#idek how im gonna know it i catch it bc i have chronic scratchy throat and phlegm issues and i get panic attacks with chills and shaking

[lokilysolbitch]

im just venting and mispelling roommate in this one

right so i have two roomates (theyre dating and share a room) and they went on a trip together and im so . im so mad . not bc of the trip. but bc they got back the other day and when i was in the kitchen they came out and roomate 1 after just like talking for a little while and was like. oh yeah roomate 2 is sick and has a fever of 100 degrees. and second roomate. is IN THE FUCKING ROOM. why the fuck would you not say something before hand so i could leave. why are you not wearing masks. both of you were driving for hours in the same car and were on the same trip. COVID is still a fucking thing. were all disabled. what the fuck

so im like. oh. and i finish eating and go to my room

also. roomate 1 invites me to get boba before this and the next day theyre still like "so boba time??" were you not just travelling with someone whose sick?? do you not know how viruses spread?? why the hell would i-- anyway

next day. roomate 2 has been in the only room that isnt a bedroom and bathroom all day which makes sense bc roomate 1 is allergic to cats and that room has roomate 2's cat so thats the best quarantine situation there is. but like. everyones still gotta prepare food in there so its not great. also. neither of them fucking told me that was the set up. so. cool.

and now today !!! roomate 1 texts me and is like "so were both sick and we got tested and its covid" FUCKING WHO COULD HAVE SEEN THIS COMING

AND THEYVE FUCKING EXPOSED ME TO IT AND ALL THEY DID WAS AFTER BEING IN THE SAME ROOM FOR A WHILE WENT "oh one of is sick btw lol and weve been traveling toether. wanna get boba?"

im already fucking disabled and covid weakens your immune system and body especially !!!! if youre already !!!!!!! chronically ill !!!!!!!!! I CANT AFFORD ANYMORE GODDAMN BODY ISSUES

AND IVE BEEN MASKING SINCE FUCKING 2020 AND BOTH OF THE ROOMATES STOPPED MASKING MONTHS AGO IF NOT A YEAR AGO

SO NOW IM HAVING PANIC ATTACKS WONDERING IF IM GONNA CATCH IT AND I CANT TELL IF THE SHAKING IS JUST ANXIETY OR A FEVER COMING ON

THIS ISNT MY FIRST INFECTION EITHER AND WE DONT KNOW HOW COVID CAN DAMAGE THE BODY DECADES IN THE FUTURE BUT WE KNOW REPEATED INFECTIONS DAMAGE THE BODY MORE AND MORE SO WHAT IF I HAVE WORSENING ILLNESS ISSUES IN THE FUTURE AND ITS ALL BC SOMEONE COULDNT BE MORE CONSIDERATE

and heres the thing actually bc im not even mad at roomate 2. its roomate 1 im mad at. because theyve been inconsiderate many times before. im mad its happening fucking again. literally the past few years have just been oh they said they'd clean up after themselves more in the kitchen and they didnt again even though i gave them ideas to help them keep it clean. oh they invited someone over without warning me when i asked them not to. again. oh they said they would listen to me vent and infodump whenever but when i did they left me on read for several hours/days and then ignored everything i said again. oh they made a suicide joke when i asked them several times not to make those in front of me because its triggering again. oh they left on a overnight/several day trip without warning me when they know i dont drive so i didnt get to stock up on things i needed before hand (they did this once when we were MOVING and i literally didnt have food other than like flour and ingredients and baking tools hidden in piles of boxes. and she ate my last microwave pizza before leaving. and knew it was the last one. and i didnt find out she wasnt coming back until the next day until i texted her and went "hey we need to get some groceries today bc we literally dont have food" and she was like "oh im not getting back until tomorrow lol" like. oh! cool! i dont have fucking shit to eat !!!!! im stranded in a new apartment !!!!!!!)

just. oh ! theyre being inconsiderate again!! again!! fucking again!! again!! just like every other time!!!!! its happening again !!!!!!!!!!! what do i even do at this point

i have a joke that im mad that roomate 1 makes me relate to taylor swift lyrics. bc. when taylor said "that old familiar body ache, the snaps from the same little breaks in your soul/ you know/when its time to go" i felt that and its because of this roommate.

oh and they are both quarantining in their room now so theres that.