#idk what i'm saying anymore i'm just so mentally exhausted from this whole shebang

[hikarry]

Apart from my sticker problem, today is really not a great day

I woke up at 6 am to go to my 9 am class ("Why did you wake up so early?" - everyone asks me all the bloody time: because I have anxiety and I need an hour to take a shower and do my hair - which, ya know, takes long because I'm a perfectionist and short hair is A PAIN IN THE ASS to deal with -, another hour to chill and drink my coffee and another hour to catch the bus) and like, did my usual stuff all the while looking through the window. It wasn't raining. So, logically, I didn't take my umbrella.

As soon as I step out of my building, it starts raining. But like, that stupid lil rain that barely wets you, so I was like "Eh okay, I can deal with this".

I was mid-way up the street to the bus stop when it starts raining like the bloody sky is falling! I was only wearing a t-shirt, a lil button-up shirt with the sleeves rolled up and my stupid all-stars and I got SOAKED. So I ran back home and went to grab my umbrella. I live in the 3rd floor, mind you. Without an lift. There are 51 stairs in total. Believe me, I've counted them, multiple times. If you want to know why my ass and my thighs are great, that's why.

Anyhow, Spencer - still drenched in water (because I was stupid enough to go to my flat and not grab my raincoat. Yes, I left the house again only in a t-shirt and a button-up shirt) went back to the bus stop. The bus was late. 30 minutes late. And I waited for 30 minutes until I started feeling light-headed and mentally confused as if I was going to faint. So I grabbed my two lil legs and wandered my way back home trying to keep myself awake and "Dont faint in the middle of the street please God don't do this to me I'm begging you I swear I will convert if you just let me get home before I faint".

As soon as I get home, I lay down and the fainting feeling thingy vanishes, but now I'm too late to get to my class in time. I still thought of calling an Uber, but I would not arrive in time anyway

So yeah, I did my hair for nothing. I wasted perfume for nothing. I got soaked for nothing. And, as I'm writing this, it's thundering like the world is ending so, if you don't mind me, I'm going back to sleep and pretending this day didn't happen