#idk maybe theres something there but im cynical

[ultimateloserboy]

every once in a while i think about that one interview where the creators of dhmis said that yellow guy was the only character capable of actually exploring the world. it makes me think a lot. especially about the big boys.

sometimes i think that maybe red guy and duck got stuck in the big boys rooms because of how bitter they are. in the creators own words, yellow guy is the only one in the group that is willing to actually look into things without being overly cynical about everything. red guy and duck slowly give in to the world, they slowly lose faith in being good people and see no reason to be good at all. they lose their hope for anything better. they eventually end up with a “this is as good as it gets” attitude. this is why i think there isnt a big version of yellow guy. because yellow guy NEVER thinks like that. with or without his batteries yellow guy doesnt think like the other two. they think too negatively to even consider a positive outcome, while yellow guy, as bonkers as he usually is, has a more reasonable look at things because he isnt miserably bitter

i know that the big boys recognize yellow guy when he walks in, i think the bigger boys even asked him where he had been or something like that. “we’ve been waiting for you” or something. i dont think this implies that yellow guy has a big counterpart, i think this is a callback to what yellow guy said earlier in the episode. he had a whole conversation about how the other two “arent in charge of him” despite what they may think. red guy and duck think that yellow guy will go along with anything they do. if they get bigger they expect yellow guy to as well. it might be because they view him as stupid, or it could be because they’re always stuck together so they assume he’ll be apart of everything they do, but either way they expect him to give up on the world like they do. but he doesnt. no matter what happens, yellow guy has the childhood wonder and curiosity that red guy and duck are too grouchy and old to have. thats why he finds the book, thats why he knows what he does and asks what he asks, not because of the batteries, but because hes kind. red guy and duck destroy themselves and each other. they think theyre sooo fucking smart but theyre literally doing nothing. just sitting around in rooms. but yellow guy has hope despite everything. i dont have faith that theres anything better in the dhmis world. honestly, im pretty sure in the same article i was mentioning earlier (although it could be a different one) its mentioned that the audience want yellow guy to be happy but he “NEVER will be”. and the transport episode really drives home (haha get it) the idea that theres really nothing better outside of the house. so even me as an audience member has lost faith, just like red guy and duck, but yellow guy hasnt and thats so sad to me. theres a part of me that wishes so bad that he’s right, that there really is something better, but as the creators said, there never will be

unless theyre fucking with us of course, which wouldnt be surprising

idk this shits confusing its all metaphorical and sad and all that gay shit

[ranmagender]

I'm usually not negative when it comes to movies, i find most movies I watch fun and if they entertain me, good enough. But while I can say that Deadpool & Wolverine is in some ways fun I also find them, kind of gross.

No Way Home worked because it was spider-man, people love the different versions of spider-man and it was fun seeing these actors interact and the story while hit and miss was at least about the spider-men.

This is gonna get into spoilers, so brace yourself. The cameos in this movie. Absolutely not necessary and frankly confused me as to what purpose they even served.

Like, Chris Evans as Johnny Storm. Definitely cool, but ive literally seen the way it was handled as a joke on reddit. Him being unceramoniously killed like right after appearing is frankly absurd.

In the context of the marvel multiverse that is the Johnny Storm from the Fantastic Four movies and like...yeah they weren't great but like. This is the fate that was becoming of him? a quick crowdpleaser followed by gruesome death?

It just makes it seem like the writers or kevin feige or whoever dont even really respect any of these characters, they are just there as something that becomes internet gossip later on.

The four other cameos, we already knew about X-23 but like, Electra...Blade...Gambit. I'm not being mean but like, you could replace them with virtually any other cameo and it wouldve had the same effect and same impact on the overall movie.

no way home if you changed toby's peter parker with like idk Lou Ferrigno's Hulk, it would fundamentally change the movie and the story

these cameos how they were presented and how they played out makes me feel like the entire premise of the void segment was just there for references and that cheesy cameo scene where they reveled them one by one as if to give the audience time to go Oooh.

also just like the quips from deadpool "hey hope you watched Loki" and its like, why should we need to follow everything religiously including the shows in order to understand whats going on, i feel like the shows should be supplemental not a requirement.

If you didn't see Loki, then the whole TVA and Sacred Timeline business and the void would be like ??? because they act like everyone has seen it which may be true for a lot of the viewers but certainly not all.

also using deadpool to say "yeah we know multiverse stories arent working,, we are lame" doesnt come off as sincere and like they are still doing them so like...it rings hollow

a a lot of deadpool and wolverine is just...hollow

which is a shame because hugh jackman is so good in this movie, frankly i'd say he's way too good for this movie. theres good parts but boy do you have to just grit your teeth to get to them.

idk, maybe im just increasingly cynical about disney in general

[pinkanonwrites]

ohmigod does streamer au mean that Knives is like. Vash's twin that visits his apartment to ensure Vash is okay (as a disabled person myself who lives alone, i get weekly visits from my mom and brother lmao) and comes in with groceries, leaves with trash, comes over to drive Vash to his doctor appointments, and tells Vash to get a real job??

does the chat see Knives as like. a cryptid. and the chat spams with acknowledgement as Knives moves about in the background and Vash goes "Chat says hi! ...Knives?! Did you hear mE?! CHAT SAYS HI!!" and he shouts back "I heard you both times, but I'm not acknowledging your no-life-having enablers!" or some shit

Knives feels like he has a trenchcoat and briefcase and has some high-up position like, idk, i feel like hed be an enviromental lawyer but also a corporate lawyer yet he also feels like he could be a radio/podcast celebrity with Bad Takes (i might just be describing Andrew Tate or somebody whoops) and a reputation for being shitty to his fans. like i could Knives being either objective scum with a cult following. or being like a eco-friendly protestor who put a politician's house on fire but hasnt been caught bc he wore one of those face-masks that distorts pictures and made sure not to leave any finger-prints. maybe he's something in-between, like he supports PETA, i dunno. or maybe he and Vash are actually estranged

im really curious how you would characterize Knives in this au, theres definitely a lot to go with considering the vast differences in his 1998, 2023, and manga variations (im partial to 2023 myself, but manga is a close second and 1998 is in the dust for me personally) since his genocide nonsense doesn't have a 1-for-1 translation in a modern world. the only act of Knives that i can think of that would track is 2023!Knives blaming himself for Vash's amputation (as opposed to other variations, if i remember right, where Knives did it to punish Vash, i liked that they went with a "Knives did it bc he loves Vash and didnt see another way to save his brother" direction instead) bc maybe the amputation happened in an accident that Knives blames himself for Vash being a victim in. but yeah, so many variations

also Rem. but Rem is a bit easier because there's always the "Well, Rem is still dead" option mixed with "She was our foster mom" (oh, maybe Knives works in the Social Services) whereas Knives, again, has all these variations

(anyways, i have a Part 2 to this that's not related to me asking questions about your streamer au, but rather me just saying a hc i have for Vash+Knives Modern AU that is very biased to my own personal history and therefore is irrelevant to your streamer au, so do hold up briefly, i do wanna ramble about that bc rambling about Trigun Modern AUs is fun)

I think I can tell you guys some about the ideas I had in mind without spoiling too much!

So I've bounced it around a bit in my head, and I think I've come up with something that works for this AU in particular. Rem was in fact their foster mom, she adopted them both as babies. While Nai was a pretty normal kid growing up, a bit cynical and intelligent for his age but nothing concerning, Vash was the type of kid who got sick really often. Like, immunodeficient, multiple hospitalizations sick. I was thinking something like CVID, which makes it so you're way more susceptible to getting respiratory and lung infections. He was a happy kid, but in and out of the hospital a lot.

In late middle school he had a really bad reaction, and while rushing him to the hospital Rem got in a car accident that cost her her life and Vash his left arm. Vash feels like he's the whole reason the accident even happened in the first place, while Nai blames himself for Vash being even worse off because maybe if he'd just been able to keep calm Rem wouldn't have been so distracted. There's also a fair bit of survivor's guilt in him, being the only one who got out of the wreck generally unscathed.

So he's kind of taken himself up as his brother's keeper, balancing his own post-graduate work life with checking in on Vash, bringing him to appointments, and just generally making sure he doesn't do anything stupid. He's a conservation biology major and a huge ecology nut, who often says (in a deadpan tone that Vash thinks is a joke) that the planet would probably be better off if all the humans on itwere wiped out.

Nai has complicated feelings about Vash's streamer lifestyle. On one hand he's not as deeply, deeply depressed as he was in early high school, most days it being a chore for Nai to even get him to eat or drink. On the other hand, he thinks that a job like this isn't stable enough for Vash, that he could be doing more with his fantastic intelligence, and that Vash cares way too much about what random strangers on the internet think about him. It's the sparking point for many arguments, because as much as they love and care about each other, they just don't see the world from each other's viewpoints.

(He'd also never say it, but Nai is actually very grateful that Vash has Nicholas as a roommate. As much as he despises the guy, at least there's someone around to make sure Vash is eating real food and actually going outside when Nai isn't there to check on him.)

[mamapilled]

mother nonsenses 1.0

was part of the manifesto. (but not anymore?) though these are just random ideas in my notebook that i havent yet found a way to fully write sth decent with. though the evidences are all there. here just for archive, none of these really mean anything. except the last bullet point? but it also doesnt mean anything

- [this was one of my replies when heilhades333 and i was talking abt my ageswap luther and her matriarch nature. then somehow it snowballed into ranfren chi no wadachi?] i think as far as where the series is currently at, randal's still far too young for luther to consider anything about him having a family of his own or even a partner. at this life stage he is still under luther's care, and therefore, a part of luther's family. i see luther as the highest queen of her own beehive, so she wouldnt want randal to eventually have his own family (though, as the "ivory heir", maybe that day will come. if they can grow old that is). luther's way of building a family is more of collecting "family members" - what she'd like to call them, rather than building branches. i dont think she would mind if randal gets a partner as long as they'd submit to become a part of her family (like how she got sebastian as a pet for randal) maybe only when said partner wanted to pull randal away we'd have a problem (satoru. though its mostly bc she wanted to go camping with her family and also blueberry pancakes)

^ i kNOW the mother here is referring to the mother/earthbound franchise. but this is my domain and i can say whatever i want

- [purely delusional. hello hitchther nation?] in my beautiful mind theres this specific what-if situation luther is the queen bee, the hitchhikers are the drones, randal is the queen-to-bee (haha get it) while the catmen and like, nana carpet seb and the rest are worker bees. the drones' only purposes is to mate with the queen (only the fittest ones get this honor) and they'll die in the act but they're happy doing so ^^; this is just me fumbling the hitch hikers’ role theres nothing more to this really, lol

- [i’m still marinating this thing with nou but its going to be mother manifesto 2.0 when i finally know how to verbalize it. wonder when that is... the following paragraphs are choppy and rough bc theyre mostly texts i sent to nou at 12am] AGAIN IM NOT A NATIVE ENGLISH SPEAKER PLEASE EXCUSE ALL THE... IDK VERBS FORMS ERRORS I DONT KNOW! WHAT THEY ARE!!!!!!!!!

i know luther is the emperor tarot card (totally agree. shes also the empress TO ME. because im me of course) but then nou told me about her being the sun while randal is the moon and. huh. that kinda caught me off guard because the sun is supposed to represent. well? good omen and all the nicest things in the world. huh. everytime i think too much abt this i’d get super emotional (im getting emotional Right Now. thats why i dont think i can fully articulate this 2.0 manifesto any time soon) bc yknow. according to a normal regular person’s standard, luther is far from “good”, but also cap did write that luther “believes hes a nice person but is working on it” (not the exact quote but you get it)

something about her trying to be a good person though she probably would never be one but still in her cynical little mind hes being sweet and loving and Good. and not doing whatever she "in the past" has done. bunch of references to "the past" are mostly if not all abt how horrible and terrible and scary she was and how she keeps saying shes not like that anymore though we arent sure how much of it is true bc shes fucked in the head to oblivion. its the thoughts that count i guess?

these are probably all related to luther giving birth to randal (in my head) since ARHGHGH idk!!!!!! i'd imagine this was her before having him (or at least, when she just had him for a few? years? decades?) and then until she had to raise randal and realized he needs to grow into a decent person and started that fucked up roleplay spiral game of her she goes out less and less and trying to be a perfectly normal loving human and a caretaker of this made up family and stopped doing whatever the fuck she was doing when she was still a young maiden terrorizing canada’s deepest forest suburban hell

since randal is like. THE ivory heir to me too he'll take over one day its like now shes just being a mom and making sure hes ready to be it. one day (that day might never come once again she loves making shits up in her head saying stuff no one can fucking understand. cynical woman) and also making sure everything around him is ready for his growth and also being a good role model for him. yadda yadda. not to mention randal keeps talking abt how shes not like before / this body isnt what it used to before as if they both know shes fucking aging (old) and having randal is what she wanted in life like how parents after having children just want to devote their entire life to give their children the best upbringing bc their time is ending soon its time for the next generation. THIS IS ALSO PURELY DELUSIONAL SORRY

whatever im rereading camping arc again (i do this every night) what can i say i love female hysteria and getting the horrors abt luther von ivory slowly descending into insanity

[thecubes]

Fav Randall and Hopkirk headcanons GO

HELOO randall and hopkirk anons my beloved. polite kiss for you on the cheek. ive talked abt r&h hcs a bunch on and off so i Apologize if im repeating myself hahahgdks

cut bc its so long LOL

ive deffo talked abt this 1 before but 1 of my big hcs is that marty doesnt drink alcohol! my reasoning varies slightly depending on my mood lol but mainly just bc he doesnt like the culture and hates feeling out of control. he can be coaxed into a single drink tho if hes just hanging out with jeff. my back up for this is in the ghost talks when alive marty asks for a tomato juice (as opposed to the expected scotch) and the man he is with looks at him like he grew two heads. then also just *gestures vaguely at all of when the spirit moves you* this hc also leads into my crackship of calvin p bream x marty lolllll

um i dont thinkkk? ive mentioned this 1 before but my 2nd other hc is that jeff was raised by his grandparents (or smtimes just grandma depends on my mood lol). theres no canonical basis to this other than to me he seems super old fashioned (obvs the whole show is to us but even for Then he just seems......old to me idk). i think that he got his short temper and cynical side from her :")

bonus hc leading on from the last , i also think that both jeff and marty are disconnected from their families in some way. jeff bc his family are never mentioned at all, and martys family seem to... not be involved in his life? the gathering at his funeral was very small, and his auntie turned up almost a year since his funeral (i...think, the r&h timeline is inconsistent) found out from jeannie (who took a while to even recall the aunt) that he died, then preceeded to barely give a crap ??!! if anything it was a mild incovenience to her. not sure that would be my reaction to finding out an otherwise healthy young nephew died in a freak road accident but hey.

i think that jeff marty and jeannie are extremely close knit in an almost found family sort of way (and i know this is in part due to itc focusing more on individual episode stories than overarching plot/backstory) but in terms of canon i choose to believe their families each had something against them living their lives the way they want to. maybe jeffs folks didnt like him not settling down with somebody, jeannies for marrying somebody so soon (we dont know this but thats the best reason i can come up with lol), and martys because he spent almost all of his time with jeff (a bad influence). i just get this feeling that they have been rejected by others and depend on each other a lot! or i am just projecting hehe

anywayyy hope u enjoyed bye i love u mwah

[gayspock]

ok on

ok this isnt a suicidal rant for once. yes it is not it isnt. idk. part of what gets me very upset sometimes is like... i know im not a smart person or whatever. and similarly i know im not very capable of, like, much. but i think thats just all the more reason why i get so fucked off when the like 1 or 2 times im like pretty fucking confident in my own assessment of a situation or my own abilities, and Yet Even Then someone swoops in and tries to act like a patronising git abt it. cuz i dont mind criticism + invite it happily. and similarly i do not blame ppl if there is genuine cause for doubt in me. like if ive historically shown a pattern of incompetence in a specific situation, then sure. and half the time its like idgaf even if NONE of that applies because whatever at this point but

ohhhhh mygdodddd tifds i think its just a case of like whenever someone is like. not even listening. like not even acknowledging you or the things you fucking say to them and going off on their own half fucking cooked interpretation. i feel so fucking invisible sometimes. and maybe thats it thats the problem like even if i fucking account for everything in my head and try to like give it the benefit of the doubt because i know im dogshit at expressing my own thought process directly in absolute fairness and thats fine and i know im not right a lot and this and that and the other but like maybe its just a fucking situation of like . hmmmm deemed kind of unimportant and that inherent bias is always going to like fuck me in the ass like

and this is soo a different thing actually but like its made a tenfold worse when its someone who tries to keep kissing your ass and is like "noo youre soo good at this thing<3 But also! I will never fucking demonstrate any trust in you. I will also talk over you on everything." and i think intelligence is obviously something extremely broad in that sense and kind of a horseshit metric but nonetheless i cannot fucking describe the number of ppl who have tried to butter me up by baselessly calling me some variation of intelligent whilst simultaneously disregarding every fucking thing i say to them cuz they know better. and again theres a difference between that and disagreeing right. or criticism. idgaf if someone disagrees sure as hell. but its like you will not even fucking have a conversation with me properly and you will dismiss every thing i say to instead fit in your own stock responses cuz youre already convinced im stupid and wrong every timeeee. and instead you are the one that consistently fucking assumes the worst of me as a person, with 0 grace. like okay sure you keep telling me this One Thing, when you like repeatedly demonstrate that you do not think that at all and ironically its even more like insulting that you think im that fucking stupid i cannot even assess That Situation.

and maybe im like the crazy cynical and paranoid bitch but half the time its like i feel like people just want to stroke their own god damn ego and im naught but the charity case for that fucking aim like its like you dgaf for real for real but its also like why can people just not fucking be honest and direct with their fucking horseshit and with themselves and with me and quit the fucking . .... blargh im fucking sick of everything all the fucking time is anyone insane right now. walks abck and forth walks back and forth im pacing im the paccerrrrrrrrrrrr i cannot fucking handle fucking anything like this i feel so fucking little as a fucking person and i dont know why im even trying to fucking handle or care about any of it when its insurmountable all of the fucking time and im not getting anything but angry and upset ALLL OF THE TIMEEEE GOD HELP ME CHRISTTTT

[notahorseindisguise]

watching fantasy high finally btw. im gonna say something mean but she's never gonna see this so its ok. if you do see this emily im so very sorry 😭 but my least favourite character so far is fig i think. not cause her characters bad just cause emily kind of keeps interrupting brennans flow to do bits. and dont get me wrong, theres nothing wrong with doing bits . but like. also let him finish speaking. idk it just seems like shes hogging the attention a little bit so far?? maybe im just cynical and mean

[fictionalquacker]

Sometimes I still think about the decision to translate the title "men who hate women" to "the girl with the dragon tatoo" for a story about mens violence against women

[constellaj]

16

Please talk more about your reboot!

16: If you could change anything in the show, what would you change?

okay so how i would re-do CANON is completely different from how i would talk abt a reboot so im gonna touch on a couple things in both contexts! the reason for the difference is canon rewrites imply i can go back in time and introduce dp fresh and new, before anyone knows what it is; but for a reboot, id be working with an audience that has a better understanding of the source material, so i dont need to spend as much time explaining, but i also need to keep everything recognizable

Valerie

REWRITE: i would def make it more danny's fault that her dad lost his job, like danny was intentionally being reckless and shattered some security stuff, and he has a whole mini lesson about learning to not just run in guns blazing. i would probably remove the dating stuff with her and danny (and tuckers crush) too, I think them wanting to be good friends is good enough for freshman year

REBOOT: the fandom already knows valerie exists, so i would actually skip the whole shades-of-gray introductory episode and have her be present as the huntress from day 1-- probably even before danny got his powers. cujo is also HER dog, and her backstory-- we'd find out in like, season 1, that a natural ghost portal (maybe one wulf opened) ripped open on her dog and killed him, and since then shes had a vendetta against ghosts cause of how reckless they are and their disregard for life-- of course, cujo isnt actually dead. cujo is a halfa. a puby halfa. anyway instead of a hoverboard she actually rides cujo around cause he can fly and its big and epic. valerie has BEEN amity parks ghost-eradicating superhero for at least a year (tho shes been in the shadows abt it) and her hatred towards danny actually just becomes really petty, like them flying next to each other chasing skulker just going "I got this. no I got this. no I got this" and they just get in each others' way and its a mutual grudge.

BOTH: i am NOT keeping in vlad giving her the suit to watch danny under any circumstances. it was only utilized half assedly in canon (when vlad couldve just had an invisible duplicate watching him instead) anyway, and I dont have any reason to keep it in a reboot either. instead i want her tech to be a combination of half-stolen and half-gerryrigged stuff and she slowly slowly learns how to build her own.

I also dont want anyone knowing her secret identity, except maybe her dad, and sam or tucker. i think it works better if danny isnt privy to this magic info

Freakshow

REWRITE: i would honestly just remove him. the episodes hes in arent particularly interesting, theyre just generic "we need a plot about x" filler and he's not compelling enough a character (at least in writing) to carry a better plot that another antagonist couldnt. i'm serious

REBOOT: unfortunately in a reboot he's gonna have to pop up somewhere or else ppl will be like "where IS HE" so I'm going to stick with running some kind of ghost circus, maybe a few occult things, but cut out a lot of the spooky magical knowledge and mcguffin stuff. maybe i could make him like, someone from vlad/jack/maddies college who always felt pushed around by them and so he has a vendetta? and theyd be the only reason he even learned abt ghosts in the first place. idk in either way I want to force him into being irredeemable but also include LYDIA (the tattoo girl ghost) way more-- I want to give her an arc that ends in her tossing freakshow aside and running off to be a ghost vigilante.

BOTH: dear god the infinity gauntlet is stupid that needs to GO AWAY. especially for the reboot cause it would exist in a post-mcu world and way too many people would complain about it

Vlad

REWRITE: amp him up to a far more sinister and villainous character. the crushing on maddie isnt enough, I want to show him on-screen performing experiments on ghosts and himself, dismissing everyone else cause he thinks hes smarter than them. i want him to be actively sabotaging the fentons at every turn. i would also clarify that he doesnt actually want danny as a son, but as a trophy-- a line where danny says something along the lines of "you don't want a son. you want a slave". i want to make him a character who wants to destroy the entire planet and put it in the ghost zone so he can be the true ghost king and i want to make this all evident from day one. if i'm writing a series villain you can bet i'm going to write a GOOD one. less petty drama here and more actual stakes.

REBOOT: it seems silly but sense with reboot we have the benefit of hindsight and recognizing that vlad wasn't a big series villain, theres no way i'd actually go back and write him to be such. for starters, of course, theres the fact that anything he does would really be an exaggerated part of the original, and it would bore an audience to see the same story again-- theres also the fact that it doesnt seem right to take a character who was treated as a joke half the time and suddenly make them big and important. no, instead for my reboot i want to lean into the petty gay uncle vibe. he had a crush on jack and now just casually insults him. he moves mansions every now and again by just haunting the family who lives in the one he wants, and taking over-- i mean, who is gonna believe that an actual ghost haunted you. he dislikes danny not because he has some concept of 'evil' and 'good' but bc danny is just too damn active. of course he actually does care about danny and his safety deep down, it's just on the surface they have very conflicting motivations-- not to mention that danny has been raised on legends from his parents of the villainous Wisconsin Ghost, who has to be stopped at all costs.

BOTH: i want jack and maddie to KNOW he's a half ghost and to actively be hunting him down for it, maybe bc they think hes possessed, or been a ghost tricking them this whole time, or the victim of a tragic lab accident who needs to be put to rest, etc. whatever the case it will give vlad actual tangible reason to despise them and genuinely suspect they dont have dannys best interests at heart. i think it would be neat if vlad was cynical and every time danny hit him with the "I'll expose us both. at least theyll still love ME" vlad could be like in the back of his head "oh god theyre going to kill this child"

Dani

REWRITE: cut her out. we don't need her character at all. maybe replace her with a more ominous shadow duplicate / clone that actually looks like danny himself and doesnt really have a name? you could probably combine her and dark dans characters for their arcs

REBOOT: instead of a clone from vlad, she's a guys in white creation using some of dannys dna after he was captured (and vlad broke him out bc he was like "ugh i guess i have to save this child")

BOTH: vlad actually cares abt her (duh), shes nonbinary (double duh), she gets the funny dissolve into goo powers

i had more i thought i was gonna write but this post is already very long and also im running out of coherency for this LUL

[calder]

Is Emil solely to blame or all of the writers (and Todd)

my new insane person theory about this almost entirely opaque studio is as follows idk how to directly appraise emil as a creative honestly except for cynical, lazy, not clever, and kinda consistently fun. he tried and he missed three times. my most academic vibe check is that he probably writes a bunch of lines that are not in the final games and i dont know what to think past that thought

meanwhile in hell there is someone writing terminals and npcs on fo4 and 76 who made like seven or ten entire My Little Pony Refrances and i think he did a lot of the weird empty shit. i would have fired him over the mlp quotes had i the power to do so. fuck whoever im vaguing. i hate you so much

i used to think todd was well-intentioned bc the oblivion beta is so ambitious and simmy but he made fallout 76 which i would appraise as cursed, indecent, criminal, and most damningly, definitely a game todd howard would make. hes ultimately a pr guy who has been trying to turn my favorite ips into online microtransaction shops at any and all cost. oh wow cool it worked yaaaay fuck this guy too

im too exhausted to do the write-up but im pretty sure theres maybe one or two fallout fans on my level who are in that building doing something but it isnt calling shots. or i maybe really like it when emil fucks around. idk its a pretty opaque studio

[shhh-no-ones-home]

girls on film* joe elliott x reader

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Can I get an oop in the chat?

also this picture is the main reason i wrote this so theres your fun fact of the day lol (also its kind of edited? idk, if theres mistakes im sorry)

* - Is it because I hate myself? Yeah maybe lol, either way its smutty and super long

Song: tempt my trouble by bishop briggs

Edit cause I forgot:

Tag list: @cynic-spirit

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I sat next to Joe on the couch, his arm draped over my shoulders, as we watched the movie play out. It was some new video he had rented that we meant to see in theaters a while back but he was on tour still. It wasn't a bad film perse, just not my style, and very forward to say the least. The amount of almost sex scenes was ridiculous. The least they could do is actually get it on and get it over with. I couldn't believe he actually seemed to be enjoying himself. I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms over my chest.

"How long is this movie?"

I said half annoyed, causing him to look down at me.

"What, you don't like it?"

I half shrugged.

"It's okay, I just don't understand why they keep doing that."

I exclaimed, pointing to the couple aggressively pawing at each other. He laughed a little bit.

"What's wrong with two people in love?"

He laughed lightly and I sent him a look.

"Those two are not in love, this is worse than every other movie out right now, at least those show some action. This is just bullshit."

He cocked an eyebrow at me as I pouted.

"Would making our own help?"

He asked, amused, sending me a wicked smile. Oh he could be so bold.

"I'm not filming us together if that's what you mean."

He laughed and kissed my temple.

"No darling, not what I meant."

I looked up at him, brow raised.

"Oh?"

He smirked at me before leaning down and kissing me deeply. when i pulled back he had hopeful eyes.

"oh."

i said a little stunned, he raised a brow.

"so what do you say?"

i smiled at him.

"well someone in this room had better be getting lucky tonight and it doesnt look like its gonna be them two."

i said pointing to the tv and making him laugh a bit.

"Sounds like a plan to me."

He said, quickly pushing to me again and kissing me passionately, leaning me back a bit. I hummed into his mouth and held his head in place as he began making out with me. Next thing I knew he was swinging my legs into his lap and laying me down on the couch. I pulled away and giggled a bit.

"What?"

He asked confused, sliding his hand slowly up to my waist. I shook my head.

"It's nothing just keep going."

He shrugged and did as told, continuing to kiss me as his hands roamed my body. I ran my hand slowly up his arm, moaning into him as his hand found it's way between my legs. My arms found their way around his neck and I held him to me. I felt him shift a bit to get more comfortable. Before I knew what was happening we were both on the floor in front of the couch a little stunned. I laughed at him and moved to straddle his waist.

"How did we manage that?"

I said through laughs as he just stared up at the ceiling with a straight face.

"I have no idea."

He said finally looking at me and cracking a smile. I shrugged.

"Now we have more room to have fun."

I winked at him and he sent me a knowing look. He sat up quickly and hugged me around my waist, moving to kiss along my neck.

"You're perfect."

He whispered into my neck as I slowly ran my fingers through his hair.

"How badly do you want it?"

I said a little breathy, feeling his hand glide up under my shirt to undo my bra.

"I want you so bad."

He said back, beginning to suck and bite as he moved his head around my neck, jaw, and collar bone.

"Good."

I said, grinding my hips down onto him. He growled in my ear before completely ripping my tank top off from behind me. I gasped and grabbed my undone bra before it fell, sending him a disapproving look as he laughed at me.

"I really liked that shirt."

I pouted, watching him toss it behind him to the floor.

"It was mine."

He said matter of factly, pulling my hands away from my breasts. I sent him a Stern look as he draped his arms around my waist again, waiting for me to finish scolding him so we could continue.

"It was still my favorite, why do you think I steal it all the time?"

He smiled and shook his head at me.

"Guess you'll just have to take another one."

I smirked at him, slowly running my hands up his arms again.

"Like this one?"

I said tugging at it. He raised a brow.

"Maybe?"

I ran my hands down his chest and torso before grabbing it and pulling it up and off of him, tossing it onto the coffee table.

"I'll wear it later."

I said moving back to kiss him passionately. He held me to him before falling backwards so I was now fully on top of him. I hummed into his mouth as he groped my ass roughly, pushing me down onto him. He moaned as I moved my hips, letting his lips go. I watched his eyes flutter closed as I sat back up again, moving backwards to undo his pants. He was already hard and seeing his lust covered features made me more excited.

"Babe."

I said looking up at him. He sighed.

"Yeah?"

I laughed.

"A little help?"

He looked up at me before sending me a bashful smile.

"Right."

He rested back on his elbows and pushed his hips up, letting me slide his bottoms down around his thighs. I made a quick squeak sound in my throat at his now exposed lower half. He smirked at me.

"You getting undone over there or do I have to do this myself?"

He laughed at my dazed expression before I realized what he meant.

"Yeah."

I said, standing up. He sat up and looked up at me with dark eyes, helping me remove my shorts. I looked down at him as he ran his hands gently up my thighs, looking between each one before kissing the left one.

"Wow."

He said lowly, looking up at me and helping me back down onto my knees around him.

"You're not so bad yourself."

I said laughing a little. It's not like we haven't been through this over and over before or anything.

"Yeah but I'll never get tired of seeing you naked."

He said, admiring me. I blushed deeply at his words and kissed him gently.

"Joey you really are something else."

He smiled at me and hugged me to him, kissing my cheek.

"One of a kind baby."

I looked deep into his eyes as I slowly ran my hand down his torso. When I reached his shaft I kissed him deeply, him moaning into my mouth as I began stroking him. I pulled away long enough to look down at what I was doing and when I looked back up he had his eyes closed and his head tilted back.

"God, please just ride me."

He said lowly, making me giggle again. I kissed his Adams apple quickly and let go of him.

"Gladly baby."

He looked back at me with half closed eyes as I moved closer to him. I looked down and lined him up with my entrance before sinking down onto him. We both sighed out at the feeling. His hands began roaming my body again as I started to move up and down on him.

"You're perfect."

He breathed out. I just kept moving on him, arms around his shoulders to steady me.

"You said that already."

I smiled at him as he looked at me intently.

"And I'll keep saying it as long as it's still true."

He said before kissing my sternum. I closed my eyes as he began kissing along my chest, taking my nipple into his mouth. I moaned as he flicked his tongue over it, sliding his hand down between my legs to circle my clit too.

"Oh god."

I breathed out, feeling him smirk against my exposed skin. He let go of me and looked up.

"Baby?"

I nodded, not looking at him.

"Yeah?"

"Switch?"

I looked down at him a little surprised.

"Yeah?"

I asked back, brow raised. He normally didn't like being on top. I lifted off of him and watched him intently.

"Lay down."

He said, finally taking his pants the rest of the way off. I did as told, adjusting myself so my feet were flat on the ground and my knees where in the air. He crawled up between my legs before burying himself there, making me moan as he entered me again. He smirked down at me as he began pushing into me quickly. We both breathed heavily as he pounded into me.

"Fuck."

He said through gritted teeth, his hair falling into his face and swinging back and forth as he moved. I pushed my hips up into him as he moved and almost screamed. He hit something in me that just sent me.

"Do that again."

I said quickly. He looked down between us and did as told. I moaned loudly, digging my head back into the carpet.

"Baby I'm close."

He breathed out as he continued moving in and out of me, holding my hip tightly in his hand.

"Just a little more."

I said, squeezing his shoulders. He thrusted one last time before pausing and moaning loudly as he released in me.  He reached down and circled my clit a few times finally sending me over the edge too. I let out a high pitched breathy sound as I came around him, my legs shaking against him. He pushed into me one last time before pulling all the way out and rolling onto the ground beside me, pushing the coffee table out of the way with his body. I just stared at the ceiling until I heard him laugh, making me look over at him.

"What?"

I asked a little breathless. He shook his head.

"It's nothing babe."

I raised a brow before shrugging and sitting up with a groan. He rubbed my back haphazardly.

"So, nap or snack?"

I laughed and looked back at him, shaking my head.

"How about both."

He cracked a wide smile and sat up too, kissing my temple.

"I like the way you think."

[manate-a]

idk man i love metaing about keiko she really is a favourite, theres so much depth i could add and i do! but in my head bcuz im lazy and cant write but she............... just. she’s fun. she’s fun and she’s fucking awful and so tragic, it’s like real tragedy with no good ending bc there CAN’T be a good ending for her, she won’t ALLOW herself to have a good ending and no outside force could ever change that because she’s come to terms with what she does and who she is and that awareness is more horrifying than anyone numb / unaware or closed off from what they’re doing.

she won’t change, she won’t improve and if she does it’ll be for a set person, a set time, until she gets her kicks. she lives in perpetuity and as painful as it is, she is, i like that she’s so content??? with not getting that ending. she lost that sense to her years ago, if you met her when she was 19, 20, she was so much different ( kinder, shyer, full of warm day dreams and cold nightmares, but she was coping nonetheless ) and that’s the path or the branch i’ve always thought about because. that’s when it changes for her, that’s when she has the opportunity to be different, to still be her but the ‘original’ her that wasn’t damaged over time and turned into a cynical, homicidal, entity fueled on selfish desires and hatred for herself & things she couldn’t predict nor change. she took what happened to her and weaponized it until she skewed every part of her that was virtuous. she doesn’t want to help people anymore, and kindness makes her ill which is smth you’ll notice if she gets close to someone who IS like that, she’ll never hang around their presence for long and they’ll either end up a corpse or with her missing from their life.

she couldn’t ever be around charlie for instance, she’d want to rip that pretty blonde head from her shoulder’s --- she wouldn’t power aside (the same would go if charlie was human for examp) because maybe a part of her feels guilty, a warped kind of empathy for her knowing how fucked up the world is (prolly sees her old self in charlie too), and she’d just leave. she’d fuck around and toy with charlie’s ideas and ambitions until it was no longer funny, no longer amusing, and she’d disappear before she did something damaging. she knows well enough that there are people who need kindness in their life, she missed out her chance for that but it doesn’t mean there aren’t any others who deserve to go down the path she went, so she leaves virtuous people and mentally wishes luck. those people will always portrude a sense of sorrow that’s so overwhelming for her she numbs it with what she knows best.

[validgoth]

i like fall out boy but i do not have the energy to care about whatever mysterious shit theyre doing im so over bands doing this it’s not creative anymore

[sasukebarmitzvah]

naruto absolutely could be a jock BUT. hes not like that archetypal meathead hes that kid whos like on the team because hes good at the sport but everybody else fucking hates him because hes annoying and always making weird jokes and he knows what everyone thinks of him and it hurts but it's better to be around people than be lonely because he had enough of that growing up. im deciding he plays soccer because thats fun. he always wears an orange sweatband when he plays. he has his same funny dumb asshole personality as he does in canon so he vibes with sasuke the resident hot goth of the grade who acts cooler than everyone else he only has three friends because he thinks everyone else is annoying. well taka are annoying too but yeah he becomes friends with naruto because they're like in math class together or smth idk they sit next to each other and check answers together and naruto invites sasuke to his games and gets really excited when he sees him in the stands and sasuke acts like he hates school and has no spirit but suigetsu and karin make fun of him and call bs because they know he always goes to the soccer games to cheer karins cousin on. sasuke likes to write and he does art and naruto sometimes goes to the art room with him during lunch to watch him paint and naruto makes him little pictures which are kinda bad but cute and sasuke secretly loves it. narutos only real friend aside from sasuke is sakura and she plays a sport too idk what but shes like one of those kids whos really good at school and her sport and its like unfair but shes a lil bitchy and standoffish and theres a rumor she used to beat people up in middle school so a lot of people are kinda scared of her but yeah shes narutos best friend and they like to roast people together and everyone thinks theyre dating and naruto and sakura are both haha awkward about that because theyre both gay but they havent told the other because theyre both too nervous. or maybe naruto doesnt even realize that he likes boys and like he clearly has a crush on sasuke but doesnt realize and he just acts like an idiot about it like oh here sasuke i drew you :) sasuke you look so good in all black :) i love your pierced ears sasuke i didnt know guys could do that :) and sasuke is like he is so annoying i cant believe i have a crush on him. so theyre like high school losers very good friends but neither one confesses because sasuke thinks naruto is straight and naruto doesnt even realize he has a crush on sasuke but then at like their senior prom they go as a group naruto sakura sasuke and taka because none of them got dates anyway the slow dance starts and theyre sitting alone at their dinner table like everyone else got up and the sappy song makes something click in narutos head and he holds his hand out to sasuke and they slow dance in the corner of the big room where no one sees and after the slow song ends they go outside and like sit somewhere quiet and awkwardly confess and talk about their feelings and hold hands narutos like i know a lot of people dont like me but i stopped caring once i met you and sasukes like yeah i used to be pretty cynical and like hated everything in that very teenage way but i couldnt hate you no matter how hard i tried and they call each other assholes and kis. the end

[vulture-jack]

rambles about like. idk. bullying? shitting on people for liking things more than is deemed “acceptable”? below the cut

Shitting on people for enjoying things “too much” is like. A waste of time and kinda shitty ngl. 

This is not talking about people who defend awful shit and people that they like btw. 

But like. 

I have spent my ENTIRE life, as far back as I can remember, over two decades, obsessed with something. I have jumped from obsession to obsession since I was old enough to register reality. And I often carry those loves and obsessions with me. I’ve ALWAYS loved nature and animals so thats a life long, umbrella obsession that started early with animal planet, david attenborough vhs tapes, and movies like Free Willy, which sparked my YEARS long obsession with the ocean and a desire to be a marine biologist that I held onto into high school (from the time I was like. 4).  Then it was horses, and I learned to ride, and I made many friends, and I learned a lot. I don’t do it anymore but I miss it dearly. Its still a part of my heart. Then it was a few cartoons, there were a handful but the major obsessions that jump out are first Danny Phantom and then I full dove into anime with Naruto.  Around the middle of high school I got very into the videogame Okami and Jhorror. 

Many of yall met me in the period starting in my senior year that lasted nearly a decade and is still continuing where HTTYD was my favorite thing in the universe.  Vultures became my favorite animal at some point in community college.  Right now I’m like WAY into bugs, and for a while there it was paleontology. Its not that I ever like. FORGET about these things and stop loving them, either. Usually I keep them with me in some capacity, some more important to me over the years than others. (Httyd is the first thing since horses and marine bio that Ive kept so close to my heart for so long which is wild to me because most things that I love THAT DEARLY aren’t fiction) 

I literally DO NOT know what its like to not have something like that in my life. I dont know what I’d think about. It drives me to create. It consumes me and entertains me and gives me something to think about and plan for. 

But I got made fun of for shit like that pretty bad as a kid. Like sure I was wild and a bit annoying and weird but like. Idk man. That judgement never left me. I’m terrified of the moment anyone comments on something I love. My family has a way of talking about it that makes me feel like everything I love is another stupid phase. Im terrified of being judged again, being made fun of again. Even when I know I shouldn’t care, its taken root deep inside me.

I play down how much I love shit for as long as I can. I feel embarrassment talking about the things that I love.

Because people made fun of me. ADULTS made fun of me. When I was a KID. Maybe there was no stopping other kids making fun of me, but I think it was the adults that really fucked me up. 

idk man just. 

Its taking me a really long time to stop hating myself, stop hating who I was as a child for liking things too much, not feeling self conscious when I finding something I love a lot. Not feeling embarrassed when people come into my room and see posters of the things that mean a lot to me. 

Not feeling childish for loving something “too much”.  

Loving things makes my life better. Why would I want to love things less?  What is appropriate for me to enjoy and how much is appropriate and WHY? 

Life is fucking hard. Life has been hell for me at times and I’m p sure loving things as much as I do has gotten me through it because Its given me something about this world to hold on to.  I can’t be too cynical when theres so many things that I love so fucking much.  

I know there are unhealthy ways to love things. I know Ive used things I love as an unhealthy coping mechanism. But even so, without them there in the first place, I may have fallen into despair.  I don’t know if I could have survived what I went through, what I’m GOING through, without the things that I love to throw myself into. 

idk just some thoughts.

Like. 

Be nice to people. Really THINK like. WHY do i feel the need to shit on this person, will it make them better, will it make the world better, or is this just me reacting to social norms for what is an acceptable amount to love something. 

I hate feeling the way I feel about myself. I don’t want any more kids to feel this way. I want them to love what they love without fear of being judged. I want them to be passionate without shame. 

[banchoaniki]

Multiples of 4 then ☠

4: Talk show host: Imma be real w you I havent watched a talk show since attack of the show on g4 and that got cancelled years ago 8: Yankee candle scent: Fresh Balsam Fir. Smells like christmas and being cozy. Pine scents in general are god tier 12: Thing to cook: Anything that puts a smile on the face of those who eat it. Or Steak, Mashed Potatoes and Asparagus. Its easy, nutritious, and delicious. (That’d make a good dating profile header) 16: Book: Hard question. I’d have to go with Colorless Tsukuru and His Years of Pilgrimage by Haruki Murakami. 20: Holiday: Thanksgiving! I was born on it, so I have to like it. Other than that, toss up between Halloween and Christmas. 24: Movie: Uhhhhhhh, for live action, its a toss up between A Clockwork Orange and Apocalypse Now. For animated, Mind Game 28: Band: I dont follow a ton of bands, so Death Grips I guess. Its not like I dont listen to other music, but its mostly individual songs as opposed to deep diving into their discography 32: Athlete: I dont follow sports dude. Maybe like Usain Bolt cause he also has a pet tortoise like me.  36: Vehicle: Triump Bonneville T-100 40: Last person I got mad at: Uhh my former friend who’s girlfriend left him for being a piece of shit basically 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: I’m not missing anyone a whole ton rn. Wish we could meet tho jaz! 48: Ever been in love: Of course, its great and terrible 52: My room is: Fairly messy rn but I’ll clean up soon.  56: Favorite web site: Certainly not tumblr dot com. Idk dude probably like youtube cause I spend a lot of time watching videos or listening to podcasts.  60: I lose all respect for people who: Treat their partners like crap 64: My friends are: Great people! Things have been getting better for a lot of people in my circle of friends recently, and they really deserve it! 68: The worst sound in the world: Nails on chalkboard.  72: Today: Pretty ok day. Need to get a few things under control and still need to work out a bit, but studied hard and met up w a classmate to work on a project together! 76: Right now I am talking to: No one in particular, but ive been talking to friends throughout the day 80: The first person i talked to today was: Probably my dad when he woke me up 84: People call me: a lot of things im sure. Depends on who you ask.  88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: Connection to where I live. My family’s owned my house for almost 100 years now, living elsewhere lacks that certain je ne sais quoi 92: Got a peircing: Never! maybe in the future tho... 96: Changed a diaper: also never! didn’t have any siblings or a close connected family growing up so I never had to. When I’m a dad, I’m sure I will though 100: Cried in front of someone: Oh jeez, not really sure. Maybe a few months ago, but I can’t recall what for 104: The future: Its filled with infinite possibilities, I just have to work for a future I want. I’m not too worried about stability, but you never know. Always try to have contingency plans for your contingency plans.  108: Designer Clothes: Generally overpriced trash. I’d rather buy from a local artisan that makes clothes specifically for me. Not like I don’t shop for clothes or like looking good, but theres a lot of issues in the fashion industry that I take umbrage with and like to look for alternatives.  112: Facebook: Boomerbook is convenient website that I use on occasion but I find to be fairly toxic, like most social media, so i rarely post on it. I just use the messenger app to talk with friends. 116: Reality TV: Utter trash! There are a billion other ways to spend your time that are more productive and beneficial to yourself and others that getting caught up in some fake drama with celebrities.  120: Gay Marriage: I don’t believe any kind of marriage should be regulated by the government, as its a religious sacrament. If churches want to allow it, that’s their prerogative that I won’t infringe on, but that’s in an ideal world. As it stands, I don’t have any strong feels for or against it, insofar that I think most marriages are fairly toxic.  124: Disney or Six Flags: Didney Worl 128: Manicure or Pedicure: I’ll take both, thanks 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Whomst’d’ve?  136: Hillary or Obama: Both are genuinely terrible people like most, if not all, government officials in Washington.  140: Mac or PC: I built my own PC but iPads do be kinda fresh tho I can see why people who don’t have the same hobbies or interests prefer macs, their visual design blows most PCs out of the water, and they’re functional for work and video editing. They’re obviously overpriced for the performance, but you’re buying it for the label and the well designed UI (generally, theres obviously some UI designs that are/were less than great by apple) 144: Oranges or Apples: While I like oranges, I FUCKING LOVE apples. So yeah, apples, particularly Fuji apples.  148: Summer or winter: Winter. I live in Los Angeles. Our winters are mild and maybe drizzley. Our summers are hellish. Easy choice. 152: Phone or Online: Uh I mean I like talking on the phone but texting or instant messaging is super convenient and, really, a very different form of communication that I engage in more.  156: Orbs: Do i believe in orbs? What kind of orbs? idk dude this is very nondescript and im too lazy to research this. Orbs as a geometric object do exist yes. Jury is still out on whatever the fuck this is asking tho 160: Soul mates: A distinct possibility that I’d love to be true 164: Heaven: I’m catholic, pretty sure I have to believe in it.  168: Luck: Yeah, I believe in it, but I also believe we make our own luck most times. 172: Are you taller than your mom? yeah shes like 5′2  176: Last YouTube video watched: Sure hope you like smooth japanese jazz fusion  https://youtu.be/6GEI3PpXEAo 180: Marriage is: A great responsibility I hope to be ready for one day. It can be incredible and life-affirming or it can be soul crushing if you rush into things or just have a bad partner. I don’t mean to be cynical, I genuinely believe its a beautiful thing, but so many marriages today end up horribly, so I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t afraid of it at the same time.  184: Xbox or ps3: Whichever game console can give me a better user experience with better games and services. Right now that’s playstation, but I sincerely hope microsoft steps up to the plate next gen.  188: My bed is: A queen. Kinda messy rn.  192: I am allergic to: Nothing in particular 196: My eye color is: Green! I’m actually pretty proud of them, its the rarest eye color in the world, so its part of what makes me who I am.  200: My crush’s name is:  Jaz (no homo)  But also I’m not single so I don’t necessarily have any rn

PS: I sincerely apologize for this wall of text y’all