#if i hadnt been traumatized at the same fucking time maybe i would've realized who i was sooner
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That weird feeling is back..
#the one that makes me jealous of my sister. and my friend.#they're doing fun things with their families. making memories. experiencing childhood vicariously through their kids#thats a feeling i dont know that ill ever feel. it feels like a path thats never been traversable for me#idek that i want to walk it really#but i cant help but wonder#did i fuck up?#not that it was ever my fault. really.#i dont regret any decisions ive made that lead me here#im just all the more furious that course couldn't have been corrected#if i hadnt been traumatized at the same fucking time maybe i would've realized who i was sooner#i could've lived at a similar pace as my peers. had experiences that normal people get to have#i wouldn't be so fucking behind#even he said my options are limited. the pool i pathetically shallow#i missed my chance#cause my peers are now chapters ahead and the ones that arent and fucked up like i am#god im gonna be fucking alone forever for real huh?#damn the sads hit all at once real fast tonight#seeing snaps my sis and her bf and my neice playing together#my friend mentioning gping pumkin picking and stuff#and Im here being fucking pathetic and alone just looking forward to the handful of hours i get to play video games with a friend#pathetic#goddamn fucking pathetic#i dont know what to do about it either#im trying to get better. i AM better#but that doesnt actually change my circumstances#not really#fuck#i hate when i get like this#sad boy stuff#simi speaks
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