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hofftrans · 8 months ago

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Trying to talk to my therapist about my anger issues and romanticisation of violence without also pinging off the official "have you thought about hurting yourself or anyone else" radar is like playing a game of 4D chess except if I lose I will be immediately seen as Dangerous (I am not actually going to hurt anyone or myself I just worry about how much I understand the desire to solve things with violence)

#anger issues #violence mention tw #idk man i hope this doesnt sound unhinged #had to physically fight a lot as a kid to protect myself and others and also just #have like a deeply ingrained rage in me that ive inherited from my father and its like. i need to remind myself that while #punching up is important i do really need to reflect on if i just like punching and want to teel justified #had a loved one die due to a horrible man and the violence and anger i feel are so overwhelming #i hope this doesnt make me bad idk man its an isolating subject that i feel i have essentially no one to talk to about #without the possibility of scaring them or pushing them away or making them think im dangerous #rant post #my bestfriend and roommate is an absolute pacifist and its just really hard to explain to hear how much violence horrifies her #when it is almost comforting to me at times #idk gang sorry if this concerning to read please be patient and empathetic w me

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