#if i'm alone in this i'll lose my mind istg

[scrawnyghstts]

the demons won I'm writing out my idea for mr harley sawyer x reader (someone sedate me)

[crguang]

I want to let you know that I actually squealed when I saw that there was a new part of wasted w longing, so that was embarrassing. I giggled so much, love me some domestic fluff, I also gasped so hard at the ending that I started choking. can't believe you updated while I was in class so didn't see it until later.

kafka is so smug I hate her, I want to kiss her on the mouth so bad she's such a weirdo, but at the same time, I'm mad at her, I'll forgive her if she comes home early on my pulls tho, and also some kafka groveling, very excited to see that. also the writing is so good, like at the end I was questing everything about r's encounter's w kafka. and you said replying to someone else's ask that kafka cares atp. wdym atp? istg I love angst but I can't handle angsty endings being w out kafka also you said himeko is going to show up again, and I know that'll be funny. the cliffhangers are killing me, but I'm really excited for the next part, the plot is plotting. also the way at the beginning I literally said out loud, "oh she just got shot, it's okay."

the wanted poster is so funny, like whoever wrote it down must've seen footage of her shooting people as she breaks into somewhere and thought, damn, she is hot as fuck, and tbh that was my thought process when I watched kafka's trailer the first time.

hope your first day at uni was good! if you made me loose my 50/50 I'll---

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not the squealinggg thats so cute im flattered. it’s funny whenever yall say i post when yall are busy because it’s always 4 to 6 am here i have a horrible sleep schedule 😭 i loved writing the more domestic part cause that’s the first time they actually spend time together without sleeping together and it was kinda cuteee, if you ignore the getting shot part.

“i hate her i wanna kiss her on the mouth shes such a weirdo” is exactly how i feel about kafka im so glad im not alone… also, i meant that at this point of the story kafka already knows that she likes R; she goes out of her way to look out for them, she stares a lot, wants to help them through their dilemma and other stuff that’ll come later. in her mind shes not in love with them but she does like them. i think due to her closed off nature, a lot of the little hints of how she feels are in the way she looks at R and since this is written from R’s (sometimes unreliable) perspective, i mentioned how they can’t read her eyes yet so to them there’s no reciprocation right now. and now that they’re mad at her everything she does will feel disingenuous when it might not be. it’s tricky to write bc as readers i want people to be able to tell that kafka cares even when she’s being a little shit while also staying true to how R sees things. i do think it’ll become much more obvious starting from the next chapter tho cause there will be some grovelling involved lmfaoo.

also this was literally her at the end:

r: i will call the police on you.

kafka: i am so attracted to you right now

its funny, R is always making themself available for her and has been doing that from the beginning so kafka’s very used to this behavior and its the reason why she’s so fucking smug. but now she’s seeing a new side to them that she really likes. they’re standing up for themself and i think it’s a quality that she’d find really attractive in a person. but yeah it’s fun i love this series mainly because the idea mostly came from anons so i love hearing what yall think about it.

my first day at uni was nice!! im looking to getting my shit together honestly, i feel like an actual adult now so hopefully it helps with my mood as well and makes it easier for me to be productive cause i dont write fast at all. if you lose the 50/50 bc of me i’ll write whatever you want as consolation prize

[having-conniptions]

KinnPorsche ep 13 Rewatch Rambles:

The op always gets me so pumped

OH HOLD ON OH FUCK I NEED TO PAUSE 1 SECOND INTO THE EPISODE BECAUSE I KNOW VEGAS IS ABOUT TO SAY SOMETHING THAT MADE ME HAVE TO PAUSE 5 SECONDS INTO THE EPISODE THE FIRST TIME AROUND BC I NEEDED TO COLLECT MYSELF

I AM NOT READY

SO I'LL JUST BE STARING AT VEGAS AND PETE HOLDING HANDS AND LOOKING SOFT AND PRETTY

Also I wanna know when and how Vegas put the one handcuff back on Pete's wrist I NEED TO KNOW

"Do you know how sexy you are?" WELL VEGAS DO YOU KNOW? BECAUSE AAAAAAAAAA *yeets myself into the sun*

And Vegas' thumb gently stroking Pete's palm?? why is the most unhinged couple also the most sensual and soft one I am going to flip

Vegas honey you're still a freak

The way he looks at Pete, the way he smiles at him... 😭❤️

Omg the "lunch with dad" scene aaaahhh the awkwardness

Also the lack of communication between Kinn and Porsche YET AGAIN

VEGAS COOKING FOR PETE AND HAVING HIS INGREDIENTS PREPPED AND READY TO GO LIKE THE WIFEY THAT HE IS

AND HE LOOKS SO HAPPY WHILE DOING IT 😭❤️ and the food looks sooooo good

Sorry I'll be very annoying about VP in this ep

Homophobic Dad™️ interrupts yet again and Vegas goes straight back to hurt little boy mode (but with a touch of sass this time)

Kinn trying to communicate but being unable to do so without flirting is so on-brand

Side note: Porsche bounces his leg when he's stressed

TALK TO EACH OTHER

Nooooo I can't go through the VP drama again

When Vegas sits down next to Pete and they look at each other you can tell something has changed for both of them. Something has shifted. Holy fuck this hurts

Vegas trying soooo hard not to lose it in front of Pete even though it wouldn't be the first time, the shift in their dynamic and Vegas' fear of vulnerability making him overcompensate with anger and violence, Pete switching from "hopeful" to "just fucking kill me" because all he really wants is to get out of there, with or without Vegas, dead or alive, he's confused, he's overwhelmed, he's hurt, he's ashamed, WILL THIS COUPLE EVER STOP MAKING ME INSANE? NO

Again Tankhun is the only one with at least one braincell

VEGAS' FACE WHEN PETE SAYS "NOT EVEN MY HUMANITY" HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S ABOUT TO PASS OUT HE REALIZED WHAT HE'S DONE AND AS SOON AS PETE STARTS WITH THE SELF-HATE VEGAS IS SCARED OUT OF HIS MIND HE IS SO SCARED TO HURT HIM EVEN MORE SO SCARED TO LOSE HIM

The harder you hold on to something the more it slips away huh

The way Pete gingerly touches Vegas' face one last time before apologizing and knocking him out I AM GOING INSANE

Khun's funeral outfit kinda slays

If I fully believed Pete was dead I'd cry like that too

Porsche hiding behind Kinn's back by climbing him like a tree will never not be funny

This show switches between angst and comedy so effortlessly istg

Speaking of which, back to angst.

"Tell me who did it, I'll handle it right away" oooooh but Pete doesn't want that does he

"Please believe me. I'm asking you" 😭😭😭 basically please stop asking bc I don't know how much longer I can hold it together if I have to keep lying to you

Kim come on wtf did you expect

THE POLAROIDS 😭 they were together for longer than the show made it look like huh?

Kim fucked up but still it hurts to see him cry

And then it cuts to Vegas sitting alone in front of TWO (2) plates with rice and several bowls of toppings

AND THE WHOLE TIME THE BREAKUP SONG IS PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND

And Vegas is crying into his rice and Pete is crying into his noodles and I am suddenly obsessed with Pete's hands

PORSCHE! TALK TO KINN YOU IDIOT

Pete looks so good wearing jewelry aaaaa and that shirt (I want it) he's so pretty wtf

"And this is for Pete." Porsche is literally bestie goals I fucking love him

"I was blinded by the adults" newsflash Vegas you're an adult too

"SHOOT ME!" whyyyy does VegasPete have to hurt so fucking much

Pete ugly sobbing into Vegas' shoulder was so fucking raw

Porsche knows Kinn's schedule by heart awww

Kinn "meeting" Porsche's parents and immediately shit-talking Porsche hahahahahah

SAPPY KINN AND FLUSTERED PORSCHE 😭❤️

Oh I almost forgot about the balcony pool scene

I can NOT see this scene the same way ever since I noticed the huge "Deutsche Bank" sign in the background it's too distracting 😂

The way Porsche softly caresses Kinn's face while he sleeps and then gets interrupted by a text from Vegas 😭

Kim is worried 👀

Scumbag uncle is still a scumbag but at least he was telling the truth

Wish we could have explored the Vegas & Porsche vs Kinn & Pete dynamic more tbh u know just for the angst

Someone gotta tune that piano

Not Korn having Porsche believe he's Kinn's cousin for a hot second

[dazaiscum]

I just got another idea and omg, sometimes I hate my brain bcs it gets angst on repeat, istg

But

Imagine this:

The reader has never had a proper father in her life. She's never felt how it is to be protected, her father being the one who sharpened her edges and made her a weapon, dezumanization to the point of emptiness.

Doesn't have one light in her eyes, the scent of blood and death thick, stuck to her.

And she runs to Port Mafia before Dazai was even here, makes her way to the very top.

And instead of him leaving by own will because Oda died

Imagine him losing /her/, being the one left behind. Her leaving just as he left.

Imagine if she were the one to have been here for him since he got into Port Mafia, the one to train him. A cruel, deathly woman.

And the very reason she runs it's /him/. Because she saw the way his eyes light up just in her presence. Because she saw him as the only one to care about her. Because she /saw/ his feelings for her.

And she's scared to love, to live, to feel.

And when he finally meets her after years, it's exactly in the moment she's wanted and searched by the government for all the crimes she's committed.

(I'm just a mess right now, ignore me, my—)

A/n note: I'm sorry this took a long time 😭😭Thanks for being patient with me, love 💖 I absolutely loved this request!! If you see any mistakes pls dm me and I'll change the fic :) @kushinadragneel

Warnings: Slight suggestive stuff (Hickeys, neck kisses, licking)

Genre: Hurt/comfort.

It was tiring. Being raised as a weapon, never being able to feel loved, feeling empty inside, not knowing what to do or what you're supposed to be. It was tiring.

Running away without a destination in mind. That was something you knew how to do flawlessly, after all, you did have experience in the field.

You ran away when something didn't go according to you're will. You ran away as an escape from this reality, you ran away from your father, you ran away when it was too much for you and most importantly, you ran away from him.

He was the one who got that light back in your eyes even if it was almost non-existent, he was the one who made feel loved, he was the one who made you feel...alive, so how could you leave him.

You entered Port Mafia before him, climbing your way up to ranks, securing your position as an executive only within the span of six months, so it was no surprise that Mori assigned you to train him.

It was overwhelming for you. Whenever his eyes light up after seeing your face, whenever he gave you that loving look when you pet his hair after he successfully completed a mission and you felt overwhelmed because he was the only one who ever cared for you, who truly loved you.

You couldn't do this anymore. You were scared. You were scared to love, no you do not fear being in love but you suffer from the fear of being abandoned. You are scared of being alone and subconsciously are worried about the negative impact of an unsuccessful relationship.

So you ran way 'cause at the end that's all you really know how to do, abandoning him in the process.

Sitting in the cafe, string the hot beverage while your thoughts drift to him because he was the person you truly ever loved too.

Eyes closed as a small smile filled with sorrow graced your face, remembering the time you spend with the brunette.

e/c orbs turning towards the entrance of the cafe, you saw the one person you never expected to see here of all places.

Eyes widening as a look of shock plasters your face, you hurriedly pay the bill and try to leave the cafe without being noticed, but you were too late.

Dazai noticed you, he saw you hastily trying to exit the bistro. To say that he was astounded was an understatement. Swiftly he makes an excuse and follows suit after you because he wouldn't let the person he loves leave him again.

Panting you sat on a crate in a random warehouse, thinking you finally lost him but the hand on your shoulder begged to differ.

The bandaged detective tilted your head slightly, giving him access to your neck, he pressed kisses there biting and licking it occasionally.

He just smirks when you visibly shudder against him. "Tell me, why did you leave, y/n?" He asks resuming to place open mouth kisses on your skin.

"D--Dazai"

"Hm? was I not enough? Why did you have to leave me?" His breath fawning over your neck, causing a shiver to trail down your spine.

Dazai turned you around in a way that you were now seated on his lap. "Did I do something wrong?" He asked, his face falling with a look of sorrow on his face.

Without thinking for another second, your hands found their way to his cheeks, cupping them, your thumb brushing over his cheekbone, and butterflies erupting your stomach.

"Oh, Dazai. It was never your fault. I was just too scared. Everyone I ever loved has left me and I don't want to lose you as well"

Chuckling at your answer, he placed his palm on the hand cupping his cheek, his thumb tracing patterns on your hand, he began.

"You should know this by now, y/n. I would never leave you" He said with the same lovesick look on his face.

He starts placing sloppy kisses on your collarbone, his hand caressing your neck. Licking the red and blue mark on you as your hands tangle themselves in his hair.

"D--Dazai, are you sure?"

Smirking he replies. "Absolutely, my nightshade."

[hannigramislife]

My reactions while watching first 6 episodes of Strangers from Hell:

*About Jongwoo*

(Literally unbothered king)

==>> nvm i take this back, this boy has some serious issues

*about Moonjo* Um, hello handsome stranger??? 👀

Another psycho i just know it, leave my boy alone

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Well

This escalated quickly

FUCK I WANT TO SLEEP TONIGHT, TF YOU DOING

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Random man in the apartment complex: im moving out next week. Starting a new life, open a store

Me: Lmao, no u won't

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*Moonjo*

This fine mf is gonna turn out to be some grade A psycho

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"I had a thought when I first saw you...that you could be the same type of person I am"

Said by: murdering doctor

Hmm...

Sue me if I'm wrong

But I'm beginning to see a pattern of psycho murdering doctors with an obsession about young mentally unstable guys who r trying to fit in

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"I dismantle, assemble, and recreate" LMAOOOO AGAIN WITH THE SUBTLE MURDER CONFESSIONS I CANTTTT

HANNIBAL CANNIBAL JOKES BE LIKE 😂😂😂😂😂

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Ok the murderer guy is luring my boy in with books...can't say i don't relate 🤣😂

And the murderer guy goes:

"Could you tell me what you're writing now?"

"My story? It's not finished" *shy*

"Tell me anyway"

Ngl, i too would follow that man to the depth of hell after that 😌

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Istg he just had a little problem just by hearing the writer describe how his character kills people 😭😭😭

And he goes "yeah, yeah that's great" MAN REALLY SAID YOU'RE ACCURATE SO FAR GOOD JOB HONEY

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"Want a beer tonight?"

My boy: "Im actually meeting my gf tonight"

Murderer guy, absolutely rigid: "You have a gf?"

"Yes."

"Right. Since you're so handsome"

Dude...try not to sound like you want to carve him up and eat him for dinner. And i mean that literally

Lmao if there's cannibalism i'll riot 🤣

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FUCK MY LIFE BRO HE FOUND THRM CARRYING A DEAD BODY

This mf playing jump rope with my blood pressure

HOLY FUCK THERE IS CANNIBALISM FOR REAL

I love it here

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The writer didnt like the meat (hmm wonder why) ANS THIS MOTHERFUCKER. REALLY WENT.

"You don't like that part? I have other parts. You want some?"

PARTS!!

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I can'ttttt he's so sad that the guy didn't eat the human meat 😭😭

My boy: suspects there's death around him

Also him: At least I got the plot going

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Child: "that man is scary"

You're right my baby girl he is indeed fucking scary, im gonna lose my sanity by tonight

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Main guy: i thought I saw that creepy guy from the house, I keep SEEING him around

His gf: maybe he came to watch a movie, god

Me: 😃

SURE JAN

HE CAME TO WATCH A MOVIE

NO, HE CAME TO SEDUCE YOUR BOYFRIEND'S SADISTIC NATURE TO THE SURFACE BY GASLIGHTING, GIRLBOSSING AND GATEKEEPING HIS WAY TO HIS FEEBLE MIND

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Show: gore, torture, cannibalism, psychological horror

Also show: *censors knives*