#idk. i thought mutts were supposed to be more resistant to disease. i guess not
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I need to keep reminding myself that I did so much to keep her comfortable and alive for long enough for my family to return and also that nothing I could have done would have kept her alive so I can't keep dwelling on it like I didn't do enough. I did so much. I carried her everywhere. I helped her use the bathroom. I constantly was wiping the brown crusty drool off her paws and the crud that kept building in her eyes to give her some feeling of cleanliness and comfort. I stuck an IV in her (that I got from the vet, not just, like, on my own) once a day to keep her hydrated. like even though I was scrambling to finish an animation and get work done I put aside so much time and effort and love for her. I watched her like a hawk for the whole week, dealing with this on my own (it's no one's fault, just really bad timing, everything just happened to line up perfectly for the perfect shitstorm), just to make sure she didn't collapse and hurt herself. I did enough :( it wasn't enough but nothing would have been
#at the end her breath was so bad that i knew she was on deaths doorstep bc i remember it distinctly from when my childhood dog died#like it just smells like decay :( like dried rotten blood#animal death#mia.txt#i tried :(#idk. i thought mutts were supposed to be more resistant to disease. i guess not#our first dog was a (HUGE) purebred lab and he lived to 13. (i mean his mom was our cousin's dog and she lived to 14#so like i guess genetics played a part but still like ??! how did a 120lb purebred outlive a 45lb mutt)#i mean for all we know jojo couldve been 13. she was a rescue so we only have an estimate. according to their guess she was 11#the shelter told her she was 4 when we got her#so we got a little over 7 years with her at least :(
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