#idek if im an elder fay yet but when i was young i never saw trans guys who were on t and in college with the possibility of children so

[vergeofinsanity]

WOAHHHH

weird old gay rambling time

im not even twenty yet and i feel like an elder gay for this but-

most of my life i was ADAMANTLY anti-having a child in my future. i mean, they are drooly, and stinky, and so much work. and I knew i did not want to be pregnant and a baby was such a hypothetical that it was an immediate no for me

but i recently got a boyfriend, and our relationship is quite sustainable and happy. and i know he wants kids in the future. and as a logistical thing, not a honeymoon thing, i could very well see a place for him in my future. which has made me think recently.... do I want a baby?

i think the answer recently (not because of him) is im open to it. honestly? im stinky and drooly and a lot of work and people put up with me! and to have a kid of my own? to raise and love and do the best i can to make another great person in this world?

fuck maybe its the tiktoks but i might be having my first baby fever 💀

and look, this man is a social science ed major, im a poli sci/OL major. we arent going to be financially stable for a VERY long time if we stay together, so this is a far off idea still-

but maybe my horror at the idea of a child is a tad bit unfounded