#idk this came to me in class loool

[vertiska]

caitvi x wolfwren part 1😋

[iwaoiness]

thank u sm @mania-sama for taggin me on this!! <3 im excited to see how this will turn out omg

𒌋 fanfic write review

— How many works do you have on AO3? —

actually 48 fics in english and spanish, i think its a huge number but then i remember there's people with more than 70 works and then i feel better

— Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes —

¹ orbit return↦ "When they're eight years old and learn in class what the orbit and the planets and the stars and the universe are, Iwaizumi decides that on Oikawa's birthday he will no longer say "happy birthday", but "happy orbit return". And it becomes a tradition. Or: Oikawa is the main protagonist of Iwaizumi's Instagram, especially, every 20th of July."

its one of the cutest i've ever written, i wanted to do something cute and soft for oikawa's b-day and show iwaoi over the years through the pictures but as i have no fucking idea how to draw, i said: ‘fuck it i'll write it’, and so it was born!! i liked it sm i couldnt hold out until july so i published it in octuber lol

² tooru's love life↦ "In wich Oikawa never revealed anything about his private life, let alone his love life. Until he posts a TikTok with Iwaizumi Hajime and everything explodes."

it was a silly thing that crossed my mind after seeing a video on twitter and idk how its in this top2 BUT im soooo grateful that yall liked it so much <3

³ chronicles of a jealous athlete↦ "What Oikawa definitely can't get over and what left him gaping with eyes wide open was the latest viral video featuring Iwaizumi (which Makki sent him just two minutes after it was posted, along with a "loool bro u should’ve come to japan"). And it's not another fancam (he wished it was another fancam, why on earth wasn't it a fancam), but a video of him, back to the camera, giving Ushijima Fucking Wakatoshi a massage. A fucking pectoral massage."

THIS IS MY PRECIOUS SON!! i saw the video on my tl and said: i MUST iwaoing this right now and worte it in one day. i had a great time writing it, i felt like i was 15 again, surrounded by books and being able to read saga after saga every week, totally engrossed in the world of manga and anime, having evolved in my writing style and feeling that i finally could show my full potential and reveal without further walls everything that my mind holds. im very fond of it i swear

⁴ oikawa's problematic phone case↦ "In which Oikawa shows a video to a famous talk show host and (unintentionally) ends up showing half the world the photo he keeps in his phone case. And it would all remain an anecdote if it weren't for the fact that it is a ID photo of Iwaizumi Hajime (27) athletic trainer."

can u believe i just wanted to do a drabble about iwaizumi being the kind of person who doesnt try hard at all and looks SO HOT in the id photo and then this came out lol i just now its something canon

⁵ when the rain falls in summer↦ "It's summer, it's raining, Oikawa is lying on the couch like an invertebrate animal, humming a song because he doesn't know silence, and Iwaizumi can't ask for anything more."

i couldnt be iwaoi's fan without writing iwaoi enjoying the two of them in their flat on a rainy day, all sweet, loving and in love, and with a balcony full of plants ugh i love them with my whole heart

— Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? —

yees!! its my fav part of publish a work, even though sometimes i forget and get months behind, i LOVE responding to comments, it's like feeling more connected to people and an incredible dopamine rush

— What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? —

all i know is my life is gone, well tecnically its all angst not only the ending, but thanks to this i found the joy of writing angst, now i understand people who write an 120k fic of pure angst, somehow its reaaaally funny

i have another one in spanish la paz de akaashi its a bokuaka fic y si eres hispana hermana no sabes lo que me dolió emocionalmente destrozar a bokuto y akaashi pensé que sería soportable pero nO

— What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending? —

AAAAAAA I CANT CHOOSE apart from the previous two plus another one that has a bittersweet ending (between alphas if u r curious), the rest of the 43 fics have happy ending, but so as not to leave this blank I will say: little piece of home

— Do you write crossovers? —

nopee, and i dont think im ever going to write it cuz im not really into it

— Have you ever received hate on a fic? —

only once lol when i started in the fanfic world in fanfiction.net with vocaloid stories (dark past don't ask) and i was 12 or 13 y/o ig when one of my shameful fics ended up in a review blog with the top spanish fanfic writers, and they dedicated a WHOLE post to me with a destructive (and a little bit constructive) criticism. actually it wasnt that bad cuz that was my turning point and now i write well thanks to it, and since then i havent received any hate on any of my fics!! (for now lol)

— Do you write smut? If so, what kind? —

another yes thank youuu. i love to write it not too explicit, like leave u wanting to know a lot more and also to be able to imagine it a little bit as u like, if that makes sense

— Have you ever had a fic stolen? —

not that i know of, and hope to keep it that way pleaseee

— Have you ever had a fic translated? —

nope

— Have you ever co-written a fic before? —

nope again

— What’s your all-time favorite ship? —

IWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOI im OBSESSED with their dynamic. its just so freaking good (and don’t even get me started on the fact that childhood friends is my weakness). with these two, there’s literally endless possibilities and AUs u can explore without pushing them into major ooc territory, which, tbh, is a struggle with some ships. like, u want enemies to lovers? fits like a glove. strangers to friends to lovers? perfect. full-blown angst with a happy ending? chef’s kiss. angst with hurt/no comfort? yup, that too. whatever the vibe is, if it’s iwaoi, it just WORKS

and individually they’re a solid 10/10. like, sure, iwaizumi didn’t get as much screen time as oikawa, but his personality is so well-crafted that it feels like he’s been a core part for all 402 freaking chapters of haikyuu (well he's a core part if it wasnt for him, tooru would’ve been absolutely eaten up by guilt for hitting kageyama and might’ve even quit volleyball and that iconic line ‘the team with the better six is stronger’ it’s HIS, and it hit kageyama like a truck) and don’t even get me started on timeskip iwaizumi hajime (27), athletic trainer, he's my roman empire

and oikawa, oh my oikawa, i’d legit have to write a whole doctoral thesis cuz he’s THE character. his development's straight-up apotheosis. he’s one of the best-written characters out there, and if u disagree, go argue with the wall. the man crossed the damn pond for volleyball, became a STARTER on the argentinian national team, rediscovered the joy in the sport, and kept his pride intact through it all. uuugh and at 30 years old, he’s still a total dork but irresistibly handsome piece of man

— What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? —

okay listen to me carefully (or rather, read me carefully) i have a lots of WIPs but for the last FOUR years in my iwaoi doc there has been THE wip that has been going around in my mind but that will probably never come to light and that im going to let a summary of here cuz if i suffer for not being able to write it, as it deserve, yall suffer with me for not being able to read it:

inspired by the music video of halsey's song colors, omegaverse iwaoi, where oikawa (18) is a dominant omega (a real one, who can bend an alpha with his pheromones) and iwaizumi (29) is an alpha. i know it sounds repetitive BUT KEEP READING!!

the oikawas are a pretty well-off family: daisuke (a lawyer with his own successful law firm) is the alpha dad, aoi (a social worker at an omega shelter) is the omega papa, tomiko is the eldest alpha daughter, and tooru is the youngest omega son. tomiko’s married but always stays in close contact with the family, and daisuke and aoi’s relationship is super healthy, making them a tight-knit family where oikawa grew up never lacking love.

but then adolescence hits hard and oikawa becomes ridiculously beautiful, flamboyant, smart, strong, attention-loving, totally into top and bottom dynamics, and most importantly, he LOVES teasing his dad, though daisuke always dishes it right back cuz they’re both stubborn as hell (but his dad really cares about him and only looks out for the best, just like his papa). actually oikawa gets along quite well with the rest of the omegas, but his closest friends are makki (an omega marked by beta mattsun) and suga (the epitome of perfection with a playful streak he rarely shows, and ofc engaged to daichi).

oikawa and hanamaki usually go to the sports club to play tennis because volleyball is not an omegas thing, and with suga he attends the music conservatory where he plays the violin. at the omegas institution, the three of them are in the sewing club (led by akaashi btw) although tooru has no fucking idea how to sew.

so, the story kicks off with makki and oikawa watching a volleyball match at the said prestigious miyagi sports club, where daisuke and a handful of alphas (and mattsun) play. among them is yutaro iwaizumi who happens to be a little bit in love with tooru (and even has a semi-blessing from the oikawas to court him). but, ofc, tooru has zero interest in that iwaizumi. his eyes are on the other alpha iwaizumi who plays volleyball too with his dad, the one who looks at him with those intense green eyes, the one with a dimple on his right cheek when he smiles, the one with a deep, gravelly voice that makes oikawa’s stomach flip, the one with an overwhelming presence, the one who smells like sandalwood and mint, the one with a broken mark on the nape of his neck.

hajime iwaizumi, the big bro of yutaro

AAAAAA DUDE, NOW I WANNA PICK IT UP AGAIN, IT’D BE SO GOOD I WANNA CRY. i wrote three chapters and half of the fourth, and honestly, it was so fun cuz i add humor and build a fun dynamic between the OCs (aka tooru’s parents) and tooru himself. ugh and don’t even get me started on the epic scenes i included, like oikawa getting into big trouble sneaking into an alpha institution just to smash a nut tart into the face of an alpha who’s allergic to nuts for revenge

— What are your writing strengths? —

wow i’ve never really stopped to think seriously about this, but i think im decent at conveying emotions (someone pls tell me this is a legit writing strength before i embarrass myself here), like, i try to make them feel real and almost palpable instead of leaving them just abstract. and maybe creativity too? im always looking for ways to avoid repetition and make everything feel smoother and more fluid

— What are your writing weaknesses? —

definitely describing places, i HATE that kind of description. i try my best, but if it’s already a struggle in spanish for me, just imagine doing it in english, i caaant every time it makes me want to bang my head against my laptop. oh and i feel like cant write long fics to save my life cuz i always feel like i wont be good enough to pull it off or that i’ll mess up squeezing the plot and fucking it up, and it drives me absolutely crazy but but i swear im trying to improve that aspect and one day get a long fic or a 10k+ one shot uploaded without dying in the attempt!!

— What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? —

i think its super funny (u cant comprehend the joy that comes over me when i read fics in english with argentinian oikawa saying dialogues in spanish), although its true that sometimes it hinders the reading a bit if one isnt fluent in the other language, its a good tool that makes the reading more interesting as long as its used well, i see it as another resource to make the reader more involved in the story imo

— What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to? —

right now off the top of my head i’d looove to write kuroken, more bokuaka, some oihina, kenhina, definitely atsuhina, kagehina, and tanakiyo from haikyuu. and once i finish arcane, i’m literally DYING to dive into jayvik. also, i love love love kingdom (GO READ IT, ITS LEGENDARY), and i’d be so hyped to write something shin x qiang too

— What’s your favorite fic you’ve written? —

i really hate to choose i swear but the first one that cross my mind its hajime's premature death i had such a blast working on the plot, like driving iwaizumi insane with oikawa rocking a skirt has been soooo enriching. honestly, i think this might just be the most fun fic i’ve ever written

time for tagginggg @vvalllerie @winnterboobear @kingofech0park if yall want to do it, no pressure!! ღ

[barnesbabee]

This second relationship of mine was actually born out of an accident like literally.

This was just like almost two years after I decided to focus on other things besides dating. I had people asking me out but I honestly rejected because I knew I wouldn’t give my all because I fear the fact I’d be nothing to them

So it started during like my second semester of my university which is later half of my first year. There was a new housemate in my dorms cause it’s coed actually and we’re just okay with each other. (Can’t say he’s a roommate cause he’s in another room.) So like we met often and we had some introductions since we somehow managed to go our respective classes in the morning in the same time. We’ll have small conversation in the elevator and while waiting also before parting our ways to classes.

Originally, I didn’t think much but somehow the more we talked during the first two months, there was some sort of tension we developed but I chose to think nothing. Until one day he was like came out of shower and like he was just literally shirtless with just towel on his waist and idk what happened but he just pulled me to his room and we suddenly had a makeout session. Like he confessed how he has feelings but honestly I didn’t want to hurt him so I confessed how I don’t want any relationship ever since my first traumatic experiences.

To him, he didn’t feel any rejection. He just took it calmly and actually whispered how he’ll actually do anything to change my mind about everything. I didn’t know what happened but I just somehow accepted and we somehow got into a phase of like small dates. He’ll surprise me with food like meals and sometimes snacks like donuts or cake slices. I did scold him for wasting money but he did it for fun. He’d take me on small dates like to the beach or fields to enjoy scenery and end up staying almost entire time in the places he took me. It was then I felt like he was someone my heart was starting to feel something jittery again for once. Truth be told, I actually accepted him as a boyfriend within a month.

At nights, whether my room or his, we’ll be in bed and he’ll just talk to me and share his life which prompted to talk to him about my relationship. It was that moment, I actually talked about my traumatic experience. He didn’t say anything but just wiped my tears as I just talked about it. And like few months later, he just been making me happy throughout with all his small gestures. Nothing fancy or over the top, just the small things he did which really made my heart flutter. Probably I found the moments very special, I eventually let him popped my cherry and honestly I didn’t regret any of that at all. I felt safe and trusted.

Then like it was going strong entire time and yes he still made me happy even when were separated during semester breaks. I even brought him back to my grandpa’s place to celebrate my grandpa’s bday. My dad’s family isn’t really one to accept someone immediately because of what I experienced since my parents told them but they accepted him very fast and just not because he’s studying to be a doctor. But yea all that moments until pandemic hit all of us.

He was more of a physical attention person while I was more of a emotional attention person. Throughout pandemic, we couldn’t physically meet so we resorted to facetiming only at night. Knowing it was already over a year, but he still managed to make me flustered. However, I actually felt over the months, it felt like a routine to him and I knew he was somewhat falling out of love but he still continued to stay strong trying to salvage in a way. But I knew I didn’t want to force him to it so just one week before my finals, during our call, I just asked the dreaded question to which he answered truthfully. We agreed on a mutual breakup and we still remained as super good friends till now. Did I cry after the breakup? I did for few hours till I slept because of how tired I was from crying. My heart knew I better let him go than let him suffer. Do I regret the relationship? I didn’t at all because he was someone I actually trusted so much even till this very moment because he never did anything fancy or what but just all the small gestures he gave that made me fall in love properly again.

Look at me flooding your ask loool so yea that was my story

first of all, I wear glasses so fuck you for typing this in small letters-

second, wow you really got your yn moment there huh-

but Im happy you did eventually find someone who really loved you and was willing to do all that

and yeah falling out of love is tough but at least it was good breakup and youre still friends

it was a nice story

[haikyuu-drabble]

Soulmate AU | Terushima x Reader

hi i saw this post on tumblr about a colorblind soulmate au loool and so i wrote this... technically part two is in the works but idk if im a fan of where its going but if u guys really want it then ill try to work on it haha

terushima x reader | Colorblind

word count: 2670

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Black and white. That’s what you always saw, and you hated every moment of it. You’d been wanting to meet your soulmate for years. Out of all your friends you’ve wanted it the most. Every time you thought you might have found the person, when you reached out to touch them, nothing changed. You still saw black and white.

These days, most, if not all, of your friends could see in color. You’d constantly have them describe the shades or hues of things. You’d ask them things like what color your eyes were or what their favorite color was. You’d basically torture yourself.

Your friend laughed, “Maybe you haven’t met your soulmate because they can tell how desperate you are.”

You grimaced, “You don’t really think that’s it, do you?”

“Of course not!” you friend laughed, “Can you just relax? It’ll come when it comes. The best things always come when you’re not looking for it.”

“Well, can you blame me? My curiosity is only going to get worse the older we get. The number of people who only see in black and white in our age range is only getting smaller.” You grumbled.

You friend rolled her eyes and patted you on the back, “Just focus on what’s important to you right now, and it’ll show up.”

“Fine.” you sighed.

When it was time for your next class, you bid your friend goodbye. It was a new semester which meant new classes which also meant new classmates. This could be your chance. This could be the class that you meet your soulmate and finally see in color.

When you walked in, you saw a load of girls surrounding a particular area of the classroom. You tried to peak over the crowd to see what they were crowding over. It was a male student with short cropped hair. You raised a brow wondering why everyone was so preoccupied with him.

You decided to sit far away from the commotion. The professor gave the typical syllabus lecture, and in the midst of it, he announced that there’d be a partner project. He explained, “I already assigned your partners, and I’ll post them on the board after lecture. Be sure to communicate what you want your project to be about. I’ll be asking for topics next week.”

You felt yourself getting excited. This could be it. This assigned partner for class could be your assigned partner for life. You felt yourself fidgeting from anticipation of the list.

When class finally ended, you overheard girls saying things like “I hope I get Terushima” or “how lucky would I be to get Terushima as a partner?”

Frankly, you had no idea who they were talking about, but you also didn’t really care to know.

You were in line waiting for your turn to search the list when you overheard someone calling your name. You tried to look over the heads that were blocking your view and saw the same boy who was surrounded by girls earlier. You sighed to yourself. Great.

You waved your hand, and he grinned at you. You could hear the girls whispers around you, “she’s so lucky” and “I really thought I was going to be his partner”.

He walked up to you with a smile, “So, should we trade numbers?”

“How about emails?” you suggested.

“Isn’t it easier to communicate through text?” he raised a brow.

“If I said that I didn’t have a phone, would you believe me?” you faked a grin.

Terushima laughed, “No, but for that joke. I’ll settle for your email.”

You grabbed a scrap of paper and wrote your email on it. He did the same, and you two ended up trading the papers. He smiled, “I’ll email you some topics later!”

You nodded in response and walked off to your next class. All you could think of was how much work you’d definitely be putting into this project. He just seemed like the type of guy who wouldn’t carry his weight.

Later that night, you were watching television at your apartment. Getting used to going back into the groove of school always tired you out. You could feel your mind drifting off when your phone pinged. It was an email from Terushima. You opened it to see what it was about, and in it were over ten topics. How… did he already come up with so many?

You read over them, and you realized that they were all really interesting things to make a project about. You picked the three that were most interesting to you and emailed him back with your response. Within moments, he’d already emailed you back and said you should meet up to narrow down which one you wanted to do. You agreed.

The next day, you went to the campus cafeteria. It was the agreed meeting place, but you forgot how busy the room got when it was lunch time. You opened your email and asked him if he found a spot yet. However, there was no response. You tried to look around for him in the giant room, and after about fifteen minutes of looking you finally found him sitting at a table in the corner. You approached the table and sat across from him. “I’m sorry. I got here earlier, but I was looking around for you the whole time. I emailed you asking you where you were, but yeah…” you veered off.

Terushima smirked at you, “If we traded numbers like I suggested yesterday, you wouldn’t have had so much trouble.”

“If I could see color then I also would’ve been able to spot you better too.” You muttered.

He tilted his head, “You can’t see color, either?”

“Either?” you asked, “You haven’t met your soulmate yet?”

He shook his head and smiled, “Thankfully, no.”

You raised a brow, “What do you mean by ‘thankfully’?”

He leaned towards you, “Life would be so boring if I found my soulmate. I don’t want to settle.”

You propped your head up with your hand, “Finding your soulmate isn’t settling down. It’s finding your partner. Your whole life changes, and you can finally see in color. How is that settling down at all?”

“You see it this way, and I see it that way.” Terushima shrugged and put his hand up for a high-five, “Kudos to us for still being free!”

You stared at his hand, “Should you really be that open to touching people if you don’t wanna find your soulmate?”

Terushima lowered his hand and laughed, “I think it’s safe to say that neither of us get along that well. I highly doubt we’re soulmates.”

“Right.” You rolled your eyes and opened your laptop to start working, “So, what topics do you think should narrow down on?”

You two talked for about an hour figuring out the pros and cons of the topics. It took longer than you expected because you guys had to refer back to the original list since some of the other topics weren’t as easily researched as others.

Before you two split up, he asked for your number, and you had to agree. It would be annoying if you continued to communicate only through email.

You were glad that you figured out what topic to write about because now you didn’t have to worry about it until your professor had approved the topic.

Coincidentally, you came to class early the day the topic was due. You grabbed your study materials out of your bag waited for class to start. Someone sat down next to you, and you saw Terushima smiling at you, “So, did prof approve our project?”

“He said that he’s going to go over it a couple minutes before class ends.” You answered.

The rest of the class started flocking in, and that’s when the normal swarming of girls approached Terushima. You sighed and collected your things. Terushima turned to you, “I thought you said we still have to turn in our topic. Where are you going?”

“Don’t worry. I need a good grade, too. I’m not leaving.” You explained.

You moved away from the crowd, a couple rows in front of your original seat. It was much too early to deal with such a loud crowd.

Near the end of class, the professor explained that he was finally going to approve topics, and as soon as you were approved, you were free to leave. Since you were sitting near the front, you were one of the first people he checked. You quickly got his approval and texted Terushima the news. 

As soon as you packed your things and left the classroom, someone called your name from behind you. You turned around and saw Terushima chasing after you. Once he caught up with you, he asked, “Why didn’t you wait for me?”

“Well, he approved of our topic, and I texted you.” you held up your phone.

He checked his phone and saw the message, “Oh. I didn’t realize.”

“That’s because you were too distracted with the girls crowding around you.” You joked, “Maybe if you met your soulmate, you wouldn’t be so distracted.”

Terushima had a smile on his face, “Well, if you look at that. ‘Ms. Serious’ has jokes.”

You laughed and rolled your eyes, “It comes up on occasion.”

“Well, I know that now.” Terushima beamed, “So, where’s your next class?”

“I don’t have one actually. I’m done for the day.” You answered.

“Me either! Let’s get hangout” he invited.

“I don’t know. I’m kind of busy.” You veered.

You looked at his face and saw the slight disappointment. There was a part of you that wanted to give in, “But… I guess I can squeeze you into my busy schedule.”

Terushima grinned, “Great! I know the best place with the best bread!”

When you two got to the bakery, you grabbed some pastries. Terushima was ahead of you at the cash register, and you put your bread next to his, “I’ll pay for his food too.”

Terushima was taken aback, “What’s this about?”

You took out your wallet, “I feel bad since you found all the topics for the assignment. It had to have taken a lot of time because you got so many. So, consider this as my payback.”

You grabbed your bread and headed to a table to sit at. While eating, you got to know Terushima a little bit better. You asked, “Holdup. You played volleyball?”

“Played?” he repeated, “I still play! I’m on the school’s team.”

“How come I never noticed you, then?” you asked.

Terushima shrugged, “Maybe you just couldn’t believe such a perfect guy could exist.”

“Sure. That’s what it is.” You scoffed.

Once you finished eating, Terushima walked you to the station. Before leaving, you asked, “Next time, let’s meet up to research some sources.”

“I’m down.” Terushima grinned.

You planned to meet with the next couple of days, and after he walked you walked to the subway. You looked back one more time and saw that he was still looking at you. When he noticed you looking, he grinned and waved at you energetically. You couldn’t help but smile and wave back at him.

On the train, you couldn’t help but think that Terushima was an enigma. He was a flirt. That’s for sure, but it was strange. You thought with his direct way of speaking, you would have been able to get a grasp on him, but trying to see what he was actually feeling was more difficult thank you thought. One thing you did realize was that you got along with him more than you would ever admit.

The next day, you met up with your friend, Tendou. He hadn’t met his soulmate either, but you figured out quite early that you weren’t each other’s soulmate. You’d accidentally tripped, and he was quick to catch you. When there was no difference in your vision, you were disappointed. Sure, Tendou was a very eccentric person, but he was sweet and fun. But over time, you realized it was much better that you two were just friends. 

You had told him about Terushima and the group project. Tendou stuck up a finger, “That’s the wild guy on the volleyball team, right?”

“Am I the only person who didn’t know he played for the school?” you asked.

Tendou shrugged, “Hard to say. I used to play so maybe that’s why I took notice.”

“Maybe.” You sighed.

“Well, what’s your opinion of him?” Tendou got straight to the point, “You like him or something?”

You felt your face heat up, “T-Tendou!”

Tendou raised his brows, “That’s an interesting reaction.”

“No!” you denied, “It’s not even a reaction.”

“If you say so.” Tendou snorted.

You threw your hands up, “Let’s just change the subject!”

“Fine.” Tendou shrugged again, “Oh yeah! I’m starting a manga!”

“Again?” you laughed, “Please tell me you have better ideas than last time.”

The next day, you went to the library, and you texted Terushima asking where he was. He quickly replied, “I’ll come and get you.”

Within a couple of moments, you saw him waving at you, and you walked up to him. He whispered, “I already got started and found a few references.”

Once you got to the table, you saw there were a some of books and printouts. You grabbed a book and noticed that he’d even already bookmarked a couple of pages. You asked, “How long have you been here for?”

“I’m not really sure.” He answered, “I just came here after my class. I figured I might as well since I had nothing else to do.”

“Terushima, if you keep this up, I’m going to go bankrupt from buying you those hotdog breads.”

“I wouldn’t mind that actually.” He snickered.

He sat down in his seat, and you took the spot next to him. You opened your laptop and started looking for own searches to add to the collection. You knew that this class was going to be a lot of work, but you didn’t realize that it was going to be as much as it was. You were thankful that you had Terushima as a partner to complete the paper and presentation.

While reading an article, Terushima called for your attention, “Can you look at this article, and tell me if it’s usable for the paper?”

You tilted your chair to see his laptop screen a bit better. You were reading the part that he highlighted when you felt your chair start to dangerously lean over more. You quickly gasped, but Terushima grabbed your arm and caught you and pushed your chair back on the ground. Suddenly there was a bright flash of light. You flinched from it and closed your eyes. “Are you alright?” Terushima laughed, “Good thing I caught you. You really would have been a goner.”

You rubbed your eyes, and when you opened them, things looked very different. You could see color. Does that mean…?

In almost a breath, you asked, “Do you… see that?”

“See what?” Terushima laughed, “Your life flash before your eyes?”

“No! The—” You looked over at him, and you saw his golden locks. Terushima was blond. His eyes were a soft almond color, and his skin had a slight tan to it. He was... beautiful.

He was looking at you with a confused look, and your heart dropped. You could tell by his expression that he wasn’t seeing what you saw. He wasn’t seeing in color. You knew that could only mean one thing. Terushima was your soulmate, but... you weren’t his.

[linz33y]

ty for tagging me @veraynes-blog! 💕

relationships: My spouse and I have been together for 7 years, married for 2. Coincidentally, it’s our anniversary today, so I need to sneak out to buy them flowers before they wake up 😁

break ups: Nothing too wild, but then again, I tend to do the dumping 😅Most dramatic was my first long term boyfriend right after college (we don’t talk anymore...). Least dramatic was my first girlfriend in high school. She’s cool as hell and we’re still buds!

kids: nooooooooope!

brothers and sisters: I have one younger brother and he is the dopest human on the planet. He got ordained online by one of those vague "Church of Humanity”-type things so he could officiate our wedding. We actually just got off the phone because he called to wish us a happy anniversary :) I love that kid to pieces. 

pets: One pitbull and one floofy orange cat. Our third furbabe was a wonderful old grump named Batman, but sadly we had to put him down a few weeks ago at the ripe old age of 20 :(

surgeries: I had one when I was a toddler, and a follow up for it when I was in second grade. I still fucking love my scar <3

tattoos: YES. I tried to count... I think I have 16 so far? Some were collected as souvenirs during trips (shoutout to Shorty at Salon Serpent in Amsterdam), some were custom designs (my fave is a big chest piece from a really kind human that went on to compete on the show Ink Master. it was SO WEIRD seeing him on TV), and most are flash pieces gotten on a whim because I’m friends with many tattoo-addicted enablers who don’t bat an eye when I say something like “hey, I’m bored. wanna go get tattooed?”  

countries you’ve been to: I live in the US, and I’ve traveled to Canada, Mexico, Costa Rica, the Dominican Republic, the Netherlands, and Italy. Technically Iceland too, but that was a layover, so I didn’t get to leave the airport.

been in an airplane: Yep

been in an ambulance: Yep 

sing karaoke: Yes, but I’d rather sing along with the rest of the audience than be on the stage.

ice skating: Badly, but I have.

been on a cruise: Once, but they terrify me now.

driven a motorcycle: About 15 years ago, my dad had his midlife crisis and got a motorcycle. He sold it about 6 months later, but regardless, he thought it would be a fun bonding activity if he took me to get my license as well. He also considered it a practical skill for his high school-aged daughter in case, and I quote, “[I’m] ever being chased by bad guys (???) and need to commandeer a vehicle, and the only available vehicle is a motorcycle.”  Loool. Idk how it works in other places, but I got to ride a state-provided motorcycle around a parking lot for 2 days with my class, while my dad sat in the grass with a cooler full of snacks cheering me on. I haven’t ridden one since (I’m not confident on anything with a manual clutch 😬), but it was a blast!

ridden a horse: Yes

stayed in a hospital: See “Been in an ambulance” 😅

favorite fruit or berries: Raspberries! I wish they weren’t so expensive, or I’d eat them all the time.

favorite colors: 💚and 💙

last text: “Did your mom finish watching Twilight yet?” (I’m so tempted to provide the context for this... but I think I’ll just leave it.)

coffee or tea: Coffee! But tea with milk if I wanna treat myself ^_^

favorite pie: See “favorite fruit or berries” 

favorite pizza: ok, I know Papa John is a terrible human, but Papa John’s garlic butter sauce is SO GOOD. Their pizza is simply a vehicle for the sauce.

cat or dog: yes ^_^

favorite time of the year: SUMMER! I’m a leo. This is my time. ♌️☀️🦁🌻🔥

met a star: sort of? I mean, he was a star to me. Story: My favorite holiday tradition is seeing A Christmas Carol with my family at a little theater near where I grew up. The last time we all went was a few years ago, and after the show, the actors were hanging around the lobby. I whispered to my brother, “Look, there’s Scrooge!” and because my brother one of those weirdos that can actually socialize with strangers, he dragged me over to meet the guy. The 3 of us got a selfie together, and you can actually see tears in my eyes in the photo because I was so happy 😂

flown a helicopter: About 15 years ago, my dad had his midlife crisis, and I’m kidding. No, I’ve never done this.

been on tv: Nope

broken my leg: No, but I came close enough that I did need a cast.

seen a ghost: One poked me in the back once while I was trying to fall asleep. Granted, we chose to stay in a haunted mansion. And we opted to sleep in the ghost’s bedroom. Really, I was asking for it.

been sick in a taxi: Nope.

seen someone die: No, thank god.

I’m going to tag @mushigo-palm-spores and @echospool, but I will not be mad if y’all don’t wanna do it 😄

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 126: Introduction

Previously on BnHA: We caught up with the villains for a spell and shit was wild. Twice brought in a new guy by the name of Overhaul who apparently has yakuza roots. Tomura’s group was under the impression that he wanted to join them, but Overhaul informed them he had grander intentions -- now that All for One is gone, he intends to make himself the new ruler of the underworld. In other words, he’s a challenger to Tomura’s as-yet-not-very-established throne. Tomura’s group predictably didn’t take to this very well, so Overhaul fucking blew one of them up by way of persuasion. Tomura in turn disintegrated one of Overhaul’s own men because why not, it’s been a while since we had anything really gruesome and shocking in this manga so hey! So in the end it was kind of a draw, and Overhaul left after telling Tomura to give him a call. Back at U.A., Deku and Mirio dropped by to chat with All Might, presumably to set up an internship for Deku.

Today on BnHA: Aizawa announces that the first year students will be allowed to do internships. Deku asks All Might if he can introduce him to his former sidekick, Sir Nighteye. All Might says no, partly because he thinks it’s too dangerous, but mostly because for some reason he thinks it will be awkward. But after some imploring from Deku, he gives in and asks for assistance from Nighteye’s current intern, Mirio. Mirio agrees to introduce Deku to Nighteye. A few days later the two boys travel to his office. Mirio warns Deku that although Nighteye is famous for his stoic demeanor, he actually has a hidden side that prizes humor above all else, and Deku will have to make him laugh in order to win his favor. Deku meets Nighteye and promptly contorts his face into some bizarre All Might impersonation. But Nighteye seems less than impressed.

(As always, all comments not marked with an ETA are my unspoiled reactions from my first readthrough of this chapter. I’ve read up through chapter 155 now, so any ETAs will reflect that.)

so we’re opening with Aizawa talking about the possibility of the first year students doing internships

he says that the majority of the faculty, including the principal, were like “nah that’s crazy”

(ETA: oh so now y’all care about the safety of your students, huh)

so all the kids are like “what?!” because they were just starting to get really into the idea

also Kaminari is playing with Ojiro’s tail. just cuz it’s there and he can

meanwhile Bakugou is like “HAHA SUCKERS” because he wouldn’t have been able to do the internships anyway lol

(ETA: Bakugou is in like three scenes in this entire arc, and one of them is a flashback. I’m just gonna enjoy this while I can. here’s his obnoxious shit-eating grin.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH YOU LITTLE SHITHEAD)

but now there’s a “however” coming from Aizawa’s direction!

oh snap

sorry Bakugou

you’ll have your license in a few months and then you can go back to Best Jeanist’s agency (PLEASE??!) or wherever else you want to go and you’ll be all caught up in no time

I’m glad the teachers gave it such careful consideration, too. this seems to be an unusual amount of deliberation from a school which until now has mostly stuck with the philosophy of “just throw ‘em right into the deep end and see if they sink or swim”

so now over in the staff room, Deku’s asking All Might if he’ll introduce him to “Sir Nighteye” for an internship

Ectoplasm is in the background thinking about how he wants to go to karaoke. just making a note of that. this man is clearly pent up and he wants to sing some damn Journey songs goddammit

(ETA: this was mentioned in his bio back in the extras for chapter 61. “favorite thing: karaoke.” I’m so curious about this. why does he love it so much. who does he con into going with him. Hounddog and Vlad, probably)

oh shit look at this man not playing any favorites

damn. harsh

he says he’s not doing it just to be mean, and of course not. All Might doesn’t have a mean bone in his body. so why, then

apparently there are three reasons!

reason one, he was one of the teachers that were against it. he thinks it’s too dangerous right now with the recent resurgence of villains

(Midnight’s in the background saying that internships have always been risky, though, and that the school should support the students who still want to go. fuckin’ love Midnight, man)

reason two, he says Deku should strengthen his shoot style first

now Ectoplasm and Cementoss are also chiming in with their two cents, in addition to Midnight (and Thirteen) from the previous panel omg. and All Might’s face loool

IT TAKES A VILLAGE, ALL MIGHT

oh my god

I love this man so much

haha. all of these reasons actually suck though. he’s just feeling overprotective at the end of the day isn’t he. and also that last one. awk

but we all know Deku has been extremely fired up recently, and this appears to be why:

(ETA: “honestly, if Bakugou told you to go jump off a bridge would you do it?” “pshh! no. that’s ridiculous. ...how high a bridge?”

heh. is that too similar to the roof thing to be funny. should I just shut up. whatever I love them)

my god I love their relationship so much

and since they’re in a room filled with other U.A. staffers, all Deku says is “my quirk is very similar to All Might’s” (HINT HINT. WINK WINK), and he thinks that if he works under Nighteye he’ll be favorably compared to All Might

and he’s bowing imploringly and says he needs to become stronger

special attack: Guilt Trip Smash omg

All Might looks to possibly be having a change of heart. but he says he still can’t be the one to give Deku the introduction

he can’t, but...

so I assume this is where Mirio comes in

Mirio is REALLY PSYCHED to have been summoned by All Might himself. such an honor oh goodness

did All Might not have classes with the senior students before? I’d think that would have taken some of the mystery away from it. but hey, maybe he’s just pumped to actually be able to do him a favor

meanwhile Deku is like “I don’t really understand this situation” and Mirio’s like “HAHA ME TOO”

obviously Mirio is Nighteye’s current intern Deku you boob

see

so apparently he’s been his intern for the past year already

Deku’s really impressed by this

All Might’s asking Mirio if he thinks Deku is up to working under Nighteye

oh my god

Mirio is such a good fucking bro

(ETA: the best bro on god’s green earth)

he’s asking why All Might doesn’t just ask him himself though. he says Nighteye would be thrilled to hear from him

...but All Might says he’s too ashamed to show his face? :(

“in the end... things turned out exactly as he forewarned they would”

I don’t like All Might feeling awkward or ashamed about having lost his powers damn it

should I be mad at Nighteye?? idk right now

(ETA: honestly I can’t really be mad at any of them. which is a bit exasperating for me as a reader having nowhere to direct my frustrations, but also that’s some damn good writing though)

anyway so he’s asking Mirio what he thinks of Deku

Mirio is asking Deku what kind of hero he wants to be. ah, this one’s easy!

oh snap what a great fucking answer

ladies and gentleman, our fucking protagonist. the GOAT

and he was unconsciously clenching his fists in determination while saying it

Mirio’s like wow that’s crazy dude

Mirio you’re definitely knocking on my top ten here. I’m not even sure who it is right now honestly. there have been a ton of great new characters recently. ugh it’s hard dammit

(ETA: if you really want to know, the top six are the same as before -- Bakugou, All Might, Izuku, Aizawa, Ochako, and Todoroki -- followed by Momo, Toga, and then yes, this bright-eyed fella. and then idk. Kaminari, Kirishima, Jirou, Best Jeanist, Iida, Mina, and Sero are all vying for that tenth spot. this series has a problem with its characters being too good.

but seriously it’s Best Jeanist)

anyway, he adds that he’d been thinking about it already since their training session earlier

All Might’s looking pensive :/

what’s on your mind dude

he’s flashing back to his meeting with the Rat Principal that we saw a little bit of back in chapter 121. when RP was telling him he had someone in mind who would be a good successor

and naturally it was Mirio

and now All Might’s watching him and Deku, and thinking about how Mirio would have been the successor if he’d never run into the latter

in hindsight we owe quite a lot to that sludge villain, huh. but those are the kind of little fateful coincidences I fucking love in stories like this. so many what-ifs. what if All Might hadn’t chosen that day to come to Deku’s hometown. what if Katsuki hadn’t delayed Deku’s walk home that day by blowing up his notebook. what if Deku hadn’t fucking grabbed onto All Might’s leg like a crazy person and caused him to drop his villain bottle. what if All Might hadn’t already been close to his limit at the time. what if the bottle hadn’t landed exactly where Kacchan was walking with his stupid middle school lackeys. all these little things that came together. I like it, because when you think about it all it feels like destiny

anyway. not only did I go on a nostalgic tangent there, but I also went back and reread the entire first chapter just now whoops. I’m so easily distracted

so now it’s the weekend!

and the other boys are hanging out lazily having breakfast, but meanwhile Deku’s like

meanwhile these two are also up early, and Todoroki is trying to be friends, but Bakugou doesn’t want to be awake yet omg

(ETA: and off they went, never to be seen again)

haha. I love them

I really really really really really love Kaminari’s bedhead

I want to ruffle his hair and never stop. power him up. static quirk. worth it

now Mirio and Deku are arriving at Nighteye’s office

it’s really nice. Deku is intimidated

Mirio’s reminding Deku that Nighteye has very strict standards. but it appears that Deku is already aware

but Mirio says there’s another side to him that he doesn’t show to the media

he says if Deku doesn’t want to get turned away, then he needs to make him laugh at least once. lol what

apparently Night respects humor above everything else. in spite of his stoicism, or maybe because of it

Mirio says all he can do is introduce Deku and then the rest is up to him

well it sure is a good thing Deku is such a naturally funny guy. always crackin’ wise, that Deku. we’re not fucked at all, no sir

now Deku’s asking Mirio why he’s doing this for him. it’s because he’s just a nice guy, Deku!!

damn, he would have been a great successor. Deku is still the best of course. but wow

there’s a page of Nighteye having a weird conversation with some girl named Bubble Girl who’s only wearing about one third of a shirt

he’s chastising her for not having enough enthusiasm or vigor

damn it’s just like Mirio said huh

holy shit he’s hooked her up to some kind of weird bdsm-y tickling machine what the actual fuck

wowwwwwwwwww okay let’s skip right on past this. just. wow

(ETA: I feel like I know way more about Horikoshi’s fetishes than I ever wanted to. this is easily the single most uncomfortable panel in the entire series and I wish it never existed)

so now Deku is being stared down. and having a dramatic moment where he’s intensely thinking about how far he’s come and that he needs to show him some damn humor!!

Deku just show him your collection of t-shirts with weird shit written on them

or. you could try this I guess

this is apparently his All Might face. this is his best shot

he says a sense of humor is the thing he lacks the most. goddamn, it’s true. EXCEPT FOR THE SHIRTS

lol this response

and now Deku is sweating and Mirio’s thinking “it bombed!” but I actually don’t think it did omg. I think he fucking nailed it

(ETA: boy was I wrong on that one)

but this is the end of the chapter. wow

 bonus:

“the quintessential Japanese to All Might’s quintessential American”

I don’t even know what to think. I’m still trying to retroactively erase the tickling machine from existence by sheer willpower alone. but it’s not working dammit

(ETA: it really was not a good introduction. he makes a much better impression in the next chapter coming up.

I also just noticed that he doesn’t have a real name listed here. is it supposed to be a secret?? why

also is this fucker really going to die. fuck Overhaul so goddamn much. this arc is going to give me trust issues from here on out. any character who’s introduced with too much of an OP quirk is on borrowed time. fml)

[dojaeism-archived]

I'm SO sad that tumblr's been hungry for some sugar cookies and mistakes asks for them... I sent in around 7 last time and I saw that you responded to only 2; same happened with the people I'm anonning for + one of my own anons TT-TT I've forgotten what I even rambled to you about now HAHA - ❄️

Where are my manners omg how are you & have you gotten to the point of freaking out over nothing to do yet or still chilling? It starts on the 25th (we're still kinda unsure cause a prof said that she hadn't heard that we'd get a break but it's inclining towards 15 days without classes) although I'm pretty sure that everyone will dump even lengthier work on us for that time period and we'll have to get it all done before college starts again; but not dealing with 6 hours of agony is better - ❄️

Ah, thank you! I've been cooking a lot more recently than baking but hopefully I get enough time to do that too (ღ˘⌣˘ღ) time flies by so fast though, I can't believe it's at most only a week before I come off anon! I got an url (@/sunchang) and even though it isn't canon, it's the closest I'll get to a short yet good url for one of the boys who stole everyone's hearts at debut! But I've just saved it for now, will have to do a lot of work before I can star using it hehe - ❄️

Oof Sunghcan's on the younger side though so I'm curious how young you are! Most people I've met here are above 20~ But then there's the few closer to my age and I treat them (not only them, even the elder ones) like they're my younger siblings Lol ah stop flattering me (ノ*°▽°*) I wish I was consistent with posting on one blog but then I feel like I'll have to keep up with all those groups on one blog instead of posting 1 day each so I keep making sideblogs sasfjsdhfgajgs - ❄️

I've been waiting for my break to start so that I can get a hold of her and peacefully talk to her but there seems to be no end for now super disappointed ;c I'd have had enough time to revise and work on the accents before taking it. Don't worry about not sounding like a native, it grows on you once you get the grammar and basic stuff down + watch stuff that has natives in it! I don't watch french stuff but k-content helped me a LOT with my pronunciation so I'm gonna do it with this too - ❄️

wait I think the blogs thing came out wrong; I dunno how to explain it but I think i want to make seperate blogs for everyone but then I feel like I should make a joint blog and I'm stuck in that dilemma for infinity LOL thank you, it mean a lot <3 and have a great day yourself! - ❄️

omg nooo you sent in 7 asks :( yeah i only got the two, and its been happening with me as well lately so grr.... i had to send in the same ask 5 different times to someone before it would go through omg @ dumblr fix ur shit!

tbh ive only been on break for 6 days and i’m already losing my mind lol i feel like i don’t know what to do with my time now that there’s no school.. but when there’s school all i do is complain about the work 😩😩 ahh you don’t get a day off for christmas eve?? that’s very interesting, almost everyone i know has this week off for the holiday at least so 👀 but yeah it does suck that you suddenly get loads more work because of the break but at least you’ll get to do it in your own time!! i’ve got a bunch of assignments due right after the break too but knowing me, i’ll probably only start them 2 days before they’re due lol

IM SO EXCITED we’ve got ONE DAY LEFT! (im still nowhere done with my gifts though lol HELP) but sunchang is nice too, and i can’t wait to see you start posting ＼(^o^)／

ahh i am older than sungchan! not by all that much lol but i *am* older hehe but i agree, most of my friends on here are all 20+ so now im kinda curious about your age too 👁

i feel you about the blog thing though, i don’t like having one blog for everything because it feels too cluttered to me and its difficult to look for things i feel but at the same time having a separate blog for Every Single One of my interests would be crazy like i’d be running 10+ blogs.... i can’t even handle the 6 i have LOOOL 

ahh yeah on the language thing, watching stuff definitely helps loads!! i used to watch tv shows in spanish/with spanish subs just for the sake of practice lol, i’ve kinda fallen out of that habit now but my subs do still tend to be in spanish/another foreign language im “learning” so its cool. learning languages is just really fun idk i enjoy it a lot so even though it’s difficult sometimes... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

bye for now, and i can’t wait for reveals hehe stay safe, warm, and healthy 💗💗

[323398149]

ostalso next weekend im planning a backyard “camping trip” and 

omg remember that time i didn't sleep for like 3 days so i could study for management at night and work on the facilities project during the day until my laptop gave up and then i finally took a shower and ate? LOOOOOOOOOOOOL WELL i didn't remember until i just heard it right now that i was listening to Break My Heart by Dua Lip on REPEAT those nights. And the feeling of floating cause i had lost track of existing just came back in a wave LOOOOOOOOOOOL. Honestly, no regrets. Was so worth it. I was so proud of our 400 project like HELLO it was the ultimate team, it would have been dumb for us to not put effort into it. And I know the email felt useless at the time but it actually was helpful because with the extra time i spent another 4 days working on it slowly which helped polish it up and yah GOOD TIMES :) :) I love amphetamine LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL missing powerful amms, that could actually direct her efforts where she wants to, sm. 

And i remember thinking i was putting too much time into it and should study for psych/ergo and i never ended up studying for either and they went sooo well. Just cause i had kept up with stuff in those classes. Like the electricity straight up went out during my ergo exam and it still was fine just cause like idk i loved how it was all about being creative within the boundaries they defined and anything you could come up with the you could justify was worth marks like aaaaaaaaaaaagh my fav typa exam. ik this sounds super nerd but acc that gave me such a high LOOOOOOOOOL and omg that prof was soo sweet. he checked in on me during the exam but i didn't see it until after and was like sorri it's really messy and like we emailed back and forth a couple times and it was such a wholesome conversation and i was like wow profs are people too LOOOOL and THE BEST way to end that semester was with an exam where i linked every answer back to taylor swift LOOOOOOOOOL like wtf felt soooooo good. But then the first day of Ramadan was like lol DEPRESSING so yah the very next day. I just went downhill to a low i hadnt been to in over a year at that point. SO pretty much i never like got that "yay it's done i did it" moment. like not truly i probs said it but dind't feel it or do anything to signify it. and yah now that i truly am caught up on credits i'm like okay NOW is when you get to just lie there and feel happy because not only did you not kill yourself LOOOL or end up in an abusive relationship LOOOL or end up giving up on your wildest goal as a teen LOOOL like sis you overcame that and we (all your alter egos) are gonna be proud of you in this moment.

And i just remembered, the only songs i was otherwise willing to listen to were Physical and Future Nostalgia. So it was just those three ON LOOP like i didn’t take off my headphones and it just kept my brain screaming so i wouldn’t start to shut down/relax. like honestly my “relaxed” moments were DURING group meetings that i was helping lead/actively contributing to. loooooooooooooool like sometimes im like agh why did i pick this program but then i think back to one of these moments and although i’m telling what probs sounds like a horrible zombielike experience like idk how to describe it but it’s sooooo rewarding. like i feel so powerful after finishing a project LOOOL gah i feel so lucky to be alive! :) 

[3inghao]

HEY HI HELLO ITS CRUSH ANON so like last week i was just chilling in the big room watching stranger things and my back was to the door so i didnt even know it when it happened but apparently he just like walked in and was like ,,, there ,,, LOOOL and i was still watching stranger things and i had my headphones on and i was really focused (and trying to distance myself from him a lil lol) so i didnt like look up from the screen or acknowledge him but he started talking to my other roomie (1/10)

and was like ‘omg wtf she hasnt even acknowledged me since i walked in .. jeez’ and then he started saying like fake spoilers and trying to get my attention but i just like was not up for that so i just kept watching and ignoring him lol but then the episode ended after like 2 min and i was like !!!! hi what tf do you want :) LOOOL and he was like wow hi ok LMAO and we just started talking and he was waiting for our other roommate who was in the shower bc they were supposed to do a shoot (2/10)

for one of classes but we just kept talking until she got out of the shower and then the two of them left ,, and then after that our other roommate came home from her class and she was like ‘yeah omg so me and y (who is actually one of xs roommates) are writing a song for our final project !! wanna hear what we have so far?’ and we were like HELL YEAH SLKDGSLDKGH LOOOL so yeah she played it for us and it like deadass was really good !! and she was like yeah y did most of it lol but yeah (3/10)

she was like guys help me with the lyrics and so we started brainstorming lyrics and we were like so what do you want it to be about? and she was like hmm idk but probably something about my relationship with our other guy friend who shes into LMAOO and i was like hm so like ,,,, mixed signals ? and she was like YES OMG thats so good ok so we started off of that and then i was like hm so who do you want to be singing it ? like a guy or a girl ? do you want the lyrics to be from your pov? (4/10)

and she was like hm i want them to be like my perspective like what im feeling but have it come from a boy bc i want x to be the singer on the track and i was like omg ok !! but on the inside i was like SGKHSLDGHSL LOOL and then a little after that our friends invited us over to their dorm to watch la la land so we went and in the middle of the movie x came and apparently its one of his favorite movies too and so like ,, during the duet scenes between emma stone and ryan gosling (5/10)

a couple people would start the song but theyd always drop out somehow and only like ,, me and x would end up finishing the song LOOOL and we ended up just doing all the duets together sdklgsldkgk it was ,,, so nice but yeah after the movie our friends still had like a shit ton of work to finish so some of us left but x invited us up to his room and so me and my roomie thats writing the song went and x wanted to get wine (lol) so my roomie and y stayed in their room and worked on the song (6/10)

so me and x went to the liquor store alone to get it and ahhhhhh like wow it was s o n i c e bc it felt like the first time in probably ever that i could interact with that boy and not feel like i was dying inside LMAO like i mean i was still dying inside but i was treating him like a friend and it was coming so naturally and i dont know how to explain it but i just felt so incredibly relaxed and comfortable and idk like obviously there were some times or some things hed do where my brain (7/10)

would just scramble and go skjslgkskjlhsg but otherwise i was fine i just like ,, felt fine. idk. anyways so we get the wine and come back and then we crack it open and then we all just start ,, working on the song LOOOL even though it was my roomie and ys project we all just started pitching in with lyrics and it was like all about mixed signals and like not knowing how the other person is feeling and wanting to take the relationship one step further but being afraid to bc of not knowing (8/10)

what the other person is hiding and the entire time i was like wow this shit is sooo ironic bc x is going to be singing this about a girl even though these are the literal complete feelings i have for him so on the outside i was getting really into it and coming up with a bunch of shit but on the inside i was like :^))))))) wow i wonder how im able to tap into these emotions so easily i really just :^)))) dont know wow :^)))))))))))) amazing :^)))))))))))))) but yeah anyways that happened (9/10)

and every time wed finish writing a line wed have x sing it to see how it would sit on the instrumental and sldkhgsldslkdh ohhh my god his voice is literally so beautiful i was d y i n g LOOOL and yeah during the night there were moments where hed touch me or wed kinda flirt and idk yeah those moments i was dying but at the same time i was acknowledging the fact that i was dying and acknowledging the fact that it probably didnt mean anything and separating it from the way i was acting so (10/10)

AHHHH wow crush anon it’s been a hot second but can i just say he sounds super into you there’s no way that boy is not crushin on you. please let me know how the song turned out! also your love life could easily be the plot of a fanfic i would very much read 

[diaryofanormalkid]

😍😍☺️ YUGC crush update

Omg he complimented me again!!!

I️ did NOT see it coming at all (once again). Like okay yeah we spotted each other from a mile away and didn’t break eye contact like at all until he was done complimenting me. But like he literally just said it out of nowhere because he came over to say hi to all us who were apart of the performance today (let me remind you he's staring at me the entire time) and it was like the first thing he saw he complimented, which were my nails.

He was like “ouuu your nails, love the colour!” Or something along those lines, while still holding intense eye contact with me. I, of course said "thank you." And smiled. After, he walked off and I️ felt hella flattered but embarrassed because he did it infront of everybody. And he was so loud and extra about it, but I️ was GUSHING on the inside I️ tell you.

I️ had butterflies 🦋🦋😍😍😍

And then when we were practicing our songs to perform, he was highkey glancing at me so much (especially when the altos did their part because he could get away with it since I’m an alto and all eyes were on us anyways) and I️ caught him glancing a couple times and would smile but on the low so it looked like I️ was just smiling in general.

After we were on a rehearsal break, and he came upstairs where all the girls were chilling and came over and just put his water down on the table. He saw we were all on our phones (surprisingly, except me), so he commented something like “darn technology. Y’all are gonna get bad necks before you get old.”

We all laughed and then he kinda dispersed off into his own group with some of the other folks who were away from us.

Then later today when we were in our actual class, he saw me talking again and then stopped just to tell me “omg I️ love your top! It flares (idk if he asked that specifically, I️ honestly forgot) at the end of the sleeve?” And we all laughed and then I️ said “yes, thank you so much.” And he went on with his day.

Omg honestly I️ didn’t even need that second compliment to know, but he for sure likes me. No way is any guy gonna go out of his way to compliment your appearance, 3 times! And 2 in the same day? C’mon, he wasn’t even trying to be subtle! Like lol I️ already wore that top before and the nails he complimented me on I️ had last week so….. 👀. Ain’t no way he can be doing this without crushing on me on the low. 😩😍

(Unless he gay on the low… but I️ highly doubt it. He casually checked me out when he complimented me on my overalls the first time, so there’s that)

Omg I️ had a nickname for him too because I️ said if he ever compliments me again I’m gonna call him by this nickname and somehow I️ forgot today after BOTH times he complimented me so like I️ needa get on that next time if he compliments me so he doesn’t feel like I’m shutting him down every time by only saying thank you.

But the eyeeees he was giving me. It wasn’t a lot, but it was enough. Like that very first time we made eye contact was so special, he would not look away. He made sure he smiled too, I️ was melting yo 😍👀 it was intense.

I️ wanted to fricking squeal sooo badly but everyone was around me and I didn’t want them thinking I️ was into him.

Ugh. He looked so fine today too, I️ wish I️ could compliment him without it looking hella obvious or it being awkward. Now if I️ try to compliment him, it’s gonna look like I️ have some type of ulterior motive.

I️ wish my friend who I’m closest to in the class would pick up that I️ am into him because HELLO he was giving me eyes?! If she didn’t notice! She was also there both times he complimented me?! I️ feel like she too slow, how did she not pick that up?!

And I was even hinting at her that I️ had a crush today and she was like “what?” And I️ said “nothing” and she obviously didn’t believe me so she probed me to tell her, but I️ said “I️ will when I’m ready.” Loool soooo I’m highkey mad she wasn’t picking up my hints because I️ literally tweeted a “👀” emoji on twitter just so in the groupchat my friends would ask wth it’s about and they didn’t so IDK WHAT TO TELL Y’ALL

I️ loooooove how this is all happening the day before Valentine’s Day too! Like flatter me boo, I’m here for it 😍😍😍😘 he dropping hints and sending love my way, so I️ can think about him on valentine’s day (yooo that rhymed 😂💀)

I️ bet you that was 100% purposeful and not coincidental.. but I’m literally not gonna see him for another 2 weeks so I️ feel so bittersweet rn because by then will our feelings still remain like this or lessen? Maybe they’ll grow!? Hopefully.

Idk. I️ don’t even know what I️ want out of this. I️ just know I’m hella attracted to him and I’m crushing big on him 😍☺️😩

[shariferworld-blog]

monday july 10 2017

woke up and got the habit with claudia james and john. at first i was just gonna eat lucnh at home cuz its my moms birthday today but then she went out to get lunch w her friends so i hit up claudia cuz she asked about monday lunch last week but i said nah cuz mom bUT YA HIT HER UP and she was gonna get lunch with james and i didnt want to feel awk since i dont rly talk to james that much (like the only times are when its in group hangouts and he messaged me yesterday cuz he remembered we were in the same 4th grade class LMAO) so then i was like invite someelse pls and she was like fine so she asked ryan and john but ryan was at home in redwood city so it was just john who came. then afterwards claudia wanted to go to ulta so we went and she kept talking about all these makeup brands/products and what not and after a while it got boring LOOOL. like the guys were getting so impatient towards the end HAHAHA. But its so fun putting sample swatches on your hands tho lmao. then i went home to go shopping w my mom and then to marina to get a cake. THENNNNN i came home and watched like an episode of the fosters and then had dinner. and then i went to the gym. i came home and watched a movie on netflix called chalet girl. youve probably heard of it before or watched it idk youve seen so much shit PLS i need reccomendatiONSDFD. anyways ya i watched it and it was good i liekd it but highkey i feel i missed out on a few scenes cuz i put subs on since their accents were so strong i couldnt underestand some parts HAHAHA. and i was like on my phone the whole time too cuz i was high and it was hard looking back at the subs then my phone then to like the actual movie and stuff. and ya i think if i watched it sober i wouldve gotten a lot more. so i guess u oculd say i half watched this movie?? looool ya idk. and by the time i was done w the movie it was already like 2 am so i passed out.