#idk ive just been thinking of their old friends returning yk

[smolcrow465]

bored on my break that means it's summer dreams info dump time babey. today's interest lies in reincarnation <3

So we know that digis don't die. Their data returns to whatever-the-hell & they turn back into eggs. In this au, that specifically means they return to primary village where they'll be looked after by elecmon (who put this 12 year old in charge of fathering the entire digital world 😭).

Something I've always wanted to expand on though was memory. From the small amount of seen reincarnations in the animes, they typically don't remember their past lives but tbh that makes me sad & what's the point of aus if not to make you happy yk. So here's the thing with this one

When digis are reborn, they obv hatch as fresh forms. From there it's in-training, then they get to be rookies. These are the only 3 stages that matter rn. Now it varies by individual, but typically the range of remembering the most to least goes by fresh > rookie > in-training.

Fresh forms are literal babies. The more traumatic the death of their past life, the fussier the fresh typically is. This is because they remember everything about their past lives & their tiny little baby minds can't handle it. Typical deaths by accident or battle make for normally fussy babs. The rare peaceful deaths make for peaceful babs. Makes sense right? Idk I'm having fun with this. These little dudes have too much emotion for their itty bitty little baby forms to deal with, but luckily that's really the only thing they have to deal with.

When the fresh is able to go up a level, in-trainings are now at complete peace lmao. They don't remember anything of their past lives. It's like a hard reset lmao. They're too busy looking at bright colors & wondering how to use limbs to worry about anything else.

When they go up another level, however, that's when things can get interesting again. Rookies have the ability to begin remembering again. This is when the Traumatic Death Scale™ comes back. Deaths that were peaceful to not-very-traumatic leave a low chance of remembering anything. From there, the more traumatic the death, the higher the chance of remembering things becomes. Very Traumatic Deaths goes down a little though, with an effective 50/50 chance of remembering Everything or Nothing At All. Often these monster middle schoolers will be reminded of familiar sights or events by things they see or do. Worse case scenario, they have to deal with phantom pains. This stays constant now with however many times they're able to evolve from there.

I had a point with this? I don't remember. may add onto this later or smth 💀

[ambrosialdesire]

Dont worry for rantingg ambro, i get that.

Idk if u want my opinion on ur friends but ive been in ur shoes but most of my friends are in relationships and they still talk to me and even for small stuff like with tiktoks and stuff. They never like leave me hanging with their partners and if they do i know which ones. Trust me Ive been there with the your always single but it is different because its more in an uplifting way because my friends fall hard like horrifically hard over people. Im sorry your friends aren’t treating you very good right now. Especially with the aroace thing because thats a little shitty ngl… especially if they know that u struggle with it. But then again i dont know ur dynamics soo :3

ARCANE IS SOO FUCKING GOOD. I could never play influenced to play League it looks not appealing to me personally.

-🌷

that's good you have amazing friends like that, i think it's just my own perception of the whole thing with that particular group of friends or that i miss what the group was before all the dating but idk i've been hopeful it'll return back to what it was even with the dating, but all those mfs are still in honeymoon phases or something 😒 /hj

NO IT IS SHITTY I WON'T LIE, i'm so sick of hearing "you'll join us soon" or "you just need to be more confident" or "you need to put yourself out there" LIKE NO BRUH, I'M TRYING TO FOCUS ON MY STUDYING GRIND AND THE MEN SHOULD BE COMING TO ME ANYWAYS 😒😒 /hj nah but i'm really tired of hearing shit like that and i know sometimes it's jokes, but can any of the conversations be anything but about dating or relationships, like can we talk about stupid silly shit like before ☹️ ik their partners are important to them to maintain contact with and keep up, but what about our friendship too? it's frustrating AND I CAN'T BE EVEN BE ON A CALL WITH ONE OF THEM WHEN WE GAME EVERY FEW MONTHS OR SO WITHOUT HAVING THE PARTNER BE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE PHONE, LIKE CMON YOU CAN'T STAND EVEN JUST A FEW HOURS OF NOT BEING ON THE PHONE WITH THEM??? and i can really tell when they don't want to keep hanging out with me even when we plan out how long we'll play, so either i cut the hangout short or they do sometimes.

my friends are great, they're very near and dear to me and i will always want what's best for them, but very much recently, i've been feeling real bitter about being left behind; it's kinda making me feel incomplete in a way, something i haven't felt in a while prior to my aromantic identification and i don't wanna like rush to find someone cause i don't want to regret my first relationship and i don't want to hurt that person's feelings once i realize that i rushed a relationship yk? BLAH i hate it LMAO

anyways arcane has such a nice art style ngl, riot fucking EATS with the animation cause the valorant animations are one of my favorites since i used to play that before my laptop's storage couldn't keep up with the updates, ESP when they involve omen. my mains were killjoy (MY ABSOLUTE GOAT), viper, omen, kay/o, fade, skye, and sage. i sucked at the duelists cause i never was good at doing the main confrontations, i enjoyed doing all the background support stuff instead hehe AND i actually tried out league before cause of an old friend, but i never was into the whole gameplay cause i could barely see the character and the whole thing was insanely confusing even with tutorials, so i quit after a day LMAO

ty but i'd rather stick to my open world games, otome games, and fps games with blinding ults and skills 😋

[urmomification]

WOOO POG DREAM SMP AU

theres 1.8k words and 9,393 characters of a schlatt au below the cut LMAO

[i was rambling to my friend and this is what came out of it! send me an abt it if u have questions i would love to talk abt it more pls]

(slight body horror/gore tw!!)

slams fists on table rattling any dishes on the table au where schlatt doesnt die of a heartattack and tubbo locks him up to rot basically and his horns grow into his eyes effectively blinding him and chained his hands together and basically a leash on him to keep him from moving around in his cell so he cant do anything to break the horns off before they get too long and one day when technos breaking into lmanberg he gets chased into the prison and loses them in the halls before coming across schlatts cell and schlatts calling out like 'whos there i can hear ur foot steps whos there please someone whos there' etc yk and technos speechless they thought they executed him to keep him from causing any more problems in the country but this is this is just much worse than anything he even thought theyd do and hes standing in front of schlatts cell just looking at him as if hes imagining it he knew lmanberg was bad but holy fuck they just let this man rot in a cell to the point of his own horns blinding him and giving him no aid or way to ease the pain so he makes himself known and schlatt 'ive never been so happy to see, well, hear an anarchist in my life, its good to see- hear you technoblade' and chuckles and blood runs down his face like tears would, few drops landing on his clothes before techno starts trying to get into the cell to take him out of there he cant leave him here sure he was an anarchist terrorist w a murder record but he had standards and now that schlatt wasnt in power he had nothing against him really considering he isnt a citizen of lmanberg so he manages to pick the locks enough to get him out of there, schlatts arm slung over technos shoulder they stumble out of the prison building and as they slowly make their way to the nether portal to get back to technos base, they run into tubbo and quackity, schlatts old right hand men and they try to stop techno bc hes well an anarchist terrorist w a murder record but the glare techno gives them levels them and theyre left staring at each other for a moment when schlatt 'whyre we stopped whos there tech' and techno mumbles 'tubbo and quackity schlatt' and schlatt just furrows his brows as far as he can without sending excruciating pain into his eye sockets before he purses his lips and asks 'are they going to try and stop us?' techno looks back at the other two 'no they wont, isnt that right boys?' tubbo and quackity slink away allowing techno and schlatt to the portal and them going thru, schlatt still silent as he tries not to trip over technos cape or off the ledge of the bridge passing over the lava lakes, they make it to the portal and begin the walk across the arctic tundra to technos house, philza isnt there right now so its just the two of them and techno leads him up the ladder to his room (its not really a room i think its just a bed, a bell and an enchantment table) and sits him down on his bed mumbling something abt being right back and he is with some medical supplies and a change of clothes to clean everything up, they dont talk techno works in silence and when schlatt winces he mumbles a small apology before continuing eventually techno got schlatt as cleaned up as you can get someone w horns in their eyes and a sweater to keep him warm and finally starts asking questions 'how long had u been in there' 'lost count' 'did they bring you food' 'a chests worth at the beginning of the month' techno sighs 'i thought they executed you' 'tubbo chickened out despite me being 'an active threat to our peace in lmanberg' and locked me up a few days after u set the withers loose and dropped off a chest of food once a month and most of them refused to talk to me others couldnt even make eye contact with me, other than the few instances where they said things like 'heres ur food' or 'u deserve this' or 'i cant believe tubbo let u live' i talked to no one other than myself for however long i was in there' techno stands and walks around for a moment before flipping some pages and schlatt can hear him gasp quietly in mild surprise 'what is it tech' looking in the direction he heard techno from and techno says, turning to face schlatt on his bed 'schlatt that was almost 3 months ago' a single beat of silence rings for what feels like forever 'oh. i, i didnt think itd been that long. though it would explain my current predicament' loosely gesturing towards his face 'oh right abt that i have a few questions if ur ready to answer some' schlatt hums and techno grabs a pen and paper and sits next to him in case he needs to take any notes for future reference 'how fast do ur horns normally grow' 'idk just a steady amount my whole life pretty much' 'will they ever stop growing' 'they generally stop growing around 30 and continue to grow more in width than length' 'did anyone who brought u food notice' 'they grow quickly and by the time the person w the third chest came around they were getting close to my eyes but they didnt listen to me, no one did' he sighs looking down at would be his hands 'the odds of both of my horns growing into my eyes and blinding me like this are so low but of course it would happen to me' a chuckle void of any amusement 'because losing my country and my people and my power wasnt enough already' techno stands up 'you had that coming' schlatt actually laughs this time, short and curt 'ok fair, u were the one that took me down afterall' and from then on schlatt lives w techno and phil and eventually tommy and then without tommy (tommy was Not happy when he found out that schlatt was living with techno but he needed somewhere to stay too and techno happens to live in an arctic tundra where only a handful of people know how to get to so he didnt complain too much) and eventually techno saws off schlatts horns at the bend adn removes them from his eyes bc if they kept growing into his head theyd hit his brain and kill him on top of blinding  him and techno gags and almost throws up despite not being sensitive to gore  and gives schlatt a bandanna to cover the holes in his head for everyones sake and once they heal somewhat he can find something else out and thats how they live, schlatt helps with what he can like farming w phil but mostly spends his time learning braille or something so he can read and techno gets him books in braille so he isnt bored or alone like he was in the prison and he feeds him and takes care of him and schlatt is funny and entertaining despite being blinded by something from his own body and the torture it was like to rot in a cell alone for almost a 1/4 of a year and nights when techno gets home late and hes shaken and the voices are bad schlatt will sit behind him and play with his hair and talk abt his own day and rub technos back and in return when schlatt relapses and gets violent and angry techno will wash his hair and read him stories until he calms down and hopefully asleep and no one told him the news that wilbur died so when ghostbur shows up and starts talking to him he treats him the same as he would wilbur bc he cant see that hes a ghost all thats different is his speech pattern and overall personality and one day he says 'ur different wilbur what happened to that, i dunno spark u used to have' and wilbur simply 'im not sure if im being honest a lot abt me has changed since i died, or so im told i dont remember much from when i was alive' and schlatt just 0_0 and then hes scrambling down the ladder and stumbling around the house looking for techno, finding him in the basement working on something and when he gets there hes out of breath and his hands are shaking bc holy shit wilburs not only dead but a ghost and he was just talking to me and he doesnt remember what i did and and and and techno is shocked to see schlatt in the basement and asks whats up and schlatt just 'wilbur died wilbur fucking died tech why didnt anyone tell him and now hes a ghost hes a fucking ghost who lives in ur house and doesnt remember anything he doesnt remember that he blew up lmanberg does he he remembers my name but not anything that i did what hes a fucking ghost techno hes a ghost holy fuck' and technos just standing there like ??? no one no one told him 'yea philza had to kill him after he blew up lmanberg i thought u knew thats why i didnt say anything' oh. 'phil, phil had to kill him?' 'yea its a touchy subject, dont bring it up' and simply goes back to what he was working on so schlatt sits on the ground by the ladder and listens to him work his brain going a mile a minute trying to comprehend whats going on 'would i have become a ghost if theyd chosen to execute me?' 'its hard to say im unsure if theres specific circumstances that contribuite to someone becoming a ghost but theres really no telling' and goes back to working yet again and from then on they fall into an easy schedule of techno going out and doing whatever an anarchist terrorist w a murder record does on ur average wednesday and schlatt stays home reading and organizing whatever he can based on size and feeling and sleeping in windowsills and schlatt greeting techno comes home beaten up and full of new resources and a side of bruises and cuts so he tends to them, getting better at maneuvering and functioning without needing to see then techno making dinner and then curling up by the fire for the night enjoying each others company as they talk abt their days :]

[chqnified]

Also favorite color and girl group. Please include reasons, I like reading

Favourite colour of mine is black, because I'm emo. Also black goes with everything outfit wise? My second favourite colour us blue, like a deep blue, i feel as though i feel a lot through that colour if that licks sense. Sadness and comfort, it makes me feel calmer too. Deep neon blue lights in the dark are *chef kiss*

My favourite girl group is Iz*one (I do love blackpink, itzy and IVE too though <3). I feel like the group had so much chemistry, it didn't feel fake either. They were incredibly funny together and there wasn't a member i disliked, every single one of them could make me laugh or smile. Iz*one best girls <33 i was heartbroken when they disbanded, however i truly do hope they are happy doing the activities they're now doing, for the ones that have re-debuted, they seem really happy, especially my baby yena🥺. I really hope that like rumours say, Chaewon and Sakura will debut together in a new gg, I've missed chaewon. To add on top of everything they were all incredibly talented, Yena's rapping I'm obsessed, Nako and Hitomi's vocals were beyond amazing and all their synchronisation with the dance- like weren't they the most in sync group to date? Saw that somewhere I'm pretty sure. The fandom (Wi*zone) felt extremely close, like man we were fighting for them to stay together, that the contract wouldn't end- it was a sentimental moment. Yeah idk, i just love this group so much. The fact they still see one another (pretty frequently too), shows that there was something genuine there.

Blackpink, my second all time favourite girl group. They give me so much nostalgia, they were the first kpop group i ever stanned, the reason i ultimately ended up finding skz and iz*one- so I'm grateful for that. There's not a song of theirs I'd say is bad, i do wish they had more comebacks ngl. I think they are incredibly talented too, lisa's dancing is top tier, Rosé's live vocals and guitar playing makes me feel soft and happy. Their blackpink house videos, although some of it felt artificial? Still made me love them more, i still feel like they all have a really good friendship. There's something about them, i can't describe, they just feel like an old home? If that makes sense? A place you used to love going to and you return there occasionally and just feel the feels yk?

Itzy were the second girl group i stanned, was honestly stunned by Yeji, her stage presence is quite something else. Then i fell for Ryujin the minute i saw her, so that was pretty much it. Itzy in my opinion, has the best stage presence out of all girl groups I've seen. Chaeryeong's personality, she has me crying sometimes man, one of the most genuine idols out there? And also one of the most lovely idols out there. She feels like a friend. I don't understand how anyone hates on her. Yuna, savage, i love her sense of humour. Lia, she's so precious. Back to ryujin, unapologetic, if she thinks a girl is cute or hot she will outright say it- throw back to when she said she only went for jyp audition because she thought the manager woman was cute so she let her have her phone number 😭 i feel like they are very close, and you can actually see that. Their MAMA 2021 performance was just wow.

IVE, the most recent group I've stanned, containing two ex Iz*one members, Yujin and Wonyoung. I obviously love those two, however the other members have made the group special too. At the moment my bias is Rei, her rapping is amazing, I genuinely hope Starship Entertainment will include her lyrics in future songs- her rap flow just seems so good??? Liz, when i think of her, i see her smiling, she's like the living version of seretonin, she makes me smile. Their debut song and B side? Were really good too. They haven't been together long, but I hope that they continue to have the same lovely vibe about them. I really hope they can stay authentic, especially Rei and Liz, they both give me the most genuine vibes and yeah i love them.

That was some real randomness kind of bunched up into sentences- anyhow. I could literally talk about my favourite groups for hours on end, honestly. Also i know i have repeatedly said they seem genuinely close, however, there are many many groups that look like they are just acquaintances or just there yk?