#if my amane analysis seems longer and better put together than the rest thats cause Im the most normal about amane momose actually

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#yeah yeah Exactly! And yeah- fire is more about clearing the space for new growth#or a preventative measure to make sure something isn't wholly infected/tainted#there's also ties with fire and sacrifice (phyrric/pyre) but that's moreso a intersection between Amane and Fuuta#Amane going by the idea that you have to Suffer to Grow#(incidentally she may cling onto that reasoning because if it's not that? why did She have to Suffer then?)#justification that serves the dual purpose of giving her autonomy and giving distance to her hurt tags by @sinfulequity

Exactly! It's harder to accept the idea that she went through All Of That for no good reason! Plus, we know that Amane views (or at least, says) that what her parents did to her is "love"

T2Q2: Do you believe you were loved? A: Very much deeply.

T2Q9: What does love mean to you? A: To spread mercy with no limits.

Implying that Amane is in a "less fortunate" or possibly..."more sinful" position than her parents, Amane has been basically told for her entire life that she is sinful and impure and that her wants and desires are sinful and impure.

Plus she's consistently portrayed and depicted with animals and animal symbolism (specifically cats, the defacto symbol of sin and impurity for this series, at least to me) and her being framed as "scarier" and even "inhuman" in Purge March.

In a way, Amane is Subhuman for not being pure little girl, she's not been good enough to be a Human so she doesn't get the Right to be a Person.

This makes her embracing of that side of her very fun to me, something something "If what you are is consider inhuman in the eyes of god the only way to live your truth is to be the monster people consider you to be." something.

(Note: On My side of the Milgram fanbase, everyone, including me, Died when this question came out- we were all collectively sobbing, the mercy without limits incident killed All Of Us)

(Also second note: Amane basically breaks the standards of women, the standards of victims, the standards of children and the standards of her cult through her actions being motivated by some level of anger and self-preservation and also her repeatedly fighting back against being perceived as pitiful and weak. Once again, she cannot be considered human because she cannot meet those standards.)

Notably, Amane never calls herself a good girl, and even implies in Magic that she cannot be one.

Only if, only if, only if I could be a good girl

I take an oath! I can only become a better girl!

In a way, it is "mercy" that they don't just fucking kill her for being inherently impure and unable to change, cause they could have and they almost Did. Unsurprisingly, the supremely painful torture methods have a chance at death. It's why I listed it as the cycle she's stuck in.

Lovely enough though, in spite of the constant punishment, self-punishment and self-hatred, Amane doesn't want to be anyone But herself. She treasures her present self, and treasures being alive in the first place.

Amane: ……I don’t think that. Being born into this world is the first miracle any person experiences, and is something to celebrate. Even if after birth I was put through trial after trial, the value of that will never disappear.

I like how she doesn't refer to herself here as the person who was put through trials, Amane talks around a lot of things and leaves a lot of room to deny things if the situation goes south. But it also fits with how she downplays the actual severity of her pain in Magic.

And also! Amane notably doesn't really repeat her parents abuse with Yuno or Fuuta! She's actually really patient with the both of them! And when it comes to Shidou her "mercy" isn't stabbing him but Waiting to see if he will change and warning him of the possible consequences. While her parent's mercy Is punishment in the attempt to change her into something "purer."

Re: Fire. There's this really good analysis by 1moremilgramenjoyer about the fire/water parallels of Fuuta and Amane that breaks down the difference between the all consuming hateful fire and the cleansing loving water and the ways both represent purity. The Water = Love metaphor is A Thing Alright

Hm, I wonder...thinking about it now...Milgram has a lot of cycles doesn't it? Milgram, the Psychological Torture Prison has been going on for a while hasn't it? Many Es, many prisoners. We have prisoners trapped in cycles and prisoners trying to break out of cycles...

Muu has hourglasses, Mikoto has his tarot, Amane has death, Haruka wants to reset everything back to the start, Mahiru is on a merry-go-round rotating forever and ever...cycles of violence and cycles of abuse and cycles of self-destruction...hm...