#if i am annoying you please block me bc im not gonna stop LMAO this is alot of fun

[sophiasayslaugh]

Sometimes I get a lil self conscious that I'm being too much but then I get a message from some people that makes me go

.... nah i could do more

[fivegaze]

3.31

mm heres what i did today- i added the combo system (where you have to follow the key sequence on screen to add damage to your attack), fixed what was wrong with it (i kept trying to access the scene variables not realizing that with an additive scene there would be two science variables objects and it was trying to pull from the wrong one.) when that stopped being broken (aka i just plopped the whole thing into the same scene which felt like an anticlimactic solution but hey) i finally fit it into the state machine. it's not fully functional yet, but when i sat down they weren't even connected at all

there she is! my incredibly janky combo system. please ignore the way everything just stacks on top of each other that's not. staying there i am going to animate it. none of these ui graphics aside from the menu buttons and text choices are final btw i am not leaving those govt street sign ass arrows in there.

this is what the state machine looks like for the combo system :] i called it combo crusher <3 i always worry that my state machines look really janky and cluttered but i guess that doesn't matter as much as if it's working lol. ummm one day i'll learn C# (and html because god lmao) but for now it's just me and my little visual scripting machines against Da World.

the second pic here is how i'm currently detecting input which feels silly to me but there's no event block for "any key down" just this one so that's what i'm doing for now. my blatant abuse of on update is what got me into such a Freaking pickle with something's on the station. fun fact that game is Not built with fungus like space case and the VN scenes for soul squad. i wanted to do it myself and i spent so long building a prototype for UI that i didn't even end up using at all that by the time it was time to plug in the dialogue i didnt really have a lot of time to work the system out. so it's just the world's worst dialogue system. do you wanna see it it's SO bad

i can't even fit it into one screenshot. every time you click the "advance dialogue" button it checks to see if you're on the last line and if not it's like okay what line ARE you on then. at which point it pulls from a list of every voice line (unlabeled and barely organized btw) and corresponding dialogue line which is, like, fine, okay, whatever, and ALSO,

IT'S CHECKING WHAT LINE YOU'RE ON EVERY FRAME and just going through a giant if/else chain to make sure the right characters are active. also on every frame it's updating the text color, just in case. also sometimes more than one character is active and it just completely breaks the color coded character text. like okay this could definitely be worse but it sure could be better. i'm being overly self-critical bc i'm an annoying perfectionist (to the incredible detriment of my wellbeing and productivity, obviously) so the fact that it was all completed during a semester gives me SO much room to self-crit. i'm still really proud of it even though i ran out of time to bugfix and i didn't have time to level any of the audio or clean up any of the voice lines. (seriously though this is me being proud of something i make i just don't know how to not like pick my work apart. /neutral.)

anyway this is supposed to be a soul squad update so let's move on from that

this is the turn system btw! combo crusher is brand new. i already have a (time consuming) move selection set up which is irritating bc i'm gonna have to go in and undo everything so i can add a new movelist but i'm moving that out of the priority spotlight(tm) because um my (writing) scripts are NOT done and i need them to be done. cheers and light and love this is gonna be such a meaty github upload im pumped. i love writing myself little devlogs for me and me only. like a little treat

anyway that's all i did today besides go to an extremely short job interview which was cool. i really hope i get the job because i would like to be able to afford rent :D

[th9ma]

Idrc that ur followers don’t mind a underage person writing porn. And ofc I can’t make u do anything but I do think you’re moronic trying to defend why minors can create adult fiction when you can’t even vote lmao.

putting a read more so ppl don’t get annoyed <33

argghdusivkihkbi i’m not trying to defend minors writing adult fiction im literally just defending myself against someone who decided to come into MY blog and talk about all of this 🤦🏾‍♀️ stop obsessing over this bc it’s not gonna make me delete my space bruh 😞

worry about yourself and your bills if you pay them shawty! i’m living my life- i know my limits and i can discern fiction from reality; i wouldn’t be doing this if i couldn’t handle it. yeah i’m 17, i engage in sexual activity and write about it because i CHOOSE to do it.

i have warnings, i have my age in my pinned, i have tags to block, i don’t write dark content, i’m simply just sharing thoughts about fictional (and only fictional) characters that i am attracted to (sfw and n/sfw). or do you want me to wait until may to do so?? so that i don’t have to be harassed by anonymous people?

don’t fucking call me moronic for doing what i like while exercising caution.

please stop coming in my inbox to argue with said 17 yr old, block me and be on your way 😭😭😭 i beg of you.

[astrxlis-archive]

first off, you never fail to flatter me fox anon 😔💞 (yes idk how i should call you fox only bc it feels weird;) and i could say the same for you as well, your wellbeing is v important!! 😚 the mom friend energy of yours is felt so hard by me 😤

And tinted screen totally helps !! <3 i also agree that no one deserves to be in pain :(( so it aint bad making life a lil easier for each of us in this cruel world :D this is also one reason why i choose and try to be kind to others ! i really want to make someone's day better or atleast make them find warmth despite the coldness of life and the world itself. And dont be shy to let me know especially when you became a regular writer in the genshinblr community :>

and yeah, maybe the website is acting up or maybe it's my IP address that's been blocked. Well, I can't really do anything about it tho it's fine— it's not like it's gonna stop me from taking quizzes lmao 😌👌 and ooh zhongli as first?? That's new 🤔😳 i could agree that quizzes are also flawed with inaccuracy so that's alright as long as you know and stay true to yourself !! im even surprised of the consistency in my results. And!! Yes i love taking quizzes if that aint obvious enough, but only the personality ones tho :D

i'm also glad to know that you get my albedo kin explanation 🤭 it was relieving to know 💗 since most of the time im said to be confusing 😰 for i really am not good with words/unable to describe what i want to convey. Science is v cool but my brain is just not suited for it 💔 so im the kind that leans more towards the artistic side of albedo.

For the reason why i think you give off jean/ganyu vibes: i'll start with jean. Easy explanation 😅 mom friend;; though in terms of abiding rules i could agree that hu tao is a more appropriate description for you :D jean is someone who cares for others more than she cares for herself so, fox anon please don't forget to take care of yourself too alright? :3 i hope you're getting the same amount of care that you're getting too— you deserve it very very much and i don't want you lacking of the care you receive from others 💗💗💗 next one, for ganyu. Well i could just associate this with shyness, i think? i dont know if you are also hard on yourself and take every burden given to you, i hope not c: or maybe someone like... keqing for the shyness part. Keqing is a confident leader but when it comes to things like friendships, she feels very shy to do something or approach it because she have her own doubts about her personality. And slightly... Noelle? Noelle is also another person who greatly cares for others more than herself + you're very sweet so i think noelle is also one good candidate !! Tho it's really jean for me ☺️ honestly i think jean has some wild side to her to given that she usually suppresses those kind of things to follow the law and be a good role model which i could see in you the more we hang out :D (which is a good thing btw! Just be yourself if it makes you more comfy :> ) jean is also quite shy too >:3

Regarding my (other) kins explanation here it is:

For Diluc— like xiao, we are both emotionally constipated 💀 ahaha..haha,,, that also explains why im a sucker for mutual pining tropes with diluc ahaha...haha,, and like xiao again, we display distrust or trust issues towards most people because of the fear of being betrayed or to avoid that too. Another one similar to xiao, diluc is a very loyal person especially if you're someone he trusts so 👌 i do the same for people i treasure and trust. Xiao or Diluc may not have many friends or people close to them, but those who are are greatly treasured by them :D i do also have a younger (annoying) brother which is a kid btw, but even if i am not openly showing that i care, deep inside i actually do :D on top of that, both xiao and diluc (or even albedo too??) dismisses emotions and would rather remain to think logically. Since i believe that emotions are one kind of hindrance towards creating a practical solution or action(something like that👌). Also i may not be rich like diluc, but just someone with enough money. Even with the money i have or can be given to me, i do not really spend stuff recklessly if you know what i mean. I value humility and my younger brother is my opposite (very greedy mf 🙄 i really never hold back too when given a chance to slander my brother xD) + similar to xiao once again, we usually try to take on things or problems by ourself and not asking for others' help since we want to be independent or not burden others. Hmm... I could also say that even if we are closed off or try to distance self from others, we feel very lonely actually;; and we get easily flustered too??

(my asks are too long and im getting concerned even if u dont mind 😰 since i cant make my ask have the "read more" feature too,,,)

Next for Kokomi— honestly i just recently added her to my kin list 😩 since i tried to look up genshin mbti then i realized we're the same in mbti + enneagram wing too (i am no expert in these stuff but im aware of my own personality type,,, very albedo behavior.) Also i have also realized the fact that she feels very tired after interacting with people and needs time to recharge. Tho for people she likes, she gains energy instead! Which is the same case for me. Additionally, kokomi is also made to be watatsumi's leader even if she really isn't born to actually lead or want to lead, which can be related to me being forced to make my (not cooperating) groupmates work or talk for our group projects, or maybe take the leadership role because i have no choice. i also like to plan things (but not as intense as kokomi's thorough planning) tho what i always end up doing is to improvise and do what i feel like doing based on the actual situation.

(im tired but im enjoying this sm so no worries!!💖💖💖 and tbh, i have written more stuff in here vs on my assignments 🤩 i definitely could not never reply to u because i enjoy replying to ppl 💞)

And yes i did research on hu tao >:3 well i simply wanted to understand people's kins or maybe your kin since like what i said on the prev ask, i find it difficult to understand things without explanations so i usually ponder over it myself. Also, i do not wish to intrude to your privacy but may i ask what course do you take? I have a guess it might be related to the medical field for it's usually the common one that can be thought of when thinking of hu tao's philosophy. I'm very touched with what you said that you'd like to help persons honorably when that point of their lives happens :(( i feel very emotional 😂😭 i do hope you'll be able to successfully do that when you graduated!! 💖💖💖 And i can see how you relate to hu tao now that you explained it. Well, with Dan, Dan's adventure team and with me, surely you are free to talk more about yourself :D i do understand that you think much of others but what about you? Take some time to think about yourself or maybe talk about you :> I may not be able to give you the reactions or responses you'd like (like albedo), but i will try my best to be of company and listen to you !! Furthermore, yes i do think... Hu Tao is actually quite lonely even if she tries to connect with people. But she tries!! And she always tries <3 which i hope you'd do the same too!

i am also looking forward to your blog's transformation~ take your time with it 😚💗

And yes. On the 25th. Friday. Insane right ? 😂 It wont be like that if i didnt tried to ignore them months ago (think of venti's behavior towards responsibilities) i became very much carefree and idk how it happened 😰 😰 thank you for your sincere empathy tho <33 and good luck on completing your tasks too even if it's on april !! Idk how it is like in college (but im already nearing this stage of life and im burnout already b4 college,,,) but it must be difficult and more challenging, so even if we may have different struggles, i will be here w u!! Dw not bc i have deadlines of friday means that i wont be able to reply <3 i find it nice to interact with people in times of stress so that way i could feel better !! And im unsure how or what im gonna ask help from you with 😰😰 its kinda... Embarassing or i feel shy >< plus i dont wanna give you more stress bc of my dumbass ass lmao but your kind words are already helping me get thru my days 😤💖 so keep that in mind whenever u feel bad that you make someone's day with your kind words already <333

I haven't really payed attention to other blogs but i know for sure Dan's community and blog is one of the most wholesome blogs out there !! 🥰 I have been drinking enough water— or so i thought xD i drink water immediately when i feel hot or thirsty (it is soooo hot in my country rn since we're apparently in the summer season around this time) and i hope ur drinking enough water or eating enough food too <333

i'm also more than glad to be of company🥰💖✨ tho for the "whenever you need" part, i appreciate your offer greatly!! But i am unsure as to how i should do that 😅 i feel very shy sm😤

diluc has been long associated with strawberries maybe because of his colors + it fits him v well !! And yes... why so smug, fox anon? im always feeling 🤭😔😌 whenever you do the ":3c" emoticon- HOLD ON I CAN UNDERSTAND MORE OR YOUR HU TAO ENERGY NOW!! hu tao does that smug expression too... >0< aaaaaa it's very cute!! 🤭 And aha,,, yes,,, he is my favorite,,,, well i have no particular fav food but im a picky eater 😩 i dont like seafood and veg- nahh i aint gonna disclose that but i know you could tell already 😌😔 maybe cheese pizza?? Dark chocolate?? I kinda like grapes too bc of the sweet+sourness. What about u? Do u have fav foods? 👀

take care as well, fox anon <33!! i'll always be here 👌

and im v 😳 that my asks makes your day!! Im very glad to know that :DD because your replies makes my day too 😔💗 and dw abt getting zhongli in the results- i cannot process that information ngl

— 🍰 !

hellooooo 🍰!!

don’t worry about calling me fox only!! call me however you feel more comfortable 🥰 also don’t worry about your asks getting long! i don’t mind, really - i’m only putting the read more feature on my replies because i recently learned how to use it and i think it’s pretty neat lmao

i hope the mom friend energy is a good thing 😫 i’m so glad the tinted screen works!! have you been able to do more of your assignments? please don’t take time away from them to reply to me, i’ll be here when you’re done with them!! dude, i’m amazed how in every message you prove how kind you are. that’s a really sweet goal. i’m sure you achieve it every time you try!! you sure have a way with words 💕💕

if that’s the case, rip you ip 💀 do you remember what was your favorite quiz? i usually take those on the trending page of uquiz lmao tbh scoring zhongli as first was a first for me dhjkdshakj as someone who used to sucking at understanding and voicing my feelings irl - it gets better with time, so don’t worry! i hope people telling you that you can be confusing doesn’t discourage you from trying - i think you do a great job in our convos! do you have anything you enjoy drawing a lot?

idk if it’s because i’m a bit more raw emotionally speaking today, but your line of me deserving getting love kinda brought tears to my eyes? i guess i needed to hear that and didn’t even know it. thank you 🥰🥰 i think you’re spot on about jean and ganyu in terms of workload and caring for people. but i have my doubts about keqing - i’m not the leading type at all, despite our types of shyness being similar. and as for noelle, she has a defining trait, imo, that doesn’t fit me: she’s filled with determination 💪😂 but i can see why you think she fits hehe thank you for explaining your point of view to me!!

and thank you for talking about your shared traits with diluc - i think i can understand you a bit better now! honestly i couldn’t tell you’re a distrusting and emotionally constipated person, you seem so open to me?? and even as an emotional person i can attest that yep, emotions are def a hindrance to logical choices - i wish i could decide things by thinking alone, tbh 😣

is it bad that i’m laughing about how you said “idk if i kin him” and then proceeded to write an essay about similarities between the two of you? 😂😂 not that this is a bad thing!! i think it’s nice because it gives me more insight on who you are as a person! and oooooh, you’re the oldest sibling? 👀 or do you have older ones? if you’re comfortable with sharing, ofc!

a friendly reminder: i know it seems better than to “bother” other people, but you don’t have to face every burden on your own, alright? i’m sure your irl and online friends would love to help lessen them, and i’m here for you too!! 💖

hol’ up - you’re telling me genshin characters have mbti types and enneagrams? like, fans actually went there? that’s so cool!!! 🤩 if you don’t mind sharing yours, i’d love to know! to be honest i don’t have a very deep understanding of kokomi, so it’s very interesting to see her from your perspective and how you relate to her. by the interactions you guys have with others, i can guess you’re introverts? i share your pain about group projects and planning, too 🥲

about my degree, i don’t mind! i’m studying for a bachelor in medicine, so you were pretty much spot on. and honestly, i hope so too. i had a lecture about palliative care today and i kept thinking about our previous convo - it fit like a glove 😂 thank you for giving me the freedom for talking about myself more - it’s something i’m working on hehe and i’m trying!! dw about it! 💕💕

listen… i regret to inform you i know exactly how your assignments piled up because i did the same. we think we have time, and then we procrastinate, and then we don’t want to do it because it’s too much work. BUT WE CAN DO THIS. we can conquer them. yes, the copium is strong here. do you know what you wanna study in college? don’t forget to sleep and eat properly!!! and dw, it’s not extra stress for me, promise! i’m glad i’m able to help with my words!

i don’t know if this is too much to ask, but do you, by chance, live in the southern hemisphere? because summer ended in my country literally two days ago, so that got me thinking. feel free to not answer to that if you’re uncomfortable! but GOOD!!! hydration!!!!!! 🌊

YES, THE HU TAO ENERGY COMING THROUGH!!!!! 🤪🤪 FEEL IT!!! but for real though, it's just me thinking thoughts. don’t worry too much about them. :3c i’m relatively new to the genshin fandom despite playing the game for around a year now, so i had no idea about the association of diluc and strawberries, but i can see it now 😂

me, looking at you saying you don’t like vegetables: same. no joke. 🧍 but broccoli cooked with rice is neat. and yep, i do!! there’s this dish called chicken stroganoff that i absolutely adore. i also like apricots. and sweets in general. i'm the type of person that goes into the supermarket and always walks out with a chocolate bar 😳

thank you for the good luck wishes!! i have mixed feelings about the term i’m in right now, but i’m not worrying too much - if i fail, i fail, and that’s that. i’m still trying my best. the hu tao mental image you just gave me was so cute!!! i’m going to think about it everytime i feel discouraged now.

about 🍁 – dude, i’m not even doubting you, i’m just shook. like, how????? how do people find anons on the internet???? the skill flies over my head. but i’m glad to hear they’re feeling better!! i kinda wanted to ask more about what they were feeling but i didn’t want to intrude 👀

OKAY so about the whole fox thing - i just really like foxes. have you seen them??? total goofheads. i love them. it’s really not that deep, sorry to disappoint 😂😂

hope you had a good day!! 💕💕💕 see you soon!

[bigbrothernetflix-st]

EPISODE TWO

“I'm starting to feel more comfortable with my position in the game.” - dem

HOH: Josh C UPSIDE DOWN: Nick & Joshua NOMINEES: Emma & Nash POV: N/A FINAL NOMINEES: N/A EVICTED: Dem (Expelled)

EMMA

I been struggling in this game which is sad i want to have fun but yesterday made me feel like maybe having a meltdown and leaving 90 percent of servers was a good idea for me i really hope not i just really want to have fun and win for some reasons i always have trouble prejury in games trying to find my footing but at jury and late prejury i always know how to rise ASDFGH the people i really like rn are Jakey loml jev loml aria queen saira queen and also joshua is easy to talk too!!! nathan is also great

DEM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSgjyUhGTng

NASH

i simply think men should stop winning hoh and trying to nom me. its week 2 go target someone else j*sh. jev and i are cool now though <3 love him

DEM

I'm starting to feel more comfortable with my position in the game. I think I'm not in anyone's bad graces so far, which is good. But I really need to win one of these next HoH's so secure my social relationships. My plan moving forward is to see win HoH's. I want to win the next to HoH's I'm eligible in back to back. I also want to try to secure my relationships with Gina, Jev, and Jake. Those are three people I want to be close with in this game. Also maybe Joshua? He's pretty cool and chill.

SAIRA

I'm still getting a sense of how the game works but I feel pretty good, there are some people that are much easier to talk to than others but everyone is still so nice! i feel good about josh c as hoh! we get along pretty well and I don't THINK im in any danger but you never know! imma be honest, I don't have an actual plan, i'm mostly playing this by ear, just talking to people, bullying beck when the chance arises, and being myself! 

JOSH C

HELLO GIRLIES!

well, we won HOH and that's really EXCITING. i probably didn't need to win this week but i figured that i'd get a win under my belt while nominating people would still be EASY. i can establish trust with some people and get a "i didn't nom you, please don't nom me" situation going on. i also feel like the two people i'm going to nominate would have NOMMED me anyways because we just haven't talked..

who those people are? nash & emma. (vl don't hate me for only nominating women i didn't want it to come to this either)

but i just.. both of them have really only put in any effort to talk to me now that i'm HOH and i don't really LOVE that tbh. i've already told a few people that's who i'm thinking so i kind of accidentally locked myself in on these noms because there isn't any sense in throwing out more names than i have to!!

i have an alliance with kiki, brianna, jacob, jake, and aria. (i think that's the people in it? i wanna say that's right. LKFMSDG love this game for me) and i feel pretty good in that because i like all of them enough and they're people that will watch out for ME and each other. but i know my social connections go beyond that so i'm feeling pretty good with my spot in the game? i have a solid relationship with almost everyone in the game and i think i should be able to play a cute lil utr game for a few weeks. i don't think that i'll get targeted first if my alliance gets outed and if so.. i have ENOUGH faith in my comp strength and relationships to save me against MOST of the cast.

people kind of want me to nominate DEM because apparently he starts drama with people and has been a bit inactive. he's talked with me more than other people so im not super keen on throwing him on the block RIGHT AWAY but i'm thinking he's a good replacement nom because if people think he's MIA then no one other than him will be upset with me. maybe a backdoor? could be spicy..

i don't really know what else to say here so.. i hope this is enough! love u guys <3

BRIANNA

https://youtu.be/mJw3qxsZ-Bg

JEV

Okay so I feel like pretty comfortable this week because me and Josh have gotten pretty close and bonded over our mutual love of Lucas HOWEVER he's just let me know he's gonna be nominating Nash and Emma which isn't GREAT since I'm in alliances with both of them and they're the only 2 alliances I have so I really wouldn't want to see either of them go home this week, this SUCKS ASS

JAKE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tt2xRQqqax8

ARIA

how is it ONLY week 2 i feel so hecking exhausted fhsabfd, but that might also be the fact that is 2 am so,,,oop. Um okay recap time!!!! Recaps are so hard because theres minor details that i still want to note without seeming super annoying so heres a minor list of things im noticing 

-Dem wants to "start playing the game" I told this to Jake (wish i could bold names ugh)

-Gina & dem told me they were gunning hard for hoh- i told nathan/monty/nick/,,,,and someone else this

-emma feels unconnected from cast

-Jake doesnt like Gina

-Josh likes Me Jev Kiki (told joshua)

-emma knows alliances are starting to form

-joey can get pwr hungry and chaotic + good comp ability

-told gnia my thoughts on the sides being "connected v unconnected" and other tidbits of info

-GIna (potentially joshua) doesnt like nash

-Nathan/Nash ARE CLOSE!!!!! WEE FUCKING WOO!!!!

-Told Jake that Jacob has the power (and the bs excuse he told gina pretending he doesnt have it,,,sure jan)

-jake is GREAT at lowering his threat lvl im sick

-Jev-Josh-Nathan-Nash all bonded p well on vc potentially an alliance

-jake tried to get gina nominated

-Emma Nash noms

-Jake doesnt want emma to leave

So,,,thats what you missed on GLEE! Honestly glee sucks but yeah thats all my info i would weave everything together with cute transitions but im TIRED and lots of this information doesnt really connect well so,,,have a bullet list! 

okok nvm heres some general thoughts bc JUST a bullet point list is so boringgg im honestly not too sure what i want to do this week bc i think emma doesnt have a lot of people (although she has jake apparently,,,she might just be putting up a front of being unconnected ffs) so i would rather keep her around based on our relationship alone esp compared to nash whose been busy w/ irl things to reply i think (nash would prob do gr8 in old school bb,,,but new school is a whole other beast) HOWEVER!!! I need to protect gina who isn't the best conversationalist (sorry bb ily but its true <3) and keeping nash around ensures people have another "inact" target besides her but also nash is such a god connection for people like nathan and jacob and i would rather get her out sooner than later before we have another renee on our hands ...

Also i havent talked to the pasio peeps (omg if we ever make an alliance,,,that should be the name hehe) in a while and idk if theyre distancing themselves or if theyre just busy fndsjafd god im too paranoid for this game its awful. Also i think i mentioned the alliance with josh kiki bri jake jacob last time and it still isnt made and im PRAYINGGG it never gets made bc i have SUCH an awful feeling like SIX FUCKING PEOPLE??? S I X?? THAT IS GOING TO FAIL AND BLOW UP!!!! but i cant say no to an alliance so here i fucking am :/ also im trying to think of my longevity in this game and like,,, idk im nervous. I mean ive mentioned going to the end with multiple people but i have such a bad feeling im gonna go out 9/10 as a big move and i REFUSE to let that shit happen, not on my fucking watch no sir!! Not sure what to do about it yet but i feel like monty in particular doesnt trust me and i need his ass OUT! or maybe not if he comes around but like??? sir pls talk to me- i mean this phase of the game is early im setting up the pawns for later, but before later theres gonna be a couple explosions of my game which i'll have to deal with,,, or maybe not actually i mean in my first org i did a really well mastermind game with it- nvm it did explode on me once FDBSHFDS yeah so theres gonna be an explosion period but i think im getting good at dealing w/ the backlash from it and reintegrating myself..

oh also yeah im safe this week lol

anyway sorry for rambling so much LMAO have a trust ranking!

1.Gina (MY QUEEN!!!!!!!! i LOVE her!)

-BIG BIG FUCKING GAP-

2.Jake (listen,,,my thoughts go back and forth but he did tell me the noms so,,,have some rights)

3.Saira (we never talk game but i dont think she talks with anyone about game beyond maybe nick and also shes nice and im a sucker for nice girls)

4.Emma (if this isnt all just a front shes gonna make a great number for me,, might need to fact check some of her statements tho)

5.Joshua (honestly? i love him hes so funny and i think he has my back although he could be more act)

6.Nathan (literally havent talked in 3 days but also i have a soft spot for him <3)

-GAP-

sorry the Js are just kinda scary lmao JFNSDKF

7.Nick (!! we gotta an actual connection folks!! heck yeah!)

8.Josh c (im safe! but he D E F trusts others more than me such as Joshua and Jacob)

9.Jev (honestly a king but hes a little quiet although his reccs are the BOMB)

10.Jacob (i know youre being sneaky,,,idk what youre being sneaky with but im getting the vibes)

11.Dem (might be weird but i think he trusts me? at least a little bc he ranted about losing to me so O.0)

12.Brianna (youre adorable and deserve the world but everyone likes you,,,is this how people view me omg fhsabfhds)

13.Kiki (youre SO hecking sweet and actually u probs have a connections to nash but we havent talked ANY game yet)

14.Nash (p,,p-please talk to me uwu)

15.Joey (i dont trust you at ALL! Why? good question-)

was that mean? sorry in advance ilyall but also its 3 am brain empty no filter

NASH

i think jev and nathan might end up being good allies of mine (inb4 betrayal)! despite the mistake he made nomming me, talking to jev has been lovely so far he's getting me into loona LMFAO. and i just love nathan's energy & i feel like as the season goes on i can see him winning comps. i'm excited :3 hope josh c does not end my existence this week

JOEY

I feel FANTASTIC about Josh being HoH. I’m making sure that others are coming to me about gameplans, and I’m making sure I don’t come off as too pushy or aggressive in PMs. With most of the players, I’m trying to give them all the same energy and hype. It seems kinda weird to say this, but I’m not concerned about being nominated at this point. What I need to ensure is building my social relationships with people outside the “Crackhouse”, and yes that big ol friend group moved to Discord in 20 minutes like 6 months ago. 

This is the first major game I’ve ever played with Skinny Nick(yes, I’m absolutely confused as to what to call them, I’m so used to calling Nick “Eve” that its going to take time to adjust.) Speaking of Nick, my social relationship with him is actually surprisingly similar. In the past, I felt as though it would be as “on-sight” as Tom & Jerry, and it actually isn’t turning out that way, which is surprisingly refreshing. Every day, I’m making sure I send Nick something different to diversify my social game with them. Yesterday, I asked Nick about his preferred streaming services for music and TV, and I discovered we have the same music service(Apple Music).

I’ve played one game with Monty before, but it was a disaster. We were in pairs, and it felt like we were on different planets. I did tell him to not worry about personal feelings when it comes to this game, because I compared the relationship of BB Netflix and the Crackhouse to the separation of church and state. I made that comparison because the two entities of church and state should never cross, but when they do it becomes disastrous, and I feel as though that same principle applies to this game.

Overall, I feel good, Emma may be going up on the block, but it shouldn’t affect me that much. We’re in the early stage, I want to make sure I’m good with everyone.

ARIA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFeox7LM1-E

JAKE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OLkZ-BIIjTU

HOUSE MEETING

https://youtu.be/BZMorvWvyKY

HOST WEEKLY CAST ASSESSMENT WEEK 1 & 2

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vc-iMpkfrdw&list=PLFEwPPy8j010XXwntq80VSU0qLNTNpSIN&index=3&t=0s