#idk why it's so hard having fun and being earnest with one's passions. I feel so cringe all the time when I do stuff for fun

[askcapital]

Today I was so brave that I showed my animation meme WIP to my animation professor. I felt so cringe but now I feel so free LOL he was super nice about it and gave me a lot of good pointers, hopefully I'll get this finished this year. :')

since it's still Munday I can ramble about this, and since the animation is about Capital I can post this here specifically

[solomonish]

The event was a fever dream jkjk. I also put hope in Lucifer especially with his sensible suggestions until the last part. Everyone was really thirsty in this event save for the side characters lol.

I mean I think the reason why Solo seems like that (done and kinda resigned) in this event is probably because he seems fairly decent at art? He was complimented by MC with his art in his newest UR+, and he may seem really goofy sometimes but he is serious and earnest when it comes down to it. Iirc Simeon makes a comment of that in the chat that Solomon might seem easygoing but when it comes to things he's interested in, or in things he's passionate and appreciative about, he can be really earnest and sometimes even too focused to the point of tunnel vision. He holes himself up in his workshop researching with barely even a meal or a social interaction and only comes out once he's satisfied with his progress. So this group project, so I guess it kinda makes sense he wants to do the group project well?

Tl;dr- Solomon might be a dork but he's reliable and earnest when shit needs to be done. And when he wants it done, he really wants it done and done well.

The brothers goofing off is opposite of what he wants to accomplish so he just couldn't be bothered anymore maybe? Lol idk. Your thoughts? Hahaha

SORRY I had like two chapters of the event to get through before answering this

Yeah Lucifer's over here "huh it was a blessing in disguise" Lucifer. You didn't have to try (and fail) to keep the story on track while every demon expected a kiss for making your life HARDER. I'm at least glad MC had the option to be so done because that was the energy I would've brought to the table

And like. Listen. Solomon that zeros in on projects is super cute and I love it, but if it's not common information I feel like it needs to be introduced. Its not even hard to do that!! Like all it needed was:

[MC arrive at Purgatory Hall]

Simeon: [sees the manga chapters] ah, i see you've been working diligently, as have we

Luke: yeah! Even Solomon has been focused on making sure the project turns out right!

Solomon: hm? Oh, yeah.....Oh! Hi MC.

Congrats! Now I know he's hyper focused and not just being a sourpuss and it only took three lines! I swear it is the BARE MINIMUM to get your character's feelings across like this! It takes one line!

AND WHY DID THERE EVEN NEED TO BE A CAT PLOTLINE? JUST GIVE US DATEABLES SMOOCHES

Is this our punishment for not needing keys to continue? Is Solmare toying with us? Are we beefing? This feels like passive aggressive brand beef. It feels like a joke.

I don't know. I'm not gonna lie and say I didn't have fun, but thats only because I can find fun in the frustrating. It wasn't because the event was fun, it was just my reaction to not knowing what the fuck was going on.

I'm just. I'm just glad I don't have to read any more of the story lol

Also they really amped up on Satan's cat obsession. Like, it was Too Much. What the hell

[unproduciblesmackdown]

40, 47, 59, 62, 76

lmao hell yeah thanks for All this support i love it!! quastions

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

really idk i feel like even our schools’s Antics were pretty par for the course and i was just sitting in the corner reading the whole time basically......trying to think if anything wild happened in college but even then it was p similar. well you know what, whatever donors covered the majority of the cost of the school’s black box theater being renovated apparently Stipulated that every other year a rodgers and hammerstein production be put on. absolute freaks. my roommate/friend and their then-boyfriend, the one mormon i have Knowingly Known in my life, were in pirates of penzance (sic?) together. hilarious

47. favorite type of cheese?

i like cheddar and like, parmesan, smoked gouda.....let’s get that shit Sharp!!! and hard lmao

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

idk i’d be like an npc just doing their weird thing on their own. i’ve never played pokemons unless you count pokemons Go but i think about the famed “i like shorts they’re comfy and easy to wear” npc kid. like, yeah. i feel the same. and would say similar bullshit nobody asked about

62. seven characters you relate to?

oh god.........recognizing the self through the relatable characters :|

well let’s just talk about the wrol roles right off b/c the characters that Most occupy my gay thoughts (which is to say: my general thoughts) will inevitably get priority when it comes to Remembering things

1) whom among us doesn’t relate to jared kleinman........will roland emerging from relative obscurity and coming for our entire fucking lives like the goddamn legend he is. it’s tough b/c it’s like, oh well alana is relatable too, so is evan unfortunately sorry evan, and in ways i might ~usually act~ like one of those two more than jared but. no. it is Jared who wins the relatability contest, and we all get to be beautifully haunted by it forever

2) leaning hard into winston even with the few glimpses of him b/c somehow will Cannot play an allistic cishet. and this is even More of a case where maybe i don’t much have winston’s demeanor.......even without winston being a beacon of confidence, he has more confidence lmao. and he has that ability to just Be Himself in a situation which, i wish i had that moxie lmao. i am a lot more [usually trying to be accommodating wayyyy harder than i should], booo......even though he’s clearly not great at conflict considering how it doesn’t take Too much to put him out, it’d be pretty impossible for me to be all “called them hacks and lame” or carry out a very irritated monologue in front of four people in the first place lmao. but who knows. and it’s more in the details of like, oh no winston’s the odd one out even though he hasn’t really Done Anything, but we all ~understand~ why he Deserves it.........his expectation / treating it basically as Fact that he will disappoint people.......the [weird] [offputting] behaviors and his way of speaking in What he Says and How He Says It seeming wrong to people.......like it’s only 15-ish min of content that we have here and we don’t have the least info about will’s own thoughts on the character but it’s like. how is this such an iconic Gay Autistic Quant b/c these vibes are so rare. and i appreciate that he can be ~difficult~ lmao. same with jared though i didn’t mention it. i can be difficult!! love it for us...

3) briony atkins from murder of bindy mackenzie as a character who Does act more like how i Usually Act Like lmao.....god we’re only on three i forgot there was seven of these. and yet i know there’s probably at least 2 dozen characters who could make this list and i just won’t think of most of them unless directly reminded......but anyways yeah i mean in person i mostly do Not want attention unless i feel comfortable enough / in my element or whatever. especially if it’d be some situation like “sitting in a group of randos” lol. i mean it depends b/c i also can sometimes be ~on~ in terms of Masking and trying to be like Haha I’m Social I’m Regular and i def engage in Nervous Chatter sometimes, but like, very often it’s like god don’t talk to me and i don’t want to talk either.....and then yeah people Will be surprised that like, idk, i’m opinionated as shit and idk that i Enjoy Things / Have Thoughts And Feelings coz the assumption i guess is that you must simply have nothing to say. so the dismissal of this person who seemingly has nothing to contribute and must be Boring rings true lmfao.....but then of course it’s also important that her personality Under that is the one getting mistaken for emily’s lol cuz yeah At Heart i am sure of that dramatic / intense / excitable type Sometimes. but it takes some excavation before i am like “oh i can engage in my actual self” and like weeks and months to get comfortable w/ people and i’m always suspicious that anyone actually would enjoy it and i’m not too much......i am a motormouth actually and have something to say about any and everything and like to Have Fun Here but like. idk i come off as boring and can be Notably Quiet lmao

4) oscar martinez from the office is weirdly [Haha Same] sometimes lmfao. sort of keeps to himself but also has to pipe up with Opinions and Pedantry and the kind of Drama of a restrained theatre gay. some deleted scene from an episode where during an interview clip of Jimothy in a theater lobby and you have oscar call from across the group in that [wearied Ugh God] way of ‘jim, they’re remaking ___’ while jim just kind of gives a cursory “wow gosh” or whatever and like, i sure don’t have lots of Theatre Opinions but that “oh jeez i have a Take on this and have to share it with someone” vibe is like hahaha yeah.....it’s funny in the “the gang goes to the ice rink for a third of the ep” bit where you just catch oscar doing [ice skating turn] with some solemn intensity.......the “here’s a question nobody’s asking: is this worth it” quote.........way at the end where there’s a whole deal with one of the indoor plants and he’s like “why is it a He” @ the collective gendering of the houseplant lmfao.......i love the one thing where he and pam and uhh toby right? have the Finer Things book club or whatever and jim wants to join just like ~ironically~ and pam has to tell him that oscar doesn’t want him to join b/c he’s not going to take it seriously and use it as a Jokes Vehicle. and then you get the scene at the end where jim Is basically doing that and they’re just like taking it out of him and oscar’s all very seriously like “did you get it all out of your system” lmfao like yeah, earnest members only lmao.....the thing where he gets mad at angela’s like Jazz Musician Posed Babies posters all “it’s kitsch it Destroys art” lmaoooo and in a totally different season all “this is the problem with debate” over the completely inconsequential “is [whichever actress, i forget] Hot” “”””debate””””.......the whole tendency to get involved and always have a take to get across.....opinionated-sometimes-to-the-point-of-petty central. also that he’s the canon gay, are there even any others? anyways and as the us office’s spiritual successor i’ll add on to this by uh what’s the name of billy eichner’s character on parks and rec? it’s craig right. that Self-Powered Intensity is very #me as well.

5) augh god........im like lmfao shit who represents my Hater Club side. hmmm. oh no wait you know what. totally different but i love Prof Beatrice Hotchkiss in the trt nancy drew pc game. she’s holed up in her room writing all the time and just is weird when you try to talk to her all like no i won’t open the door, bring me food, do this Research, bring me my Ski Boots i guess......and then when you do meet her it’s all at like post-midnight in the lounge and she’s all like, encouraging you as a Night Owl and your investigative curiosity and all and i’m like oh word yeah being up in the dead of night is the shit. she’s just weird and passionate and this is another character i might not Act hardly at all like but who i vibe with lmfao. hotchkiss was the supportive adult in my life

6) remembering how hotchkiss is a historian made me think of academia which made me think of like, once again with “these vibes are So So Rare” i really ought to put the wrol role of Nato on the list cuz like. that essential representation of “gets gr8 grades but isn’t really ~academic~ / doesn’t care about that and really just cares about Hanging W Friends and [real specific interests]” is like wow damn that’s the Mood. coz like to an extent i can always Relate to the ~overachiever~ types a la the [nerd character gets all-A’s and other nerd shit] deal, but there’s eventually the issue of like.....those characters like bindy mackenzies and alana becks Care about their achievements (not exclusively as some ppl would have it 9_9) and are Studious whereas i always hated school and was a godawful student in terms of Habits and always got good grades b/c the devil was with me or something and like people will think i must have tried real hard and dedicated myself to Academics and stuff and it’s like.........no................not at all hardly, sure i did my hw every night but at like 11:29 pm or studied for a midterm at lunch right before the class lol or flipped through a lil bit of the sat study guide the night prior.........the “low-effort dumbass who Academically Excels Anyhow” representation is so crucial like!! i run into a wall when it’s the Good Grades nerd character who is real studious and focused and stuff like. couldn’t be me. meanwhile the “naturally weird + probably some ‘deliberate’ weirdness” and “likes animals” and “most likely to just wanna Roll With It” and “shitty focus lol” and “non sequiturs” and “without [activity] i do nothing” is all like....ahahahohoho..........nato rly got to make this list. and honorable mention for Wrol Jeremy. again: whom doesn’t relate!!!!!!!!

7) damnit i know there’s So many answers to [characters i relate to] and whom cover like, more particular Facets here but i’m struggling lmao. Uh. like i’m like, who’s the Hot Mess / continually evolving disaster characters i vibe with......who’s the peak despresso detached Haters rep......who embodies the solo production lifestyle........dammit you know what lol i tend to Feel for like, the background ~nobodies~ who might just get like totally destroyed in some movie with life or death stakes just to like, show how much danger our heroes / Important Complex Protags are. same w/ jeremy not feeling like the Hero / the one who the story’s about / the cool guy / player 1 / etc etc etc i’m like oo i’d be the npc who doesn’t really do anything, i’d be the rando getting blown away in the background of someone else’s story. on a totally different note another shoutout / honorable mention to wybie from the coraline lmfao one of the best characters invented from thin air for an adaptation......tangentially relevant b/c he’s entirely here to support the protag / not his story at all, just here to help and prompt interactions / exposition really.......but love that [weird loner kid who’s best friend is a cat and annoys the other kid and doesn’t Get it and has specific interests and entertains himself and just is doing weird shit around here tf dude lmao killing it] like, #mood. #lifestyle. less dismal to relate to than the bg person who dies......his counterpart who totally dies is somewhat fleshed out / given Investment so it doesnt Really count as [background Nobody who’s really just fodder for “defining the stakes / threat level”] Character Concept

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

latkes maybe......Yummy

[ariyadaivaris]

Can I ask why you like Ariya so much? I don't mean it to be rude, I like him too! I am just curious because he does not seem to be one of the more popular even out of the 205 Live crew. What interests you so much?

I Just Think He’s Neat !!! 

fsdk no okay i do wanna answer this genuinely because this DID actually take me aback a lil bit! i’ve never really thought about it before, i guess? i know he’s not that popular, even among 205 fans, which is incomprehensible to me but like

well, no! but why! like, i feel like...i dont understand not at least enjoying ariya, and you’re asking why that is! and i wanna find an answer! so! i feel like...for the most part some of what drew me to him is kinda just...him being underappreciated. dude works his ass off for 205! he puts over everyone he meets, he gives his all no matter how little people see or appreciate it, he’s so dedicated to what he does and i feel like that shines through in everything he does! whatever he does, he’s PASSIONATE about it, and he never half-asses anything, and i LOVE that!!!

ariya as a character is super interesting to me too!!! which i know is a sentiment not a ton of people share, and which is something that could be partially bc of the weird metafiction of 205 ive built over the last 2 years, but i genuinely am super super intrigued by him. he’s very confrontational and very quick to harp on people who go for things and almost get there and then fail, but he’s also quick to disengage from a situation to avoid starting a fight he might not be able to win. like........he’s confrontational and he’s abrasive but if it’s not leading to a match he’ll back down quickly! and like...idk! i think its really neat figuring out the type of person he is from that, because that’s not a trait i notice all that often in characters. its neat

I DUNNO!!!!! WATCHING ARIYA INTERACT WITH PEOPLE IS NEAT....i think that noticing the gold standard early on and getting attached to them helped establish that dynamic in my head some, like. seeing them actually start being acknowledged as a thing in canon was fun even if the circumstances SUUUUUUUUUUCKED but like, going from there you could see how ariya interacted with others too!! everyone messing with him during the noam+alicia arc was so good. 

what was ALSO super super fucking good was ariya throwing himself into akira v neville for round 2 the way he’s confronted mustafa recently, for getting close and for FAILING and for still trying instead of accepting their place. i feel like that’s a common thing he’s done between both those two, and i feel like...that’s something ariya does! he tries, and he fails early on and he fails often, and he accepts this and just nestles in where he’ll be safe and secure and not vulnerable enough to be a target. like with the rat, like when he tried to enforce status quo with akira, like now, him ducking his head and avoiding picking fights with important people unless they deserve it. and i feel like some of that ability to avoid fights he can’t win stems from his feud with jack, that was their first feud on 205, both of them, and they both had a kind of earnest vulnerability before they put their guard up and while jack starts guarding because he gets called on his performy nature by others, ariya starts guarding because jack humiliates him. and like! i think its cool that common thread has been drawn and i love following it to see where it goes next!!!

ariya’s also just like...a joy to watch omg, he’s very FUN!!!!!!! he goes along with what other people want to do usually, he’s kind of more...intent on holding a structure, he’s the bones of 205 and has been since it began and so he does kinda fade into the scenery of it sometimes, but when he’s in the limelight he always looks like he’s having a blast with it! his ring work is super super fun too, his SELLING and the musical way he moves and angles into strikes and curves into sells is like! there’s such a MOTION, an ENERGY to it that feels intentional and perfectly natural at the same time, i admire that, he’s got such...intention and purpose in all he does its so COOL

also he’s a super sweet dude irl from what i can tell and he works hard and believes in 205 with all his heart and he can befriend almost anyone and i love that and also kayfabe ariya triple gay and i love him 

I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY I JUST THINK HE’S NEAT!!!!!!! HE’S VERY COOL!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM A LOT!!!!!!!!!!! THERE ARE TOO MANY THINGS TO TALK ABOUT HE’S A FULLY REALIZED CREATION!!!!!!!! HE CONTAINS MULTITUDES!!!!!!! HE’S GAY AND I SUPPORT HIM AND HIS TIME WILL COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[entamewitchlulu]

Homura’s Top 15 GX Characters

And next, my favorite GX characters!!!  Under the cut so that it doesn’t take up too much of everyone’s dashes cause it’s loooong lol

15. Ryo Marufuji “Kaiser”

I hate him but I love him tbh haha.  He’s not the best brother and his whole Hell Kaiser thing actually made me a little less interested in him as a character, but I still like him a lot for his aggressive presence and his interesting character arc, which is really out of the norm for a lot of character arcs in general.  You don’t often see the kind of change that we get to see in Ryo.  I also still do always remember that moment where he decided he would rather surrender than watch Shou get hurt during his duel against Camula, and that more than anything endears me to him.  Despite his harsh demeanor, I think in the end he really does care.

14. Daichi Misawa

It’s my nerd son ;w;  What I love the most about Misawa is just how amazingly analytical he is, but he’s still a lovable person who seems to get along with others easily.  Most of the time, math nerd characters like him are shown as completely socially inept, but Misawa was almost always shown as someone who was really easy to get along with, and everyone liked him (at least until ignoring him became a running gag... ;w; he deserved better).  He’s a cute little nerd.

13. Fubuki Tenjoin

God look at this fucking nerd.  My favorite thing about Fubuki is that he’s just...so dorky??  And this right on the heels of his first appearance as Darkness, when we’ve been waiting for a significant amount of episodes to find/meet the cool Asuka’s missing big brother...and we find out he’s a fucking NERD.  Just surfing around with his hawaiian top and his ukelele and stealing all of the girls’ hearts while dealing out stupid love guru advice.  He’s just downright fun to watch because he’s so dorky!

12. Rei Saotome

Rei is just...cute okay?  I don’t really have many deep reasons why I like her because she doesn’t really have much of a character on screen, which I do mourn often ;w;  But I’m the kind of person that attaches to the female characters for better or worse, and I just find Rei an interesting potential for character if nothing else.  I actually don’t mind that her driving force tends to be romance, and I like that she takes initiative to find what she wants.  I also love what a mom friend she is with Martin, and how she’s a little almost aggressive with it XD

11. Takuma Saiou

Yeah, he’s definitely a divisive character, but I can’t help but care about him.  He’s a misguided soul that falls off the path because of an unfortunate string of events, but I don’t feel like he ever tried to act like he never did anything wrong.  He was willing to take the consequences for his actions and fight to right them alongside Edo, and I’ll admit that most of my love for him comes from his interactions with Edo, especially when they’re children.  He’s a tragic sort of character who fought hard but ended up falling prey to evil in the end anyway.  And yet, in the end, he does manage to come back to himself; and that’s often why I choose to ignore his final appearance in season 4, cause it just feels like a regression of his character.

10. Haou

I guess this character is basically Judai, but I suppose for these purposes I’m considering him separately.  Idk I just find him to be the kind of villain that I tend to like; he’s dark, looming, quiet, and eerie, even beyond the fact that he’s Judai, our protagonist, become the villain.  He’s absolutely merciless and for the short time that he’s an antagonist, he’s legitimately frightening for the characters that have to face him.

9. Shou Marufuji

what a precious boy??????  Shou Marufuji deserves the world, honestly.  I love him for how he overcomes his vulnerabilities and anxieties, and he becomes honestly one of the strongest characters in the series courage-wise.  I love his character arc and his growth, and he’s just such a sweet, precious boy and I love watching him grow up.

8. Yubel

Yubel is fucking cool okay??  Her design is amazing and I love the way that her voice changes in the middle of sentences to make her truly androgynous.  I also adore her for her fascinating character motivation; we’ve certainly never seen this before or again in Yu-Gi-Oh where the villain’s motivation is undying, obsessive love with the protagonist.  She brought GX into a really fascinating time for story telling, and even after she’s defeated and assimilated into Judai, the few bits we get of her paint her as an amazingly sassy spirit partner that I wish we had gotten to know more about.

7. Jim Crocodile Cook

God I’m such a sucker for this guy.  He’s just a fun dude, and I love his almost Steven Irwin kind of look/personality.  His interactions with Karen are a joy to watch, and I love his laid-back, adventurous personality, and his immense loyalty to his friends and his unwillingness to back down or give up.

6. Austin O’Brien

This precious, precious dude, I love him so much it hurts sometimes ;w; O’Brien is just...great???  He doesn’t get as much screen time has he deserves, but what we do get I think is so great.  He’s just so incredibly human.  I love his arc, when he first appeared I thought I wouldn’t like him, but his enflamed passion from dueling with Judai, and seeing him decide to take his own path outside of the job given to him really endeared him to me.  Watching him overcome his own fear in order to sacrifice himself to save Judai and everyone from Haou was a really powerful moment, and I was so glad to see him come back and be Judai’s bff/info specialist.

5. Jun Manjoume

God, what is there not to love about Manjoume?  His character arc is actually one of the best in the series; I love watching his internal and external struggles and coming out on top in the end every time.  One of my favorite things about GX in general is how he and Judai seem to have an inverse relationship from usual shonen series; while Judai ends up being a quiet individual who fades from the scene, Manjoume ends up taking on the role of being the face of Duel Academia and the pro that everyone knows about.  I just love him for how multifaceted he is; he has his serious side, his irritable side, his downright dorky side, and his legitimately caring side.  My favorite scenes with him are his arc with Edo, where we get to see what kind of person he’s going to be as an adult, and I just felt so proud of him in those moments seeing how much he had grown since the beginning.

4. Asuka Tenjoin

What an absolute bae tbh.  I love Asuka’s tough personality and her take-no-shit attitude.  She’s a strong girl who sets an example for others, and takes good care of the people who look up to her, even when she’s under the brainwashing of the Society of Light.  Her determination and self-confidence are really a joy to watch on screen and almost all of her duels are just so cool!

3. Judai Yuki

Judai is honestly one of the most dynamic protagonists in Yu-Gi-Oh.  He starts out as this typical, laid-back shonen protag who just floats through life and gets by with his incredible luck, but circumstances force him to deal with his own buried insecurities and I think he’s one of the most fascinating depictions of a legitimately depressed character in shonen media.  His growth is great to watch and I love how out of the ordinary it is for a shonen show.  His duels are fun and his confidence + vulnerabilities are incredibly fascinating to watch him as he goes along on his character journey.

2. Edo Phoenix

I’m straight for Edo tbh like damn son, what a pretty person you are???  But beyond that, he’s also a fascinatingly fun character to watch on screen.  I love him for his superior attitude and his smug confidence, but also for his rare moments of letting his actual kind heart show through.  He’s a precious child that I loved getting the back story on which really sealed the deal for me loving him.

1. Johan Andersen

god i love him so goddamn much ;w;  Johan is just so incredibly earnest and sincere.  I love how strong he is in his convictions and how excitable about life he is.  He’s legitimately cheerful about almost everything, and gets excited about things even when the situation looks dire.  He’s strong in his beliefs and is more than willing to lay his life down for others, and in fact, it was his hope and dream that he could do something with his life to help other people, even at the cost of himself.  I love him for his devotion to his spirits, and in fact all spirits in general, and how badly he wants to protect everyone.  He’s also fucking adorable and I love how smiley and happy he is no matter how bad things get.  He always believes, in himself, in others, and in that the world is a fundamentally good place.