it. The connection between you was stronger than anything that could be said. Stronger than any magic, stronger than any destiny. It was something intangible, yet as real as the air you breathed. Something eternal, that would withstand any battle, any pain.
And so, in the silence of the night, between the distant echoes of the camp and the touch of your bodies still tingling from the intensity of the kiss, you both knew that nothing else mattered. Because, in the end, you were together.
~*~
Oh. I need her.
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i keep imagining maces pov of when qui-gon gets decked and its so funny to me. this poor man just wants to know where his kid his friends padawan is but unfortunately he only has his his stupid friend whos panicking rn, a troll, and a very concussed soldier (who recognizes him??) who is having the most eventful and stressful days of his life to get any information from. and also theres a dead sith there. rip mace windu shout-out to him for not strangling qui-gon immediately after cody and co leave
...okay, yeah, i'm running with this.
because- mace has valiantly put off punching qui-gon. he has resisted every temptation. violence is so rarely a useful tool. he has not punched qui-gon. he will not punch qui-gon.
he is a jedi.
even when qui-gon returns to the temple self-righteous and indignant and without the child under his care-
he is a jedi.
even when they get the call, and he looks at qui-gon, who looks back at him, hopeful and eager and certain that he will be the one to go, to return, to repent, and mace thinks you do not deserve this and sends him anyway-
he is a jedi.
even when the shuttle returns, dropping out of orbit and straight through mace's stomach when he makes it to the dock just in time to see the healers vanish around the corner, qui-gon standing empty-handed on the landing, staring after them, blood on his tunics and under his fingernails-
he is a jedi.
even when vokara looks them both in the eyes and says infection and trauma and intubate, even when qui-gon asks can i see him? and there's no hint of a we, even during those three awful days of fever where mace finds himself hovering outside the halls with ever more minor errands, feeling obi-wan fade and flicker in the force and occasionally hearing the screams of please and no-! and names he does not know-
even then.
he is a jedi.
three days after obi-wan is pulled from the bacta tank:
another errand. theoretically. for the life of him mace cannot remember what he came here to deliver. but then the door to obi-wan's room opens, and vokara steps out, still speaking, her voice warm, some recounting of one of qui-gon's many misadventures that landed him in her care, and then she turns and sees him and before the door shuts behind her-
"master mace?"
the voice is thin and thready and mace closes his eyes.
"all right?" he whispers to vokara.
she raises an eyebrow. "he's asking for you."
(mace will find out later that this is the first time since his return that obi-wan has dared to asked for anything.)
he steps up to the threshold.
"obi-wan," he says. "may i come in?"
at the nod, mace steps forward and lets the door slide shut behind him. he settles into the chair left faithfully at the side of the bed.
obi-wan looks- unwell.
this is not, perhaps, the most novel observation. but it is one thing to know where and how he'd spent his last year. it is another matter entirely to see the proof of it, even beyond the cavernous wound he'd come home with-
in his size and stature, much smaller than that of a healthy child of his age. in the thinness of his face, the look of hunted hunger. in the scarring on the knuckles of his hands, clenching spasmodically in the layered blankets.
in the way he watches mace.
"obi-wan," mace repeats, and with the sound of his name comes an easing of the weight on his shoulders, each syllable fading into a sigh of relief, and he hadn't known what to say even as he'd stepped into the room- there is so much that needs saying, so many words he cannot find-
he smiles, instead, and rests his hands on his knees. "i have missed you very much."
when obi-wan reaches for him, mace is ready.
he ends up settled on the edge of the bed, one hand around obi-wan's shoulder as the boy curls into his side. he tugs gently at the tangled knot of pain still clouding obi-wan's thoughts, feeding the threads into the force, and feels him relax, bit by bit.
he's not asleep. his grip on mace's robe is too tight. his breathing too fast.
'how are you feeling?" mace asks quietly.
"okay."
the response is immediate, easy, and entirely untruthful.
"do you- need to go?"
mace catches qui-gon's approach. feels him pause.
feels him retreat.
"no," he says. "not at all."
he is a jedi.
there is so much to grieve, in the next few weeks. so much. obi-wan swings between different types of silence- sullen, frightened, exhausted, dissociating. tattered and bleeding in the force. he kicks and punches and bites and sometimes does not leave his room for days on end. he scratches at his skin until he bleeds, picks at his meals with a dull disengagement, sleeps sporadically, if at all-
it is very difficult, sometimes, to not be angry at qui-gon.
but the first time he visits their apartment, obi-wan recoils hard and fast at the first leak of such sentiments from behind his shielding, and mace decides that they have had their full of violence.
he is a jedi.
and besides-
qui-gon talks to him. talks to others, too, who talk between themselves, for no one is willing to let them handle this alone. mace sits and listens and sees the bruises bloom on qui-gon's arms and legs from small hands beating back imagined enemies, and knows anger is not what's needed here.
it persists, yes, but it does not rule.
he is a jedi.
and then-
and then.
(the force is full of screaming.)
the temple lets them through and the gardens are burning and there is a corpse on the floor and obi-wan is-
gone, qui-gon says.
i don't know where. he's gone.
and for a moment mace can hardly breathe under the weight of the fear and the fury and the you have a habit of losing him, don't you?, and he catches the thought and breathes it out, recognizing its roots, its unfairness, drawing his focus to the sith, listening with one ear to qui-gon's recounting even as he presses a hand to the rift, searching for some leeway and finding none, feeling the pressure build behind his eyes, swiping impatiently at the blood drying under his nose-
then something hums.
the soldiers are immensely professional. clear-cut and firm and shielded in the force, understandably reticent with information. but the most disconcerting thing by far...
they look to him.
all of them.
there's a familiarity there.
he's safe with us, the commander says, and looks at him.
safe-with-us, echos the force. safe-with-lightning-safe-with-fighting-safe-with-dying-safe-with-surviving-safe-with-us.
what else can he do but accept it?
he is a jedi.
and then qui-gon-
qui-gon-
well.
he is a jedi.
so he crouches next to him, rests a hand on his shoulder, and when qui-gon turns a shell-shocked gaze on him, says quietly- "come on. let me see."
he is a jedi.
he does not punch qui-gon.
but he is not entirely immune to schadenfreude.
#TOOK THIS AND RAN WITH IT LOL WHOOPS#shoutout to mace INDEED#he is the quintessential jedi#but i think he deserves to indulge in a little bit of schadenfreude#as a treat#thanks anon for giving me an excuse to write this!#this was FUN#shoulder the sky#inbox
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Sell-out
Pairing: QZ!Joel x f!reader
Summary: After a smuggler Joel and Tess were working with didnât pay for his end of the deal, Joel captures his girlfriend, you. Tired of your boyfriendâs scheming ways, you decide to use the situation to your advantage.
Word Count: 3.9k
Warnings: 18+ MDNI, captivity, mentions of m!oc, cheating, darkish!Joel, dubcon (power imbalance, eventual consent), oral (m receiving), unprotected p in v, creampie, dirty talk, slight dom/sub dynamics
A/N: Happy New Year! Decided to do something different for this one-shot and I'm excited to put it out there because I personally love reading these types of stories and I've been writing this for a while. I appreciate any feedback and enjoy these messy characters! :)
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The first thing you feel waking up is sharp pain coming from the back of your head. You move your arm to inspect it, but the weight of chains stops you, clanging against the hard floor. You quickly open your eyes to see where you are.
The room youâre in is wide, brick walls of it covered with graffiti, holding a network of pipes. You... You know this place. Youâve seen it from outside of the abandoned warehouse near the QZ, waiting for your boyfriend Lucien to finish up meeting with his smuggling crew. You always hated the types of guys coming here and the way heâd try to fit in with them, mimicking them without noticing. Most of the time, though, youâd bear with it because his line of work brought in the resources. To him and to you. This has to be the shadiest place in a wide perimeter, and it smells like it; of sweat, dried blood and rusted metal.
You raise your arms slightly and turn to look at them. Thereâs a pull of the heavy metal again. You see chains tied around your wrists, locked around a metal pipe. You donât remember any of this happening, much less getting here. Your mind runs a mile an hour, trying to find an answer to the burning question â why the hell are you here tied up?
Heavy and intent footsteps grow louder until you see a big wooden door open. Your eyes widen as you see who comes out, his bearded face and stern expression unmistakable. He leans on a small metal table, staring you down. Joel fucking Miller.
Of course you know who Joel Miller is. Along with Tess, heâs one of the most notorious smugglers in the Boston QZ, feared by even the toughest of brutes. Tess is the brains, Joel is the muscle. They worked with Lucien on his most recent deal and... Oh, shit. You know why youâre here.
His expression is nonchalant, except for a subtle scowl. âFinally. Youâre awake.â
You look him straight in the eye, trying not to show the fear bubbling in your stomach. You curse yourself as a tremble in your voice betrays it. âWhy am I here?â
He grins darkly at the tremble in your voice, satisfied with his plan to intimidate you. âYou know why youâre here.â
Of course you do. This isnât the first time Lucienâs sleazy tactics backfired on him, yet he always thought he knew better than you. Didnât want to listen to your advice and did as he pleased. Now youâre the one captured for it.
You decide in a split second youâll pretend you have no idea. âNo, I donât.â
âLiar.â He says menacingly.
âWhat do you want?â You get annoyed and struggle against the chains.
âNo use strugglinâ. Youâll just hurt yourself. And I want my share.â He walks around as he speaks, heavy boots stomping on the concrete floor. You have to resist the urge to flinch at every one of his steps. âThought you were so smart, double-crossing me and Tess.â
You glare at him, determined not to let him sense your fear. âMe? Iâm not a smuggler.â
He smirks. âOh, right. Forgot youâre Lucienâs arm candy.â
You know what heâs doing. Trying to coax an answer out of you by implying your only use is standing still and looking pretty. You wonât fall for it. You tilt your head. âForgot youâre Tessâs muscle.â
You see a flicker of annoyance pass him at the quip before he composes himself. âThe muscle could snap you in half.â
You keep glaring up at him. âGood thing. Nothing else going for you.â
He comes closer and kneels in front of you, his shadow looming over your frame. âYouâre makinâ this a whole lot harder on yourself.â
You keep eye contact as he comes closer to you, his breath hitting your face, your breath speeding up from adrenaline and... His proximity. Heâs so close you can smell his musk mixed with gun powder. God, not him. Not right now. You swallow.
He smirks. âWhat? Cat ate your tongue?â
You struggle to think as your skin warms up slightly, making part of you not want to leave. Looking away from him towards the floor, you shake out of it. The chains are tied to the pipe with a lock. If youâre lucky and he hasnât thought this through, he could be keeping the keys to the lock somewhere on him. Joel wouldnât, but itâs worth a try. You could also convince him to let you go. Youâve talked your way out of worse, and Joel is a pragmatic man. If you figure out what he wants, you stand a chance.
After a few seconds of running through this in your head, you have a plan of action. âI can give you your share.â
He leans a bit away to check your facial expression, determine if youâre deceptive. âYeah?â
You nod. âYeah. It was a stupid idea, and I told him that. You should be made up for your struggle.â You try to keep your expression flat, playing up the âyou deserve compensationâ card.
He hums, smiling slyly. âYouâre good. Canât tell if youâre lyinâ.â
âWell, Iâm telling the truth.â You huff, genuinely annoyed this time at the predicament youâre in because of your boyfriend. âSo how about we cut a deal and you get me out of these?â You raise your arms as much as the chains tying them on your back will allow.
He raises his eyebrow. âYouâre takinâ this way better than I thought.â
You roll your eyes. âNot used to people coming in to save me.â
He shrugs and nods. âSee...â He gets up slowly from his crouching position, walking around again. âI could cut you a deal.â He stops and looks you over, his eyes scanning your body slowly, like a predator deciding whether to play with its prey or finish the hunt. âAinât sure youâre gonna like it, though.â
Relief, intrigue and a bit of fear are swirling in your chest. Your voice cracks but you compose it quickly. âGo ahead. Shoot.â
He comes closer to you and crouches again, stroking your cheek with no emotion in his eyes, searching yours for any signs of discomfort. Chills prickle your skin and youâre not sure if you want to bite your lip to hold back your reactions or to spur him on. You refrain from it.
You should move to stop him. But itâs as if his gaze is keeping you in place, looking into your very soul.
âThis is about sendinâ a message.â He strokes your cheek with his knuckles, the roughness of his calloused hand pleasant against your soft skin. âSo you can tell me where you keep everythinâ you own, or...â He bites his lip, his eyes closing slightly with lust. âWe can do somethinâ else.â
Youâre breathing heavily, you heart beating quickly in your chest, leaning against the wall to get as much distance as you can from him in a desperate attempt to think clearly.
All of Lucien and your resources or... Whatever Joelâs up to? You donât like this. Youâre cornered. As much as youâre intrigued by the latter, you have a sinking feeling in your gut youâll be forced to do it anyway. You frown in resignation.
You turn back to Joel, your tongue on your teeth in anger. âWhat else?â You spit out.
He smirks, aware of his position, taking his hand off your cheek. âYouâre a smart girl. âM sure youâll figure it out.â
Thinking of your next move, you look at him frustrated. You lunge and bite the front of his shirt, keeping him in place as you try to will your chained hands to move to his jean pockets and look for the key.
He scoffs in frustration and shakes you off, pinning your shoulders against the wall. âGoddamnit-â
You slam against the wall, scowling at him.
He keeps you pinned and scoffs. âOh, câmon.â He smiles slyly, running his finger down the pulse point on your neck. âAfraid youâll like it?â He leans in and whispers in your ear, his lips lightly grazing the shell of it. âYou already do.â
You hate him with a fiery passion. You hate the invisible pull between you two and the way your breath is quickening.
He keeps whispering. âSmart girl. Sharp as a whip. Bet he doesnât know how to handle ya.â He runs his hands down your sides, stoking the fire lit in you.
Your eyes shut slightly on their own accord, the sensation in your core pleasant. Heâs flattering you, using your vanity against you as if heâs reading into your mind.
âI could make good use of you.â He whispers, his breath hitting your ear. âIn a lotta ways.â His words are seductive, but you sense a deeper meaning. He sees tangible value in your calculating mind and survival instincts.
You should resist him. Use any tactic you can think of and try to run. But youâre curious about what he could do to you. You like the thought, and your bodyâs betraying you too, heat pooling low.
Youâre also curious about the vision of Joel treating you like an equal. Tess is his partner in crime and youâre not sure how youâd fit in the picture. Yet, desperation for recognition Lucien never gave you lets you think wishfully for a fleeting moment. Does thinking like this make you a traitor? Weak willed? A sell-out? What devastates you is youâre not sure Lucien would care for this more than losing his supplies.
Thereâd likely be hell to pay either way. Hell with Joel seems like the lesser one.
So you entertain Joel. You bite your lip and turn to him slightly as you whisper. âBet you could.â
He slowly pulls away from your ear and smiles slyly. âYouâre cominâ around.â
You return his sly smile with your own. âAre you gonna make good on your promise?â
He leans in, his lips inches from yours, an invitation for you to close the distance. âYou bet.â
You look down at his lips, corners of your mouth crooked into a smug smile. Temptation rises in you, pulling you in like a moth to a flame. And a flame will it be when Lucien finds out.
You lean in and kiss him. He kisses you back searingly, full of pent up aggression and desire, biting your lip softly. You moan at the slight sting, both getting lost in this desperate and carnal moment, mouth to mouth, no more space for thinking. His tongue finds your lower lip, asking for access. You grant it instantly, opening your mouth to let him explore it. You catch his tongue with yours and they glide against each other in a slow dance.
Moaning, you pull away. He grunts slightly at the loss of your lips on his. Thereâs a certain question in the way you look at him now that he canât answer; how far is this going? Heâs swept away in the tide of his arousal and letting it guide him.
He gets up and puts his hand on your chin, lifting it and tapping it as he speaks commandingly. âOn your knees.â
You blink a few times in surprise and swallow your pride before you get up on your knees, tugging at the cold chains as you shift from your sitting position. Your core is fluttering even as youâre feeling like uncertainty is pressing down on your chest.
He smirks at your current position and tilts your head up, nudging you softly with his words. âOpen wide. Câmon.â
You lick your lips as you look up at him with an expression juxtaposing what youâre feeling. Ready. In too deep, youâre seeing this through, letting him take you through the unknown. You open your mouth, sticking your tongue out.
âEager for me, huh?â He strokes your chin tenderly, like youâre something to be handled carefully. âGood girl.â
You smile smugly with your eyes, keeping your mouth open, the last shreds of your restraint keeping you from giving fully into him.
The sound of him unbuckling his belt echoes through the warehouse interior. He slides it off, pulling down his jeans. You get a good look at the bulge straining against his boxers. God, he seems big. A bit of worry of youâll fit him in your mouth comes over you.
He just grins at your hesitant frown and reaches for the waistband of his boxers, pulling them down. His length is bobbing on his abdomen, red and angry, already leaking precum. You instinctively tilt your head and bite your lip at the sight. His bulge didnât fool you about his size, and of course itâs as demanding and manly as the rest of him.
He looks at you sternly. âGo on. I ainât got all day.â
Heâs taunting your doubts, and you might agree with the sentiment. You want to be so full of him you canât think. You lick up the drops leaking from his slit, looking up at him with wide, pliant eyes.
He strokes the back of your head, sucking in a breath. âThere we go.â He grips your hair and pulls you in the direction of his cock. You wrap your mouth around his tip, swirling your tongue, before you push in deeper.
He grunts. He grips your hair, his eyes shutting slightly at the sensation of your warm mouth. âJust like that, baby. So good.â He pats your cheek with his other hand.
You bob your head, setting up a steady pace. You inhale his musk as you take him in deeper each time.
Heâs a mess of grunts and low moans. He grips your hair with both hands and starts thrusting into you with abandon. He hits the back of your throat and even as you gag, you close your eyes and moan, the vibration pleasant on his cock. He lit up a wildfire inside you. At this point, youâre helpless to stop it.
Even in his haze, heâs making sure to hold your head securely to keep you from falling backwards. He lets out a groan as he bucks into you, struggling to speak. âTakinâ me so well. You like chokinâ on it?â
You moan in approval. Youâre getting off on being tied up and used like this, the ache in your core becoming almost unbearable. So intent on doing whatever he wants, you donât care if it gets eased.
ââM not sure how long I can last.â He pulls out of your mouth slowly, the saliva stream connecting your mouth with his cock as he does. You open your eyes, looking up at him half-lidded, close to being completely spent. He strokes your cheek, scared heâs hurt you. âYou okay?â His voice is tinged with warmth you didnât expect.
You nod as you look into his hazel eyes, still devoid of emotion but attentive in their own way, glimpses of the man he must have been before the world hardened him.
âWhere dâyou want me?â He keeps stroking your cheek with his thumb.
âI want you inside me.â Thereâs almost a desperation in the way you look up at him, not sure if itâs for him to slide into you or to keep him giving these small crumbs of attention.
He nods as his gaze skims over your body slowly. As if he just remembered something, he stops in consideration. He orders, slight irritation at this thought ruining his fun in his voice. âTurn around.â
You narrow your eyes questioningly and hesitantly turn around to face the wall. Gripping your arm, he unties the chains around your wrists. Relief and confusion come over you. Is he going to...?
He is. You recognize the sound of keys clinking behind you before he turns the key in the lock keeping the chains to the pipe. The chains fall to the floor with a loud clang. You finally move your arms, sore and chafed by them, rubbing the marks.
Why would he let you go before you get to the good part? Wait... Guess there are invisible lines Joel wonât cross. As much as he liked the power he had over you, he wants you to have a choice in this. To know youâre doing this on your own accord, not to escape, not fearing for your life. This is just his test of that. He stands behind you for a few moments, gauging your reaction, watching whether youâre preparing to flee.
As you stand with your arms free, all your instincts tell you to run. But where to? Back in the arms of the boyfriend who makes you fear his betrayal every single day? Itâs only a matter of time before his backstabbing tendencies are turned on you, you think.
To be fair, Joel is not the most reliable man to turn to next, but you decide to explore what has transpired between you further.
You turn around and look at him, his bulge still straining against his pulled up jeans, tilting your head and smiling knowingly. âGo on. I ainât got all day.â
âGood. Thought youâd try to run.â He grins and nods, and you can see relief clearly painted on his face. âWoulda been a shame.â His voice takes on a lower and more confident tone.
He grabs your arms and moves you to the patch of brick beside the pipe you were locked to, pinning you to it. Your faces are close together and now youâre both smiling like two teenagers sneaking off to do something forbidden. He slides his tongue into your mouth again as you open it eagerly. You kiss briefly before his fingers slip past the waistband of your jeans inside your panties. He hums. âAlready wet for me, arenât you?â
You nod as you exhale in pleasure. âSo wet.â
He parts your folds with his finger, not pushing in, just teasing. âLetâs see how wet you can get...â
Your core is throbbing and his touch keeps making it worse. Leaning your head back against the wall, you sigh. âOh God...â
He smiles slyly as his fingers find your clit, rubbing teasingly. âLucky bastard, Lucien... Gonna fuck you so hard you forget all about him.â
You look at Joel in surprise at mentioning him, too worked up to care at this point, perhaps even tempered by the anger and resentment you harbor for Lucien. Too late to turn back anyway, you think you like the way this is sticking it to him. A subtle sly smile tugs at the corners of your mouth.
He takes his hand out of your jeans and begins undoing the button and zipper on them. As he does, your chest is rapidly rising and falling and you feel the heat spreading through your body, consuming you. You clutch onto his belt, undoing it once more along with his jeans and boxers. He hooks his fingers into your panties and pulls them down.
He taps the head of his cock to your clit, your arousal mixing. You move your hips instinctively for him to push in, but he makes sure to torment you for a moment longer, tapping it against you again.
âJoel...â You whine.
âYou want it? I wanna hear you.â He pushes in just the head of his cock, closing his eyes in pleasure.
âYes! Yes, I want it so badly. Please...â Before youâre even done begging, Joel canât take it anymore and pushes all the way in. In one rough stroke, heâs fully inside you. Your breathâs almost knocked out and a slight sting from his size quickly turns into pleasure.
He stills for a moment, letting you adjust. âFuck, youâre so tight.â
He slides out of you a bit before he slams back in. He sets a ruthless pace, each thrust pushing your hips to the wall and hitting deep inside of you. You lean against the cold brick, your lips parted and your eyes half-lidded, moaning. Itâs almost animalistic, the way youâre both losing your bearings in this dirty warehouse.
âAtta girl. Take all of me.â He picks up speed as he presses closer to you, taking your nipple between his fingers through your shirt and pinching it, his voice husky and low. âWhoâs fucking you harder than he ever did?â
âYou, Joel.â The words come out of you without even thinking about them.
He grins proudly. âDamn right.â His hand reaches for your thigh, raising it slightly so itâs wrapped around his waist. The angle heâs thrusting at changes and you feel him hitting that delicious spot inside you that makes your vision blur. Now youâre a mess of gasps and moans.
He pounds into you relentlessly. ââM close. Gonna fill you up full of me.â
Too deep into the blissed out haze, you moan and nod, only thinking about how good it will feel. And it does. He buries his face in your shoulder as he fills you, hot pulses of his thick release pumped deep inside you. His cock is throbbing inside you as he empties himself. The sensations send you over the edge, and you lean your head back and moan as waves of pleasure crash over you.
He stays like that for a while as you both catch your breath. Sated and wrapped up around him, you close your eyes, coming down from the high. The tension from your initial meeting has dissolved, leaving you both light and boneless. You wrap your fingers in his hair, stroking it as he tries to gather his bearings.
There is not much to say after whatâs already said and done, besides the question making your chest tighten as you both put your clothes back on. Is Joel going to brag to Lucien about this, more so â was this kind of payback his plan all along?
Something in your stomach twists at the thought that you were a pawn Joel successfully used in his game, but you donât regret the way this has forced you out of the convenience of being by Lucienâs side.
As you zip up your jeans, your gaze falls back on Joelâs questioning expression. He can tell youâre lost in thought.
âWill you tell Lucien about this?â You say it with more bite than you intended, angry at the thought of being used.
He considers your question then shakes his head. âWonât if you donât want me to.â He grins. âReckon itâs not my style anyway.â
Exhaling in relief and amusement, you nod. âAlright.â Your legs are sore as you head for the steel doors of the warehouse.
He raises his eyebrow at your abrupt exit and calls out. âWe gonna see each other again?â He wants to, you can tell by his tone.
You turn around on your way out and contemplate whether you want to see him again. You connected physically but you feel like connecting emotionally with Joel would be an endless chase of something never to be caught. Youâre so drawn to him. You donât want to go. But you tilt your head as you answer bluntly with a smile. âNo.â
He shrugs indifferently as the steel sliding door grinds while you open it. âProbably for the best.â
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