#if i don't let you in‚ you can't hurt me when you inevitably leave 🤔🤔🤔
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#something something craving intimacy and companionship something something anxiety something something ptsd and fear of abandonment#probably because i've been rotating TB and AJ in my head like they're in the microwave but i too want a giant man to gently hold my hand#but i'm such a fucking alien‚ i don't know how to talk to people. i don't want to flirt‚ just wanna hold a conversation‚ and i'm bad at bot#the only people still interested in me have no idea what i'm like irl and i'm too afraid to actually meet up with anyone i've met online#i'm also a broke jobless busted-ass loser so like. i bring nothing to the table other than knowledge about my niche hyperfixations#and no one wants that LOL#i also have a hard time giving people a chance because i've been burned so bad that i'm constantly guarded#any friends i've made in the last 5 years are all kept beyond arm's length#if i don't let you in‚ you can't hurt me when you inevitably leave 🤔🤔🤔#there's a post that went around that was like 'you give a piece of yourself to every person you've ever loved' and yeah bitch that's true#i spent like 25 years constantly giving and giving and giving so now i'm all shrivelled up and dry. ain't got nothin left#what could anyone possibly see in me at this point lol
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I remember you talked about what it’d be like if NQK were Keiko’s sibling—I can’t find the post, but I’ve been thinking about it a lot! I imagine NQK would be the more free-spirited one, maybe even the troublemaker between them, kind of like a Costello and Abbott duo! They'd defo put Keiko onto their music 😂
I feel like Kei would be such a good influence on Keiko, helping her loosen up and live a little! I can totally picture Kei and Yusuke skipping school together, only to get scolded by Keiko afterward—so funny--even funnier would be if Kei doesn't encourage Yusuke to skip school but they just end up seeing each other outside school😂😂! I wonder if NQK would ever try to set Keiko and Yusuke up, or if they’d just stay out of it completely?
I’m also curious: what do you think Kei’s new name would be? If the Yukimuras had a second child, what would they name them? I can imagine so many things would be different with Kei around. For instance, how do you think Kei’s first meeting with Yusuke would go? And would Kei still end up transferring schools? I actually think that could play out in a similar way!
Oh gosh, I know that in the current story, NQK’s parents don’t know that this is their second life! So when Kei’s true identity eventually comes to light, how would Keiko feel about that? Would she decide to keep her parents in the dark? It really makes you wonder!
And then there’s the scene (one of my favorite LC scenes ❤️) with Kuwabara after Yusuke’s death—would Keiko be there this time? I can see it both ways. If she isn’t there, it could leave her feeling even lonelier :')
Kei would definitely still want to get powers, and I wonder if they’d encourage Keiko to try as well. I think they’d push her a bit, though I’m not sure if Keiko would go for it. And would Keiko join Kei in Aikido lessons? That seems possible too! What would that mean for tigger and rabbit! Would Keiko be included to NQK otherworldly friend group 🤔
There’s so much potential here! I need to sit down, brainstorm, and start writing these ideas out—I’m so excited to explore this!
I feel like you talked about most of what I said, sorry about that if it is the case! I just needed to let my thoughts out 😅
TBH, I don't remember everything I've said about this subject!
Some spoilers for LC under the cut.
I halfway suspect NQK and Keiko wouldn't get along very well. I can be an aloof know-it-all, and I can be sensitive. Keiko is so smart and competent and kind, I think she might find me a bit abrasive (and I might find her annoying when I can't measure up and inevitably because the 'screw-up' sibling). I might come across as patronizing to her; the sense of "I know something you don't know" radiating off of NQK might grate on Keiko's nerves and render the relationship imbalanced.
To that point, I don't think NQK would let Keiko meet Rabbit or Tigger (though they might not exist in those forms in this world if no one was reincarnated as a character, but rather as just a random person). NQK would spend a lot of time safeguarding secrets from others, Keiko herself included. But I do think NQK would teach Keiko to fight a little more! Maybe not encourage her to get powers, but definitely to fight.
NQK would still probably be really obsessed with sticking to the script in this AU, and I think this would manifest in hardcore Parent-Trap level matchmaking shenanigans, trying to force Keiko and Yusuke to fall in love. All at once, NQK would be both overbearing AND distant, a baffling and likely infuriating combination that could have unexpected negative consequences on the subjects of NQK's meddling...
When NQK's secrets come out, I think they ease some of the strain in the relationship between the sisters. I think Keiko (feeling protective of their parents) might encourage NQK to come clean, though. Being kept in the dark hurt Keiko in some ways, so I don't think she'd want history to repeat with their parents.
Oh, inspiration moment: Keiko gets cut with the sword (in lieu of Botan in LC) and develops demon powers that way! Or she develops dream powers after having multiple prophetic dreams (this is canon, and I used that to justify NQK's dream powers in LC). Either way, I don't think NQK would plan for this to happen, but it would be a real headache (or another point of jealousy) for NQK if it did!
For irony, I think NQK's name in this AU might be 'Sara,' which can be spelled with a character that means 'good luck.' Considering this sounds like a pretty normal American name (and a feminine one, at that, with no easy masculine or gender neutral nickname), NQK would probably hate it! :D Haha!
There's definitely a lot to explore here, that's for sure, and I'm super happy to read your thoughts!
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