#if another doc tells me to just do recreational drugs to self medicate the pain im going to cry istg

[grumpyghostdoodles]

sfhsgdgfh rrrrrrgghhh, crawling up the walls, man. Tomorrow I have the second online appointment with the doc thats going to tell me if I qualify for an operation that could bring my everyday pain from 8 to a 5.

But im a woman in her 20's, so he could so easily say no to me, no matter how many medical exams I show him. I already had so many doctors say "But youre so young, and this is such an invasibe and painful surrgery, are you sure?? Have you tried just doing recreatonal drugs?"

Im crawling up the walls, trying to distract myself. Painted my nails, made some tea with cinnamon, tried to study for my uni classes, sent some emails, baked some cinnamon rolls. Im gonna try to draw. or bake more cinnamon rolls

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