#if i cant evem die properly

[punchyboyf]

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[bastardguy]

im trying my best im trying im trying why can't people see that why am i so weak im trying so hard im don't know what i want please see that im trying everyday when it's hard to stay alive go away its all my fault its all my fault i deserve everything bad it hurts so much when does it go numb i cant even tell what im feeling im not lying im not lying im sorry im trying so hard for nothing when no one cares they listen and they don't care and its ok and its all my fault for being frustrating and pathetic why couldn't i just keep it in to myself why did i trust people so easily die die die die die die die die djhw diebs die die diebskebw s i dont know how muxh i can take this i dont want to be awake let me hide call me pathetic knoxk knock until it goes away knoxj knoxj knock until it stops my chest hurts and i keep hitting and it doenst fucking work i choke and hit and choke and hit and choke and hit to nake it stop and it doesn't stop it doenst let me breathe and i cant move properly and it's too late for this and i have to get better faster so so sos o weak so weak so much youre so much youre such a pathetic little slut it hurts it hurts its my fault i deserve it it hurts it hurts and i deserve to hurt more so i hut and hit and it doesn't stop it doesnt work and n0 ones here because they don't care and you didnt show your appreciation anough anf you didn't try hard enough and youre so annoying and irritating and no one wants anything to do with you except out of pity how hard do i have to hit myself until it goes away its too loud and it hurts too much and im tpp tired a nd too awake i want to stay asl3ep i want to feel safe i want it to stop hurting i wish i wasn't so boring i wish everything wasn't so boring i wish i was normal i want to be normal i should've been normal 8ts all my fault for staying here i git and it doenst stop why doesn't it work wjy does nothing work what do i ah e to do to make it stip im so tired i want to atop trying and i want to die its all ny fault selfish selfish egocentric abusive sensitive bitch just shut shit up sh8t up shut up shyt up and die nothing will change youll just evaporate into nothing luke youve always been no desire to l8ve a waste of breathing space annoying making theem uncomfortable die die die ide hurt hurt more make it hurt more hurt more hurt more hurt more hurt more hurt more come one hurt more jump off the balcony and suffer and slowly die jump into the sea and slowly drown crush ypur organs in the trajn eat too many pills stab hurt hurt hurt hurt you deserve to get hurt ypu deserve it you deserve it selfish selfish sselfuizh sjalsogx. disnuejdj eie eusnissj d8e dir d8e sons selgsih cunt you fucking whore ysiu sleep acnt evem talk lazy unmotivated lazy spoilt brat you deservedthis you deserve this selfish e