#idontknowhattosay

[gogoemi]

I remember you saying that once you break up with someone, you write them off completely.

I remember writing to you that there wasn't any turning back.

I'm so impulsive, stubborn, overly passionate, hopeless romantic, and I let you in. All those warm, loving feelings had left with you. I'm trying not to blame myself for how I allowed this to unravel. I'm sorry I made you feel past traumas that seem to still be raw for you... I feel like I lost a huge chuck of me and this pain isn't gone yet. I know it's unfair to you to ask so much, to reach out to me and give me the final blow. Instead, you have done what you said you would...

I have been written off. 6 days... it's still raw... it still hurts... I went full rogue and typed a storm and forced my feelings on you. I'm sorry. That's not very considerate of me. I wished you loved me enough to reach out and try to mend this. I wish we could've stayed together and plan for a future together.

Now I see, I was just someone who did meet your expectations. Your wants and your needs. You deserve to have those met.

We both deserve that, but I want you and need you. I chose you, but you didn't choose me back. I thought we were each other's kindred spirit... We had a great romance, I had a great romance with you. Your goofiness, kindness, gentle words, and patience were there, but I guess I was too much for you. That wasn't who I am, what I am is a friend who is wanting to support and be present for another. That's where we couldn't see eye to eye.

So I lay and wait until this feelings drip away with every tear.... pouring out until these feelings finally so fall with pain of loss... I just want to take that breath of acceptance that you aren't coming back into my life... I just want to fast forward to forgetting... but here I am... feeling and filling this sea of tears I'm currently still crying out for you.

[specialdark79]

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[lowincomerelief]

Neil Gaiman is right.

Do you agree with this?

Neil Gaiman: “I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing.”

[specialdark79]

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[specialdark79]

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[specialdark79]

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[specialdark79]

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