#idfk my anxiety is skyrocketing

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Upstairs tenant moved out and took the house wifi with them

Right at the start of the fuckin weekend

Fml

[stupidloafofbread]

I actually prefer rides that are sorta like those dark rides in Disneyland :3 (has never been to Disneyland-)

Ooh or drop towers! Sometimes-

Stupid lil rambling under the cut rq and I'm sorry in advance-

Soo

I went to this Indoor fun thingy (idfk what you'd call it-) and they had a drop tower :D

Now I was there with a friend and we decided to try it. So while my friend has no problem with it, MEANWHILE ME, TINY BITCH, KEPT FEELING LIKE I WAS SLIPPING OUT EVERY TIME THE DROP HAPPENED.

WHEN I TELL YOU, MY ANXIETY FUCKIN SKYROCKETED ON THAT-

And I hasn't been on one since :3

Anyway, am going to bed now. I have to get up early for summer band practice! ✨ 🔥

(And I’m tired lol)

Also one very random question rq

Your opinion of rollercoasters?

Alr gn!! :3

Oh, opinion on rollercoasters?

Ehh...varies tbh-

I'm not scared of them, i just dislike them ";-;

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✨ TAGGED BY: @panickypeachboy​ ✨ TAGGING: hmmmm if u want!

NAME: Felix NICKNAME: feelie AGE: 26 FACE CLAIM: Hibiki Kuze, though I’ll use Bendy or Sans if I’m Mega dysphoric PRONOUNS: He/Him/His HEIGHT: 4′10″ BIRTHDAY: February 2nd

AESTHETIC: Ocean/Island, cotton candy, punk, whatever you’d call Jet Set Radio/Lethal League/Splatoon put together (we can’t agree on a name for it besides Jet Set Radio Aesthetic. it’s slightly more specific than neotokyo)

LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO: well my brain kinda nostalgiabaited Shake it Off-Mariah Carey at 4 in the morning but the last song I listened to w/ intent was a nightcore version of Domino by Jesse J

FAVORITE MUSE ( S ) YOU’VE WRITTEN:  Candyman and Shovel Knight both make me smile c’x but...I’d say Felix’s kid icarus verse is the #1 most versatile muse I have?

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO TAKE ON YOUR CURRENT MUSE ( THAT YOU ARE POSTING THIS ON ): Usually the content they’re on!! I’ll play the game they’re on and then the only thing that keeps me is having the time to make icons for them! Bowser’s the latest, so just....playing Smash tbh, he and Ridley became my mains??? Jevil’s straight up ripped from deltarune too, his speech pattern is similar to mine when I’m stimmy so. It also doesn’t help that the post office we live by has a sign that’s peeling and says Do Not Block Jrive

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE ASPECTS OF YOUR CURRENT MUSE: I play Felix the most because he’s both popular and super nice which makes him....versatile overall? Playing other muses gets to be a pain when either the muse themselves leaves or IRL knocks them from my mind, but Felix is too stubborn and sweet to leave someone hanging in that way.

Bowser.....idk he’s......a big brat and I guess I’m super amused by people with overconfidence because it feels like we all have None these days. Combine that with him growing into a cool dad and I’m just kinda like.....why not? Wanted a more ‘evil’ muse too but I guess not too evil ~7~

WHAT’S YOUR BIGGEST INSPIRATION WHEN IT COMES TO WRITING: TBH if I’m truthful my muses just kinda start going HEY and commenting on my life and that usually when I Know™ to add them officially,

like music brings me in a lot, y’all know this. Occasionally I rely on my dash as well, but most of it is my muses talking and me just....letting them......

FAVORITE TYPES OF THREADS: Not that i write them often but lmao can’t deny i love me a well done smut. BUT ANYWAYS  I’m a sucker for playfights, bonding, and wholesome moments- no matter the base relationship (shippy/platonic/enemies)

BIGGEST STRUGGLE IN REGARDS TO YOUR CURRENT MUSE: i’m too much of a people pleaser basically ;7;

my anxiety skyrocketed a few months ago due to financial troubles so I’m working my way back up again in the RPer self confidence department, unfortunately :/  I still smash the enter key and reel backwards like every single time I send an ask/IM to everyone but 3, sometimes 4 people because I’m that afraid I’m going to cross someone’s boundaries, it’s a bitch.

I couldn’t tell you anything musewise/IC besides maybe them not jumping into every conflict they see?? I do assume my muses must be hard to write for, my only assumption unless told otherwise would be maybe they aren’t Generic enough to catch ppl’s interest, like I said IDFK and this is kind of a negative section i guess. probably just have to be More Confident and less discouraged i guess lmao

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all 92 😘

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?no way man she’d probably dom the fuck out of me

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?nope.

3. Have you taken someones virginity?n o p e

4. Is trust a big issue for you?YEAH

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?like in terms of romantic??? no. like in terms of “we have a really weird relationship and idfk how i feel @ you”? yeah.

6. What are you excited for?april 19th!!! my friend and i are going to go see phoebe bridgers in madison!!!!

7. What happened tonight?its 10am so ill roll with last night: i played nv and got killed in a beautiful cacophony of deathclaws and the legion :) and then my game crashed.

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?no bc id be right there with them

9. Is confidence cute?very

10. What is the last beverage you had?i think some water? okay not the last but: hot water is so good with wildflower honey pls just drink some its good for your soul okay???

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?opposite is bullshit but i guess like,, 3? half my friends are nonbinary so counting EVERYONE regardless of gender and shit id say 6 people

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?im a proud supporter of boys in skinny jeans and i own 2 or 3 pairs

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?my main ho @thebonerfoy is coming up to visit me and were probably gonna pack all my shit in her car and play cards against humanity

14. What are you going to spend money on next? lmao probably my student loans. unless i can get the hours i asked for at work or a sugar daddy, then im gonna buy a proper lid for my fishtank bc my poor kid has a piece of cardboard rn.

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?no

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?yeah. even in a state of stagnation were changing somehow.

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?probably amanda, but im working on trying to be better with everyone

18. The last time you felt broken?my dude, im broken right now. its okay though. like i said, im working on it. were all fckn broken somehow.

19. Have you had sex today?not unless a ghost and i got in on in my sleep. which would be pretty cool ngl

20. Are you starting to realize anything?on a deep level: i deserve respect and a lot of my issues relate directly to my upbringing, including my inability to receive praise or speak well of myselfon a not-deep level: kinda hungry.

21. Are you in a good mood?i think i just heard fedex or ups outside so my mood just skyrocketed

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?maybe like. nurse sharks. theyre really cute.

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?yeah

24. What do you want right this second?to take a day to go into the city with all my friends that i cant see on a regular basis

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?probably be upset unless we discussed it beforehand. then id be fckn cheering for them like you go get some!!!! do it man!!!! in general tho: if i wasnt with them and they didnt show interest in me and showed interest in someone else id just move tf on.

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?half of it is bc my roots are growing out

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?no. too boring.

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?okay so i went to renew my library books and one of my favorite youtubers is on the library website dressed as one of his characters and i completely flipped because i watch his gaming channel and now hes interviewing authors for my library??? he doesnt even live in my town!! hes in madison!!

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?no? im enjoying my solitude atm

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?depends on the person

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?no! hes my friend and gives really good advice!

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?i think so. i mean, were kind of a thing.

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?yeah.

34. Listening to?killer - phoebe bridgers

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?only if im doing a rough journal spread, which i dont normally do

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?hes probably in class right now.��

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?love at first sight? no. some sort of mutual infatuation/attraction? yes.

38. Who did you last call?my mom

39. Who was the last person you danced with?dancing with as in both dancing at the same time? probably amanda or my mom.

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?we were dating and he was cute lmao

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? a couple months ago? 

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?no bc she leaves for work before i wake up

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?constantly.

44. Do you tan in the nude?lmao no.

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?no. as previously stated, i liked the guy and he was cute. why would i take that back?

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?yeah

47. Who was the last person to call you?my mom

48. Do you sing in the shower?sometimes

49. Do you dance in the car?yEAH

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?yes i love my bow :’) its so good and wow i love archery

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?picture day junior year of highschool, and if that doesnt count: my mother took me in at jcp to have pictures taken when i graduated 8th grade and theyre awful bc my hair is so long and its so not me

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?excuse me, how dare you,, in this house we ask for war and peace for christmas because npgc1812 is so good and then get addicted to ghost quartet (@ anyone reading this: pls listen to ghost quartet it is so so so good)

53. Is Christmas stressful?depends on the year, but i hope in the future i can spend it with my friends :)

54. Ever eat a pierogi?i just had some last night for dinner and im probably going to eat the leftovers in a couple minutes. also, my mother is polish and we see her family for holidays, so yeah. lots of pierogi in this house.

update: i got the leftovers

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?idk??? apple? im basic okay i dont eat pie

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?1. teacher2. ballerina3. both 1 & 2, simultaneously4. paleontologist5. archaeologist6. both 4 & 5, simultaneously7. librarian8. game designer9. author/illustrator

57. Do you believe in ghosts?yeah

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?almost daily

59. Take a vitamin daily?im supposed to ;) vitamin d deficiency like a real champ

60. Wear slippers?real talk i never liked slippers but then i bought these cute pig slippers @ walmart for $10 and i love them so much i tried wearing them to sleep last night. also im wearing them rn theyre so cute

61. Wear a bath robe?i live in a dorm, so yeah. to the bathroom and back when i take a shower. sometimes im lazy and i just run around in a towel but so do half the people on my side of the hall lmao were all lazy and dead inside

62. What do you wear to bed?fluffy pajama pants or sweats, tshirt or hoodie, socks, sometimes slippers.. once i fell asleep with a beanie on. when im being an Adult i wear my actual pajamas!!! like a legit shirt and pants that match

63. First concert?none that i was old enough to remember :’) apparently my mom took me to the rodeo when we lived in texas and saw some country group but i was like 2 so idfk

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?TARGET I AM A CERTIFIED TARGET GAY

65. Nike or Adidas?adidas bc my feet are too wide to fit in nikes

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?yall real talk i used to love cheetos but i think im allergic to them now? last time i had them my throat got all swollen and hurt for like 3 days so im gonna have to say fritos. plus theyre really good if you put them in chili

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?sunflower seeds bc im a slut for anything i can have a spitting contest with

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?lmao i used to like her when i was like. 11. not my scene anymore

69. Ever take dance lessons?i dont think so?

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?anything that makes them happy, but also something fun!!!! like wedding photographer or a baker or maybe zookeeper?

71. Can you curl your tongue?idk??? kinda????? i can tie a cherry stem so i want to say yes.

72. Ever won a spelling bee?no i always got out bc my anxiety made me stutter/rush and miss letters, so i never even got past the classroom levels to the real thing

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?a lot!!! i laugh so hard i cry and get a stomach ache more than id like to admit

74. What is your favorite book?eleanor & park by rainbow rowell :) OR alice’s adventures in wonderland by lewis caroll

75. Do you study better with or without music?depends on if i can get into hyperfocus mode or not. if not, then i pick one song and put it on loop and blast it until it fades and is just loud background noise, but if i can focus then silence is best

76. Regularly burn incense?i used to but no burning anything in the dorms :( then i came home for break and it started giving me a headache

77. Ever been in love?i think so

78. Who would you like to see in concert?kesha, against me!, my chemical romance (rip), bigbang (also rip)

79. What was the last concert you saw?the one i mentioned earlier @ a rodeo

80. Hot tea or cold tea?hot tea

81. Tea or coffee?i live on coffee but i love tea too so both

82. Favorite type of cookie?mmm snickerdoodle. or just sugar cookies. chocolate chip is good when theyre hot and melty but not as good when theyre cold

83. Can you swim well?yeah! i love swimming!

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?yeah?

85. Are you patient?hahahahahahhahahahhahahhaa

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?oo. oooooo. okay so dj would have more variety of music but im a sucker for live music??? idk i feel like a band would be more memorable, but what if they fuck up your favorite song??? but what if they make it more special???????

87. Ever won a contest?yeah! i won an art contest once and got my drawing printed on christmas cards for a nonprofit that did things for cancer patients!

88. Ever have plastic surgery?im 17 i dont have that kind of money

89. Which are better black or green olives?depends on what theyre in?

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?good. live your life fuck the rules

91. Best room for a fireplace?bedroom!!! i love fireplaces in bedrooms its such a Look

92. Do you want to get married?idk. if it happens then it happens. im not planning on it though.