#if i wake up within like 45 minutes ill get drunk if not then fuck it ill just do it tomorrow consequences be damned

[skenpiel]

do you guys think id be able to take a quick 30min evil nap........ do u think its possible for me to do..........

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:// SEARCHING OPERATIVE …

… searching for AGENT 019 / THE HIGH PRIESTESS. classified files indicate that they go by NAM DAEIL. born in SEOUL, SK, in 1990/05/03, further investigation makes it clear that they joined the agency FOUR YEARS ago. they are an INTELLIGENCE AGENT who specialize in ANALYTIC METHODOLOGY. higher clearance is needed to access further information…

… ENTER PASSWORD TO ACCESS THE COMPLETE FILE.

:// ACCESSING BACKGROUND FILES …

03rd June, 1990 / He’s born the first and only son of Nam Hayoon and Yoo Jaebeom, current CEO and chairman of Yoosang Group, a multi-profile business conglomerate with holdings in arms, defense, chemicals, energy, finance, and investment. He’s also born the only grandson of Admiral Nam Seokwoo, 20th Chief of Naval Operations of the Republic of Korea and first ever platoon leader of then freshly established Republic of Korea Navy Special Warfare Flotilla’s SEAL team 1.

28th September, 1992 - 19th July, 2006 / He’s raised in coastal Jeju-do by his maternal grandparents, childhood uneventful in the best of ways; still remembers the taste of his grandmother’s home-cooked meals, the days he’d spend fishing out at sea with his grandfather, the family outings and morning runs and weekends spent rock-climbing. He grows up loved, so he’s unbothered by the lack of parental presence in his life. His father calls once a week; his mother even less. He timed one once, just for kicks. It lasted a whopping 98 seconds, and yet his parents never forgot to tell him they loved him before hanging up. Unsurprisingly, daeil never replied. He just hung up.

20th July 2006 / It’s already been 3 years since his grandmother’s passing. He wakes up past 9:00 AM for the first time in 16 years to find his grandfather still in bed, smiling. At peace in death, just as in life. The funeral that’s held is a small one, and he sees his parents for the first time in 3 years. He pays them no heed, quiet throughout the ceremony. Stays long after everyone else has left, crying over the grave of the only father he’s ever really known. Luckily, his parents give him the space he needs. Haven’t they always.

21st July 2006 - 15th August 2008 / he moves in with his parents the day after the funeral and spends most of the day actively avoiding the confines of his newfound home. No one but the help is ever there to begin with, and it doesn’t help that whenever his old man does manage to scrape together an hour or two to spend with his son, it’s accompanied with the suffocating weight of awkward parental guilt – a constant cycle of trying too hard and overstepping boundaries with a son he does not know.

So he spends his days preoccupied with school, with extra-curriculars, with psychedelics in the back of a senior’s car.

Private school’s always had its perks, after all. Money, has, too.

16th August 2008 / He graduates from high school, and so does his budding addiction. A 5.0 GPA and an impressive list of extra-curricular achievements see him admitted to Harvard’s class of 2008, and as per Harvard culture, he grows to spend his Sundays getting blackout drunk and his Mondays studying Math 55A: honors abstract algebra.

It’s in January of his freshman year that he’s first introduced to cocaine, and it’s easy enough to think you’re invincible when you’re 19 years old. Crack addiction isn’t a possibility for you. You’re too good for that. Don’t be a fucking pussy, a line never hurt anyone. A line never killed anyone.

Except it has. Except It has.

A 200 word paragraph isn’t enough to portray what addiction is like. He tried to stop, really, he did. But that’s never really enough, is it?

11th december 2010 - 13th August 2011 / Rehab. Then, rehab again. Followed by rehab for a third and final time. He still has a scar on the side of his throat from his second failed attempt. It’s already been months since he’s stopped picking up his father’s calls; weeks since his father’s stopped calling altogether.

15th September 2011 - 26th August 2013 / The last two years of his undergraduate education go by in a blur. It’s busy, hectic. Sobering. He graduates top of his class.

27th August 2013 / It takes him 17 hours to get from Boston to Seoul. He signs up for the PT program at the National Intelligence Service the following day.

He doesn’t really know why he did it. Came back here, of all places.

Perhaps it’s just in his blood.

23rd January 2014 /

NH: Is this about your grandfather, Daeil? ND: Maybe. NH: Maybe? ND: He never told me, you know. I was, what, 14? 15? when i found out? I think it was a year before he died. I never brought it up. He was happy with the idea that I didn’t know and I had no intention of changing that. NH: … ND: Even if I put personal feelings aside for a minute. It doesn’t add up. More than 45 years of service and yet a week after Blackwater is when he’s– [STATIC] NH: Why come back to this now. What difference do you think it’ll make. ND: Dunno. I guess you could say rehab helped me put things back into perspective. / END TAPE.

:// ACCESSING PSYCHOLOGICAL EVALUATION …

REPORT OF PSYCHOLOGICAL ASSESSMENT prepared by: Dr. Kwon Hojoon National Intelligence Service, Seoul, Republic of South Korea. 23rd September, 2014.

confidential material, for professional use only. NAME: Nam Daeil D.O.B: 03rd June, 1990. TRAINEE NUMBER: 14056 CHRONOLOGICAL AGE: 24 years and 3 months. NATIONALITY: South Korean. ETHNICITY: Korean. MOTHER: Nam Hayoon. FATHER: Yoo Jaebeom. EDUCATIONAL LEVEL: Bachelor of Science in Neuroscience, specializing in behavior, perception, and consciousness. REASON FOR REFERRAL: Daeil is a 24 years and 3 months old adult of South Korean descent who was referred for psychological evaluation according to the pt program trainee evaluation process. SOURCES OF INFORMATION: Background information was obtained from government records, as well as from interviews and medical records. Current status of his behavioral patterns and mental state was obtained from observation during testing and from standardized psychological and neuropsychological tests. This information appears to be from reliable sources and valid. BACKGROUND INFORMATION: Family history: Daeil is the only son of Nam Hayoon and Yoo Jaebeom, but was raised in Jeju-do by maternal grandparents since the age of two. Although Daeil’s parents are not divorced, they rarely saw each other or Daeil due to work-related reasons. Daeil’s father is the current CEO and Chairman of Yoosang Group, while his mother is the current Deputy Director of NIS’ Clandestine Division, and has been serving since 1985. It’s worth mentioning that his maternal grandfather, late Admiral Nam Seokwoo, served in the ROK navy and was it’s 20th Chief of Naval Operations. His grandfather was also the first ever platoon leader of the ROK Special Warfare Flotilla’s SEAL team 1 when it was first established in 1955. Admiral Seokwoo was given an OTH discharge from the military during his term as Chief of Naval Operations on charges of corruption in 1997. MEDICAL AND DEVELOPMENTAL HISTORY: Pregnancy and birth history: Daeil’s mother was 25 and his father 29 at the time of his birth. There were no complications of pregnancy or delivery reported and he was born by Caesarean section. His birth weight was normal but he experienced some jaundice following birth. Developmental history: Medical reports show that Daeil had difficulties sleeping as an infant and was brought to the hospital for a check-up after being unable to sleep for more than 2 to 3 hours at a time for the first 3 months of his life. His appetite was also reported as poor. Medical history: He had the usual childhood illnesses of chickenpox, ear infections and strep throat. BEHAVIOURAL OBSERVATIONS: Daeil is an attractive young man, who readily established an easy rapport and was open and easy to communicate with. He was evaluated over a period of three days. He showed no reluctance to perform assigned tasks and failed to show signs of resistance, hyperactivity or distractibility. Most notable was his high speed of information processing and how well he functions and adapts in high-stress situations. In conversation, he maintains eye contact, which, combined with his posture, indicates a high level of confidence and an unlikelihood towards suffering from social anxiety. TESTS ADMINISTERED: AAMD Adaptive Behavior Scale Adult Neuropsychological Questionnaire Beck Anxiety Inventory Beck Depression Inventory - 2nd Ed Beck Hopelessness Scale Bennett Mechanical Comprehension Test Benton Visual Retention Test - 5th Ed Developmental Test of Visual-Motor Integration Frostig Developmental Test of Visual Percepeption Holtzman Inkblot Technique House-Tree-Person Interrogation Form Personality Assessment Inventory Stanford-Binet Intelligence Scale - 5th Ed Stanford Diagnostic Mathematics Test Wechsler Adult Intelligence Scale - 3rd Ed Woodcock-Johnson III Tests of Cognitive Abilities TEST RESULTS: Cognitive:

Verbal abilities: Verbal comprehension refers to his ability to listen to a question, draw upon learned information, reason through an answer, and express thoughts verbally. Daeil’s verbal comprehension fell in the high average range and ranked in the 93rd percentile. According to his performance, Daeil is able to express both abstract and concrete ideas clearly and concisely, in simple terms, despite having an extensive vocabulary.

Non-verbal abilities: Perceptual reasoning measures Daeil’s ability to reason using visual cues from the environment; to examine, think about, and solve novel tasks without using words. Daeil’s perceptual reasoning fell in the high range and ranked in the 94th percentile.

Working memory: Daeil’s working memory involves the ability to attend to verbally presented information, hold information in his immediate awareness, and then be able to use that information within a small period of time. Daeil’s working memory fell in the high average range, and ranked in the 85th percentile. His highest scoring task required him to mentally compute math problems within a time limit. His second highest score involved tasks asking him to repeat a 15-digit number verbatim, as state or in reverse order. As expected, the longer the time duration allotted for memorization, the likelier it is that Daeil maintains the subject matter in his long-term memory.

Processing Speed: Processing speed involves the ability to scan, discriminate and process visual information to complete a task. Daeil’s processing speed falls in the high range as well, ranked in the 99th percentile, and is considered a personal strength. His performance suggests that Daeil does not have trouble with concentration, attention or short-term memory nor does he struggle with visual-motor coordination or discrimination.

Social Emotional:

Externalizing problems; hyperactivity, aggression, conduct problems: Daeil’s tendency towards experiencing overall externalizing problems fell in the low range, ranking in the 13th percentile. Daeil scored lowest on measures for hyperactivity. Measures for aggression were consistent and did not indicate a predisposition towards violent behavior. The issue of conduct problems also does not appear to be a noteworthy cause of concern, although some test results indicate that he has a predisposition towards unpredictability.

Internalizing problems; anxiety, depression, somatization, rejection: Daeil’s tendency towards experiencing overall internalizing problems fell in the low range as well, ranking in the 12th percentile. No particular inclination towards anxiety, depression, somatization were noted. Daeil’s results did not indicate a particular fear of rejection either.

Overall problems/maladaptive behavior or emotional disabilities: Daeil appears to have a low level of problem behavior according to the assessments performed. Overall problem behavior combines Daeil’s performance on measures of hyperactivity, aggression, depression, atypicality, and withdrawal. This assessment is supported by another in which Daeil demonstrates low internalizing and externalizing maladaptive behaviors as compared to fellow trainees. Asessments did not indicate maladaptive behavioral tendencies, disturbances in functioning, or pathology. These scores imply that his behavior will not affect his functioning at NIS or negatively impact mission performance. In addition, Daeil does not indicate an emotional disability based on the conducted assessment. With regards to indications of emotional disability, Daeil ranked in the 15th percent when compared to other adults his age. Further evaluation for emotional disabilities was not indicated. This suggests that Daeil’s emotional condition is normal and is not a concern in regards to performance. Adaptive Skills: Daeil’s adaptive skills fall in the high range, ranking in the 90th percentile. These skills include adaptability (ability to readily adapt to environmental changes), social skills, leadership, activities of daily living, and functional communication. Daeil exhibits high coping skills, but indicates a lack of sensitivity, even though empathy levels are considered normal. SUMMARY AND RECOMMENDATIONS: Daeil demonstrates exceptional cognitive abilities and adaptability, as well as a talent for operating under large amounts of stress. His test results indicate a high level of mental and emotional stability, and is considered low-risk; however, his performance does indicate a possibility of developing obsessive tendencies, but test results show inconsistent and conflicting results. A second opinion from a psychologist specializing in personality disorders is recommended. CONCLUSION: Nam Daeil, trainee number 14056, is deemed fit for active duty.

… END OF FILE. CONTACT THE AGENT DIRECTLY FOR MORE.

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Tagged by @a-randomfangirl-a! Thank you lovely

RULES: ANSWER THESE 88, THEN TAG SOME PEOPLE

BASICS:

a. NAME AND PRONOUNS: Ella, she/her

b. AGE (and birthday!): 17, September 6th

c. SEXUALITY: Demi

d. GENDER: Female

e. COUNTRY: UK

f. FAVORITE AESTHETIC: Ocean

TRIGGERS/MENTAL ILLNESSES: I have anxiety and depression, and I’m usually ok with triggers, but I don’t do well with exams or people being genuinely flippant about suicide

THE LAST:

1. DRINK: Tea

2. PHONE CALL: My home phone

3. TEXT MESSAGE: “good good”

4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: Spaces by One Direction

5. THE TIME YOU CRIED: Last week

HAVE YOU:

6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: No

7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT:  I mean, I’ve been kissed and regretted it, but I’ve never instigated it

8. BEEN CHEATED ON: Ohhhhhh yeah

9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: Yes

10. BEEN DEPRESSED: Yes

11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: No

TOP 3 FAVORITE COLORS

12. Blue

13. Purple

14. Black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: Yeah

16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: I mean, I wouldn’t go so far as to say it was love, but I fell out of like

17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: Yes

18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: Yeah I think I have

19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: yeah

20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: I think so

21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: I mean, yeah, he was, but suffice it to say he isn’t anymore

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: I’ve at least met all of them

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: I have one (1) surviving fish... poor Ianto

24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: Nah

25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOU LAST BIRTHDAY: Not a lot. Went out for dinner with my family

26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY: Uhhhh like 10:30

27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: Reading a TV Tropes page for The Great Escape because I’d watched a documentary on the actual thing

28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: Uniiiiiiiiiiiiii

29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: Like ten minutes ago

30. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: My teacher in year 11 fucking shit up

31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Nothing, for once

32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: Yep

33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: My eyes are really sore at the moment so I can’t put my lenses in

LOST QUESTIONS

34. MOLE(S): No

35. MARK(S): I mean, I have scars, but not really

36. CHILDHOOD DREAM: Author

37. HAIR COLOR: Brown

38. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: Mid length and growing fast

39. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: Hahaha no

40. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: I’m getting better

41. PIERCINGS: Nope

42. BLOODTYPE: No clue

43. NICKNAME(S): Ella, El, Els, Elli

44. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single af

45. ZODIAC: Virgo

46. PRONOUNS: she/her

47. FAVORITE TV SHOW: Not sure

48. TATTOOS: None

49. RIGHT OR LEFT HAND: Right

50. SURGERY: Nah

51. HAIR DYED A DIFFERENT COLOR: I currently have blue ends

52. SPORT: I go running sometimes, but not really

53. VACATION: I’m actually going away on Friday woop woop

54. PAIR OF TRAINERS: I don’t think I have any, I had to throw them all out bc they were too small

MORE GENERAL

55. EATING: Nothing at the moment

56. DRINKING: Nothing but I finished a cup of tea just before starting this

57. I’M ABOUT TO: Go to bed probably tbh

58. WAITING FOR: Holiday on Fri

59. WANT: To not have a headache rn

60. GET MARRIED: I mean, I’d like to but we’ll see

61. CAREER: I want to do screenwriting, but at the moment I’m planning on uni next year

62. HUGS OR KISSES: Proper cuddles pls

63. LIPS OR EYES: eyes

64. SHORTER OR TALLER: Either

65. OLDER OR YOUNGER: Is this platonic or romantic? Either way, whichever (within reason)

66. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: why not both

67. SENSITIVE OR LOUD: I’m kinda both

68. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship

69. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: Hesitant

HAVE YOUR EVER:

70. KISSED A STRANGER: No

71. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: No

72. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: Yessssss frequently

73. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: Yeah

74. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: No

75. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: I mean I don’t know if it was that extreme??? But yeah

76. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: No

77. BEEN ARRESTED: No

78. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: Yes

79. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: No but kinda like a friend crush I guess

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. YOURSELF: Eh

81. MIRACLES: Not really

82. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: Nope

83. SANTA CLAUS: I used to

84. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: I mean, I/m not sure for me personally, but up to you I guess

85. ANGELS: Not really

OTHER

86. CURRENT BEST FRIENDS NAME(S): Don’t really have any... Probs Kath and Issy, and Nikki

87. EYECOLOR: Brown

88. FAVORITE MOVIE: Not sure...

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