#idk im feeling a lil crazy silly teehee

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is it possible to have a (hypo?)manic episode spurred by withdrawal from adderall for abt a week or so then big emotional distress and resuming Adderall (finally able to get refill) or am I just being crazy and looking for some sort of correlation/cause/effect

like its back in my system and I'm still in emotional dismay but like the Adderall seems to be helping me be calm/focus instead of all at once but then I'm also like a little hysteric almost and way too hyped and like I'M FUCKING HOT AND SEXY !!! ILL BE FINE. ITS FINE<3 FUTURE IDEAS AND PLANS AND OTHER FOCUSES and push all the negative away for now and only think of the good and finally able to stop just sobbing pathetically but now I'm having a hard time shutting up and coming up with all these ideas and projects and the only thing stopping me from a lot of impulses is the fact that im tired from the prior emotional distress which. is still present but im like. suppressing her LOL and fibromyalgia pain and fatigue flaring a bit so not quite enough energy and knowing I'm feeling a bit weird so not allowing myself to give myself the directions to do some of the silly stuff I wanna do suddenly ykwim like I'm trying to keep a hand on the reins here but by golly theyre wildin' (they being me)

also I feel like I can feel my heart and organs a bit and jittery but also I don't feel but I do but

i even started talking abt trying drugs for a hot second like what the fuck so I realized I shld table that for another time but. i kinda wanna look as hot as possible do some cute makeup look like a grungey hoe as is the aesthetic i often enjoy and post thirst traps and there's a lot of reasons that prob say a lot abt my psych but also just bc feelin myself ig ???? and wanna be likeI AM HOT ,!!!!! IDK LOL !?!??!?

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Ough

[yuukei-yikes]

What’s your opinion on Harushin (Haruka and Shintaro)? Can be either platonic or romantic

i love that u had to clarify who they are LMAOOO

hmm well i don't like them romantically. when it comes to the yuukei quartet ships I'd put them at the bottom 💔 mostly cuz i just dont ship haruka with anyone other than takane (but for some reason i pass takane around like a blunt) and also it means a lot to me that the reason haruka recognizes he loves takane is bc he defines shintaro as a friend but feels sad putting takane in the same category bc of the different feelings she entails.

and I HAVE THIS PET PEEVE that is a bit silly and nuanced. and it implies a lil bit of jin bashing so TOTAL AND COMPLETE DISCLAIMER i love jin's work and his characters and i immensely respect everything he's done for this franchise he shares with us and clearly loves. that said fuck his misogynistic fucking writing

i could go on and on and on abt that but to answer this ask specifically, i just HATE that shintaro is so nice to haruka and he's just a total ass to ayano and takane for no goddamn reason. takane was SO nice to him at first, could u imagine the good buddies they would've been if shintaro was fucking normal. and shintaro LITERALLY stands in a 2 hour line at the festival just to insult her😭😭😭 he didn't even KNOW her. he's like "u act like this big shot bc all these ppl fawn over you" as if takane hadn't been literally sobbing miserably the whole afternoon precisely bc people were fawning over her and she found it mortifying. bc ofc he didnt know that!! LIKE WHAT WAS THE DAMN REASON HE DID THIS HES CRAZY i will never know what was going thru jin's mind writing that bit but ig all i can do is imagine shintaro was like GIRLS CANT PLAY GAMES *SHAKING* i know im always talking abt shintaro and takane's friendship and how much i love them but god the writing in the hs days is just inexcusable like shintaro is so damn unlikable. i hate when they put him and takane in the same level of irrational arguers bc truly takane is just fucking defending herself. how would u treat a person who didnt even give u a damn chance and just says all that shit to u first meeting. and she's also speaking for ayano too cuz her ass wont defend herself. and also haruka wont say anything. like takanes fighting for her life in here i 10000% support her actions as ene cuz man fuck that guy i find it insane she still cared for him anyway

and it pisses me off that then we see him in novel 6 being totally capable of being a decent fucking person to haruka. like seriously what's his damage. also idk japanese but i THINK shintaro speaks in a polite manner to haruka and not to ayano and takane. obligatory joke im gay not bc i like men but bc i hate women etc etc etc

i could rly go on abt how much it annoys me haruka and shintaro's friendship is super developed opposed to ayano and takane's pathetic dynamic that doesnt pass the already stupid bechdel test (i actually ranted a lil bit abt it on my side twitter a few days ago if you wanna read it LMAO) (it starts as a thread abt harutaka but then i get sidetracked cuz...yeah) BUT THIS IS ABT HARUKA AND SHINTARO SO. yeah u could excuse it with shintaro being the protag and ofc getting a lot more focus on his relationships but still. i kinda resent this aspect of their dynamic so i don't like the ship teehee i just... i think haruka is way too good for him sorry shintaro my man. i say this while shipping shinaya i know but to be fair i make them go through hell in my mind before they can properly be happy together if at all. bc when i start going off abt all this stuff i also start resenting shinaya LMAOOO sometimes i say i like it out of nostalgia but then their whole story together and how theyre literally always destined to find each other (holds head) ok. thats aside the point. i have a complicated relationship to shinaya. it's all abt drawing the line between author and creation and how much u can say augh author is being annoying and augh character is just an ass on purpose. and compared to the pov of all the other kagepro characters, u can indeed see that sexism shit in all of it (i could whip out examples in a second)but on shintaro it is noticeably worse LOL

and again im not blaming fictional characters for author's misogyny, like someone is writing this duuuh which is why haruka never points it out but FROM MY insane perspective i interpret it as haruka recognizing the pattern but he's so damn spineless he can't bring himself to stand up for ayano and takane. he probably makes some comments that shintaro just dimisses and haruka is too nervous to bring them up again *me going off abt the internalized misogyny of fictional characters headcanoned based on the author being misogynistic*

ERM. ANOTHER REMINDER I LOVE KAGEPRO AND I RESPECT JIN FOREVER BC HE IS THE CREATOR OF ALL MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS. but also lol. doesn't mean i cant point out some of this stuff yknooooow

uhhh soooo platonic wise i love them. but its also not my favorite dynamic to explore, id repeat some of the stuff ive already written, it does bother me shintaro is Normal to haruka and not to ayano and takane and haruka acts like nothing. it's just a big thing that annoys me generally abt them lol and i find it tough to separate from author like i normally would with these weird things he includes because this bit is just a whole dynamic you know?? i could.... go on abt this but um. sorry ive been talking for a while. its definitely something im kinda bitter about in the writing.

but still they're definitely sweet, and i understand the appeal completely!!! these are just My thoughts i think its 2023 and i wont get death threats for not liking a ship anymore but also haruka is shintaro's bisexual awakening that is for damn sure. i like entertaining the onesided concept. shintaro being like hahahaha what if we kisssed like ayano and takane apparently did and haruka is like No thanks.

[tetzoro]

MY DARLING AIMSIES !!! :3 i know you’re on a hiatus, but i thought i should let my ask marinate in your askbox until whenever you’re back teehee <333

PLZ yesyesYES he for sure would play those rigged games ALL DAY LONG to get u what u wanted !! HELP that’s so silly that you don’t usually make funny faces at the camera !! i don’t know how people pose… i usually scream my head off the ENTIRE time… whoopsies !! >.< that’s so sweet of kuroo to indulge in your amusement park fascination !!

PLZ HELLO CAN YOU HEAR ME SOBBING ?!?! THE BOKUTO SCENARIO WAHHHH me and my tinky T^T me with the lil napkin… plz he’s definitely so messy when he eats & it may or may not be canon i fear… https://pin.it/3Z3IXYqWz … sigh </333 BUT PLZZZZ HIM FREEZING OH MY GOODNESS !!! with the stars in his eyes and all, ohhhh i can just imagine it <333 IM GETTIN ALL GIDDY !!! i’d hope he’d want to kiss me teehee, i definitely wanna give him a BIG OL SMOOOOOCH !!!!!

ALSO PLZZZZ YESYESYES U ARE TOO SWEET AIMS !! me and tinky bo love you sososo much, it makes me so happy to hear that WAHHH !! you’re right, the world needs to know about me and TINKYYY !!!

WAHH yes i see that you’ve been busy lately sobs, you’re on full hiatus by now but i’m hoping it’s all going supa dupa well for you !! everyone deserves a well needed break, and everyone including me is here to support you through everything precious aimsies !! you’ve put MANY smiles on my face and i just hope you’re smiling even when you’re not on tumblr, because you deserve to be <333 you’re an amazing person and you wholeheartedly deserve all of the love !! ILYILYILY !!! i hope you’re okay aimsies !! im supporting you to the fullest & i’ll wait very patiently for your return <3

YIPEEEE KUROMY TIME !! MY FAVORITE !! oh paLEEEZZ you are both so adorable T^T with the little cat doodles HELLOOOO ??? i bet they were adorable lil doodles teehee >.< can kuroo draw :0 ?? and him asking you to be his girlfriend on tha same night ??? ID ABSOLUTELY MELT INTO A PUDDLEEEE !!!! </333 i’d imagine he likes to write sweet lil messages with a dry erase marker on your mirror sometimes, for you to wake up to and feel all blushy !! does he?? I GOTTA KNOW !!

OO OO OOO im riddlin’ my fingers right now, me and kou timeee !! let’s see, when kou is on his off season, we definitely do travel some !! but we are more “no place like home” kind of people, so we usually like to plan things in our area !! get togethers with friends, movie nights, stargazing, carnivals, the beach, all that fun stuffsss !! but when we do travel, it’s usually a surprise to me !! i wont know about it until he’s telling me to pack my bags ( it’s a wondrous mystery how he manages to keep his mouth quiet about it for that long… usually he spills the beans teehee :>) but he loves loves LOVES beachy areas. pretty clear water, swimmin’, yummy foods and all that !! but i will say, he does get a bit ancy to touch a volleyball again so i do the best i can, we have a mini volleyball net in our backyard so sometimes we have lil volleyball bbq’s with his friends !! cool summer nights are always lovely with him <333 life usually looks like a lot of luvin and a WHOLE lotta dates !!

kuromy question for yousss as always !! : when you get sad or have off days, how does kuroo comfort you ?

I LOVE YOU MORE AIMSIES !! i am wishing you SOSOSO many well wishes, and sending you an endless amount of smoochies and hugs <333 I HOPE YOU’RE DOING BETTER MY LOVE !!! ❤️

- :3 (& tinky bo says hello!!)

MY MOST BELOVED :3 !!!! oh how i’ve read this ask a million times . i cherish you so much, im floored at your kindness and i wanna squeeze ya so so tight <3 thank you for leaving this message and waiting patiently for me to come back 🥹🫶

IM GIGGLING !!! i used to always scream on the coasters too (still do) but im crazy and will laugh too idk .. its just so exhilarating + i laugh at literally anything so idk >_< i can imagine tetsu laughing next to me too and we just sound insane and tbh !! i wouldn’t have it any other way !

YOU AND UR TINKY !!! i get emotional thinking about you guys like my heart squeezes at the nickname you have for him !! THE PIN THO HES SO CUTE LMFAO this man def wants to kiss you omg are u kidding !!! he’s head over heels !! obsessed !!

me when i take you and ur tinky and grab tetsu and we all go double date <3 we’d have such a ball !!!! KUROO AND I LOVE BOTH OF U SO. MUCH.

the hiatus was much needed :3 i hadn’t properly taken a tumblr break in … a really long time lol and i was letting silly stuff get to me !! but now im back and refreshed and ready for action :3 the fact i make you smile blows my mind bc you’re the one always making me smile fr !! GOSH UR SO SWEET THIS MESSAGE FR MAKES ME TEAR UP LOL

tetsu + his cat doodles :3 i have a teeny whiteboard in my office and he always fills it up with something i swear ! i think kuroo could draw well if he took the time to devote himself to it , but he’s excellent at little doodles :3 !! BUT HE DEF WRITES ME LIL MESSAGES ON THE BATHROOM MIRROR ! slips little notes into my purse, lots of stuff ! i cherish words of affirmation and tetsu always knows when i need it most :3

YOU AND BO ARE SO CUTE DURING OFF SEASON (and all the time) but omg … i can just see him having the biggest smile on his face during this time. he gets you all to himself and doesn’t have to travel (without you) and WAH !! happy bo !! the fact he surprises you with little trips is so sweet (and he always brainstorms with kuroo hehe)

eeep !! so kuroo can read me like a dang book. he knows when i’m feelin off and how to approach it. it’s difficult for me to openly admit my feelings sometimes , if im sad or upset i will try my best to brush it off & push it off until it goes away but >_< sometimes it lingers !! and kuroo is incredibly patient with me . once i give into whatever emotion, i seek him out for a hug and he just holds me for a loooong long time until im ready to talk about what’s bothering me . after that, he doesn’t leave my side and dotes on me, spoiling me with sm love and care that i forget about what upset me in the first place !!! he’s my rock :(

TIME FOR YOU AND TINKYS QUESTION ! what kinds of things does bokuto do that make you feel so so loved? i must know !!

I LOVE YOU SM :3 !!!! you’re the biggest sweetheart and this message brought me so much joy — you bring me so much joy !! i’m so happy we met and i get to talk to you in our lil corner of the internet . i hope life has been treating you kindly and i hope you know that i am always cheering you on and rooting for you !!! MWAAAHH !!!