#idk if there's any audience for this crossover besides me lol

[wolfpup026]

Loki x Jujutsu Kaisen

[beloved-child-of-the-house]

Fic Writer Questions! (you can find me here on AO3 if you're interested!)

tagged by dear @theburialofstrawberries mwah!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

112 yowza!

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

750,421 kinda tempted to go delete one word so it can be 750420 which is a far more Pleasing number

3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

12ish but some of them overlap: BBCS/Sherlock Holmes/ACD (these are all different bc my bbcs fics are not the same as my own modern fem Sherlock Holmes adaptation are not the same as my ACD Holmes fic; Good Omens; Harry Potter/The Werewolf Draco Malfoy Cinematic Universe; Captive Prince; The Hobbit; Fleabag (it was a crossover with BBCS but Fleabag is the perspective character so it still counts as a separate fandom imo); Doctor Who; The Office; Parks and Rec; Broad City (one a piece for those last 5 but I AM going to write a Parks and Rec polycule fic for @gaykagome)

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

They're all Good Omens fics from the 2019 Summer of Good Omens! Susceptible to Summer, Fragments Shored Against My Ruin, Something So Magic, Enter Serpent, and Anything We Like

All of those have over 2k except the last one, but average engagement for me is like 400 kudos or so

5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I try! It depends on what's going on with me. Sometimes I just don't have the energy, and I figure people would rather I spend my brain power on writing new fics than on writing replies to comments. Wish I had a fave button tho so I could let people know I read and reread comments, because I do!

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Oh I wrote this ficlet series called A Chemical Defect about John and Sherlock's relationship in s3 of BBCS, and it's WILDLY unpopular. People don't read my fic to cry sad tears I guess! John and Sherlock are having an affair in the story, and it ends with the implication that their relationship is unsustainable and that Mary knows about it anyway. I intended to come back to it after s4 and write a more optimistic ending but LOL! Didn't have the heart.

7) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

I know this answer is kinda up my own ass, but like. I think stories that feel true to life sort of feel like they end on a beginning if you know what I mean? You don't really consider a chapter of your life closed until you look back on it from the next? SO that said, I think I'd have to say that it's my big BBCS serial The Only One in the World. I spent 2 years writing it, and it ends with John retiring from medicine to solve crimes and write books full time.

Could also be my WDMCU (werewolf Draco Malfoy cinematic universe) series Moonrise, which starts with Draco isolated in his abusive mother's house, trying to cope with lycanthropy essentially alone and ends with him in love and surrounded by found family in a cozy cottage in Hogsmeade, having gotten some lycanthrope rights legislation passed after working at it for years and talking to Harry about whether they want to have kids. Oh man I feel warm and fuzzy just thinking about it

8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I have written one crossover. It's BBCS/Fleabag, because me and @loudest-subtext-in-tv were laughing about how John seems like one of the horrible guys Fleabag sleeps with basically out of self loathing, so I wrote this fic to make Nattie laugh, and you should read it bc it's so good and so underrated.

9) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not really, but people don't seem to know that authors can read bookmark tags unless you private the bookmark, and someone once put in the bookmark tag on one of my fics 'writing was meh but it was okay.' Okay so why bookmark it then??

10) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Fuck yes! I'm not sure what 'what kind?' means? People fucking? Sloppy, silly, and awkward, with lots of laughing. I also really like writing afterglow scenes which are even sillier and gigglier and often involve one character cooking for another. Food as love language is a very distinct pattern of mine tbh

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of, but occasionally I'll write a post on here where I make some elaborate head canon, and I'll see people in the tags talking about how they want to write fic of it, and it makes me breathe fire out of my nose like a dragon like PLEASE DON'T. The WDMCU came out of a ficlet post I made on here like a year before I actually wrote the 60k series so like!!! Please don't do that!

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! To Russian and I believe Chinese. Not my entire oeuvre but a handful of BBCS and Good Omens fics

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, but I wrote a fic inspired by an RP I did with my gf right around when we met (actually now that I think about it, it's two fics), and I waaaaaaanna do a WDMCU collab with my beloved Sally @clytemenestras at some point if he has time bc he inspired me to even write werewolf draco with his original lesbian werewolf story

14) What’s your all time favorite ship?

favorites are hard for me? I always think I'm currently doing my best writing lol so I'll say drarry

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I don't post fics unless theyre finished, so I don't have any WIP up on AO3, but I did intend to continue with my fem Sherlock Holmes series, Your Many Tendencies. I just haven't been in a Holmes mood for a long time. Maybe I'll come back to it idk. This particular series is honestly very unpopular? People will just straight up say they don't read femslash, and it hurts a lot. This series feels really personal too, bc it's about a Black autistic nonbinary lesbian, so it does hurt my feelings that no one seems to care, yknow? I mean the people who read it are extremely kind and thoughtful in their engagement with it, but it has vastly less engagement than my m/m fic, and that's painful. It gets literally 1/10 the attention my fics usually get.

16) What are your writing strengths?

Almost all of my writing is romance, but I tend to write concurrently about recovery and found family, and I think I'm very good at doing that in a way that connects with my audience. I once had someone ask if they could use my words in their wedding vows, and I've had people tell me they started doing things with their spouse that my characters do with their partners in order to express love. I think about that all the time. My Impact. It makes me feel like I have a real duty to my audience yknow?

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

This question is hard for me like I've been writing so long and so much that I'm literally always happy with my final draft! It's always exactly to my taste, yknow? I suppose I could say that my fics tend not to be terribly plotty but so WHAT? That's beside the fuckn point for me. Plot who? I don't know Her. Also honestly like. Stories feel more True to me when they aren't ruthlessly devoted to plot bc like life isn't like that yknow?

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

If you're not fluent in that language, get a beta who is!!!!! That said, I have written scraps of very simple dialogue in French using mostly Google Translate (sometimes I check w Sally bc he speaks French but I am usually too impatient), and I am perfectly well aware that I take my life in my hands each time!!! Also don't do that bullshit thing where it's in italics? That shit is weird and exoticizing. Just write it in quotation marks like normal dialogue.

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

BBCS babey back in 2012. Ended a 5 year dry spell for me after I got my writing degree.

20) What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Hmmmm I think it's probably gonna be the fic I'm working on now that I haven't posted yet, but I know it's called Names for a House, and here's a tiny bit of it

Thanks again Shreya for asking me to do this bc I really love talking about myself. I tag @the-moon-loves-the-sea, @clytemenestras, @tomiano, @gaykagome and @totallysilvergirl

No pressure <3

[desthen]

“I can fix the biggest mistake of my life”

“I can have what I’ve always wanted”

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A cover for a story I’ll probably never write. Based on the Timewish Au from the gravity falls fandom. But! with a time loop. Summary and excerpt under the cut

Stan wishes he was never born/died as a baby, and the twist is that Ford grows up alone, and when he gets a Timewish, wishes he’d had a twin brother/his brother had lived. And of course because I love alternate universe crossovers, the conflicting wishes have to be resolved. So the wishee from each timeline has to confront the other and decide on a new wish. I’ve been placing them in a time bubble, which First timeline Ford eventually breaks in to. I’ve got a lot of ideas for it, but I’m not much of a writer, so it’ll probably never get done. But I really like how this turned out. 

Honestly though, the idea came to me because I saw the Timewish au and was thinking about new timeline Ford. And myself. My mom was a twin and growing up I was always envious of that. I thought about what if I could timewish myself a twin sister or brother. And I just, hell yes I would. Better then changing any of the mistakes I’ve made or others have in my life, If I could change something about my own life in the past, it would be to have a twin. So I figured it wouldn’t be out of the realm of possibility for Ford to feel that as well. Especially after meeting Dipper and Mabel. (and if Stan died instead of never existed. either way though, it would work). 

An excerpt from when they’re in the bubble, arguing about what new wish to make (in the option where Stan wishes he’d died as a baby):

Looking at the life he'd wished in to existence, or back as it were, made it seem like his old one should have been the preferred one. And yet... and yet, he remembers that it wasn't. He remembers an emptiness beside him he'd never been able to fill and the envy of an only child wishing his family was bigger. Wished that the life that was stolen from him with his first breath had lived beside him. He remembers and he remembers, but it does no good, because Stanley is standing right in front of him, asking to disappear again.

I also had some fun thing mixing with a Jimmy Snakes headcanon/au I saw. In that the Globnar Stan has to do to win the wish was challenged by Jimmy, who blamed him for his death and subsequent demonfied 100 year contract (which he tried to get out of via time travel, causing his time arrest).

Here’s the run down for the story:

intro - jim pov challenge - ford pov globnar - stan pov wish - ford pov alternate line - altford pov colliding wishes (transition) - altford and stan pov bubble - alternating povs ford arrives - altford pov ford tries to fight himself, then is confused, then distraught, then yells and convinces - idk pov new wish - altford new alternate line - outside pov? idk pov

I was thinking Stan tried to give the wish to Ford at first, but he declined, not wanting the responsibility. Here’s the excerpt of that (one of the tiny bits I wrote)

“Make your wish." A glowing orange orb floated between them, an hourglass shape in it's center emanating lighter than the rest. Stanley seemed to change as the light from it cast orange highlights on the surrounding area. He made a half smile at Ford from across it's surface. "Well? What's it going to be? I still think you should take it" He saw the deflection for what it was, an attempt at denial he almost didn't let work. They could talk about this later, when there wasn't a huge audience from the future watching their every move. He shifted his focus from his brother to the orb and forgot for a moment that there were people waiting as he considered the opportunity. There were an endless possibility of improvements to make to his life and the lives of his family, yet he stood with a feeling of trepidition stopping him from jumping in. He could go back and fix the turns his life had made he didn't like, force the script of to follow the path he'd wanted all along. His impact could be made good and beneficial, a long list of contributions to improve the world like he'd always wanted, but... he'd been striding towards that purpose for a long time and it had done him no good. He'd fallen for a demon's con at the first sign of success and almost ended the world with his mistakes. He could fix those with this, but why should he be given the chance to? You didn't learn from mistakes if you never made them, and he'd made a lot.  what right did he have to change time? The responsibility of everything that happened that he didn't prepare for would lay squarely on his shoulders, haunting him. What if he went back to change his mistakes and only exacerbated them or made worse ones? What if he inadvertantly caused someone he loved to die? The responsibility was overwhelming. He could overthink this to death. "I refuse to take it" He whispered as he looked back to his brother, who had a unreadable expression on his face that quickly changed to confusion. "I don't want it" The orb floated away from him. Stanley's confusion turned to anger "That makes no sense, Poindexter. Who wouldn't want a time wish? Just take it!" Stanford just crossed his arms and looked away "Nope! Won't do it! I guess you'll just have to make it for us" Stanley was flabbergasted. (lol his face right here cracks me up but I’m not sure how to write it). 

Also another bubble excerpt, but after old Ford breaks in and starts arguing:

'what if we flip the equation?' He looked tired. 'i'm not changing my wish, Stanford. ' He powered through 'what if we put you back, and take someone else out?' He sighed in resignation. 'I'm not doing it.' 'just listen to me! You want to take yourself out of the equation without considering what that means for everyone else tha-' 'You think I haven't considered everyone else?!'  the question was half shouted. stan was looking  at him with frustration. 'that's the whole point of this, Stanford. everyone is better off without me. I don't see what's so hard to understand! You're the smart one! you're supposed to be able to understand simple math!' 'that's not the point!' he'd gotten off track. stanley had always had a way of riling him up to go off topic to get his way. he took a breath to calm himself down, then asked in a quiet voice 'What if it was me?' the question caught stan off guard, not expecting his anger to fizzle out so quickly.' what?' 'what if I wished myself out of existance? what if you were born alone. and your life is just fine and everyone's lives turn out better because I'm not there. and then youre given the choice we have now, to get me back or keep me gone. Which.. which one would you pick?' 'that's not fair stanford. it's not the same' 'it very much is!'

You’ll note that Ford doesn’t have the correct number of fingers in the picture. I mean you can probably guess why based on context clues. He’s the alternate timeline Ford who grew up alone. You only ever need one friend, but he didn’t have any. and with no one to make him feel normal. So, when he was in high school, he cut off his extra finger. Or one of them .

He gets that timewish btw, the same way Soos did in the show.  Dipper and Mabel win it for him while visiting for the summer at his research facility. He grows up defined by his intelligence. He gets in to west coast tech and focuses on the most profitable career path he can think of to make his father proud of him. But that isn’t what he really wants to do. It takes him a long time to finally realize what he wants to study and go for it, creating a rift between his parents and him. Goes to gravity falls to study anomalies when he’s about 40. 

Also Bill is still DEAD okay. He doesn’t show up to mess with Ford or anyone in this timeline because Stan’s smart and he made part of his wish that that stupid triangle stays dead. 

Timeline 3 is where things get real fun. Cause the time police don’t want them coming back and doing this again. They’re banned from timewishes and Globnar and a safety is put in place (or the brothers include it in their wish to make sure they don’t make the same mistakes again). Where they remember their old lives when they go back this time, as they happen. Probably in dreams. or they just wake up and know what happened this day last time. So Ford grows up remembering a life where things were pretty similar and one where he grew up without his brother. And Stan just remembers the first. They talk about it a lot when they’re kids, which is slightly ostracizing. Ford is really protective of his brother, because he remembers what it was like without him. (oh no you found me out, all of this is really just a cover to have more protective Ford fic). When the science fair comes around, the machine still doesn’t work (because someone else messed with it this time or because of a malfunction. you decide). But they still fight about it because Ford thinks the first timeline just happened all over again. But this time they’re just used to talking about stuff okay. They’ve been doing it their whole lives. and They talk about it and calm down before Filbrick tries to kick stan out again anyway. Which Ford makes enough of a stink about that their mother steps in an no one gets kicked out. Ford winds up going to backupsmore and meeting fidds again. Stan graduates high school and gets a job in sales or something. They keep in contact, still talking about their alternate lives, although it’s more stressful for them both now. Because Stan sometimes lies and Ford can tell. Or he tells the truth and it’s not really great. and then when Ford goes to gravity falls, Stan and Fidds go too and you found me out, this is also a cover for some mystery trio fic. Eventually they catch up to the timewishes. And Ford is understandably horrified.

One last quote from I quite like:

So, maybe the world doesn't end without you in it. Maybe everyone's lives turn out just fine. But, I'd rather have you

Anyway, if you read this far, thanks! I just wanted to share my idea somewhere. Maybe someone else will write it someday. I would seriously love to read it