#idk if these ever got posted on here. i just rediscovered them deep in my twitter likes lol

[zuccarella]

i'm a day late but happy st. patrick's day from the wild circa 2 years ago

[sparklingcid3r]

i saw a post that Good For You from dear evan hansen is vv darrel coded but like precanon ig when he was runnimg w the socs. dp u have any hc for it or ~lyric analysis~ i just love ur blog and long posts :)))

tysm i’m so happy u like it here!! i love writing long posts so that’s got me dancing to hear<3

i haven’t thought about dear evan hansen in actual years so hearing that ppl were talking abt good for you was just a complete throwback, but i looked up the lyrics again and totally agree

idk if i can do any deep analysis because it’s pretty straight forward if you read thru and connect them to how you perceive darry, i’d say it’s more accurate with the musical only because we get just the tiniest bit of backstory for darry and it’s enough to take and just🏃‍♀️💨

not a lot of my personal hc’s have the characters despising darry for what he did (no more than the disdain dally expresses in the musical), but i think his parents had some thoughts, depending on how much they knew.

they weren’t stupid, they knew that kids these days didn’t have it any easier than they did. not a lot of time has passed since then anyway, and they weren’t blind to the violence between socs and greasers, even if those weren’t the words they used to describe either side. but they knew that darry had preppy friends and that he spent a lot of time with them, so it was natural that they worried.

pony saying in the book that johnny was the most law-abiding of them all is always surprising to go back and rediscover, so it’s fun to suspend disbelief and guess abt the illegal shit that darry did as either soc or greaser. there’s a post floating around somewhere that darry once got arrested after going on a joyride w some soc buddies and his mom came and picked him up and she was really disappointed/angry with him, and while i personally don’t think darry’s ever been arrested, i think he’s done dumb shit that’s gotten him yelled at by his parents, but it’s his mom’s fury that affects him the most </3

[sometimesrosy]

what now? idk

TBH, I don’t really know what to do with this blog now that The 100 is over. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad it’s over, but I feel like just posting kitties and cool photo posts isn’t a good use of this spot. 

I really liked answering asks about the show and other stuff, and I kind of miss that, but not having the community makes it harder... even though I was unhappy with fandom for the last couple of years. 

What should I put on this blog? What would you guys like to see, if there’s still anyone out there? 

Let me tell you a bit of what I’m doing outside of tumblr or fandom or scifi.

Professionally, I’m ghostwriting contemporary romances. I’ve written about about 18 so far, in a couple of years. It’s hard work, it doesn’t pay real well. I can’t really suggest to other people, but it just manages to keep my head above water and I get to stay home and take care of myself and homeschool and write and be creative.

Reading wise, I’m leaning hard into the historical romances, and have been ever since I started ghostwriting. IDK why. I read one and write the other.

Writing wise, I am not getting very far on my science fiction books that I’m writing, nor am I getting far on querying for an agent for my finished novels. I’ve got Moonshine, which is based on a bellarke fic I wrote quite a few years ago, and then they’re Girl Of Freaks, which is a contemporary fantasy inspired by how annoyed twilight made me. Like. That’s not what vampires would be. Ugh. Whatever. That’s two finished novels I have that are ready for publication and me, having problems with querying and publication and staying on task. (sometimes I wonder if I too am ADHD after researching for my son’s ADHD. I have been doing a little poetry, too, although that kind of slowed down in the pandemic. It seems to be picking up now that we have a decent not terrifying president. I think I was too anxious to get my thoughts together to write poetry, which was disappointing because I was really getting into poetry.

I am ALSO homeschooling my two teens. One of whom is on the autism spectrum and has ADHD, etc, and one of whom wants to raise chickens. They’re 14 and 15.  He’s older. We’re reading greek mythology write now and writing essays. He writes about philosophy and psychology, and she writes persuasive essays about how we should have Disney+ and have chickens. 

That goes along with the gardening we’re doing. It’s a school project, but we’re also gardening for fun and health. so. We’re trying blueberries and green beans and spinach and herbs and tomatoes and ginger. 

Then I’m getting back into art, too. I took on a challenge on instagram to do 100 days of creativity. I don’t really know WHAT I’m going to do, but it’s essentially 100 days of art journaling as I rediscover what the hell I have to say as an artist. I’ve been doing so much writing that is where my energy goes. 

I am also working on an e-course about Writer’s Block. It’s specifically for writers, because I’ll be showing some writing hints, but a lot of it goes for general creativity. My main thesis is that writer’s block shouldn’t terrify us, but really if we pay attention and listen to what’s stopping us, we can actually learn about our own writing process and become better and happier writers. It’s turned out to be MUCH larger than I thought, a whole book, I suppose, rather than one e course, so I’ve broken it down into four courses, and I’m doing the first one on Overwhelm, which is self explanatory. The other three are; Fear (the internal demons that stop you,) The Narrative Itself (because your subconscious knows there’s a problem with the story itself,) and Not A Block, But a Fallow Period (in which you listen to yourself and DON’T write for a while.)

I suppose I’m also doing the health thing. I have hashimotos, which is basically why I was so sick for most of my time here and could barely get out of bed. Because of that, I’m eating gluten free and mostly natural, although ice cream and dark chocolate doesn’t seem to do any harm to me. So that means I’m also doing a lot of cooking, because processed food always seems to make me sick. Fun. On top of that I’m doing some easy going Yin yoga, or restorative IDK exactly what kind it is, but it’s mainly to manage pain and stay flexible after writing all day in a chair. 

So why post this? 

Because I guess I want to know if I should be posting stuff from my real life? Before, almost everything I posted was a response to an ask that someone sent me, so my entire blog was reader driven. Now I don’t really have that anymore, so it’s hard to know what anyone wants to hear, especially since I’m not doing that deep dive analysis into fandom or really any content. Any analysis I do is going to be impressions, or initial thoughts, not a dissertation like before. (It’s healthier for me that way.) 

So the question is, what do y’all want to hear about? Posts on homeschooling? Why? Most of you aren’t doing that? Do you want to talk to me about the historical romance books I’m reading? I could do that, but they can blur together, especially at the speed I read them. And because I reread the ones I really like a lot. I can’t really tell you about the books I’m ghostwriting since I signed a contract not to blab. They’re fun, I think. But you know. 

I could post my art work, idk. Not all of it is good. A lot of it is just about discovery. I could post poetry. I still haven’t figured out how to format poetry on this weird website. IDK maybe screenshots. I could post what’s happening in the garden. I could write about my ecourse and about writer’s block. Which I don’t have, obviously, since I am writing 3k words a day ghostwriting-- except I DO have it, every day. But I’ve managed coping strategies to work with it. I’m actually using it to deal with my struggles doing the e course. Listen this is how I get words on the page. 

I mean I post a lot of this stuff already on instagram instagram   https://www.instagram.com/rowenamurillo/ and on twitter   https://twitter.com/rosymamacita1 I’m mostly doing writer twitter, some romancelandia, some politics and feminism a touch of tv and movies. 

[gumihoni]

Ok, so a bunch of lovely people have tagged me in things and I have been very dumb and scatterbrained, but I am gonna answer them now (really only because I am still dressed like a functional human at this moment, and that is one of the questions somewhere) Happy new year! List 10 good things that happened in 2016, then tag 10 people to do the same. tagged by @dgalerab uhm, okay, I’m really trying here 1) went back to Korea and rediscovered what it feels like to have energy levels and like, be happy, and just generally my love for travelling 2) in the same vein: made the decision to go to Korea for a few months this year at least, which finally gave me some perspective 3) my brother came home for Christmas (it’s a delicate situation and the only time I’ve seen him in the last 2 1/2 years was a funeral) 4) ...fell in love with Bokuto :’) 5) i’m improving at art (it’s subtle things, but i am much faster, and slightly better at anatomy) 6) met a bunch of cool new people (a lot of them on here, too!) 7) met a few travelling friends again after 3 years 8) I didn’t lose my love for martial arts, despite being mediocre at it, after reaching the goal I set for myself (black belt) 9) saw a band I’ve liked for a loooong time in concert for the first time 10) hxh came off hiatus!!! it’s on hiatus again lmao but we got new exciting chapters! Rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag people you would like to get to know better tagged by: @livecement​ and @risquetendencies 1. Nickname: Ginny works, I guess. Anything you can do with my url sounds really dumb *shrug emoji* 2. Star Sign: Gemini 3. Height: 5′1″ 4. Time rn: 11:12pm, I need to sleep soon because I agreed to take someone else’s shift :’) 5. Favourite Music Artist: The Matches, Meg & Dia, Protest the Hero, Mamamoo, The National... i want to list more because when I look at that singular there I suddenly don’t know how to read : ) 6. Song stuck in your head: since I’m listening to it right now... a Korean song: Ssaunal (Fight Day or Fight Me) by Bolbbalgan4. 7. Last Movie Watched: ...I have no idea. Possibly Phantom Rouge in German? 8. Last TV Show you watched: if it’s last episode, probably Haikyuu!!... I am bad at watching things 9. what are you wearing rn: an actual outfit!! how exciting I am a real human today! A long grey cardigan over a loose sky blue dress with a very scattered white leaf print and a lace trim, and black tights. 10. when did you create your blog: end of March 2015 11. what kind of stuff do you post: hxh, haikyuu, a lot of mental health stuff, i am sorry, memes, deep sea animals, animals idk, pretty things, a lot of stuff really 12. do you have any other blogs: i have painpackerrisingsin saved for if i ever dare to start a nsfw art blog :’) 13. Do you get asks regularly: No, and often when I get them I am convinced I mortally offended someone and they’re out to get me. (which has obv not happened ever, except for some... shitstirrers i should have blocked long ago) 14. why did you choose your username: i hate this question, i meant to lurk and chose a dumb url because i thought it didn’t matter but I hate change so I am stuck with Feitan’s hatsus (and it’s so long to type or write on stuff) 15. Gender: *Kurapika voice* what’s a gender; dfab and I don’t experience any dysphoria but I find myself caring about labels less and less 16. Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw 17. Pokemon Team: Instinct 18. Favourite colour: Periwinkle 19. Average hours of sleep: anything from 1 to 10, my life is a mess 20. lucky number: none really. I have attachments to 4, 5, 587, though. 21. Favourite character: Bokuto, Leorio, Kurogane (i have a type rip) 22. how many blankets do you sleep with: two 23. dream job: i need someone to pay me for learning languages for no one but myself :’) 24. Following: 83, but 4 of these are rou and 5 doomsday so... there’s a few other mutuals with more than one blog. I get overwhelmed when there’s too much stuff on my dash... Rule one: Always post the rules Rule two: answer the questions the person who tagged you asked and write 11 new ones Rule three: tag 11 people and link them to the post tagged by my love @sayoko0

1) Favorite color? answered up there!

2) How do you think birds communicate? tone of their singing and in more direct interactions body language?

3) Can you identify a tree from its leaves? not many, but a select few, yeah. My mom would be so disappointed.

4) If you could make a ship canon which one would it be? ughhh this hurts my heart but probably Leopika, because I need Kpeeks to be saved. It’s my angstiest ship... Kurofai is as canon as gay ships go in CLAMP and Bokuaka, there’s SOMETHING and... I don’t need it as much in the manga context, because there’s so many amazing fanworks. 5) Fav song atm? Ho boy... I’ve rediscovered Hypocrates by Marina and the Diamonds. My all time favourite is Clumsy Heart by The Matches. 6) A song that cheers you up? Butterflies Pt.II by Lana del Rey 7) A song that makes you sad? The One by Meg & Dia 8) One of your fav vines? Describe it if you don’t feel like searching for it. The one with the Korean girl, where the other girl is like “xy your bra strap is showing!!!” and she’s dancing to a song going I don’t give a fuck wearing tons of bras everywhere 9) What’s your comfort food? LASAGNA. And warm chocolate pudding. 10) I can’t think of anything else so tell me whatever you were doing before answering this, or plan to do after finishing. Answering more tag stuff because I collect them for months ;_; 11) Oh! Tell me the last weird dream you remember having. Oh my god... Okay, so, you know these people who always have these little notes and go “just be happy!!!!”, “positivity!!!”; I was silently judging them in my head, but then later had to justify myself in front of some heavenly court and hold a long speech about how I tolerate other people’s way of life even if it’s different from mine, and if that doesn’t tell you a lot about me as a person, I really don’t know. Oh yeah, there was also the dream where I got to meet Britney and had so many questions and the only thing I could get out was asking if she was planning a duet with Psy (but she was!!!). There’s more, I am really useless but I am tired and need to sleep, I will, one day, maybe get back to some of the others because they were interesting but... my energy levels are so low now. Tagging: If you tagged me in one of these, feel tagged for the others if you haven’t done them yet. Uhm, take the questions here, my brain is not functional. Also tagging: @daiousamashittykawa​, @pyro-madder​, @schwanendreher​, @sirwallahoo​, @bbmelon​, @yescabbageguystuff, @thewiselearnfromhistory, @the-smallest-kurapika uhm, anyone i’ve ever spoken to who feels like doing it? If you want to do one or none or all, just, do whatever you want, I want you to be happy ok.