#if it wasn’t sleep paralysis it was dream-waking loops that would be so pervasive that id lay in bed for solid hours after waking unsure od

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Thinking about how alaruya’s fyozai fic, residue, made me feel SO seen in terms of Fyodor’s surreal hallucinatory visions that would, at random points, appear while he laying in bed, working, or generally doing random things and Fyodor just. Not reacting to it most of the time until he does.

To this day, I still have no idea what exactly caused those unbearable intrusive thoughts and visions I used to have (Ive always attributed it to stress and sleeping on the couch?) and I’ve never really been able to talk about just how casually terrifying it is.

I will never ever shut up about residue; even today, the derealizing atmosphere of this fic is still so relatable to me