#if it's literally the ONLY content you can consume imma take a guess and say that you're just sexualizing The Gays

[ishomieokay]

Right, so. Today I learned that some people in this fandom can get really fucking weird when you say that you don't like m/m content.

[kachinnate]

,,,,okay i know i just said i wasn’t going to talk about the deh movie but actually yeah imma talk about it for just a sec bc y’all actually make me legitimately distressed sajkfndsmjkgds

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLQ_A0H1otc i dont have the braincells to do a shot by shot analysis right now but here’s what we’re lookin at

under a readmore because ghhhhhhh

firstly, let me lead with this: yes, from what we know, there’s a lot of things wrong with this movie. 

the worst, in my humble opinion, being the bts treatment of the (very few) actors of color, and the lack altogether of any production team members of color. that’s something that should be acknowledged, talked about, and fucking dug into especially at the current fucking period of time we’re living in. it’s unsurprising, but disgusting nonetheless, and it set this movie up for failure from the very beginning. i’m a white person so by no means so i feel inclined or like i have any authority in saying what one should feel wrt all of that, however i will say if there’s to be a boycott in not watching this movie, that should 100% be the reason why. it’s fully poc’s choice whether or not to forgive the production team or give this movie a chance for the irredeemable shit it did in regards to handling the movie’s production. the movie imo definitely doesn’t deserve their forgiveness, but again, that is not for me to say. 

there’s some little things too that i can’t fully think of off the top of my head - like, the whole making larry connor’s stepdad thing fucking irks me, for example, but, like...... listen.

if you know me like at all, you know my favorite word is nuance.

so, i’m going to say it outright: the way you people are approaching this three minute trailer shows literally.... none?? no nuance ??? is it no-nuance november over here or ???? like i’m begging you i’m BEGGING YOU to put aside your pre-determined prejudices against this movie and like stop pretending to be a renowned film critic for ten seconds because it’s really not as outright fucking abysmal as you are saying!! and also it’s possible to have opinions that aren’t completely fucking polarized to one side because guess what, the deh movie? a piece of media! what is the shit y’all are constantly preaching about having the ability to consume media critically ? because you’re trying to cancel a fucking trailer based on the contents of the trailer alone !!!!! hello !!!!!!!!

media is bound to be problematic. if y’all were as quick to judge any movie as you did this one, guess what you wouldn’t be watching any movies like ever <3 

anyway lets get into the parts that are probably going to get me cancelled lmao 

ben platt - listen. LISTEN. listen i know he’s too old to be reprising evan we ALL know he’s too old to be reprising evan i’ve heard this same argument since the announcement was made we get it we all know. haha he’s a grandpa yes bestie ur so right ur so funny wow. i do agree that we should’ve maybe had a not-ben-platt evan moment but here’s some things to keep in mind: the arguments of “oooh ABF is right there !!!!!!” 1. who’s to say he was available? 2. the environment of a movie is so, SO much different than that of a musical -- as much as you wanna pretend you know everything from just a trailer, there’s no way of knowing what scenes were added that might’ve made the movie like.. idk possibly more intense story-wise not even COUNTING the fact that just inherently a movie set is different than a musical one? like yes ben platt might be just being used as a device but that’s probably not the sole and only reason. Also, if i see One (1) more comment about his FUCKING HAIR 😃 first of all it’s not that deep like... if you’re so distracted by an actor having their hair different that’s on you, but going as far as to call it bad or distracting or being like Vehemently a way about it? y’all i know it’s most likely not your intention but that is literally just ben platt’s natural fuckin ETHNICALLY JEWISH hair sajknfgkjds!!!! i’m not the first to make this point, but like dsjnfkjdsg!??! y’all are being so mean about it and for WHAT? again, maybe not intentional, but it reads as like high key Very antisemetic and you should.... maybe not 😳 be that way

connor. the thing about a trailer is that they don’t show you all the scenes because they want you to come see the movie. right? can we agree on that? all the connor scenes in the trailer had SEVERAL hard cuts, omitting a lot of the scene -- like the computer lab scene! we see the beginning of it, there’s a VERY obvious hard cut, and then he’s running out! in my opinion my first watch through of this trailer i had a very like “:// hmm all these actors feel a lil like dry”, but man oh man the comments ive seen about connor. holy shit guys. this boy gets 7 minutes of stage time in the actual musical, and the whole thing is we DON’T KNOW VERY MUCH ABOUT HIM. not to burst your bubble, and i by no means hate connor, i love me some good connor lives fics and stuff, but everything we write with connor being alive? that is !! speculation on our part !!!! those are headcanons and us using the little context we have!! connor doesn’t have any significant development IN THE SOURCE MATERIAL that is being adapted into a movie !!! you 1. can’t fully judge a character with already limited screentime in a 3 minute trailer, 2. can’t really call what connor has canonically in the musical as in depth character development !! what is his arc then !!!! he pushes evan, goes to the computer lab, has an outcast loner kid moment, gets upset, takes the letter, DIES. sorry stans, that’s just how it is !! and, AND, everything in between, all the idiosyncracies, that depends on the actor playing connor! speaking of, you know who the actor is playing connor in the movie? that’s right, colton ryan! so, i don’t know, maybe... have some trust in the process, in an actor who ALREADY has played connor on broadway???? and also trust that you will get more connor content then u are seeing from a 3 minute trailer!! dhgnijsdg and some of the comments on like his appearance specifically? like are you really made that he doesn’t have long hair?? they kept his nails and his rings but nahhh the hair was apparently a MUST HAVE (even though like.. not all connor actors on broadway always had/have long hair but w/e).. REGARDLESS. tldr on THAT , the movie would have to do a pretty shitty job if they want to take something from someone who doesn’t have much to begin with and i think y’all are being extremely harsh on this point 

jared. honestly i’m a bit worried too about the like... name change, because it does have the potential to be taking out some representation, but... they did change the name to fit the actor’s ethnicity? it’s a really [hmm] topic because, again, from a trailer and from what we have been told we don’t KNOW a lot of the context, but i think it’s important to remember that uh.. jewish people aren’t just? always white ?? there’s a possibility they changed the last name to fit with the [ethnicity] while keeping him jewish?? ofc there’s the possibility that they Didn’t and ... again hm that’s its own thing altogether but just reiterates the point that you can’t knock a whole movie just based on the trailer. you can’t talk about things you know nothing about. 

alana. same thing as before, you can’t.... completely bash a character based on a 3 minute trailer. there was discussion about how she seemed ‘shy’ when talking to evan, which like.. maybe she is but also that scene was them talking in a library like if u actually take notice of what’s happening in the scene jdskngsd though i do share the general consensus with many others that she won’t get a lot of screen-time but that’s neither here nor there 😔 moving on

scenes and the setting. one of the things i was most like.. tentative about in regards to a switch from a musical to a movie was how they were like... going to do certain scenes? naturally, a lot has to be different when we’re going from a minimal stage set to an entire movie with like.. settings. there are going to be new scenes because a movie lends to have like, physical places that aren’t just [evan’s bedroom] and [murphy kitchen] and [implied school]. so new scenes, new conversations, slightly different pacing.. this is all to be expected right like are y’all geneuinely surprised here or ........

there’s a lot we aren’t seeing yet because this is a TRAILER. again i already mentioned this re: connor but like... again, y’all are making some Claims that just... fucking outlandish. there are so many moments in the trailer that are very obvious Hard Cuts. you don’t have all the information yet. you are angry at a tiny fragment of something that is confusing you because you don’t have all the context. is there a chance that some of this shit is just genuinely Bad? yeah but you really cannot 100000% say it with your chest and gauge it without seeing the movie and understanding what that scene is in context. lowkey uhhh saw some jokes about the zoe scene in the car and :’))) ? jesus? christ????

concluding thoughts because my brain hurts but like. you don’t have to like the movie. you don’t have to WATCH the movie. like all media if you choose to consume the movie you should do so with some CRITICAL THOUGHT. but, just like the novel (and i do not want to have any discussions about that i don’t care if you think it’s good Or bad that’s not what this is about) you guys are going in this WANTING to believe it’s bad and completely polarizing your thoughts on what this is going to be. yeah, maybe there shouldn’t be a movie. i genuinely think we could’ve gone without. but it’s just a piece of media, it’s not a progression like all your (musical is good, novel is bad, MOVIE IS WORSE OH NO) posts are suggesting. they are all just. different pieces of media stemming from a source. at the end of the day it’s just a fucking movie. if you already hate it so much, guess what? you don’t have to watch it! you don’t have to put so much needless fucking hate into a 3 MINUTE TRAILER. you can stop being performative and dissing it for its poor treatment of POC while then going on to make fun of ben platt’s hair and just targeting a different group like! please !!!

i’m not trying to be a fuckin’ advocate for this movie because there’s so much opportunity for it to suck, i do Not have high hopes for it, and i’m not even really sure i want to watch it (i bought the novel when it came out and have yet to read it, and i’m sure the movie will like.. elicit very similar vibes from me lsdngjkdsg like im just not uhhh feeling it) but y’know what? watching the trailer did not bring forth the fucking onslaught of hatred in me that apparently has fuckin posessed all of y’all and like djnsgjksdg plagued my dashboard for this whole evening. don’t come into my inbox trying to like.. argue with me about this (preemptively im turning off anon because i like i Can’t lmao) this is just like... a rant i needed to get out of me real quick. 

SO. tldr for now: have critical thought about shit you consume, there’s no ethical consumption under [the film industry], you can’t judge a movie entirely on its trailer, and y’all need to calm the fuck down 

[mariaiscrafting]

Thoughts on Wilbur Soot? I want a full-blown essay at least 10k words/j. All jokes aside, this is an amazing blog, I come to it every day to see if you've posted something new :]. Keep going forward OP, you're truly amazing.

That is so sweet 😢 (/gen)

I was really  gonna write, “I dunno, I just think he’s a nice dude,” but then you asked for 10k words, so now Imma actually rant. Wilbur’s probably one of the first people who got me back into Minecraft, around 2019, and he was the first person I felt comfortable enough watching the Dream SMP vods from, back in November. 

First of all, the guy’s fricking gorgeous, like, ???? I never see any simping for him on my dash, and I’m just like ??? I’m not very good at simping over people’s appearances myself, so all I will say is that he’s fricking beautiful, jfc.

Second of all, I’m a music nerd, okay, and I really fucking like his singing. Back then, I listened to his music covers so much that I learned the lyrics from songs I’d never even heard of before I started watching Wilbur, by heart. Lol it helps quite a bit that a good chunk of my musical taste is made up of Life is Strange-esque, shitty indie songs that fit right into the covers he made back when he first started streaming. I’ve listened to YCGMA so many times that I have that same familiarity I have with songs I’ve listened to for literal years, knowing exactly what song comes next and when each measure ends and when the breaths are taken, etc., etc. He doesn’t have much finnesse when it comes to the technical qualities of his singing abilities, but he’s a damn good musician. His lyrical composition, chord progressions, little guitar riffs, emotion - ahhh, I just love Wilbur Soot’s music so much. I’m certain I’ll be listening to YCGMA in the middle of the night, when I need a good cry, for years to come lol. 

Third of all, I really, really appreciate his openness about his mental health just, so much. He talks about his anxiety and getting depressed so candidly, he so easily lets his audience know about what kinda mental state he was in during uni and as a teenager and while he wrote YCGMA, and it makes me feel so normal. As dumb and cliched as it is to need a public figure to validate my own lived experiences, I do, and for someone like Wilbur Soot to succeed and be so talented, encouraging, empathetic, and socially active, despite losing motivation and energy at times, gives me a little bit of hope for myself.

Fourth of all, I mean, the guy’s fucking hilarious, are we forgetting this? People always talk about his talents music-wise and writing-wise, or how nice he seems to be, but they always gloss over his genuine comedic ability, and I ??? It takes so much to keep my attention these days, and Wilbur Soot’s videos are still some of the only ones that can manage that feat. He has undeniable chemistry with practically any CC he meets, his editing style is just *chef’s kiss*, and his laugh somehow makes even the most mundane of jokes seem fucking hilarious, it’s just such a delight to watch or listen to him do bits, man.

I left the best for last, lol. The main reason I fricking love Wilbur Soot is his political consciousness and the fact that his political beliefs align pretty well with my own. I’ve dealt with cishet, mostly white guys, both on and off the Internet, for so many damn years, and it’s exhausting. I am so tired of deconstructing myself and suppressing myself for the sake of social interaction, community-building, preventing ostracization, and being able to consume content without feeling enraged or hopeless. It is an exhausting endeavor to want to like and love all the gamers I’ve watched since middle school, and having to just push down and numb the parts of me that want to flinch at offhanded jokes and comments and exclusion from online spaces. Wilbur Soot is a whole other breed of CC. Lol uhhh, I guess he’s what most of the people in the social media circles I used to frequent would call, “a feminist cuck” and “self-hating white guy.” Which all really just means that he goes just beyond human decency. Don’t get me wrong, I do not by any means let white, cishet guys dictate my self-worth anymore, or even let them educate me; that’s what all the wonderful female and POC and queer CCs that I’ve discovered over the years are for. But there’s still something deeply satisfying about listening to this person who fits all the demographic checkboxes of the kinda person who used to make me feel so Other and Wrong, instead rant about how teenage girls can’t express their interests without being denigrated for them out of deeply-entrenched misogyny, or about how society needs to stop villanizing poor people and realize that government aid and social services do a great service for community betterment and are not just used by people supposedly leeching off the taxpayer’s dime. That’s not even to mention the fucking beautiful satire of the E-Girl Trilogy. I always wanted to rant about this, but I don’t know how exactly to put it into the proper words... Basically, as someone who has spent years and years retconning, observing, and caught in the midst of incels, conservatives, and just extremely depressed cishet men of all races, I am deeply familiar with all the resentment, anxiety, misogyny, homophobia, gender essentialism, and self-hatred that goes into creating the average 20-something man’s view on women, society, romance, friendships, and sex. The E-Girl Trilogy is fucking brilliant because it so accurately captures this cocktail of emotions and ideologies, creating a fucking perfect caricature of the average man who looks and is just like Wilbur Soot. The persona is so well-crafted that most listeners who aren’t familiar with Wilbur as a person, or his political views, actually believe these songs are genuine and empathize with the narrators, can you imagine? And the fact that, in the process, Wilbur himself realizes that all of it is a fucking joke, that the narrator’s views on his love interest are weird and creepy and not at all normal or correct, is what makes it genuine satire. He embodies something so perfectly, only to mock it in the process of showing off how much he can embody it... I love satire, but I fucking suck at writing or accurately embodying it, so I’ve always been so fucking jealous of and beyond impressed by the E-Girl Trilogy’s use of satire. 

Lol this isn’t 10k words, but it was much longer than I fucking thought it’d be. Basically, I really like Wilbur Soot, and writing all of this made me realize just how much I missed watching his VODs and streams...

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I didn't expect to get tagged but here we are. As you all will be able to tell in a bit, I am a massive Quackity fan

Thank you for tagging me @skeetlehands!

who is your favourite member on the smp?

Look, I love them all but these have a special place in my heart.

Quackity, Slimecicle (I am fully aware he just joined but I still love him), Schlatt, Tubbo, Eret, AweSamdude, and Ponk.

They're just great in and out of character and just have comforting vibes.

when did you first start watching the smp and what made you get into it?

I gotten in during the Pogtopia era since it took me a while to get access to the streams.

I mainly gotten in with the Sad-ist War animatics along with me trying to catch up on Quackity's VODS. Just someone that I was already familiar with being an easier shift into story and learning others through him

what is your favourite part about watching the smp?

Just watching everyone interact with other and just seeing the plot progress in real time. Its literally just dnd but with extra steps but I enjoy it so much

The improv that they all do is amazing and how everyone have different approaches to their characters makes my writer's side so happy with dissecting everything.

What piece of cursed lore is your favourite

That Wilbur canonically fucked a fish and Philza canonically fucked a Samasung fridge and just seeing the fanbase try to change into something that will at least make a bit more sense.

Im included in this, I basically joined the side that has Sally being a mermaid shapeshifting pirate. Mainly because of pirate Fundy

Who is your favorite duo on the smp

Slimecicle and Ranboo: They're the same person but in different fonts, you can convince me otherwise

Schlatt and Quackity: They managed to be super funny together with all of the jokes and balanced with making a very realistic abusive relationship work. It was always fun seeing them flirt with each other for a joke then get hit with whiplash when canon comes in to remind me that this isnt healthy

Tubbo and Tommy: They're two dumbasses who share the same braincell but then they constantly lose it and Tubbo mainly has custody of it

Wilbur and Schlatt: I just enjoy seeing Schlatt messing with Wilbur and occasionally flirts with him to get Wilbur more pissed off

Who are your comfort streamers

Quackity and Slimecicle are comfort streamers

Eret, Fundy, and AweSamdude are my comfort people (meaning I dont watch them as much but I find comfort in their presence. And the other two are also under this category)

Who is your favorite character

Quackity due to how complex his character is and yet how it looks so simple

Schlatt because is just a villian who knows how to play the game without getting caught

Tubbo, watching him trying to be hopeful with everything destroy around him and he just slowly become used to everything going wrong

AweSamdude because he is just trying his best to be a father figure others and I just got family issues

Who do you think the best actor(s) on the smp

Imma skip over the ones that we all already said and get into the ones that dont get enough praise

Quackity: Just how he managed to make his character seem so basic but in reality its really complex. And just seeing the shift from him being a chaotic force of nature to being a serious character that is trying his best to reach something that has been hanging over his head is just *chefs kiss* and he always delivers amazing lines on the spot.

BadBoyHalo: He is doing great right now, even though he is a bit rusty with starting he still manages to get into character and stay in character the entire time. When slowly easing in, you can tell its a bit forced but once he finds his footing, he knows how to deliver his lines.

AweSamdude: His entire bit where he was getting rescued from the egg fucking hurt. How he sounded weak from the entire thing and tired to where he just wanted to rest was so well. And I know he can act more energetic when he was accidentally dragged into playing a cop during Quackity's and Bad's date

Fundy: You guys need to give him more praise for his acting because he is fucking amazing at it. The little touches to how he voice when speaks is so good along with his body language in game. He knows what he's fucking doing and I love him for that. And when he snapped, it made complete sense if you payed attention to his character

I didnt add Ranboo because he's automatically at the top section due to him being a dnd player. Same goes to Slimecicle even though he hasnt acted yet. I dont make the rules. You play dnd, you know how to act

What are your favorite quotes

I dont have favorite quotes, just dialog heavy scenes.

Before Doomsday, Quackity going to take his horse far away from L'Manberg, it being the one thing he cares about. It was just so good

The entire Schlatt and Quackity argument in front of the white house

The meeting between Schlatt and Quackity with Schlatt yelling out to him in a taunting way to where Tommy and Quackity are trying to figure out what happened to the tnt. I constantly rewatch it to feel the adrinaline pumping to feel something

Wilbur's slow descend into insanity and talking to Tommy. Just showing his paranoia and fears consuming him, him projecting his fears into Tommy as an attempt of manipulation, and his hero complex shift into villian one

Schlatt's winning speech of him projecting it as something that was bound to happen no matter what. The amount of charisma and confidence that was in his voice as I was watching Tommy hiding underground in fear was just a perfect scene

Tommy's argument with Dream when everyone is protecting Tommy. Its the small details of Tommy taunting Dream to kill him, knowing he wont no matter what. Him telling everyone to protect Tubbo and everyone listening without hesitation.

The debate that Quackity and Dream had for like 11 or 14 minutes. All of that was completely unprompted unscripted, it was just so satisfying seeing someone stand up against Dream for the first time and actually beating him. Sure it was in a verble conflict but it still counts as a defeat

Be honest, who do you simp for? (Ayo if anyone says Tommy or Tubbo I will🗡)

Schlatt, Quackity, and Slimecicle

Its pretty obvious, I dont really try to hide it

Whats your favorite stream

Uhhhh I dont exactly have one so none I guess

Whats your least favorite streams

Im sorry, but all of the Jackbox stream. You need a specific group of people to play together in order to actually make it funny and keeping the energy throughout the entire thing.

After a bit later, everyone has a tendency of pandering to the audience and repeat jokes. They managed to beat jokes to the ground faster than Tiktok AND Twitter.

Dont get me started with DreamTeam being in there. They're funny in thier own rights but the shipping jokes get so unfunny so quick and they dont know how bounce off of others well. The only exception to this is when Quackity, Velvet, and Ant were playing with Sapnap and Dream. And thats because they decided to mess with the straight white guys into accidently saying offensive shit and seeing those two suffer with trying tiptoe around was so amusing

Whats something about the smp fandom thay makes you sad

This doesnt get me sad, just frustrated and its mostly towards dsmptok and dsmptwt but sometimes this fandom doesnt fucking know how to analyze characters. Like when everyone jumped on Tubbo on being the bad guy when he was a kid trying to use old tatics that knows that worked before and stand up for himself

How when one person decides to do something that they believe is right, everyone just throws the term villian arc around

When one person does one good thing the suddenly everyone accepts into them being good and not ever looking into it.

For fucks sakes, I saw people keep saying that Quackity was turning into Dream or Wilbur and I just sat there being confused on how they conntected those dots that were in different books.

Its so frustrating to read through. But here on dsmpblr, you guys actually understand character analysis, are able to critique them and able to love whoever you enjoy.

Another thing is how this fanbase really puts everyone on a pedestal or objectify them. Just completely forgetting that they're human and treat the streamer as a character. Like, yeah they're playing up a persona whenever they're making content but theres a difference and you shouldn't hold them up like that.

You cant use the argument of "They're young, they dont know any better", when I first entered my first fandom (I was like 11/12), I fully understood that theres a boundary between me and the creator. What they are on screen is a persona but they're still human and I should treat them as such. Its just something that bugs me and its unnerving to see whenever people start getting wierd about it

Final bit is just how the twitch chat acts. They all force the streamer to follow the 'main' plot of it being Tommy or Techno or whoever the fandom chooses to have a favorite, completely ignoring the fact that they are their own character. No one wants to meta game because where is the fun in that but the fucking chat gets so annoying when the streamer goes against fanfavorite of the week. It drains the fun of it being multiple pov's and different characters.

When Slimecicle was barely starting stream I saw so many people spam "Go with Ranboo" and not let him even get into lore first. I hated that I knew it was coming but it was still so fucking frustrating seeing them try to boss him around. Please just let people live outside of the 'main' plot, not everything revolves around your favorites. Now shut the fuck up and let them play

What about the smp fandom that makes you happy?

The people that create art, animatics, theories, playlist, or write oneshots

All of you creators are great and deserve so much more respect then what the fandom gives you because jesus fucking christ they're all so fucking rude. You guys are the ones that are carrying this fandom on your backs and I fucking respect yall for that

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Time for da spead: @nixavia @dambette404 and @mocha-is-lost yall dont need to join.....unless😳😳😳

[sailor-freak]

Funny Thing About Me #7

So this one’s kinda weird but I legit had an epiphany today and I need to share it with the world 😂.

I’m in a lot of fandoms, that’s not a secret. I’m in the Sailor Moon fandom, the musicals fandom, the band fandom (bandom... no?), K-pop, girl groups, every single individual artist I love, every individual musical I like, every TV show I like, fandoms can be for a whole thing or one specific thing so by that definition I’m in A LOT. I’ve been through that my whole life, I’m not a sociable person, as a kid I had a few friends who I had things in common with, so I passed the time with media on TV or YouTube or whatever, basically it’s fair to say I’m a strong media consumer 😂. And for some reason I’ve constantly been on this... tear, if you will, to finally find my favourite thing in the world, my absolute top fandom. The thing I can’t live without, the thing I never get bored of, the thing I would give up everything else for. I keep trying to find it, but then I eventually find something else that takes my interest more.

The thing with me is when I get into something, I will just take in everything to do with it for however long then get bored and want something else. That can last a week or so, or it can last a few years, either way my brain likes to fixate on something so much that it sort of wears itself out of it 😂. That’s not the fault of the media or the fandom, it’s my brain (it does it with food as well 😂). So every time I’ve found my “absolute top fandom ever”, eventually my interest drops in favour of something else and I have the difficulty of removing the attachment I’ve forced on to this fandom. It’s the same with songs, if I say something is my favourite song then I listen to it SO much I get bored of it and find a song I like more, it takes a lot of will power to accept my favourite has changed 😂.

However, today I realised something. I’m done with trying to find my top fandom, the thing I love the most in the world and can never get bored of 😂. Cos I’ve actually had it around me all the time. The thing I can NEVER get bored of, and the thing I always look for in everything... is music. MUSIC IS MY TOP FANDOM 😂.

I love bands, I love girl groups, I love all sorts of artists, doesn’t matter the genre, I just love music. When I watch musicals, my main interest is the soundtrack. I can enjoy other aspects of things, but the only thing that’s going to spark my enjoyment the most is the music. The art form of music I can’t get bored of, because it’s so vast and there’s so much variety I literally cannot get bored of it 😂. So, if you were to ask me what one fandom or one piece of media I would give up everything else for, it’s music 😂. I can certainly have favourites, I do have a favourite band, a favourite K-pop group, favourite songs, favourite musicals, but the entire art form of music is what I enjoy the most and the idea of just picking one aspect of it doesn’t agree with me because I can’t have one form of music without another. I want it all, basically 😂.

I guess part of this whole thing comes from the fact there is a lot of people who can pick a specific favourite thing they post the most about and can ever get bored of, but I’m not like that. I’ve tried to be but I don’t think I can 😂. The reason I can go from changing my profile pictures from Halestorm to GWSN (my Twitter atm lol), or post videos about Sera Myu then a K-pop video or something, is cos I don’t have that top thing I want everything to be. It’s not a bad thing to be like that, a lot of my friends are like that and they’re perfectly normal people, but I’m just tired of trying to give myself a top favourite thing in the world and be the number 1 fan of something, I just don’t care anymore cos I know music is really what I love the most 😂.

Was that kinda deep? Sorry lol, sometimes I have these moments where I stop giving a fuck about something and I realise it doesn’t bloody matter, I don’t want to force myself to have a favourite fandom in the world forever because I love so many things that all link to music 😂. I feel like people might get mad like “omg you’re in this fandom but you won’t dedicate your life to it anymore FAKE FAN GET OUT” 😂. That’s mainly a message to my Sera Myu friends I know none of you are like that you’re all lovely but hi I’m done trying to force myself to love Myu most in the world it’s just one of the many things I love and enjoy making content for 😂. K bye imma go watch Miya videos cos she’s low key what made me come to this epiphany no I’m not going to explain why I have my reasons 😂.

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skam fic questions!

This is a tag by @randomfinny​ for people who read SKAM fic. thanks friend, this looks like a lot of fun!! i’m gonna try to challenge myself and list each fic i name once, so as to try to name as many fics as i can. let’s bust out them bookmarks and see how this goes!

The first fic you fell in love with: million bad habits to kick by @bechnaesun! or perhaps more generally the fics cz had written at that point. i think at this point i’d read a bunch in the tag but this fic was the first i encountered that i felt really portrayed Even’s character in a way that both made sense to canon and resonated a lot with me. i remember also really liking all the gaps cz filled in, as well as the realistic, nuanced, but completely loving way she wrote Even and isak’s relationship.

The last fic you fell in love with: the only one (worth capturing on my kodachrome) by @pronouncingitwang. y’all no lie this is the best evilde fic i have ever read in my life. no exaggeration. vilde’s voice is pitch perfect, as is her character arc and coming to terms with her sexuality - so realistic and nuanced and also fits so well with canon! if you like second person and subverted soulmate au tropes this is definitely the one for you.

The fic that you’ve re-read the most times: True or False by @westiris, which is just the perfect little childhood friends au, i’m always in awe of ceecee’s ability to craft whole worlds in such a small space, and also so heartwarming and comforting.

A fic that you didn’t expect to love as much as you do (based on the description, a pairing or whatever): sitting on the fences by @lesbovilde because first of all enemies to lovers isn’t my favorite trope by any means and second Jonas/Mikael had not occurred to me as a ship at all, but the writing is gorgeous and i just love the pacing of the story and the development of their relationship, it feels so organic and i also like that it’s relatively drama free, just two boys slowly discovering their feelings for each other.

A fic you knew you were going to love from the first paragraph or even just reading the description: to the bone by @rosesonmyshelf, which just had the most beautiful, poetic, gutwrenching summary ever, i knew before clicking it the rest of the fic was going to be exactly that beautiful and poetic and gutwrenching [and i was totally right]

A fic that makes you feel like shouting about it to anyone who listens because everyone needs to read it:  An Equal and Opposite Reaction by @junkshop-disco, which is just... it’s brilliant, hands down the best canon fic i’ve read in this fandom, and criminally underrated. i wish it had a million more kudos

The fic you are/were the most excited to be updated: i’ll go with a mental archive of love unwanted by @icelandcurry back when it was still running, because i was there from *almost* the beginning [second or third chapter i wanna say?] and i remember pretty much dropping everything to read an update whenever it dropped. like this one sunday i went out to lunch with my dad at a buffet and i literally had my phone pulled out, me reading the fic while absently piling salad onto my plate. I’M NOT EVEN REMOTELY JOKING.

The fic you caught yourself thinking/theorizing about the most during your everyday life: the before, during and after series by @icelandcurry, which is basically the mental archive verse, which is only slightly cheating.

A fic you want to print out and have it among your books on the shelf: stay a minute by @hotchocolatenthusiast​. honestly kathi can you just print out everything you’ve ever written and send it to me thanks. but seriously i absolutely ADORE this fic, and it’s one of those things i can always come back to, over and over again. a favorite across fandoms and literature, my friend

A fic universe you want to live in: It Feels Like - by @eiqhties, mostly because i love magical realism [also this in general is just. a gorgeous fic. also i love sonja]

A fic to which you would read endless amount of follow-ups, one-shots, meta, etc. by the author: Next to you, is where I call home by @call-this-a-mask, because seriously it’s just such a detailed, incredibly well-thought out verse and i want everything from it i can possibly get my hands on. i love these dumb running boys SO MUCH. i’ll also say if you must live, darling one, just live by @hotchocolatenthusiast for Reasons [hint wink nudge]

The scene in a fic that made you laugh the hardest: i’ll just say everything in  A little help (goes a long way) by @diamondjacket, and honestly everything Lys has ever written because she is brilliant and hilarious which is truly a winning combination.

The scene in a fic that made you cry the hardest: before i answer this, i just want to make it clear that i don’t cry at fic. i just don’t. i don’t cry while reading in general. except at 3 in the morning when i read the last scene of last chapter of with love, from anonymous by @bechnaesun and @westiris and i was just, entirely consumed with emotions for the boys, and so so happy they’d finally gotten the happy ending they both deserved. goddamn, it was beautiful. and yes i still have the receipts [AKA my distressed messages to ceecee at 3 in the morning]

A scene in a fic that left you hot and bothered: imma pass this question, if that’s cool with y’all

A scene that squeezes your insides and hard to read but in a good way: i find A Bridge of Magpies by @junkshop-disco in general to be very intense and hard to read because of the way it deals with mental health issues, but especially the scene leading up to and during Even’s stay at St. Mungos’

A twist that made you gasp out loud: this is not necessarily a twist i guess but i legitimately gasped out loud when it turns out Yousef was the first to find out about Isak and Even in take me to the stars by @westiris

A line, scene, a metaphor or an idea in a fic that made you think: 

Mikael nuzzles into Adam’s chest, and Adam breathes deep, contentment filling his lungs like oxygen. He sleeps, and the air tastes like home.

from don't want anything but all of you by @boxesfullofthoughts, which i had to mention at least once here because Lyds is brilliant and the writer of my life and every line they ever write makes me think

A character you fell in love with because of a fic (or multiple fics): I’m gonna go with Mikael and Sonja, because they weren’t really explored that much in canon but i’ve seen some incredibly nuanced portrayals of them that have relaly made me fall in love with them and their relationships with various characters. For Sonja I would definitely point to @eiqhties‘ fics. For Mikael i like  Boys of summer by r0nj4! really gets into his headspace in a very interesting way.

A pairing you’ve grown to love because of a fic (or multiple fics): Definitely Mikael/Adam, thanks to @boxesfullofthoughts‘ brilliant fics [seriously! go read them! read them all!]. Also Eva/Vilde i was, like, pretty neutral on tbh [i’m more of an Eva/Noora fan myself] but there’s some really good fic out there which has turned me into a multishipper

A fic you (re-)read if you have a bad day / would recommend for someone to read if they’re having a bad day: I'll Be Coming Home, Wait For Me by @dahlstrom, which is such a warm, feel-good wonder of a fic, or And they were right in front of you the whole time by Ihavecoldhands which is just pure good feeling in the form of a very well-developed fic

A fic you (re-)read when you really miss Skam / would recommend for someone to read when they really miss Skam: this is a very difficult question, but tbh i think my answer will have to be all of these fics i mentioned, because they are my favorites, and basically for me any skam fic helps when i’m missing skam. is that a copout? idk. it seriously is my answer lol

okay! whew, that was a lot! tagging some folks i know who like reading skam fic: @call-this-a-mask, @evakuality, @towonderland72, @arindwell, @boxesfullofthoughts. only if you feel like it, friends! cheers!