#if anybody has some suggestions they'll be appreciated

[got-eggs]

I might upgrade some parts of my computer, I really need some HDMI ports and a Bluetooth thing(whether a board or a adapter honestly don't care, might go for an adapter since it's more versatile)

[maskfree]

Birthday Gift

Today's my birthday and I just want this day to end. I already told them I don't want to celebrate though they're free to celebrate it without me. Since last night, I wasn't feeling well due to muscle spasm around my left side waist. I made a wrong move while I was taking a bath. So now, it's hard and a bit painful to move. My movements were a bit restricted. My stomach also feels bloated since I haven't eaten much fiber lately. But this morning, they asked me what I wanted to eat. I said anything is fine. Then I remember my aunt, who has been residing with us temporarily, is also experiencing pain in her stomach so I suggested maybe it would be nice if we could order lumpiang sariwa. But my dad said no, we already have sinigang for lunch. So deep inside, why did they even have to ask me for what I want?

Came afternoon, my mom's busy cooking in preparation for the upcoming fiesta as well. I told her she didn't have to cook a lot. In my thoughts, they're already retirees. People would understand. But my mom still cooks as much as she did before even if we have a lot of food already since they went to Mla last weekend. I just feel like some food might spoil and it's a waste. Besides, I'm really not in the mood/headspace to entertain anybody. I can't eat much due to the pain. And I'm tired and still in a burnout. But they still pushed through with what they want. She cooked her spaghetti sauce using beef this time coz my aunt doesn't eat pork. She's complaining to me that she doesn't like it coz she prefers pork. I was afraid my aunt might hear her so I said there's no problem with that. My aunt also bought pizza from her classmate and it arrived early. My mom complained again coz it might lose its crunchiness by the time they plan to celebrate. So I ate 2 pieces while they're still fresh and crunchy.

It's just funny to me that they'll also criticize me whenever I cook experimentally for myself (my curiosities) since usually, they didn't like what I was trying to cook. They'll even say I am selfish for cooking food that they don't like. And here they are, complaining that she didn't like her spaghetti sauce out of consideration for my aunt, who's just here for a while from abroad.

Anyway, right now, they've invited some of our relatives and my nephews and nieces. I feel bad but I just can no longer force myself to mask as if I'm okay. To pretend as if I'm interested in this celebration and good spirit to make it fun. I already told them I didn't want to celebrate but they still want me to take part of it. Para namang magkakasala sila sa Panginoon kung di nila gagawin e. I appreciate the effort but I just don't feel they're genuinely considering my feelings in this celebration. Parang dahil lang sya sa nakasanayan/nakagisnan na kaya nila ginagawa. And yung gusto rin naman nila ang nasusunod parati.

I just can't find any meaning to celebrate my birthday anymore. Parang pinanganak lang ako para makaranas ng trauma na ito. Tapos manggi-guilt trip pa sila kesyo di ako nakikisama. Nasabihan pa ako ng anti-social. Totoo naman pero sila rin naman dahilan kaya naging anti-social na ako lalo. Kahit kailan, wala na akong ginawang tama. Ayoko na talaga. Nakakapagod na. Kakasawa na umunawa at mag-adjust. Wala na rin talaga akong mapiga pa. Kung pwede lang bangungutin ngayong gabi, that would be a better birthday gift for me.

[the-firebird69]

We have more to talk about of their particulars but they're important

-John remillard & company are stoked and it's because they're taking over DC and parts of New England New Jersey and upstate New York and around the city and parts of the city and we can't have it I don't want to see this stupid a****** do anything else and he's getting stuff together for president I want to ride a power everywhere and I don't want him getting up anywhere and we have alerts all over the place and we have people taking action but we need bigger teams and they're tired and exhausted and her son says it's time to just juice up where you are and to enjoy because your work is appreciated and if you succeed will be free they say how to see if you take to take the territory would be suck him in it's a A plus and hell you Stars use things that work on a bunch of them get them all in one place so they said that's a good idea and Frank Castle hardcastle said that's a great idea and we have to develop some sop hello and then request if we can do it and need an answer by such and such so go ahead and do that and right now they're saying it's murder and her son and daughter say yeah of you

-we are proceeding now but we do hear him we have to use that it's ridiculous there's a lot of people there and start doing it if we do and who the hell wants to put up with these idiots again

-it's time for us to start working here a lot more right now I'm sitting in teams and we're doing this specific assessment and we're going to check everything out some big changes are coming up and we have to be ready we also have to start building stuff and we need to have more people and right now

-the county is a mess people are not doing their jobs they're not assigned to it and they're not pulling their weight and nobody is on board to do anything other people who have are working here are in the way of people doing any work and there is a local government it's run by the three and they're hardly into it they say they can't get anybody to do anything. Our son suggests subcontractors that they have or that we have if you look tough for them but there's groups that we can assemble that are somewhat in the middle and we can help with funding they say they have that covered they just can't spend the money on anything and it's a good thing to do so we're looking to talk to him about it how to do it and those groups will get involved and they'll see that they're needed here it's going to be a feat but it wasn't for them in the long run and actually Garth knows some companies and people it's how you end up stuck to him we think. And Ben Arnold know someone like him they're going to start moving on it and it's a good idea we have other ideas like to have us develop our own land and we're getting to go ahead

We actually are planning on doing that it says we need to get people in here and that's how you get people here otherwise it won't be people here we'll just be yelling at so we're going to start doing it now

-there are instances every day with our son every stupid person that goes by practically has some dumb things get us to say I want that to stop now their areas are going to be under attack and they're going to be send out of the cities and going to the cities eventually they won't be anywhere I don't want to wait till that time to have control over things cuz it won't work for him or us we need to develop some more systems at work

-a couple other things happening in real time they're trying to bully our son everyday into doing something and nobody can figure out what it is it looks like a ride and it has been identified as one and it's all the warlock we need to take a very good look at it today and I'm assigning people

-there is apparently nothing for our son to do here again he is alone bored and poor. Is that a motivate me he's just making me laugh because he's trying to motivate me. Says Hera doesn't want me to have money. That's another item but he has to have funding and we went over it with her and she gets it and wants to be there and it's good it'll motivator and she'll get over some of her things and she says good jerk no the jerk is not good and we are starting to see this is hell here and why and it is applicable in the other places and we're moving on it too but it is important to try and break it so we can see

-several plans are in motion we're putting more plans in motion and we need people to sign on to this permanent duty and you can switch out of it but you need someone to replace you and we need people now

-there's a huge number of people who are running to the border and to attack it and we mean the northern border and the three are trying to defend it and they are fighting for real now and taking hits it's all because of the 19th and 23 encapsulating in prison now they're fighting over all the prisons so they noticed that they're going there. It's going to be a very huge day it's so other items to announce

-they have all sorts of things happening here to our son on a daily basis it's code and we need to break it and we're not paying attention to it and it's priority very high priority and I'm putting it up

-several other things we have outstanding items you start putting them out again this credit card is sitting in fort Myers he doesn't have a new one and they're threatening to use it all the time and set the police station he doesn't have any money he can't get it from any of the other Banks where as money is they're constantly threatening to break into his apartment. His apartment is a mess it needs a roof and it has for all about a year and a half and there are other items under the sink needs to be fixed and more and they're not being addressed at all and we have problems with the stove and it needs new cover things and they're expensive and he's going to buy them over and over and we do not agree with what's happening here these two are abusive the sewer is broken and is not even thought of being fixed it stinks like s*** and acid and piss and ammonia gas we do need these things if you mention it and stuff he might have to move in there might not be a place to move to and Stan can't seem to swing it and people don't seem to want to help also is dependence on social security and Jason is trying to ruin it to put him on state support which is $800 less or more and we don't want to see that happen he'd be poor as hell and he already is I've had enough of these people for a lifetime we need to shut them down he tried to get money the other day from FEMA and the a****** had enough nerve to call him up we want him fired and others who speak to him that way these people should know they're all dying from their behavior here and they don't understand it and they can't get it and they must well we have to wipe them out I want people to understand that just other than me and Freya

Thor Freya

We understand it and we need to set up some seminars and tell people and that's how we do it it's training and we need to change the training and the guys started it and said they're after our people and this is actually the first front the first people out there in the ditches and you're getting a lot of trouble if you don't pay attention. It started in a 7 hours and we need to wrap it up they started seminars and we need to include it in training and we need to get it out there now

Nuada Arrianna

Olympus

[seeabout-afterdark09]

Right Hand

Right Hand

Drake (July 27,2015)

On July 21, 2015 Meek Mill claimed in a tweet that Drake didn't write his own raps, sending shockwaves throughout the hip-hop community. This tweet not only launched the biggest rap beef of the 2010's but made a huge fracture in Drake and Nicki's relationship. Nicki Minaj at the time, was dating Meek Mill. Right Hand was released six days after that tweet.

While some people may have different thoughts on who Drake's "right hand" is I like it is obviously about Nicki. This song lines up a little bit too perfectly with everything that was going on during that time. "You my right hand, you my go to/Told me everything about you, that's a bold move/I know that you're out here/And there's things you gotta go through/Just know that these streets just don't love you like I do/Yeah, and they never will." This line is about a woman who has been there for him for a long time and a woman he views as his "right hand man". But he makes it clear: the streets will never love her like he does. I believe that this line could refer to multiple things, but in this case I think that Drake is talking about rougher "street" dudes. Men that abide by street code; essentially bad boys. I think that he's trying to tell Nicki that chasing after bad boys won't bring anything but hurt because they'll never appreciate her like he does.

"But I swear you gotta chill/You wanna grip a Benz wheel." Refers to Nicki constantly being on the move, riding in her Mercedes, just working. "You got a lot on your plate/That's why you're always working out/Taking pictures of yourself." Nicki worked out a lot in 2014 and took a lot of photos of herself for Instagram. Nicki took so many selfies in fact, that she was considered one of the first IG baddies. "You don't see anybody else/And you're like, "Oh well"/You're like, "Fuck it, oh well"/My past behind me like a ponytail." The "past" could reference everything Nicki felt like was holding her back. She's looking in the rearview mirror without a fuck to give saying "thank God that's over" (i.e. her ex).

"You and all your girlfriends/The ones you never bring around me/'Cause you don't trust me like your last man." Drake here is teasing Nicki, mentioning the friends she seems to hide from him (as if she doesn't trust him). "Did he open doors for ya?/Buy the things you can't afford for ya?." Drake here puts himself on a pedestal, daring Nicki to tell him if any man has ever catered to her like he has. But he's being sarcastic because he already knows the answer to that question. "You told me 'bout the picture, now you have to send it/I would never put you on blast when I get it." This line refers to the pictures Nicki sends Drake through text. In 2014, Drake posted a few...suggestive photos of Nicki on his IG (the ones I put for the Recognize analysis).

[got-eggs]

I might upgrade some parts of my computer, I really need some HDMI ports and a Bluetooth thing(whether a board or a adapter honestly don't care, might go for an adapter since it's more versatile)