#if id lived back then id totally have become a nun... just me and the girls tending to herbs and making little drawings of obscure saints

[youjustwaitsunshine]

currently doing a course on medieval illustrations and it's so much fun yall!! we've been making pigments after medieval recipes and we get to make our own medieval drawing on parchment with our own paints and today we've been gilding and it's so much fun doing this all girl activity together around two tables in the workshop just like the nuns would have done in the middle ages

[splendidshinobi]

FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST 2003 LIVE REACT: EPISODES 6-10

back at it again with the white vans

episode 6: the alchemy exam

alrighty then

um mustang calling edward “ed” is EXTREMELY offputting

ohhhhhhh noooooo not shou tucker

FUCK

im wholly unprepared

them all being in central instead of east is low key jarring like my brain isnt computing it

alexander’s intro is basically the same 

nina bbyyyyy girl u deserved so much better

ed is such a fucking nerd...chemistry club modern au confirmed

god the more tucker talks the more i wanna beat his face in

al pretending to eat by tossing a potato in his armor i-

aww theyre playing in the snow theyre so pure

wonder how long thatll last

“bigger brother” and “little big brother” and ed doesnt even get mad

ed’s birthday party????????

A MELON? ED YOURE SO RUDE

so 03 had ed’s bday instead of elicia’s...CAUSE THEY GOT ELICIA IN THE WOMB

“it’s here!” “the tea?” “the baby!” hughes is a fuck head

ok so now they’re having elicia replace rush valley baby arc

this was winry’s time to shine in fmab i miss her 

if winry isnt here who is gonna birth this baby

oh my god they just realized ed can use alchemy without a circle

no wonder he’s been using circles this whole time

SO ELICIA JUST POPPED OUT????? WHAT

STUFF ALEXANDER IN THE ARMOR AND PRETEND YOURE A TALKING DOG???

“i dont think thats very funny” NO ALPHONSE IT IS NOT

THEY KNEW EXACTLY WHAT THEY WERE DOING WITH THAT ONE I SWEAR TO GOD IN THIS ESSAY I WILL

damn bradley what up homie

im so thrown off by the way theyre doing the exam omg

seriously what the hell is fuhrer bradley’s purpose right now is he even the fuhrer in this i feel like they wouldve mentioned it

oh lord ed is about to impress everyone with his clappy hands

ok so next episode is nina FUCK

episode 7: night of the chimera’s cry

havoc babeeee

im gonna marry him my himbo king

also can RIZA DO SOMETHING PLZ

“huhhhhhhhh nina” ew tucker that was weirdly gross

wonder why

cant do it cant do it

do we think jean kirstein was modeled after jean havoc slightly looks wise

was that purposeful 

ill have to google 

serial killer who only targets women?  it cant be scar...scar drinks respect women juice

barry or slicer bros maybe? um ok

why did we start with liore if they were just gonna hop right back into the past for a huge chunk of episodes idk

assessment day??? oh noodles

AL WHY DID YOU TELL TUCKER TO MAKE ANOTHER TALKING CHIMERA ALPHONSE NO

THE NOISE I EMITTED IM GONNA TAKE A LAP

im gonna FUCKING SCREAM

ed r u writing to winry??? that’s a bit out of character for u good sir

no tucker put that baby down

im gonna fucking SCREAM

aww he burned nina’s picture thats not sus at all

SHESKA!!!!!

wait does the ironblood alchemist know what tucker did to his wife? thats kinda the vibe im getting

SCARRRRRRRR

looking like a pirate too damn

his voice sounds different is that j michael tatum 

apparently not it was dameon clarke in 03 ya learn something new everyday 

ew elicia has a lot of hair for a FUCKING NEWBORN

ed really is such a cynic very suspicious of everyone as he should be really

basque grand knowS SOMETHING

oh jesus oh fuck oh god please do not TOUCH THAT BABY

ed and al snuck back in to the house well u know what its for the best

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

im gonna cry again please god no

FUCKING DIE SHIT HOLE

she’s hurting? oh my god

my sweet angel

ew his eyes!!!!!!! 

tucker is such a fucking failure...like look at the chimera squad and greed’s theatre troupe being the way they are. ugh it really hits how fucking unfair it is 

ed was really about to split them? boy you know better

where is nina going...im hurting

ed really tried to save her in this one

SCAR KILLS NINA IN THE STREETS???????? SIR

thats different

oh snap 

oh FUCK

SCAR WHY DID YOU LEAVE HER BODY LIKE THAT

THE WAY SHE WAS ARRANGED ON THE WALL THAT WAS FUCKED UP

AND THEY FOUND HER LIKE THAT???? AT LEAST IN BROTHERHOOD THEY DIDNT HVE TO SEE HER CORPSE ARE YOU SHITTING ME?

that was fucked.

episode 8: the philosopher’s stone

can yall get ed and al away from nina’s fucking MURAL 

get out of the car mustang

finally jesus christ

roy mustang talking about healthy coping mechanisms dont make me laugh but alright baby boy go off i guess?

im curious about who this goddamn serial killer is though lets turn to that plot thread

r u kidding me

mustang is making ed and al take over tucker’s research?? thats actually wildly messed up

oh tucker was straight executed that’s a choice i guess

tucker and the philosopher’s stone sounds inaccurate but ok

ed please stop being mean to your brother

03 mustang has got me reaching for a fucking baseball bat on GOD

scar and edward having this conversation right now i literally cannot

WINRY yes bitch

BRADLEY WHAT IN TARNATION

JESUS LORRRRRRDDDDDDDDDDDD

alphonse shut your mouthhhhhhhhhhh

im so confused what is bradley up to

“alchemists are not cold blooded murderers?”

i mean

kimblee would beg to differ for one

whos this creepy lady 

her voice sounds familiar

barry’s food shop?

the killer is barry ok got it

IS BARRY DISGUISED AS A WOMAN

I KNEW THAT WAS JERRY JEWELL’S VOICE

WELL I KNEW IT SOUNDED FAMILIAR AT LEAST

WINRY GET OUT OF THE FUCKING TRUCk

has PINAKO TAUGHT YOU NOTHING

ok so i VASTLY prefer suit of armor original manga canon barry

this is such an odd plot what in fuck

um OW the meat cleaver

im so confused this fucking plotline

oh hey alphonse nice of you to show up!

is barry still gonna become a suit of armor later on

it makes NO SENSE to introduce him otherwise 

everytime i see 03 mustang i wanna beat his ass HONESTLY

literally i will shove my foot up his ass

fullmetal here we go

ed thinks he’s so punk rock 

oh great scar’s seen the watch

episode 9: be thou for the people

ed you simp buying winry all this stuff my edwin heart is ascending

SIMP SIMP SIMP

“mr. elric”?? you mean MAJOR ELRIC

to be fair though fuck the military

YOUSWELL??? oh LORD

im gonna need to read a full chronology of this show

 alphonse continues to be a precious angel 

where’s my boy yoki!!!!!

edward you idiot don’t go flaunting your money

woof woof ed

al looks so offended by ed saying they just met

whereas in brotherhood didnt he totally throw ed under the bus??? 

a choice to be sure

ah there he is hello yoki

who’s the chick

shes a lesbian

yoki makes me miss my baby girl mei chang

mei where r u

WAS THIS MILITARY DUDE REALLY ABOUT TO CUT DOWN A CHILD??? oh my god

hawkeye getting a promotion yes bby girl

jesus theyre transferring them to east now OKKKKKAY thats not how it happened it the book but ill take it....just doing it the opposite way i guess

who is lyra who is she

cute some military bribery 

umm lyra what the fuck did you do

lyra is a homunculus im callin it now

they definitely invented/changed up some homunculi in fact im certain they did and shes one of em. gotta be

i feel like 03 wrote ed as much more insensitive towards others than he really is...just a vibe im getting

i know he was faking for the townspeople’s sake but i still get this vibe from other instances 

i mean i cant say its not “canon” because its 03 canon

anyways what a show off

i cant believe theyre going to east...fuery and breda better be there

ok finally some answers on their ages....ed got his license at 12 like normal and nina and youswell were when he was 12...liore was 15, 

if they didnt flash the ages on the screen id be lost honestly

at least we’re back up to “present day”

episode 10: the phantom thief

ed saying he doesnt wanna see mustang

same

03 mustang is activating my fight or flight and im choosing fight

ed cheating at cards totally checks out

um who the fuck is this woman

what is she wearing

SERIOUSLY WHAT IS THAT CUTOUT MAAM HOW DO YOUR C**CHY LIPS NOT POKE OUT

idk but this is fem!hisoka

“hey shouldnt we talk first” after getting handcuffed??? christ almighty these innuendos

siren??????? siren is probably also a “fake” homunculus

ugh

ok so the nurse is siren

ya aint slick girly

alphonse control your crush

I REFUSE!!!! ALMEI RIGHTS

why is al’s hair so brown in this flashback anywayssss

oh its spelled psiren ope

like she’s literally a batman villain...

oh my god...............the tiddy grab. my son would never

my son is respectful

is this her homunculus tat or just a random alchemy tat

the added plotlines and original content continue to confuse and astound me every single time....

ok but if psiren really was doing this for the hospital she wouldnt be so flashy about it. like thats how you get caught sweet cheeks

girly stop flirting with this child on god im gonna fucking kick you

now shes a nun????????????????

Shes a fucking troll i hate her

im going to kick alphonse into the sun 

oh great now shes a teacher

wow shes a savior. the savior of amestrian venice. greatttttt

ed looking exactly like this emoji on this gondola rn 🧍‍♀️

STOP FLIRTING WITH THE CHILD 

GOD THIS IS SO BATMAN VILLAIN ESQUE

alphonse plzzzzzzzzzz she aint your girl

ok so probably not the last we see of this ding dong con artist

ok so its starting to get muddy. im scared the 03 stans are gonna come after me like i do like it and im having fun watching it but some of the plot and characterization choices are just....odd??? idk i gotta keep going though!! im sorry i just stan arakawa and her work in all her glory!!!

[thstruckersatlas]

#1-92 🙃

1:When did you lose your virginity? I was like 18 and it was to my first boyfriend 2: Rough sex or soft sex? It usually depends on my mood but I really like soft sex3: Do you have any unusual kinks/fetishes? Not that I know of 4: Weirdest place you’ve had sex? I’m not that interesting like that so the most ive done is in a car. 5: Favourite sex position? I love being on top 6: Do you like to be dominant or submissive? It depends on the mood7: Have you ever had any one night stands? Once and I felt really bad about it cus they ended up catching the feelings8: Sex on the bed, couch or the floor? I love a nice bed 9: Have you ever had sex in a public place? Nooo10: Have you ever been caught masturbating? Once when i lived at home 11: What does your favourite sexy underwear look like? Its the cutest because its lace and black 12: How often do you have sex? hahaha I havent had sex in a very long time 13: Is there anybody right now you’d like to have sex with? Oh yes 14: Do you prefer giving or receiving oral sex? I prefer receiving 15: Most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to you during sex? I fell out of the bed once and also one time my leg cramped both of which made me want to die and become a nun16: A song you’d listen to during hard/rough/kinky sex? Thats a hard one i never had thought about that maybe something circa surviveish17: A song you’d listen to during soft/slow/passionate sex?  Also idk anything like Phoenix like 18: Are you into dressing up for sex? Oh yes very 19: Would you prefer sex in the bath or sex in the shower? 20: If you could have sex with anyone right now, who would it be? Yeah nice try internet. I will say this I have the biggest crush on them21: Have you ever had a threesome? If not, would you? Ugh no and thats one of the things I will never change my mind on22: Do you/would you use sex toys? I do 23: Have you ever sent someone a dirty text/picture? Yeah24: Would you have sex with your best friend? Nah theyre annoying 25: Is there anything you do after sex? (for example, smoke, eat, drink) I like to eat  lol26: Something that will never fail to get you horny? I get really wet when my thighs are played with27: Early morning sex or late night sex? Late night works for me28: Favourite body part on the opposite sex? I really like nice arms29: Favourite body part on the same sex?30: Something that you have hidden in your room that you don’t want anyone to find: Nothing  tbh31: Weirdest sexual act some has performed [or tried to perform] on/with you: It was weird and it involved feet32: Have you ever tasted yourself? [If no, would you?] [If yes, what did you think?] I havent actually33: Is it ever okay to not use a condom: I mean unless youre like planning on having a kid 34: A food that you would like to use during a sexual experience: yeah none35: Worst possible time to get horny: At work or when youre sad 36: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans? I do actually its nice37: How much fapping is too much fapping:38: Best sexual complement you ever got: Someone told me I was the pretties tperson they wer with and thats not sexual but it was great lol39: Favorite foreplay activities:40: What do you wear to bed? Pusheen jammies41: When was the first time you masturbated: I was like 15 lol42: Do you have any nude/masturbating pictures/video of yourself? I have a folder full of them43: Have you ever/when was the last time you had sex outside? NOo44: Have/would you ever have sex in public? Noo lol im not spontaneous for that45: Have/would you ever had a threesome? UHH nooooo46: What is one random object you’ve used to masturbate?47: Do you watch gay/lesbian porn? why/why not? No and because thats never interested me48: Do you like oral sex? (why/why not) I love it i think i get off on that more than i do with actual sex49: How do you feel about tattoos on someone you are interested in? Thats fine50: How would you feel about taking someones virginity? Oh gosh no thats too much responsibility 51: Is there any food you would NOT recommend using during a sexual encounter? I’m gonna go with hot cheetos52: Would you rather be a pornstar or a prostitute? Id rather be a pornstar i mean at least youre famous lol53: Do you watch porn? Not really 54: Have you ever been called a freak? Why? No lol55: Do you feel comfortable going “commando”? No 56: Would you have a problem with going down on someone if they hadn’t shaved their pubic hair? I mean i wouldnt but it definitely makes things a bit more challenging57: If you could give yourself head, would you? No lol58: Booty or Boobs? Butt because i like mine59: Have you ever cheated on someone? (Why?) No60: If you were the other sex for a day, what are five things you would do?61: have you ever watched someone masturbate? Yeah 62: has anyone ever watched you masturbate? Yeah 63. Have you ever had an erection and someone noticed? 64. What is your method of masturbation? (ie. toys, clitorial, prostate)65. What is your bra/penis size? I’m a 36 b66. What is the strangest thing you have ever put up your vagina/anus? hahaha 67. When was the last time you masturbated? Yesterday68. When was the last time you had sex? Im not even joking like a year ago69. When was the last time you watched porn? I think like a year ago70. Have you ever bought a sex toy? If so, which one did you buy last? First sex toy? If not, which one do you plan on buying when you do?71. Guys:Circumsized?72. Which not-genital part of your body do you like being touched? My things 73. Which genital part of your body do you like being touched? Anything between my legs74. Girls:Are you able to achieve orgasm just through breast stimulation? No that doesnt work for me75. Have you anonymously sent a sexual ask to someone on tumblr? No lol76. When was the last time you have had a wet dream? I think it was like a week ago77. Which wet dream was your favorite? I dreamt once 78. Is there a friend you would willingly have sex with? theres one79. Is there a celebrity/character you would willingly have sex with? Id let Barry from Joyce Manor do many things to me lol80. Favorite sexual position? I love being on top81. Do you like being called a slut or whore in bed? Nooo 82. Are you into any BDSM? No83. Have you ever wanted to have sex with someone but knew you couldnt for any reason? Why? Of course and they live too far84. Do you like dirty talk? I love it 85. Are you loud or quiet during sex? Masturbation? I think im in the medium i do have soft moans 86. Have you ever been inturrepted during sex or masturbation?Who/what? I was interrupted once by my sister lol87. What kind of porn do you like to watch? It usually involves being eaten out 88. Have you ever confessed to someone that you got an erection over them? What about masturbated to them? No lol89. Have you ever masturbated because your sexual partner wasn’t there when you needed them? I masturbate a lot lol 90. Have you ever had a one night stand? Do you still keep in contact with them? I did and i never texted them back even tho i knew they liked me in the other sense. I think its one of the things i still fell bad about.91. Have you ever had a friends with benefits? Are they still beneficial? I mean its not a total friends with benefits deal but it kind of was/is its strange.92. Ask whatever you want

[deputyapogee]

A Public Declaration of Marginalization: Who We Bully Matters

According to some who have declared my prose as 'stupid sharing', and those who have cautioned me that I may be judged and rendered 'unemployable', according to several in LinkedIn who posture that this is 𝗻𝗼𝘁 business appropriate subject--when does this become a subject of appropriate discussion?

This is my coming out and this post is to express the concerns that have an impact on everyone from primary education, secondary education, home, community, and work.

I am:

• Daughter of an undocumented immigrant that traveled to this country on her own at eighteen. • Daughter of a physically, mentally, and emotionally abused child.

• Daughter of a Hawaiian who: • Told my toddler self that he wished I had never been born • Used me as a BB gun target • More than likely molested me • Broke my mother's jaw • Held a gun to my mother's head threatening her if she ever chose to leave him

• Someone who has been molested and raped by more men than I have fingers and toes • Someone who has been bullied for • My race • Belief choice • Gender

Since my own father declared that he wished I had never been born because he felt justified in his distaste in my very existence that he would pummel and kick my toddler shins with nun-chucks, because my grandmother beat me with a broom with declarations of, "God Damn you to hell! You are so stupid!"--my life and my existence were questionable. Because nobody flew to my defense, because everyone remained silent, because nobody protected me, all of these statements of hatred for my existence must be true. So why am I here? Why did they bother to give birth to me?

Pat Benatar expresses in song, "They cry in the dark so you can't see their tears." This became my life song. Hell is for children because children do not have rights and nobody cares. Most especially so when that child lives in a country where they are a minority.

NPR published an article headlined "Post-Election, Doctors See Kids Suffering Trump-Related Anxiety." We want to sit with consternation about '𝟭𝟯 𝗥𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗪𝗵𝘆' as we discuss the responsibility of those who chose to convey the subject of teen suicide.

https://ww2.kqed.org/stateofhealth/2017/04/19/pediatricians-see-more-trump-related-trauma-in-kids/

According to the CDC, there are an estimated 𝟵.𝟯 𝗠𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗼𝗻 USA adults reported having suicidal thoughts.

https://www.cdc.gov/violenceprevention/pdf/suicide-datasheet-a.pdf

• 𝟭𝟴-𝟮𝟱 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝟳.𝟰% • 𝟮𝟲-𝟰𝟵 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝟰.𝟬% • 𝟱𝟬+ 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝟮.𝟳%

There are several adults that I know who I have talked to in order to try to offer them a sounding board and community support who have had children commit suicide. I have friends who I have had to try to talk out of suicide. I have had friends who I knew were suicidal but needed to talk to wade through a moment. Never, EVER, have I had any adult caregiver EVER come out to discuss what they are wading through with a suicidal veteran.

So, what does the above have to do with this subject? Everything. It has 𝗘𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗬𝗧𝗛𝗜𝗡𝗚 to do with who we feel we have a right to judge, to dismiss, to demoralize, to bully, to hurt.

As a person who is the daughter of an undocumented immigrant, who lived the life of family posturing the differences and the sins of Catholic versus Protestant and Methodist while others declared that they would pray for their souls for our incorrect choice in belief and as a person who has been bullied in more ways than I can begin to effectively express in a single short sentence--we have created our own mess with this. My question is, what are we willing to do to work towards better choices? Shall we continue on with the total dismissal of people because of shallow views?

Who are we really hurting with the words we preach about bullying but behave opposite of what we try to teach? As we preach to children about love and acceptance in the effort to instill proper morals, what examples are we setting and what effect is that having?

In response to a post in a forum about the mini-series '13 Reasons Why':

"When I was her age, I was extremely suicidal because my real father told me that he wished I had never been born and locked me in the back yard so I could not escape and used me as a BB gun target. He physically and mentally abused me in awful ways and since being a toddler, I questioned my existence. Going through high school, by that time I had been raped and molested by so many men that I just wanted to die. When I tried to seek professional help, my entire family demonized me for bringing outsiders into private family matters. I tried to take a knife one day to gut myself. A friend stopped me just before I could plunge the knife into my midsection. Back then, nobody knew how to help me and nobody knew how to talk about this subject. I watched this show and there were numerous triggers for me. From the sexual abuse, the bullying, and the victim blaming. How she felt was exactly how I felt but more. Still, I would watch it again so I could wade through some of the triggers but I would personally choose to do it again only if I do have a counselor available to talk to. I chose to discuss it with a friend. I agree with Beth that it would have been beneficial to include information and even an informational ending regarding suicide. To me, that would have been a responsible thing to do but the dialog and the discussions about suicide must take place. Not just for teens but for veterans as well. This is why 22 veteran suicides a day is never acceptable and a huge passion for me. It is not acceptable for people to dismiss their pain as "they just want attention." IMHO--replace the school with a workplace or community scene and replace the students with adults. Keep the conversations the same because it is still the same and the pain is the same. It does not matter what the age is. Furthermore, how we talk to people and the pain we inflict on people through our posturing of our right to marginalize anyone and how we dismiss them is abhorrent and it is all the same. Just because we grew up, it does not mean that we have changed. We still have cliques, we still bully, we still dismiss the pain and trauma and we still try to shove this subject under the carpet and those of us who are caregivers of those who struggle through emotional trauma are left with the lack of quality information to understand how to help. For some of us, with veterans, the war did not end. Our soldiers came home but the war is now on home ground and several of us feel alone." As someone who is in the business of Information Technology, it is my responsibility to understand the Code of Ethics for the roles I will be performing, the organizations I will be serving, and the teams I will be responsible for considering in cross-functional groups and being able to understand where they may be coming from when they react or respond to various projects that I must forge forward to complete for executive stakeholders. Furthermore, the subject of privacy and security is impacted tremendously by who we choose to marginalize.

http://www.militarytimes.com/story/veterans/2016/07/07/va-suicide-20-daily-research/86788332/

All of these concerns flow from one system into another and it does have an impact in everything we do. Therefore, it is my belief that we do a tremendous disservice to each other when we choose to try to isolate what is appropriate or inappropriate to discuss. If we desire a healthy and happy workplace, then we must be willing to discuss how we feel and the various challenges that we have to wade through in life from sickness, child rearing, active duty soldiers, veterans, and caring for our elderly. These subjects are prevalent currently with the current political temperature that we must, now more than ever, begin to have the discussions that have an impact to our progress in all systems.

The millennials are begging for a workforce where they feel they are having an impact. Instead of judging them and dismissing them as 'special snowflakes' because we feel too uncomfortable with the subject of feelings, feelings have everything to do with whether projects and businesses succeed. This effort then, demands that this becomes a workforce effort for all involved to provide kinship and community safety since our co-workers are the people we spend the most time with, depending on our roles and organization culture.

“Challenges of the Global Century: Report of the Project on Globalization and National Security” <https://books.google.com/books?id=QnxwUJ0gGjEC&printsec=frontcover&source=gbs_ge_summary_r&cad=0#v=onepage&q&f=false>

http://www.militarytimes.com/story/veterans/2016/07/07/va-suicide-20-daily-research/86788332/

[youjustwaitsunshine]

currently doing a course on medieval illustrations and it's so much fun yall!! we've been making pigments after medieval recipes and we get to make our own medieval drawing on parchment with our own paints and today we've been gilding and it's so much fun doing this all girl activity together around two tables in the workshop just like the nuns would have done in the middle ages