#idk. like a stupid guy acting stupid because he's young and doesn't know how to be loved

[beanghostprincess]

Sakura is such a refreshing character when it comes to Shonen protagonists. The one insecurity most main characters share is always feeling weak and like they cannot protect the ones around them. The typical Shonen MC goal is always to get stronger, whether it is because of a dream or the people they love. But Wind Breaker goes even further with this and instead of making Sakura's character arc only about becoming stronger, it acknowledges that becoming stronger also means trusting others and letting yourself be loved because you can't do everything on your own. His strength relies on the people he loves because they lift him up. It has been repeated over and over again by various characters, but it's Sakura the one making the effort to apologize and trying to trust them more and jump off the rope that kept him from walking a safer, more loving path with his friends.

I'm not saying this plot is entirely new because it's classical Shonen behavior (and I wouldn't have it any other way) but Sakura's insecurities come directly from a place of interiorized rejection and genuine hatred to himself, because of past experiences. Again, it's not new, but the way the manga narrates his character development just feels so human and like teenage growth that it's impossible for me not to adore it.

Shonens, in my opinion, usually lack that message that ties the characters to real life. You can relate all you want to these characters but at the end of the day, most of their stories are exaggerations of real insecurities and you can just relate to the mere translation/interpretation to real life. But Wind Breaker does it in a way that feels entirely human and realistic.

So, to summarize, I am a big fan because the manga about fist fighting and street gangs ends up having an unexpected "get loved idiot" message.

[forgotten-daydreamer]

doctors and nurses should be forced to work in retail before being allowed anywhere near patients

[ravenbloodshot]

Someone who gives me the same asshole vibe as Cha Eun Woo and Song Kang is Eunwoo's friend Kim Young Kwang (the actor) I really liked his drama and he is quite handsome but he looks like a sadist and super manipulative to me I'm not gonna lie? No matter how much I try I can't seem to get into him? He was also caught before whilst he was a model (when he was much much younger) talking about what he finds distasteful in women and he said really weird/sexist shit but it was childish af too, like he really didn't think before speaking but I like to give benefit of the doubt to the "youth" LMFAO (not really) but you know he's also Korean so I wasn't shocked, I said oh another one bites the dust 👏🏾☺️😋 Anyway there's something sweet about him (I'm probably reaching and trying to give him a compliment) but he really totally makes the hairs on back stand idk he gives me torturous type vibes? Maybe it's past life between me and him vibes LMFAO but I see evil, I know I'm not tripping, like the dark triad evil? Am I wrong? What energy do you feel from him, please let me know!! Like he looks like if he wasn't told right he'd hold people captivate or be that weird kid that's cruel to bugs? I wouldn't be surprised if he was a bully or humiliated people, especially women. Like you know the energy of a closeted man that hates on women? He looks like the type to say mean things in a joking manner and not even consider people "beneath" him? I feel he can be sweet but it is selective, like he may want something? Idk he feels fucking cold, like his eyes and his smile, no emotion etc I wouldn't be surprised if he has a disorder or something that makes him unemotional etc He's a major homebody too and he always acts uncomfortable in social situations etc, he probably is but maybe he really does has some disorder or something because he expresses that he wants to go home etc. Like I could see him being condescending like Song Kang and Cha Eun Woo too?

CEW always gives me the energy of misguided energy? Like if he were to be surrounded by good people who humbled him he could be okay? I always see some sentiment in him? He looks like people don't check him and out of all 3 he looks to me the most reflective, like if something happened it could give him a spiritual awakening etc and change his life. Like the type of guy that heals if he was loved right. CEW gives me I am a "twin" vibes, like he has a counterpart in this lifetime who's gonna have a profound effect on his life? He always looked like a redeemable soul to me? I don't know but the more he gets deeper into the industry and this cold, cruel, money driven environment he just gonna end up being unredeemable as well, in the deep end? Like he'll end up the worst out of the bunch? I hope he don't start doing drugs but he looks smart to me lol, I'll give him that much. The more I see actors/celebs the more coldness I see lol, some of them have really scary eyes.

It's hilarious to me that people found Song Kang cute, the mf gave me I'm bland and incompetent but have the audacity to be disgusted by you vibes. He generally looks like the type to sanitise his hands if he accidentally brushed past somebody he don't respect, he looks hella coddled too and a mamas boy. He literally admitted himself that he wore the same socks for months straight. He's probably the type that doesn't do the dishes or wash his clothes etc, like he young forever? I was shocked he was feeling Han So Hee LOL but she grown woman vibes and I think it's opposites attract. Her rough girl image, idgaf demeanour probably intrigued him. A part of him also looked like he was pretending, so people could talk about them, like he used her for a come up? He shot a show with that young pretty actress and the interviews (my demon) were a pain to watch. I could tell he found her stupid and you were RIGHT, he cannot hide his dissatisfaction well!! Like it was second hand embarrassment. He was also on another show with BP Jennie and he literally iced her lmfao, he didn't even look at her, he also pushed past another woman and was heavily disgusted by another older woman complimenting him, like how dare you compliment me when you not on my level? Like the type that wants people to ask for permission before they greet him? He called another woman by another name and said "that woman" and she was like "I am that woman, it's my name", as in he didn't even bother learning their names and she said to him don't you think it's too soon to speak casually (banmal/drop honorifics) and refer to me as "that" and that you should learn people's names etc. It baffles me how people give a pass to "handsome/pretty" people in the world and especially Korea? But more so handsome men because of sexism right? Like he was not careful of his behaviour at all but people thought he was "clueless" and cute. It's obvious when he thinks people aren't on his level etc and I think he's at a point where he generally believes he's made it, so he dgaf like yasss I don't need to kiss ass anymore, when he was simply just expected to be polite LOL 😂 I think it's a chore for him to treat people well, like he might think about the beneficial reason why he should give charity and help people? Like they broke, they can get up, I'm not, I work hard. Like simple minded? He's cut the nice act now and he said so himself, that he hates being perceived as cute and a little adorable boy but he masked himself as such and then complains? Probably because he finds his fans disgusting. I'm ngl he feels like that. I don't know lol! Don't mind me, I be popping out here and there and giving the lip and the tea LMFAO 🤣 I'll stop here! 💀

— Lip Service Girl 💄

Me and you must just be on the same wavelength. I think it's too much to say Kim Young Kwang has a disorder, but everything else, I agree.

Cha Eunwoo has the best energy out of the three. But he has his own bs that comes with him. He's not a bad guy, though, the other two .....🤷‍♀️

What sticks in my mind the most is Kim Young Kwangs' weird comments about women as well. Like it's okay to have preferences, but like damn....

[barbiegirldream]

where's my Song of Achilles anon at ! I read the book. liked some stuff didn't like other stuff. it was fanficition of a two thousand year old poem from a three thousand or more year old story. stuff gets silly. Odysseus was still my favorite he's always my guy. Anyway rest of my thoughts under the cut

I think I liked the perspective of Patroclus a really normal guy next to the warrior of the ages. One pov of a boy unsure of his place in the world surrounded by men older and claiming to be wiser and his godly boytoy.

this personally made me cackle. Patroclus is that oh my god get him some brown contacts please meme.

The myths were actually pretty good. I like how vague they were about Patroclus's mother there are like six different women in history claimed to be her it's really Patroclus's paternal ancestors that matter.

I think it's genuinely a major issue with the plot that Patroclus knew of the prophecy and still acted in accordance to Homeric Legend. I just think he should have found out right before but too late when they're in Troy already perhaps in an angry scorn from Thetis about he'll lose too.

Like you I also thought it was stupid as fuck how Patroclus was a totally useless twink. Didn't even know about legendary Myrmidons the fighting force named after his great grandfather mind you. The mythic ant stuff is literally his own family history.

Achilles being so nervous about the war only to fall into it so easily. Like a god finding their domain he was born for it. I really enjoyed the nitty gritty of war planning too. Him getting Achilles dressed the lips being the only part of him still soft. That was awesome why is that no quoted more. Achilles climbing onto Patroclus covered in blood like god that scene is going to be in my head on a loop. There is so much to it. Patroclus knowing him by scent and touch alone but what creature has come to wake him? Achilles so proud of what he's done seeing the revulsion in his lover who was so sure nothing Achilles could do would revolt him.

There could have for sure been so much more to a much more sensitive Patroclus being unable to love Achilles anymore and that's why Achilles stops fighting until Patroclus realizes he can't hold back his demigod lover from greatness. Taking the book in a radical direction but alas.

Brisies was very well done I appreciated her character a lot. I think it was a very good choice to expand on her mythos and remove a lot of the violence. People often read myths and go oh so he raped her when that's either not stated in the text/not needed to include other than their fetishes driving them.

ALSO so fucking annoying Patroclus doesn't die because he's no good at fighting he dies because Hector is Better. Hector is the sole reason the Acheans struggled. He was the Trojan Achilles idk how that point got turned into well Patroclus could barely hold a spear tee hee. Spending the whole book being like Patroclus can't fight ooh one of Achilles's generals is useless. To then be like jk as in accordance with the Iliad he's really good and killed a bunch of people is actually bad writing sorry. I did giggle at Apollo just fucking with him knocking him off the wall all pretty like just twirling his perfect hair.

Turning Troilus the son of Apollo who Achilles chased down tried to rape and then beheaded in the temple of Apollo leaving his mutilated body for his father to die and therefore the reason Apollo kills him into a random death cause the boy was an idiot. Like Troilus literally the Greek representation of losing a young son to unjust murder. Well okay then...

Thetis raising Achilles's son here is so perfect because that boy is rancid. He saw Agememnon and said I could do worse watch I'll go kill Hector's baby just for fun. And they really delivered on what a piece of fucking shit he was.

Thetis giving in, in the end was really good. Liked it

Overall I think the book was really good. I approached it from the knowledge this is taking thousands of years of myths and giving it to the perspective of a side character and I think it delivered.

[hauntingjasper]

My Ran/Jackie Headcanons Because They Live In My Head Rent Free And I Love Them:

(I hope this is comprehensible enough, i struggle with English sometimes.)

Ran is a bit of a picky eater. This one is because he canonically prefers meat, and also projection. Lots of projection. He's the kind of fella who will die internally if he bites into something weird in his food. And he hates onions. Fuck onions.

Listen, i know Jackie bodyslammed him two or three times during the fic but he gets better when he gets older, trust me- /hj

He purrs. That's just common sense. /j

Ran purrs for a variety of reasons, either because he's hurt (cats do that!), or because he's content and comfortable, or even because he's trying to convey safety to whoever he's comforting in the room. This is just an Enderman headcanon i have in general.

Ran has either a book or notes he wrote himself on how to properly comfort people and what to do/say to them. Jackie's "thinking sessions" were one of the biggest reasons he decided to do his research.

He DOES roll in the grass, you can't fool me, Aetherman.

His love language is Acts Of Service.

He likes how makeup looks on others but can't use it himself because it feels weird on his skin. This one is because i think Enderman skin might be different from other creature's skin. It's also a bit of a projection, idk why that happens.

He's not into PDA (Public Display of Affection) and gets awkward when it comes to kissing in public. He tends to "playfully" dismiss Jackie's attempts to do so.

Ran still has several pockets in his clothes and carries several things inside them, he's always the first one to be asked if he has *insert certain thing* because someone else is needing it. Safety pins and hair clips are at the top of the list.

He can see in the dark. Terminus doesn't have a sun so I assume it doesn't have strong light sources either, so it makes sense to me.

In addition to that, there are times when he doesn't like the bright sunlight of the Overworld, especially when he wakes up and is still too tired to properly process his surroundings.

He sleeps in the most uncomfortable-looking positions ever and he's always clinging to something, or someone, while he sleeps.

Ran and Jackie have matching rings. Or necklaces. I like matching jewelry.

Ran goes to the library, this is what he gets: History, Historical fiction and Detective and Mystery.

On the other hand, this is what Jackie gets: Dystopian, YA, Self-Help and Romance and I'll stand by that.

Ran might join him to read and talk about the Romance books, which is another way to say that he'll hear Jackie slander the shit out of the story because he didn't like it.

They might also try to recreate some scenes, and the characters' expressions. The more ridiculous, the better.

Jackie purposely leaves his hair messy because he knows Ran will get annoyed and fix it for him, hence the hair clips.

Neither Ran nor Jackie can cook for shit, and when they do, they always need to have a Cook Book next to them.

Jackie pulls the "Should've killed me when you had the chance" card on Ran. Constantly. /lh

Jackie's love language is Quality Time. But he makes it seem like it's Physical Touch.

He's often the little spoon. I said what I said.

Jackie tends to swing between feeling really good when Ran looks out for him and feeling really weirded out too. It's nice to finally have someone who genuinely cares for you after your previous one came to a tragic end. But Jackie is used to having to fend for himself and be independent from a young age, so there are times when he thinks he's being a burden, or his brain just short-circuits with the attention.

"Would you still love me if i was a worm?" "Again these stupid questions, what the fuck do you want from me-"

"You're the reason why shampoo bottles have instructions." - Ran to Jackie at any opportunity given. Affectionately.

Ran occasionally visits Watson's cell. Because he needs advice. Watson highly considers sabotaging him sometimes.

Jackie is the kind of guy who would secretly do the middle finger in pictures.

Ran is the kind of guy who would notice it first and scold him for that.

Ran has several boxes of puzzle games in his room. And also monopoly. For some reason he keeps going to jail.

Not exactly a headcanon but i just can't be the only who thought of a cockatoo when Ran's spines were mentioned lmao

Ran has a notebook full of drawings and possible designs for clothes. He might use Jackie as his model once in a while.

If they had a more "specific" ship name, i think it would be either Desert Bluebells or Jackknife. Knifetrick also works, but if you wanted to know my other suggestions-

I think that's all for now!

If you've made it this far, thanks for reading! :D

[leefi]

TFTBN Read-through | Part 3: Chapters 22-34

Part 1: 1-14 | Part 2: 14-22 | Part 3: 22-34 | Part 4: 34-64 | Part 5: 64-80 | Part 6: 81-90 | Part 7: 90-100 | Part 8: 100-127 (caught up here)

I was flipping through the pages, looking for interesting parts, when a sheet of parchment suddenly came loose from another section much deeper into the book. Unlike the rest, the material looked new, probably only replicated in the last year or two.

Curious, I lifted it up, and folded it open. To my surprise, the text was dark red, and said--

YOUR LIFE IS IN DANGER

DO NOT TRUST ANY WITHIN THE INNER CIRCLE

FIND THE ARCHIVE ON THE TOP FLOOR OF THE MAIN BUILDING

REMEMBER YOUR OATH ⬇️ SHES GONNA GET MURDEREDDDDDDD WOOHOOOOOOO SWEEP SWEEP SWEEP SWEEP SWEEP

actually I wonder if Theodoros chan’s gonna get murdered actually. Son of a high-ranking member, asked Su to go to his room last night in front of everyone, was walking around alone with Su and Bardiya and milf mentor. Su would be the prime suspect with only Ran to vouch for her.

He was a young man, though not resembling of the others in our class. He had ear length, light brown hair, a light-bronze complexion, and quite delicate-looking features... Yet they somehow didn't come across as immature. In fact, he was surprisingly good looking, to the point that there was something reminiscent of a statue in his appearance. ⬇️ LUKA???????? Oh my god this guy acts exactly like Luka too Su said he was looking at her funny...does he recognize her, but she doesn't recognize him? I know a luka when i SEE ONE. THAT BOY KNOWS WHAT'S GOING ON. HE IS A LOOPER LIKE SU!!!

or maybe he's just silly idk!!! hehe

but why does he seem to remember/recognize her and she doesn't? does it have something to do with her request in the first chapter??? did she REQUEST TO FORGET??? how could u leave ur looping bestie like that wtf su that's so mean did he leave the note for her? he wasn't at the dinner!! maybe he slipped it into the book and knew she would read it then! hmmm but the note could have also been placed there long before they met and that wouldn't really explain the timestamp on when it was written...what was it 1-2 years ago? i guess not. omgggg iim so excited to see more of him i hope he doesnt die in five minutes ill be so sad forever

Falafel, pita bread with various stuffings, steak and egg porridge, cheese salad; high quality Ysaran food, all well prepared by Yantho, SWANA CUISINE SWEEPING THE NATION I still remember the shakshuka and lahmebajeen from ran and su’s lunch

I feel like kam has a crush on su and has no idea how to contextualize it beyond an academic rivalry — su is hopelessly in love with ran and completely unaware of the fact that she is — ran holds a dislike for su for some reason, but still cares for her. her feelings seem extremely complicated.

The ransu(? no names given but assuming) childhood scene on the beach omg…that was cute oh noooo 😭 ok they did get my ass with that one.

hmm idk if that was ransu because the other girl's personality was very different from ran's. but also this could have been long enough ago that ran's personality has drastically changed since then

Big brother is very good at his role! Sekhmet said. Unfortunately, he is also extremely stupid. He can only really think about the things he has been told to do. I have seen him try to think about other things, and it is slow and bad and embarrassing for everyone. ⬇️ Kindest younger sibling interaction

Ok here’s my death prediction list 1. Utsu (botched - she’s meant to be killed but someone dies in her place) 2. milf mentor 3. Theo 4. Another inner circle member/staff (probably a combination with 1+2) Regrettably I think kam is going to live forever

I’ve disagreed with kam on literally everything so far but especially this aversion she has towards solving a problem she won’t get to benefit from (“let us be the last”). She’s so…childish? It’s a very childish point of view.

this adherence to gender a lot of characters hold really surprises me...i figure this far out in the future everyone would be a lot more fluid!!! what's with this obsession with antiquity (@ the characters/setting not lurina)

What I also don’t understand is why humanity didn’t just clone from the original 10k then continue having children biologically (or like test tubeically. ykwim). Are 10k humans enough to avoid a genetic bottleneck? whats the minimum viable population size for humans I’m not a biologist

Ok according to one article the number is 98. That is too low. who said that. lets kill him Another says 14,000 ok if you average those two guys out you get 7k 🙄 they’re fine. assuming good genetic diversity from the source group you probably wouldn’t even need to monitor for inbreeding. Why are they doing this complicated shit and causing mental prolapse.

THAT BRINGS ME BACK TO THE POINT ABOUT THE CLONES TOOOOO CLEARLY THEY HAVE THE TECH TO MAKE VIABLE CLONES WITH A CLOSED & SAFE SOURCE SUPPLY WHY ARE YOU WORKING AGAINST BIOLOGY…UR EFFORTS WOULD BE BETTER SPENT DEVELOPING A WAY TO TRANSFER HUMAN CONSCIOUSNESS FROM ONE BODY TO ANOTHER RATHER THAN MAINTAIN AN AGING BODY!!!!

Hmmm. Actually I wonder if Su’s grandpa had a similar idea. Considering the weird identity thing she has going on. Nothing to explicitly suggest this yet i think? just somethign to keep in mind considering he was voted off the polycule

I also wonder if that was related to the conversation regarding the Phoenix and the Dragon. maybe transfer of consciousness leads to loss of memory? But that wouldn’t make sense if the tech was perfect, everything would move over, leaving the old body a blank slate…what would that do to a brain, psychologically, seeing one’s former body in a dead state? also what would it do to an empty brain to suddenly be inhabited by foreign electrical synapses harboring thousands of memories preferences likes/dislikes etc. would it fight back/resist?

Im thinking back to those scratches on the wall in the kitchen. Obviously super freaky shit like 10 chapters ago but we had no context to it (we still don’t) so it was like whoops! There’s that. lol. Couple things: - did someone bake the missing chef into 🤔 a roast? - those tally marks may have been the missing chef’s and she was trapped in that room for years (thousands of marks, I think they said. Denoting days, maybe?) and then she died - But that doesn’t explain the distinct lack of skeleton in the room. Or in the roast - who would have it out for the chef - why - Hmmmm - You guys ever read that short story in high school english about the lady with the rack of lamb and the officers

Anyways that chef is definitely deads. In the kitchen? Probably not. In their tummies? Noooo (<- secretly hoping yes). Floating in the abandoned plane ocean? Yassss

Lurina is AMAZING at dropping really disturbing nuggets in the middle of a passage then distracting the characters/keeping things going. I just wish I was more engaged with the pacing :(

Good heavens," Kam exclaimed. "Are these guns?" They were, and in no small number. I could see at least fifteen rifles and ten pistols, and they weren't antiques. They looked like refractor weapons, the bronze still carrying the vivid sheen of recent production ⬇️ If this story turns into a COD lobby in the next 5 minutes im reading it forever

WTF DEAD CHEF SWEEP

Ok I have to put a bookmark on where I am in the story so far. Chapter 33! I will continue to read through it slowly but am done with the reactions for now :) bye byeeeeee

[hekateinhell]

human aus of tvc are so much fun idk why people don't write them more often! i've had this plot bunny of l/a living in a ramshackle paris apartm. armand lives above lestat and he has this ruggish bf (santino?) and the guy isn't scared of armand's friend/neighbor bc he's never seen him & only heard he's gay, blonde and a ballet dancer so absolutely no threat right? Well SIKE bc one time he yells armand a lil too loud & suddenly his door is kicked open and a blonde beefcake has him in a chokehold

I actually think about the why part of this question a lot, because (obviously) I love a good AU! In my opinion, it's because of our fandom's very complicated history with fic that has continued to influence VC creator culture today. I think a lot of people do want to be creative and experiment, but (and maybe it's just me, I don't know) I get the feeling like collectively there's this sense of waiting for someone else to do it first that will indicate it's acceptable to play outside of the box.

Whether it's beyond writing the juggernaut ships (Loustat and Devil's Minion) or exploring kinks (this is a very kinky series, people!) or the endless possibilities of AUs, there's a certain audience for everything and I find people do respond pretty well to something different! It's always with a sense of surprise too, which I find funny and interesting and little sad, because it's nothing that you'd be batting an eye at in most other fandoms from what I can tell.

But because we're a fandom that only recently has started writing fic in the open (recently in comparison to our almost 40 years of existing), I feel like we're only just now starting to be that much more adventurous in a sense. You can talk openly, exchange content openly, it's a very different landscape than it was before. So I'm excited to see what the VC fic offerings will look like in a year or five years from now—it feels promising!

I got carried away lmao I HAVE THOUGHTS, but let's talk about this plot bunny. I just have to say... the image of Lestat kicking down Santino's door like the Big Bird gif laid me the fuck out. Anon, PLEASE. 😭 (Also not a bad analogy for how he came barging into Armand's cemetery self-imposed cell, from Armand's POV).

It's very sweet to think about Armand and Lestat starting off as friends! I always imagine that Amadeo and mortal!Lestat would've gotten along beautifully (they would have both fallen into the canal lbr). And Lestat's so protective of him in canon, it translates well. 🥹

Of course, Armand isn't going to tell his abusive boyfriend much about his friends and what he does when he's on his own. For a bit of a darker theme... maybe Santino's also his pimp? Armand doesn't tell Lestat any of this, he's too ashamed and hates appearing weak, and he just wants to forget his problems in the few moments where they can hang out on the front steps and share a snack and a cigarette. And Lestat might have his head in the clouds sometimes, but he's not stupid. He hears things, sees how Armand shrinks into himself and ignores him completely if Santino's around, won't speak unless told to, etc.

Lestat's young though, and not thinking how he might be worsening the situation by acting so rashly. Even though Armand's going to be grateful later, he's horrified in the moment knowing that Lestat's just made himself a target of Santino's gang in the future. And that Santino is going to think Armand's been running his mouth to Lestat and he or one of his buddies be taking it out on Armand the first chance they get.

Insert lots of drama, hurt/comfort, sex... Lestat and Armand eventually run away together and start over in New York City. Similar crappy apartment, only they're safe and together, and they live HEA.

~ fin

[h-pelessly]

July Reads

The Coworker by Freida Mcfadden (8/10) The beginning was slow. I'm not going to completely lie, but the book threw me for multiple loops. First off, I thought Natalie, FMC, was a good person, but turns out, she's a bully? Like who would've thunk. But then all her actions showed me that she might've killed Dawn, the other FMC, but like she didn't remember anything. So I was like eh, but bullying in a workplace. What are we-- 5? PLUS, it was painfully obvious that Dawn has autism and it sucked hearing about how people treat her. It was also weird that she had an unhealthy obsession with turtles. Like I get the similarities of how she feels vs turtles behave, but like gd girl this obsession is so weird. Then Natalie kept acting like Dawn's death had no significance so I was like though she doesn't remember, she suddenly did it. Then it turns out Dawn isn't dead. THEN, CALEB, NATALIE'S "BOYFRIEND" KISSED AND MADE LOVE TO DAWN. I was so confused like this honestly bumped the rating up. Jeez. Then Dawn wants to kill herself to get Natalie in jail. Like dude, that's intense. Anyway, the cliffhanger or the "peak" was that Dawn killed a friend of Natalie's from high school that aided in her best friend's suicide. I still don't think that part was realistic, but this book was pretty good.

Not a Peep by MT Addams (8/10) This was a dark bully romance. The first bully romance book I didn't like that much because the FMC was kinda annoying. But this one, I liked it because she was so much more mature. Like she wasn't stupid and didn't try fighting back knowing nothing will change. I didn't expect the MMM attraction/love story, but I liked it. It made sense as how the three guys were so close. Also, the guys were attractive unlike the ifrst one I read. Although, I would lowkey want to continue to read the other one. And it was HOT. Love it, but at the end, although it was a HFN, I didn't feel led on. The second book feels like a second story and not a continuation. I enjoyed this book more because for some odd reason, I was able to differentiate fantasy/fiction from reality, and when I did that, it made me enjoy the book more. So I'm glad I liked this book sm. I feel bad that I won't be indulging in the second book, but it is what it is. At least they all got engaged at the end.

Scoring the Player by Rebecca Jenshak (8/10) This book was cute and in my personal opinion, non-toxic. I love Rebecca Jenshak's books, and I love the fact that Dahlia is such a non-toxic, mellow girl. I didn't relate to her bc she was a golf girlie, but the fact that this is her first relationship and she doesn't know what to do but isn't freaking out or overthinking makes me want to hug her. Felix is such a sweetie for "taking Dahlia under his wing" to protect her. Along the way, they fell in love, and it was cute. When they "broke up", I was sad, but Dahlia made me realize what a strong woman is. I'm so excited to finish the series.

The Draft by Ana Shay (6.95/10) Lowkey disappointed at how this was. It had all my favorite tropes, but the FMC was actually insufferable. Like babygirl needs to be humbled. I get that she's young and excited to be in college and live the college life, but like why do you push yourself on people? Not only did she push herself on her brother's team, which is understandable honestly, she forced Dash to admit his feelings. And the whole time they were messing around, the misunderstanding was insane and how they both immediately went to extreme circumstances gave me the ick. When Madison misunderstood, she went to the extremes to make Dash jealous like girl grow up and keep your petty feelings to yourself. And Dash being called Dash sarcastically bc he's slow? Bro, that gave me the ick. Idk, there were some good parts though. They were cute together but a part, no. They will not last in the long term.

The Graham Effect (7/10) I enjoyed this one, but I don't think about it often. Gigi Graham is a GRAHAM so I thought I would be obsessed, but I was not. It's just weird seeing Garrett as a dad and just so not understanding, but also, Gigi being all grown up and needing a FWB. I get the connection, but I felt like it was just forced proximity and didn't feel the chemistry as strongly as I thought it would be. Maybe it's just because following up with Garrett and Hannah would be very hard. And how they got married???? I'm like... bro? Idk I didn't feel the connection as much which disappointed me.

Love, Within Reason by Everalda Ocampo (7.5/10) I got this as an ARC read a while ago and never got around to it. Though I'm glad I got to it now. I honestly thought this one was cute. I didn't like Mari, the FMC, at first, which is already a bad sign, but as the story progressed, I thought she was very understandable and her opinions were valid. I thought the close family dynamic was very fun and although very annoying at times, it gave a sense of closeness for me. I liked how fun Marcos, the MMC, was. He was a juxtaposition of Mari and I thought they were super cute together. This was a quick, cute read. Too bad it was very fast paced, but it made sense. It was a perfect in between book.

The Road Less Traveled By by Emily Tudor (8.5/10) I got this as an ARC and lemme tell you how proud I am of Emily and her writing. It seems like she grew into her writing and oh my god I love it. I don't know too much about Taylor Swift and how this book is an album or song or whatever, but this book was chef's kiss. It follows a social media influencer x bodyguard, and it opened my eyes to bodyguards, honestly. I didn't see the appeal in Vince, the MMC, but I am so in love with both of them together. I felt the love radiating from my screen and it made me melt. It was wholesome. I am in absolute love with Bree, the FMC. She had a stalker and now that he's out again, she needs a bodyguard with her. Vince has been her bodyguard before and he came back for her. Okay, first off, swoon. Just the way Bree slowly reclaims herself and Vince watching her proudly just makes me swoon. It's a slow burn, but the spice? JEEEZ. I love u Bree and Emily.

Hooked by Emily McIntire (6.6/10) This was my first step into a real dark romance and let me tell you, I was underwhelmed. Maybe it was just the book, but I was like.... That's it? I get it, it's forbidden and there's unaliving aspects and stuff, but I have read heavier shit. AND, it's also a Peter Pan/Captain Hook retelling so it's also my first in that. I don't know what to say. I was super underwhelmed and didn't care for any of the characters whatsoever. Like it wasn't bad, but it was cringy. And what do you mean she gets off by choking HERSELF? Okay... Anyways...

The Unhoneymooners by Christina Lauren (9/10) This was one of my thrifted books so I went into this blindly. Based on the blurb, I was hooked, but I didn't fully know like the tropes and all that. Honestly, reading the back, it seemed like I was about to read The Hating Game over, which isn't bad, but it's just like a book I liked when I first started reading. I don't know if I'd fully love it now. But this one, oh my god. I HAD TO FINISH IT. There were some dumb parts like why Olive, the fmc, just didn't acknowledge her boss on the honeymoon like when they meet in the office, she could've been like 'oh, that was my twin sister.' I get that's why Ethan and Olive get together, but also like that part pissed me off how she was fired for lying off the job. I wanted Ethan to grovel more, but their love story was honestly so cute. I couldn't stop giggling and kicking my feet tbh.

[the-cult-of-russo]

I Miss You

Pairing: Billy Russo x Reader 

Request: idk if you’re taking request but i have a Billy x reader imagine where the reader is being super clingy and Billy tells one of his friends.The reader eavesdrop on that conversation and decides to distant herself from Billy.

A/N: I wasn't really sure what resolution you wanted for this one so this was what I came up with. I could have gone really angsty about it but I don't know, I liked this one.

Warnings: cursing, angst, fluff. 

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"Yeah, man… I don't know. It's just a bit much… I mean, she's always here or on the phone with me… I dunno… she's just… clingy, I guess."

You knew you shouldn't really be eavesdropping but you hadn't intended on it. Both you and Billy had been tangled naked in his bed after some good sex when his phone started to ring. He'd slipped into the living area to answer it. You'd only gotten up because your bladder was shouting at you but as you'd slipped on his shirt and gone to the bedroom door, you'd caught the end of the conversation. 

It honestly felt like a smack in the face. You were pissed and hurt that instead of talking to you about it like an adult, he instead opted to bitch about you to a friend, no doubt Frank. You weren't in a relationship, it was just casual sex and it had been for a good few months now. You weren't expecting anything else from him. And sure, sometimes you'd find yourself at his place a few nights in a row after work and sure you'd send him texts during the day or call. But never once had he acted like it was an issue. In fact he always sounded happy to pick up the phone and sometimes he was the one insisting you stay the night. 

It wasn't like you wanted a relationship with him. You went into this knowing what it was. You didn't love him. You liked him, both looks and personality, but you didn't love him. It could be easy to fall in love with a man like him but you hadn't let yourself. But things had just been natural with the pair of you. Easy. A casual intimacy neither of you expected but didn't seem to mind. Except he clearly did mind it. 

You weren't even that upset that he felt that way. He was entitled to his opinions and feelings and you wouldn't take that away from him. The last thing you wanted was for him to be uncomfortable or feel smothered. What bothered you was how he never once made it known and was going behind your back saying things like that. It made you feel small. It made you feel stupid like some young girl with an unrequited crush.

You rushed to get dressed and decided you'd leave, bladder forgotten. If he wanted distance then that's what he'd get. You weren't going to stick around to be made a fool of like this. He obviously wasn't happy with how you were so you'd remove yourself from the situation. 

Just as you were slinging on your jacket, Billy came into the room only in his boxers and quirked a brow at you.

"Goin' somewhere?" He asked, sounding vaguely amused. His laid back attitude made your eye twitch after hearing what he'd said on the phone. 

"Yeah, I'm gonna head home. I've got work early tomorrow," you said casually, closing your jacket. 

"Oh…" he murmured, brows wrinkled. Yeah, didn't expect that did you, Russo?

You gave him a bland smile, squeezing his arm before walking out. You didn't really want him to know you'd heard him and have to deal with that awkward talk but you didn't much feel like kissing his cheek goodbye like you normally did. He'd normally walk you to the door and you'd kiss his cheek, then he'd capture your lips as you traded lazy kisses at the door before you left. Well not this time. Instead you left the apartment and left a stunned Billy Russo standing in his bedroom blinking at the door. 

You threw yourself into work. It was something to help distract you from contacting Billy. You wouldn't say you were clingy but you had gotten used to talking to him daily and you wouldn't give him the satisfaction of being right. You'd give him the distance he wanted. 

You hadn't text or called him and when three days went by, he'd surprised you with a text at work. 

'Just wanted to check in and see if you're okay. Haven't heard from you in a bit.' 

Your right eye twitched again at his message. This was what he wanted so why bother reaching out? You shot him a short message back along the lines of 'I'm fine. Busy at work.' And that was that. He didn't reply and you didn't really care that much.

The fourth day since you hadn't spoken to him and he called your cell around noon when he knew you'd be on lunch. Your hand flexed with the urge to answer but you resisted. You stayed firm even after it rang a second time. But then it flashed up with a voicemail and you couldn't help being intrigued so you listened to it.

"Hey… uh… I guess you're still busy with work. I just… wanted to make sure you're okay. Hope you're not workin' yourself too hard. Just… call me back or somethin', yeah?"

You rolled your eyes and clenched your jaw. This was what he wanted yet he was contacting you. You hated that you itched to call him back but you still refused. Maybe you were stubborn or maybe you still felt slighted by his words to his friend, either way you didn't call him back. Even if you did miss him just a bit.

The fifth day came around and you were exhausted. You'd hadn't lied when you told him you'd been busy with work but you'd made more work for yourself to keep busy. Not only were you doing your own but you'd been helping others out too just to stay busy and keep your head Billy-free. You'd stayed late the night before and then came in early and you hadn't given yourself a chance to grab a coffee. 

You sat behind your desk as you read an email from a colleague as your office door knocked around noon.

"It's open," you called out as you scribbled a note in your notepad for later. You glanced up when the door opened and were stunned to see Billy standing there with a paper bag and two coffees in a cup holder.

"Hey," he smiled at you. You blinked at him for a second as he shut the door behind him. He'd never once shown up at work before.

"Hey," you replied feeling tense. He hovered for a moment, still clutching what you presumed to be food with the drinks as his dark eyes scanned your tired face.

"I just uh… I know you've been workin' hard these past few days. Wanted to bring you some lunch, make sure you're takin' care of yourself," he murmured with a frown. 

"Careful, Russo. Anyone would think you care," you scoffed with an eye roll. You hadn't really meant to say it outloud but didn't care too much that you did either. He looked taken aback for a moment before he nodded, setting the bag and cups down as he sat in the chair on the other side of your desk.

"So I did do somethin' to piss you off, then… thought I mighta done. Haven't heard from you in days. It's not like you," he said with a bitter smile. 

"Yeah, because I'm clingy, right?" You asked coldly, raising a brow. 

He looked genuinely shocked before he groaned, closing his eyes and wiping a hand over his face.

"You heard that… you… you weren't supposed to hear that," he muttered regretfully. 

"That doesn't make it much better, Billy," you squinted. He blew out a sigh and leaned his forearms on your desk as his dark gaze looked right at you. 

"I'm sorry, I-" he started, but you held your hands up to stop him and he shut his mouth abruptly.

"Look… I'm not upset you felt that way. I'm upset you didn't tell me. I didn't think I was being clingy. You never acted like it was an issue for me to be around so much or to text or call so how can I know it bothers you? I'm upset I had to find out by hearing you bitch about me behind my back to a friend like a goddamn child," you bit out, crossing your arms over your chest as you glared at him. He winced a little, drumming his long fingers on the desk before rolling his shoulders.

"It doesn't… bother me," his vague words earned him a squint from you and he sighed, sitting back up a little more.

"I freaked out… I freaked out 'cause I didn't freak out," he murmured looking confused. Your face resembled the words 'the fuck does that mean' and he rested his forearms back on the desk. He looked frustrated like he couldn't put his thoughts into words.

"This isn't how I usually do things. I'm a one and done kinda guy… unless I'm gettin' somethin' outta it like information or some shit. I don't … I don't usually go back to a girl. But you just… I had you once and I knew it wasn't enough. I wanted more. And… and I liked havin' you stay over so much and I liked your weird little texts in the day or havin' you call me to see how my day went. I didn't mind it. It didn't bother me. It wasn't too much. So me bein' me… I got in my own head and freaked out about it. I tried to convince myself it was you, that you were bein' clingy and needy, but you weren't. And… if these past five days have taught me anything it's that… I like you bein' such a big part of my life and… fuck, I missed you," he rambled, almost black eyes looking at you imploringly. 

You glanced down to the desk as you soaked in his words. You really hadn't expected any of them and you found your anger at him disappearing. When you just stared at the desk lost in your own thoughts and didn't reply, his fingers tapped on the desk again as he inhaled a shaky breath. 

"Did you miss me?" His soft and unsure voice had your eyes snapping to him. He looked so insecure you wondered for a moment who the hell he was because Billy Russo was a lot of things, but insecure was never one of them. And you knew him well enough by now to know what a big deal it was that he spoke to you about his feelings. Feelings he had that you never expected.

"Of course I missed you, asshole," you said softly. His whole face lit up, deep brown eyes shining with warmth as his lips curled into a genuine smile.

"Yeah?" He asked wryly. You rolled your eyes, playfully this time, as you leaned forward on your desk. He wasted no time in snatching one of your hands in his.

"Yeah," you said with a smile. He bit his lower lip, a somewhat bashful smile on his own face as he lifted your hand to his lips and pressed a sweet kiss to it. You almost melted.

"I don't… I don't know what this is but… I know it's different and I don't wanna push you away," he murmured softly as his thumb rubbed your palm. 

"No more bitching about me to your friends then," you smirked. He chuckled, ducking his head before landing his soft gaze on you once more.

"I mean it though, Billy. You need to talk to me next time. I don't wanna do anything to make you uncomfortable and if you don't wanna push me away… you need to learn to communicate," you said softly. He nodded, squeezing your hand. 

"I know. I'll do better, I promise," he grinned. 

The whole thing had taken a turn you hadn't expected but you were glad for it. It wasn't like you declared your undying love for one another or even decided this was an actual relationship. But it was a step. One you hadn't expected either of you to make. 

"So… you gonna let me have lunch with you? I know you're busy but… I really have missed you," how could you turn him down when he was looking at you with such soft and warm eyes? 

You smiled, grabbing the bag and making a little happy noise to see burgers from the diner you two frequented. He practically beamed, whether from you agreeing to let him have lunch with you or how happy you were by the food choice, you weren't sure. But you loved it when he smiled like that, how his eyes crinkled a little in the corner. He was breathtaking honestly and you found yourself glad he'd hunted you down at work and told you how he felt instead of pushing you away or lying to himself. If that wasn't character progression you didn't know what was  

[ideks-on-mars]

Things I think the Shiratorizawa boys would be into!!!

Ushijima - This man loves hip dips. If you have hip dips just know that he wants to grab them really bad. He also loves the sporty type, or someone who at least knows about sports. He wants to be able to talk to someone about sports, like a drill they did at practice, or a play that he saw on TV, without having to explain much. Also hold his hand. There's little to no pda when it comes to him but if you're not holding his hand then what are you doing because HE wants to hold your hand.

Tendō - He loves someone who loves food. Cuz HE loves food. He doesn't have a big appetite, but he likes making his way around a kitchen. And he needs someone to eat it. If you can eat, he wants to put a ring on your finger. It's a plus if you have a sweet tooth. He likes to sample AND make desserts. So if you have a sweet tooth please accompany him in trying to pick out which dessert you two would like to try (and then end up ordering every dessert on the menu) at every restaurant you go to

Semi - LORD this dude 👏LOVES👏LIPS👏 HE PAYS A LOT OF ATTENTION TO PEOPLE'S LIPS!!! EYES TOO! If I had to be specific, then he likes when people that have bigger top lips and not as big bottom lips, it's all that much better when your lips are more on the round side. IT'S SPECIFIC BUT THAT'S HOW HE LIKES EM. BUT IN ALL HONESTY HE LOVES ALL LIPS. He's also a thigh guy. He honestly likes legs in general, including ass. He likes people who can keep him in check. Not acting like you're his momma, like he still wants to have fun with you, but please keep him from doing anything too stupid 💀

Reon - Lord please he loves buff people. Buff women, buff men, buff people, all of them. If you have muscles then he wants to touch them. But if you don't have muscles then don't fret, he has enough for both of you. (HAVE YOU SEEN HIM I AM BARKING???) Please keep everything lowkey. He wants to chill. He already has to take care of his volleyball children and the only help that he gets that's ACTUALLY helpful (when he's still in high school) is from coach Saito. He also loves passionate people! He could sit and watch you talk about your passions all day. He'll sit there, with his cheek in his hand, with that dreamy look in his eyes, just listening to you.

Yamagata - PARTY ANIMALS THIS IS YOUR MAN!! He's wild, and it'd be that much more fun for him if he had a partner in crime. He likes tall, short, and in the middle people. If you're taller than him then you can help him reach all the stuff he can't reach 🥲. Plus you can protect him from all the other tall, scary people. If you're short then he can lift you up on his shoulders and you can slap all the tall scary people that pick on him. Then you can both scurry away like little ants while the person you slapped watches in shock. If you're shy then dw babes, he has enough personality and volume for you to share <3

Kawanishi - He just wants someone he can vibe with. He just wants to lay in bed together all day and occasionally nudging the other to show them a meme they saw. That's all he wants 😭. He wants someone who's caring. Sometimes he finds it hard to care about things so he needs someone to snap him into the real world and show him how specific things are worth caring for. He loves corny jokes and puns. Please tell him them all, he'll laugh at them and then mutter a playful "stupid" to which he expects you to dramatically gasp at. Don't tell anyone but he cries during Disney movies, cry with him please so that you both can make fun of each other afterwards for being ugly cryers.

Shirabu - He LOVES eyes. Idk if you've seen his big doe-eyes but he RUNS the pretty eye agenda. He needs someone to keep up with his schedule 💅. Now as you get older, don't you even THINK about worrying about grey hair, or even if you're young and have grey hair, cuz he lowkey thinks it's hot. Don't ask him why but he definitely does. He's mean, he may be mean to you, but please be mean to him right back, he loves that shit 😪. Cheek kisses>>> and he doesn't mean him kissing your cheek, he means you kissing HIS cheek. As much as he comes off as this big bad, mean dom, he just wants to be put in his place 😭. He's a total baby, don't even try to defend him in this. If you're into brats with a fat ass he's RIGHT THERE 💀 (he's packin back don't even try to fight it)

Goshiki - GOSHIKI WANTS A CUDDLY PERSON! He loves hugs, give him hugs. He needs some type of order in his life, if you're an organized type of person, that would really help him. If you're not then that's ok, you can be unorganized together 💀. He needs someone who loves fun because he loves fun and he needs someone who can match that. He loves hair. Curly hair, straight hair, thick hair, thin hair, he really doesn't care. He'll twirl it until he falls asleep. You may wake up with your hair a total mess but ig it's ok cuz he's cute. He eats really loud, I hope you can deal with that. He's like a big kid. Don't treat him like one though cuz at the end of the day he's still your big, strong, man 😤.

[theparliamentofrooks]

so i've been endlessly bugging my friends with two psychonauts aus for like the past Since Psychonauts 2 Dropped AND IT'S BASICALLY PSYCHIC DION. BECAUSE I REALLY LOVED THOSE THEORIES ABOUT DION BEING HYDROKINETIC

i decided i Needed a psychic dion au but ALSO a reason for him to still be Like That in canon. and with that i've been working on is dion's mindscape; Dion's Deep Dive. This is a LONG talk so it'll all be under the cut!

edit: oh my god i can't believe i didn't include one of the things that started it all take it

It takes place during Psychonauts 2, which I extended to last about a week rather than just one day. Raz has already visited his family in the Questionable Area, and returns to the Motherlobe devastated that everyone seems to hate him so much. Was what he did really that bad? Was he unforgivable to his own family?

It's the third day in the Motherlobe, but before the Casino Mission. During class Hollis teaches the interns about Mental Health check ups; diving into a mind and looking for problems. Used by Psychics to really get in there incase there are some nagging issues, Raz decides that he can try and use this to figure out how he can maybe make his family not hate him so much.

Since Augustus is the only Aquato who's genuinely supportive of Psychic stuff right now, Raz goes to him and asks if he can try out a mental health check up on someone NOT YOU DAD SOMEONE ELSE HAHA for a """""class assignment"""". Augustus drags in Dion, and while he tries to put up a fight, secretly still feels bad about his treatment of Raz and eventually gives up. Also Augustus put his foot down that too.

With the okay given to dive into Dion's mind (and Augustus' supervision on the outside), Raz heads in to try and find out just what he did to make Dion absolutely despise him. And getting in...

Raz appears in an auditorium, landing on the huge stage within. The seats are empty, but he recognizes the figments at the very front being his family. They're all performing various tricks, but there are two people missing; him and Dion. Turning around, there are countless death defying acts set up, each more dangerous than the last, rising up to the very ceiling. Behind them are dark blue curtains, that hide--

It seems Dion DIDN'T leave him alone, suddenly knocking Raz down before walking in front of him. The odd part is... He's missing his face, now just pitch black. They talk to each other for a bit, but Dion has a short fuse, and doesn't really enjoy having to discuss his cruelty. It feels like they're getting to a reason, something beyond the fact Raz ran away, but it doesn't go anywhere.

Eventually Dion kicks open a trap door underneath, and sends Raz flying into the depths...

And suddenly landing in a clearing in a forest, surrounded by beginner acrobat training areas, Raz meets an unreasonably young 7-year old Dion.

For some reason he still acts like he's older than raz (and will NOT accept anything else), but is much kinder and playful. Rather than being clueless to the curse, Young!Dion simply doesn't believe in it. Leaving Raz with that shocker, Y!Dion continues on to say that he's sick of running through the same course of boring acts and wants to aim bigger, but Older!Dion has been hogging everything.

Y!Dion knows that there's something in the mind that will "give him everything back", but O!Dion has thrown it somewhere that grows further by the day for 'the greater good'. Raz agrees to help Y!Dion find it, and eventually, Raz realizes that what he's looking for isn't just a key or some path that leads to the stage.

He's about to make Dion remember he's a Psychic.

Before he can fully unleash all of Dion's psychic abilities that he's bottled up and gotten rid of into the confines of his mind, tried to hard to forget it that he lost it all, O!Dion seems to have predicted that Y!Dion and Raz would try to unlock the Psychic part of Dion, throwing Raz out of Dion's mind before he can do it fully. He hasn't done it fully, but the damage(?) is done. There's a small leak of Psychic energy now returning to Dion.

Back in reality, Raz tries to talk with Dion, but he's having none of it, feeling violated and knowing this was all a stupid fortune teller trick and storming off before he can continue. Raz hasn't learned the full extent of just how bad messing with a mind in deeper ways is, but he knows that he's royally fucked up.

THAT ISN'T THE END OF IT FOR SURE! Raz still has unfinished business in Dion's mind, and is going to take a second trip in there, I just have to get all these finer details figured out. Tbh I think I might write this out as a proper fic one day. Maybe post it on AO3 idk if you guys enjoyed Let Me Know <3

[yoongissilver]

People also tend to be more okay with non jikook bts ships which could be because it can written off as cutesy friendship jokes like when you say minimoni married no one actually takes it seriously but with jikook there's a big section of people who actually believe they're dating so its taken more seriously and so then people want to avoid talking about it which I still don't agree with cus why you spending all day making jokes about them dating/being gay but then refuse to acknowledge jikook just because of shippers as if they don't give each other hickeys we're not delusional for questioning if the things they do are less than platonic and now we kinda have the namjoon boyfriend thing and man probably does have a boyfriend tbh but why is that seen as a more serious inquiry then jikook just because it's not an interband relationship like close friends/oworkers dating each other is the most unrealistic thing on earth.

That's true!

People comment things like "boyfriends" or "married" under posts of any bangtan ship moments all the time and generally, everyone takes it as a joke

I genuinely don't understand why it's such an issue if some jikookers actually think that jikook might be together

As long as they don't harass jikook themselves with it or go around on Twitter harassing other people it's not an issue imo??

Also what you've said with "joking about other ships"...idk it just doesn't sit right with me that people think joking about gay/lgbt relationships is A okay but once you're ready to actually support a possible lgbt relationship you're suddenly a crazy shipper

All the people who keep posting about how "it's fun to make up stories but bangtan are all straight anyway"...and how exactly do you know that?? There have actually been a lot of signs that some members aren't - in fact - straight.

Yoongi has actually voiced before that he's bi (not really explicitly using that term but still) and people love forgetting that saying "bangtan are all straight" is actually a lie because at least Yoongi isn't

It's so heteronormative to think that among 7 young men who are very open, artistic souls, where all of them have voiced appreciation for a guy's looks before, where one explicitly said that his ideal type isn't limited to gender, who are all supportive of the lgbt community, there is not one who is lgbt himself.

Jungkook recommended Troye Sivan songs, even used one for GCF Tokyo which only featured Jimin (and Jungkook himself), and people like to act like he's too stupid or naive to know that Troye is openly gay and that his songs are, too - when that's really common knowledge and is clear from some of his lyrics and music videos.

Idk where I was going with this but it's just so annoying to me when people keep acting like bangtan are straight until they outright say they aren't (while forgetting that Yoongi did say that). Because with the current climate in Korea, there is no way any of them will ever be more vocal or open or direct about not being straight. So it's really easy for those people to take their silence as proof that bangtan are 100% straight which is heteronormative at best and homophobic at worst.

[personasintro]

honestly ever since i was a young girl i always get made fun of (especially by MEN) because of my interests, so that commentary from james didn't really faze me anymore. idk im just immune to it. but that doesn't mean its ok... we do know that 99.9% of the prejudice and hatred for female-dominated fanbase or just spaces in general are deep-rooted in misogyny, right? and to clarify... joon said "appreciate your apology", not "accept your apology" (even tho the "apology" in question was non-existent) ecause i think that he knows it was not their (bts) apology to accept. we (their fans) were the ones targeted, not them. so whether we get over it, offended over it, or not care about it, is entirely our decision and choice. just bcs bts seemed ok with him the whole show or behind the scenes, doesn't mean i have to be okay with james too bcs i was the WOMAN who was yet again a victim of neverending misogyny. this whole "15-year old rabid, clueless female fans" narrative is played out. repetitive. and will never be funny to me and if that's ok with some of yall, then i think you really should question urself and your values. but that's just me 🤷🏼‍♀️

im not gonna be a hater of JC, because i really could care less about him. he's just another white man whose character is not really surprising, altho i will say that the comment was really a bit disappointing. but this is never gonna stop and it's a little hurtful that women just have to take it. but it's always been like that anyways.

oh, sorry (we have another one I forgot about)! I’m more disappointed how he joked about it after having such a “good” relationship with the guys and saying what a big fan he is, I know he’s an entertainer but he’s not stupid enough to not know it’ll make some of the fans offended. I just wasn’t expecting him to act like this and AFTER the whole thing happened. I liked him very much as a host, but now I’m just completely surprised by his behavior and I no longer trust him🤷‍♀️

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I saw you are answering asks about the x files, so here we go. what are your thoughts on mulder's behavior in milagro? Thank you =)

oh boy. listen I have to go on record right now and say that I actually H A T E D Milagro. easily top 5 least favorite episodes (along with both Dreamlands tbh). so I didn't actually... pay as much attention as maybe I should have to it, just because of how icky I personally found it?? idk if i have much of value to say shdjdnsksks

idk it's another Scully-centric episode, which i always love, and right off the bat there's a very open level of concern about Padgett? like Scully gets Bad Vibes from him from the very beginning (as she should; my deep deep dislike isn't even based in my bias towards MSR. Ed Jerse was a fairly decent dude who should have gotten therapy instead of a tattoo. Padgett is the kind of guy who makes me internally panic in Walmart) and she brings it up to Mulder. idk that's one of the things I DO like about the episode, that they're at a point in their relationship where Scully is willing to just. mention his creepy neighbor eyeballing her without that "I don't want you to feel like you need to protect me" thing.

idk I wonder if she didn't slightly *want* him to be protective?? bc s6 is a weird balance of them acting extremely comfortable around each other and often coming across as very Married(TM) and also... mutual pining. I don't tend to pick up on *as much* tension throughout the season as I've seen a lot of people talk about, but it's still definitely there.

as for Mulder's responses to the Padgett situation?? I think he's mainly just really confused tbh? confused and concerned, like he's not sure what's *actually* going on, but like. the thing is that Mulder can be really dense when it comes to stuff, especially where it comes to Scully at times, but he's not stupid. he drinks respect women juice for breakfast and he Knows when other dudes... don't. and Padgett does Not. he's one of those guys who only sees women as something to objectify, which is why he's such an unsettling MotW — worse even than Pfaster imo, because whole Pfaster is scary, he's also an object lesson (at least in Irresistible; I'm still on my first watchthrough and I haven't gotten to Orison yet). Padgett is such a REAL kind of MotW, like I said — he absolutely terrifies me, as a young woman.

Mulder gets kinda bristly about Padgett's... I can't call it anything other than self-insert RPF honestly and I hate that so much shsksnsksk but like... Mulder comes off as really prickly about it and a little distant from Scully not because he thinks any of it is true, but because he recognizes the inherent threat of what Padgett has been doing. not only has this random creepo been stalking her for TWO YEARS, he's also writing this kind of stuff about her?? the fact that Mulder reacts like he does says that he recognizes the underlying threat, even if he doesn't actually... express that super well?

he does come off as a bit possessive, I think, but not necessarily in a jealous way? it's more in a protective way in my opinion. I'm still not sure how to read either his or Scully's reaction to "Agent Scully is already in love," because like... s6 imo makes it very clear that they are very in love. and I think Padgett says that to try and mess with their heads a bit, but if he does know anything then he knows goshdang well that she's not in love with HIM.

idk what Mulder actually believes about Padgett, but I don't think he believes half the things the guy says or writes. idk my personal reading is that Mulder's possessiveness is really just him being aware that this guy is a massive creep and probably (provenly) a threat to Scully, and he does NOT like that. maybe there's a bit of jealousy on some level??? idk??? but he's definitely not pleased with this at all and he wants to keep Scully close throughout it.

basically the only redeeming factor in my mind is the hug at the end, even if it's under less than ideal circumstances. Mulder's face as Scully breaks down and clings to him, it's like... he didn't protect her well enough and the entire case with Padgett has destabilized him well enough that maybe he starts to doubt parts of their relationship?? like I said, he doesn't believe most of what Padgett wrote. but there's enough doubt seeded in him throughout the episode that it's like he's scared he doesn't *really* have Scully, and he kinda compensates with the abrasive, kinda possessive attitude he has for a lot of the episode.

'course, I've only watched the episode once and like I said, it was icky enough to me that I only halfway payed attention to it, so I could be reading this totally wrong 😅 all this is just based on what I do remember, cos I refuse to go back and rewatch it even for the sake of meta.

[wise-the-will]

okay Hi here's my will and Holly headcannon's !!

first of all im so so happy i get to share this with someone because ive been sitting on these FOREVER.

1: Holly calls Will, willy. She has ever since he started coming over and continues to call him that even when she can say his actual name but likes it because their names rhyme.

2. When Holly was still fairly young so many she was around 7-ish Will and her had a conversation. about mike.

"do you love my brother?"

"yeah, yeah i do." Will said, hoping she would take it in a friendly manner.

"i know. you guys act like the ones on the shows my mommy watchs, but only some." She confesses.

Will doesn't know how to respond to that.

"I-i um, thats uh different." Will stammered out.

"yeah because your both boys, but that doesn't matter. your both still in love." She smiled as she put down her barbies.

Will was at a loss for words. literally. he didn't have any idea on what to say.

"yeah, i do love him, i think, but your brother doesn't feel the same way so it's okay. also don't tell him, this is in-between us, okay?" Will decided this might work.

"okay! i won't." Holly smiled as she continued playing her barbies.

3: When someone finally explained to her that will went missing she started SOBBING, having a full blown tantrum at the thought of not having Will around.

4: when she is older and will and mike are dating (i wish💔), holly is VERY overprotective over Will. she has threatened her brother about how she will kill him (and she said it VERY detailed.) if he hurts will.

5. When Will and El come to stay at the wheelers house is when El first meets holly. El tries to be nice and introduce herself to her but holly runs to will. Will feels bad about this and tries to get Holly to talk to El but holly won't leave his side.

6. after the byler fight in s3 Holly sees mike running around the house to get his raincoat so she asks whats wrong and he says will left and holly asks why and mike said we got into a fight, she got angry and yelled at him to fix it.

7. they have done eachothers hair. imagine baby holly putting butterfly clips in wills bowl cut💞💞🥺

8. mike has had sleepovers with will and sometimes he goes to the bathroom and then comes back to see no Will. He finds Will in hollys room playing dolls together.

9. Holly is pretty mean to her brother, calling him stupid, a butt face and an idiot. she even calls him that to his face. But will is always there to go and be nice to mike but sometimes he definitely plays along.

thats all i could think of :( but i hope you like these!

OMG IDK EVEN KNOW WHERE TK START 🥺

1)Holly calling Will Willy is so fucking ADORABLE??

2)But like she 100% a byler shipper, THE BIGGEST

3) no because I bet that both mike and holly were crying together and Nancy saw them and then started crying g with them and then Karen came tot he rescue and comforted them 😭😭

4) I find holly threatening mike so hilarious that’s so canon I love that

5) holly running to Will and clinging to him is adorable but like I bet he tries to pick her up and try to introduce them and FINALLY AFTER AGES she finally talks to el and she finds her so cool and el is just like I love this child she’s adorable and internally mike is crying because he’s so whipped for Will and OMG

6) I bet holly I threaten mike saying something along the lines of “you better go fix this or else your a dead man and this better not happen again” and he’s just like you got it but he’s also like uh oh we got another bossy bitch in here but he loves her bossiness but he’ll never tell anyone that

7) WILL WITH A BUTTERFLY PIN IS SO FUCKING CUTE AND I JUST KNOW THAG MIKE WOULD DIEEE and omg imagine Will braiding hollys hair 😭🥺

8) them playing with dolls or something like that is like 😌 but like imagine them playing with play doh or clay building something and holly keeps messing up and wills just like “hey it’s ok, we can just fix it” while smiling and when mike comes back he see them playing around and he’s WEAK

9) I love the idea of Will going along with holly and making fun of mike cause it’s like he likes making fun of his boyfriend with his boyfriends little sister but like instead of mike being mad he’s literally just full on MELTING because he loves them both so MUCH

Imagine either mike and Will sleeping and cuddling each other and holly gets in the middle of them and it’s CUTE and Karen or Joyce are both like taking pictures of this because they find it adorable

Or mike walking into his room to find his little sister and his boyfriend snuggling and he’s so SOFT

MORE WILL AND HOLLY PLS DUFFERS

But if you want to ramble more about byler in my inbox don’t be afraid to, I low key love replying to these

[him-e]

How confirmed is the "she doesn't mourn him" aspect though? Leakers aren't always good at understanding acting/human emotion

She doesn’t mourn him. The only part that can be vaguely read as mourning him is the burying the two lightsabers in the ground on Tatooine.

Idk if you have the seen the leaked video of the death but very anticlimatic, there isn’t even time to cry about it everything rushed for no reason basically. I want to know who in the right mind thought this was a good idea to make a death like this. And the worst part they left so many questions unanswered which should be the most important aspect of ending a saga, yeah they leave some stuff ambiguous but the narrative isn’t cohesive and leaves a lot of plot holes. It’s like GOT again

I’ve just seen the movie. The death scene is like, Ben drops dead and vanishes and Rey looks mildly confused/upset for half a second. Then they cut to the rest of the Resistance rejoicing à la RotJ. Finn’s like, “Rey is alive!!”, and there’s a shot of Rey piloting with her helmet on, looking 100% fine. Then she jumps down her ship and reunites with BB-8 with her stupid ass Rey smile on. Everyone’s happy and satisfied and the film really acts like Ben dying just seconds earlier never happened.

You’re basically being asked to be happy with and for these people you give zero fucks about, just like the audience was happy in RotJ despite Vader’s death, except this time it doesn’t work because the guy who died was a young man, and a son, and a lover, and someone whom the kids deeply identify with. Someone who showed up minutes earlier in a black t-shirt looking every bit like a redeemed Ben Solo, and who just crawled out of a pit, stumbling and sobbing and holding the dead body of the woman he loves in his arms. And you’re being asked to be okay that he dies like that. You’re being asked to be happy.

It’s painfully, atrociously tone deaf. It makes you want to gag, I’m not kidding. I personally felt sick, like my feelings didn’t matter. I can’t believe Star Wars is out there asking children to have zero feelings for a boy who was coded as a “son” and suffered his whole life, and not only killed this character off unceremoniously but didn’t give them any tools or mental space to process his death either. It’s incredibly damaging, in my opinion. I felt a degree of cognitive dissonance I rarely experience in fiction. It was deeply, deeply uncomfortable and painful.