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slutabed · 4 years ago

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tired of being so fucking stupid when people have like legitimate terrible things going on in their lives and the biggest issue in my life is just hmm. brain sad. and not even in like a real way just like a stupid I can’t stop hating myself way. and I feel awful for complaining about it so much but I cannot seem to shut the fuck up and. i swear i used to be a better person and now all i can think of is myself and my own stupid problems and oof. just. i hate myself and then I hate myself for hating myself and for talking about hating myself when there are people with real things to worry about and I’m here like begging for someone to tell me I’m not awful when clearly I am.

#and I hate that it’s so hard to even talk to people about it #bc it sounds like I’m begging for them to compliment me #and that’s not what I want #someone the other day mentioned a new tv show where the main character was ‘unlikable’ in their own words #and then when I watched it and realized that’s how I act it was like oh!!! okay I AM unlikable but at least now I know!!!!!#I’d honestly rather have the truth of people shaking me by the shoulders and telling me I’m a bad person #like I’m a sensitive bitch I’ll cry about it but #idk I don’t want just the fake sympathy or the halfhearted reassurances #I think I just want someone to hate me as loud as I hate myself so I understand why I feel this way #also I really wish I could blame this on tumblr or social media and say it’ll get better if I delete everything #but that’s just me I think I’ve just always been this way #mich vents

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