#if thats why im ficless in 7 years for one fandom | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

dabihaul666 · 4 months ago

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committed to exploring what jun would think of the bad puppy reputation bc if any world wide team fucks at all or has the slightest semblance of fucking it doesnt even go to impact naked hotel room incident it goes to certain members of the lec but anyway i dont like angst but i am caught up on that combo of rizzork and misunderstanding + language barriers + The Culture of bisexual leaning homophobes thats the gaming (in general and pro i assume) scene but im just conflicted bc i hate it but also like........... meaty issue a lot to chew on they should fix that and also they should fix that specifically so they can date or whatever idk im just...

#imagining is so fun but its like a maze and 90% of the time u dont find ur way out #so u gotta go back and try a different way out #and u do that n do that n do that till u find the way out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#and then ur out n ur like shit ok i gotta start over from the middle #but its been like anywhere from 15 to 6 years trying to find ur way from a to z again and it doesnt work but also its like #imagining a whole ass movie and u have to novelize it but u cant remember it bc re-remembering is like an old tape playback #you cant do it infinite times its starts to degrade #and then like i struggle with writing the worst of anyone i know much less directly conveying my thoughts to whatever fucking cinema grade #daydream i have going on #so #if thats why im ficless in 7 years for one fandom #and ficless and untouched for the last one which would be like.. 11 yrs or something im sorry im just quite literally #mentally and physically incable of writing fic but #i assure u its all there #opposite of anaphantasia = that pic of the guy going i can imagine anything and thats me #but its also a fucking curse #its like trying to pour old hardened sugar out of a shaker with a single salt shaker sized hole

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