#idk its almost 2 am and im somehow not tired a t all. i rlly wanna pass out lol
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Ok wait it's be upset for a minute time listen I HATE drawing in shows or game's styles. Like u know ppl will do the "draw this character in ur style and a million other popular styles" it's a fun thing and it's interesting to see everyone's sorta different look for the same thing and that's great!
But whenever I want to copy a style because an oc or s/I was created to put in the media of choice, I get bummed out. Bc I'm fat. Because I have fat characters.
And it's like the only reference I'll ever get for a fat character is : old small person. Or just absolutely humongous pretty much comedic relief person. And I am neither of those things. Apparently to my mother andy sibling's father im not even fat; because I don't look the same as what people think of when they hear a fat person. I'm not even close to it.
It'd be nice to just for once see some good media that protrays all kinds of fat people and not just , like, person who's body is a huge circle. There's not one type of fat. And it's harder for me to want to mimic the style as if a character was really in the story cuz there's only so many references I could use and none of them fit the character I've made. And idk why I just thought of this but it actually bummed me out so bad rn. Do not mind me.
#yes im never going to get over the fact they told me to my face im not fat and then He proceeded to be an asshole towards me#saying this tbh makes me sound like im a skinny person or something. im not though sorry to admit#it just sucks alot . like it's already hard for me to accept that im not a hashtag skinny legend and to stop drawing myself the way i do#it would be nice if for once I'd see more than the basic fat rep ive seen#idk its almost 2 am and im somehow not tired a t all. i rlly wanna pass out lol#uhm i do not expect anyone to but if you would like u can reblog this.#again its pretty late this is probably all incomprehensible and i apologise if it doesnt make sense. i have.no beta reader#no beta reader but myself and tbh. im checked out for tha night#grr.txt
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Episode #1: “Us Students Sure Are Learning To Read Today Huh” - Quillynn
this is so stressful I literally have so much respect for these returnees who are putting themselves thru ANOTHER main season. Like i've been in this for like an hour and I'm already #struggling to keep up with everyone and trying to talk to everyone. I'm literally on call as I type this being stressedt as heckie. I honestly truly am so excited about my mentor, I've heard so many things about Brett and we're both HOS winners so I'm excited!!! I feel like we'll get along really well. I don't have any outstanding first impressions right now but I love Dani that's p much it. I'm also the only newbie on this call right now and I don't know what these hoes are talking about. Bye.
I'm really excited for this! Its a lot to take in with everything thats going on and the one world twist and everything so it feels like a totally new experience. This is only my second ever ORG but I do honestly feel good about it so far. Everyone seems nice and I'm really happy with my mentor! I'm really hoping to go far here and am trying to set myself up early as a strong newbie, I know that will probably put a target on my back later down the line, but I want that. What's the fun in playing in the shadows. I want attention and I want to make an impact hopefully I can keep myself in the game long enough to make that happen!
I'M FREE OF ALEXIS THANK THE LORD
ok hi it's been a little over a day since the game started, and I feel more chill about everything, but I'm still SUPER EXCITED to be playing woo!!
I mentioned yesterday I was excited about having Brett as a mentor? That still mostly remains, but... he's not very forthcoming on advice. I really really need to get the ball rolling and talk to him about game stuff. I wanna form a really strong bond with my mentor and make the most of this season theme. He's nice and all but small talk with him is boring.
I'm tryna be social this game, I'm starting out small today and I messaged everyone on my tribe. I feel like I got a pretty strong first impressions read on everyone. Nicholas - My king. I've been friends with him for a while and we agreed we're working together already, us being on the same tribe is such a plus. Quillyn - Icon? So easy to talk to. Interesting to talk to. I think they're close with Nicholas too so that's perfect JD - Ahhhhhh I don't know. I've heard so many good things about her but so far I'm not impressed tbh kljgdkg. Is that mean to say? Oh well, idk I didn't talk to her much but I'm not sure how well our personalities mesh. Zoe - Actually the one person I haven't talked to yet because she didn't respond to me. She seems to be the least active and the youngest. Potential first boot if we lose. But I wanna protect her and befriend her bc we both have the same org mother (Jay B)
My plan moving forward is to align with the mentors and play a super strong social game. Last night on call it was me plus 4 mentors and it struck me that if I align with mentors it'd be easier for me to get in with students. I'm gonna try to talk to everyone in the game by the end of the round, but my first target tomorrow is to talk to all the mentors of the people on my tribe. I wanna get in good with them.
That's pretty much it for strategy. But, something that's highkey kinda annoying me is my tribe on this flash game challenge. Like I'm really good at Cats so I'm okay doing it but I am AMAZING at Casanova and it's the most important game because of the clues. Like, JD came into the tribe chat bragging about her 2.08 million score like girl.... my high score is 3.5 million on that game. I was just in a game and someone got 9 million on it. Like, that aint that good of a score. But I also can't be that bitch and say I wanna take Casanova because I am genuinely good at Cats and no one else wants it, but I'm still being bitter bc I want that idol piece clue. Anyway, I'm tired, good night.
Okay SO
Day 1 I wanted to kill myself. You put Jules on my tribe. The girl who lied to me and gave me 1st boot in Olympics. A game with no idols and she still lied to get my voted off. And she's on my FIVE person tribe again. KTHX.
My student is nice. I like him, I like that he hasn't done that many games. I was worried that he'd just want to play the game and not care about the mentor thing, but like my good friend Katie, I want to play for my student. But once my student gets out, if he does, then I'm gonna play for myself.
So far I was on call the whole night. I made some real connections with Jack and Willow. Two completely new people to me, and I love them. I also started talking to Liam and Christine a bit. Those two are on my tribe and if we happen to lose then I REALLY need them on my side. Brett is nice. He's not my cup of tea right now, I can tell he doesn't care to talk to me, no matter how hard I try. He's closer to Jules age and her personality so I'm so fucking worried that they're on my tribe.
FUN FACT for the hosts. Gage (Mr Winner up in this bitch) and I know each other. I played HIS first game and I helped him out as much as I can. I was like his mentor two years ago and now we're here together and he remembers me! So I'm happy.
Also oh shit. Danielle and I are literally best friends. It's hard to hide. We were literally on call watching The Challenge when the cast went out and we found out we were playing with each other. The two of us stayed on call all night and made tight relationships with Willow and Jack together. She kind of let it out of the bag to Jack how well we actually fucking know each other. And then I stopped trying to hide it and we all laughed and had a good time. And I truly believe he will work with us for the beginning of this game.
Also me winning the mentor's idol piece, I didn't tell anyone but Danielle. I told Jack my score and Andreas that I got higher than his, but obviously no one knows who really won. I didn't tell my student because it's not even a full idol and I don't know if I'm going to be in his plans for this game, I want him to want me but I still have to feel it out.
Also Andreas and I have been friendly rivals for like 3 years so I'm excited he's here. I fucking love the other returnee tribe and I'm upset I'm not on it.
I'm really happy with the casting because I literally only know Gage, Jules, Andreas and Danielle. Gage, Jules who I haven't talked to in 2 years, and Andreas who I talk to like, only a couple times a year.
So you could call me shook honestly. I somehow got asked back for another season of Tumblr Survivor, something that I thought I would never do again. I didn't really like the community that it is now but right now? I LOVE IT. I get casted with my best friend Ryan and we legit had no idea that the other was casted. When I saw him, I gotta say that I was pretty scared. He's such a good player and that's threatening to me. But, I'm happy to announce that we might just be the perfect final 2. We talked all last night and played Roblox and it seemed like we were right on a good track of being number 1 allies. My thing with Ryan is that I really never know where his head is at. He isn't very clear sometimes so I don't know. On to other people though. I really like my tribe. Connor and I seem to connect the most on this tribe. I would think that if we were to go to tribal, he would have my back the most. Willow is another person that I adore. We sat on call all of night one and talked about weird/deep shit. She's someone that I can really work well with in this game. Andreas is someone that I am on the fence with. He somehow knew that Ryan and I were friends because he messaged me and said 'OMG Ryan!!!' and I almost thought I was fucked for a second. I didn't want to tell anyone that Ryan and I are really good friends because I don't really know how they would find out here. We were old school Tumblr and I don't think a lot of these young kids know us from back then. I also am vibing with Jack a lot as Ryan and I were the last ones on the tribe call. I almost guarantee that he got the advantage and Ryan already told me what he had (since he won it). We have 1/3 of the idol on our side already. I'm beyond happy but part of me is like ?? shit. Things have been going too well for me and I'm scared to see the downfall of Big T.
Mkay so I have my THOTS I THINK It's midnight and I rlly should be sleeping but here I am doing this! First off, my tribe. I'm hosting Christine on RB, so instant plus. I've wanted to get to now Brett, so that's a slight advantage as we go along. Ryan and I hit it off right away, so I think he could be a valuable ally along the way as well. I haven't gotten to 1 on 1 convos with...um..lemme just go look for her name...Jules! Right, her. She seems alright but meh, I could easily see myself voting her out early on if she was to become dead weight. Second, my student, JD. Hello..? You there..? We've had one convo so far, and my mind is out the window. It's gonna take some time to get used to him tbfh, but as long as he's not voted out, I get my advantage! Third, my game plan as far as bitchy Liam goes. I'll lay a bit lower at the start, but I will bring down my hard blindside hammer the moment an opportunity arises. Peace. xoxo
whew so first of all i am super excited to see what happens in this game it's my first ever main season so i am really anxious and ready to get started!
i guess that i am going to begin with the first aspect of the game: mentors & students - i really feel like this is a fun twist and im excited to see what it has in store for us. i love the concept of extra credit and us having to help one another instead of tear each other apart. my mentor is the QUEEN big tuna/danielle and i absolutely couldn't be happier. i think she is a sweet gal and everyone seems to really like her so that's really great news for me! however i do feel a gut feeling that she doesn't like me or something or that someone told her something about me bc she seems really standoffish so idk i might just be crackedt but she seems like she isn't ever too thrilled to chat but it might just be her personality or something. either way i know her and ryan are super close so im hoping that she will keep me safe with him down the line.
as for the cast, i really adore a lot of people here and can see myself working closely with them. people like colin, willow, quil lynn, trixie, lily, lauren vorhees all stand out to me as people i would love to work with down the line and i feel like my relationships with them are pretty great as they are right now to where i don't need to work to hard to cultivate anything new. i do want to work with new people and step out of my comfort zone for this game and i am stoked to see some people who aren't the same dusty 7 bitches who are in every game so it is certainly refreshing to say the least. my goal for this round is to go around and try to spark a conversation with almost every single person who is in the game right now.
on my tribe i currently feel pretty safe. quil lynn is a great ally and we work together very well and she already told me she has an idol piece so that's great. she is the ONLY person I have told about the legacy advantage bc i 100% trust her. and now if anyone else finds out that i have it i can pinpoint it on her and know that the trust i have is misplaced. i really feel like the legacy advantage is going to be pivotal later in the game and it may not be able to help me but if i get into a situation like i have in my past few games where people i love are at f5 and stand no chance it could be a real game changer!
lastly i guess i will talk about the whole one world concept. i am really scared of one world games after i played another side season which had a one world twist and it fucked me up the ass with a knife and then twisted it multiple times. like a huge alliance formed and i got fucked from every single angle and it was annoying to say the least. now this time around i can choose to either be a part of that type of a movement or i can choose to just hope no one forms a cross tribe wild alliance. right now i am just going to be upbeat and social and just wait to see how things pan out, but my eye is open and im ready to strike up an alliance if shady things start to happen. let's just hope my tribe can pull immunity and i can have a very easy first round with no trauma!
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Well hello! I'm so happy to be back, especially with this cast full of icons. I'm super happy that Lauren is my student cause she's an absolute gem. The only concern I have is that were not on the same tribe so I'm not sure how this is gonna work out. When it comes to my tribe, I'm literally obsessed with everyone. I've seen Jules and Ryan around the community and to finally get to play with them is amazing! And then Liam is actually hosting me in another game which is pretty cool, he's really nice but a little quiet. Then there's Brett and let me just tell you that I adore him and the fact that his student is Colin!?!? Its literally perfect. Me and Colin were freaking out about it on the first day since we all won HOS seasons in a row so if we can make an alliance out of that? Beautiful. So yeah, hopefully we don't lose any time soon cause I adore these people.
As for people not on my tribe, I get a really good vibe from Danielle and then Willow seems pretty adorable. Lily is also a sweetheart so if she and Lauren get along, that'd be amazing. The only person I've actually played TS with before is Connor. My only worry about him is that he might boot me early just to put me in Japan but other than that we're good!
For now everythings looking good, although I am concerned about the idol system. I normally work alone or with another person I trust dearly when it comes to this stuff so potentially involving 3 people!? Terrifies me. But yeah, other than that things are good and I'm just hoping neither my tribe or Lauren's go to tribal anytime soon. :)
My first confessional! This'll be boring. Anyway: My tribe dodged tribal! Sadly, my mentor's tribe has to go along with Quilynn's and Nicholas's. I think they'll all be safe though. I'm excited to actually work with them longer this time around. I got a piece to the idol clue, although I lied to Jackson about this. I really like him, but I need to make sure I can trust him 100%. I hope he won't be upset by this when he reads this. Sorry!!!! I like everybody on my tribe, it would have been hard to make a vote if we went to tribal. Let's hope that doesn't happen!
So we lost all because of irrelevant zoe not submitting! Like that would be fine whatever but when JD literally tried to help her with the issues she was having with the game and she just doesn't respond and then totally ghosts? like okay bye! However nobody on this tribe knows how to fucking read so even after getting the results we all just assumed it was a double tribal still until my mentor (Shout out to Willow she's great) wanted to teach me lol and helped me figure out that both tribes are actually just voting off one person which totally throws a wrench into this zoe plan! She is still my target, but now there are other factors, like first, why would the mentors vote off our weakest link? Connor is zoe's mentor so he probably wont vote her, and also what is stopping us as students from trying to take out one of them! I would like to make a big move like that, but it is so early in the game and because of zoe being an inactive flop we also are down a vote. Hopefully all goes well and we still get her out. JD also told me he didn't find the idol piece and I had to acted surprised lol I know Chelsea found it but nobody else needs to know that, especially now that it means we have 2/3 pieces!
Okay SO we lost the challenge which pissed me off and OMG I JUST REALIZED THE BANNER ON THIS CONFESSIONAL PAGE MOVES IM HERE FOR IT!
Anyways so we lost the challenge, which was not to my surprise because these people aren't amazing at flash games and I did not try very hard in it. I need people to think i'm not amazing in them, because in great lakes it really put a target on my back.
So, let's talk about these people in this game. I'm not really bonding with any of them which tbh I'm not too worried about - for now. They all seem very inactive, everyone seems super busy and i'm not about it. The person I actually get along with the most in terms of the game is Jules, we both have a bond of being original mentors. But as far as that, these people are really boring and scare me for that reason. ESPECIALLY CONNOR AND CHRISTINE, because he didn't follow me on insta and if people don't follow you on insta after you promote it, they want you out. But those two really just don't want to talk to me and I'm not gonna force myself upon them. When they need me i'll be there.
So currently the plan is to vote zoe out which I think is really stupid on the newbies side but I understand why, im interested to see if connor will agree to it. I learned in the first SvM that fighting too much for your student is dumb, so honestly if I were him i'd let it fly.
So let's hope I dont get voted out, I would not like that. Peace and love
omg I havent submitted a confessional like at all yet so this one is probably gonna be super long I'm sorry. Okay so I didn't know any of the mentors coming into this season but I knew 4 of the students?? what the heck. I'm just gonna do a cast assesment of my tribe and other people I've talked to in One World idk.
QuilLynn- omg I love QuilLynn, I'm so happy that I got her as my student! She's so nice and iconic! I heard a bunch of great things about her since she played in Bouvet. I'm really hoping we can both do well in this season together! Danielle- We talked for like 3 hours on call during night 1 with Ryan, and she's super awesome, and she lives in Wisconsin, which is where I was born lol Gage- We talked for a little bit, he seems nice so far and his dad owns a carnival which is awesome Andreas- Andreas is cool I guess, but sometimes he can give one word answers when hes texting which is boring but if we get conversation going then hes nice Connor- I think out of anyone in my tribe I've talked to him the least which is probably bc hes busy from his job, and hes nice but doesnt give me a lot of conversation to go off of, idk if that makes sense Colin- I played 2 sides with him, hes really nice so I'm excited that hes getting a chance to play a main season Jack- I played a side with him and he was the first boot of the tribe but I like him hes pretty interesting Nicholas- Nicholas has somehow played every side season I've played lmao and I think hes played more orgs then me, and hes really nice Lily- I played in a side with her too and shes a super nice person but Dana said that as a player she doesnt seperate games which really sucks Ryan- I skyped with him for 3 hours on night one with Danielle and hes so nice!
Anyway I think for this next tribal its gonna be a fairly unanimous vote for Zoe to leave bc she didnt submit for the challenge and seems really inactive, so Im glad/ I hope its an easy vote. I mean it'll suck that Connor's gonna be sent to exile but oh well?
So, take four. Here we go again. My student has NOT been online. We have had next to NO conversation about anything. It's like trying to mentor a rock. My tribe lost immunity, of course. Why would I be on a winning tribe. That would be too convenient. And, of course, it's a joint tribal council. And, of course, there has been a plan made to vote out my student. Now, im fine with that, and i go by the whole as long as it aint me aesthetic in the beginning of games before i start 'making moves', but it concerns me that i was the last person to find out. I could be reading into it, but im on the bottom of this tribe. Im trying to get some information from the other tribe to see who they have a plan to vote for and, if it's someone i think being eliminated from my tribe helps me, then so be it.
as first confessionals go, heres a low down of my tribe: tuna - love. office. its beat juice. end of story willow - good vibes only, seems like a gemini or a libra. good. andreas - didnt you leave the community i.... gabe :) - i dont know her
uhh so, thats where we are ish, folks. currently, its just a big ol' mess
oh and fuck one world
Holy fuck so okay..... Ummmmm this is my first confessional so I feel like I have to go over everything. The first day was a lot to take in, like there are 4 people here that I'm playing another game in, I've never done a one world before so that's fun. Sooooo that challenge was fun... I think this is the third time I have done Casanova as a challenge, but I'm good at it and me and Q were... I'm gonna say that I was being a greedy bitch because I wanted that clue and if we got the clue then there would be a tribe that didn't get it... Not that it helped at all because I missed it. This whole 'how do you search for an idol' this is really hard on the head too :/ I don't get it and I bet that it is sitting right infront of me and that's the pisser. Ummmm okay so that's the challenge... Zoe is going home, no reason for the other tribe not to vote out one of out own, it'll weaken us after all. But if she stays then it weakens us too so it's hard to say what is really going to happen. I'm in a game with Danielle right now and after a fucked up tribal I might end up in an alliance with her that I just don't want but I talked to her and Andreas and he was okay with voting her too. I'm also kinda talking with Conner so we'll see how that goes but I mean, even if he loses the % boost in challenges, do you really wanna have a student that isn't doing shit. I'm pretty sure that because the vote is so obvious that every one thought it was gonna be tonight. Or because everyone was talking about it so they thought that it was gonna be tonight IDK but literally everyone thought it was gonna be tonight. To add more shade.... Fuck your idol searching s h i t o.o
Round one is pretty much over and I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna be first boot so all is well! It sucks having to go to tribal round 1 but at least it seems like we're all on the same page. Zoe didn't submit and she hasn't talked to like anyone. Like, sorry girl, I'm sure you're sweet and all but you're the weakest link in the tribe and if we wanna be strong we have to get rid of you. As for first round game dynamics, I've pretty much formed a pretty good talking relationship with most of the tribe and I feel pretty comfortable. I've been talking to Nicholas, Danielle, and Quillynn a lot and I think they're my faves. Lily and Jules are probably my other fave mentor/student pair because they're both super sweet and fun to talk to. Andreas talks to me a lot but I feel like he's the type to make f2 deals with everyone so I don't trust him. I'm highkey worried about not being in any alliances yet but I also really really don't wanna be the one to initiate them. I needa find myself part of a majority real quick.
That's all. Bye.
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