#idk call me crazy but it’s there
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there’s something about the events leading up to billy being flayed that i can’t stop thinking about
like you’ve got this 17 year old who gets sent out to look for his little sister and he winds up at a much older woman’s house where he essentially has to flirt with her to get the information he needs and she reciprocates, all while knowing he’s underage
then the whole situation at the byers happens and no one sees it the way billy does, no one except for him seems to realise that it’s fucking weird for steve to be in the middle of nowhere with a group of kids while lying about it, no one believes billy and he still comes out worse in the end with him being even more isolated than he already was
and then you move onto season 3 and you have the first episode where a newly 18 year old billy is introduced by being sexualised and objectified by a group of women way older than him, karen included, and it’s made obvious that they had to have learnt his work schedule by the way they talk and that they do this often which.. yeah
then billy goes up to karen and she reciprocates his flirting once again and agrees to meet up with him later with the full intention of having sex with him out at some motel somewhere, despite knowing his age
and it’s so wild to me that all of this predatory behaviour is what actually lead to billy crashing his car - he was literally on his way to see karen when it happened, that’s the only reason he was ever there - and that all of this grooming is essentially what lead to billy being attacked in such a brutal way that is so reminiscent of sa
then there’s the scene after he gets dragged to the basement where he manages to call 911 and he doesn’t answer when asked what his emergency is because he doesn’t know what to say/doesn’t think he’ll even be believed which is all too common among victims
and then you circle back to the night at the byers, the night where billy’s seen as irrational for thinking anything’s off, where he ends up being the person ‘in the wrong’ and where all of that happened right after karen started being predatory towards him and the first time he was (unknowingly) in a situation relating to the upside down
i have a lot of thoughts
something about the chain of events leading up to billy being flayed, about how everything is so interconnected and how that works when you’re looking at it in this specific way
something about grooming, something about victims not being believed, something about billy in particular never being believed and people blaming things on how he acts rather than seeing that the way he acts is a direct result of things that have happened to him
something about how he’s immediately isolated after the fight at the byers, something about how isolated he is after he’s attacked, the way his demeanour changes when he leaves karen’s house, how his behaviour seems to change after the byers, and how his behaviour changes completely once he’s attacked
how all of it fits this allegory, right from the start
#yes his reaction afterwards but also the events leading up to it#billy hargrove#cw grooming#cw assault#cw sa mention#yeah i’m still on this#like something about the mindflayer being a metaphor for karen being a metaphor for the whole process of grooming and eventually sa#something about how abuse victims are more likely to have something like this happen#something about not being able to deal with the after affects and no one helping#something about how experiences like that isolate you#and the fact billy quite literally kills himself at the end#idk call me crazy but it’s there#i could go into the whole ‘it’s like a shadow’ thing#considering my therapist and i literally had a whole conversation about how you can see shit that isn’t there due to trauma#like your brain is so stressed that it makes up something to be scared of#it’s all there !#and then it’s like#the fact i know they didn’t do it on purpose#considering they use the whole karen billy situation as a funny#and yk it’s the duffers#really hate them for that#if you see any spelling mistakes no you don’t#does this make sense? i hope it makes sense#it’s one of those things that’s been stuck in my brain and that whole talk yesterday brought it back full force
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horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago
#I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOWWWWW#when i say damn thats crazy its bc i DO think its crazy i think a lot of things are crazy. like how birds have cloacas#or the way ppl draw a five pointed star in different ways and everyone assumes their way of doing it is how everyone does it#my brother is not letting me live this down btw he literally shouted at me like HOW DID YOU LIVE THIS LONG AND NOT PICK UP ON THAT#IDK!!! IDK I THOUGHT SOMETIMES IT COULD BE USED TO EXPRESS GENUINE SHOCK??????#he says its my delivery that makes it sound insincere bc i say it in a monotonous voice which when i think abt it YEAH....#THAT DOES MAKE IT LOOK KINDA BAD IN HINDSIGHT.....#and then i told him i keep a list of phrases that tickle my brain so i can remember to use them in conversation and apparently#most ppl dont do that bc he was like ???? stop doing that??? just let the conversation flow naturally it sounds fake>????#idk man i feel like if i did that and blurted out 'i forgot people find stuff like underwear arousing for some reason' instead of#smth like 'i wonder what kind of ppl find this kind of stuff the bees knees' like i normally do. it would. not go so well.#ALSO THE FLOW CHARTS ARENT NORMAL? i make flow charts before i call the bank or smth so i know what to say#its not just to blend in its also so i dont waste ppls time going uhhhhh as i think of how i put smth into words#its called stalling for time and i dont care if i have to say smth like thats just how the cookie crumbles if it gives me#5 more seconds to process whatever the fuck someone said without letting them think im not paying attention#doodles#diary#sona#puppysona#comics
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what kind of underwear do you think Erik and Charles wear (i'm not asking this to see them half naked) ((please believe me)) (((PLEASE)))
My Personal Belief is charles is a briefs guy while erik's a trunks guy. trunks/briefs kinda couple because i can
and idk just a lil bonus or somethin. as i do.
#nsft#probably. again A Promotion Would Be In Order From Me Personally but WHATEVER.#cherik#im too tired to tag everything ok this post'll find its people#snap sketches#not too tired for a tag ramble tho eUUGGHHH#i HAVE to post the second bit now or ill be editing it all night and for what. i will live#and my silly ass said i wouldnt draw that reading idea. well guess what im a LIAR who LIES.#i do wanna revisit that proper tho .. at least draw em by the fireplace someday but anyway#i think the funny thing is i had like. plans to draw charles in purple briefs just cause he wore them once and i chortled Unreasonably#so here we are. youll have to forgive me my friend i have a condition called If I Get An Excuse To Draw I Will#it is a very serious condition cause i need to SLEEEEPP truly and honestly locking in later i HAVE to#leaving all of you with this for the next idk twelve hours thats crazy#all i want to do is draw but i feel my eyes . Getting Weird and i have exams so i guess i should be a responsible person and sleep#i actually have a lot i need to catch up on so like. i prob wont be back on until this weekend when im Hopefully more free#'snap didnt you say that last night' I HAVE TO BE SERIOUS THIS TIME i got a lot. so i will see everyone saturday Hopefully#please give me the strength to focus for once thank you#for now good night everyone !!! please enjoy my doodlings from today. yesterday. i must not make any more for now
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HELP
#i just opened tiktok. which of course was my first mistake#oh and it’s not a joke ppl in the comments are talking about the theylor subreddit 😭😭😭HELLO#i don’t even know what to say#and like the other pics are her with a ponytail or a button up 😭#guys maybe maybe we’re being a bit weird here#maybe girls can wear button ups to#idk call me crazy#mari.txt
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IS THIS REAL OR AM I DREAMING?? THIS SCENE DUDE.
like hellohi this cant be real (still going insane over the part with the bridal carry too i mean how can i not)
#the dragon prince#tdp spoilers#sorvus#my first post here is abt them idk how to feel about that#and my friend called me crazy for shipping them before s6#this HAS to be enough proof
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This ain’t to pimp a butterfly anymore this is to catch a predator
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idiot who doesnt realize how much theyre gonna have to draw cowboy hats: uhmmmm scifi western fma au
#fma#fullmetal alchemist#edward elric#alphonse elric#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#fmab#inspired by me slowly getting absorbed into rdr2 and everything ive been seeing of trigun stampede#and the singular cowboy ed madootles posted the other day#changing my life yall#and yes they have guns but the secret IS is that those guns are FAKE#bc their intimidation factor is so impressive that they never need to use them#i mean? firebomb short king edward elric going crazy on you and 6'4" alphonse elric looming over u with his hat tipped down?#gone. gone like the wind#idk might call this the wastelands au bc fun :^)#wastelands au
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𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅
#some everyday/hot/cold weather outfits (not in that order)#I was trying to find my simstyle and ended up with her <3#she's def not anything special in terms of simstyle but I tried a bunch of new ways of making sims so! for me it's new#she has so many other outfits because I went crazy dressing her up but I didn't wanna be obnoxious by posting ~15 fits lol#the 1st hair is by aladdin-the-simmer it's called jordyn hair (I think) & it's so beautiful get it now!!!!#going to search for some new eyes for her because even though I really love these eyes idk there's something missing#and some new jewellery (clearly)#simblr#ts4#my sims#my style is really basic I know .. ;-;#sim: chiara
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y’all we r not beating exorsexism and misogyny by calling every transmasc that pisses u off a ‘theyfab.’ Idc if they are annoying or have dumbass opinions, literally using someone’s agab as an insult is wrong and treating transmascs as annoying little afabs is deeply misogynistic and transphobic. What happened to just calling people fucking idiots
#trans ppl sound off in the replies I want to hear ur opinions on this respectfully bc like idk it makes me feel crazy#it just makes me rlly deeply uncomfortable to see ppl who generally have fine takes do this shit like cmon y’all we can be better#all saying it tells me is that ur just treating all the transmascs u DO like as exceptions to the rule#idc if ur arguing w the most annoying deeply stupid transmasc in the world it’s not their identity that makes them annoying or stupid lol#using someone’s agab derogatorily is so fucking stupid it’s ltrlly just one step away from calling them pussy boys or annoying women idfk#.txt#what’s crazy is the most egregious example I saw was some1 literally complaining about exorsexism. by blaming it on afabs. then posting lik#‘when theyfabs walk in the room’ to some ‘eeew it stinks in here’ audio on TikTok. saying they had stinky pussies. they were literally afab#hello??? the internalized misogyny is fucking CRAZYYYYY literally yall just regurgitate shit I’ve already heard from cishet men but act lik#it’s ok cause it’s directed at ‘theyfabs’ instead of women. Ok
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#bfdi#bfb#flower#ruby#flowby#floweruby#IDK i call them flowby#FHEYRE SOOO CUUTWWE ILOCE THME FOREVER#I HAD THE BIGGEST PHASE WITH THEM IN 2020… forever in my heart#bfdia made me crazy ILOVE YOU FLOWER
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al lsasints steret 🥺
i lvoe alll saints stereettttrahghghhhh
#guys help help help help hel#i feel like my fixations are tossing me around like im a ball#and also my sanity is the monkey in the middle n theyre bullying it#ive been mostly drawing momo..#all saints street#ive been infodumping so fkn hard in the discord i feel crazy#can i infodump here too#can i just like ramble#wan sheng jie#wsj#wsj momo#wsj crystal#i ship them but idk if they have a shipname n their names dont rlly mesh well wehhhh#just casually been calling them the idols in my head ngl#neil bowman#ira blood#wsj damao#wsj abu#luis bite#nick hoult#lily angel#lynn angel#i think i peaked at the end there with him tbh#my art#wehhhhh i love ass (the manhua n donghua series)#send ask abt wsj if you want if you want if wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ifor me maybe
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This suit this suit this suit 🤬
What is it about this STUPID FREAKING SUIT that makes me so god damned feral for this man
All his other clothes? Totally normal. Yeah he looks good. Great even. He's attractive and lovely and I enjoy looking at him.
But in this? This 90s lesbian-chic turtleneck and blazer combo? That looks like it would be super warm and maybe a little itchy (probably a wool blend??)? That shows 0 skin and leaves literally so much to the imagination that even a Quaker would tell you to let loose and live a little???
Absolutely FERAL. I'm a mess. I want to launch myself into orbit because of this stupid stupid suit.
#Zayne and this suit#if youve been here since the beginning you know i call this his slutty suit#bc it makes me feel things#idk what this post is accomplishing other than me just being crazy at 2:30 am#i just needed to get out lol#lnds#love and deepspace#lads#love & deepspace#zayne#zayne love and deepspace#l&ds#love and deepspace zayne
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Bezz for Sky Sport Italia
-“In the VR46 groupchat, when you talk about the new Ducati riders that are going strong, like Marc Marquez.. how is it (what do you guys think about it, how does it feel like)? The Devil wears Prada? Look at Marquez..? I just wanted to address this topic.
“Well, we talk about it much more in person than on our groupchat-
“But it doesn’t go unnoticed. (You do talk about him)
“No, we pay attention to everything. With Vale is difficult not to, he has always taught and still teaches us to pay attention to every detail, so we always try to understand everything around us. Marc is going very strong, and we watch him and try to learn from him.
“So he’s like a benchmark! (nice pun right there)
“He’s like a ‘tool’ that we can use… wait, it does sound bad, I mean he’s a rider, but he’s a rider that we can ‘use as a lesson’. We can look up to him, as if he was a teacher.”
#it isn’t in the video but he went on and said that he thinks even non-ducati riders look up to him bc he’s (then he started mumbling idk)#wdym they don’t talk about marc in groupchats do you think uccio told them to be aware of the hackers or some shit#bezz calling marc MARC#bezz calling marc a MAESTRO#INSANEEEEEEE#as soon as I saw this shit i started shaking and yelling#the interviewer was WILD#feel free to kinda help me in the comments with translation bc it’s 10am and i just watched marc fuck up the quali#THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA??????#new level of insanity unlocked! good job bezz#they also asked him how he is doing since pecco is getting married and luca is having a baby and he was like. i have a dog#he also doesn’t have a stylist and he thinks you can tell#my cringefail daughter#i feel like i’m going crazy#marco bezzecchi#marc marquez#marcmarc#motogp#marc <3
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I think it's really annoying that leo has completely falsified memories of jason too and this is barely acknowledged in the books
#it is also barely acknowledged by the fandom but I blame the books for that#call me crazy but I think that's a big deal actually!#he grew up with nothing! no close friends! now his memories of his best friends are fake!#the whole tlh gang obviously become close in the end but I just think leo and jason in particular warranted more thought#rick clearly doesn't dwell on it with leo bc friendships and romance are not given the same weight#one of the first things pov jason says about leo is “if someone like this guy is my friend then my life must be messed up”#(not a callout of jason I think it was hilarious and understandable. he is So Confused)#but idk instead leo's reaction in the books is mostly framed as Ok finally I don't have to be the third wheel anymore#Wait fuck they're dating again anyway!#which is also understandable but I would love to also see him Struggle More with the fact that those memories aren't even real to begin wit#something something friendships are just as valuable and significant and consequential as romances#leo valdez#jason grace#rr crit#<- this is barely a fleshed out criticism of the books themselves but just in case#pjo hoo toa#I could say something about how people hate jiper for this same reason but I won't bc I don't care about jiper really#beyond my general feelings that the way their breakup was written was one of rick's worst writing moments
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some pet portraits from 2021 that i dont think i posted, on the left is Angus and on the right is Momma Mora (Angus’ mom). they were 2 out of 5 pet portraits i did for a lovely client. she has 4 rescue kitties and one dog and we came up with outfits to match their personalities. challenging but fun !!
#momma mora is prob my favourite out of the 5#the owner rescued them both and said Mora was very shy#so i tried to show that with the reserved outfit#whereas angus was described as crazy and adventurous so he got a little solider outfit#are knights soliders?? idk#painting the armour was SO cool. i love painting shiny stuff#i dont really understand how armour works so dont call me out#i dont normally draw/paint outfits so it was difficult but rewarding#she also provided incredibly high quality reference photos of them which was a godsend#pet portraits#cats#catblr#cat art#cat painting#art#artists on tumblr#traditional#acrylic painting
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maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying
#you guys all missed the point of her development AND her and saiki's relationship development#like did you miss the parts where the only times he genuinely seems to not like something she does is when shes mean to other girls#and he still understands that she isnt a bad person for having bad thoughts in the private comfort of her mind#and besides... in this case she was literally just being a dramatic and insecure teenage girl LMAO#like dont fucking lie to me and tell me when you were her age you didnt have similar thoughts#youre worse than her if you lie about it while judging her for it#sorryyyy#she shouldve been MORE unhinged youre all just cowards#AND ALSO ? how can something even be 'mean' if its just a thought#thats like if u opened ur friends private diary without permission and then unfriended them over something they said in a random upset vent#and in this specific situation if u found out ur friend called someone a bitch because they liked the same person as her ??#LIKE THATS ?? its bad but its not as crazy as you guys make it out to be#shes allowed to be angry and insecure in the privacy of HER OWN MIND#idk if this makes sense but i just feel that her thoughts are more of a concern about her wellbeing than anything else#like she canonically is extremely kind to others even when she doesnt want to be so why are we worried about how she treats others.#theyre fine. im worried about HER.#and WHY her mindset is so negative... but u guys dont give a shit because u cant handle even a spec of complexity#sorry ive said all this before i just like to rant#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#teruhashi kokomi#meows post
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