#if I had a dollar for every time I’ve written a redemption fic for a character I DO NOT LIKE

[mochatears]

It’s really weird to me, but the happiest I’ve ever been about the reception for a fic I posted was for the 9000 word Jason Carver redemption fic that I feverishly spewed out all in one night, and uploaded at four am before promptly passing tf out. It did not start its life as a Jason Carver redemption fic, and it was only supposed to be like 3000 words. But it just fuckin kept going. And by the end I was really happy when people commented that I made them feel for a character they didn’t like.

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an interview with @burninghoneyatdusk​ (she/her) What are you working on right now? Right now I’m prioritizing prompts for the Bellarke Writers for BLM Initiative, which is a mix of new prompts and requests for WIP updates. I just posted a chapter update of my fic Voices in the Water, which is a canon-verse/everyone is a grounder arranged marriage AU with a bit of a twist, and next I’m working on a new prompt. After that, I’ve got three chapters of All Because of You  requested. All Because of You is a modern AU with bellarke as *platonic* coparents. The story is told in alternating flashbacks and present day (every other chapter). The flashbacks focus on them growing closer during Clarke’s unplanned pregnancy and the present is seven years later, where they have to come to terms with their feelings for each other when Clarke gets engaged to someone else.

What’s something you’d like to write one day? I would love to publish a novel one day. For years I had a YA dystopian/time travel trilogy kind of planned but I poked too many holes in it and want to start from scratch in that regard. Another novel I want to write is one that covers three generations of women, looking at mother-daughter relationships, women in society, generational trauma… a lot of stuff. It was inspired by learning about my grandmother’s life more and thinking about how it impacted her relationship with my mother, and in turn my mother’s relationship with me.

For fanfiction, beyond my current prompts and WIPs, I have two other fics outlined. One is an AU inspired by the movie Plus One. The other is a soulmate AU that’s a bit dark and involves immortality, magic, and essentially Bellamy as a villain with a redemption arc.

What is the fanwork you’re most proud of? I think All Because of You will probably remain my most popular, but right now I’m most proud of Voices in the Water. More so than my other fics, it has a more concise plot and I’ve done a deeper dive into Clarke’s character as an Azgeda assassin and I think the reader really gets into her head more than my other multiple POV fics. It’s also my first canonverse fic and I’ve enjoyed diving into that world and expanding upon it where I want.

When did you first start writing fic? I didn’t start writing fic until the beginning of 2019. I first published in February 2019, which was Homesick (It’s a Bittersweet Feeling). It was my first fic and the only multichapter WIP that’s complete right now, so it’s a special story for me.

What frustrates you most about fic writing? I’ve mostly had only a positive experience with fanfic writing. With the exception of a couple stray comments, my readers have been gracious, kind, and most importantly, patient. But I guess it can be challenging when you self-impose pressure because you’re aware that people are waiting for you to publish so sometimes I rush things. I haven’t personally experienced this, but I think that fic writing can also be frustrating when readers feel like you owe them something or unnecessarily offer negative comments that aren’t at all constructive. Some people forget that people are publishing stories for free, in their spare time, often in addition to full-time jobs or school and parenting.

What are your top five songs right now? 1. castles (freya ridings) 2. maniac (conan gray) 3. fired up (grace carter) 4. I am not afraid (g flip) 5. wanna be (betty who)

What are your inspirations? (books, songs, other fic) I take inspiration from all of those things but I would say mostly quotes and random photos on tumblr. I wrote Homesick because I liked the step-siblings/forbidden trope and wanted to write in a small town setting like the one I grew up in. All Because of You was honestly the classic “this is my bedtime daydream story I think about every night” so it’s pretty self-indulgent with the tropes I wanted to use. Voices in the Water was started because I loved the grounder!Bellamy / arranged marriage trope. The wanheda twist came from me reading the 4x11 script to screen with Clarke trying to force herself to shoot Bellamy to save humanity, but realizing that she can’t.

What first attracted you to Bellarke? What attracts you now? I’m not sure I remember a specific moment but I think I remember bellarke being all over my tumblr dash when I started s2 so kind of paying close attention to them during s2. s2 was of course a great season for them and by the ‘knocking on heaven’s door’ scene in 2x16 I was a goner.

Regarding what drew me to them, I think I’ve always loved a good slow burn with the partners/”I’ve got your back” vibe that they have. My first (and biggest) OTP before them was tony & ziva from NCIS which is a really similar vibe although a very different show.

Besides Bellarke, what character or pairing do you like best on t100? I think that Memori is probably my second place ship. Before s7, I would say there was a HUGE gap between my love of Bellarke and Memori, but this season has made me an even bigger Memori fan. I have to say that while I don’t think there was ever a chance of Murven happening, I do understand why people ship it. I think they have great chemistry/a great dynamic and in another life, so to speak, I would have shipped them. 

Regarding characters on their own, I just love all my delinquents, but I think that Murphy is solidly my third favorite character. Raven and Octavia are probably tied behind him.

Why did you decide to start bellarkefic-for-blm? I credit the reason to Kara ( @queenemori ). (Sidenote: everyone go follow her! She’s an amazing fanfic writer and overall just a really positive, awesome person to have in the fandom). I remember reading her post  - and I won’t try to paraphrase, so please take the time to read her it - but in general it got me thinking about how we as a fandom could support the BLM movement in a substantial way that is more than just spreading posts on social media, and in a way that doesn’t lose momentum as time goes on and the movement becomes less “trendy.” I thought about how many people collectively read our fanfiction and how we provide it for free, and if people could just pay a few dollars or however much they can afford and donate that to the cause, we collectively could make a huge difference. So that’s what I’m hoping this is - making a substantial difference in a way that doesn’t fade in time and also uses the power of fandom in a useful way. We have a lot of power if we collectively put it towards something like this instead of fighting over ships or actors or whatnot. I also figured that maybe we’d have readers who weren’t paying attention to the movement and that maybe because they want to submit a prompt, they’d do some research on where to donate, and that in turn helps educate them on the issue - or is at least a start.

Has it been as successful as you’d hoped? So on the positive side, I do think it’s incredible that in about six weeks we’ve raised nearly $1250 and have been able to donate to a variety of organizations. I’m incredibly grateful for the authors donating their time and the enthusiastic readers participating. I don’t mean to sound negative at all, but if I’m being honest, I do feel a little frustration at the lack of participation across the fandom as a whole or maybe more specifically across the AO3 readers. I know that my WIP chapters average about 1k hits per update. That’s a lot of people. Even if you cut that in half because maybe people are rereading, that’s still 500 people. So why are only about 20 of my readers donating to this initiative? I think it’s a bit discouraging when you look at the percentage in that way. 

That’s not to say that I don’t understand that some aren’t financially in a position to donate, but I’ve made it clear that there are other ways to contribute (e.g. signing petitions, writing to politicians) and there hasn’t been traction with that either. So I think that in general, something is always better than nothing and it has in no way discouraged me from continuing this. But I’m hoping that more people are able to participate as time goes on. It’s truly a win-win situation of generating more fanfics for readers and donating to an important issue, so I hope to see the percentage of fanfiction readers submitting prompts increase and am doing what I can to continue spreading the word about it. 

I guess in summary what I’m saying is, I’m proud of what the fandom has done so far, but let’s step it up. We can do more, we can do better. Maybe people will get pissed I said that, but idk. If you read fic and can buy a $3 coffee, you can donate to this cause. It’s important. As was Kara’s point, let’s not see this momentum fade when the BLM movement becomes less ~trendy~.

What are some things you’d like to recommend? Instead of writing an essay about all the fics I love, I’d like to link both my bookmarked fics which is my complete list of bellarke fic recs.

I also want to recommend visiting the Bellarke Writers for BLM Initiative writers’ page - these writers are incredible so please go check out their existing works and continue requesting prompts for the BLM movement!

On the note of BLM, I'd also like to link this article. It's older, written in the aftermath of the Charleston attack, but it remains one of the most thought provoking pieces I've read on race in our country.

it was my honor to interview burninghoneyatdusk! honestly, if you aren’t reading Voices in the Water, which is Bellarke except Clarke is an assassin, you should be. it haunts me. she also organized the very cool bellarkefic-for-blm. 

[fics-not-tragedies]

Chaptered series & parted fics masterlist

💦 smut | 🌻 fluff | 🔪 stab-in-the-back-angst | 💧 cry-baby-angst | 🩸 bloody-hell  | 👌🏻 personal favorite | 👏🏻 readers favorite | 📚 series | 📕 parted fic | 📛 trigger warning | ❗ AU | ✔ finished |  ✖ put on hold | ➡ ongoing | 👀 coming very soon

everything that’s crossed out hasn’t been written yet;

everything that isn’t crossed out, but does not include a link to the mentioned part/chapter, was not posted yet;

(if I posted new part/chapter and didn’t updated the masterlist it’s because I’m a lazy ass, and you can bully me to do so)

Call me Señorita  📕 💦💧👏🏻  ✔

(John Wick) You were always his friend, but you did things that friends don’t do. Being his safe heaven felt like your duty, but after all of those years you still kept holding onto the thought that his feelings just don’t show.

Part One: Land in Miami - Part Two: Sapphire moonlight - Part Three: Locked in the hotel - the song that inspired this fic  

Call off the search for your soul  📕 💦❗  ✔

(John Wick x Santino D’Antonio) John spots a handsome guy at the strip club who turns out to be the heir of the D’Antonio family and challenges himself to take him home, which later leads to the two of them forming a relationship.

one - two - three - four  

Dirtbag ballet  📕 💦❗  ✔

(young!John Wick) Jardani is the brightest star at the Ruska Roma and Director’s protege. Even with being under heavy pressure to become the best assassin in the whole world he managed to find a friend.

one - two - three - four

Summer Wine 📕 💦👏🏻  ✔

(Keanu Reeves) Summer vacations spend with Keanu in Paris. Muggy evenings filled with long walks, wine drinking and loads of crazy sex.

Part One: Deep trouble - Part Two: A little death - Part Three: Enthusiasm paraphernalia - Part Four: Taste on my tongue - Part Five: Touch me there - the playlist  

A lesson to teach me  📕 💦👏🏻❗  ✔

(professor!Keanu Reeves) He was always her favorite English professor. She was always the best student with perfect grades. When he fails her on one of the important exams and asks her to see him after class, she’s surprised to hear his confession about why he graded her exam with an F.

Part One: Send you back to schooling - Part Two: You've been learning, I've been yearning - Part Three: You need cooling - Part Four: I'm going to give you my love - Part Five: Way down inside, honey, you need it - the playlist

How do you sleep?  📕 💧💦 👀

(John Wick) After your ways parted, every bridge was burnt and the relationship ended for good the universe had planned a surprise for you two - it made your paths cross once again. Perhaps this is a second chance for you and John to rebuild everything.

one - two - three

Think of Me  📕 💧💦 ✔

(John Wick) You were a figure from his past, the one he never confessed his true feelings for. After taking job at the Continental he sees you too often and thinks of you too often to deny how he feels about you.

one - two - three - four

Dead as Dead Can Be  📕 💦🩸 ➡

(Constantine) Constantine’s relationship with Angela Dodson didn’t worked out, they just remain… in touch. But there’s another woman that haunts his life on a daily basis and now she needs his help in restoring the balance.

Prologue: Itchy bones - Part One: Pinned down by the dark - Part Two: Le nuit du chasseur - Part Three: Hoovering above my bed - Part Four: Out of the black - Part Five: I’m a freak bitch, baby - Part Six: I pleasure you with pain - Part Seven: Down to my knees you do promote me - a glimpse of how Constantine met Adrienne: First impressions of the century - *more coming soon* - the playlist - aesthetics

Vanishing Point  📕 🔪💦❗  ✖

(John Wick) After she stopped John from killing D’Antonio on Continental grounds Juliet leaves him with an offer - she wants to join Wick in getting revenge on the Italian mobster without risking an Excommunicado for both of them.

Prologue: You’re lucky that she’s here - Part One: They might be onto us - Part Two: Make a wish for me baby - Part Three: As if the earth’s reserved for you and I - Part Four: We just slipped off the radar - Part Five: Want to call it a night - Part Six: You're a thousand times mine - Part Seven: I am a thousand yours - Part Eight: Until the vanishing point - a glimpse into Juliet’s past: Threatening behavior - the playlist - aesthetics

Redemption  📕 🔪👌🏻  ✖

(John Wick) He broke one of the crucial rules and now he has to pay a price. With the whole world against him and 15 milion dollars bounty on his head it’s hard to live through another day. The help he needs will take the shape of a figure from his past.

Part One: Your suicide is not a plan - Part Two: You know I will see you again - Part Three: There's nothing left to die - Part Four: The stars are trapped inside - Part Five: Fallen angel of the night - Part Six: Just take my heart, just rip it out - Part Seven: I feel something deep in my chest - Part Eight: My heart remains the same  - drabbles: 1 - the playlist - aesthetics

Memories to be made  📚 🌻💧📛  ✖

(young!Keanu Reeves) In the process of recovering from an accident that caused a temporary memory loss Emelia meets Keanu - a very charming young man with an unusual name. When she slowly falls for him it turns out they both have some secrets…

Chapter One - Chapter Two - Chapter Three - Chapter Four - Chapter Five - Chapter Six - Chapter Seven - Chapter Eight - Chapter Nine - Chapter Ten - the playlist - aesthetics

Intervistare  📕 💦👌🏻  ✖

(Santino D’Antonio) You, are a journalist that got an exclusive interview with Santino for the magazine you worked in. With every new meeting you two fall deeper with each other.

one - two - three - four - five - six - seven - eight

Reckless Serenade  📕 🔪💦 ➡

(Santino D’Antonio) When her father passed away she started to feel lonely once again, even her mother and sister couldn’t help her with filling the hole the death of her father left in her heart and soul. So she mourns him her own way - by throwing herself into endless loop of going out and partying really hard every night. But only until she meets Santino - a man who used to work with her father that makes her feel wanted again.

one - two - three - four - five - six - seven

In a Week  📚 🌼💧💦👏🏻 ✖

When Flo escapes to a hotel in the middle of the woods to clear her mind, before a big decision she has to make, she’s more than surprised when there she meets a man who will change her view of life.  

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One Day in December  📕 🌼💧💦👏🏻  ✔

They see each other every year at a Christmas party, where with every twelve months that’ve passed Andrew and Bianca grow closer and closer, and even through heartbreak they realize that they fell deeply in love with each other.  

one - two - three - four - five - six - seven - eight - nine - ten - epilogue 

White Christmas  📕 🌼💦👏🏻  ✔

(Tom Hiddleston) You - a well respected doctor - organize a Christmas party to raise money for your foundation. A charming stranger catches your eye which leads to spending the evening in his company, dancing, chatting, drinking and even much more than that…  

one - two - three - four

Kisses  📚 🌼💧💦 👀

(Tom Hiddleston) A view of your relation with Tom shown through the various types of kisses you shared throughout the length of your whole romance.