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WHEN THE MOON HOWLS ― a javier peña's autumnal oneshot

main masterlist | read on ao3 | part 2 pairing: javier peña x f!reader. summary: you meet javier in a café during your sabbatical. you see the man that no one does ― the one who is broken, defeated, crushed by his time as a DEA agent. so you make it your purpose to shine some light on his life, one pumpkin spice latte at a time. -or- the story of how you two fall head over heels for each other c: a/n: hiya! been wanting to write for javi p for a while, but was afraid to take the plunge because it's been a hot minute since i last watched narcos. anyways, this fic is for @goodwithcheese and @jolapeno's jolabrew + withcheese fall challenge which i found really inspiring, thank you for hosting this sweet challenge! first time taking part in a challenge too, whoop whoop! as always, all interactions welcome, would love to hear your thoughts. take care! <3 x warnings/tags: 18+, mdni (no smut here, but still). post season 3 of narcos, possibly slightly off-canon? idk. fluff, loads of it! angst, comfort. mentions of ptsd, panic attacks and therapy. halloween/autumnal vibes. trip to the pumpkin patch to cheer our sweet javi up. reader's pov only (v unlike me). no use of y/n. no description of reader (moodboard is only for aesthetic purposes). unbeta'd, soz. w/c: 6.8k (this was gonna be a short drabble... smh) divider by @saradika-graphics

Friday, 18th September 1998

“What can I get for you today, gorgeous?” was your go-to sentence with every client.

Even when your own personal demons stalked you at night, you made your best effort to get out of bed every day and come to work. Working in a café was not in your plans for this year, but a heart-shattering breakup had rocked your world so bad, you needed out.

So, you took a sabbatical from your job in finance, hugged your parents and waved goodbye to your friends. It would only be for one year ― hopefully enough to get your life together and reorganise your priorities.

That was why you moved to Laredo two months ago, to have a fresh start with a blank slate ― where no one knew you and you knew no one. A month into your new life, you realised you needed to do something or otherwise you would go crazy. So you took a waiting job at one of the local cafés. You were just paid the minimum wage, but you had enough savings to live comfortably for a year without any issues.

It was only mid-September ― technically still summer. However, the unusually cold weather made it look otherwise. Fall had appeared sooner this year, and you couldn’t be happier about it. You loved autumn ― its duller hues, the crispy air, the browning leaves, the cozy sweaters, burying yourself under blankets on the couch while channel surfing. It was, by far, your favourite season.

“A pumpkin spice latte, please.” The masculine voice that spoke back to you was plain, deflated ― it lacked… something, but you were not able to pinpoint what exactly.

Your eyes moved from your notebook to the man in front of you, sat at the one of the most isolated tables. A few strands of wavy, brown hair fell across his forehead, the ends caressing the metal frame of the yellow-tinted, aviator sunglasses that shielded his eyes. ‘Brown too,’ you thought. ‘Sad and brown.’

Even if he was not looking at you, you could simply tell. His demeanour, his posture, the way he averted his eyes ― the man spoke of sadness and hurt, of something dark and gut-wrenching you could not even fathom.

And he was alone ― it was obvious he was not waiting on anyone.

“Anything else?” You asked, your throat suddenly dry.

He shook his head no without a word. His hands were placed on top of the table, his fingers intertwined while his thumbs circled each other. It was a restrained yet impatient gesture, as if he could not wait to be left alone.

“Could I interest you in a slice of pumpkin cake? It’s got cream cheese frosting. Shouldn’t say it myself because I baked it, but it’s delicious, I promise.” You tried to tempt him; a soft smile directed at him. “If you don’t like it, it’s on the house.”

The curvature of your lips wavered when his eyes slowly drifted up towards you and locked on yours. They definitely had a sorrowful tint to them ― as if he had seen too much, been witness to too many unspeakable things. His eyes were a window to a crushed soul, that much you could perceive.

His lips formed a flat line as he looked away and through the window to his right.

“Why not then…” His reply was not rude but charged with something unsettling. Something that made you swallow hard.

But you were still smiling back at him. Maybe the guy was having a rough day, a rough week or a rough month. A rough lifetime? Showing him kindness was not going to change his view on the world around him, but if it helped, even a tiny bit, you would smile until the corners of your mouth hurt.

“Alrighty, shouldn’t be long!” You scribbled the command on your notebook, the tip of your tongue unconsciously sticking out between your teeth as you did.

You walked back to behind the counter and when you turned around, you saw the man watching your every move. But as soon as he felt caught, he bowed his head down and looked for something in one of his shirt’s pockets. Soon after that, he lighted a cigarette.

Slightly confused, you faced the coffee maker and looked at the recipe card for the pumpkin spice latte. As you started preparing it, one of your colleagues walked past you.

“Pssst, Alejandra!” You called her in a whisper.

The girl looked around her, unsure if someone had said her name or if it was her imagination playing games.

“Over here”, you waved at her and Alejandra happily trotted towards you.

“Yeah? What’s up? Do you need a hand with that?” She offered her help, as she always did. You were grateful to have such good coworkers in your shift. It was a contrasting experience in comparison to your finance job.

“No, I think I’m okay. Got a question of different nature though,” you ventured pressing your lips together. “The guy over there, sat in the corner…” Alejandra turned her head around to look and stuck her head out, going on her tiptoes and everything. “Hey! Be a bit less obvious, dammit!” You panicked, shaking her forearm as she giggled.

“What about him?” She asked with a cocked brow.

“Who is he? Not seen him before ‘round here.” You tried to sound as casual as possible, but Alejandra’s raised eyebrow told you she was seeing through your bullshit.

“Chucho’s son. Javier.”

“Chucho who?” It seemed like everyone knew everyone in this town, except for you.

“Chucho Peña, he owns a farm on the outskirts of town. That’s his son Javier. He worked for the DEA and has moved back in with his old man a couple of weeks ago. Rumour has it he was fired. Apparently, he was caught doing drugs on the job, can you believe it?” Alejandra didn’t hold back on the gossip. “The same drugs he was confiscating from the narcos, taking them all for himself. Some say he was even selling them back to them and making good profit.”

You knew to take rumours with a very big pinch of salt. Sure, there was corruption in the DEA as in any other governmental organisation, but he did not seem to be that kind of guy. Not that you knew him, anyway.

“Not even his childhood friends are speaking to him now, so if I were you, I’d keep my distance.” She warned you in a hush. “He’s trouble, that dude.”

That broke your heart a little. Javier looked lonely enough ― learning that he was truly on his own resonated loud with you. Being branded a misfit by his own community had to be a hard pill to swallow.

“Mhmm. Sure thing”, was your only reply. Alejandra tilted her head to one side, studying your blank expression. “I was just curious, that’s it.”

“If you say so. But don’t say I didn’t warn you!” Her veiled counsel hung above your head as you resumed the task of preparing his coffee.

Five minutes later you were done and walking back to where Javier was patiently waiting. As you approached his table, a guy pushed back his chair to stand up and hit you hard. You lost your balance, almost tripping with the legs of the chair. Your right hip slammed against the edge of an empty chair and prevented you from falling ― you managed to save the coffee, but the plate with the cake slice slid off your fingers and shattered against the floor.

“Hey! Watch it!”

For a second you thought it was the gentleman reprimanding you, but you quickly recognised the voice ― Javier had stood up, fast as thunder, and his index finger was accusatorily pointing to the man who had mindlessly pushed his chair back.

Before the situation escalated, you straightened out your back and planted a hand on Javier’s forearm to stop him from tackling the guy.

“It’s okay, it’s nothing. I wasn’t looking, it’s my bad.” You quickly tried to diffuse the situation, tension building up between the two men.

“No, it’s not.” Javier replied between gritted teeth. “This asshole should have seen you walking by.”

Your eyes widened as they flew from one man’s face to the other’s. Javier’s outburst was not welcomed by the other guy, who was clenching his fists at his sides. You put the surviving coffee down on a table nearby and placed yourself in the middle of both men, arms extended.

“No need to take this so seriously, it was just a bit of cake, and I’m not hurt.” You said looking at Javier with imploring eyes. You did not need this kind of trouble.

‘He’s trouble’, Alejandra had said. Should you listen?

“Please, accept my apologies.”

“I ain’t paying you shit now, treating one of your regular clients like this.” The man barked back, fuming.

Javier took a step forward and his chest pressed against the palm of your hand. You did not expect to feel his warm skin under yours ― a few unbuttoned buttons on his shirt gave you a peek of his hairy chest.

He clenched his jaw so hard you could see his muscles straining.

“Of course, of course. I’ll pay for it, it’s not a problem.”

Huffing and puffing, the man signalled to his companion and they both walked out the door, mumbling something you couldn’t hear but could imagine.

Slowly you turned to face Javier, whose eyes burnt like gasoline. You didn’t know if he was trouble, but he was definitely danger.

“It’s alright, relax. I’m sorry about the cake, I’ll get you another one. It’s on me, I kinda forced you to buy it.” You offered, thinking he was still mad, while you knelt down to clean the mess with some tissues you had grabbed from the table besides you.

“I’ll pay for it. For both slices.” He replied succinctly, squatting down by your side to help you out.

“You don’t need to”, you quickly said, watching him on the corner of your eye.

His expression softened a bit, and his lips turned into a grimace.

“I do. I think I made things worse for you.” You thought the same but didn’t dare to voice your opinion.

You were customer-facing and could hear your manager in your mind saying ‘The customer is always right. Treat ‘em like royalty’. Bullshit that, really, but was part of the job.

Once the mess was cleared, you gave Javier his coffee and ran back to the counter to cut another slice for him. This time, as you sauntered towards him, you were aware of your surroundings. Luckily, there were no more inconveniences, and the cake slice made it safe and sound to Javier’s table.

“Thanks. And sorry again.” He apologised, his tone throaty with truth. He really meant it.

“Don’t worry about it, honestly.” You grinned at him as you gently squeezed his shoulder without thinking. Javier’s eyes quickly darted down at the touch ― you could swear he flinched. “Oh― S-sorry”, you stammered, pulling your hand back to break contact.

Javier just hmphed and turned his attention to his drink and food.

With your brows knitting together, you made your way back to the counter. From time to time, you would check on him from a distance while serving other patrons. ‘Just making sure he likes it’, you told yourself every time.

After half an hour, Javier got up and walked towards the register.

“How was it?” You asked with a gleaming smile.

“It was good.” Surprisingly, you were slightly disappointed at his lack of enthusiasm. “Really good”, he added a second later, as if he had picked up on your disillusionment.

The smile came back to your mouth.

“Well, I’m glad.” You said while you typed in his order to produce the bill. “It’s $9.42.”

“How much was the… gentleman’s” he spat out the word, “bill? I want to cover it too.”

That offer took you completely off guard, and you started shaking your hands and head at the same time.

“No, no, no. It’s okay, I’ll pay for it. It’s not the end of the world.”

“I insist. Please.” He punctuated every word. “How much was it?”

“Uh, mhmm…” You didn’t want him to take the blow. Maybe he had made the situation worse, but at the end of the day, it was the other guy’s fault, not his. “Are you sure?”

He simply nodded.

“It was $25.37. So the total would be… $34.79.” You composed a pitiful face ― it was a lot of money for a coffee and a cake slice.

Javier handed you a $50 note and then said, “Keep the change.”

With your mouth agape with surprise and not really understanding his generosity, you looked down and extended your hand almost unwillingly.

“But this is a lot…” You started to complain. However, when you looked up at him, you only saw his back.

Javier was already walking out of the café before you could say anything else.

Friday, 25th September 1998

Exactly a week later at ten past five in the afternoon, Javier Peña entered the café you worked at. Your brows furrowed, trying to recall last Friday. Had he gotten there at the same time too? He sat at the same table, same chair as well. The man was a creature of habit, a wild one at that.

Sooner rather than later, you were in front of him, notebook and pencil on hand, with a cheery smile.

“What can I get for you today, gorgeous?” You asked, hoping he would catch the joke ― you also followed a routine.

The joke went over his head. He looked less taciturn than a week before, albeit he still had this aura around him screaming to be left alone. Javier leaned back on his chair and this time, he did make eye contact, unlike last.

A slight yet noticeable change.

“A pumpkin spice latte, please.” This time round, his voice was a bit livelier although still crude.

“Anything else?” Your smile turned crooked as your eyes locked on his.

You saw a sparkle in them, a brightness that flickered under the fluorescent lights of the café. A hint of mischief, you thought too. He definitely had seen the joke now.

“Do you still have pumpkin cake? The one with cream cheese frosting?” He went off script, which made your grin grow bigger.

A creature of habit, but adaptable.

You nodded, writing the order down ― your tongue peeking through your teeth in full concentration.

“Freshly baked, I did it this morning.”

“If it’s half as good as last week’s, I might have to start coming over every Friday then.” A lopsided grin fought its way to his lips, although it didn’t stay there for long.

That brief gesture had transformed his expression, softening the hard edges of his jaw and smoothing out the wrinkles around his covered eyes. You noticed he still had his aviator glasses on, even though it was cloudy outside.

You were not prepared for his compliment, so you just tittered.

“If that’s the case, I’ll make sure to bake one every Friday as to not disappoint you”, you replied jokingly, albeit you truly considered it.

The shadow of a grimace danced on Javier’s mouth. The beginning of another smile, perhaps. Could you be so lucky that he would gift you with two grins in a row? That would be unheard of.

It wasn’t like you were watching him, but you were. Just a few glances here and there though, nothing too obvious. You did not believe in such things, but it seemed like his demons were following him wherever he went. Whatever darkness accompanied him, had a tight grip on him. You wondered what had happened to Javier to give off such an uneasy feeling.

The man was the epitome of wariness ― always looking above his shoulders, his hand tightly latching on to the buckle of his belt. Javier Peña looked like a man who always had a foot in the door, ready to run at the slightest inconvenience. And just because of that, you should be chary, keeping your distance. But it was exactly that, his raw loneliness, what pulled you into his orbit.

You were a fixer, and Javier was broken.

You were a puzzler, and Javier was a puzzle someone had tossed aside ― all the little pieces spread in disarray, unclassified, waiting to be put back together.

Question was, could he be fixed or was he shattered beyond repair?

Friday, 2nd October 1998

“Let me guess. One pumpkin spice latte and a slice of pumpkin cake?”

Javier’s sunglasses reflected the light off the ceiling, his eyes catching a sliver of it. His fingers drummed against the table, his pearly white teeth peeking through the brief smile his lips composed just for you.

“It’s almost like you already know me”, he jested, flattening the palm of his hand against the table and sliding it off until his fingers wrapped around the edge.

That simple motion had you in a trance for a second, your mind blank.

“I do know a few things about you.” It slipped off your tongue before you could refrain yourself.

Once you realised what you had just said, your eyes slightly widened, and you unconsciously chewed your bottom lip.

“Do you?” Javier tilted his head to one side, his kempt moustache wrinkling with curiosity.

You nodded slowly and he cocked a brow, enticing you to continue.

“I’ve noticed you like a routine, always showing up at the same time, ordering the same thing, sitting on the same table, the same chair. And I know you love fall, because why would you be ordering a pumpkin spice latte every Friday since mid-September? With two sugar cubes. And when you attack the cake, you first eat the frosting, then the rest. That’s weird.”

You could have left it there so you wouldn’t sound like a stalker, but once you started talking, you could not stop.

“I know you feel like something, or someone, is following you. I know you always keep an eye on the door, making sure the exit is clear. I know you never turn your back to it either ― and that’s probably why you are, many a times, reaching for a gun in your belt that is no longer there. I know that you are lonely, but that loneliness is self-imposed. I know you don’t like being touched.”

You had definitely paid Javier Peña too much attention. Your last words did not really sink in until Javier’s amused expression transformed into knitting brows and a fine line for lips.

Had you gone too far in your analysis? Why would you say all those things to a complete stranger? When your slip of tongue dawned on you, you covered your mouth, embarrassed of yourself.

“Sorry, I-I didn’t mean to… I just― I shouldn’t have said anything. I don’t know why―” Your words came out in a slurred rush, incoherent and unfinished sentences got stuck to the back of your throat through all that stammering.

He leaned back, his arm loosely draped around the empty chair to his right, near the window. Javier then clicked his tongue.

“Well, I had it coming. I did ask, didn’t I?” His reaction surprised you ― you really thought he was going to up and leave because of your insolence.

You let go a sigh of relief, followed by a nervous chuckle as you hugged the notebook close to your chest.

“Was I… too far off?” You ventured, biting down your bottom lip again. Maybe you shouldn’t push your luck.

Javier took a long minute to respond, his eyes scanning every square inch on your face, as if he was trying to assess whether he could confide in you or not. You found yourself hoping he did.

“No, not really.” He conceded, “I do love fall.”

That hint of mischief you saw a week ago twinkled in his eyes again. Under that sombre and stay-away-from-me bearing, there was another Javier. One who could be mischievous and fun. One that you had been itching to know since he first set foot on the café.

This time was your turn to slant your head to one side, crinkling your lips as you attempted to discern if you were wrong about the rest. Was he playing with you?

“And the rest?” You pushed out of curiosity, knowing full well you shouldn’t take such liberty.

Javier shrugged, his shoulders almost touching his ears. Was he trying to hide a smile?

“I do have one more thing to add to my order.” The change of subject told you he did not trust you that much.

A pinch of disappointment settled in your chest. But you knew you shouldn’t feel this way, you didn’t really know him. For all you knew, he could be a serial killer on the lookout for his next victim and being a DEA agent was just a cover.

“Oh, yes, sorry. What else would you like?” You concocted a smile, but this time it felt forced ― too tense on the corners of your mouth.

Your sight was fixed on your notepad, not daring to glance down at him again. If you had, you would have seen his look of confusion. But you didn’t.

“Another pumpkin spice latte.”

You could not hide your surprise, so inevitably you asked, “Are you waiting for someone today?”

As soon as that question abandoned your mouth, you wished it back, mortified at your audacity. It was none of your business. And you didn’t care. Of course you didn’t.

“Yeah, you. You finish your shift in” he looked at his wristwatch, “fifteen minutes, right?”

You were left gobsmacked. Of all the things you had imagined he would say, that would not be an option at all.

“Uh― Ah, y-yeah?”

“See, you’re not the only one who is observant ‘round here. I do know pumpkin spice latte is your favourite drink too.” Javier explained so matter-of-factly, it would have been impossible to correct him. And he was right, anyway. “So, what do you say?”

You had not really given him an answer and he was obviously waiting.

“Yeah. Yes, of course.” You repeated yourself, a wide smile smoothing out your lips, your cheeks slightly blushed. “I’d like that.”

Friday, 30th October 1998

Every Friday for the last four weeks had been exactly the same, and you couldn’t be happier about it.

Come ten past five, Javier would walk in through the door and sit down on the same table after his therapy session just a few blocks away. You would happily trot towards him, notebook on hand ― just a pleasantry, considering you knew his order by heart: two pumpkin spice lattes, one slice of pumpkin cake, two spoons. In fact, you had it written down before you reached him.

And then, every Friday, he would wait for the clock to mark half past five, coffee almost untouched and the cake slice still pristine on the plate. You would tell your teammates that you would be closing down and that they were free to go. You would rush through your tasks to get everything done before the clock read forty past five. A minute later the “Closed” sign would be hanging on the front door.

And then you would sit down with Javier, both lazily sipping away at your coffees and nibbling at the cake, while you shared your hopes, your fears, your ambitions, your struggles, your likes and dislikes, your pasts. His heavily charged with trauma and anguish, yours full of heartbreak and regrets.

You had learnt all about his time in Colombia ― the rise of the Medellin cartel, the fall of Pablo Escobar, the peak of the Cali cartel and the corruption deeply embedded in the Colombian government. And how it all shaped who he was now, how it all shattered him and his view of the world. All the things he had seen that still haunted him to this day, and how badly he wanted it all to go away. How gruesomely tortured he was by it all.

He had split himself open in front of you over the course of the last month, pouring his soul out while trying to detangle the mess his mind was in. And you could not help but feel for him, cry for and with him. His words had reached further down inside you than you were really aware of.

And while he was getting professional help for his PTSD, you liked to think that your long, deep conversations helped him interiorise part of the trauma, come to terms with it as much as he could. He had not said it out loud, not really thanked you either, but he didn’t need to ― you just knew.

You could not have refrained yourself from loving him even if you had tried. Over the course of the last few weeks, you had fallen for him with every detail you discovered about him. But your friendship had developed so quickly and so profoundly, you were afraid of ruining it. Ruining the only real connection you had felt in a long time.

It felt like the moment for love confessions was long gone ― it had slipped through your fingers without you even realising. And now it was too late to change it. Perhaps it was better this way ― you treasured Javier’s friendship more than anything else. You would not bargain with it, not if it meant there was a teeny tiny chance of losing him. You were not a gambler, not with the people you loved.

“I think you should pick up a camera again, see how it feels. Ignore what your parents have always told you for a moment. You don’t have to make a decision now, or ever, really.” Javier encouraged you, his palm flat against the surface, extended towards you, resting halfway through the table.

How badly you wanted to reach for him, to caress the back of his hand with your fingertips. But you didn’t.

“You’re right. It’s all I always wanted to do for a living. My job in finance, it was just their idea, really. They kept telling me that I’d die penniless on the side of a road if I chose photography as my career path.” You sighed, the spice of your coffee filling your sense of smell as you tipped the cup to your lips. “Do you have any plans for tomorrow?” You asked, an idea forming in your mind.

“No, I was just gonna help my dad on the farm.” Javier replied, a certain interest tinging his voice as he tilted his head ― his chocolate eyes holding your gaze as if it was a staring contest.

You had never met him outside the café, but you were friends. Surely there was nothing weird about meeting up with him tomorrow.

“Well, I was just thinkin’. Brought my camera and equipment when I moved. Tomorrow’s Halloween, could go to the pumpkin patch outside of town to take some pictures. I love taking pictures on fall, the colours are just beautiful. Would you want to join me?” A shy smile hovered over your lips, your heart slightly racing.

Javier’s eyes lingered on your face for an eternal second before he sipped at his coffee. Maybe you shouldn’t have asked ― you knew he didn’t feel comfortable with open spaces, not yet. He had told you about his panic attacks when he returned home and found himself in the open, exposed.

Suddenly, you felt so damn insensitive.

“Sorry, I know y―”

“I’d like that”, he cut you off before you could take the offer back.

Inevitably, your heart swelled, warmth pouring all over your body with his acceptance.

Saturday, 31st October 1998

The car’s door slammed behind you after you rummaged through the backseat to get your backpack. It was full to the brim, as you had taken a few of your lenses, a tripod, a flash you were positive you wouldn’t need, and a few other bits and bobs.

“Sorry!” You apologised as your head buried between your shoulders.

God forbid you made a dent on Javier’s sparkling new Toyota Camry. Well, you didn’t know if it was new, but the car was impeccable inside and out. You were relieved he had offered to pick you up, otherwise he would definitely have judged you for the state your car was in.

“‘S alright.” He muttered, but on the corner of your eye you saw him smoothing out his hand around the edge of the door, ensuring you had not damaged it. “What are you carrying there anyway? Looks like you’re goin’ campin’, pequeña (little one).”

You snickered, Javier by your side in the blink of an eye. So close you could almost feel the warmth he irradiated, even in the crispy, spooky air.

“Oh, ‘s nothing, just a few things here and there that I hope to use later. Might need your help though.” You looked at him askance, measuring his reaction to your petition.

“My help? Mhmm.” He mumbled, almost laconic.

“It’s not too bad. And your aviator sunglasses will come in handy.” You laughed at the confused expression in front of you. “I’m not spoiling it.”

Javier’s lopsided smile made a brief appearance, but it suddenly vanished.

A backfiring noise from an exhaust pipe a few yards away made him flinch, his whole body visibly tautened ― his posture went rigid, his eyes frantically searching his surroundings while his right hand flew to his belt in a vain attempt to grip a gun that wasn’t there.

And then you saw the panic building up in his shielded irises. Even through the yellow tint you watched them darken, so opaque his pupils were indistinguishable from the brown. You could swear he had stopped breathing too, because his chest had not budged one inch.

Quickly you realised what was happening ― the sound from the car nearby had triggered Javier, bringing him back to one of his nightmares. His fight-or-flight response was taking over him, his mind suddenly replaying his time back in Colombia.

When you wrapped your firm hand around his wrist, you could feel his wild pulse under your fingertips ― his heart was beating so hard, it seemed like it was looking for the way out of his torso.

“Javier,” you called his name, giving him a gentle squeeze. He did not respond. “Javi”, you raised your voice over the cacophony on the background, your fingers tighter around his wrist, jerking him close to you.

Slowly he turned to look at you, long eyelashes fluttering, and it took him a moment to gradually come out of his daze.

With your free hand you rubbed his left shoulder, the first time you had been this nigh.

“Hey, Javi, are you okay?” You whispered, his eyes slowly drifting down to your mouth, as he was trying to read your lips rather than listening to your words. “It’s okay, you’re back home. You’re safe. You’re here with me, in a pumpkin patch just outside of Laredo. You’re safe, Javi.” You reassured him in a low voice, the abbreviated version of his name falling from your lips like honey.

You hadn’t realised how scared you were for him until he finally breathed. So did you. Your heart was pounding. Then he nodded, and you thought you saw a sliver of embarrassment in his eyes.

You wanted to comfort him so bad, tell him it was fine to be vulnerable ― but words escaped you, your chest heavy with affliction. The only thing you could do was wrapping your arms around his neck and bring him in for a hug. It only took him a second to swathe your waist, his face partially buried in the crook of your neck.

A shivering sensation down your spine gave you goosebumps. It felt so good having him this close.

“I’m fine.” He hummed eventually, as you both took an unwilling step back.

“I’m sorry. Truly. If you think this is a bad idea, we can just go back.”

He shook his head no.

“No, it’s alright. Gotta push through it at some point. Rather do it with you than alone.” Your heart melted at his words, almost swooning for him.

A soft smile spread across your lips, palming his forearm again. You could not have enough of his touch, of how his skin felt under yours.

“But if at any point it gets to be too much, you’ll let me know. Promise?”

You stuck your pinky out in front of him, asking him to pinky promise he would.

He returned your smile with a devastating one of his own.

“Promise”, was his reply as his pinky wrapped around yours.

Then you both erupted in laughter.

For the next two hours you walked the whole patch together, taking as many pictures as your camera rolls would allow you. Luckily you brought more than one ― knowing yourself too well, you had brought three rolls.

“Hey, Javi! The golden hour is approachin’!”, you shouted at him, amplifying the volume of your voice by placing one hand on the side of your mouth.

Javier’s head poked out in between a humongous pile of an assortment of pumpkins. He went around it to be by your side in a couple of long strides.

“Is this where my aviator glasses come in handy?” He asked with a smidgen of inquisitiveness.

“Spot on. Come, follow me.” You curled your fingers to emphasize your words and you started walking towards a field further ahead.

It was isolated, the yellow grass up to knee height. There were some dead trees around, black branches peppered around the floor. Reaching towards your back, you untied the tripod from the side and set it up, taking your time, while Javi was right behind you.

“So you’re taking pictures of an empty field?” He asked, befuddled.

You just giggled as you knelt and settled your backpack down on the floor. Unzipped it and jumbled stuff around until you found what you were looking for. Snapping your tongue with delight, you pulled out two white bedsheets and a sunglasses case.

“Ha! Here they are!” You enthusiastically presented the objects to a confused Javi, his hands scrunching one of the bedsheets as you handed it to him.

“I don’t get it. You want me to make a bed out in the wilderness or somethin’?”

Shaking your head no, you laughed at his perplexity.

“No, you silly. We’re going to put them over our heads so we look like ghosts, like so.” And then you proceeded to demonstrate, covering yourself with the bedsheet.

Almost blindly, you took your sunglasses out of their case and placed them on the bridge of your nose and over the bedsheet.

“Voilà!” You extended your arms, showcasing your masterpiece to Javier.

You could barely see him through the linen, but his laughter reached your ears. You couldn’t help but smile wide as you grabbed one of the sides and pulled it up to uncover your face.

“I want you to do the same. I’ll set a timer on the camera, and we run over there.” You pointed to a space between some fallen trunks. “And then we just do some silly poses.”

“…Okay?” The hesitation in his voice was faked, because you could see a grin pinching the corners of his mouth.

“Trust me, it’ll look great. I’m a visionnaire!” You said with confidence as you turned around and set the timer. “Go, come on, run!”

You both sprinted to the specific spot you had directed your camera at, and quickly covered yourselves with the bedsheets. Laughing out loud, you both put the sunglasses over your faces and started posing while the camera clicked away at timed intervals.

Back to back with arms folded; one sitting down on the trunk while the other stood up behind; both hiding behind some dead trees with your heads sticking out; just staying still and very straight looking at the lens.

Even Javi got into it by the end, suggesting a few poses of his own occurrence.

You both were having so much fun, cackling so loud, you had tears pouring over your waterlines. You even bent at your waist, hands against your knees, while you tried to catch a breath. Javi was by your side chortling like a kid without a worry in the world.

You pulled the sheet off you and Javi followed suit. You could tell he also had teared up and that tugged at your heart.

“I wish we could see them now, but we’ll have to wait until I develop them.”

You stepped forward to get to the camera, but you tripped with the bedsheet. Clumsy as always, you waved your arms in a vain attempt to regain balance, and failed ― the grass on the ground hurrying towards your face, or, well― quite the opposite.

When you thought you were going to hit the floor, Javi’s broad hand clasped around your elbow and pushed you up, until your chest flushed with his. His mouth was so close to yours, his lips agape and so inviting, you licked your bottom one as you gauged the situation.

“You okay, pequeña?” His voice was just a hush in the confines of your mind.

Unable to speak due to his proximity, you just nodded as your eyes locked on his. This time there were no sunglasses covering his beautiful orbs ― giving you the opportunity to look into the abyss. His abyss. One you had been wanting to jump into for as long as you had known him.

His free hand rested on the small of your back, pressing you into him while his lips were dangerously close to yours. You could smell the hints of tobacco, the old spice, the sandalwood, all of it hijacking your senses.

Something passed between you two. Something that had been there for a while now; something you had not allowed yourself to see.

Too scared to ruin the friendship you so much cherished. Too frightened to have your heart broken again. Too afraid to make a move and be rejected.

But you didn’t need to.

Javier did.

In slow motion, he bowed his head down until his soft, warm lips ghosted yours. A light caress that made your heart jump a beat. And then he pressed them sweetly against your parted mouth, his tongue testing the waters between your teeth as you let him in.

Draping your arms around his neck, you kissed him fondly, tenderly, with all the love you had been stockpiling for a while. With his hands now on your hips, his thumbs gently rubbed the skin under your tee shirt, while your fingers raked through his hair.

And then, in the background, a clicking sound, then a flash. The kiss came to an end, not without Javi leaving a few chaste pecks on your lips before your mouths untangled.

You pressed your right cheek on his chest, eyeing the camera, and chuckled.

“It’s been taking pictures the whole time.” You told him, looking up at him with your chin against his sternum.

“Good. I’d like to have a memento of this moment, pequeña”, Javi cooed as he leaned back down to press another kiss.

“That makes two of us.” You purred, smiling into his mouth before his tongue sought yours again.

The distant howl of a wolf breached the haziness of the kiss and interrupted you. Only then, you realised that the sun had set down a while ago, and a red moon dominated the sky. The atmosphere was rather eerie, almost spooky.

“There are nights when the wolves are silent and only the moon howls.” You quoted a sentence you had read once. “So maybe the moon has howled, and not a wolf?” That was your attempt at staying here, in your perfect, tiny bubble, a little bit longer.

Javi smiled, brushing his lips against yours.

“I rather not find out. Let’s head back, pequeña.”

He grabbed your hand, your fingers laced together, and pulled you towards the camera, him walking one step ahead of you.

One last click captured the final moment as you both sauntered towards it, hands intertwined, and Javi looking over his shoulder right at you.

[nicohischier]

@david-reinbacher tagged me thank youuuuu just the other day i was thinking about how i wanted an excuse to talk about myself LMAO

Tell me about:

1. The thing that got you hooked on hockey

i've spoke about how i first got interested in hockey so i won't rehash that, but what hooked me was honestly the behind the scenes content. behind the b was my best friend when i was a baby fan, i absolutely loved the content. even now, that sort of behind the scenes stuff is still my favourite content posted by teams

2. Your first ever fandom friend

my first hockey friend was shoshana (@/kempny) but they aren't on hockeyblr anymore and we haven't spoken in years unforch

3. The jersey you would most like to own

this is boring but my dream jersey is just a regular hischier home jersey

4. YOUR player (you only get ONE so choose wisely)

i am predictable. obviously it's nico. i've always felt like being a fan of the devils, for me, is like returning to the comfort of your home. nico's like that for me too. i think, no matter what team he plays on in the future, seeing him on or off the ice will give me the same comfort that coming home does. soz for getting sappy, he's just my guy

5. A pairing that deserves more fic

like. i'm a mattdrai girlie and i will never say no to more fics. but i am also tragically stuck in 2017 and would therefore go absolutely insane for more niconolan fics.

6. Your favourite on-ice moment

this is going to sound so stupid because i literally wasn't even a hockey fan yet, but adam henriques goal against the r*ngers in the 2012 ecf that sent the devs to the finals... i knooooow its such a dumb choice cause i wasnt a fan but. god. i cant explain how much that moment means to me even looking back retroactively. i get goosebumps every single time.

THEN

link someone else's art/fic/etc that you love & think everyone should check out

I HAVE A LIST. here's three from three different mediums. @jonasiegenthaler's insanely beautiful nico art inspired by a quote from his tribune article. @ghostgeno's jack eichel 'what i got' hockey poetry post. and @stevenstamkos's fic 'and i saw stars' which is half taylor hall/jordan eberle and half taylor hall/adam henrique and entirely taylor hall character study. i love all of these so much, none of you will ever know how much i respect you and the things you create.

AND

link something you made & are proud of & want people to see

so unforch i'm not part of the creative side of hockeyblr but like. go read the 2018 drama post i created at the end of 2018. esp if you weren't a fan at the time. it's my most popular post and i love how it complies so much history from that year that most of us would probably just forget about.

alas i will not be tagging anyone because. i think? everyone i would usually tag has already been tagged. also i'm shy :( idk who is okay with being tagged :(

[ollierachnid]

MUTUAL CATCH UP !

tagged by @simply-jason <3, a while ago (soz took me a minute to do this)

tagging @subjectsix @thedarklinkfell @wereviolet and any other mutuals who want to (I don't want to annoy too many of you lot/tag you if you've already been tagged)

THREE SHIPS.

Oh hm, I'm not particular huge on specific ships nowadays purely because I'm so neutral to most of them. These aren't all intended to be solely sweet or aspirational ships btw, there's a lot of nuances and drama between pairings I like.

- Georgina/Karsten (VVV)

- Been on a bit of a Blake/Avon (B7) stint

IDK for the third one lol

FIRST EVER SHIP.

Man I can barely remember, it was definitely something a bit tasteless from Young Dracula though I think.

LAST SONG.

" Rock The Casbah " - The Clash.

LAST MOVIE.

Recently saw 'Druk' which I found very good, so I guess I've been on a Scandinavian streak of TV and movies lately. Planning to re-watch 'The Three Musketeers', because I saw some screenshots of it in the wild lol.

CURRENTLY WATCHING.

I've been rewatching 'Veni Vidi Vici (2017)' because I have no one to talk about it to lmao, so I just need to circulate it in my mind. It's good stuff.

CURRENTLY READING.

Need to start reading 'The Time Machine' (HG Wells) bc a friend bought me it for Christmas. I'm about 2 pages in.

CURRENTLY CONSUMING.

I just ate wonton soup, it was very good.

CURRENTLY CRAVING.

I'd kill for a nice berry-type smoothie tbh, summer fruits type thing.

[around-your-throat]

fifteen questions | fifteen people

thanks @canaryislame for tagging me!!

1. are you named after anyone?

no i chose it at random BUT i did go by jade (from h*m*st*ck) in high school. make of that what you will

2. when was the last time you cried?

the other day when i was driving home from work lol

3. do you have any kids?

no!!!!

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

not really but i miss those millennial ass "i speak fluent sarcasm" shirts

5. what’s the first thing you notice about people?

probably clothes or hair or makeup, basically anything they chose to present themselves with

6. what is the color of your eyes?

black ⚫⚫

7. scary movies or happy endings?

happy!!! don't care for scary stuff and i'd choose happy endings over everything else man

8. any special talents?

i can kinda draw maybe :3

9. where were you born?

somewhere in asia......... :3

10. what are your hobbies?

drawing and listening to music and reading (lie) and playing games

11. do you have any pets?

no and i don't want any either soz 🐱

12. what sports do you play/have you played?

I play like badminton and stuff but that's for old people so. i also tried basketball and swimming but i'm just not an athletic person at ALL (would die if you threw me into a pool)

13. how tall are you?

155cm............................................

14. favorite subject in school?

physics or biology :D i like the natural sciences :D (chemistry is fun too but i still haven't forgiven what it did to me in 10th grade)

15. dream job?

idk bro... i hate working no one should have to work ever

i have no idea who's done this and who hasn't so tagging anyone who wants to do it :]

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

anyway in other news I'm literally not even in the Stranger Things fandom but shoutout to Grace Van Dien @quirly for handling the harassment and bullying she's up against with so much.... grace, honestly. it's in her name, besties <3

[aslibekroglu]

The Dizi Tag Game

Rules: Answer the questions and then tag people you want to participate! (Also tag it #The Dizi Tag Game so we can see everyone’s lists)

I was tagged by @baharsahin and @brumarchesine! Thank you guys!!!

1. Your first dizi & how you discovered Turkish dramas: My first dizi was Erkenci Kuş. I saw a gifset on my dash on night and basically fell in love. I remember it was like 2am on a school night, and after seeing the gifset, I immediately decided to watch it lol

2. Show(s) you’re currently watching: Son Yaz, Sen Çal Kapımı, and Maraşlı (although i’ve fallen a bit behind on this one)

3. Your favorite genre of dizi (romcom, mafia show, contemporary drama, historical/fantasy, etc.): romcom any day of the week, some dramas are a little too hard for me to handle, but there are some that I like and can take. I haven’t really given any of the other genres a try.

4. The show you rewatch (parts of) the most: The only show that I’ve rewatched in it’s entirety was Afili Aşk like right after it finished. The shows that I’ve rewatched parts of the most are prob Erkenci Kuş, Afili Aşk, and Sen Çal Kapımı (if that counts since it’s still on)

5. Favorite Turkish actor and actress (feel free to pick multiples): Alperen Duymaz is a new fav, Aybüke Pusat, Çağlar Ertuğrul, Demet Özdemir, Togla Saritaş, Hande Erçel, Funda Eryiğit I’m starting to really like, and you know who else I like that I never show enough appreciation for, Neslihan Atagül

6. A show you quit before finishing: ooh there’s a couple, Söz (after s2 I didn’t have the heart to finish), Sefirin Kızı, Arıza, Kiralık Aşk, Hercai

7. Favorite song(s) you’ve discovered in dizis:

Aşk Yüzünden - Aydilge & Halil Sezai

Aç Kapıyı Gir Içeri - Özdemir Erdoğan

Deva Bize Sevişler - Yalın

Sen Çal Kapımı - Başak Gümülcinelioğlu

Yıldızların Altında (idk who sings the original but comes in like every single one of these shows lmao)

8. The show whose plot disappointed you the most: Sefirin Kızı for sure, Aşk Laftan Anlamaz, s2 of No.309 was the absolute worst, and tbh Sen Çal Kapımı

9. A show that was cancelled too soon / ran too long: No.309 def ran too long, Erkenci Kuş too. Azize got cancelled way too soon, Sevgili Geçmis got cancelled way too soon as well, and honestly Her Yerde Sen too

10. Favorite Character(s): Suna Doğan (Benim Tatlı Yalanım) Kerem Yiğiter (Afili Aşk), Bahar Kutlu (Soz), Eda Yıldız (Sen Çal Kapımı), and my new bby Akgün Gökalp Taşkin

11. Your favorite romantic pairing(s): Ayker (Afili Aşk), Edser (Sen Çal Kapımı), Akmur (Son Yaz), Canem (Erkenci Kuş), Nejsun (Benim Tatlı Yalanım, prob the healthest relationship I’ve seen in these shows)

12. Favorite side character(s): Cey Cey (Erkenci Kuş), Melo (Sen Çal Kapımı), Azmiye (Her Yerde Sen), and honestly even though Ayşe’s family was super annoying in Afili Aşk, Erkut and Nazmiye were pretty funny

13. Best kiss: The second kiss between Yavuz (Togla Saritaş) and Bahar (Aybüke Pusat) in Söz when Yavuz tells her how he feels is reallly good. They have another one in ep31, after Yavuz leaves and comes back to apologize. That kiss is wow. And the whole scene in the bedroom in Afili Aşk ep36 is just so amazing and soft, it’ll forever make me cry.

14. An underrated show more people should watch: Son Yaz, Benim Tatlı Yalanım, Aşk 101 (idk if it’s necessarily underrated or if people aren’t watching it, but I don’t hear about it often)

15. A show everyone loves that you aren’t interested in: Def Kiralik Aşk, Hekimoğlu (idk if everyone loves it, but I always get requests to gif it lol) and idk how popular these are and idk how people feel about them on here, but based off ratings I’m gonna go with Kuruluş: Osman, Muzice Doktor, and Ramo. And lowkey Maraşlı (I’m giving it a chance, but honestly I’m not feelin it)

16. A show you want to recommend right now: Son Yaz, Benim Tatlı Yalanım, 50m2, Yarım Kalan Aşklar

17. The next show on your list: Çarpişma, Zemheri, Menajerimi Ara (still, I know), Kuzey Güney, and Teşkilat

I’ll tag @0ut-of-my-head @cofficionado @thescorpioracer @eltorora @osvaldrps and anyone else who wants to do it, feel free!! ​

[undermattsun-archive]

wip tag game <3

thank u sawa @koiibito for the taggy waggy but also why i have 54 drafts on the blr alone

my current main wip:

※ skate rat kita x miya!reader fic

other skate rat shit:

※ skate rat mattsun x childhood bestfriend reader fic (idk if this will ever see the light of day)

※ skate rats + texting

※ skate rats suna + kita/reader drab

※ hq lads as the skate rats of my dreams pt. 5

※ two (2) more skate rat starter packs

※ skate rat er squad hcs

※ skate rats + face tattoos

※ skate rat themed 2k follower event that’ll happen this upcoming weekend

shit from when i was a more wholesome blog and will never see the light of day:

※ exes play fear pong

※ you have an anime body pillow

※ karasuno vbc as fast food orders

※ semi stepping on reader (0wo)

tags (i’m soz i lit don’t know who has and hasn’t done this just ignore me if u have and if u wanna u can say i tagged<3): @natsuosfairy @b0ba-chan @hoekageyama @inkykeiji @watermelonsugawara @super-noya @nectarous

[homosociallyyours]

CW: discussion of family dynamics, neglectful parenting, parenting, stressed out kids. I'm on mobile so can't use a cut, but pls message if I need to add a tag!!

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Soz to get randomly heavy but I was just talking with my dad and he was telling me about dealing with one of my nephews and it's got me down. My sister, her husband, and most of their kids are diagnosed ADHD. They're all on a variety of meds for it. I think one of my nephews has some other stuff happening and idk if I'm just projecting bc I disagree with a lot of my sister's parenting choices (I don't tell her as I'm not a parent and she reacts very badly to any comments about her choices re: ANYTHING).

Anyway, he's 7 and sharing a room with his 2 older brothers after having his own room for several (~4) years. Over the past couple years he's gotten more reactive and frequently has screaming tantrums. My dad says he yells like this when someone even touches his shoulder, which feels like an obvious sign that something is Wrong.

Obviously the pandemic hasn't helped matters, and not long before it started my sister had a new baby, making him no longer the youngest. It's just so much for a young person to take on!

I feel like he's struggling and idk how to do anything about it, especially bc it seems like my family thinks it's just a matter of getting him different meds? Whenever I talk to my dad I try to suggest stuff that I think might help-- giving him one on one adult time and some sort of solo space, asking him questions about what he's upset about, giving him clear guidance about some of the new things he's expected to do as an older brother rather than just telling him to do xyz and getting upset when he doesn't follow through. But I don't think my dad gets it, and frankly there are 5 kids and 3 adults, most of whom are gone for a lot of hours each day while the kids are home. (My dad actually does the majority of the child care and it's really hard to see bc he's fucking exhausted by it and gets NO BREAK).

Anyway, is this stuff exacerbated by the kid's ADHD? Is there something else going on? And how tf an I supposed to do anything about it from across the country when I barely talk to my sister and know that she'll blow up at me if she even kinda thinks I'm criticizing her?

Feel free to reply with ideas ♡

[bow-wow-wark-wark]

Hiii happy 4th hypmic anniversary, I know it's been like 3 days since the actual anniversary but *shrugs* anyways I wanted to answer the questions from this post to celebrate!! (This is going to be a long post lol, this just brings a ramble instinct in me)

1. How and when did you get into HyplMic?

I got into hypmic during the end of September/ start of October of last year, it feels like a lot of time and very little at the same time lol... so many people in the fandom have liked this for super long!! I got into it bc of someone I followed on twitter, they would talk about it sometimes and I was getting a bit sick of the music I listened too so I thought "why not expand my music taste?" Little that I know It was going to become the only thing I listened too lol. I also saw this like "a hypmic characther once said" video and I thought it was soooo funny I just had to get into it. I'm honestly surprised hypmic started in 2017 bc I was going through a god awful musical phase and knowing I could have liked it earlier in life amuses me (tho back then I thought anime was silly so it wouldn'thave happened either).

2. First impressions of the characters? Who stuck out the most?

(Another long one soz) I'm going to do most of them btw.

Buster bros: ichiro was the 1st chara I knew before I got into it, for a bit I had him mixed up with jyushi tho lmao. Tbh I didnt have a very strong opinion on him, I wasn't super into BB at the start 😅 same with jiro, I liked him the most, thought he was really cute. At the start I disliked saburo a bit lol, like he was just soooo mean and I didn't like that, also I wasnt a huge fan of new star at the start so I didnt like him bc of that either.

MTC: I had to fight a lot to openly like mtc, I felt a bit bad liking them at the start bc they're all like criminals and stuff lol. I have to be honest I think that at the start I didnt think about them like at all... the strongest impression here was Rio, he was my favorite also I thought jyuto was hilarious bc of the start of bayside smoking blues, I really liked his voice too.

Fling posse: ok so the moment I saw Ramuda I was like "this guy is evil as balls isnt he?" I was pretty right lol, I thought he was a child like saburo at the start bc hes so small, man fooled me there. I liked dice the most at the start, my 1st fanart is of him lol. I didnt have very strong opinions on Gentaro, I was surprised to find out his VA also voiced yamaguchi since I was a haikyuu fan if anything.

Matenro: Lol matenro was my favorite (still is), idk what was it but I saw all of them and I was like: great :D I dont remeber specific impressions tho.... It was almost like love at first sight lol. I remeber I really liked the fact that both hifumi and doppo had tips, I thought it was super cool.

BAT: ok so I also knew who kuuko was before I got into hypmic my actual actual 1st fanart was of him (I did it before I even knew what hypmic was like at all). I really liked him, I remember listening to gyara bam and being like "this guy rules so much", I really liked jyushi, as mentioned before I had him mixed with ichiro (they look nothing a like I dont even know how) I was super shocked to find out he was also a teen lol I was pretty happy. Not gonna lie I had no idea who hitoya was at the start (rip) I knew kuuko I knew jyushi but I didnt know him, I dont remeber being very big on him till like the dramas and getting more into hypmic bc before nothing nada.

Dotsuhon: lol I slept on dotsuhon for the looongest time, I literally only liked sasara, rosho and rei were just really there for me. Sasara was my favorite bc I loved his voice and tragic transitor gace me unrivaled latino vibes so he felt very close to me in a sense. I thought rei was a scumbag the moment I laid eyes on him.

3. Who was the first character you liked?

My 1st favorites before I found out about bat and dotsuhon where jiro and hifumi!! I really liked their voices and like over all attitude and stuff.

4. Which was the first Division you liked?

My favorite was matenro, they were just so cute and I liked how they were pretty chill and just had fun most of the time. Like how they tried looking all edgy and intimidating but they were all nice guys lol.

5. How have your favorites changed?

Not much lol my favorite is still hifumi tho know I have jyushi and Otome if were ranking on like top 3. I love all the charas now tho!!! Lol these are just my bigger ones. Division wise now my favorite is mtc, followed by bat I'm still a matenro stan tho!! All divisions have done some big growing on me so I love all of them anyways.

6. What was the first song you listened to?

The 1st song I listened to was battle anthem, I was super convinced it was the 1st hypmic song so I was surprised to hear it was division rap battle lol.

7. What's your favorite solo song?

Ghhhh this is so hard to choose... I actually like basically every single hypmic song.... if we're talking only 1t set that's easier to choose. Um that would be sensenfukoku, drops and champagne gold, I like all the mtc ones so I cant choose. Second set every single one is amazing so I cant choose either, tho at the start I disliked most of them somehow...

8. What's your favorite group song?

Ok at 1st i thought it was like an all division song but I just read it and it's just group song in general.... I love all of them but one of my biggest comfort songs is papillion so I'll say papillion. If were talking all stars songs that's easier tho: in no particular order its hoodstar (just heard the + ver and it slapped), survival of the illest+, glory or dust and hang out.

9. Which songs do you think are slept on?

Mmmmm I personally have no idea which songs people like more in general but I have seen a bunch of "my favorite hypmic moments" videos so I'll base it on that. I'll personally say any mtc song lol, in those videos theres always a surprising lack of mtc so yeah.

10. Do your favorite songs come from your favorite Division?

Yes, tho it's really no problem bc I like all songs😅

11. Objectively, who do you think is the best rapper?

I had never heard a lot of rapping till hypmic so I have no idea what good rapping is lol... I personally thinks everyone does a good job, I guess someone else can school me on that.

12. Which composers for HypMic do you listen to?

None... I honestly dont like know who composes which song.... I know very little about music and I dont look into it so I cant answer this one either.

13. If you had to get someone into HypMic with one song what would it be?

Oh :0 well I'm not very sure but if anything I think the way to go would be an all stars song bc you can get the feel of each division pretty good, then if they like that introduce them to other stuff. Of course this all depends on the person lol... my brother really likes strong songs so to him battle anthem was a good hook up... I quite personally would go for survival of the illest bc it has a good feel of the divisions and it's very silly which is a series staple.

14. Do you play ARB? Drop your friend code for people reading!

Nooooo I dont 🤧😢 I really want to but I dont think I would have space on my phone, besides idk how to download it, if you have to pay for it I dont have money and if it's only in japanese I'm learning at snails speed so I wouldnt understand it *cries a little* I have seen certain events tho, I find it funny.

15. What events are you hoping to see? What character combos do you hope will show up together?

Mmmm idk I have a post about but I'll love to see a sasara jakurai interaction, I'm pretty sure one has already happened but I want this funny man to interact with jakurai more. Some people mentioned that they would like to see more interactions between kuuko and samatoki and I agree, wheres that side of the mad comic dialogue line up? I'll also like to see hitoya and samatoki bc they're both into vintage stuff ish, like fashion wise so I think it would be interesting to see. Last I want a jyushi/jiro interaction idk of there's any but there needs to be I need them to interact!!! Or maybe saburo jyushi that would also be interesting.

16. Are you into any ships?

Yes!!! I'm a little shy talking about ships not going to lie so I don't talk about it too much lol. I like samajyu a normal amount, I also like ichikuu, jiroshi, hifudo and hitojaku. I like a lot of other ships too tho, like ot3 mtc is good so is fling posse tho my favorite is ramugen. Hypmic has a bunch of cute ships so it's hard not to enjoy most.

17. Do you have a yume/self-ships? Platonic or romantic.

Not really lol, I have considered reading self insert before but I always feel a bit embarrassed. If you do you're super poggers tho.

Ok I'll keep answering in another post bc this is getting super long and the next question is one I want to say a lot about again. Umm if you happen to see this and want to answer them too fell free to!! You can tag me if you want as well, I love seeing others opinions about like hypmic and stuff so feel free too. If you want to comment on something I said you're free to do so as well

[nightmaresorpromises]

Tagged thingy

Thanks for the tag @midnightmoonxo :)

1. What do you prefer to be called? Everyone i know on da internet calls me Pickles bc of my discord name, so probably that XD

2. When’s your birthday? May 31!

3. Where do you live? US, New York

4. 3 things you’re doing right now? hmmm, making this post, thinking about ice cream sandwiches and thinking about an animu i’m watching :P

5. 4 fandoms that have piqued your interest: Uhhh i was never into fandoms as a smol bean really i don’t think.... maybe vampire diaries, twilight and like???? Hollywood Undead? idk my obsessions as a child were those things tho lol. (also i say child when in reality this was like, young teens LOL) 

6. How’s the pandemic been treating you? uhhhhh i’m stuck w family i hate being around bc they trigger my mental illness so not great lol. I made some friends and have a bf now tho so that’s p kewl. 

7. A song you can’t stop listening to: Lydia by Highly Suspect

8. Recommend a movie: Howl’s moving Castle or spirited away 

9. How old are you? 19 going on 20 in just over a month, I’m getting old man

10. School, university, employment? University :P 

11. Do you prefer to be hot or cold? uhhhh i used to say cold, but i’m cold rn and have been cold the last few days so i’m thinking hot haha. 

12. A fact that others might not know? Uhhhhhhhhhhh I play piano a lil bit 

13. Are you shy? *nods intensely* very much so... when teachers say hi to me or anyone makes eye contact w me i get bad anxiety lmao. Bad social anxiety in general.... I only was able to start ordering food for myself and stuff without having anxiety attacks like a year ago 

14. Pronouns: She/Her

15. Biggest pet peeve: I hate when people chew with their mouth open and you can here the loud gross ass chewing noises. I also hate when people do stupid things while driving (like cutting me off randomly and almost causing an accident, or like stopping to make a turn and then signaling as you turn. The signals useless now asshole, you’re supposed to do that before you stop to turn -__-) it’s all like little petty things honestly 

16. Rate your life from 1-10: like a 4? lol i don’t enjoy life much soz

17. What’s your main blog: dis one

18: List all your side blogs: @supersecretsins19 NSFW :P

19. Is there anything people should know about you before becoming friends with you?: uhm i can be really distant for awhile bc i’m super anxious and not very trusting with people. I also get distant when I’m getting bad bouts of depression or general like emotional instability and it probably makes me seem like i don’t care or something but it’s really me trying to deal w my emotions and not bother anyone. Im bad at being a human lol  if you guys wanna do dis go ahead :P even if I don’t tag you! @plonker @temerstars @hazyybabyy 

[yourlocaltrashpandaxoxo]

What a coincidence, I have ALSO just woken up to this 😂

Thanks @sukipershipper for the tag

1) Top Three Ships

Idk if I'm supposed to do just PO ships but fuck it, I'm breaking the rules. I'm doing Pokèmon ships >:3.

1. HardenShipping (Maxie x Archie). Beautiful, immaculate, stunning, ten outta ten... I just adore this ship to bits. Grumpy scientist nerd in love with a salty sea dog pirate? Yes please :D.

2. PerfectWorldShipping (Prof. Sycamore x Lysandre). If HardenShipping could've saved the world by not divorcing, these fuckers could've saved the world by GETTING a divorce. But hey, they're two French fuckers in love and I love them too.

3. TrueRivalShipping/RaiLeon (Leon x Raihan). I fucking adore the dynamic these two have with each other and I always squeal when I see them interacting. It works so well whether it's platonic or romantic. Plus, it says on Raihan's League Card that he could easily be champ in another region but stays in Galar to beat Leon... Need I say more?

2) First Ever Ship

Oh fucking JESUS... I was about 11/12 and was really into this one band (who have now disbanded ;_;) and I hardcore shipped one of the guitarists with the vocalist... I refuse to say which band and very happy to say I no longer ship irl people. 12 year old me was an idiot 🤦‍♂️

3) Last Song

Love the Way you Lie: Part II by Rihanna. One of my favourite songs to sing along to actually

4) Last Movie

I'll be honest rn, I don't actually watch movies very often. I have, however, been watching a lot of Corpse Bride clips because I love Tim Burton and that movie is one of my favourites.

5) Currently Reading

Not reading anything at the moment, mostly because the stuff I want to read I don't currently have in my book collection (really wanna get my hands on some old-school Goosebumps books)

6) Currently Watching

A LOT of Pokèmon, mainly the Diamond and Pearl and Sun and Moon anime. It's been nice :).

7) Currently Consuming

Nothing. I'm sat in bed filling this dumbass Tumblr post out smdh. (jk I'm having fun XD)

8) Currently Craving

Garlic bread. I desire it carnally and I need it every day. Also craving some Little Moons golden chocolate ice cream mochi. Soooo good 😭 😋

@theflamingraven @doodly-monk @nesssblog @soldierd0wn

Soz if you've already been tagged in this. Have fun!

I legit just woke up and imma do something that requires I use my brain yay: 9 people you wanna get to know better

Thanks for the tag @matchamabs lmao

1) Top three ships

Ya know ironically, despite the name, I don't do a lot of Canon x Canon ships. But I do have 3 for Punch Out specifically.

Carmen x Don: This one is pretty standard, like it's THE ship man, cmon. Bless pur dorky Spanish couple they deserve it

Hondo x Hugger: these two work both romantically and platonically and they're the absolute best. Like I love them so-

Bull x Soda: I think this was the ship that I was really really sold on. Like Gingerbread and Aradon? Cute but I was never sold on em, but these two fuckers? Hell to the yeah!

2) First ever ship

If it ain't obvious it was Sukiper. This was a combo ship between two characters from trolls cause yeah I was into it when I was younger, like 11 years old. DJ Suki and Cooper were my OTP, I loved em.

3) Last Song

Willow's Theme from Angry Birds Stella POP! Such a nice theme honestly, very tranquil. Also yeah I listen to Video Game OST's

4) Last Movie

Matilda, the 1996 one. It is my absolute fave adaption of a movie, and it just makes me feel so happy when I watch it. Used to watch it heaps as a Kid

5) Currently Reading

Eh, i don't read a lot. I guess it'd be the last thing I read which was Hound of the Baskervilles

6) Currently Watching

Chicago Series (Med, Fire, PD)

7) Currently Consuming

Nothing, had breakfast though, it was Milo and Buttered Toast 8) Currently Craving

Pork with Honey Soy Garlic sauce and Rice. Banger combo man

@yourlocaltrashpandaxoxo @ashtxeman @lazypastry @upperhug @lukasdoodle @anotherwvba @wvbaandtheboys @tikiss @sweetzdreamyzblog

Sorry if you;ve been tagged in this already lol

[tinycaprisun]

✨twenty questions✨

i was tagged by @freshlysqueezedmox !!! thanks summer i always get good and in my feelings when someone’s tags me in things 🧡

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1. what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

uh, liz is cool but really u can call me anything, like i’ll respond to bastard if u yell it loud enough

2. when is your birthday?

february 29th & yes i am not joking i was born on leap year and my day of birth only exists once every 4 years

3. where do you live?

in super mega ultra hell. is that meme already dead bc idk i like the verbiage of it lmao- no but for real i live in missouri, and there isn’t much to do other than stare at a giant hunk of curved metal and eat barbecue that the locals tell u is the best thing since sliced bread & maybe it is i just don’t like it myself ahaha

4. three (3) things you are doing right now?

aside from answering this? well listening to 9 to 5 by dolly parton bc yeehaw, petting my cat who’s curled up on my foot, and slowly waiting for the day to end

5. four (4) fandoms that have peaked your interest?

oh god there r too many to count but as of rn? probs wrestling, buzzfeed unsolved, rupaul’s drag race & just drag in general, and achievement hunter

6. how has the pandemic been treating you?

um... if you would like the honest answer, not great... i lost my job in august so i haven’t been employed for a few months now. my dad hasn’t been making the money he used to so i’ve started helping paying the bills w/ the funds i had saved for going back to college from when i did have that job. sort of become a recluse again, where i almost never leave the house outside of small trips to the store or the literal once in a blue moon going and social distantly see a friend. it’s basically the life i lived in early 2019 while i’m very lonely all the time while trying to solve the problems of my family as the same time? whatever who cares i’m moving on

7. a song you can’t stop listening to right now?

oddly enough, ‘positions’ by ariana grande! i don’t listen to her all that often but for some reason this song really stuck to me! i especially like the versions of it where it’s slowed down and had reverb!

8. recommend a movie?

this might be out of left field, but ‘motocrossed’! it’s one of those disney channel original movies that i grew up with and it’s still pretty good to this day! the movie’s about (and this is in the words of the legendary nakeyjakey) girls pretending to be boys so they can ride dirt bikes

9. how old are you?

20!

10. school, university, occupation, other? 

as i said before i am now unemployed. and before that i did try to go to university once but failed out of all my classes due to never going to them because i couldn’t force myself to get out of bed. i want to go back to school so fucking bad for secondary education physics as a practical career. but recently i’ve been teasing the idea of becoming a ring announcer because my voice was build to shout really loud, but who knows, u know?

11. do you prefer heat or cold?

cold 100% bc i cannot function in environments above 75° (fahrenheit). like it can be -7° outside and i’ll be pleased as punch but as soon as it gets up there in temp? i melt like a popsicle

12. name one fact others may not know about you.

i used to be a gymnast! did all the flipping and the balance beam stuff & maybe thinking abt doing it again. idk i just want to do a backflip and have cool muscles

13. are you shy?

it kinda depends? i can be the most loud and unabashed son of a bitch if i want to, but sometimes i do get into my own head and go silent and nervous.

14. preferred pronouns

she/her and they/them! and they r not “preferred”, they r my pronouns! :D

15. biggest pet peeve?

okay this isn’t as profound or interesting as summer’s was, but people who scrape their forks against their teeth! it is one the worst sounds known to man and it hurts my already messed up ears

16. what is your favorite “dere” type? 

tsundere? i think? sure, i’ll go with that

17. rate your life from 1-10, 1 being crappy, 10 being the best it could be. 

5, and this calvin and hobbes comic explains why

18. what is your main blog?

this. she’s been through a lot and i feel sorry for her honestly

19. list your side blogs and what they’re used for. 

i used to have separate blogs a LONG time ago for art and writing, but as it turns out i’m shit at both so they got deleted and this is all i have now

20. is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends? 

if we aren’t counting the fact that i’m an asshole, i would say that i have the worst tendency to delete messages i send after a while. basically my brain goes into panic mode if someone isn’t responding back thinking “ur annoying them, they don’t want to talk to u. u should delete what u sent because u should have never of said anything in the first place! only speak when spoken to!” u know, the usual.

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certified and honorary cowboys i’m tagging: @orangechuckiet @darbs @yellow----daisy @trent-heel-beretta and anyone else who would like to participate i realize this is over a day old, soz for bothering y’all

[deliverydefresas]

question tag thingy

gracias a mi @candy-loverockr por taggearme, te quiero brooo <3

1: What are you wearing? my mickey and minnie mouse pajamas and a fluffy robe bc im cold

2: Ever been in love? nel

3: Ever had a terrible breakup? nope

4: How tall are you? like 1.60-ish? 

5: How much do you weigh? last time i weighted me self 57kg but confinement probs elevated that 

6: Any tattoos do you want? not really? i always if i got one it’d be like, my mom’s birthday or something but i don’t really *want* one 

7: Any piercings that you want? nope

8: OTP? idk if i can choose one but at the moment zoenne take the cake 

9: Favorite show? i don’t think i have one?? like i used to say friends bc it never fails to make me laugh but i dont think it is?? and i can’t think of one ??? soz

10: Favorite band? uhhh little mix probably 

11: Something you miss? walking around the park at my uni with a coffee in my hand, searching for a free spot to sit and read a book 

12: Favorite song? rn i’ve been listening to ‘shake it out’ (glee version? nonstop

13: How old are you? 22

14: Zodiac sign? capricorn? 

15: Hair color? a reddish-brown

16: Favorite quote? jdnjkdn again, i don’t think i have one

17: Favorite singer? uuuuh probs louist

18: Favorite color? red

19: Loud music or soft? soft

20: Where do you go when you’re sad? nowhere?? or like to a memory in specific? bc then i go to many many places

21: How long does it take you to shower? around 20 mins?

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 30-60 mins

23: Ever been in a physical fight? nope 

24: Turn on? good humor, a nice smile, easy-going attitude. 

25: Turn off? pretentious, discriminating, mansplaining assholes

26: The reason I joined TUMBLR? the first time glee, the second time sl 

27: Fears? let time pass by even tho that’s exactly what i always end up doing lmao

28: Last thing that made you cry? the quaterback epidose of glee

29: Last time you cried? like a month ago? tho i tear up like, every day

30: Meaning behind your url? i just wanted a lutteo/soy luna related one and came up with this one lols 

31: Last book you read? i’ve been on a re-reading binge, so ‘the mistake’ by elle kennedy 

32: Last song you listened to? dog days are over 

33: Last show you watched? INUYACHAAA aka inuyasha

34: Last person you talked to? my youngest sister 

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted? my other younger sister 

36: Favorite food? mexican in general

37: Place you want to visit? i wanna do a mamma mia tour so paris-skopelos-island of Vis, but i’ve also really been wanting to go to belgium 

38: Last place you were? inside my house? my bedroom, in general, the supermarket ndjdn 

39: Do you have a crush? none that isn’t fictional

40: Last time you kissed someone? literal years ago, lmao

41: Last time you were insulted and what was it? probs one of my sisters calling me a pendeja <3 

42: What color underwear are you wearing? how is this a question jdnjsd but like, grey??? 

43: What color shirt are you wearing? greyish black

44: What color bottoms are you wearing? grey with many minnie’s and mickey’s

45: Wearing any bracelets? no

46: Last sport you played? probs volley like, five years ago

47: Last song you sang? the inuyasha theme song LMAO 

48: Last prank call you remember doing? never have 

49: Last time you hung out with anyone? outside my family?? like in january for my birthday

50: Favorite movie? i feel like everyone knows this already lmaooo (both mamma mia!’s)

i’m not sure who i should tag so feel free to ignore/tag yourself 

[fairefolked]

waddup my dudes i was tagged by florence pugh aka @crescendemon​ in this here ask game ty babie

1. If you could travel one place in the world where would you travel? this bitch wanna go back to south korea. i loved seoul so much it was so colourful and vibrant. alternatively i desperately wanna be in ireland or somewhere where it's cold and rainy

2. What do you do in your free time away from sims? um probs working lmfao. or eating. or sleeping. my life is an endless cycle of those four things atm

3. What other games do you play besides the sims? i love bioware games. i'm currently playing mass effect andromeda. i also rlly like the ori games and will recommend them endlessly to EVERYONE they're so wholesome and adorable.

4. How tall are you? 5 ft 4 bordering on 5 ft 5

5. One random interest of yours? i have a morbid interest in abandoned insame asylums. idk the morbidity and the possibility of the unknown is super fascinating to me

6. Current favorite bands or artists? uhhhh bts, dua lipa, novo amor, lissom, the sweeplings, syml and the members of one directions solos lmfao

7. Something you're looking forward to: my ipad and apple pencil arriving

8. Current favorite films? i love studio ghibli movies and harry potter. i also rlly enjoy the secret life of walter mitty, pride and prejudice (matthew mcfayden & keira knightly vers), memoirs of a geisha and lovely bones. i also love the new little women movie as well

9. Who is a historical icon who has left an impact on your life? my gr8 x 32 grandaddy for bein king of norway i guess lmfao wouldn't be here without him he was a real one

10. Favorite series (book or movie series)? harry potter lmfao. idk i've ready too many books to pick a fav.

i’m bad at tagging (thx anxiety) as always so soz no tags again today

[tommo-stylinson]

@bigsparrowharry tagged me to answer 10 mid depth questions 🥰 Thanks Eva!

1. what is your favorite word? I have no idea what my fave english words are... I think I like hearing different words coming from different people in different accent and their voices? we’ll go with that. but my favourite words to sign in sign language (ASL, SEE) are “for” and “cocksucker”.... so there’s a fun fact for you. 

2. what is your least favorite word? panties. I don’t even know why it just grates my nerves.

3. what turns you on? physically, like a good smile and brown eyes oh my god brown eyes. but like also a good laugh and when someone is really passionate about things that are important to both of us. also if you’re smart but not cocky about it i’m absolutely sold. 

4. turn offs? being pretentious about things, especially music. being rude to people, especially like waitstaff or retail workers like I will literally leave you there if you’’re gonna be a dick to the waiter. also if my brothers are instantly your favourite people it’s game over.   

5. what sound or noise do you love? louis tomlinson’s voice, like singing but especially speaking, bass (especially an upright bass), pages flipping in a quiet room (unless it’s an exam and I’m still on the first question), caps popping off things.

6. what sounds or noises do you hate? dentist tools- like the cavity machine thing? (idk I’ve never had a cavity filled but I can here it in the office) also the sound of them scraping the plaque off my teeth with the little metal hook? i have cried in the dentist office as an adult over that. 

7. what’s your favorite curse word? I use fuck all the time and it’s such a good, versatile word but I also really love the word cunt, even though I never really use it it’s just so harsh and like someone says it and you’re like... nice. 

8. what profession other than your own would you like to attempt? i really want to act. like film/tv not like stage acting

9. what profession would you not like to do? anything that doesn’t have a bit of an adrenaline rush to it... like i need some excitement going on. so probably something like accounting. also things that require a lot of focus and reading? I might cry

10. if heaven exists, what would you like to hear god say to you when you arrive at the pearly gates? I genuinely don’t have an answer for this one, soz! 

I’m going to tag @that-anxious-blonde and some mutuals who i’ve never talked to (please come say hi, I love talking to people!) @dontdropthatthunthunthun​ @thestarsarewinning @gayclownsarein @softmenace and also anyone else who wants to! 

No pressure to do this!