#if i stopped posting id probably... stop drawing altogether eventually

[ammerynth-moved]

wow uh. i really have been super lazy about posting art recently, havent i

it’s not like i havent been drawing, it’s just that it’s all been commission work and for obvious reasons i spend longer on that than i do on other stuff, bc i want it to be as good as possible. but the reason i am where i am with art today is bc i started posting it online. i’m busy with school and other things, but i’m going to try to post at least twice a week from now on. i feel sort of bad too that ive reblogged a few of those request posts recently but i havent actually done any of them yet - the reason i like them in the first place is bc they give me something relatively easy to draw! and i like doing requests, i know not everyone is able to afford commissions and i want to make people happy even if the only way i can do that is through my art!! unfortunately i can’t do every request i get and i also can’t guarantee the level of work i’ll put into a request - paid stuff always takes priority, but if i didn’t want to do requests i.. wouldn’t accept them at all fskjdhgk

there’s not really a point to this post i guess, just uh. kind of felt like i should say it properly, not just in the tags of something else.

[hermitcrabofficial]

before i head off to sleep i wanna say a couple things

to put it frankly, im pretty discouraged at the lack of notes (or feedback at all) on my art posts. i like to draw in my free time and i plan to eventually get a profession that has something to do with art, yknow.

but i cant improve if theres nobody to give me some feedback or constructive criticism. low self-esteem or not, the chances of me getting a spot at an art school or vocational college with my drawings being at this quality are pretty damn slim, and there will be hundreds of other people trying to apply for art school/college. how the hell am i supposed to stand out?

im already working on figuring out what i wanna do for work at all, because frankly i have no damn clue. im discussing all kinds of possibilities at therapy right now and so far ive found nothing that speaks to me, nor do i have certain qualifications for certain professions either due to the lack of a higher education or because of health impediments. and its stressing me the fuck out just thinking about all this.

im still drawing and trying to improve by trying out different techniques just to get a feel on how they work. people irl have told me many times how “talented” i am, that i should definitely apply for art school and the general “i wish i could draw like that” comments, but no actual critique. i post the results online in hopes that other artists might give me some pointers or criticism or something. nothing happens.

there was a time where i would reblog my posts many times a day just so people from other timezones could see my art. i received a couple compliments, sure, but barely any constructive criticism or advice. my art would get max 6-10 notes, if they didnt happen to be some shoddy fandom meme post that would get around 100 notes for some reason.

i eventually stopped reblogging my posts altogether and i posted less art in general because honestly, whats the point of doing all that work if nobodys gonna say anything or even reblog it? whats the point? ive considered creating an art blog to put all my stuff in but it probably wouldnt get any more than 5 to 15 followers, especially not when nobodys actually gonna reblog it. im tired and incredibly discouraged.

i put many hours into these drawings and people will look at each post for maybe 5 to 10 seconds before simply clicking fav and moving on. hell even i am guilty of this.

..i honestly dont know what to say anymore at this point. i cant and wont force anyone to give me critique or reblog my stuff, but id much rather deal with people who give shitty comments and bullshit criticism instead of complete radio silence.