#if i dont get AT LEAST 10000 steps in a day i lose my mind

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learning curve

what is the first thing that comes to mind when you hear learning curve?

 you start learning new things or is it that he is at that stage he wants to try and learn new things he will be able to learn faster or will learn better no what i think the learning curve is when a person starts to develop interest in learning things not from school or college or some tuition but start to learn things which will help him in the future read things which will help him in his career or maybe starts to understand what he has been learning up until now will not help him so much in the long term but only help him in getting to the next stage of his life for eg. what i learned in my 10th grade will not help me in my long term future but it helped me get into a good college that in well known (NM) this is my thoughts on what a learning curve 

how to start it?

digital deepak made me start this curve now in the passed 3 weeks i have read 1 book and also started audible i felt i was wasting my time by doing nothing now i want to do so many things i have a list of things i want to do i have made a 90 day plan and also a 1 year plan every week i make a small to do list which i can do and every time finish a task from this list i pant that item in my to do list when i finish my to do list it looks so satisfying that i never want to miss anything  on that list after lisning to week one and two i have learned so much from this from right mind set to CATT and i have also read a little bit of edge of sanity all of this has inspired me to follow my passion and become my own boss i have also taking mass trust to heart i loved that term and also the niche chart where i can either ell 100 products to 100000 people or 1000 products to 10000 people and goes and on of my goals is to have at least 4-5 sources of income and i think this course with digital deepak can help me in doing so if not all 5 at least 1 from free lancing from what every i have learned so far it seems like a plausible outcome   

some things that i want to talk about that i took fancy in week 2 are 

Digital marketing vs. Traditional marketing.

marketing has changed a lot even if we see 10 years ago i dont see many people running to do Facebook ads or insta ads like today people now a days what to do social media marketing and want to make their presence known online i am not saying the old ways of marketing has no use now we still need to go and talk or meet the person to sell ourself there is something you will always need now past or the future thats communication what i fell is that communication is key to everything communication will help you in all walks of life its one of the most imp skill a person can master i just cant stress enough that communication is key no matter which area i dont think AI will ever be able to cross humans for marketing but digital marketing has taking marketing to new hights has made it easier to find consumer and seller due to this 

CATT Marketing Funnel

wealth=n*CATT

n=niche every thing is dependent on what niche you choose wealth success etc

C=content create things from which people come and see you and come for your content like vlogs blogs posts video live webinars etc

A=attention get attention or traffic to you by referrals seo social media insta ads etc   

T=trust we need to build trust with your consumers by market automation retargeting and also need to build trust among your audience members   

T=transaction you need to convert your leads into costumers with nature sales method 

Indian economics

Since independence India has been a 'Mixed Economy'. India's large public sectors were responsible for rendering the country a 'mixed economy' feature. Indian economy is basically based in the contribution of service sector (currently provides 60% share of GDP) and near about 53% of its population is dependent on the Agriculture.

If you see the current status of economy

Unemployment is highest in last 45 years.

Automobiles industry has seen it's worst days on July. Overall sale has been down to 30% out of which Honda sale down by 49% and Maruti by 36%.

10 lakh people may lose the job in automobile sector.

Over 6.9 lakh companies have been closed in financial year 2019.( Statement of FM in parliament).

Jet airways has been closed around 20k job has been lost.

BSNL does not have salary to pay salary to its 1.76lakh employees.

Indian railway is planning to retire 3 lakh employees.

I think above points are enough to show the condition of economy. For the time being Don't think from political angle. I am not saying these problem have been created by modi govt only. I am just explaining the state of Indian economy.

Now consider the case of BSNL ,Jet airways. Indian govt could do much more what it did. Jet airways problem came into the picture many months back. Either govt could take control of management and auction it or it could help the airline to get fresh loan. Yes this could be extraordinary step but to save the job of 20000 people and their families govt had to do it. But they were busy on speeches and drama.

BSNL could be sold easily or they could do something to improve it's services. But they din't to anything and today job of 1.76 lakh employees is at stake. Who will pay bread and butter to their families.

In automobile sector GST is too high. Over the above they have increased insurance price on the vehicle. Overall price have been increased and people are avoiding purchasing cars. When company will not do sale then how it will pay to it's employees? They will do cost cutting and employees will lose their job. If they don't have Job they won't do purchase of luxury or other items in market . Ultimately another business and it's eomployees will suffer.

Our govt has huge power. Current PM has full control over his party and govt. Still he is not doing much. See the status of coal India, yes bank, BSNL etc. Yes Bank is private bank bit govt either can take over or can makes the guideline to run it. Previous govt saved satyam computers and its employee by taking control of it. Later Mahindra purchased it.

Time has come for us to question govt about economy, job etc. It's good to support particular party or govt but always ask the question. The day you will lose job there is no one to help you. Your political party is not going to do any favoure. 

what i want to say about the economy is that we have no say or anything big people control it how they want i zero trust in our goverment this dont not mean i am against india or something i promote indian products to all my family and friends i just hate our govering body sorry for going on a rant there 

conclusion 

i hope you also experience the same drive that i am its amazing to fell this way to learn new new things every day to be better than last time even if its 1% be better than last time try all the things then say i or dis side try to form golas and try to conquer your goals 90 days and 1 years goals dont set a punishment if you cant do them give your self positive reinforcements to  work better and harder than last time 

[unalomero]

Let's g0 g0 gadget

This belt was not equipt with the tools neccessary to let Sarah know I need time as a single lady.

Funny because the feeling I had when she kissed me was v similar to the time when I was getting over Cait and held hands with Kat that one night at the party. I cried myself to sleep that night because I felt myself losing my feelings i thought were forever.

Except ya girl isnt crying over that! Ya girl is focused on the positive and focusing on the now! Ya girl has herself surrounded and reminded by people on the daily on the love she got!

Because if I don't, uff there sure is a lot bad to focus on, but bay blade wont let that RIP on this dance floor tonight or any nights upcoming.

Talked with Cait again today too. She will always be my #1 rock and soulmate. Our mateship is friendship, but the kind I know lasts. Which is nice to be able to recognize! I am blessed to have had truly amazing friendships and the capacity to have great connections. I prefer cait and I as friends that we are now. We talk way too much on raising kids together though, which she would be such a great parent partner! She and I click so well and we both are always commenting how we need someone like each other, just not one another l0l which I agree 10000 % She always makes me feel safe and unjudged. She may not be the smartest when it comes to relative truths, but she is so well habile in the absolute truths. Seeing her grow has been such a pleasure too. We both thank one another almost every time of everything we have been through and of the things we have learned along the way and how we help one another.

Felt good to also cry a bit today to Cait. I needed to release what happened a month ago. I was getting p upset and felt how I initially wanted to place blame on Kat oddly... my poor brain has been v inclined to thinking negativly of her, but that's brain trying to teach itself to not play with fire anymore.

So sex bots. You know that big fear that kept me up for about a week at school and a week before leaving to MN? Well I got to meet my fear! I knew I deserved to fight and fought harder this time. What, Another??? family!!! friend!!! decided??? to assume that all a young female's body is for is takin and fuckin it?!?!?!

Do I have a sign tied on my back that says "Hey she doesnt deserve to be respected and treated kindly"? Cause jee, seems like that's a lot of what my life has consisted of. But dont get me wrong, more of my life has been spent being taken care of, dont fixate gurlll. ... But alas, what hasnt killed me has made me stronger and each of the bad makes me treasure the good. If that makes me seem "too happy" for you fucks, then try getting almost raped 3 times, not to count the 2 successful attempts, having to witness and break up parental domestic violence, 2 stalkers, an alcoholic and suicidal brother, not to mention also an occasional suicidal mother, losing a friend, being mugged 2 times, and losing family and friends to drugs, suicide, and gun violence. So yeah, I may be a little eccentric for you boring bots out there, but to me I'm happy I'm alive and the people around me are too. Yikes does it feel weird to type that out... Haha and the most painful of it all wasnt even when the worst of the worst was happening (except when mom was in the hospital for 4 days from what my dad did to her. That, that was as worse as the fear gets). WhT was worse was how consumed I let my everyday thinking get clouded by the drama and the pain.

When someone compliments my intelligence. Thank you. I didnt have parents that were always around or the best role models to help me learn. I mainly taught myself a lot to keep me distracted and keep me somewhere else. Which, when I think about it, a lot of the factoids I carried around like prized pieces went away a year ago around now. I let go of what kept me in an anxious check all the time. Relative truths are just but relative. They require an attachment to the material world, an unhealthy one a lot of the times. We get so convinced of a view and we let it change us and the relationships around it. All for the sake of what? Some hierarchy that has again found itself where it need not be.

No wonder I have problems with physical intimacy? No wonder Matty does too. So crazy how such similar trauma has created in my mind and experience, such similar minded people. I feel like I just get her thinking space a lot.

So another experience of having someone force themselves on you.

"Well Ashley you should have known"

Mother trucking sex bots, should I have??? Someone who helped raise me and was there for me as a baby? NO gosh darn it. But apparently things change when you have tits. I hate them sometimes. I hate my body.

When people say "you're just so beautiful" to my naked corpse, I get an uneasy feeling in my stomach. It's not because I dont see beauty, but those words almost always followed abuse. Why cant I be told that when I'm in sweats and my favorite hoody, rocking a hella fun laugh and smile? Because that, that's when I feel beautiful.

So Deno,

I forgive you. I dont understand your actions, but I'm glad at least you ended up listening to me and wasnt as horrible as some men have treated me. I had courage this time to step up and not back down. What you tried to do and what you got away with is beyond what any apology would allot you. You could have further sent me into my distrust in men, but I wont give you anymore power than my other abusers have.

I am still getting over what happened before and I am still wrapping my mind around how so many good people keep coming after my ass. Ann said it best, "you're short and cute -a seemingly easy threat."

Well mother trucker, best be a scooting because I'm proud that I was able to stand up taller and not let this past indiscretion pull me down. It happened and well life can be shit sometimes. But guess what life is also amazing.

I have amazing friends and family who support me so much. I could be hella depressed and probably would be hadn't it been for working extremely hard on being mindful and present in the moment.

What I try not to think about are the words he said to me and how easily he could have not been so kind to let me go. I've had that. That's the kind of fear that