#if the buses didnt get extra difficult around rush hour this wouldnt be such an issue honestly??

[clementiens]

ugghfghjdkfhgkjh i really dont know wht to do abt this

like??i want to hang out w that guy again and its fairly clear tht he also wants to hang out again, but theres still the public transportation issue and like

uhgfhgjkfh idk

like i have to put so much more thought and planning into getting around here than healthy/able-bodied ppl do, so i dont want to be like “itd be easier if we could go to the museum again but i Guess i Could make it downtown again as long as it was in this very particular timeframe” (bc of how hellish public transportation gets around like 4-5 pm)

n so far its like. its been cool. we went to the museum that first time cuz its easier for me to get to, and last time we were hanging out around union square........but i was already down there cuz i had to pick up syringes. i rly only go downtown for dr appointments or to go to the pharmacy because i have to use the subway (since my fav bus route got cut practically in half), and its just. its a lot. its all stairs no matter what the fuck i do and its just A Lot

and i feel like i COULD probably explain this, even if i was just like “hey lets maybe go to the museum actually cuz i cant rly get downtown rn”

but he was like “lmk when ur gonna be around again and we can hang out” so like....i dont know if he was just saying “we should hang out again” or if he Literally Meant next time im downtown we should hang out downtown

and even tho its a really easy ride on the subway if ur body isnt garbage. i still feel like its such an imposition to be like “i gotta plan around my garbage body” and i just. idk this is really frustrating i dont know wht to do but i gotta figure it out cuz its been a little while so i should rly text him today and stop putting it off