#if i was born 50 years earlier i would've been killed due to insanity

[katastrophic-n3vulaa]

ekljsfdail

so true

anyways. let me show you the pain, imma list my hyperfixations from the past 3 years, in order

c!technoblade

hatake kakashi

haruno sakura

tomioka giyuu

kaminari denki

agatsuma zenitsu

dazai osamu (bsd)

zuko

ace (OP)

yaoyorozu momo

skull (khr)

yato (noragami)

sigma (bsd)

inumaki toge

yuuta okkotsu

ahsoka tano

commander fox (cc-1010)

loki (mcu)

bucky barnes

tony stark (but only the iron dad variant)

peter parker (kinda-not-really)

matt murdock

jason todd

spencer reid

the ones that are bold, italic and rainbow are my current ones i'm looking for everyday, and that i have wips being written as ideas flow like warragamba dam won't this summer.

the ones in bold and italic (and yellow) are for the poeple i am hyperfixated on, but they're such a side character (or dead) there's not nearly enough stuff or variety. (i might have started fics, but because no inspo, they didn't get real far.)

the ones in bold (orange) are my backup ones to prevent burnout (like, i'll actively look for works sometimes - i can get distracted by these sometimes - and i'll sometimes get an idea and start writing)

the ones in bold (and red) are the ones that there is annoyingly little new content for. i'll look at them, sometimes, mainly to check for new content. I'm still fixated on these people, and wanna read stuff about them but i need variety. i might have started some fics about them, but they were either never posted, or on hiatus forever.

the ones in italic (and pink) are the ones i'll still read (if i'm bored, i'll pull out my folder of bookmarked search terms with these characters - or i can fall down a rabbit hole and not get completely bored, but i'd only be there for like an hour - but i didn't stick around with the hyperfixation long enough to have a folder of wips on, or they were before i started writing again). I've got major burnout. I still love the character- just.... burnout.

and if they're normal (and purple)... they're there, i might read it?? probably not go looking for it, but maybe. i'm burnt out of these characters/fandoms, so i might need to wait a bit before i get back into it..

if they're small-ified (or subtext or whatever it's called), then the only reason i would touch it is because i got an email that a book has updated, and i'd have to really like that book. i've probably hyperfocused on it for waaaaaaaaaay too long and the burnout is immense

below is my rambling.

c!technoblade

i was watching this amazing person for 7 years, by the time he died. i wouldn't say i 'love' him, because that'd be creepy, but i do admire the character he created. there is very little variety now.

hatake kakashi, haruno sakura:

this is oooooooooooooooooooooooold. no idea how i got into kakashi, but i did. then i came back to fanfiction after like 2 years (no i dont remember what i read before).

then i went to sakura because i read some bamf sakura aus? they're both underdeveloped enough that they're great characters for angst.

tomioka giyuu, agatsuma zenitsu:

giyuu. trauma child. ok, so my sister was watching kny and i was like: huh that's interesting. then i went to ao3, or something- idk why- and it was like 'trauma child'. i read a grand total of... like 3 fics about the trauma child because there's very little variety.

zenitsu. side character with potential. great with crossovers. i really like the crossovers. there was this great one where namikaze minato was zenitsu's brother.

kaminari denki

ok. so much potential. this was before the traitor reveal, so there were so many fics about traitor scenarios. i also kinda fixated on 'lov as family' because of this for a bit. like so many characters in bnha, he is under-utilised and sidelined.

dazai osamu (bsd)

ok. i wanna give dazai a massive frickin hug. so much hug. i love him and his little suicidal self. but i read so much so quickly that i burnt out like nobody's business like 10 months ago.

zuko

trauma child. but toasty. thankfully, zuko is a character that has more than 10 minutes of screentime, but a lot of mystery and chances for canon divergence. love the toasty trauma child

ace (OP)

ok. no idea how i got into one piece, but i did. guess who i hyperfixated on? the person who dies, with a grand total of like... not much screen time.

yaoyorozu momo

momo is queen.

skull (khr)

no idea how i got here, but great crossovers! potential! who knows what it is!

yato (noragami)

no idea where this came from either, but the noragami fandom is basically dead and that is very sad.

sigma (bsd)

androgynous child. beautiful, book child.

inumaki toge

magic words. blue and i have big book. but burnout.

yuuta okkotsu

uchiha 2.0 and magic word boy's bf.

ahsoka tano

this one was fucking years in the making.

commander fox (cc-1010)

no idea how i got to this mf, but caffine addict + constant exposure to sith lord and- *shudders* -politicians... means good angst

loki (mcu)

no idea where he came from either, but great stuff. angst and the whole shtick.

bucky barnes

immaculate angst.

tony stark (but only the iron dad variant)

tony as a dad fills my fatherless heart.

peter parker (kinda-not-really)

tony needed someone to dad.

matt murdock

angst. beautiful. blind vigilante lawyer. so much angst. however, i've read so much i have become burnout incarnate.

jason todd

no idea how i got here, either. but: dead. child. crime alley.

ANGST!!!

spencer reid

i found him and now i love him and i wanna give him a hug. he's perfect.

hyperfixation sucks I think just a little too hard about a guy who isn't even real and I could start crying any second