#idk its almost 2 am and im somehow not tired a t all. i rlly wanna pass out lol

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Ok wait it's be upset for a minute time listen I HATE drawing in shows or game's styles. Like u know ppl will do the "draw this character in ur style and a million other popular styles" it's a fun thing and it's interesting to see everyone's sorta different look for the same thing and that's great!

But whenever I want to copy a style because an oc or s/I was created to put in the media of choice, I get bummed out. Bc I'm fat. Because I have fat characters.

And it's like the only reference I'll ever get for a fat character is : old small person. Or just absolutely humongous pretty much comedic relief person. And I am neither of those things. Apparently to my mother andy sibling's father im not even fat; because I don't look the same as what people think of when they hear a fat person. I'm not even close to it.

It'd be nice to just for once see some good media that protrays all kinds of fat people and not just , like, person who's body is a huge circle. There's not one type of fat. And it's harder for me to want to mimic the style as if a character was really in the story cuz there's only so many references I could use and none of them fit the character I've made. And idk why I just thought of this but it actually bummed me out so bad rn. Do not mind me.